Chapter 14 Thirteen

I stared at the CD in my hand.It is blue and white, with snowflakes flying all over the sky. In the snowflakes, there are two little people kissing. The shape is old-fashioned, like the kind of porcelain dolls sold on the street for three to five yuan each. There are two names printed on the left - "Yang Jiannan" and "Lin Lan". On the right is a line of cursive handwriting - "We are married". The big pig was smoking next to us, and we were sitting together on the steps outside Jincang Wenhua, and there was still a slight drizzle outside the eaves. Big Pig glanced at me: "Don't act like you killed the whole family, it's just a sample...a sample. Today, a brother from the Shanghai Artillery Command took it everywhere and asked where the engraving plate is cheaper, and the printing place has been found. Yes, a print of 2000 copies, probably prepared as a gift. Show me and snatch it up. But the sample is out, it’s in preparation...soon."

I didn't speak, and put my index finger in the hole of the disc, staring at it in a daze. "Don't want to go back and see what's inside?" "What's the content?" After I said it, I realized that my voice was deformed severely, like a candle flickering in the wind. "Like a DV put together, many people said the same sentence, guess what they said?" The big pig stomped out the cigarette butt, and didn't wait for my answer." They said: "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan Bar.'" My hand shakes.The disc fell, rolled away far away, and stopped at the mouth of the sewer, being washed by the confluence of sewage.

"Don't look down." Big Pig said. After a while of silence, the talkative guy flicked his cigarette ash: "Those people came out one after another, some were officers, some were soldiers, and some were probably pedestrians found on the side of the road. They just opened their mouths and said that, so funny. They all put together Yes, some shots are sunny in spring, some are rainy, some are taken in the office, some are on the side of the road, and there is a guy who just got off the plane. Said, Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." It's raining...I really hate it's raining...why does it keep raining...it keeps raining...

"It's great. If you don't look at it, you don't know the feeling. The brothers from the three rivers, the four seas and the five lakes seem to be gathered together. The Jiangxi dialect is finished, the Fujian dialect is spoken, the Anhui dialect is finished, and the Cantonese is spoken. There was a kid who was so funny that he read aloud with a piece of paper, Ning Nan, please give it to Yang Xianlan... Thanks to Yang Jiannan, he was able to collect it. There are a lot of scenes that look like before the war started, have you been preparing for a long time?" Big Pig was silent for a while, then patted his thigh, "Sure! I'm a woman and I'm married to him too. Can you think of this move?"

"Unexpected." I said. "That's right." The big pig spread his hands. We sat quietly for a while without speaking, and I stood up. "Hey, I haven't finished smoking yet. Sit down for a while." The big pig pulled me. "Don't pull me! I want to do something!" I was so annoyed, I just wanted a bed in front of me, and I could lay down on my back. "What else can you think about?" The big pig forced me to sit down again. "Why do you care so much?" "Boss, don't think about it, this...is really difficult." Big Pig scratched his head, "To be honest, Lin Lan and Yang Jiannan are a good match."

"Fuck you, what do you mean by comparison?" "Not to mention anything else, Yang Jiannan is six years older than Lin Lan, and you are one year younger than Lin Lan." "It sounds like a sibling relationship, do you think Sina Entertainment News?" "It's nothing, I'm not in love, you haven't boarded the boat of man yet. But it's siblings! What do you think, you are younger than Lin Lan, and you still want to change your file? And you know it after thinking about it Impossible, you said Lin Lan dumped Yang Jiannan and voted for you? Others don’t think Lin Lan is crazy? You are a lieutenant, and the monthly subsidies add up to 680 yuan. You definitely don’t have a house. Hungry, I don’t know where to put it if I have an extra mouth.”

"Don't we all eat in the cafeteria?" "Damn it, you're strong! Let Lin Lan eat in the cafeteria with you!" "What should we do now?" "Damn, you still don't understand what I mean when I say it? I'm not encouraging you to bravely step forward and fight again, I mean, the big pig said leisurely, "Forget it..." "Forget it..." I also said, bowing my head. The big pig smoked silently until the cigarette butt was reluctantly thrown on the rainy ground. "But..." I suddenly raised my head. The big pig didn't listen to me, stood up and patted the ashes on his butt with his inherent chicness, and left.I sat on the steps with my knees in my arms, looking at the deserted Nanjing West Road, the only taxi passing by with a "Johnson" sign on it, and a faint rain and fog rolled up behind the car.

Yes, yes, Yang Jiannan is good in everything, he really matches Lin Lan, the two of them are so harmonious together, like Fuxi and Nuwa, like the sun and the moon.I also believe that he likes Lin Lan very much. I saw him and Lin Lan sitting side by side in the staff canteen of CITIC Pacific and eating. He took out the napkin in his pocket and wiped the tableware for Lin Lan.Lin Lan took the spoon he had wiped and lowered his head to drink the soup.He didn't eat, but just looked at her sideways. I didn't dare to think that this man who was as cold as a piece of iron could have so much warmth in his eyes, enough to drop to the counter.

