Chapter 26 Chapter Twenty Six

After waking up, Ruan Zhengdong inhaled oxygen for a while, and took medicine again, and he felt much better.He and Jiangxi called their parents, Ruan Zhengdong said a few words to his father, and suddenly said: "Dad, wait a moment, I will ask Jiaqi to give you New Year greetings." Then he handed the phone to Jiaqi. Jiaqi was frightened and froze for a while, holding the phone for a long time, unable to speak, and finally a laugh came from the receiver, and she said very kindly: "Jiaqi, happy new year." She said softly, "Happy New Year." "Ask Xizi to tell the story, I heard her laughing beside her."

Jiaqi answered "yes" and immediately called Jiangxi. But after Jiangxi finished speaking, Ruan Zhengdong's mother specially asked her to answer the phone, asked her about Ruan Zhengdong's situation, told her to take care of herself, and talked to her a lot. Ruan Zhengdong was a little tired at noon, so he went back to his room to take a nap. He still hadn't woken up at three o'clock in the afternoon, and Jiaqi was a little worried, so she went upstairs to see him. Going lightly to his room, he lay on the bed with his back to the door, motionless, as if he was still soundly asleep.

Jiaqi suddenly felt panicked, and hurried over, her heart was pounding, she stretched out her hand, and pressed it tentatively on his shoulder. His cold fingers suddenly pressed her hand, which shocked her a lot. He didn't turn around, and he was still lying there, but he held her hand, and his voice seemed calm: "Don't worry, I won't will die secretly." Jiaqi said loudly: "On the first day of the new year, you are not allowed to say such things, bah, bah, there is no taboo." He turned around and smiled at her: "Okay, Tong Yan Wuji." After a while, he said again: "Jiaqi, if there is such a day, don't be by my side. Please go away, or I won't be able to bear it."

She almost lost her composure, and even her voice was out of tune: "Say it again, if you say another word, I will leave immediately and never come back, do you believe it?" He smiled: "I really hope you leave now, and if you can, never come back." Tears rolled down her eyes: "I won't let you say it, you won't say it again!" He was still laughing: "Tell me that I won't die right away." She hated to bite him, tears burst out suddenly, her teeth were still deeply sunken into the flesh through the clothes, but she couldn't help whimpering, like a wounded little animal, unable to protect itself.His legs felt weak, so he squatted down and hugged himself, hoping to curl up and curl up to a place where no one could see.She has never been so weak, she feels like a snail whose shell has been peeled off, only the weakest and most feeble flesh, exposed to the air without any cover.She always thought that there would be a chance, but he was so cruel, and fate was so cruel, pointing out the fact that she was most afraid of.

He also got out of bed, stretched out his arms and hugged her slowly: "Jiaqi, I won't talk about it in the future." She couldn't control herself at all: "Ruan Zhengdong, you bullied others, why did you bully me like this..." Grabbing his skirt, her fingers twisted and trembled uncontrollably: "How could you bully me like this, you lied to me, you let me Believe me. You deceived me to this point, but you want to abandon me. How could you do this? You promised me that you would never leave me again, but you lied to me. You lied to me. " He hugged her and coaxed her slowly: "I won't say it anymore, I won't say it again in the future, I was wrong, I won't say it again."

She held on to him, she had no choice but to hold on to him.Hold him like this if you can. She knew she shouldn't cry, but she couldn't control herself, and her long-term depression was almost on the verge of collapse.It has always been like this, it has always been like this, she can never keep something so good. whatever it is. Whether it is her dependent father or Meng Heping, by now, she will lose someone more completely. She always thought that there was no way to start again, but when she woke up, everything had already started. But she couldn't break free, couldn't escape, and watched helplessly, only to be hacked into pieces, and suffered the most terrible torture in the world.

