Someone once asked me, "Do you consider yourself a lucky person?"
I have a healthy body to pursue my dreams, and a happy family to support me; I have "Na ions" who love me and like me to protect me, not to mention the most sincere friends accompanying me, I must say: Yes, I am indeed the lucky one.
I used to live in anxiety day and night, fearing opponents or competitions, fearing the thick and black headlines in the newspaper "Li Na Bombarded".Sometimes I go from the locker room to the end of the game in fear before going on the court.You can't let your opponent see your nervousness - exposing nervousness in front of a comparable opponent is undoubtedly death.You have to pretend to be calm, and it is best to give your opponent an indifferent poker face at all times, even if your heart is too nervous to let your opponent notice.
I also lost my goal, lost and helpless. During the recovery period of my leg injury, sometimes I would think: Li Na, what do you care about?I couldn't find anything I cared about, and I couldn't find anything I was interested in.When I watched the movie "Superman", when the protagonist's grandfather was killed, I still remember saying something to him: The stronger your ability, the greater your responsibility.I suddenly thought of myself sadly. I didn't think I was capable, nor would I have any responsibilities or what I had to do, but everyone regarded me as "a symbol of the tennis spirit" and "a symbol of young people." Idol" or something, it bothers me.
2011 was a special year for me. I made brilliant achievements in my career, but also fell into a trough. While my dreams came true, I lost my goal.It was a very bad year in my life. When I was not ready for the battle, and my mind was not mature enough to bear it, the achievements of my career brought about earth-shaking changes in my life, which was never well known by everyone. From being surrounded by the vanity brought by fame at the beginning to being on the verge of collapse later, it feels a bit like becoming famous or getting rich overnight.The reputation brought by tennis made me deviate from the track of life. I have to face many things that I have never faced before, such as accepting all kinds of interviews, and having to show a hypocritical smirk in the face of the swarm of leaders. , Some are beyond the scope of my ability and imagination.
The second half of 2011 was the hardest half year for me, yes, it was tough, because those days can no longer be described as "living".I felt like I was suffering from depression. I was afraid of going to crowded places, and I didn’t want to face myself. When I entered the stadium, I had no fighting spirit, no desire to win, and my only thought was to lose as soon as possible and leave the stadium to find someone else Hiding somewhere, I open my eyes every day and don't know how to continue the day's life and how to face everything.During that time, I even complained about why I won the French Open championship, and if I didn't win the championship, would my life be easier.
But fortunately, he came out strong.Time is amazing and great, it can change many things.In any case, after many years, recalling 2011 is a year to be proud of.
I have conflicted feelings about tennis, and it took me 15 years to really love it. ?I think I am a complex of contradictions, AB blood type, Pisces, I obviously don’t like flowers, I think its life is too short, but I have to admire the vigorous vitality of plum blossoms in winter; I know that some people’s words are flattery and hypocrisy Yes, but I still accept everything; I know it is my mistake, but I still have to find some reasons to prevaricate; I am so sad that I am dying, but I still have to pretend to be strong to bear it... From the beginning until now, once you lose What I heard and saw the most was "Li Na lost the game because of a psychological barrier". I was very angry when I saw such a report. Why should I blame me if I haven't experienced my journey?Is it wrong to fight on the court you like?Losing wrong?When I calm down and see the same report again, I will lament that I have not studied well in college. In college, what we learn is that journalism must seek truth from facts, but how many people are really seeking truth from facts?All I saw was one more reporter expressing his thoughts.Sometimes thinking of a word of encouragement may change people, but a word of hurt can also change the attitude of others in life.It was these experiences that made me strong. It turns out that my ability to bear is much stronger than I thought.
There seemed to be two Li Nas in my body.The strong Li Na will always suppress the weak Li Na. Whenever the weak Li Na has a little thought about the game, the strong one will ask her to stop thinking and concentrate on swinging.It is none other than myself who restrains me and puts on tight clothes.
The me you see on the field seems to be straightforward, confident, nervous, careless, reckless, more personal, and more brave to express my feelings.But that's on the tennis court.Off the court, only when Jiang Shan is by my side can I reveal my joyful and simple self.
A best friend once said that I was too strong, and I took all the responsibilities that did not belong to me, so I felt that I was under a lot of pressure.Once you can't find a way to vent, you will doubt yourself, which is why you are so unhappy.I think she makes a lot of sense.
Now that I am 30 years old, I no longer need to rely on pretense to make myself strong. I have gradually shaken hands with the world and reached some kind of agreement.I can look at those people and things that I didn't like before from another angle, not because I started to become hypocritical, but because my heart has matured enough to accommodate these dislikes.
