Chapter 16 Chapter Sixteen Empty

What do you think now, if you were a girl who loved Tao Tao, and you suddenly knew that when he was fighting with others, the scene of his father being taken away appeared in his mind, what would you do?He is only 18 years old, strong, powerful, and proud. Suddenly one day he sees his father being handcuffed away with a pair of hands. Who will he cry to?I understand everything now, including Tao Tao from then until now, why Tao Tao is such a Tao Tao.On that day, he should find a woman who loves him dearly and have a good cry.Without concealing or being ashamed, he knelt on the ground, or threw himself into her arms, weeping, crying out all his sadness and grievances.Has he found it? That person must not be me, not Eva, nor his mother. At this time, how can his mother bear the crying of a boy!I don't know if Tao Tao has found such a woman, I just think of Tao Tao's panic, helplessness, and pleading before the public toilet war, and I feel unspeakable in my heart.If I knew his situation then, what would I have done for him?However, now is not the time, and I can't get back the mood at that time.Oh, what Tao Tao is to me, I can't say.I will not say it?

Tao Tao's father was taken away the night before the public toilet fight.He was already in bed, leaning against the head of the bed, smoking a cigarette and reading the market edition of the evening paper.He said, ×, the bastard has raised the price again!Just then the police knocked on the door, came in and roasted him away in his striped nightgown and sheepskin slippers.It is said that Tao Tao's mother once dragged Tao Tao to kneel before the police, begging them to let him go.But what's the use of kneeling, the man sighed and said, get up, it's embarrassing.This man, who was good at treating other people's money as his own, was handcuffed away and never returned home.A few months later, maybe a year or two later, he was found to have liver cirrhosis, or liver cancer, and died in prison.Of course, this is already a later story.

I asked Ali, what crime did Tao Tao's father commit? Ali glared at me and said old-fashionedly that it was not the kind of crime that directors of industry and commerce would like to commit. I still don't get it, but I don't want to ask anymore.I am not the director of industry and commerce, so what does that crime have to do with me?I just looked at Ali with a little surprise. Ali was really old-fashioned, and his upper lip seemed to be smeared black by pot smoke, and there was still a little indifferent smile on his face.He was half a head shorter than me, and I couldn't help but reach out and wipe his lips. I said Ali, you've become dirty too.

But Ali blocked my hand with a horizontal hand.He said, don't keep treating me like a doll. There was a "clank" in my heart, as if something had been pulled away, like a knife being pulled away, leaving only an empty sheath.I said Ali, Ali, you seem to resent me a little bit? Ali said no, you made a mistake, how could I resent you, Fengzi. Yeah, how could Ali hate me.In our second year of high school? Class one, only I really protect him.Tao Tao protects him because Tao Tao is his protector, and I protect him because I really feel that I should protect him.Seeing Ali, who is like a little rabbit, being grabbed by a few pairs of strong hands, my heart always hurts.Ali's current protector has become Bao Jingsheng, and Bao Jingsheng holds him up and down.

Bao Jingsheng loves barbecue more and more, every day at noon he takes Ali to eat barbecue chicken butt.In the evening, he likes to drink soy milk, so he goes to Taipei Soy Milk King to drink soy milk and eat dumplings.He also asked me to go with him, but I refused to go, but Ali looked at me with those wet eyes, and I knew I had to go.I said, go ahead and call Zhu Zhu and Jingui.So, a few of us made up a nondescript small group, a bunch of poor parasites. No one mentioned Taotao and Eva anymore, because they were all sucked into the ground or into the wall like watermarks.At least Tao Tao is like this, except in class, it is difficult for me to see him again, and he is sitting in the back row now, I only know that he is sitting there, but I don’t know what he is doing.He might not be looking at the blackboard at all, otherwise, how could I not feel the touch of his eyes on the back of my neck?Forget it, I thought.But the more I think about it, the more I want to go on.Once I walked past thirteen paulownia trees, turned around several times, and did not see a Giant speeding by, and of course, I did not see a silly girl leaning on the tree trunk waiting for someone.