He wiped the tears on her face with his fingers, her body was still trembling violently, she lowered her head deeply, refusing to lift it up so that he could see her tears. He said, "Jiaqi, don't cry, it's Chinese New Year." He said, "I want you to accompany me, just the two of us." Jiaqi was with him all day. Two people are watching a movie at home. . When the background music sounded, the piano was heavy and throbbing, and the symphony suddenly burst out with emotion. In the desert where the setting sun was like gold, the rickety plane finally appeared in sight, and Jiaqi on the sofa leaned on Ruan Zhengdong's shoulder, unknowingly shedding tears.

He just handed her the box of tissues. She smiled with tears in her eyes and said, "I'm getting more and more unpromising, and I will cry when I watch movies." He is still very relaxed: "If I knew it earlier, I would have watched a comedy. "The Lion's Roar in the River East" is pretty good." Jiaqi said: "That movie is too old, it was made several years ago. I want to watch "Curse of the Golden Flower". It was released before Christmas and missed the schedule, so I didn't see it." He said, "That film is not a comedy."

She said: "Isn't it a comedy that cost 300 million yuan to shoot? Then the Chinese blockbuster is really hopeless." made him laugh. He had a nice smile, his eyebrows and eyes were all stretched out.His face has faded, but he is still suave and suave. In the evening, Jiaji drove him back to the hospital by himself. He was about to get off the elevated road, but he suddenly said, "Let's have dinner outside, the food in the hospital is really terrible." She said: "But we promised President Yu that we will return to the hospital on time." "It's just a few hours late. Let me have another good meal. Today is the first day of the new year. You can't let me stay in the hospital hungry."

She couldn't hold him back, so she had to ask: "Then where should we go for dinner?" He thought for a while and said, "Jin Mao Club." So far away, still in Pudong, we have to cross the river. And it was extremely expensive. The last time he and Zhou Jingan came to Shanghai on a business trip, a generous client invited them to a meal at the Jinmao Club.The restaurant is located on the 86th floor. Just to go up, I changed to three elevators and walked through the maze-like passages. Fortunately, there were dedicated waiters leading the way. Afterwards, Zhou Jing'an said: "If anyone invites me to dinner there next time, I will immediately ask for cash and give it to me."

