Chapter 10 round dance - 10

There are many magazines in the clinic, all of them are Qiao Meilin, and her look is popular now: healthy, bold, and gorgeous.In fact, I am about the same age as her, but I made my debut early, every ten or eight years, I seem to be an old-timer, and no one will believe that Qiao Meilin and I are both in their twenties. Besides, I introduced that she is bold and unrestrained, and her style is a generation behind. Everyone wears a pair of rotten pants, and the taste is different. She should wear them that way, and I wear them sloppy. She can wear chunks of fake glass gems, plastic beads, crawl in mud and still look sexy.

I can not. I want to live forever and pretend to be a non-human being. The doctor sent me. She is young and beautiful in appearance, and I mockingly thought: Look, if I live up to it, maybe it is this female doctor. She asked, "Miss Ma introduced you?" "yes." "What's up?" "I hit my chest and it hurts unbearably." "Lie down, please, I'll check for you." Her hand gestures were very skillful, and I suddenly became vigilant, isn't this a breast cancer check?The steps described in the magazine are exactly the same. I pay attention to the doctor's expression, she is very peaceful, and I also relax a little.

She has already noticed, "Don't be nervous, why is your body twitching?" "It's okay." "There's a lipoma here." I looked at her, hoping to find clues in her eyes. "Let's do a sample check." I jumped up from the bed, "I just came to get two painkillers, I didn't expect such trouble." "Very simple--" "I do not want to do." I buttoned up and left. When I opened the door of the clinic, I saw Ma Peixia. I said angrily, "Your doctor friend is a doctor. I came to relieve the pain, but she hardly recommended me to have my head replaced."

The doctor was not angry, but Ma Peixia gave me a blank look. I was inexplicably excited. The doctor came and said, "Don't be afraid." I'm afraid, what are you afraid of?Pull Ma Peixia and leave. On the street, when the wind blows, the person wakes up and asks Ma Peixia, "Why are you here?" "To see if you need care." "You don't have to do this." I held her hand, "I'm going to be a bride soon, I'm too busy, so I have to take time out to take care of me." "Why are you suddenly polite?" She smiled. I didn't answer.

"Cheng Yu, I've always thought that without me, you and Fu Yuchen wouldn't be in this situation." I was stunned and laughed. People are always inseparable from self-centeredness, even Ma Peixia, who is gentle and modest. She takes herself too seriously. I can't bear to tell her that she is just one of Fu Yuchen's dancing partners. The dance is excellent, and he will not spend his life with her. At the moment I smiled and said, "Aren't we fine now?" She is silent. "I'm tired, I want to go back and rest." "I see you off."

I did not refuse. When the car arrived at the door, Ma Peixia asked, "Do you want me to come up to accompany you?" I shake my head. Go upstairs, open the door with a key, and see a female guest sitting in the living room.I was taken aback, who is this, I didn't have an appointment with anyone. The female guest turned her head when she heard the sound, and when she saw me, she immediately raised her voice and said with a smile: "I'm Qiao Meilin, I came here uninvited, please don't take offense." I was very surprised. Over the years of getting along with people of the older generation, I have learned their charades, and I rarely come into contact with people who are so straight to the point.

"Hi," she said, "how are you?" Qiao Meilin was several years younger than her with heavy makeup at night, and her eyes were so bright that I could hardly keep them open. She was so full of energy, as if she had taken some medicine. I said tiredly: "Miss Qiao, I'm not ready to meet guests today, and I'm not in good spirits." She immediately asked, "What's the matter, can I help you?" How passionate, and how natural and frank it is, I am deeply surprised. For me, it takes ten years of acquaintance to become friends, while enemies, enemies need twenty years of friendship to be qualified.

Qiao Meilin said with a smile: "I have always hoped to be as internationally famous as you, and to be the beauty selected by Harper Magazine." "In the past two years, colored models have risen a lot, and it's just a matter of fashion." Why did she come to the door? "I'm passing by here to visit you, if you don't mind, can we have a cup of tea?" "Is it Yao Yongqin?" I was infected by her frankness. She was startled, "No, no, no, no," she said repeatedly, "I'm not boasting, there are many young masters like him in this city, and Qiao Meilin doesn't have to worry about him."