Eva, on the other hand, might be more like a pangolin, she got into her "basement" and left us all behind.I really want to take a sneak look at her "Basement", she must have recorded the real Tao Tao, the fictional Tao Tao, and the Tao Tao who haunts the campus like a shadow.Of course this is impossible, because there is no such friendship between us.Although, according to her, we had "put the past behind us," she later added that the two injured dogs had to go their separate ways after looking at each other.Eva told Zhu Zhu that if you stick the wound on the wound, the wound will only fester and maggots, and never expect it to scar.Then, she abandoned us and escaped like a pangolin in her "Basement".

When New Year's Day was approaching, the Chinese teacher, the poor nephew of Director Ren, came up with a composition question called "Looking forward to my ideal wish".When I saw this topic, I couldn’t help but sneer. I finally understood why he was just a dropout. The vision belongs to the future, the ideal belongs to the future, and the wish also belongs to the future. This is equivalent to saying, the future is the future of my future?Right, it's complete nonsense.But I still wrote a few words honestly, Maimed said, only fools reason with fools.So I wrote one stroke at a time, I want to apply for a culinary school, learn how to cook home-cooked dishes, twice-cooked pork, fried tofu in white oil..., just right spicy, just right hot, I can be a good owner of a small restaurant, and I can also be a father A good daughter to a good man, she can also be a good wife to a good man... I don’t know what Xiao Ren thinks after reading my composition. Anyway, this is my true thought. I never thought about it. Ideas flowed out, and I felt that this was really the future of the future I wanted.Xiao Ren may sneer, or he may not, because he doesn't take the composition seriously at all, and only grades it according to the length of the words and the quality of the handwriting, let alone commenting on the composition.

However, this time he made an exception, just like what Eva loves to quote from money books, because there are common rules, there are exceptions.Xiao Ren made an exception. He talked about Eva's ideals in class, and praised her for writing "the true feelings in my heart".Xiao Ren reread the "most exciting passage" in Eva's composition two or three times, so that each of us can memorize it. Eva wrote, ... Although my legs are lame, my heart is healthy.Because my mind is healthy, even if my lame leg is amputated, I will not blame others.Even if my eyes are blinded, I can see very far.If I were destined to spend my life in darkness, I would become more peaceful and peaceful.Those who don't go out can see the disputes in the world; those who don't open the windows can understand the great way of the world.British Stephen Hawking observed the universe in a wheelchair, and Ancient Greek Homer sang poetry in the dark.As for me, my ideal is that after losing my eyes, I also want to think and write in the dark.Because my world is dark, the worlds of all people in the world have also become dark, and my world has become one with that world.In that world, I will choose a good boy to love him, love him, care for him, miss him, and I will encourage him to wander around, wandering around the world, because in my thoughts, my world and his world It's all dark, so no matter how far he goes, it's as if he's by my side.And when he thinks of me in every corner of the world, I am thinking of him in the dark...

Xiao Ren read this passage two or three times, and I also listened to this passage two or three times.To be honest, I didn't hear any good points.I don't want to be crippled, and I don't want to be in a wheelchair, and I don't want to be in a wheelchair and miss a good shit boy.But when Xiaoren read it for the last time, he suddenly burst into tears.He blocked his nose and mouth with a gray handkerchief, whimpered twice, and said, I can't read any more. Everyone in the class let out a low "shh..." sound at the same time, as if reminding each other, hey, don't laugh!No one laughed, really, until the end of get out of class, everyone seemed to be fine, as if no one heard Xiao Ren cry.

When eating chicken butt around the barbecue stand at noon, Bao Jingsheng said, fuck, Xiao Ren's first love must be a girl in a wheelchair. Zhu Zhu said, you beat up Xiao Ren so badly, how can he still tell you about his love history? Bao Jingsheng said, we don't know each other without fighting.You have never loved a man, have you no experience at all?Eva wrote about Xiao Ren's heartbreak. Zhu Zhu blushed, took a small sip, and said, who would believe it, making up such nonsense.I just can't figure out what to do with you and Eva together? Bao Jingsheng laughed badly twice with his mouth open. He said, do whatever you want. Do you think there is any difference between doing and doing?Bao Jingsheng bit "Nong" very hard, viciously, but also triumphantly, the taste of chicken butt in his mouth rushed to Zhu Zhu's face.