Jiaqi accompanied Ruan Zhengdong upstairs, he walked very slowly now, but she didn't dare to help him, so she pretended to hold his hand and walked slowly with him. But the atmosphere is very good. The curved and transparent floor-to-ceiling viewing glass in the restaurant has a wide view.In the evening, you can almost have a panoramic view of the whole Shanghai outside the window, the world of mortals lined with high-rise buildings, and the twilight in the distance, the sky and the earth are vast. Qionglou Yuyu, who is in such a high place, just overlooks all living beings. The signature dish, crystal shrimp, tastes first-class, the seafood soup is extremely fresh, and the fruit platter is even more attractive. Under the wisps of white smoke from the dry ice at the bottom of the plate, each piece of fruit is crystal clear like a work of art. Ruan Zhengdong seemed to have a good appetite, and he ate deliciously. He hadn't eaten like this for many days.He said to Jiaqi: "It used to be a membership system, and it was very quiet. Now it seems that there are more customers. Although the dishes here have always been ordinary, the scenery is good." Jiaqi said: "Buy the basket and return the pearl." He smiled: "I just don't like that bead, but I like that box." Jiaqi didn't speak, he suddenly said: "I have another gift I want to give you." She said: "You have given me too much, I don't want anything more." He smiled and held out his hand to her: "Come with me." Someone was waiting for them outside the restaurant. Ruan Zhengdong introduced to her that it turned out to be Mr. Wang, the manager of the hotel's public relations department. That Mr. Wang led them to take the staff elevator upstairs, and then passed through the noisy and low machine room. Ruan Zhengdong walked slowly with great difficulty, but he tried his best to walk steadily, just breathing heavily.Jiaqi felt uncomfortable, but she could only slow down, not daring to reach out to help him. They walked very slowly, a short distance, but it took a long time to get there. She had vaguely guessed something, but when the familiar hole-shaped passage appeared in front of her eyes, she still couldn't believe it. The passage was not long, the circular passage led to the black velvet night, and at the end was only the sky, and he smiled and stretched out his hand to her. She passed her hand into his and walked forward step by step. They walked very slowly, he held her hand, and had to lean on her with most of her body, she just held his hand like this, and walked forward step by step. Walking all the way to the round hole window, the wind blows her hot cheeks, and the vision suddenly becomes clear. They stand on the top of Jinmao, on the top of Qionglou Yuyu, and on the top of this city.Almost like standing on top of this bustling world. Between the sky and the earth, there are countless buildings in Lujiazui, and the Oriental Pearl Tower not far away has just turned on its lights. Almost all of a sudden, all the lights of the buildings on the Bund on the opposite bank were turned on, resplendent and resplendent, like a jewel, shining brightly and radiantly.Numerous golden lampposts and spotlights sweep out the outline of the building, like a scroll of exquisitely carved gold leaf paintings, so gorgeous that it is almost extravagant, laying out the prosperity and prosperity in front of you. The wind blew their clothes, fluttering, and the sleeves seemed to be lifted, but she could hardly speak. As if in a dream, he clearly knew what was going to happen, but he couldn't believe it. He murmured, "The news never announced that there will be fireworks in Shanghai tonight." He smiled: "Yes, but later relevant parties suddenly felt that if the fireworks were not set off tonight, it would not be able to reflect the happy and peaceful New Year atmosphere." High-sounding, righteous as a real lie. She couldn't believe it and couldn't speak. There was a dull "bang" in the sky, and a huge golden flower suddenly bloomed in the night. It grew bigger and brighter, almost igniting most of the night sky. Almost unbelievably beautiful. Two or three seconds later, there was another dull sound, and a larger bright flower blazed across the night sky. The dazzling arc like broken glass cut through the entire night sky. It seemed that countless people were exclaiming faintly. The surge stopped in an instant, and countless people raised their heads and looked up at the sky. Fireworks bloom one after another in the sky, lighting up the night sky like day, purple, red, orange, blue, green...Countless colors mixed with countless golden and silver arc spray books, like the most dazzling In the garden, colorful flowers bloom in the black night.It is also like countless meteor showers, drawing the most blurred and flowing (?) arcs in the air, splitting the black velvet-like sky into stray fragments.In these bright lights, every firework blooms, her face is reflected in the brightest brilliance, and every firework withers, her face becomes hazy.In the gap between countless fireworks blooming and withering, she just stared, letting the most brilliant colors in the world present the most beautiful scenery in front of her. Tens of thousands of people are looking up at the amazing moment. At this moment, the city is magnificent and magnificent. She just stared at the dazzling and unearthly beautiful scene, and he just stared at her. Brilliant, blooming, blooming, resplendent... Even withering every time is so beautiful. He