I don't know what to do, if Lin Lan is really with me, I think that iron man will be very sad, right?He likes Lin Lan so much. But…… Big pigs don't listen to me... But... I just want to say... I also like Lin Lan very much... The optical drive of the notebook was rattling, as if it would fall apart at any moment. "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." A shaved brother stood at the intersection of Nanjing West Road and Xikang Road, holding a stack of discounted air tickets and said, his face was full of spring. "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." An aunt said decisively, and put the broom heavily beside her.

"Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." A little girl with a bow tie said, licking the malt candy in her hand. "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." "Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan." I stood up suddenly, why the fuck does everyone say that?If there is a sharp knife in my hand, I will definitely pull it out, and first chop the table in front of me into firewood, along with the CD-ROM notebook.When I was a child, I saw that Sun Quan heard Zhou Yu's words, stood up, drew his sword and cut off a corner of the table in public, saying that he should stop trying to persuade me to surrender, and he would end up like this table if he persuaded me any more!

I didn't know what it was like when I was a child, but now I suddenly know it. That's it! That kind of strong thing surges up, and you cut off two halves with one sword to decide whether to win or not! What else to say?Shut up the fuck! Don't say any more! Sun Quan said: "I want to resist Cao!" I said, "I'm going to find Lin Lan!" "Hey, did you see Lin Lan?" I asked Zhang Hao with wide eyes. Zhang Hao was walking out of the big office on the 30th floor with a stack of documents in his hands, holding the documents tightly to his chest in panic. "Don't block it! I'm not trying to rape you!" I snatched the document from her hand, "I'll deliver it for you, tell me where Lin Lan is." Zhang Hao shook his head vigorously. "Then you deliver it yourself." I returned the document to her again. "Is Lin Lan here?" I rushed into SPRCOFFE on the fifth floor. A large group of technicians from the defense headquarters drank coffee in a circle, and one person was busy packing up the playing cards. "Damn it, I didn't check you guys playing cards—has anyone seen Lin Lan?" A group of people shook their heads together, and only one girl said, "I saw her in the staff cafeteria just now." I strode into the staff cafeteria, grabbed the first person I saw and asked, "Hey, did you see Lin Lan?" The other party was surprised, he was carrying a large bucket of dozens of catties of swill, and he didn't know if it was a kitchen handyman or a master chef. "Lin Lan?" The fat man wiped the sweat from his forehead. "Do you know me?" I pointed to my face, "That tall girl, the girl who used to come down to eat with us, the one with curly hair at first, and then straightened it!" "Are you confused?" The other person pushed me impatiently, "It's almost two o'clock, it's past lunch time, how can anyone still be here?" I looked behind him, the empty staff canteen. When I ran out of the cafeteria, I saw Su Wan trotting out of the convenience store, flashing past me with a piece of chocolate. "Hey! See..." I said. "Lin Lan, right?" Su Wan turned her head while trotting, "I didn't see it, I was in a hurry to catch the elevator, hey, help me block the door!" I froze there, dumbfounded, and then saw a large group of people playing cards just now flashing out of the convenience store. Everyone had a malicious smile on their face. CITIC Pacific Plaza is really big. Ivy Bookstore here, SPR COFFEE over there, KENZO on the first floor, POSH LIFE on the fifth floor, combat readiness reference room on the ninth floor, general liaison department on the 11th floor, 23rd floor The logistics headquarters on the 3rd floor, the first bubble defense control room on the 30th floor... I was a little out of breath, but there was no Lin Lan anywhere. In the end I had to lean on the elevator to catch my breath. The elevator door opened, and I froze for a moment.This is the 31st floor, and I accidentally pressed the wrong button, and I came to the original first main control room.And I stretched out my hand to block the elevator door that was about to close, and I heard someone humming outside. I went out, turned a few corners, and stood quietly behind Lin Lan.She folded her arms in her arms, humming another song I didn't know, facing the huge French windows without glass.The wind blew in from outside, blowing her hair.She hummed, her heels tapping the ground occasionally.It was really gloomy here, only a large piece of light poured in from the window, almost engulfing her slender figure. After an unknown amount of time, Lin Lan turned around and said, "Why did you come up?" I said I……" What the hell, I muttered to myself.It must be doomed to meet this woman. I remember that when I was in college, I could fight from the door to the door with the canteen chef for the sand in the rice, and I was considered a very direct person.But every time I meet Lin Lan, I feel in the same mood, silent and quiet.I admit that for a long time in the past, I have always felt that the existence of this woman has troubled me very much. It is a pity that