Zhu Zhu was originally blushing, but now she was blue with anger, and she said, Bao Jingsheng, what swear words are you talking about!Zhu Zhu glanced at me, and I thought it was funny, so I turned my head away from her.She glanced at Jingui again, Jin Gui took a breath, then stared at Bao Jingsheng, Bo, you are going to swear! But Bao Jingsheng had an innocent face, he was very wronged, he said who the hell swears, who the fuck swears, Zhu Zhu is teasing me!Bao Jingsheng patted my shoulder with his greasy hands, and he said, is Fengzi Zhu Zhu teasing me? The smell of Bao Jingsheng's chicken butt rushed to my face and almost made me faint.I said, let's all eat chicken butts, and don't despise anyone if you speak stinky words with stinky mouths.I grabbed a bunch of burnt chicken butts on the fire and stuffed them into my mouth, but Bao Jingsheng snatched them away and gave me another bunch.He said, grandma, it was wrong.Girls feel good when they eat cock's ass. Zhu Zhu suddenly grabbed a bunch of roasted potatoes, or roasted lotus root lumps, slammed it on the stove, turned around and left.A puff of ash rose from the stove, and the wind from the river blew the ash straight into my face.I yelled at Zhu Zhu, and I was about to chase her.But Bao Jingsheng pulled me back. He said, leave her alone, the little girl is too fucking jealous. I said, jealous, why jealous?I looked at Bao Jingsheng's big mouth full of chicken fat, and laughed, stop dreaming, Zhu Zhu will still fall in love with you! Bao Jingsheng shook his head and said, Fengzi Fengzi, you are really Fengzi.His big hand pinched mine and rubbed it back and forth, like kneading a ball of wet dough.I struggled for a while but didn't get it out. Why did my hand seem to have no bones.I glanced at Jingui, who looked at us, calmly ate a bunch of chicken butts, wiped his mouth with a piece of toilet paper from the stall, and left.I said, Jingui, are you looking for the monitor? Jingui said, I will go to the monitor. I looked at Ali again, and Ali acted as if he hadn't seen anything, drinking Coke and chewing his tofu skin. After school, I waited for Bao Jingsheng at the thirteen paulownia trees.He also came here on a bicycle, the street lights were already on, he had his back to the light, and his shadow arrived at my feet before his people.For a short while, I saw him as Tao Tao.In fact, I knew that the two of them were as different as a Giant from a mail truck.Yes, this is the first time I have noticed that Bao Jingsheng is riding a postman's mail van, which is surprisingly large and sturdy, and it can be seen that it is shining green even under the bright street lights. Light, like a Jurassic animal gnashing its teeth. I hopped into the back seat of the mail van with my legs apart.But Bao Jingsheng turned around and greeted me, he said, don't, don't be like this, a girl should act like a girl. I don't know what's wrong, I've always been in Taotao's car like this.I was a little silly, I said, where did I go wrong again, what are mothers-in-law and mothers doing? Bao Jingsheng smiled. He fixed one leg on the ground and told me patiently, don't cross your leg.His tone has never been so kind, he said, what does a girl look like with her legs crossed, sit on the side, ah, Fengzi? Suddenly, my chest felt sore.I really didn't expect this bastard Bao Jingsheng to talk to me like that.I didn't say a word, got out of the car obediently, and then sat on my buttocks sideways. That's right, Bao Jingsheng said, slowly pedaling the mail van forward. I'm afraid, I said, I'm afraid of falling. Bao Jingsheng said, holding my waist tightly. Well, I said.I simply don't understand what's wrong with me, I just listen to him all of a sudden. Bao Jingsheng was riding a bicycle completely differently from Tao Tao, he was not crazy at all, he pedaled slowly, but I could still feel the wind blowing on my face.Although I was pedaling slowly, I knew that the bike was fast and stable.I hugged his waist tightly, as firmly as hugging a tree. The mail truck rode into a dark dormitory area, a bit like our Yuejinfang, but it was not.There is no mahjong table, and there are no idle men and women who gather under the tree to drink tea.Bao Jingsheng rang the bell vigorously, because many people were hurrying in the dark.I also heard a lot of people talking, with all kinds of accents and different accents.I asked, where is this? Bao Jingsheng said, it's at my house.To my uncle's house. I said again, where is