Chapter 12 Chapter 12 is relatively silent

Xie Nan didn't expect so many people to notice the small photo in the evening paper.Before the colleagues in the company could finish their discussion, Gao Rubing called first, asked her if she was okay, and then scolded her: "Idiot, it's such a cold day, you should put on a down jacket first." She could only apologize with a smile. When it was close to noon, the landline on her desk was transferred to an outside call. She picked it up and said habitually, "Hello, Finance Department." There was silence on the other side of the phone, and she tried to say again: "Hello, how are you?"

"Nannan, hello, it's me," Xiang Xinyang's voice came from the receiver. Xie Nan rubbed his temples, feeling a dull pain there again, and didn't know what to say for a moment. "I went to Wanfeng Real Estate to do business today, and I didn't expect to meet you." Xie Nan knew that Wanfeng Real Estate was a large-scale developer in this city, and she only said "oh" and didn't say anything when she worked in this office building. "I just read the report in the newspaper, you... are you okay?" "It's okay. I was neither injured nor in time to save others. I just held up an umbrella."

"I've finished my work now, downstairs in your company, Nan Nan, let's have lunch together." "We don't need to meet again. It was agreed seven years ago." Xie Nan said wearily, "It's impossible to meet by chance. It's meaningless to meet after breaking up. You go, Xiang Xinyang, I'm sorry, I'll hang up first gone." Even without Yu Mu Cheng, Xie Nan didn't want to see Xiang Xinyang again.The past was just a heavy memory for her, and the sweet part made the later breakup even more painful.She doesn't hold a grudge, but she has no intention of having anything to do with her ex-boyfriend anymore.

At noon, Xie Nan didn't go downstairs to eat at the restaurant she used to go to. She just asked her colleagues to pack and bring a copy for her. She went to the tea room to eat casually. While eating, she received a call from Yu Mucheng asking if she had taken her medicine and meals on time. . "I've taken the medicine and I'm eating, how about you?" "I've eaten. I have a dinner party in the evening. I'm afraid I'll come back late. I've asked the hourly worker to come to your place at seven o'clock in the evening and give you a set of my house key and access card. Then you should go home."

"No, I won't be home at seven o'clock. I have something to do tonight." She told the truth, she did make an appointment to go to Zhang Xin's account tonight, and she really didn't dare to pick up the key and access card, which meant What?live together?She didn't want to get there so quickly. Yu Mucheng had expected that she would evade, and ignored it at all: "Anyway, she will go to your house at seven o'clock. It doesn't matter if you are not here, and I will go home to pick you up at night." Xie Nan protested: "I'm already healed, so I don't need to bother you."

"First, you are my girlfriend, this is not a problem at all, if you insist on not taking care of me, our relationship will be in real trouble; second, you are not completely well, your home is still too cold, which is not good for you Thoroughly." Yu Mucheng's tone did not allow her to refute at all, "It's settled like this, eat obediently, drink more water in the afternoon, goodbye." Xie Nan couldn't figure it out, she always said that Gao Rubing couldn't handle it, and she would always be convinced when Rubing taught her a lesson; but now that Yu Mucheng came, he could also knock her down There was nothing to say, and she couldn't find a way to refute even if she was not convinced.

Before she could finish her meal depressedly, May, who was at the front desk outside, called her excitedly with a different voice: "Sister Xie, come quickly, someone sent you flowers, hurry up and sign for it." Xie Nan sighed, threw the leftover lunch box into the trash can, wiped his mouth with a tissue, walked out of the tea room, and came to the front desk. The young girls of my colleagues collect a lot of flowers when they go to work. The marketing department downstairs even staged a romantic scene of a girl collecting 999 roses on Valentine's Day last year.Not to mention our company, the ostentatious gesture of sending flowers shocked the entire office building.Of course Xie Nan knew about this bouquet of flowers, and she didn't fall in love with May, the front desk chick who loves life and gossip. The reason why she was excited must be because she had never seen herself receiving flowers since she went to work.