said, "Good times." Her cheeks were flickered by the brilliant colors of the fireworks, she gently held him with one arm, and wrapped his other arm around his waist, making him stand more firmly. She said with tears: "It's so beautiful, so beautiful that people can't imagine. I have never seen such a beautiful scene in my life." He smiled slightly. He had never seen such a beautiful sight in his life. He finally said: "Jiaqi, you said that you will remember this beauty for the rest of your life." Yes, it is so beautiful, it is unforgettable, and it will be remembered forever, for a lifetime, forever. "So, you will definitely remember me and always remember me." His voice was very low: "Jiaqi, if you really love me, I will never forgive myself." She turned her face slowly. Countless fireworks are blooming in the night sky, and he is smiling slightly with a peaceful and serene expression. "Jiaqi, I am very grateful to you. For so long, I feel very satisfied to have you by my side. But now I want you to leave me." She asked, "Why?" Still smiling, he said: "Because I love you, I hope you can live happily. So, please leave me. "You came to Shanghai and you lied to me and yourself by saying something like that. You obviously have no choice. You will never be able to love others in your life, but you convinced yourself and me. "Sometimes you are really brave, so brave that you are almost stupid. I have always said that you have a kind of lonely courage. In fact, I only hope that the woman I love is ordinary and weak, and she doesn't have to stand in front of everything. When there is any Whenever things happen, someone can protect her from the wind and rain. Someone can take care of her and love her. I only hope that you can be calm and happy, and spend the rest of your life peacefully with the person you love. I don’t need you to be brave, I just want you to be brave. You are happy." She can only say: "You have given me a lot, and I am very happy to be with you." "But you are not happy. The person in this world who can give you happiness is not me." Big fireworks were still blooming behind her, and tears flowed down her face silently. "The day you didn't come back, I knew you were with Meng Heping. I thought about it all day, and finally I realized that, in fact, this is better. Really, because I can rest assured." The blue and purple arcs are smooth and smooth, like countless meteors, scattered in the night sky with thousands of pieces of gold. She couldn't say that sentence. She was just stubborn: "I want to be with you, no matter what you say, I will be with you. You promised me that you will never leave me again at any time." She could only say that she wanted to be with him, and he had promised her that he would be with her. She couldn't say anything else. He smiled: "Yes, I promised, but I can't do it. You want me to give you time to fall in love with me, but I don't have time, even if I have time, you can't love him like you Me. Why are you so stupid, and Meng Heping, why are you two so stupid, I thought I was the stupidest in the world, but I met you two. "This afternoon, I called Meng Heping, and I scolded him severely. I have never seen a man like him, and he sent you to me. If I were him, I would never let you go. Walk." She couldn't speak, the wind tousled her long hair and slapped her face, which was painful and hot. But that sentence was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say it no matter what. She couldn't say it anyway, she couldn't say it at all. "But I really feel at ease, because you will be happy in the future. You will live happily without me. So I am so happy that you did not fall in love with me. Otherwise, I will feel guilty for the rest of my life, and I will feel I am really sorry for you. Letting you alone, alone in this world, I will feel sad when I think about it. " He took her into his arms, and his voice was as quiet as if he had just woken up: "Jiaqi, please forgive me. Fortunately, you haven't had time to fall in love with me, and fortunately, I have had time to let you get your own happiness." He kissed her for the last time, salty tears mixed between his lips and teeth, he was so focused and attached, while her body trembled violently, grasping his sleeve weakly, as if afraid that if she let go, he would disappear from sight . And she can't say, she can't say anything. He always said that she had a kind of lonely courage, but she felt that at this moment, she was almost so weak that she was about to say that sentence. If it is possible, if there is time, if it is really possible, she is willing. She is willing to exchange everything she has now. She just wants to be with him. Because she loves him. Just as he loves her, with all his heart and all his strength. Her current happiness is just being with him. But he couldn't know, and she didn't want him to know. She had almost nothing to do, but he slowly left her, there was still a smile on the corner of his lips, his narrow phoenix eyes were long and bright, the fireworks were still blooming endlessly, and the light of the fireworks was reflected in his pupils.The fireworks in the big canopy are in full bloom in the night sky of Shanghai, as if the smooth black satin night is cut by thousands of bright glass, so gorgeous, so beautiful, illuminating the faces of the two of them. "I can't do it in this life. So, in the next life, I will definitely wait for you. I will meet you earlier than everyone else." end She stayed in Shanghai for another two