this? He said that this is the dormitory area of ​​the No. 7 freight warehouse.He stopped the mail van, and he said, Come over to my place if you want? In the dark night of early summer, Bao Jingsheng's voice was extraordinarily gentle.I nod.Naturally he didn't see it, and asked me again, would you like to come to my house? I smiled old-fashionedly, and I said, it's all here, just sit down. It was even darker in the corridor, he carried the car and walked ahead, and reminded me to be careful when turning.I can't believe this is Bao Jingsheng. I don't know how many floors, Bao Jingsheng opened a door, first pressed and turned on the light, the light was reflected on the ground, like water splashed on the ground, sucked in after being sucked.It was only then that I realized that the ground was concrete, which had been scuffed by shoe soles, but now it had been turned into sand.The house is an old-fashioned two-bedroom house. There is a large plank bed in one room. There are large and small cardboard boxes everywhere in the living room. There is a big sofa among the cardboard boxes. The sofa is full of clothes, bedding, and bed sheets.I didn't see anyone else, I just felt the smell of a damp cloth, which blocked my nostrils all the way to my heart. I asked Bao Jingsheng, is this your home? Bao Jingsheng said yes, yes, yes and no, the house belonged to my uncle, and I lived in the house.Bao Jingsheng said that Gate No. 7 was completely abandoned, and all the workers were laid off. My aunt went to help people guard the noodle shop, and my uncle went to find someone to play mahjong. I lived alone.He put his hands on his hips, waved his hands like a big shot, and said, this area has become the domain of outsiders, and there are people from far and wide to make money, it is very chaotic.Some people moved away after making money, while some did not make money and had to live for eight, ten or twenty years. I asked, how long do you want to live?Bao Jingsheng said he didn't know, but he really didn't know.He said that people in our family have been walking day and night all their lives, and who knows where they will go.He was talking, digging on the sofa full of clothes, digging a hole, and pressing me into it.He said you sit down, I'll cook you beef noodles with pickled scallions, today is Lixia. I stood up suddenly, and I said, I should call my dad. Bao Jingsheng said, we don't have a phone at home.The first public telephone booth is two miles away from here.He took off his clothes while talking, he didn't explain why their family didn't have a phone, and he didn't use his nothing to mock the luxury and extravagance of the "General's Mansion".Bao Jingsheng took off his bulky coat and school uniform, and he looked very lean, with his waist twisted so that it was quite elastic.He said they didn't have a phone, and he said it as if nothing had happened, which made my face burn, and I thought of my father sitting in the dark room killing time, and my heart felt sour.Dad told me every day, I will eat it by myself when you are late, I like instant noodles, so I will eat instant noodles. I can already smell instant noodles.Bao Jingsheng came out of the kitchen with two large bowls of instant noodles in his hand.He said, today is Lixia, I invite you to eat beef noodles with green onions, it is delicious. I said, I thought today was the winter solstice.My face was burning, and I buried my face in the bowl, and the heat hid my face.I snorted and scraped the noodles into my mouth, and in the blink of an eye, I finished a bowl of noodles and a bowl of soup.Looking up, he saw Bao Jingsheng standing in front of the sofa holding a noodle bowl.Poor Bao Jingsheng, I hurriedly pushed the clothes and bedding around me to make the hole bigger, and I said sit down, you sit down and eat. Bao Jingsheng sat down, and he said that the shit is so delicious that you can see it, I have wronged you, a few beef lumps.Bao Jingsheng's politeness made me shy. I swear I've never been so shy, just like poor Bao Jingsheng has never been so polite.I was about to say something when I suddenly hiccupped.But the hiccup was only halfway through and couldn't come out. The gas was running around in my intestines, neither coming up nor going down, which made me teary and very sad. Bao Jingsheng asked me, what's wrong, my eldest lady? I groaned for a long time, even I didn't believe it, and I also learned to grovel pitifully.I pointed to my stomach, and I said I was