There is a bouquet of two-color tulips tied with light yellow and pink-white tissue paper on the front desk. The bouquet is not big and not eye-catching, but it is very pleasing to the eye when it looks vibrant.The lunch break was not over yet, everyone had nothing to do, and many people ran out to watch the fun.Xie Nan signed for it helplessly, and Ah May said happily: "Sister Xie, I just checked it online. The flower language of the two-color tulip is 'you are beautiful, happy to meet you'. You must have had an affair recently." "Aventure? It's Pinocchio." The boss Xie Nan said uncomfortably.

The colleague next to him also joked: "If Pinocchio lies, his nose will become longer. Xie Nan, hurry up and tell the truth." "I want to recruit, but there is no way to recruit." Xie Nan smiled wryly, flipped through, and there was no card attached to the flower. She walked back to the finance department with the flowers and put them next to the computer. The cashier smiled ghostly and asked if she needed to find a vase to put it in. She shook her head. In fact, she is not completely uncounted.After answering Xiang Xinyang's call, she thought that the flowers should be sent by him, and it had nothing to do with the "flower language". They had gone to the tulip flower show together before, and she said at the time that she liked this kind of tall and straight flowers.When it came time to buy a house, Xiang Xinyang smiled when he saw the gardens named after flowers, and deliberately chose the Tulip Garden located in the middle of the first phase of the community.

Moreover, this is not the first time that Xiang Xinyang has given her tulips. On Valentine’s Day when Xie Nan was in her junior year, Xiang Xinyang drove to the dormitory to pick her up. When she came downstairs, she saw the trunk lifted and filled with bright red tulips. She was so happy that she hugged Xiang Xin Yang kissed him, until all the students around her screamed and booed, she let go of him in a hurry with her face flushed. There were so many tulips that she couldn't fit in her dormitory. She distributed them to other girls. But she was so happy, it was the first time in her life that she was so presumptuous and ostentatious, completely ignoring the eyes of others.When I was young, I loved to be flamboyant and righteous, as if everything was taken for granted.She only thought that the overflowing happiness could be enjoyed freely, even if she heard ridicule, she didn't care.

