Chapter 52 (53)

After I climbed over the fence and climbed into the dormitory, I went straight to the water room and vomited violently in my throat. The quiet building at night gave me a kind of warmth like going home. I am so happy that I am back again. Avoiding recalling the past in the water room, I went back to the dormitory without rinsing my mouth. How strange that I need to witness some rotten life in order to pick myself up again!I couldn't help but wonder as I lay on the bed.Ru Meng and old K slept soundly. They didn't know that I came back, and the boss's bed was already full of sundries.I giggled and thought about the original dormitory for a while. At night, the four guys were talking in their sleep, grinding their teeth, farting and snoring.Taking advantage of the sadness blocked by this bit of laughter, I quickly took two sleeping pills and fell asleep carelessly.

When I looked in the mirror in the morning, I was stunned, and I realized that I was already haggard and ugly with two big dark circles under my eyes. After a few seconds of self-pity, I suddenly woke up: my time is running out!Many students have written the first draft of their thesis! I really began to race against time to read financial newspapers and books, find out all relevant or useful article materials and paragraphs, mark, extract, copy, scrutinize, weigh, compare, organize, think, and write!upset!I had to copy all the things I didn't understand in my notebook first, and then I looked through some textbooks, books and even dictionaries to conquer them one by one, so as to make a long-term plan.

The little volleyball girls in the gymnasium in the afternoon were still glamorous, and I was so happy to see them again, as if I was one of them. I work hard at fitness!Bench press, clean and jerk, fly, squat, back lift, shoulder raise, push-up, pull-up, arm upper body, sit-ups, 10 sets of 10 sets of 10 times for each item per day, with no more than one minute rest interval I have to stretch the ligaments in the middle. Having practiced basketball for several years, I have never bothered to use some fancy bullshit equipment like those native freshmen. It is purely dumbbell barbell and gymnastics.I never find someone to protect me, and it is no exception when I put on weights. Whenever I grit my teeth and raise the barbell that can almost kill me, the courage in my heart will grow thicker and swell along with the muscle fibers. Spread the whole body to vent with a bursting pleasure like a huge hellfire burning and a heavy crushing flesh-like ferocity.I used extremely dangerous weight, speed and method to push myself to the limit of my body and the brink of will challenge and collapse time and time again. I struggled hoarsely and struggled against the black cold weight scale, which gave me whiplash, conquest and joy. Forgiving my complex emotions, I hysterically experience the blood stimulation and nerve feelings that hit my body like a storm like a masochist, and like a sadist, I want to vent my homeless desire. Enthusiastic energy and emotions.I wish I could get hurt, because that might relieve the mountains of self-blame, regret and pain in my heart.Although I was not injured, I did have a few bench presses where the weight of the barbell was so heavy that I lost my confidence to compete with it. When someone saw this and helped me lift the barbell that was pressing on my chest and I was almost out of breath, I was still in pain He said Yang Hong's name silently in his heart.Whenever I look at the sweaty person in the mirror at the end, I can't tell whether I am exercising or torturing myself!

The crazy fitness training not only increased my muscle mass so much that even the Sanda class would pay attention to it, but also improved my sleep. I was so tired that I didn't have the energy to doubt myself anymore, and fell asleep soundly.