Chapter 9 Chapter 8

Li Xiaohua studied with me in get out of class, chatted together after class, took a walk in school, and walked home together after school. The way of getting along with our childhood sweethearts finally went wrong. "Recently they all said that I don't have time to be with everyone." Li Xiaohua looked slightly worried, and his eyes drifted to them. The so-called "they" naturally refers to a small group of girls in the class. The small group culture in the school is not surprising at all. Boys and girls form small groups in different ways. To describe it appropriately, boys like to "get together" together, and girls like to "get bored" together, and the connection between girls is stronger than that of boys. It should be much closer, after all, boys will not meet to go to the bathroom together, and it will not happen that they go to the bathroom together after a long period of time.

"The monster said the same thing, but the monster is very strong. Haha." I replied with a smile. Of course the monster finally understood that I liked Li Xiaohua. Even though he couldn't wait for the school bus with him, he still lent me "Youth Express" very loyally, and would still eat meat dumplings with me at lunch.Monsters are not complicated at all, they are people made purely from protein and comics. "It's not the same." Li Xiaohua frowned, and wrote on the calculation paper: "They are very angry with me, saying that I don't value them, and hope that I won't be with you so often."

I saw it, and it's actually pretty hot. I have a lot of friendship with the girls in the class. Whether it is the graduation ceremony performance of the first or second year, ten of them plus one boy will represent the class in the county government auditorium.And I have been the head of the academic department for three years. Every time I encounter a classroom layout, these girls and I work together to complete it. One night of cards (playing cards with Shen Jiayi can be said to be very restrictive, playing blackjack is forced to draw cards, playing red points must be divided by two, alas, no matter how you play, you will lose).

Now, this group of people who are also my friends tell Li Xiaohua not to be with me so often, I really can't understand.What do you dislike? "I don't understand." "Anyway, don't come to me after class these days." I frowned, but I had no choice but to accept it, and turned my head to stare at the group of so-called "they". The exam is getting closer. There was a vague and invisible distance between me and Li Xiaohua. This distance was indescribably deliberate and tweaked, which I couldn't understand.For example, Li Xiaohua refused to put our graduation photos together, which turned out to be my biggest regret.

One day after school, after I finished reading "Youth Express" with the monster in my seat, Li Xiaohua was still chatting with the group of girls. I looked at my watch and it was already half past five. "Let's go." I walked to Li Xiaohua's side with my schoolbag on my back, and the group of girls suddenly fell silent. "No, my father will come to pick me up today." Li Xiaohua's eyes drifted a little. I see.Then he slowly scanned the eyes of those girls. "Well, then I'll go first." I said, with an uncomfortable expression. I walked with the monster under the big tree waiting for the second school bus, and watched "Youth Express" repeatedly.The monster knew that I was not in a good mood, but it kept asking me what happened to Li Xiaohua and me.

"It's nothing, just give her more time to spend with friends." I looked at the sky sleepily. This love came too late.Li Xiaohua will stop studying sincerity, and will go to a nun's school to study for a daughter. The time I can spend with her is also very precious. Why do "they" deprive me like this? "That's it?" The monster tilted its neck. "That's it." I yawned. "Oh, girls are like this, don't think too much." The monster patted me on the shoulder. Do you understand girls again?I looked at the monster, but said nothing.

Sometimes a lot of care is really cheap, but it's all well-intentioned.Such kindness has no reason to attract cynicism. Things didn't improve after that. For several weeks, Li Xiaohua asked her father to take her home after school, and the sweet habit of taking a walk home with me seemed to have never existed. I felt bad, but I was only fifteen and a half years old and didn't know how to react. Until one day, Li Xiaohua's father finally had no time to pick her up, so I walked home with her logically.As I walked, under the psychological construction of "No matter what, it will not be worse than the current situation", I mustered up the courage and gently extended my hand.

The back of my hand sticks to Li Xiaohua's back tremblingly. "Don't take me." Li Xiaohua didn't look at me, just bowed his head. "I just……" I said with difficulty, the air seemed to be sour. "Don't hold me, please." Li Xiaohua walked faster and faster. The day when the graduation album was finally delivered to everyone.In the morning, the review quiz for math class is over. I will never forget the note that was handed over with the exchange of test paper folders, and a delicate bamboo umbrella. Xiaohua's words. There are just two sentences in the note, like boxing champion Tyson's straight left punch aimed at the nose, plus a right hook that smashed his jaw.My soul didn't wait for the coach to throw the white towel, it just fell out of my brain, sighing.

I didn't cry.At least there were no tears shed on the spot. My self-esteem has always been as hard as iron, and after the out-of-body and back, I just feel angry. "Three aunts, six wives, straight mothers, thieves, all go eat and poop." I looked at the small bamboo umbrella. The next day, I shaved a big crew cut that was close to bald and went to school, and changed places with my classmates. According to the words and phrases on the note, I completely stayed away from the girl who didn't want to keep in touch with me. Spreading out the reference book, I started to solve the problem without saying a word.Now I have been trained to be an extremely efficient problem-solving machine.