Moreover, that night, when there was a little snow, she stayed in Xiang Xinyang's apartment for the first time. Xie Nan bit her lips tightly, forcing herself to pull back her thoughts, and her eyes once again fell on the flowers next to the computer.Facing such a beautiful flower, she was not as happy as before. The phone rang, she picked it up and saw that it was David Fan, she hurried out to answer it. "Junior Brother Sha, we have read today's newspaper, don't mention it, your profile is quite photogenic, haha." David Fan laughed over there. "Second brother, don't just become my fan." "Now, on behalf of your elder brother, I am notifying you. Sorry, we both have a date tonight, so let's do an inventory tomorrow instead." "Ok." "Look, I knew there would be no problem. Your elder brother was afraid that it would be inconvenient for you to reschedule temporarily. I have already said that our brother Sha is not in love, does not enjoy hard work, and works hard to make money. He will definitely not run out of time." Xie Nan gritted his teeth with hatred: "What I said to you, I don't have time to do that shit tomorrow, and I will go out to find an affair with my life, so as not to make you look down on me." "Don't, don't, forget it, I didn't say it, we'll see you tomorrow, and we'll have that time." Xie Nan thought, well, today I still have to go home and face the hourly worker delivering the keys.The thought of leaving her underwear to be washed made her whole body uncomfortable. After get off work at 5:30 in the afternoon, Xie Nan took her coat and went to the front desk to check in. Ah May went downstairs with her.This little girl is twenty-one years old, at the age of invincible youth, she hates being called "Yu Mei" by her real name, so everyone has to call her May according to her request.Ah May is very curious about the luck of everyone in the company, and will pester Xie Nan to ask her if she knows who sent the flowers. Xie Nan always thought she was lively and fun, and didn't bother her: "I said I didn't know, but you must have searched the flowers in the first place and came to ask me." "It's so romantic to have a mysterious suitor." Ah May looked at the elevator above, looking overwhelmed. "Hey, sister Xie, why don't you take the flowers home." "Isn't it the same as putting it in the office? It takes longer to face it." "Makes sense." Ah May is a typical girl in the city, a carefree, moonlight family, loved by her parents, and she is not expected to support the family and save money. Although the salary is limited when she works as a front desk, her family immediately sponsors her and buys a small QQ to drive.The two went down to the underground parking lot together, said goodbye and picked up their cars. Just as Xie Nan was about to get in the car, a dark gray Volvo S80 suddenly pulled up and stopped in front of her car. She looked up in astonishment, and saw Xiang Xinyang opening the car door and walking towards her.Xie Nan is really worried, this will be the off-duty time, more and more colleagues come down to pick up the car, Ah May has already got out of her small QQ, holding the car door and watching happily, others are more reserved, but there are also some He glanced over without a glance.She made a quick decision and decided not to give them a chance to gossip. "There is a Green Door Cafe opposite the Evening News office. Wait for me there, and I'll be right over." She didn't even look at him, and went straight to her Fukang. Xiang Xinyang understood, and immediately got into the car and drove away. Xie Nan fastened his seat belt and held on to the steering wheel. Before he could start the car, May's little QQ had jumped over.She poked her head out to inquire: "Sister Xie, is this the man who gave you flowers? He is so handsome, and he still drives a Volvo." Xie Nan forced himself to smile and said, "What flowers to send? He asked me the way." "Tch, I don't believe it. The way he looks at you, it's no wonder that there is no problem." Ah May knew what Xie Nan didn't want to say, so she couldn't ask anything.However, she had sharp eyes and recognized the man who got on the elevator with her in the morning, and greeted Xie Nan briefly, which made her happy, waved and drove the car away. No problem.Xie Nan repeated in his heart, followed her and drove the car out of the underground garage. The Green Door Cafe is opposite the Evening Post newspaper office. This road is relatively quiet and it is easier to park.Zhang Xin's girlfriend Luo Yin who works in the newspaper's confidant section often receives readers here, and became friends with the owner of the cafe, and gave each of them a VIP card, with which they can get a discount on coffee.And Gao Rubing's new home is not far from here. Xie Nan has no hobby of drinking coffee, so he has already transferred the card to her. She only heard that the atmosphere here is good. She parked the car and saw Xiang Xinyang's Volvo parked not far in front.After hesitating for a long time, she got out of the car and entered the cafe.Ding Xinyang stood up and waved to her, she walked over and sat opposite him. "What do you want to drink?" Xiang Xinyang beckoned to the waiter. "Just lemonade. I'm taking cold medicine. It's best not to drink coffee." "Are you still catching a cold?" Xiang Xinyang asked anxiously, "It doesn't matter, I'll take you to see a doctor. Also, you will get drowsy after taking cold medicine, so you can't drive." "It's just a