Chapter 18 Chapter Eighteen

"you are lying." After a long silence, she looked into his eyes and broke the silence: "Lying makes a long nose." He smiled: "I've been lying, Jiaqi." "I grew up with Heping. When I was young, I played wars. I was the company commander and he was the instructor. He led a group of people to charge into the battle. When encountering the enemy, I led people to break through and he covered the retreat. When I was more than ten years old, I was with other big boys. The children in the courtyard were fighting, and they slapped them with a brick, and Heping stood in front of me. He sewed several stitches on his head for this, but he didn’t shed a tear. I have met him countless times, but I have never seen him cry. But Jiaqi, do you know? In the middle of the night a few years ago, I called him and asked him about the date of his marriage to you without knowing it. My best friend in this life, my brother, just because you don't want him anymore, a big man in his twenties, he actually cried on the phone.

"It's the first time in my life that I saw him so sad. He praised you many times in front of me. I always thought that you would get married, because Heping is a very stubborn person. If you treat anyone well, you will never change for the rest of your life. .He treats me well, and he will wholeheartedly recognize me as a brother in this life. If he loves you, he can fall out with his family for you, save money bit by bit, and think of marrying you. He even told me I said, your son must recognize me as a godfather in the future. He never thought that you would not want him. When he was crying, across the entire Pacific Ocean, I thought in my heart that there is nothing I can do , my best brother was hurt like this by a woman, and there is nothing I can do.

"When I met you for the first time, I was thinking, Yujiaqi, I recognize you, it turned out to be you. Compared with the photos a few years ago, you haven't changed much, let alone much Beautiful, how could it be you? Why is it such a woman who fascinates Heping so much that he can shed tears for you. "I didn't expect you to be married yet. I think it's retribution. You dumped Heping, and they dumped you in the end. I just want to see what skills you have. I'll send you flowers, call you, and make an appointment You are willing to come out, I looked at you calmly, just want to find out what is special about you, which can make Heping feel sad for you. If you are hooked, I plan to dump you immediately and replace me The best brother avenged his sword many years ago. I can easily feel how unworthy he was sad for you back then. But you never thought anything wrong with me, I just thought, you Either you are too stupid, or you are really good at acting, and you have a good sense of proportion. Since you want to play, of course I will accompany you to the end. Over the years, I have seen many women. Over time, no matter how well the fox tail is hidden You can also show it. But you have the ability to not leak. Other women, either love my money, or love my family background, or love my people, there is always the same thing, but you really don’t care, you are with me all day long Son, don't look at me too much.

"After dinner that night, I took you back home, and you fell asleep in the car. When I got there, I wanted to ask you to get out of the car, but you fell into a drowsy sleep. You just said: 'Meng Heping, stop making trouble. .' "I didn't know so many years, after so many years, not only he remembered you, but you never forgot him. "That's when I realized that I was actually jealous of peace. "You slept for more than two hours that day. I sat in the car and hugged you. You fell asleep in my arms. I thought to myself, how could it be you? You are neither smart nor beautiful, and you are even a little Stupid, how could I fall in love with you? Why you? Is it because you don't want to see me? But I hold you, but I don't want you to wake up, because once you wake up, I have to let go.

"I have lived for thirty-three years, and I have liked other people, separated and reunited, and there were times when I was sincere. But that day, I listened to the ticking of the watch in my hand, and walked minute by minute. I thought to myself, every second that passes, the time I can hold you like this is one second less, and the time I can be with you is one second less. I made up my mind to wake you up, and I will wake you up again later. I don't see you either. "I've never known what it's like to miss someone in my life. When I wake up in the middle of the night, I will suddenly miss you. No matter where I am, no matter where I am, I can think of you. Finally, I will call you and listen to I feel soft when I hear your voice, every time I think, this is the last time, the last time I see you, next time I will not call you again, I will forget you.

"In the end, you were the first to say breakup, and you said breakup indifferently. You relied on my love for you, and you were able to dump me so carelessly. Me and Heping fell into your hands like this inside. "After I was sick, you came to see me in the hospital. When you looked at Meng Heping, your eyes trembled. You idiot, you can't lie to anyone at all. You are so stupid. You still love him after so many years, but why? Want to separate from him? Only I am more stupid than you, because I would love you. "I know I won't live long. My illness probably lasted for a year or two. That night you went to the hospital to deliver wontons to me. You knocked on the door and I was actually in the ward, but I didn't open the door. In the end you sat On the chair, I looked at you through the crack of the door, nodding and dozing like a child. I think it’s better to forget it, you are still young, and I will not hurt you. But in the end you came back, you Tell me, you didn't wait for me. For your words, I made up my mind to keep you, even a little more time, a little more time with you, is good.