I smiled and asked, "Then you came up here specifically to be friends with me?" "Why not? Didn't I already say that I have admired you for some time." I went to open the door, "Let's have tea when we have time." "If you really care about Yao Yongqin, let me tell you that he went to Rio de Janeiro for vacation with another lady yesterday afternoon." I was overjoyed, and then suppressed myself, "Oh yes, Leo is very beautiful in this climate." "I want you to trust me." "goodbye." I closed the door behind her and asked the maid why she let a stranger into the house.

The maid didn't take it seriously, "She is Qiao Meilin, she is not a stranger." I lay down on the bed to rest, but I couldn't relax completely, because of Fu Yuchen, he was coming to have a showdown with me today, the music ended, and there were only two of us left on the dance floor, I wanted to hear what he had to say, I've been waiting for so many years . In the haze, I only felt that the maid seemed to let someone in again. The guest went straight in and pushed me beside my bed. I opened my eyes, and it was Ma Peixia.I made fun of her: "Mrs. Ouyang, why did you pester me?"

"Cheng Yu, stop telling jokes." It was Fu Yuchen's voice. In the eternal threesome, Ma Peixia said everything she wanted to do at a critical moment, it was really hateful. "What's up?" Fu Yuchen looked at me, "Cheng Yu, I want you to be admitted to the hospital immediately for examination." I was startled, it turned out to be the case, "Hey, hey, don't be so nervous, okay?" Turning to look at Ma Peixia, "What did your friend on the road say?" "She insisted you do the slicing." I sat up and asked with a smile, "Why?" "Put on clothes," Fu Yuchen said, "don't play with time." "I will not go." "Cheng Yu, I'll be with you in just twenty minutes." "You should spend your honeymoon with Ouyang." "Of course I will go after you leave the hospital." "I want to have a word with Fu Yuchen." "Okay, I'll wait for you outside." I lit a cigarette and looked at him, "You've got another excuse." "I don't understand what you mean." "You regretted it, and decided to stay in music, but?" He said softly, "Nonsense." "I came out of the hospital, and you don't know who to marry." "with you." I stare at him. "You are ignorant, what else can you do except get married." "I thought you'd never ask." "I'm going to wait for you to grow up." "I've grown up already." "No, the time is just right," he paused, "Why, do you still want to marry me?" "That was my only ambition since I was seven years old." "Yes, I remember when we met, you were only seven years old." "At that time, your dancing partner was a Miss Huang named Elizabeth." "You have a good memory," he sighed. "She lived happily after marrying someone else, and raised several children, all of whom are as beautiful as Angel." He treats Miss Huang differently. "You have nothing on your mind anymore?" "No, the heart disease has been completely cured." "Then we set off at once to the hospital." I'm still hesitating. "For my sake, just give me face, okay?" I changed my clothes, and when Ma Peixia saw us, she turned off the fireworks and stood up, saying, "Only you can convince her." I'm tired, my gorgeous dance dress is wrinkled and my feet are a little swollen, I wish I could take off my shoes and relax them, I want to sit down and drink a glass of ice water, Fu Yuchen's suggestion is really timely. The doctor gave me local anesthesia. I opened my eyes and looked at the milky white ceiling. Many things had to be done by myself. My face, my life, and my pain belonged to me. My mother gave me a good-looking body. With it, I can live a more splendid life than ordinary women. I should be grateful. The nurse asked me, "It doesn't hurt at all, does it? Well, you can get up, go home, drink more water, and have a good rest." "I'm sure it's nothing." She also smiled and said, "Of course it's nothing, just buying insurance." She helped me up. Only Fu Yuchen accompanied me home, and Ma Peixia. "She's back to pack her bags. Going to Bali for her honeymoon tonight." Being able to go to such a boring place, they have more or less true feelings. As far as I know, Fu Yuchen has never been to that kind of place with any of his wives.Yuan Zukang and I didn't have one either. We went out into the crowd, singing and singing every night, and the husband and wife couldn't speak three words in half a year. Ten years ago, it was impossible for Ma Peixia to have such a happy ending. I really appreciate the openness of the society.thing. I lit a cigarette. "The teeth are all yellow." Fu Yuchen muttered. I smile.It's coming, and