Chapter 8 Chapter Eight If you have a knife, you must dare to stab it

When I left the school gate after school, I was about to take off my school uniform from my back when Zhu Zhu grabbed my hand.Zhu Zhu said, if you don't want to go to the thirteen paulownia trees, you can have dinner at my house.Zhu Zhu's voice was a little contorted, and her eyelids drooped, long, thick and curly like a doll.I looked back, but I didn't see Tao Tao.If he is nearby, I can see him at a glance.He and I haven't talked to each other for a long time. He never threw paper balls to me in get out of class, and he never whispered to me to wait for him at the thirteen paulownia trees after class.I think he was heartbroken by me, I really wanted him to come and talk to me, but he didn't; I really wanted him to walk side by side with me suddenly when school was over, but he didn't either.In the past, I often told Tao Tao that those little girls who cry and cling to men are sluts, and those little girls who pretend to be noble for men to see are sluts.Now I'm in a dilemma, I miss Tao Tao, but I don't want to be a slut or a slut.

I've been thinking about how to do this all day.In geography class, the teacher walked up and down the aisle between the seats holding a huge globe, the globe twirling triumphantly, and he looked like a quack selling dog skin plaster.Suddenly he called me up and asked what was the continent facing me?I was thinking back to the good times I had with Tao Tao, he was holding a basketball and running towards the backboard in my hallucination, the referee screamed foul, I yelled to cheer, his long legs jumped and jumped.The geography teacher emphasized his tone, you said, what is it? I say, ham.

The poor teacher was the first to laugh, beating his chest and feet with laughter, and he said, what a joke!fun!The students of Paulownia Middle School are so fun!He deliberately exaggerated out of breath, he said, South America has really become a big ham, let's all go and have a bite!He really pursed his mouth, and kissed a big fat kiss on the globe.The whole hall was full of laughter, clapping the table and clapping hands, the atmosphere was extremely warm.In our Paulownia Middle School, these babies are the most popular among students.He pretended to be crazy and stupid, and while I was still confused, he verbally announced that he would give me a "Best Creative Award".

I took a breath in my heart, damn it, this is my dear teacher. I stood at the school gate and told Zhu Zhu that I wanted to go to thirteen paulownia trees.I'm not waiting for Tao Tao, I just want to stand there for a while.Zhu Zhu said, can I accompany you?I shook my head, left her and left.But I didn't take off the school uniform again.My school uniform is extra-large, and Tao Tao's is also extra-large.Bao Jingsheng's school uniform can't be worn at all, it can only be hidden inside as underwear, which is kind of mean.The upper half of our school uniform is red and the lower half is white, with PTSZX printed on the chest and back. Passers-by on the road point and point, thinking it is an amazing brand-name school.In fact, I often answer them in my heart, shit is not, it's just the pinyin abbreviation of Paulownia Middle School.Only those No. 1 Middle School, No. 24 Middle School, or foreign language schools dare to print their full names in Chinese characters without changing their names or surnames.What are we!I made an exception today, and leaned against thirteen paulownia trees in my school uniform.Maybe it's because Zhu Zhu held me back, so I didn't have time to take it off, maybe I like it all of a sudden, who knows.Leaning against thirteen paulownia trees, I watched boys and girls in school uniforms twittering away in the twilight. Their steps jumped and jumped, looking like birds spreading their wings and trying to fly to the sky.It was already dark, and the street lamps came on slowly. The light sprinkled on them and on me, as if a layer of frost had fallen.

Tao Tao likes to wear school uniforms, I think Tao Tao is more honest than me.What's the big deal? If it's in the bubble, it's in the bubble.Now, I am wearing my school uniform and standing under the thirteen paulownia trees. Isn’t the same school uniform left in my relationship with Tao Tao? From this day on, I, like Tao Tao, never leave my school uniform every day. I am naturally missing Tao Tao.How could I not miss him.I remember one night, he took me to a Tokyo restaurant to eat hot and sour rice noodles by bike.The waitresses are really funny, all of them are wearing kimonos and clogs, bowing their waists hayi hayi, but what they sell is authentic Sichuan flavor.I gave Taotao both the sausage and garlic, and in return he gave me the bright red chili.The peppers were like densely packed knives, stinging my mouth, throat and stomach. I was panting and sweating profusely. It was so hot.Tao Tao was still chewing, and finished the last sip of soup, and also finished mine.I said, Tao Tao, give me a cigarette.He handed me a piece of Hongtashan and lit me on fire.I sprayed all the smoke on Tao Tao's face, his face was like a big hill, with undulating nose, lips, and eye sockets, and the smoke lingered among them.He was overjoyed, and across the table, he kissed my mouth full of chili oil with his mouth that smelled of fat intestines and garlic, and kissed me a lot.