"You were injured that day, and you told me not to go to see you, but I went anyway, Jiaqi, you don't know, I saw Heping's car parked downstairs at your house, and I watched from a distance, see I watched him sit in the car alone until dawn. I am a man, and I know what it is like for a man to love a woman. He sat in the car all night, I don’t know what he was thinking, but I know What am I thinking, what have I done? I have brought the three of us into this situation, I am too unjust. Finally, watching the sky light up bit by bit, I also made up my mind to put the three of us in this situation. It's over.

"The two of you are really alike. You are both desperate and foolish. You can endure no matter how hard it is. But I am different. I can't bear it. The person I love must be wholehearted. Treat me wholeheartedly, because I treat her wholeheartedly, and I have exhausted all my strength, so I can't tolerate her distractions. Jiaqi, so I don't love you anymore, I don't love you anymore. Please stop deceiving yourself, Go and explain clearly to Meng Heping why you left him back then. The two of you, self-righteously perfect each other, but hurt more people. In fact, Jiangxi's personality is like mine, and he will not tolerate it, so please leave I, never come back."

He smiled easily: "Jiaqi, what I said today is all the truth, but you are still lying to yourself until now, so only you have a long nose." With such a long speech, Jiaqi felt like a dream, and her voice was soft, small, like a dream: "But you don't know, it's impossible for me and Meng Heping." "Even if I love him again, it's impossible." She didn't cry, but said these words calmly and calmly like him: "There are too many other things between the two of us, and I have no way or possibility to be with him again. "I didn't lie to myself, I tried my best to treat you, because I know you are good to me. Yes, I love you not as deeply as I love Meng Heping, because I didn't meet you before. But I am not a wooden person. I know in my heart how you treat me. In this world, besides Meng Heping, only you have loved me like this. When I finally made up my mind to start again, you pushed me away like this, I have nothing to say. But what I want to say is that there is no way to compare love. You did your best, and I did my best. If you think I don’t love enough, it’s because I didn’t have time. Not enough time, not enough youth, let me fall in love with you like I love him."

She squatted down slowly, leaning on the sofa, as if she wanted to grab something to rely on: "I used to be like you, I thought that sacrifice could make happiness come true. After so many years, I realized that I was wrong, but sacrificing myself didn't make me happy." People get happiness. Because of the person I really love, even if that person leaves, the other person will not stop loving him because of it. I also said to a person many years ago that I no longer love him, saying that When I was talking, I would rather be dead, but now I understand that even if I was really dead at that time, he would not stop loving me.