it's inevitable to start meddling. "How much do you smoke a day?" "I have no other interests. Eating, drinking, prostitution and gambling are all wrong to me. This is my only hobby. Besides, the world is about to collapse. Some people in Africa have been starving for ten years, and there are wars everywhere. Let my teeth rest in peace." "Cheng Yu, I really don't know what to do with you." "accompany me." "I've got to go to America." "What?" "Go for a divorce." Ah yes, he is still married. "What am I doing alone?" He smiled, "You have your only hobby, I'm not worried." "Come back soon." "It started targeting me for a limited time," he said. We hug tightly. New York has a phone call to assign work. I said that I want to prepare for the wedding and don't want to work for the time being.They seduced me: "I will let you go in two days, and you will be guaranteed 12 hours of sleep within 48 hours, as a pre-wedding commemoration." "I'm going to ask him." "After asking the first time, I have to ask every time, Miss Zhou, have you thought it through?" "I know." "He must be rich." "Philippines." "Ruang is very important at this time of year. You have always liked golden rain flowers. Standing in the shade of a tree, those little golden flowers can't stop falling on your head, face, and body. Remember, golden tears." "No." "You are a cruel, vicious, ignorant, ignorant woman." "I had to ask him first." "Do you want to ask his permission to breathe?" "In fact, it is." He told me to go to hell, I said please go first. Don't want to work anymore.The modeling career is not easy. When I change three makeups a day, I really feel that my face will be torn off with the makeup, the hairstyle is changed again and again, and the big puffy hair will be pulled out with the brush. What's the use of heartache. And I don't like to hear "Ah, you are the famous Zhou Chengyu". To the unimaginable realm, I was trapped in a situation where I would never recover. We all have no friends, because no real person can live as wonderfully as they imagined. When they come into contact with the real face, they often feel cheated and very disappointed. After a period of time away from work, people forget. Fortunately, their memory is poor. The night was long and dreary, the phone rang, and I jumped over like a girl, "Pay attention to it," I said. "I'm Joe Mellin." She really didn't give up and wanted to get closer to me. "Do you think sitting at home is boring?" I find it funny, she will be lonely? Immediately, I realized that it was not fair. We all make this mistake of putting on hats for others. "Of course it's boring," I said from an impartial angle, "we're in the same boat." "Would you like to come out for a cup of tea?" "I can't, I have to wait for the call." "He went out?" "yes." "At least you still have a spiritual sustenance." I feel quite congenial with Qiao Meilin. I have never been close to a woman of the same age in my life. She has her own way. She is enthusiastic, hearty, and confident. She does not hesitate to take the initiative to contact me who is unresponsive. It is commendable. Birds of a feather flock together, and she is also a woman who is tired of fame. "Would you like to come over?" I finally invited her, "Have a cup of honey tea, it's good for your skin." "My skin sucks." Qiao Meilin has more style than me and knows how to enjoy herself. She drives a beautiful black sports car, which is eye-catching. I laughed and said, "I don't have any props." She stared at me, "You don't need to use any props." "Your expenses must be astronomical," I said, "but the income must also be astonishing." She sat down, "How can I be as humble as you?" "Me? I'm the most withdrawn person." I laughed. "I really admire you, you know?" "Thank you, me too, please drink tea." She came closer and took my hand. I was slightly surprised, and instinctively withdrew my hand gently. "You're in a much better mood today." She could see that she was so careless, and her mood was far worse than when I first saw her. The diamond in Qiao Meilin's hand is very big and dazzling, which I don't have, I don't have anything. She seemed to know what I was thinking, and said with a smile: "It's all set by myself, I haven't used men, and I haven't taken advantage of them." I believe it, I can see it. "The time I showed up with Yao Yongqin was for an appointment with a producer, and he asked him to pick me up." She still wanted to explain. I smiled, "Melin, I don't think you need to mind, he is so happy in Leo, we can really forget him." "You have been with him for three years." "I was very depressed during those days, and