weeks. Ruan Zhengdong's situation was up and down. Because his condition continued to deteriorate, he had to take a lot of painkillers. He fell asleep in a drowsy state most of the time. The doctor didn't have much to do. This hospital has the best hepatobiliary surgeons in the country, but they just tried their best.Because of the advanced stage of liver cancer, doctors all over the world are helpless. Pain can only be relieved with analgesics. Jiaqi went to see him and stayed quietly in the ward, Jiangxi left silently, and she just sat there, quietly looking at his sleeping face on the hospital bed. Occasionally he woke up, and the severe pain made him sweat profusely, but he still smiled when he saw her: "Can you go?" She knew he didn't want her to see him, so she always nodded and walked away silently. He kept telling her to go away, but she was really reluctant, even if she stayed for one more day, it would be good. He kept telling her to go away. She endured it day by day, because every minute, every second was so painful and so precious. The last time she went to see him in the hospital, he was in good spirits, and it was rare for him to get out of bed and walk around for a while. He was already very thin, lost weight drastically, and was so weak that he could only rely on nutrient solution for maintenance. He hadn't been able to get out of bed for several days. But today he was in surprisingly good spirits, walked around the ward for a while, and opened the windows to breathe. Jiaqi stood by the window with him, and he saw the sun outside the window was very nice and warm, as if spring had come. He said: "It's so fast, the spring in Shanghai seems to have come very early this year." She said, "Yes, the flowers are about to bloom again." He smiled: "It's still winter, the first month is not over yet, and it won't be the real spring until one more month later." Spring in Shanghai is earlier than in Beijing. Time here is always in such a hurry. Every minute, every second, is particularly rushed. He said: "You go today, I will call Heping and ask him to pick you up at the airport." "I'll leave tomorrow," she said. He said, "You said it yesterday, and you're leaving today, so why don't your words count?" "I'm leaving tomorrow," she said. He said, "Sure." She said, "Definitely." He smiled and stretched out his hand: "Pull the hook." Such a childish action has not been done for many years.She smiled and stretched out her hand to hook him up. His hand was cold, and because of the sharp weight loss, it was so thin that the finger bones were distinct. Her little finger finally hooked his little finger and shook it slightly. He said something in a low voice, which she didn't seem to hear. She finally left the next day, and Jiangxi drove Jiaqi to the airport. The two of them were silent all the way. It wasn't until the end that Jiangxi said: "Jiaqi, I'm very glad to meet you." Jiaqi said: "I am also very happy." Jiang Xi smiled instead: "Look, we are still destined, but this life seems to be a little less destined, so we can't be a family." Jiaqi tried to smile, but couldn't help it, as if she wanted to cry. "I really feel very lucky. Heping taught me how to love someone. My brother taught me how to love someone in another way. "Loving someone is not just unique. Loving someone also hopes that she is happier than me, happier than myself. Jiaqi, I was very jealous of you at one time, but now I feel that I can definitely find my person. Loving me is like peace Or like brother loves you, so unique, so firm, no matter what you can get, you will give it persistently and without regret.” She laughed easily: "Don't worry, I will take good care of my brother. My brother is also very strong. I went to the hospital to see him in the morning. He also said, don't cry when you leave, and you are married. Don't forget his invitation card, he has prepared a special surprise big red envelope for you. Also, in the future, your children must recognize him as a godfather, and he also told you not to forget him for the rest of your life. So that Meng Heping will be jealous for the rest of his life. It’s really long-winded, isn’t it?” Jiaqi imagined Ruan Zhengdong saying these words, and laughed until tears fell down. Jiang Xi said: "My brother didn't let you go to the hospital to see him, and there was no other reason, just because he was going to undergo chemotherapy in the morning. He said that the chemotherapy was too ugly, and he didn't want you to see him, really." Jiaqi kept nodding: "I know." When the airport finally arrived, Jiangxi parked the car in the parking lot and said, "I won't take you in. I'm most afraid of the occasion where I send you off in the terminal hall. I'm afraid I'll cry. I'm a public figure, a well-known female anchor. , crying will be in the tabloid lace news." Jiaqi kept nodding: "I know." Jiangxi opened his arms and hugged her vigorously: "Say hello to Brother Heping for me, you should take care." "I know." "Goodbye, Goodbye!" "goodbye." Jiangxi watched Jiaqi walk into the airport, and watched Jiaqi gradually disappear into the glass wall. She seemed to be drained of strength all of a sudden, leaning against the inside of the car limply, unable to even lift her fingers.She was able to do it. She always thought that there was no way for her to do it, and she would burst into tears at any second. The phone keeps ringing. She finally answered. "Jiangxi, I'm Secretary Zhang. Are you going back to the hospital? I need to discuss with you