Chapter 24 Chapter 23

We are always in this world, looking for another person to "connect" with us. There are many ways of connection, some connection is a kind of companionship, some connection is a kind of mutual warmth, and some connection is a kind of tacit understanding. And the partner connected through love is the relationship we most yearn for. In Anda Chong's classic comic "H2 Haoyu Double Story", Bilu, who is as short as Yaling by one head, finally surpassed Yaling in height, but still couldn't be with Yaling. The comics are like this, and what you see is not a fictional novel, but my stumbling real life.

I can only try my best, and I can't really grasp the ending that is always ambiguous. And I, the pursuit with Shen Jiayi still stays at the three centimeters that cannot be crossed, the very hard three centimeters. Giving up is hard, really hard.So bitter that I can't imagine any metaphor to carry it. During the days when I was studying, or getting used to "not being with Shen Jiayi", I also had to reconnect with the emotion between myself and Shen Jiayi.Maybe it was deliberately avoided, I haven't seen Shen Jiayi for a long time, I just wished Shen Jiayi and her boyfriend on the phone, and listened to her slowly telling how they got along, just like... like real friends.

but me.The girlfriend who is with me is nicknamed Maomaogou. Interacting with Shaggy Dog is an indescribable love experience for me.I have exhausted a lot of strength during the eight years of pursuing Shen Jiayi, and many crazy qualities in my personality have been burned out, so I re-learned another girl in a flat rhythm. This liking was another long eight years. Life is always stranger than fiction.Just a few months after my Feather Dog got together, Shen Jiayi broke up with her boyfriend hastily. When I heard the news on the other end of the phone, my spirits perked up. "It's too soon, why did you break up?" I was surprised, but I was in a good mood.

"Hey, why are you pretending to be surprised? You don't sound weird at all." Shen Jiayi's tone was not sad at all. "You didn't choose me, but you chose him, so he should be a better person than me. To be honest, I think I am already very good, but he is obviously better? How can you break up with such a person?" It's hard for me to imagine. "Who you want to be with doesn't have much to do with whether he's good or not, right? The main thing is the feeling." Shen Jiayi paused and said slowly: "Actually, I've guessed whether you like me since a long time ago."

"But I pretend to be very similar, right?" I laughed. "No matter how much you pretend to be an ordinary friend, I can still feel that you like me...no, it should be said that you value it." Shen Jiayi slowly emphasized word by word: "You value me very much." "..." "It makes me feel that I am very happy." Something heavy emotionally weighs on my chest.My breathing stops suddenly. "Never, don't you hate it?" I let out a long breath. "How is it possible... I like you very much, and you like me." She said carefully, as if every word in her words had a unique weight.

The weight squeezed me.I was silent for a long time, and Shen Jiayi didn't say anything. for a long time. "Then, you still didn't say why you broke up? Did he treat you badly? Or did you fall in love with another boy?" I pretended to be relaxed. "Neither. I just think that he doesn't like me enough." On the other end of the phone, Shen Jiayi sighed thoughtfully: "Actually, I also know that this is not good for me, but I just can't help breaking up. I have experienced how you like me , I will feel that other people's liking for me can't be compared with yours no matter what..."

My soul shook. "It turns out that the feeling of being liked by you is really happy. I used to take it for granted." Shen Jiayi said quietly: "This is my retribution." "I don't know how happy I would have been if you had told me a few months ago." My voice was weak. "Now tell you, aren't you happy?" Shen Jiayi laughed out loud. "..." I smiled wryly, "I'm very, very happy." I was so happy that I could only react with a wry smile. what can i doI have withdrawn from the love with Shen Jiayi and guarded a boundary called "long-lasting friendship".In this border, there is the most pleasant sunshine, and if we need it, we can pat each other on the back without any grievances at any time.

This is a piece of land that really doesn't ask for anything in return.It is also a place I have never left. "I also like you very much. I liked you back then." I could only hold the microphone tightly and say slowly: "At that time, I was shining all the time." "Thank you" she said. In our junior year, we quit the world of chasing Shen Jiayi one by one. In my third year, apart from Ah He and I who were the strongest, Xie Mengxue, who participated in the Tzu Chi Youth Club of Beijing Medical University (I also know why!), caught up with a vegetarian girl and started a new life of a lifelong vegetarian.Du Xinxian, who participated in the Tzu Chi Youth Club of Fengjia University (how kind!), also made a girlfriend, and only smiled when he liked Shen Jiayi in the past.

At the regular meeting of the Lunar New Year that year, a group of us sat on the ground playing cards and gambling money, and the topic was still lingering around Shen Jiayi. "Hey, it seems that Liao Yinghong is the only one who can like Shen Jiayi?" Xu Bochun said, looking around with a card. "Haha, yes, you don't mind if I chase Shen Jiayi instead?" Liao Yinghong laughed and said, "There are fewer and fewer opponents left, and I often call Shen Jiayi recently." "Chasing, I leave it to you." I smiled openly and covered the cards: "I won't follow."

"Chasing after you if you have the ability." A He was noncommittal, pushing the chip forward: "I stud." So Liao Yinghong rushed to catch up, calling Shen Jiayi's school dormitory every night, using his way to grind slowly, grind, grind... One night, Shen Jiayi called me and told me that she decided to be with Liao Yinghong. "I'll be the first to tell you," she said. I was not too surprised, because Liao Yinghong is indeed a great person, and he is my best friend.The qualifications that I like Shen Jiayi are thick and thick, and it is full of dark records of being framed by me.

"Tsk tsk, the girl I couldn't chase after eight years of burning youth, he did it, it's really amazing." I tried to use the most indifferent tone, and told Shen Jiayi: "Treat my friend well, he is very, very I like you." "Hmm," she simply responded. When I hung up the phone, my complicated mood was written all over my face. Shaggy Dog came over with hot tea and asked me what happened, I just smiled and said it was nothing. Then the second call came, and it was Liao Yinghong roaring excitedly. "Ke Teng! Shen Jiayi just agreed to be my girlfriend on the phone!" Liao Yinghong couldn't hold back his joy. It seemed that he couldn't wait to call every buddy. "Really! You are so amazing!" I laughed. "Bless me! Hurry up! Bless me!" Liao Yinghong's voice was moving. "Nonsense, you must be very happy!" I took a deep breath and shouted into the microphone. Liao Yinghong hung up the phone and reported to the next buddy. Two months later, without even holding hands, Liao Yinghong and Shen Jiayi broke up. It was as if they had never been together at all. When describing the astonishment of breaking up with us, Liao Yinghong seemed to be in disbelief, with a dumbfounded expression, and kept mumbling to himself.I want to laugh, but dare not. "Damn it, it's just like playing mahjong." Ah He slapped his thigh wildly and laughed fiercely, and made the following comment: "I was the first to listen to the cards, Ke Teng insisted on crossing the water and waiting for himself, and Liao Yinghong finally gave up card, but upon closer inspection, it turned out to be a bluff!" Yes, cheating Hu. But I've never even cheated...