he helped me a lot." "I know, you gained a lot of weight at that time." I nodded, "Did you read it in a magazine?" "Yes, so we just met, as if we have known you for a long time." If I let go, I will feel this way, but unfortunately I don't pay much attention to the local news, otherwise I can exchange courtesy. "Are you at the peak of your career?" I asked. "It can be said like this." "It's over for me." Mei Lin smiled, "It's a miracle that you have a career. You never force, force, drill, camp, pry, plot, push, bully... You haven't finished, you haven't started yet." I stared at her with wide eyes. Yes yes yes yes, I need such a friend, Qiao Meilin is so kind, she just said a few words, and said it to my heart. She is not only beautiful, but also intelligent, and I like her more and more. She looked at her watch, "It's getting late, I'll see you another day." It's my turn to be reluctant. She is much more independent than me, so she feels much younger than me. I can't fly high, because Fu Yuchen is my shackles, but I am willing. Lying on the bed, there is a tender feeling, and the many, many bitternesses are not enough to hinder anything. The phone rang early in the morning. This must be paid to the heart. "Miss Zhou Chengyu." "I'm." "Doctor Wang from Teresa Hospital." I sit up. "Your report is out, Miss Zhou, there are malignant cells in the tumor, please come here immediately." I stayed for a while, "I'll be right there." "See you in an hour." I'm only twenty-eight years old! I fell to the ground, heartbroken. This is not true, I have never been so afraid, I closed my eyes tightly, followed by anger, my mother has lived to more than fifty years old, there is nothing wrong with it, why is it me, my thoughts are confused, and my ears are full of buzzing Voice. I want to find Fu Yuchen, but where is he?We kept playing hide-and-seek, and in the end there was no way to know where each other was going. I went to the hospital alone. "You have to decide quickly which operation to have." I sit stiffly. "The first is an en bloc resection. The second is to resect the tumor together with the lymph nodes, but it may require six months of radiation therapy and six months of acupuncture and medicine." I bow my head. "If you need to be rediagnosed, we advise you to act quickly and without delay." I stand up. "Miss Zhou, the recovery rate is as high as more than 60%. Please decide to have an operation quickly. We can arrange for you to be admitted to the hospital next week." "Thank you." "Come back quickly." I covered my face tightly with my hands, and the stars appeared in front of my eyes. Oh my God. I staggered to the door of the hospital, and heard someone calling me, "Zhou Chengyu, Zhou Chengyu." what!In the vast sea of ​​people, who calls me, who knows me? I stopped, turned my head, and Qiao Meilin was sitting in an open car waving to me. I approach her. She was a little anxious, "The maid said you were in Teresa Hospital, I found you, what's the matter?" I looked at her with ashen face, "There must be an operation." Her face changed drastically, and she looked at me regretfully. I hold the corner of my mouth. "Get in the car and I'll take you home." In the car, Mei Lin simply told me that her mother died of the same symptom two years ago, and the experience is still there. After 60 minutes of discussion, we arranged for a second examination at another hospital. Mei Lin is calm, calm, and efficient. We are not in the mood to sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk. The dialogue is intermittent, but the conclusion is often the same. "The most important thing is to see how you struggle," she said. I am silent. "Have you notified the gentleman?" "I don't know where to find him." Mei Lin was deeply surprised, but did not press further. Both of us are doomed to miss everything in our lives. "It's okay, we can handle it." I put my head in my hands. Mei Lin suddenly asked: "Are you afraid?" "It's terribly scary." "Would you like to come and live with me?" "Too much trouble for you." "It's not often you have this kind of opportunity. With me here, make it lively, and you won't have time to think deeply." "Let me think about it." "Don't think about it, if he wants to find you, he will find you." I think so, if you can find it, something must have happened, otherwise you wouldn't have messaged me for three days and three nights. The fact is that I don't know how to love others in this life. It doesn't matter when he comes, I'm always waiting. The second inspection report also suggested immediate operation. I looked at myself in the mirror, God was not