every time I hear her voice, see her text messages and hear her humming a song when she walks, all my restlessness It also disappeared. It's fine no matter what, as long as this woman is still in my life... "Aren't you on duty today?" "No." I shook my head. "You're not on duty, why don't you sleep late in the dormitory?" She turned around and walked towards me, "I've been tired for most of the day." When she walked past me, I suddenly grabbed her wrist.Maybe she was holding it too hard, so she yelled "ah". "What are you doing?" She stared. "Are you getting married?" Lin Lan froze for a moment, and at that moment I stared into her eyes, I wanted to see something in her eyes, whether it was the uneasiness exposed by the conspiracy or the miserable parting, whether it was a triumphant show or It's a pity to go down the road of no return. But Lin Lan didn't.Her pupils were deep but not bright, like another layer of fog covering everything.She turned her head to avoid my sight: "The news spread so fast, you know all about it?" "Not even talking?" "It's too urgent. Jiannan's father said that he has been promoted to colonel and is 31. It's time to get married. Jiannan brought a ring and asked me if I could." Lin Lan said, "Don't you Hold me, your hands are hard and cold." I don't speak, and I don't let go. Lin Lan frowned, and tried to break my hand away with the other hand.I grabbed her other hand and stared at her without blinking.Lin Lan struggled for a while, then calmed down. She suddenly had a fit, and yelled at me with staring eyes: "I'm getting married this summer, what exactly do you want?" "I don't want anything, I just want to ask," I took a deep breath, "Do you really have to get married?" Anyone who hears this will think I'm crazy, but I've said all I wanted to say. "You're crazy." Lin Lan said. "I just wanted to ask!" "What do you want to ask?" Lin Lan sneered, "You don't care if I get married or not, you just care who I marry!" She was really angry when she said that, her eyes were so round, like an angry female leopard. "you are right!" I can no longer show weakness. My game of dice has lifted the lid, and I can no longer roll it. Now all that is left is to watch the result with determination. "What do you want me to do? I'm a woman! Women! You men find a lot of girlfriends because they are suave, but we women find a lot of men because they are lewd and obscene! I have a boyfriend who is very good, he likes me and wants to marry me, I want to marry him too, what do you want me to do?" "Very good? What is very good? Because he graduated from the Shijiazhuang Army Academy? Because he is a combat hero? He is still a lieutenant colonel? Oh, no, he is already a colonel!" Lin Lan's face suddenly turned red, her lips were trembling, trembling, and finally she broke free from my hands and pushed on my chest: "Go to hell!" I stumbled back a few steps.Sudden dizziness in front of the eyes, maybe it's too tired, maybe it's the old problem of arrhythmia. "I taught you how to press DV..." I murmured, feeling as if all the heat in my chest was taken away at once, leaving it empty and cold. In the field of vision are chaotic geometric lines, a piece of blue and purple.I heard those distant and approaching voices: Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan... Please marry Yang Jiannan... Please marry Yang Jiannan... I watched the DV, and I knew it was suppressed by Lin Lan , was taken by Yang Jiannan, and Lin Lan pressed it into a wedding souvenir. She is so stupid, she can't remember those parameters and processes, I have to repeat it again and again, how to cut the time... adjust the parameters... how to merge the tracks... Finally I said this, I will tell you step one step two steps Three, you don't need to know why each parameter is adjusted in this way, you only need to do it one, two, three, four, five, so Lin Lan learned it. I think she was lying on her workbench whispering step 1, step 2, step 3... cut out those climax paragraphs of DV one by one, splicing them together, like thousands of people from all over the world saying at the same time : Lin Lan, please marry Yang Jiannan. I suddenly remembered Chen Kaige's "Fatal Attraction", which was a little-known little film he directed in Hollywood, and I sat in the half-price movie theater on Wednesday and watched it.The heroine falls in love with a handsome and brave mountaineer and is about to leave her live-in boyfriend, who, she returns to her rented house, is watching a football game with his legs crossed, as I remember him as a mediocre fat guy.The woman made up her mind and said that I want to leave you, the man stood up and widened his eyes in disbelief. When he finally understood that everything was irreparable, he snarled and said why did you leave me you bitch you stupid woman you cheated on me and all words hit an invisible wall in front of women .Finally he murmured, why did you leave me, I bought you the subway ticket every weekend... I bought you the subway ticket every weekend, I bought you the subway ticket every weekend. Is it too stingy? The subway ticket , just the one-dollar subway ticket…… Big Pig said in his blog that my three favorite movies are because it tells the anger in the heart of the eternal man; it is "Passion Years" because it tells the wandering in the heart of the eternal man: it is "Leaving Las Vegas" because it tells the