a lot of funeral affairs. There are also some belongings of Dongzi, which need to be dealt with. From early this morning until now, the chief has been very sad, and there is no water left. Jin, I'm really worried that the chief's body will collapse all of a sudden. I hope you can persuade him." In the early hours of the morning, she and her parents were standing in front of her brother's hospital bed. His last words were: "Don't let her know." She kept nodding: "I will see her off tomorrow, brother, I promise you, I will never let her know, let her leave with peace of mind." When Jiaqi walks into the airport, the noisy terminal hall is full of people coming and going, the boarding announcement is playing on the radio, there are children's laughter, and the sound of carts sliding across the ground, so noisy, so lively, this world , as bustling as ever.She walked very fast with her head down, keeping her head down. Jiaqi quickly completed the formalities and then boarded the plane. Sit back in your seat and wait until takeoff. When taxiing from slow to fast, when the fuselage was lifted up, when the plane broke away from gravity, she finally raised her head. On the adjacent seat was a young mother and her child. The little boy was about four or five years old. After unfastening his seat belt, he climbed up and down, looked around curiously, and never settled down for a moment. Finally, the little boy's childish voice was extremely low, and he secretly asked his mother: "Mom, look at that aunt, why does she keep crying, keep crying?" The young mother coaxed in a low voice: "Good boy, Auntie must be in pain, so she is crying." He didn't want her to know, she didn't know.He wanted her to go with peace of mind, and she would go with peace of mind. He made her feel at ease, and she wanted to make him feel at ease. She will never forget that night in the hospital, she stood in front of the door of the ward and looked in through a gap two or three inches wide. It was as narrow as a scene in a movie. He sank deeply into the sofa, only You can see his side face, he must have been sitting there for a long time, because the cigarette in his mouth has accumulated a long piece of ash, and it has not fallen out.She hardly dared to move, and could only look out following his gaze. On the coffee table was her thermos bucket, with a goose yellow body and two fluffy little ducks painted on it, under the orange light of the floor lamp , as warm as two small pompoms. He didn't know how long it took before he straightened up. He just stubbed out the cigarette butt, took another cigarette, struck a match and lit it. A small flame shone bluely on his face, and then he blew it out again. He stretched out his hand and touched the two ducklings painted on the outer shell of the thermos with his index finger. His movements were very light, as if they were two real ducklings, and his fingertips followed the outline of the little pompom carefully.After a while, I don't know what I thought of, and I smiled to myself. He had a pretty smile, his eyebrows slanted into his temples, his lips were pursed and curved softly. She leaned her head against the door and burst into tears. He said, "Why are you back again?" "I didn't wait for you," she said. In fact, he has always been there, he has always been there, as long as she turns her head, she can see it. He has been waiting for her. It was only after so long that she realized that she had met him as early as that moment. His handwriting was flowing and smooth: "Jiaqi, I finally waited for you to go home." He said: "I can't do it in this life. Therefore, I will definitely wait for you in the next life. I will meet you earlier than everyone else." But she couldn't say that she had actually met him, and she had actually fallen in love with him while he was waiting for her. For so many years, it took her a long, long time to learn to end and to start falling in love with someone again. But he couldn't be there, and he didn't have time for her. At the last moment, he thought she was not in love with him, so he left with peace of mind. In this way, she let him leave her at ease. When I finally fall in love with you, I will never tell you, because I am afraid that you will feel that it is too late, and that you will feel sorry. Afraid that you will feel guilty to me, afraid that you will feel uneasy. You have been waiting for me, and I will use this life to remember you. When his little finger hooked her little finger, he said: "One hundred years, no change." He made an agreement with her for a hundred years, she will not change, she will always remember, always remember, for a hundred years. Tears are like small crabs, crawling ferociously across every inch of her cheeks. She will always remember. One hundred years between her and him. The little boy couldn't help but tilted his head to watch.After a while, I suddenly remembered, took out half a pack of tissues from my pocket, and handed it to Jiaqi: "Auntie, don't be sad, my mother said, if you are sad, the people who love you will be even sadder. So every time When I fall, although it hurts a lot, I never cry, because I am afraid that if I cry, my mother will be even more sad." Jiaqi took the tissue, shed tears, but tried to smile: "Thank you." She will definitely take care of herself, because if she is sad, those who love her will be more sad than her. She must live happily, no matter when and where she is. She promised him that she must make herself happy. happiness. end of text