happy, what he gave, he took back. I agree. The doctor suggested a partial resection, the loss would not be too great, and it would not cause disability. However, the intensive treatment for a year afterward requires courage, endurance and calmness. Mei Lin was silent for a long time, "I agree." I am very moved. She didn't have to be like this, ordinary new acquaintances, why bother with this relationship, honestly help others make decisions, if they don't do well, they will be blamed. How many people who pretend to be clear will have to push things clean and straight, "You can figure it out yourself, no one can help you." We drink tea in the suburbs. "If you want to find it, you should find him." "After all, I was the one who went into the ward. The doctor didn't want him." "you are very brave." "Truly courageous people are invincible." "It's not correct to think so." "You're right," I held her hand, a little ashamed, "you've been so kind to me." "We finally became friends," Meilen said. I nod. Mei Lin said with emotion, "I have worked hard to make friends for many years, and I have been generous with time and money, but every word I said and every thing I did was misleading by exaggerated retelling, which made me very confused and I didn't want to waste my efforts. . who called us celebrities." "You are too nervous, so you don't have to take face too seriously." Mei Lin laughed, "You can see through my weakness at a glance." "Please tell me if it will be very ugly after the operation." "Mum hasn't let us see it, it must have been horrible, but a partial removal would be so much better and you can still work as a model," she said. I lay down on the tea table without saying a word. "Are you afraid of scars?" I whispered: "I have only one beautiful body, and if I lose it, I have nothing." "You don't lose it, you live on," Meilen said. "The body always gets old and loses its beauty." "The side effects of the medication are making my hair fall out." "If I were you, I wouldn't worry about that, saving lives is more important." Jomelyn is right. With her, I get a lot of truth. Fu Yuchen finally got news, this time he couldn't find me, I refused to disclose my whereabouts, Qiao Meilin said: "Please come back immediately." I shook my head, not in this situation, I don't want him to see me in a panic. He left a message saying that he would return to the city next Friday. On Friday, I had surgery on Thursday. "I decided to take leave to accompany you." Mei Lin said. I shake my head. "It doesn't matter if there is anyone with you or not, most of the time you are lethargic." "But you'll know someone's waiting for you to wake up, and that's different." When I woke up, the first thing I did was to put my hand on my left chest, feeling a little relieved because it was still there. Then I saw Fu Yuchen's sad and angry face. He suppressed his emotions and asked, "Does it hurt?" I shake my head. "Why do you keep it from me? You don't discuss such important matters with me." I can't argue. "Fortunately, you picked a good doctor, how long will you go on your own?" I made a weeping face. Fu Yuchen still seemed anxious, "Cheng Yu, I will never forgive you." I don't turn my face away. He thought I was playing games with him. Then Mei Lin came in, she glanced at him, then gently leaned down on my hospital bed, and held my hand, "The doctor said you are fine, and your percentage of living a normal life is extremely high." I nod.She used a new perfume, very strong fruity smell, and diluted the disinfectant, which made me feel a little safer.A woman sometimes needs more from another woman, because only they understand, they understand. "You're going to live," said Melin. I gently replied, "But I lost my hair and sense of humor." "you will not." Fu Yuchen was shocked, and after only a few days away, he came back, and he lost his chance again. I close my eyes. On the day I was discharged from the hospital, Fu Yuchen came to pick me up. I really don’t want to see him, it’s only a little bit short of fulfilling my lifelong wish, but life always jokes with us, what you plan is one thing, and what happens is another. There were tears in his chest, but there was a smile at the corner of his mouth. Fu Yuchen said softly: "I have talked with the doctor in detail." When this thing is over, we'll all be experts. "It only takes one year of treatment, Cheng Yu. The doctor is very sure that you will recover after one year." I didn't say anything. "Tomorrow, we will go to register for marriage." He buried his face in my hands, and I felt his hot tears. "Cheng Yu," he whimpered, "I'm so sad that I