"In this world, I have let down a person who loves me deeply. I gave up Meng Heping before, because I couldn't give up something more important than love, such as family affection, such as dignity. Now I can't return to him. Because there is something between us that can never be crossed. I have no way to go back in this life, I can only live up to him, I have no other way to him except guilt. I thought it was like this for the rest of my life, and I almost planned to spend my whole life I still owe him. But after so many years, I can still meet you, and I can still meet another person who loves me deeply. I don’t want to let you down. Being selfish, I also want to be unscrupulous for a while, regardless of the past. I want to start again. Zhengdong, no matter whether you really don’t love me anymore, no matter how your illness is, I hope you Don't push me away. Even if I wishful thinking, I want to be with you, I want to hold your hand till the end. I want you to give me time so that I can say, I love you as much as you love me you." She half-squatted and half-kneeled in front of the sofa, like a child, and slowly pressed her face on his knees, his body was trembling slightly.Slowly and gently, she stretched her arms around his waist. He slowly stretched out his hand, his fingers running through her long hair, and wrapped his arms around her shoulders. The sound of rain knocked on the window bit by bit. Her face was buried in his arms, and her voice was very soft: "You have to promise me that you will treat your illness well." "it is good." "You have to promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will never ask me to leave you again." "it is good." "You have to promise me that you will never provoke other women again." "it is good." "You have to promise me that you will love yourself as much as you love me." "it is good." "You have to promise me that no matter what happens, you will never leave me again." I don't know how long it took, and finally icy water drops fell on the top of her hair, and slowly penetrated into her hair. She lay there motionless, and finally couldn't bear it any longer, her eyes became hot, and she didn't dare to raise her head. "it is good." He said slowly: "What other conditions are there? If you want to mention it, you can bring it up together. Yujiaqi, I found that you are really troublesome. How could I have messed with you? I can't get rid of you. If you make an inch, you have to He doesn't forgive others, and he likes to take care of things." With tears in her eyes, she smiled and said, "You only found out today, but it was too late. There are many conditions. Listen carefully: From now on, you are only allowed to love me alone. If you want to spoil me, you can't lie to me. Promise me." You must do everything you want, and be sincere in every word you say to me. Don’t bully me, scold me, and trust me. When others bully me, you have to come out to help me as soon as possible. I’m happy. You have to accompany me to be happy, I am not happy, you have to make me happy. You will always think that I am the most beautiful, and you will see me in your dreams, and there is only me in your heart." "So long?" "If you can't remember it, record it with MP4, take it with you every day, listen to it three times in the morning, review it three times before going to bed at night, and often play it three times by your ear when you have time. This is called three times." He finally realized something was wrong: "Why do you feel a little familiar with what you said just now, as if I've heard it somewhere before." Jia Qi said, "You don't even remember such a classic line? It's from the British BBC." "Nonsense, it's obviously Cecilia Cheung's "Hedong Lion's Roar"." She grabbed the handle: "Okay, and you claim to never watch crude Hong Kong-style literary films, so how do you know it's "The Lion's Roar"?" "I never watched it, but at that time I was chasing a little sister, so I went to the cinema with her and watched this movie." She stretched out her hand to pinch him: "How dare you say it, how dare you say it!" He was pinched by her and grinned, begging for mercy: "Take it easy, can it work? Why didn't you find out that you are still so violent before?" "Did you know? Hmph, have you watched "Sassy Girl" with your little sister?" "No, really not!" "I don't believe it. You know the policies of the party and the people. If you are frank, you will be lenient, and if you resist, you will be strict." "Really not, please the party and the people trust me this time." "Your history is too innocuous, and it is too difficult to believe you." "But I have confessed all the problems left over from history. Besides, people must be allowed to make mistakes, and even more so, they must be allowed to correct them." "Then you have to reform your thinking and strive for leniency. From today on, you have to watch a Hong Kong-produced literary film with me every day, until you have finished watching all Hong Kong-produced literary films, even if you have corrected your mistakes." "If I don't do it, won't my life be over? One book a day, I won't be able to finish watching the next life." He smiled maliciously, "Can you punish me to do something else with you every day? ? For example... Some proper exercise that is beneficial to physical and mental health? Ah! Ah! Why did you pinch me again? Pinch me and kiss you again, I kissed you, I really kissed you..." His voice lowered, lost between the lingering lips and teeth. They kissed for a long, long time. There is a wet and warm little brush brushing Jiaqi's ankles, one by one, rhythmic and hot.After a while, he went to lick Ruan Zhengdong's instep again. Seeing that they ignored them completely, the neglected dog stopped licking and barked a few times with its tail upright, trying to arouse the owner's attention: "Wow! Wow!" He finally moved his lips slightly, and murmured: "Oracle bone script, don't make noise." Oracle continued to bark unrelentingly. She struggled hard: "Why is it called Oracle?" "Shall we go upstairs? I'll tell you when I go upstairs, this dog is not good." The oracle bone script was irritated by the master who valued sex and despised pampering, so he bit the corner of his trousers and refused to let go. She looked around and said to him: "I want to watch a literary film." "Can you change it to the proposal I just made..." "You have a good idea. Let me tell you, this is light. Why don't you accompany me to watch Taiwan's eight o'clock serials every day, starting with the complete works of Qiong Yao." He begged for mercy: "Let's watch Hong Kong movies. Can you watch DVDs in my bedroom? I have a good home theater in my room." "What's going on with you and Sheng Zhi?" "what?" "Stop pretending to be confused." "Whose movie do you like to watch? Do you like to go to the cinema or watch the original soundtrack at home? Let's watch Wong Kar Wai first, or Er Dongsheng first? Or Wu Yusen?" "Has John Woo ever made a literary film?" "Haven't you ever filmed it?" "What happened to Sheng Zhi?" "How do you remember?" "I will remember it forever. I forgot to tell you that I am the cheapest person." "I love you." "what?" "I love you no matter how stingy you are." "Then what happened to Sheng Zhi?" "No way," he wailed, "I even used the trump card of vulgar literary films, and you still ask." "If you don't tell me, I will chase you and ask questions for the rest of my life." "What you said, it's a lifetime. If you lose a year, a month, a day, or an hour, it doesn't count as a lifetime!" She came to her senses, "Be honest, who did you read it with?" "How can you be so jealous? I watched it with Chen Kaige." She didn't believe it at all, "Liar." "I really didn't lie to you. The film premiered in Shanghai in 1993. I happened to be at home on vacation. The propaganda department gave a lot of free tickets. I was free so I went to see it." She grabbed him excitedly, "Did you really go? Then did you see my brother? Oh my god, the premiere of 13 years ago, my brother must have been like a heavenly man at that time. Did you get him to sign? Did you Group photo? Did you keep the premiere commemorative card?" He finally lost to her, "Why are you so nympho?" "You know, I'm brutal, violent, stingy, jealous, and nympho. It's a pity, I was deceived, and I knew it too late." He kissed her cheek like a child. Then he said softly: "I only regret one thing, I regret not meeting you sooner. You have suffered a lot, and I have gone a lot of wrong roads myself."