angry.... Bao Jingsheng put the bowl on the ground, and he said it's all right, it's all right.He put my head on his shoulder with his left hand, but his right hand stretched in from the hem of my clothes.How many times did Tao Tao want to just stretch his hand in like this, even if I killed him, he never succeeded.Bao Jingsheng got in so naturally.I don't know why, but I just let Bao Jingsheng go.I let him go because I was uncomfortable, and he, like a doctor, put his hand on my belly and gently rubbed it through a thin cotton sweater.Just like kneading a rubber ball, spin and knead.His hands are really big, thick, powerful, and considerate.Who would have thought that getting his hands would be so considerate.The air flowed down his palm and slowly turned smoothly in my stomach, and it was about to sink.I suddenly wanted to say no, but the breath had already come out.I farted a long, long fart, which made me so comfortable.I was so ashamed that I almost retracted my head into my neck.Bao Jingsheng patted my face with his left hand, and he said, fuck it, what's there to be ashamed of? I do not speak.Bao Jingsheng's hand slowly withdrew.But when it backed out, it picked up the last layer of cotton sweater and touched it again.His hands touched my skin, rough, grinding my flesh like a grinding wheel.This is the first time a boy has touched my flesh like this.I don't feel anything, I just feel exhausted, leaning on Bao Jingsheng, I just want to fall asleep like this.His hand paused under my bra again, and he said, Fengzi, go to sleep and pretend that I am not here. I closed my eyes and took a sip, where are you now? His hands squeezed under the bra and covered my tits like nothing was there. I said, do you always play with girls like this? He didn't speak, and squeezed my chest with his hands, until my tits were so flat that there was nothing left.He said, does it hurt, Fengzi? I did feel pain, but I didn't say it hurt.I said, they're small, aren't they? Bao Jingsheng didn't answer me.His left hand took me into his arms, deep into his wide and warm arms, and he used his mouth on my nape of the neck, helix, cheeks, nose, eyes, mouth, small mouthfuls Let's kiss.He did it so tactfully and skillfully, without any rush. I feel the smell of grilled chicken butt all over me, soggy and sticky.I think he really treats me like a piece of barbecue, right? Bao Jingsheng hugged me and tried his best to dig into the pile of clothes.We almost disappeared in the pile of clothes.The pile of clothes smelled of damp cloth, mildew, and sweat.I said no, don't hurt me, I said, I hurt, I don't.I spoke in a soft voice, just like Zhu Zhu was whining, alas, I will also be whining like Zhu Zhu!If he takes his whining voice as indulgence, I can't do anything about it.But Bao Jingsheng stopped obediently.He said, it's okay, it's okay, you'll be fine. We sat down on the sofa again.He helped me put my clothes on and button them up.He said, it's okay, it's okay. I cried all of a sudden, crying, crying so wronged and sad.I said, I'm a fool, useless fool. Bao Jingsheng kept patting my face and said, fool, fool, why are you so stupid? Am I stupid?Oh, can you tell me, am I really stupid?When my story is told here, you will also be surprised. How could I fall into the arms of Bao Jingsheng, this guy who smells like a hippopotamus?It would be nice if I wasn't a girl, but I really am a girl.I used to think that I was not a girl, I was He Feng who was lost by my father, a daughter born by mistake, who only loved knives and stayed away from makeup, but I was wrong.When the stinky smell of Bao Jing enveloped me, I realized that all the thoughts I had were fucking useless.I like Tao Tao because he is handsome, mysterious, and proud, but he has no smell because he is still a clean boy.Men are different, men are clean, how can men be men?The smell on Bao Jingsheng's body was that of a man. This smell enveloped me and warmed me up, and he did it so unexpectedly tenderly.God, how much I need tenderness in those days, like a drop of rain longing to be evaporated by the sun. From that day on, we ate instant noodles on this sofa almost every night, cuddling and stroking... hugging and stroking made me very tired and drowsy, I curled up weakly on the messy sofa, I said sorry, I want to sleep After a while... Then, Bao Jingsheng took me back to Yuejinfang in the eastern suburbs by mail.I told my dad that the exam is coming, and I have to study by myself late every day.Dad