Chapter 21 Chapter 21

One end of the corridor is the wing room, and the other end is the kitchen and storage room. The kitchen is decorated in the oldest style, with a traditional large stove and a thin and straight chimney, which makes her feel very strange. Asked him, he just said: "Every time I drive in the countryside and see cooking smoke from a distance, it will make people feel moved." She guessed casually: "Then, did you build this house for yourself?" He said: "Yes, I always dream that when I get old in the future, I can live here, raise some chickens and ducklings, and plant a grape rack in the backyard. I go for a walk on the mountain at dusk, and when I see the smoke from the kitchen in the distance, I go down the mountain and go home Have a meal."

She said: "That's Xiaolongnv and Yang Guo, only gods and couples can do it. What if the person you love doesn't want to live in such a far suburb? Besides, how many people can cook with this kind of Chinese stove?" ?” He didn't make a sound, and after a while, he smiled: "So I said I was dreaming." The sun in late spring was so good, it slanted through the corner of the eaves, and shone on his face. Half of his face was in the shade of flowers, and the other half was bright, but his smile seemed a little unreal. Slightly wrinkled, his expression was melancholy and dazed, as if he had thought of something, but he seemed not to have thought of anything at all.She suddenly wanted to reach out and smooth his brow.

It was already dark when we drove back, and the road was being repaired. He was driving a semi-old Mitsubishi off-road vehicle. The condition of the car was not good.He called the car repair shop, but it was too far away from the city, and the tow truck hadn't arrived for a long time.The two of them sat in the car and waited. It was pitch black everywhere, with neither the village nor the shop behind, but everything was quiet outside the car. The night sky was deep and silent, and the stars were big and bright. She had never seen such a beautiful night sky, and it was clear in spring. In the night sky, there are piles of crowded stars, like cold rhinestones on the black velvet skirt, so low that it seems to be within reach.

On an April night in the north, the spring was still severe, and the temperature inside the car was getting lower and lower. She sneezed, and he asked, "Is it cold?" Before she could answer, he took off his coat and gave it to her. Put it on in the past, the coat still has his body temperature. It was getting colder and colder, so they had to talk as much as possible to distract themselves.From the embarrassing stories of everyone when they were young to the latest financial news, almost all the topics that can be discussed have been brought up by them.Jiangxi felt hungry and cold, hungry and thirsty, I don't know how long it took, and finally saw the bright lamppost flickering, appearing at the far end of the road, and the sound of the car was gradually approaching, and finally it could be seen that it was a trailer. She happily opened the car door and jumped off, turning her head and only smiling: "It's finally time."

His coat was wrapped around her body, it was long and big, the sleeves were too long like the sleeves on the stage, and she turned her head with a smile, most of her face was melted into the darkness, she saw him staring at her in the flickering car lights, Gentle and affectionate. Her heart suddenly moved. A few days later, she took the time to visit his company and returned the coat to him. It was only eight o'clock in the morning, and the secretary had just come to work. Seeing her, he said to her, "Mr. Meng worked overtime yesterday and slept in the office." She knocked on the door but no one answered, she opened the door and went in, the room was also quiet.The table was full of blueprints, and the ground was scattered with real estate models. She carefully walked around the sundries, and turned around to see him lying on the sofa in the corner, wrapped in a blanket and still sound asleep.

His brows were still furrowed in the dream. She bent down cautiously, stretched out her hand tentatively, and finally touched his brow.The feeling of her fingertips was warm and soft, she suddenly became more courageous, slowly approached, and finally kissed him, between his brows. He woke up suddenly, opened his eyes, his eyes seemed to be a little confused for a moment, and after a while, he said, "Xizi? What are you doing?" When she was caught, she was aboveboard: "I'm kissing you. I kissed you secretly just now. If you find it annoying, I'll leave immediately."

He was stunned for a moment, as if he was teased by her when he was a child, and he couldn't laugh or cry: "Sister, can you stop playing?" She grabbed his skirt and kissed him again. He finally stayed away. That's how it started, and it's the beginning, anyway, she loves to be with him all the time, often calls him, goes to see him, and works overtime with him.She made trouble with him when he was doing things, and he occasionally blurted out to call her "sister" and treat her like a child. Gradually, it was still about marriage, because Meng Heping's mother liked her very much.

Meng's mother has pancreatic cancer, which has reached an advanced stage and has been hospitalized for treatment. Jiangxi accompanied him to see Meng's mother once. The relationship between Meng Heping and his parents was not good. I don't know why.Especially his mother, whenever his mother speaks, he is always just silent.Moreover, that kind of deep melancholy would always vaguely appear between his brows, making her feel that even standing in the middle of thousands of people, he was still lonely and alone, which made her feel distressed. When Meng's mother saw her, she always sighed and said, "Heping is almost thirty years old. When I finish your business, I will die in peace."