I can speak my mind and keep chasing for answers, I don't have to be afraid that thinking will delay the game, and I don't have to hold back my feelings.I gradually became happy and confident in the rounds of competitions, and I dared to fight until the last second in the competition. I went to KTV with my friends to sing Xiao Jingteng's favorite song, and I was free.
I know who I am and what I do.Every day, I understand that I am more mature than yesterday.I'm coming out of the slump and I feel like I'm recovering significantly in Stuttgart, my first clay-court top tour event.I had a little problem with my back during the Confederations Cup, but eventually I got back on the pitch and started playing on clay, it's been a long and winding road and I'm only halfway there.
I would like to thank the media who have spurred me to grow, and now their attitude towards me has softened a lot. They no longer take my speech out of context, but listen carefully to what I have to say.For the first time in so many years, we've started trying to reach an understanding that more and more local journalists are focusing on tennis itself, which is a proud shift.A reporter once offered to do a show at my home in Munich with Jiang Shan, but we politely declined. I hope that my small base in Munich is simple and pure. Here, I am just an athlete who keeps launching offensives for the highest honor.I'm not a champion, I'm not a youth icon, I have to let go of all my baggage and travel light.
Tennis has also made great progress in China in the past two years. I remember that in the 2008 World Group play-offs, we played France on behalf of the national team. The match was held in Beijing. As soon as I entered the court that day, I couldn’t help but say: "Oh! There are a lot of fans today. !” The fans on the sidelines applauded very neatly, and I was suspicious. I took a closer look and found that almost 70% of them were French fans. It really didn’t look like our home stadium in China.
The stars have changed, and it was 2012 in a blink of an eye. I played three days in Shenzhen in February. The Chinese fans on the sidelines were almost full, and they were warm, friendly, and disciplined. No one would treat foreign players for no reason. boos.Everyone has started to learn to appear in international competitions with a more decent appearance. I think this is a great progress. Tennis has begun to integrate into the lives of the people. This is more gratifying than a world champion or a Grand Slam champion.
If I have any wish, it is to hope that tennis will blossom and bear fruit in China as soon as possible. I am eager to see Chinese teenagers stand out and enter the world arena.
When I was away from home, many fans would cheer me up and encourage me online. Although I can’t reply to each of them, I hope everyone knows how grateful I am for your understanding and support.Thank you for your tolerance and love.I don't read much, and I can't use gorgeous words to express the friendship in my heart. Thank you for everything you have done for me, and thank you for your support and company along the way.
Finally, I would like to thank my husband Jiang Shan.I have repeated my gratitude to him many times in different places, but my respect and attachment to him are still growing day by day. He is the best gift God has given me.I learned from him that love is a kind of persistence, a kind of belief, and it will never change because of time.
Jiang Shan and I have known each other since we were 12 years old, we have been in love since we were 16 years old, and we have been together for 14 years now.We experienced glory together, retired together, studied together, came back together, worked together, and lived together.There was also the day when I had an operation in Germany for the first time. The two of us were in a foreign country. I just finished the operation. I didn’t know what kind of competitive state I would be able to recover. I was very anxious. Fortunately, he was by my side to encourage me. Be with me and support me.We feel more like friends who grew up together, and we don't have any secrets from each other.Of course, we will also quarrel, after all, we are two independent individuals, and there will definitely be times when our thoughts differ, but this will not affect our relationship; sometimes I imagine that we have entered our twilight years, but we are still dependent on each other, I Knowing that he is the love of my life.Thank you, my love.Thank goodness for letting me meet you!
This year, my schedule is still very full. In addition to the French Open, Wimbledon, and the Olympic Games to be held in London in July, like many players in the tennis circle, I am especially looking forward to wearing a jersey that represents the color of the national flag of my country to the All England Club game.Wimbledon has a history of more than 100 years. It requires us to only wear all-white jerseys to participate in the competition. This Olympic Games gives us a chance to wear clothing of the same color as the five-star red flag to participate in the All England Club competition.I am already 30 years old, and this may be my last Olympic Games. I don't want to leave regrets for myself. I hope that the results in the London Olympics will be better than those in the Beijing Olympics.In my career, I have reversed opponents countless times. I hope I have enough courage and strength to allow me to reverse the sluggish state again at the age of 30 and achieve good results this year.
After London, I still have a long way to go, I don't know where I'm going or how far I can go.But I think, as far as the heart is, so far is the road under the feet.Maybe Paris, maybe Melbourne, maybe Madrid.No matter where the next stop is, I know it has an unchanging name called "life".