precaution. I'll eat it when I get home at night. It's fine. What can I do for you today?" Xiang Xinyang was dumbfounded for a moment, of course he had no particular reason to look for her. In the morning, Xie Nan hurried into the elevator and was stunned when she saw him. The people behind came in one by one. She could only passively approach him step by step. It was the first time in several years that the two were so close. Her face with light makeup stood in front of him. His eyes magnified little by little, and everything around him seemed to disappear. He could hardly restrain himself from raising his hand to touch her.She reacted first, and hastily dodged aside. He listened to her talking with another girl in a low voice, and watched her get off the elevator. He didn't press the floor he was going to again until the elevator reached the top floor, everyone got out, and someone walked in. He made an appointment to discuss with Mr. Qin of Wanfeng Real Estate Company about the upcoming project bidding cooperation. The two companies have cooperated for a long time, and Mr. Qin also gave him a lot of support when his family's business changed in the past. Naturally, the friendship is very different.After discussing business affairs, it is inevitable to talk about family affairs. Mr. Qin sighed: "It's good that you come back and share the burden with your father. He has worked too hard for the past few years. Last time he was so thin that he managed to go to the outer suburbs to preside over the groundbreaking ceremony. Alas, it makes me feel sorry for you. At our age, we can't accept our old age." Xiang Xinyang could only laugh and said, "Boss Qin is much younger than my old man. He is in his prime, so he can't be called old." Mr. Qin shook his head: "I'm almost 60, my precious daughter is too playful, so I can only count on my nephew Qin Zhan to take over, but he just came back from studying abroad, so I have to work hard for a few more years before handing over to him. Xinyang, you are doing things calmly now, your father can finally rest in peace." After leaving, Xiang Xinyang went down to the first floor, left the office building, bought an evening newspaper at the nearby newsstand, and stood by the side of the road to read it. The photo hit his eyes, and he held his breath. Of course, he recognized Xie Nan at a glance. This is the area with the highest concentration of office buildings in the city. There are many high-rise buildings, and the cold north wind whizzes through the buildings, blowing directly to cool people's hearts.The newspaper in his hand was rattling by the wind, and the photo seemed a little floating. All the men and women dressed in white-collar clothes came and went from him, everyone was in a hurry with expressionless faces, and no one noticed his long silence. Finally, he put away the newspaper and looked up at the 42-storey office building. The blue glass curtain wall shone with a dark and cold luster in the gloomy winter weather.He majored in economics and management at university, but his family is engaged in construction business, and he has been in this line of business since graduation. Basically, he can tell the general structure of the interior from the outside. However, he has no way of imagining which glass curtain wall Xie Nan is behind. , which cubicle to sit in, what kind of work to do, and what kind of life to live. He re-entered the office building and looked at the company signs on the first floor. The floor where Xie Nan got off the elevator was occupied by a foreign-funded beer company. He checked the switchboard and called the front desk to transfer her. Her voice rang through the phone, as if As he expected, she directly declined his lunch invitation. You have given up your right to care about her, you have no right to bother her anymore - he reminded himself.He went down to the underground parking lot, drove the car up, but still stopped at the flower shop on the side of the office building, ordered a bouquet of tulips, and asked the clerk to deliver them before returning to his office. He was dealing with official business, and the newspaper was always at his hand, and his eyes lingered on it from time to time. When getting off work, the secretary came in with a red nose and asked for leave: "Mr. Xiang, I have a cold and I want to go to the hospital tomorrow." He nodded in agreement, the secretary went out, and he looked at the newspaper again, the thin profile and the thin clothes in the photo touched his heart.She has always been afraid of the cold, and it is easy to catch cold when the seasons change. Once she catches a cold, she will linger for a long time.Every winter, she wears thick clothes early and wraps herself tightly.Yesterday, I stood in the cold rain in such a cold weather. I don't know if I will suffer from frostbite. Thinking of this, memories of the past surged up uncontrollably, he couldn't sit still anymore, took the car keys and came to the underground garage of the office building again. "I just want to see you, Nannan." Xie Nan stared at the lemon slice in the glass in front of him: "But I don't want to see you again, you make me... very troubled. I'm sorry, maybe I'm cold-blooded. A breakup is a breakup. You have a wife, and I have a man." Friends, we all go our separate ways, there is no need to make a gesture of being tied." Xiang Xinyang lowered his head dejectedly: "I know you hate me, and I also know that you have every reason