But until she died, she did not wait for them to get married. When Meng's mother was critically ill, Meng Heping was on a business trip in Zhuhai. She rushed to the hospital first, and finally Meng Heping finally came back. Before she died, Ms. Meng held her hand all the time. At that time, Ms. Meng's consciousness was not very clear: "Mom...wrong..." Her voice was broken and disordered, "Peace..." Mother Meng's eyes kept looking at him, showing hope. He finally held his mother's hand, and gently placed the other hand on the back of Jiangxi's hand.

His hands were cold, even colder than his mother's. When Meng's mother's hands were getting colder, he still maintained that posture, motionless. That was the first time she saw him cry. Weep silently. From then on, she made up her mind that she would never let his eyes show that kind of sad and painful expression in the future. And Sheng Zhi always laughed at her: "You are so amazing that you can stand being with Meng Heping. I can't do it. I grew up together, and being with your brother always gives me the illusion of incest. This life is destined to be only siblings."

My brother used to like Sheng Zhi very much, but maybe he just liked it.She never thought that her brother could still fall in love with someone else. Aunt Li came to the study to find her, knocked on the door and told her: "Xizi, Heping's call." He asked her on the phone: "Would you like to go out for dinner later? I have reserved a seat at No. 3 on the Bund." She promised him. Then go back to the room to change clothes, remake up, everything is done and go downstairs, Ruan Zhengdong and Jiaqi have returned at some point.Seeing her, Jiaqi asked, "Do you want to go out to dinner with us tonight?" Ruan Zhengdong said: "You can see that she has changed clothes, you know she has a date, why would she go out with us." Jiaqi had already changed her slippers, so Ruan Zhengdong asked, "Why did you change your shoes as soon as you came back? Anyway, you have to go out later." Jiaqi said: "You never mop the floor, so I don't know how tiring Aunt Zhang is. Besides, the shoes are high-heeled, so comfortable to wear slippers at home. Only a woman like Song Meiling wears high-heeled shoes at home all day long." Ruan Zhengdong laughed and said, "But I know another woman who wears high heels all day long at home." Jiaqi snorted and said, "Isn't it Sheng Zhi?" Ruan Zhengdong was most troubled when she mentioned this name, and interrupted quickly: "How about going to eat local dishes tonight?" Before Jiaqi could answer, Jiangxi suddenly asked, "Jiaqi, what size shoes do you wear?" Ruan Zhengdong said, "She wears size six." He bought shoes with her once, so he knew.But I remember it so clearly, Jiaqi was afraid of Xizi's jokes, so she couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed, but Jiangxi said: "I bought a pair of shoes yesterday, and they were too small. They are size six. If you don't mind, I can give them to you, okay?" ? I haven't worn them once." Hearing what she said, Jiaqi would be afraid that Jiangxi would be offended if she declined.So Jiang Xi took off the shoe and let her try it on, and it was just right, not too big or too small. Ruan Zhengdong said: "These shoes are very beautiful." Jiang Xi said: "Yes, but unfortunately I can't wear it." Ruan Zhengdong couldn't help laughing when he heard her melancholy tone: "I know this brand is not cheap, why don't I buy you another pair to save your heartache." Jiang Xi laughed: "It's really not sincere, and you are so stingy to me, at least you have to buy me two pairs." Her cell phone rang, and it was Meng Heping who asked, "Shall I pick you up now?" She said, "No need, I can go there by myself." The "Jean Georges" restaurant at Three on the Bund is quite well-known. Jiangxi and Meng Heping have been here several times, and Jiangxi thought Meng Heping had booked a table here again.Unexpectedly, he took her up to the top floor of Wangjiang Pavilion. The personal butler of the private room on the top floor was already waiting for them at the door of the restaurant, and opened the door for them with a smile. The private room is very small, Jiangxi has heard of this place, and everyone said it is an excellent world for two, it is so small that it can only accommodate two people.On a small round table, candles were lit here and there, decorated with flaming roses. And through the glass, you can have a panoramic view of the entire Bund.On both sides of the Huangpu River, all the buildings seem to be piled up of bright crystals.Along the west bank of the Pujiang River, countless old-era buildings seem to be covered with golden sands of time in the blurred light projection.A river of car lights flows on the Bund, and the reflections of the lights on both sides of the river flow on the river.The cruise ship slowly passed by with the twinkling stream of light. The buildings in Pudong looked like crystal-clear Qionglou Yuyu from a distance, and more like crystal clusters reflecting sunlight. , are falling one after another, connecting the sky and the earth, just a bright sea of ​​stars. The beautiful scenery on a good day is unparalleled in the world. No matter how gorgeous the rhetoric is, it still feels pale. Looking out from this angle, the most prosperous end of the city is grandly laid out, overlooking the prosperity of all beings. He said: "Sheng Zhi recommended this place to me. She said that this is the most romantic place to propose marriage in Shanghai, and it is said that until now, the success rate of marriage proposal here is 100%." He smiled: "I hope, I can use this 100% luck." The champagne was kept in an ice bucket, exuding white mist, and beside the slender crystal champagne glass was a bunch of roses, bright and in full bloom, as bright as drops of red.Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows is the luxurious and beautiful Bund lights, as gorgeous as the most romantic movie set in the world, and every shot is so beautiful that people have no resistance. He smiled, took out a rose, and put it in her hair like a dark cloud.The aroma of roses mixed with the fragrance of hair, then gently lowered his head and kissed her temples. She closed her eyes, and finally heard him say: "Marry me, will you?" At this moment, she has the happiest moment in the world. The brilliant diamond in the black velvet box shone with sharp white light under the light, as if what he reached out to pick up was the brightest star in the sky, right in his palm, shining the most beautiful light in the world. The river wind blows the drawn curtains, the candlelight flickers, and the smile on her face seems to falter. He looked at her, but her eyes seemed to pass through him, projecting into some empty space behind him.Numerous scene lights and spotlights outside the terrace complement each other, outlining the heaven and the earth, and the sea of ​​stars and lights are all in one color.Her face was facing the most prosperous night in the world, countless tiny light and shadows danced in her hairline. There seems to be a smile on her face, that smile is the ice and snow in spring, which melts piece by piece under the sunlight, and her silhouette under the candlelight is very beautiful. Many years ago, in the small dark auditorium, she stood far away, surrounded by darkness, but he seemed to be able to see her eyes, and he knew that there was light and heat in her eyes, warm and sincere Looking at herself intently, she put her hands around her mouth and answered him loudly: "I-will-will-" Her crisp voice echoed throughout the small auditorium. That was the happiest moment in the world, that was the most beautiful answer in the world, every word carried sweet warmth, penetrated into the bottom of his heart, penetrated deeply into every blood and flesh, and could never be pulled out again. The hand holding the ring suddenly started to feel cold. The chill from the fingertips went along the blood vessels and penetrated into the heart, where it tightened, squeezed, couldn't be restrained, couldn't be forced, and there was a strong pain. He couldn't restrain it, and his hand was shaking . The sudden pain in his chest made him almost unable to breathe. The most important part, as the soul has gradually died, lingering on, but at the last moment, it instinctively struggled to death, hoping for the last ray of air. But the person in front of him was not that one. "I'm sorry." He finally heard his own voice, as if piercing through a long distance, powerless and futile, "Xizi." The corners of her mouth trembled slightly, as if she wanted to speak, but she held back after all. "I always thought I could, but now I know I can't, because in my heart, the one I love deeply is my wife, and I can't marry someone else." His voice finally calmed down from trembling: "I like you very much, but that's just the kind of liking for your sister when I was a child. Over the years, I have never stopped loving another person. She is the only person I love in my life. I know that I will never be able to love you again. To get her back, I know that I am not qualified to love her again, but I can't control it. For so many years, even if she left me, even if I had to leave her, I have no way to stop loving her, and I will never stop in the future. Because of her Is the most important part of me. Apart from her, I have no way to love others, no matter how beautiful and good the other people are, but I have no way to love others like I love her. I gave her everything, and then Can't give it to others. So, Jiangxi, please forgive me, I can't marry you, because in my heart, my wife will always be her." The night wind blew, and the snow-white curtain seemed to be undulating like waves. She turned her face away, raised her face vigorously, and stared at the black velvet night sky outside the terrace. The twinkling stars were like a handful of silver nails, each of which was deeply driven into the night.Annihilated by such a bright sea of ​​lights, every naked eye can hardly see clearly. She said slowly: "Whenever I want to cry, I look up at the stars so that the tears don't flow down." "But the person who really loves me should never let me cry." There are crystal tears in her eyes, and just behind her is the most prosperous and bright night in the city, and she has no makeup and green temples, as lonely as snow: "When I was young, I played house, and I was your bride. Today you finally broke one of my most beautiful and best dreams. It was so cruel that I had to wake up. I know that there is someone you have been thinking about for so many years, but until today, I am not sure who that person is. " He looked at her, and she looked lonely and miserable: "How could it be her?" He couldn't restrain the pain in his heart, couldn't speak, couldn't control it. "Sorry." Destiny is like a game. In the end, every chess piece is immobilized, and there are thousands of ties, and life is better than death. She finally smiled, but that smile was more bleak than crying. "Peace, thank you, because you let me know that there is a kind of unique feeling in this world, which cannot be compromised in the slightest. I think she is so lucky to have you loving her like this, but I also think I am so lucky to be able to love her like this." With you, you have loved me like a brother for so many years. The most important thing is to teach me how to love someone. Use all of yourself, no matter whether the other person knows it or not, no matter what the future holds, no matter whether there is hope or not, just don’t flinch, just Love with all your might." He looked at her, tears were shining in her eyes, blurred and bright, like broken stars. "But you can't, take her from your brother. Because your brother loves her as much as you love her. No matter what you have been, you can't take her from your brother now, because if you , brother, he will die. You know his current situation. He has never loved anyone the way he loves her in all these years. She is the most important part of you. Without her, you are very sad, but without her, Brother can't live. If you want to say sorry to me, I can forgive you, because that is something you can't control, just like I can't control myself to love you. It doesn't matter if you don't love me, we can be like this from now on It's the same as before, just being brothers and sisters. But no matter what, I won't let my brother lose her."