Chapter 38 (38)

The school gave me a circular criticism for disrupting the order of the examination room the next day, and sentenced me to retake the exam next semester with a zero score. But what moved me was my classmates. No one was willing to go out and testify that I cheated in the exam, and they all signed and wrote a letter to say good things to the Academic Affairs Office for me. The big saw also conspicuously hid the note I threw and refused to hand it over. In fact, my popularity in the class is very average, and there are even a few who sneer at me and refuse to talk to me. This is because I often like to make fun of others. Their performance this time is far beyond my expectations. It gave me a little comfort when I was at the end of the road. Maybe they were complaining about the boss who used to sit in the classroom all day long and honestly. Who knows?

It started snowing just after the last final exam, and I didn’t leave the dormitory after sending away many old dogs in the heavy snow. Maybe it was because I wanted to stay alone in the dormitory for a few days to have a good quiet time, or maybe it was because I was afraid to go back. I live a life where I have everything but no feeling. That night I once again dreamed that I was lying on a grassy slope facing the sun, eating happily and looking at the clouds happily. "Did Yang Hong come back?" I asked myself suddenly when I woke up. "Hello, it's me, Xiaolou, is your sister back?"

"No, what are you looking for with her?" "It's nothing. When will your sister come back?" "I don't know, what's the matter with you?" "No……" After hanging up the phone, I suddenly felt that Yang Hong must have come back. Otherwise, her crazy sister would not ask me like her sister. I don’t know why she still refuses to talk to me after several months. Maybe she really Want to be with that idiot, or maybe she'll take that idiot home... God, I'm so ridiculous. That idiot is actually not stupid at all. After I beat him away during the fight in Shanghai that night, he turned around and called a large group of people. He might have called all the dick hairy dick hairy guys from that little crappy school. If Yang Hong hadn’t blocked him Guarding me out of the school in front of me, I must have suffered a lot that night. After Yang Hong’s roommate sent me out of school that night, he told me his "moving deeds" in a small shop that was open all night: When he was sketching in Yunnan, he lost his way in the deep mountains for two days in order to pick some ghost flowers and herbs for the sick Yang Hong. I was moved by success.

Regarding this kind of deeds that are so fucking fake and disgusting, I can't believe that he is not pretending. It doesn't matter whether he pretends or not. Watching this person go to the empty dormitory building, guessing hard like an idiot. It was snowing heavily outside the window in the evening, and most of the students on campus had gone home. The snow was thickly spread on the road, and there were few footprints. The bicycle repair shop downstairs, which was bustling with you in the past, was deserted and bright. Dim little light, there is a girl at the door who is freezing and stomping her feet to pump up the car, and several cafeterias in the school are also dark. Looking at the window, the dining chairs are all piled up on the dining table. The room is dark. one slice.

The school was so quiet that even the loudspeaker, which was so annoying in the past, didn’t make a sound. I bought a piece of bread and a bag of cold milk at the small grocery store and I ran to the edge of the big pond. In summer, I would often talk to Yang Hong came here to eat watermelon, and the two of them would often foolishly search for seats around the pond with half a watermelon in their hands.There are empty seats covered with snow everywhere by the pond, and there is no one but me. I couldn’t drink the bag of ice milk after eating the cold bread, so I threw it into the pond vigorously and satiated I played with the snow for a while, but I still felt bored and flustered after tossing for a long time, so I walked away.

When I walked to the big locust tree, I suddenly wanted to see the letters and diaries buried there with Yang Hong. I tried to dig out the frozen soil twice with my hands, and felt like I was hitting a stone with an egg, so I gave up. Get up and stand for a while.There seemed to be a few lights on in the school library, and the old man who was in charge just a few steps in drove me out, saying that the library had been closed for a long time and no students were accepted, and the teaching building was also lifeless, with a few scattered The glasses of the postgraduate entrance examination sprint are reading in the only room with lights on, and they are serious and smiling as if they are not willing to fall in love after going to college, hey!It's okay not to talk about it, you don't have to suffer like me.

There was no one to be seen on the basketball court because of the snow. I nervously took off my coat and jumped a few times vigorously. The basket that I could grasp with both hands is now unable to touch the edge with one hand. This is really frustrating. It was dark all the way back to the dormitory, and the street lights that were supposed to be fixed at fixed times were now on vacation with the students, and the dormitory building was also pitch black, without the laughter and laughter of the past, only the cold chill remained.When I entered the dormitory, I touched Hei'er and sat on the bed, sitting there like a fool, just like waiting for my parents to get off work when I was a child.Talk about something else, say something else, but still inexplicably think of those vivid days in the past. At that time, the boss got up in the middle of the night to urinate and often went to the water room to play tricks and scare me and the little one. At that time, the little one often praised me Yang Hong looks beautiful, such familiar and kind friends and lovers, why did they disappear when she woke up?

God!What's the matter with me after the snow, I feel sorry for myself like a wronged child, what a sentimental young man with no cure! After waking up, I searched all morning but couldn't find that song. There seems to be a line in it: "What if I die for you, because I have nothing..."