"What's wrong? Why shave your head?" Shen Jiayi also changed places with her classmates and asked me directly from the rear left. We haven't sat together like before for a long time. "Are you in there too?" I looked back, with a bad tone. "What?" Shen Jiayi didn't understand. "Well, I think you're not that boring." I turned around and continued to write my topic. Shen Jiayi saw that I was in a bad mood, but she really didn't dare to answer, and she didn't dare to laugh at my crew cut on a whim, or frowned and said I was childish.

It's just that from the second day on, Shen Jiayi stayed at my fixed left rear, slowly waiting for the moment when my mood eased. Then, the ballpoint ink spots started appearing on my back again. To be honest, I had to wait for my emotions to ease, because I was abandoned for no reason.But thanks to Shen Jiayi who started stabbing me in the back again, forcing me to listen to her say five four three, I was pulled back from the dark forces of the problem-solving machine. The dinner after the graduation ceremony ended in the noise of everyone scribbling cakes on Xu Bochun's face.I pretended to be interested in tossing the cream on the cake, and noticed that Li Xiaohua was just sitting quietly in the corner of the restaurant, eating the teppanyaki as if nothing had happened. "Did you really like me?" I was very melancholy. The school announced the suspension of classes, but all classes returned to school for self-study tacitly. Director Lai opened the iron cabinet that was always crowded with test papers of various subject areas, and threw bundles of test papers under the podium like the Red Cross sending food to the disaster area, so that anyone who wants to become a slave of the entrance examination Feel free to take it.So, with a high sense of anxiety, everyone went against the normal state of loathing writing test papers, rushed to the podium and frantically snatched the test papers, as if the questions for the entrance exam were secretly hidden inside. In my opinion, it is a kind of structural madness at all. Going back to school for self-study and preparing for the entrance exam, the time I spent on spiritual confession to Shen Jiayi was no less than the time I spent on repeated reading of books.Because I know that the score I can get has already exceeded the admission standard of Changhua High School, the first choice in Changhua, not to mention Shen Jiayi, even if I go to Taipei to take the Beiyi girl test. That being the case, the meaning of high or low scores is just to step on others or to be stepped on by others. "Can we talk now? What's the matter with you and Li Xiaohua?" Shen Jiayi suddenly became childish. "I like her." I looked at Li Xiaohua in the distance. Li Xiaohua's surroundings were once again surrounded by the group of so-called "they". Several girls desperately finished the test papers on the table, exchanged and corrected them, and then wrote new test papers, tirelessly.It made me upset, and I really wanted to kick one person. I slowly and quickly explained the whole story, and also told Shen Jiayi the message on the note. "I think, since she said so, she will definitely get better after the entrance exam." Shen Jiayi encouraged me. "Really?" My eyes lit up. "That's what she meant, right? You didn't really make her angry, so don't think too much." Shen Jiayi laughed. "That's right, but...she wants to read Zhang Nu? Is there any way I can save this?" I frowned. "It's hard to talk about life. It's just a different school. It's not a big deal. What you have to do now is to concentrate on preparing for the exam and don't let her down." Shen Jiayi is like a nagging Obasan. "My God, Shen Jiayi, how can you speak such a grown-up's words so familiarly?" I felt amused. "If she thinks you're an idiot who can't stand blows, things will become very difficult. These days, no girl likes to take care of a boy who is always depressed." Shen Jiayi stared at me, "That will only make girls feel like a Mother." "But I'm really the type who can't stand the blow. Super fragile." I admitted generously. "...You are really naive." Shen Jiayi had nothing to say. The entrance exam is over. Not surprisingly, I was more than 40 points higher than the admission standard of Changhua High School. I went directly to Jingcheng Middle School with Liao Yinghong, Xu Bochun, Xu Zhizhang, Li Fengming, Xie Minghe, Yang Zeyu, Cao Guosheng, Shen Jiayi and others. department.The monster failed the college entrance examination and went to Yunlin Technical College. Later, it gradually became what I remember, a protein that loves to read comics. "You are so smart, it must be very suitable for you to read the natural group." She said so. "Is that so?" I looked at the sky. So, I just chose the natural group, which I didn't like at all.A word for her. As for the owner of that sentence, he really didn't go straight to Jingcheng, and went to Changhua Girls' High School with a black and white uniform as a totem. I don't have another word with the girl who walked home with me. It is now 2005, July 11th, and the weather is slightly overcast. At 1:54 in the afternoon, I took the Ziqiang train to Taipei.In another three hours, I have to rush to the publishing house to sign 1,000 copies for Jinshitang Online Bookstore and Eslite stores.Listening to "First of May" by the BeeGees, I think the atmosphere of this old song should be in line with everyone's past time. I deliberately wanted to write something about Xiaohua, especially in the past six months because of my mother’s illness, I almost stayed in Changhua, and I still passed by her house every day. Yes, I can only pass by the door of her house, stop, and pass again. that is it. In Xiaohua's life, I was already a series of symbols with unknown meanings drawn with a pencil and smeared over and over again with my fingers.