don't know what to do." "Let's talk about it in a year, maybe I'll be cured." "Let me take care of you." "No, I still want to make a good impression on you." "It's best to let Peixia take care of you." "She wants to serve her own family, so let her go. I have myself, doctors and nurses, and I will get through this difficult time." "I beg you, don't refuse me." "It won't work, put your heart into it." "Cheng Yu—" I gently pressed his mouth, "Promise me one thing." "Anything, please say." "Don't marry again." He should fill me. It was just a diversion to make him feel like he was finally doing something important for me. Ma Peixia came back from her honeymoon in two weeks. Dressed in sun brown, it can be seen that she has carefully applied a lot of sunscreen products, but the ultraviolet rays still added a lot of freckles to her face. I shook my head at her, and she will regret it. It must be to accommodate Ouyang. He is an outdoor type. She was very worried about me, "Can you let me see the result of the operation?" I shook my head, "It's too unsightly, because the bad cells spread to four lymph nodes, and I have to lie under the electrotherapy device for three consecutive months. If the bad cells spread to twenty lymph nodes, I wouldn't sit here." "The terminology is catchy." "These are the words I use in my daily life." She studied me carefully. I asked her, "Is your married life happy?" "Cheng Yu, I heard that you have been in close contact with Qiao Meilin recently." "she is my friend." Ma Peixia was silent for a while, "Do you know what kind of person she is?" "She was someone who cared deeply about me." Ma Peixia nodded, "The others are not important?" "Of course, it's not important." "Cheng Yu, we still love you, don't forget us." "What rumors did you hear outside?" "Cheng Yu, you are right, nothing is important," Ma Peixia approached me full of pity, and touched my face with her hands. I took her hand. "I wish you a speedy recovery and return to work." "Thank you." She let out a long breath. This period of time was the most difficult. Every day was like going to work. I put on my clothes and went to the hospital for treatment. I lay in the electrotherapy room for treatment. The huge machine made me look small. But Melin always kept my spirits up. She picked me up each day in a different colored car and tried to drive away the low pressure. I didn't see any other friends at all during those three months. Fu Yuchen has been here. He was very happy to see Fu Yuchen, but he didn't take the initiative to speak. He could only answer his questions with a smile.No, I don't want to dance.No, you can eat whatever the doctor says, but it is best to focus on fruits and vegetables, and read books when you have time.Mei Lin is with me every day, and maybe next year we can travel to Europe together. He was silent when he heard Mei Lin's name. After a while he asked again, "Cheng Yu, let me take care of you." "I already owe you a lot and I can't repay it. You really don't have to go through this year with me." "You'd rather be in debt to a stranger." "Melin is no stranger." "Yes, we all know now that she occupies you, and it is difficult for others to get close to you." "What do you want to do with me?" I asked him. "I'm never the same as before. I don't even know myself." "You should know I'm not that superficial." Fu Yuchen wants to prove what, for the old times, to show that he has depth, it is not enough. I need a new life.A friend who doesn't know my past. I said, "Let's talk about it after this year." He left silently. After learning about this, Mei Lin said: "After his emotional shock calms down, he may not come back again." "I know." "Why did you give up on him?" I said calmly: "A patient has no energy to talk about other things, the most urgent thing is to heal the body." Merlene didn't take that as excuses for me, not even me. I smiled, "I've known Fu Yuchen for almost a lifetime." She listened patiently. "Since I was seven years old, he has been attracted to me, do you know why?" "Because you are beautiful." "Yes, and I have lost that charm now." "He doesn't have to be that shallow." "No, it's not him, it's me. I can't bear to show my current self in front of him. It's me who is shallow. I never thought that God would decide to take back my talent so quickly." Merlin looked at me. "I want Fu Yuchen to always remember the former Zhou Chengyu, and I don't want him to compare the two Zhou Chengyus." After a long time, Mei Lin said: "You really love him, but." I said yes. It has been more than a year since this sentence was counted. I have been with Mei Lin