not to forgive me." Xie Nan raised his head and looked at him seriously: "Xiang Xinyang, you were wrong, that's all in the past. I hated you, and I really didn't want to forgive you. But hating people is a very tiring thing. I figured it out a long time ago, I can’t bear it, it’s better to let it go. As for forgiveness, you didn’t blame me, you just told me your difficulties honestly, and let me know in time that we can’t continue. I don’t need to forgive you to prove it Forgive yourself, and you don't need to feel guilty." "How have you been living these years? You refused to let me repay the loan. The burden must be heavy." Xie Nan was slightly distracted. Of course, in the past seven years, she had lived a very busy and difficult life.The initial loan was repaid by her parents, and she could only blame herself from the bottom of her heart.After graduating, she started looking for a job and taking part-time jobs. She never missed every opportunity to make money, didn't waste a penny, and took over the burden of loans.At the same time, I have to study hard and take various financial exams in order to get better job opportunities. The only one who knew how she lived was Gao Rubing. She once complained pitifully and angrily: "It's better to just sell the house, why bother to live so hard as a house slave for a house that you don't even want to see." She just shook her head, unwilling to talk about any topics related to the house, just mechanically saving a certain amount of money in the passbook every month. She finally got the CPA qualification, changed her current job, and gradually got promoted and raised her salary. She was relieved, but at the same time, she found out bitterly that her most beautiful youth had been eclipsed by loneliness and fatigue. Most of the land has passed, and I have stood among the ranks of what people call the leftover women. "It's over. Let's stop talking about that house, shall we? Otherwise, I have to take it as you want to settle the old debt with me. That's fine. I can sell it and give you back the money you paid for the house." Xiang Xinyang looked at her incredulously, and his handsome face twisted slightly.After a while, I gritted my teeth and said, "You are cruel enough to understand me like this. Are we completely strangers, Nan Nan?" "Seven years ago, when you suddenly came to me and told me that you were going to marry someone else, we were already strangers." Her fingers slowly moved back and forth on the green checkered tablecloth, her movements seemed careless, but her nails had already turned white due to the force . Xiang Xinyang stared at her slender fingers, which were once his very cherished hands. The ten fingers were long and slender, the joints were slightly protruding due to piano practice, the fingertips were round, and the oval pink nails shone with a healthy luster.When they met for the first time, what attracted him was the hands flying over the keys. At this time, the background music playing in the cafe was also soothing piano music flowing like flowing water. She was sitting opposite him, with only a table between them, but she hardly looked at him.Occasionally, the eyes were so calm and indifferent that it made him palpitate, and his anger disappeared immediately. What right do you have to be angry?he asked himself. He wanted to reach out and hold this hand, which was still smooth and delicate, to make her stop pawing on the tablecloth so vigorously, but he knew that she would definitely shrink back. In the end, he was not qualified.He wears a wedding ring on his hand, reminding him all the time: You are a married man. "In the future, don't send flowers or find me in such a provocative way. It's not good for anyone. It's just a little more talk." Xie Nan said in a flat tone. "it is good." He answered simply, his voice was desolate. She also said something like this before: "Xiang Xinyang, don't send me so many flowers again, someone is making sarcastic remarks." "Who told you what?" She just smiled: "Forget it, why repeat the bad words." "The people who said those words are jealous of you. I will send you a bunch of roses later, and I will piss her off." Xie Nan waved his hands again and again: "No, no, we two are happy, there is no need to pay attention to others." He did squander love, but if he could predict the ending, he thought he would indulge himself more, so as to leave more memories. However, now, they sit facing each other again, only remaining relatively speechless. Xie Nan suddenly couldn't maintain his composure.The person in front of him had been in love with her for nearly three years in the most innocent and carefree time, and her memory of youth was full of his figure.They even went to book a house together, planning to set up a home with a garden. At that time, they had so many plans and visions for the future, each of which was inseparable from the other. At this time, sitting in front of her was a tired man, his eyes and posture were bleak, and he was not as energetic as before. Xie Nan stood up: "I'm sorry, I'm leaving first." She hurried out of the cafe, the cold wind hurt her face, she fumbled in her bag for a while before finding the car keys.After getting into the car and inserting the key, her hands were shaking, and she turned on the ignition twice before starting.She drove forward in a daze, stopped at a red light, went at a green light, did not overtake casually, changed lanes and turned on lights, she obeyed