nodded, he said, Dad knows. My mother called to tell me that the backlog of supplies for the changing season was being shipped to the border, and the business was so busy that I would not be able to go home until June.Dad said, I got it, and I also said, I got it.If we know it, we know it, so what else can we do? My dad and I were used to living without Mom, to the two of us eating, talking, resting, and being silent in the shadowy light.Time passes quickly, just like what Maimed said, time passes slowly while waiting, and passes quickly when there is nothing to wait for, because you have forgotten whether time is long or short up. It has just entered May, and our city has been raining intermittently.At night, the rain under the street lamps dances like snow worms, the summer rain becomes a light spring rain, and the cold wind is like the north wind of last season.Bao Jingsheng's hand has been caressing me for a long time, which has made me depend on it, and I can't do without it.His hands were always so hot that he could cook a piece of raw meat slowly, like a piece of fat dripping with fat.On the way to school and during class, I was distracted. I was thinking about Bao Jingsheng's hand. I said to myself, you are not thinking about men, you are just thinking about men's hands, thinking about it to make you warm. One day Zhu Zhu suddenly said to me, you look like you are going to be sick.Her thin eyebrows were twisted into a knot, and she said, your hair has grown, your voice has softened, and you want to be a little girl like us? I was stupid for a long time, rubbing my head, I really didn't have that feeling like a scrub brush.As my hair grew, it became softer and softer, just like my voice.To my surprise, I also felt a row of curly hair on my forehead, which is what is called bangs.I said, how could I?Zhu Zhu, why am I like this?Am I going to forget to cut my hair? Zhu Zhusong frowned, and smiled gently, she said, is this the only thing you forgot? I still remember that the wind was particularly strong that night, and there were naturally endless strands of rain floating in the sky.The streets looked empty and the roads looked clean. I held an umbrella and sat on the back seat of Bao Jingsheng's mail car to watch the street scene.He said, fuck, sisters, you really look like a little country wife. I suddenly smiled evilly, and I said, damn it, you fuck your sisters for a while, and your wife for a while, how much have you fucked? Bao Jingsheng said, do you really want to know, Fengzi?Bao Jingsheng's voice suddenly became quieter and more formal, like a hippie suddenly putting on a tuxedo, he was a little shy, or hesitant.Do you want to know, Fengzi?He said, if you want to know, I will let you know right away. I wanted to say something, but I suddenly felt that I was becoming awkward, I blushed, and I couldn't speak.There will be times when I am too embarrassed to speak?I was surprised too.The rain jumped on my umbrella like beans, and behind Bao Jingsheng's rain cape, the rain dripped vertically.I think I'll tweak it too. When I arrived at Bao Jingsheng's house, my hands, feet, whole body, even my brain and heart were hardened by the wind and rain.When I entered the door, I was surprised to find that the sofa was clean and the tea table was also clean. There were several bottles of red wine on it, as well as a lot of bread and canned food. There were two tall legs standing in the middle of the canned food. The glass cups look high and low, some suck light in, looking dim and mysterious, and some are radiant, looking irresistible.I clapped my hands and asked him, did you rob money? Fuck, I don't do things that rob money.He said, a gentleman loves money, and he gets it in a proper way, right?I borrowed it from Ali.Bao Jingsheng took off his raincoat, and the rainwater flowed down from its hem and soaked around his shoes. On the dry concrete floor, the traces of water gradually grew larger, like a battle map in a movie, a territory was eroding away. Another map.... When I came back to my senses, Bao Jingsheng was already opening cans and wine bottles with his belongings. I said, you are robbing money, you are robbing Ali. Bao Jingsheng said, Alijie's is his father's.Who did his father rob again?They didn't rob us.I borrowed money from him, and there is a day to pay him back, right? I stood up abruptly and walked towards the door.I can't explain why I suddenly became so angry.Tao Tao asks Ali for money, and Bao Jingsheng