all the time. The two of us almost went through the painful medical treatment process. Mei Lin remained calm and familiar with all the rare side effects of the medicine. The only difference is that her mother did not survive, while I did. For Melin, it was a psychological victory, because she fought with me and she didn't get tired. When they asked me if I could work again, I looked in the mirror for a long time. In order to repay Mei Lin, I said yes. In order to repay Ma Peixia, I suggested introducing Ouyang's design. They sent someone specially to see me. My left arm can't move as freely as before, and my posture is not as straight as before. When I smile, the corners of my eyebrows and eyes all betray me, and their newcomers are like clouds. "Cheng Yu, my love, but your face has a weathered soul, we have enough young girls performing swimsuits until 2550," he said a series of names, "compared to these first-class models, you are really small Girls, age is not so important anymore." I laughed with Mei Lin and said, "Finally lucky." Mei Lin patted me on the shoulder, conveying infinite encouragement. I hold her hand tightly. The New York agent stared at us for a long time, and suddenly said sadly: "No wonder it is getting harder and harder for us to get married, what a waste." Peixia is very grateful.Being nice to Ouyang can move her more than being nice to her. Ouyang's design is still very immature in many places, but it is time to introduce it now, and he can gradually improve it. She said to me, "You made it through." I shook my head, "It will be a few more years, the five-year recurrence rate is 30%." "You still get tired easily?" I nodded, "The skin is often inflamed and vomits for no reason, but most of the hair remains." "If you don't say it, others won't notice." "If you live with me, you can't hide anything." "So you rejected Fu Yuchen." "I love myself too much and don't want him to see these ugliness." "If it's me, I will force Ouyang to witness the whole process. I am selfish and will never let him go." I couldn't help laughing. Such unbridled childishness testified to the extreme happiness of her life. Ma Peixia let out a sigh of relief, "You didn't meet him again?" "He left the city, didn't you know?" Ma Peixia shook her head, "I only know that his divorce lawsuit was extremely painful, and his wives hated him." "He still has you, you don't hate him." "But I didn't marry him either." "This is wisdom." "Cheng Yu, do you hate him?" "I will never have the chance to know, I only know that he and I are not some lovely people, and the distance retains a beautiful illusion." She asked: "Melin will go to Los Angeles with you?" "Go to work together, she has a video shoot." "are you happy?" I smiled, "What a difficult question, how can you hope that I can answer you while chatting." "I didn't expect that she really cared about you." "When we were all unconscious, I underestimated her at the beginning." Ma Peixia asked, "What is Fu Yuchen doing abroad?" "Tut tsk tsk, Mrs. Ouyang, you should not care too much about other men." The picture came out and I didn't like it at all. In the photo I was very old and gaunt and looked like I had taken too much medicine. The photographer was surprised at my pickiness, "These photos are very beautiful, and the taste is as close as that of Yano Aimi in Njialu." "Miss Amy is approaching fifty." I clenched my fists. Mei Lin smiled, and said, "They will handle the negatives." "Melin, next time you take a picture, lend me your head." "My head is about the same age as Zun's head, and it doesn't work." We finally laughed together. Under the smile, I was not full of tears. Maybe I am not a sensitive woman, with low requirements, what I encounter is what I encounter, and I will always live and live with the situation. I turned my head to look at Mei Lin in a daze. She smiled at me understandingly and waved her hand lightly, signaling me not to think too much. I lower my head again. Fu Yuchen will never know me better than her. When I was young, I always thought that what I could not get was the best, but now I think that what I got is the best. Mei Lin and I often travel, and the wide and long skirts are back again. I bought more than ten pieces and wore them all over Europe with her. Melin fell in love with them instantly, for comfort's sake. It turned out that she hadn't worn them before. By the way, I was extremely precocious. Fu Yuchen pretended to be an adult at the age of thirteen or fourteen, and lived ten years longer than Mei Lin. Transferred to Los Angeles from Europe, she met with the staff, and I waited for the