all the traffic rules, but she didn't know where she was going. After driving for an unknown amount of time, she stopped on the side of the road, and was a little horrified to find that she seemed to have lost her way in this city where she had been staying for more than ten years.In the depths of winter, the night had already fallen, and the street lights illuminated this relatively remote street. Terrified, she held the steering wheel, her heart beat wildly, and cold sweat broke out on her forehead. She felt that the scene at this time was like she had seen in the nightmare that woke her up in the early morning.She has had many dreams with only vague impressions after waking up, but now she suddenly felt that all the dreams became clear as before her eyes, she took a deep breath and said to herself: Calm down. The phone rang to save her.She fumbled and took out her mobile phone from her bag and pressed the answer button. It was Yu Mucheng. "returned home?" She tried to say, "No, what about you?" "I'm done with socializing here, and I'm about to go back. You're still outside, it's not because you're too afraid to go home because you're afraid of picking up the keys and access cards." His voice was warm and slightly joking, which made Xie Nan calmed down, she looked around, a pedestrian passed by the car, and glanced back at her. "Uh, that, it's not..." How should I put it, could it be that I lost my way?It's ridiculous to think about it, but now she really doesn't have the energy to make up a reasonable explanation for herself. "What's wrong with you? Where are you now?" Yu Mucheng noticed something wrong with her voice. "I...you wait for me to get out of the car and take a look." Xie Nan got out of the car and walked onto the sidewalk, finally saw the street sign clearly, and heaved a sigh of relief, "It's okay, I know where I am." "Tell me where you are, and I'll come pick you up." "No need, the road here is not easy to walk, there are many one-way lanes." "I asked the company driver to drive me here." Xie Nan felt that his legs would become weak and he would indeed be unable to drive, so he told him the location.She had just discovered that she had inadvertently broken into a one-way street and had been going the wrong way for a long time. No wonder she only saw cars coming in the opposite direction.It was the only lucky thing today that there was no accident and was not caught by the police.She turned the car around and parked on the opposite sidewalk, completely puzzled as to how she got here. The beating heart finally gradually slowed down and returned to its normal rhythm. Xie Nan felt a little cold sitting in the car.She looked to the side of the road, and pedestrians hurried past with their heads bowed. Not far ahead, a snack bar was still open, and the orange light at the door gave off warmth.She got out of the car, locked the door and went in.This is a noodle shop, the small shop is very tidy, there are two or three people sitting here and there eating, no one talks, and the heat is steaming in the room, which makes people feel at ease. Xie Nan looked at the menu and ordered a wonton in original soup. Soon a middle-aged man brought out the wonton with coriander.The wonton meat filling is delicious, and the soup with seaweed, coriander, winter vegetables, shrimp skin, and egg skin is thick and not greasy. Although Xie Nan has no appetite, he eats slowly. After a little warmth in his stomach, he feels better . She thought to herself, what a ridiculous experience.She has always driven cautiously, and her ability to recognize roads is not bad. She has traveled this road before, so she cannot explain the absurdly strong sense of loss just now.She has never analyzed her own behavior, and now she can only say to herself: Well, it is because of hunger, hypoglycemia and insufficient blood supply to the brain that she made such a low-level mistake. Yu Mucheng called and said that he had come to see her car.She checked out and went out, and even went back to write down the name of the shop, planning to eat there again when she was free. Yu Mucheng brought a driver from the company over, and he told the driver when to pick him up tomorrow, and asked the driver to drive his Passat away.At this time, he was standing next to her Fukang. When he saw her pale face, he was taken aback. He reached out and touched her forehead, feeling all right: "Is the cold getting worse? Do you want to go to the hospital?" "It's okay." Xie Nan shook his head. Yu Mucheng took her car key and pressed the remote control to open the passenger door. She suddenly hugged him from behind and whispered, "Thank you, Mu Cheng." He turned back and hugged her into his arms, realizing that this was the first time she called his name, it was very natural, and the slightly hoarse voice made his heart skip a beat: "Do you have to thank me for coming to pick up my girlfriend?" She just shook her head, she was actually thanking him for freeing her from such a ridiculous nightmare just now.But she didn't explain, and pressed her face tightly against his chest, where it was generous and warm.She could feel his heartbeat through a thin sweater. Yu Mucheng put one arm around her and held her face in the other. Only he knew that his heart was beating faster. He lowered his head, and his lips fell on her soft, cool lips. She quickly kissed him and let go. He drove, and hurriedly said vaguely: "No, this is the side of the road, let's go back."