Suddenly there was booing from around, as if the audience had ruined the performance of the sketch.Tao Tao and I scanned the shop, only to see that there were children in the uniforms of No. 24 Middle School sitting here.Poor Tao Tao, he dragged me to the site of No. 24 Middle School in a ignorant way. No. 24 Middle School is a school for well-behaved children, and it is a famous brand among famous brands in our western city.As you must know, all good kids in prestigious schools look pink, like bread and toast just about to go into the oven.Those well-behaved children drank soy milk and went to study by themselves at night, and everyone had a brick-thick reference book in their arms.Seeing Tao Tao and I kiss, they all stretched their thin necks, like giraffes looking at the tourists outside the railing.I suddenly felt a loss of appetite, I said, Tao Tao, let's go.As soon as we walked to the door, the store roared with laughter, like the sons and daughters of a rich man chasing away two sparrows.Tao Tao and I turned around at the same time, those good kids were still laughing.They thought they were eating a big meal.There was a thick-headed guy wearing glasses who hooked his foot around a football and read aloud the letters on Tao Tao's school uniform: P!T!S!Z!X! Hahaha!

With a cigarette in his mouth, Tao Tao sucked it bitterly, and walked towards him.There was a puddle of red oil on the ground, and Tao Tao's marine boots stepped on it, and he staggered a bit, the shop naturally booed again.But Tao Tao took advantage of this to slide forward and just reached the guy.The guy said, what do you want to do?He stood up fiercely, but Tao Tao pressed his shoulders with both hands and pushed him down fiercely.He shouted, this is at the gate of No. 24 Middle School!You little rascal! Tao Tao said, damn it!I love you, the little bastard of the 24th! Tao Tao held the cigarette butt in his mouth and kissed him on the forehead. The guy's limbs trembled wildly, but he couldn't make a sound. Tao Tao grabbed his neck, desperately stuck.The glasses slipped off the bridge of his nose, and Tao Tao stomped them to pieces.The good children let out a roar and rushed to save people.

I grabbed a beer bottle on the dining table, put it on the edge of the table, and it became a murderous weapon.I waved the broken bottle around Taotao, and I said, damn it!Anyone who wants to contribute, who wants to bleed, come.The thick-headed guy's eyes were turned white, and the corners of his mouth were full of white bubbles.The well-behaved children were dumbfounded, but none of them dared to step forward.A girl wearing round glasses said something in English, which was what Song Xiaodou often said, probably, Oh, God!She then said, I was scared to death, call 110, right?I went up and slapped her backhand.God?Song Xiaodou and her each have their own gods, who can save who?She fell to the ground, and the round glasses rolled a few times, but they didn't break.She whimpered and cried, but none of her classmates dared to touch me.When we walked to the door again, it was as quiet as dead people sitting there.

Giant rode a long way, I asked the first sentence, I said Tao Tao, what should I do if that guy is really stuck? Tao Tao put his bicycle onto the overpass, and then rushed down like a flower in the traffic.The strong headlights dazzled me, and the big and small cars were honking their horns desperately.Tao Tao's voice pierced through the horn, like a cold knife.He said that on the first day of elementary school, my father taught me that soft ones are afraid of hard ones, hard ones are afraid of being dull, and dull ones are afraid of death.With a knife in your hand, you must dare to stab it.If you think about the consequences in everything you do, you won’t be able to accomplish anything.

It was a terrible word, and I was left speechless.That day, I thought about the dawn from the night. This sentence is indeed terrible, but it is absolutely true. But Tao Tao still rarely fights.At least I rarely see him take shots.Those who are familiar with him and those who are not familiar with him, when they see him get angry, they know that he is the kind of person who will be ruthless, has strength, and is dedicated to hitting people to death. If he lifts a brick, he will hit people's heads. hit.Few people came to provoke him, so he was happy to keep his hands in his trouser pockets.I thought sadly that he has grown white and fat like this, his mother-in-law and mother-in-law have grown up, and the woman's belly has become more and more incomprehensible to me.

Yes, I think, Tao Tao also broke my heart.Like the geography teacher, he is pretending to be crazy and stupid, or pretending to be deaf and dumb.I have snubbed him and scolded him, but I used to do that too.Once, the whole class of Grade 1 and Grade 2 went on a spring outing. After drinking a few cans of beer, Tao Tao lifted Eva's long skirt on the grass to touch her crippled leg.Eva groaned, her cheeks flushed, but her eyes were dimmed, and she didn't stop him at all.I was so angry that my lips turned white, and I hugged Tao Tao's wrist and took a bite until my mouth smelled of blood.For several days, Tao Tao showed his wrist to others, and he said, what a fucking tigress!He seemed to be putting on a manly and epileptic look, showing off to others how jealous his wife was.But now that Bao Jingsheng has appeared, he and I have become strangers!When I thought about this, I was really sad and tired, and I couldn't figure out why so many bad things happened. The street is becoming more and more deserted, and the rush hour for getting off work and school has already passed.I was leaning on thirteen paulownia trees, almost falling asleep.I dreamed that a few cold caterpillars crawled up my face, gently crawling on my face, forehead, and densely packed skin.I opened my eyes and saw that it was Zhu Zhu who was good at touching my head. I've been with you across the street for a long time.Zhu Zhu said softly, come with me.Oh, come with me, he won't come.