announcement from the photography team. Wandering around in free time, sometimes sitting on the roof, motionless, after the catastrophe, I am grateful for everything I see, as long as I don’t see the doctor again, everything is fine. Mei Lin likes Hollywood, and I have a habit of collecting things again. I bought thousands of celebrity cards alone. Mei Lin said: "The stars at that time were the real stars, with gorgeous, absurd and lewd images, and the audience couldn't reach them, like a star in the sky, doing things that ordinary people can't do... Look at today's Celebrities, what do you look like, living in an apartment of 100 square meters, you have to entertain journalists, do you want to die?" She seemed to regret not catching up with the grand occasion back then, which made me laugh. "You can be regarded as the best among the juniors." "It's so embarrassing. Nowadays, high-salary female white-collar workers also earn 600,000 yuan a year. The company's benefits are not included. Once we do it, we can retire at the age of 55. How much can we earn? 600,000 yuan, two movies a year? The cost ratio There are ten times more people, and when you reach the age of 30, the reporters will start to persuade you to take advantage of it.” Merlin whined at me for the first time. "Of course it's not regret, it's just—" I patted her on the shoulder hard, "Go, go to Sunset Boulevard, we are in Hollywood." "I'll see Randolph Hearst's fortress built for his lover later, I really don't understand how much he can love her..." Meilin has been working hard on saving recently, and it's hard work, so she talks a lot. She is right.The times were different in the past, the streets were full of opportunities, even mothers could marry and remarry without worrying about food and clothing, but now this kind of affluence is gone, everyone is reluctant to spend the money in their hands, and everyone is careful. Today's Zhou Chengyu probably only has one way to go to the children's home. Mei Lin plans to work for another three years and move to North America with me. This is a good idea, when we are both tired, it is the best choice to find a place to hide, do housework and watch TV. We partnered to buy an apartment on the first floor with a view of the sea in Golden Gate Bay. Mei Lin smiled and said, "You, you are in charge of three meals a day." "That's not easy. One borscht can last for a week." The money Yuan Zukang left me is now paid off. Mei Lin's shooting program is quite tight. I often act as a lone ranger and buy sundries for her. I couldn't find the brand of shampoo she specified for a while, and I was a little tired after shopping all over the supermarket, so I sat down at a small seafood restaurant and ordered a lobster salad. The waitress came to pour coffee for me and said hello in a friendly way. I don't mind being alone more and more, sometimes I even enjoy it. I have given up cigarettes and drinking coffee is now my only pleasure in life. "Cheng Yu." I look up. what!It's all about it. In the faint noon sun, I saw his white hair on the sideburns and the personality wrinkles around his eyes. He had a rare gentle expression on his face. He called my name softly, as if I would flap my wings and fly away like a white butterfly when I raised my voice. I looked at him greedily, not believing that we would meet, could this be an illusion created by my sincerity? It took a while before I could speak. He asked me first: "Alone?" I nod. “气色好多了。” I smile. “战胜疾病了吧。” “还在斗争。” “真是勇敢，承钰，我低估了你。” 我冲动地站起来，推翻面前的咖啡杯子，溅了一裙子，我与傅于琛情不自禁紧紧拥抱。 他把我的头用力按在胸前，我整张脸埋在他西装襟里，这个姿势实在太熟悉，小时候稍不如意，便如此大哭一场，哭声遭衣服闷塞，转为呜咽，过一会儿也就好了。 过很久很久才抬起头来，泪流满面。 一直没有哭，因为难关没有熬过，自怜泄气，再也无力斗争。 他掏出雪白的手帕没头没脑替我擦脸，我笑起来。 “小心小心，”我说，“从前货真价实，现在眼睛鼻子可禁不住这般搓揉。” 他与我坐下来。 “在我眼中，你永远是小承钰。” 那是因为是他眼光不够犀利，“老了。” "how come." “无论你多不愿意，我再也不是从前的小女孩。” 他发一会子愣，低下头来，“你不长大，我就不老，所以希望你一辈子是小孩。” 我微笑，无言。 “这些年来，你也吃了不少苦。” “做人根本就是吃苦，谁不是呢。”不愿多说。 “承钰，让我补偿你。” 我一震，他一直未曾忘怀我，不过这可能是最后一次，他不见得会年年追问下去。 我低声说：“我已不再美丽。” “我不介意。”他握住我的手，放在他腮边。 “我介意。” “你不必这样，如此说来，我何尝不是一日比一日丑陋。” “你不同，你还拥有其他，而我现在什么都没有。” “你愿意与乔梅琳共度一生？” “不一定，但是目前我们相处得很好。” “承钰，为何这么骄傲？” 我双眼看着远处，自卑的我不能在感情上满足他。 “我们做错了什么，承钰，如果这是圆舞，为什么到头来，双方经历这许多不同的事与人却没有与原先的舞伴离场？” 过了许久，我说：“也许音乐不对，也许我们听错了，也许是另一种舞，不是这个跳法，我们表错了情？”他落下泪来。 “但是曾经共舞，是我毕生快乐。”他紧紧闭上双眼，我把手帕还给他。 远处传来一把清脆的声音，“傅于琛，付——于一一心” 我抬起头，大吃一惊。 一个才十四五岁的女孩子，一头长发，雪白瓜子脸，正在向我们走过来，她穿着小小一件衬衫，领子俏皮地往上翻，大圆裙，平底鞋，素净的面孔上没有化妆，只搽着樱桃红的口红。 我张大了嘴。 这是周承钰，这是我，我离了魂，回到二十年之前，站在风里，一额头碎发飘拂，一脸笑容，眼目明亮，不惑地看着二十年后残缺的自身。 小女孩逐步走过来，我定定神，回到现实的世界来，轻轻同傅于琛说：“找你呢。” He turned away. “付于心。”她叫他，是她与他结伴来。 我站起来，“我要走了，梅琳在等我。” "Cheng Yu—" 我温和地朝女孩呶呶嘴，抓起手袋，匆匆离开馆子。 朝旅馆走去的时候，我一直想，一定是音乐不对，我与傅于琛，却会错了意，空在舞池中，逗留那么些时候，最后说再见的时候，没找到对方。