asks Ali for money. We all know what is the difference.The most important thing Ali needs is money.But I was still angry, and walked to the door. I thought I was acting like a baby, being a baby, or stirring up trouble?This is not my character, my hair grows, I become a little woman, right? When I was telling you about this incident, I suddenly discovered that the reason for my anger was actually not even realized by me. I was looking for a reason to escape.I twisted my hand on the doorknob, and the doorknob was like a piece of ice, almost sticking my hand.I couldn't keep my hands off the doorknob, and at the same time I couldn't unscrew the doorknob with my hands.At this time, Bao Jingsheng stepped up from behind and hugged me.His body is so wide, and he was so hot from riding the bike that I suddenly became weak inside his body like ice. Bao Jingsheng hugged me and carried me back to the sofa. Oh, next, I don't know what to tell you.Not ashamed to say it, because I don't think it's not something to be ashamed of.I'm just worried about whether you can understand, everything is different from what I expected, and of course, it is also very different from what you imagine at the moment.If I have misunderstood you, then understand it according to your misunderstanding.Memed said that when you mistake a camel for a sheep and a sheep for a camel, then things are close to the truth. Bao Jingsheng handled me carefully... making me very hot.I keep my eyes open all the time, looking at him, at the food on the coffee table, at the dark light bulb above my head.Bao Jingsheng's mouth made a gurgling sound, and the sound became louder and louder, but I didn't feel anything, no swelling, no pain, no happiness, or pain.Really, I didn't feel anything, I just felt very warm, I was hardened by the rain after Lixia, and Bao Jingsheng made me warm from head to toe. Bao Jingsheng's groaning and groaning became louder and louder, and his movements became more and more violent. I felt very strange that I had time to think, oh, he is really fighting with himself like a sad and angry hippopotamus!Then I started to realize, sadly, that I wasn't full yet, but I was being emptied, and this awareness of being emptied was that feeling of "emptiness" that Eva wrote about...all the dark My secret desires are all empty, a sour tide rises from my stomach to my chest, and then to my throat and head, so high that my tears flow out... Empty, in my heart While muttering, I closed my eyes and opened them again to look for Bao Jingsheng.I said, is that how you fuck, dude? Bao Jingsheng breathed out, and he answered me in a soft voice, you finally know, I'm just going to fuck like this. He put his huge head on the sofa next to my chest and didn't lift it up for a long time.I turned sideways, and all I could see was his huge head heaving, his exhaled breath making the couch squeal like a bellows...   Then the scene passed.Because no matter how long or short this scene is, it will always pass, and we have plenty of time.For us, for the children in the bubble, isn't our wealth just time?Even if you can't afford a bar or a girl, you can at least afford time.Later, Bao Jingsheng and I sat on the sofa eating, drinking, and dozing off on the sofa.After a while, that is to say, after a relatively long time, Bao Jingsheng said that he still wanted to give it a try.I said if you are willing, just give it a try.I don't know how many times he tried that night, but each time was the same as the first time, empty.I don't know at which interval I fell asleep, and when I woke up, it was already noon the next day.I found that we were all still on that sofa, and there was no trace of water on the concrete floor.We ate a lot, drank a lot, and slept for a long time. This day is a half-term exam for English and Chinese, but we slept through both of these things. *part seven Missing exams will be punished, but the punishment has not come for a long time, and there is even no sign of it coming.Even Zhu Zhu reassured me, saying that this kind of broken things are often caught, and the worst is to write inspections and make-up exams.I also think so, and I even thought about it, treat Eva to McDonald's, let her ghostwrite the inspection for me and Bao Jingsheng.I was relieved that everything was business as usual, and it was uneventful for a few days.Both Bao Jingsheng and I thought that this was the end of the matter, and we still went to his house to eat instant noodles every night.