story of the helplessness in the heart of the eternal man. What should I do if I am not as capable, not as majestic as Yang Jiannan, not as careful, not as smart as he can think of such a good way to propose?But... I have really worked hard. Really wronged, like a child. She stared at me hard, her lips were drawn tightly, like a little girl who had been scolded, but also angry.I don't know if she's going to yell or cry. "I'm sorry... sorry..." I said, what else can I say? I suddenly amplified my voice: "Sorry!" "Just explain it earlier..." I took a deep breath, turned around and left, ran to the elevator and pressed the down button vigorously. Footsteps came from behind me, I turned my head and saw Lin Lan following, standing ten meters away holding on to the door frame. "Then I'm telling you now, don't come to me again." She spoke softly, but firmly, I couldn't hear the tone in her words. A soft word is like a grain of sand, but the sound of falling to the ground is like thunder.There is a buzzing in my head, a kind of exhaustion that seems to protrude from every blood cell is flowing along my blood vessels, I want to sit down and take a good rest.It's over, it's finally over. I stood there, looking at her, the elevator came, and with a "ding", I turned around and walked in.She didn't follow through. I was lying on the cold window glass, looking at the boots with a little white fluff.The female clerk slowly turned off the lights of the entire shopping mall from the east side, and the shadows slowly approached me. She finally came to my side and looked at this drunk man with flying eyes, "Hey, don't look It's closed!" "Wait...wait for me...wait for me to stand up." She turned off the lights in the window involuntarily: "Hurry up! You are also in the army, be careful to inform your leaders!" "People in the army are human, can't you buy things?" I felt that my head was so heavy that my neck was about to break. "What do you buy? Boots? 5700, this is the only pair, and there is a 20% discount. If you buy it, how much do you pay per month?" The female shop assistant exhaled fiercely from her nostrils. "Wrap it up for me." I threw out a card, "36, right? You told me last time, too?" "Credit card? Credit cards are no longer accepted." The female clerk held the card suspiciously. "No, savings card, I saved the money." My voice dropped, "But I don't want to save it now..." After a while she went out with a paper bag, stuffed it in my hand, returned the card to me, and asked me to sign on a small piece of paper. "Give it to your girlfriend? Are you going to get married?" Watching me leave, the female clerk said behind her back. I seemed to have been electrocuted, and turned to look at her viciously, with eyes so menacing that they could kill a dinosaur. When I woke up, I was lying in my room on the 11th floor of the JC Mandarin Hotel.Hearing my movements, the first thing that flashed was Big Pig's face, and then Er Zhu's. Big Pig was excited: "At least you are awake, otherwise you would be the first person in the headquarters to die drunk." Erzhu stuffed something into my hand: "Come on, have a look!" I forced my eyes wide open, reading the piece of paper in my hand. "Dear Heads of Command: "I, Jiang Yang, have made the following review after deep reflection on the drunken riots that took place in the headquarters office a few days ago. "As a PLA reserve officer serving the country and the people, I did not have a deep understanding of my sacred duty, put personal emotions above collective interests and national security, disregarded organizational discipline, and ignored leaders and colleagues. trust, broke into the big office of the defense headquarters, made loud noises, used alcohol to cause trouble, destroyed public property, and violated colleagues... "Here, I express my deep self-criticism and the most sincere apology. Even if I use the word confession, I cannot describe the sadness in my heart at this moment..." I pressed my chest, and there was a "vomit" in my throat. "It's not really that big of a reaction, is it?" Erzhu patted my back. "I didn't spit out the stuff in my stomach...it's not what you wrote..." I retched a few times, but finally didn't spit it out. This is the structure of Erzhu's writing. The big pig reads a lot and cannot write. The Erzhu is always sincere and hardworking. Every time I read his review, I feel that this person hates himself from the soul and looks forward to a kind of Bright freshman, but next time he's supposed to make a mistake, he'll do it right. "I broke into the main office of the headquarters?" "I didn't say anything, you kicked open the gate and yelled - Lu Zhishen is comparable to you in hitting the mountain gate drunk!" Big Pig looked very admiring. "Destroying public property?" "It's a trivial matter. You took Zhang Hao's teacup, thinking it was a wine cup, and took a sip, as if the cup was broken for the sake of the sword, and smashed the cup." Erzhu said. "Assault on a colleague? Have you? Who have I violated?" "It's almost time to write about sexual harassment. You hugged Su Wan warmly first, and then pressed her shoulders to force her to sit down and listen to you say a word. In the end, we all waited for you for a long time, and you fell down without saying a word." .” "Su Wan..." My head grew dizzy. If I bully Zhang Hao, it's okay, but Su Wan can chatter... "Does loud noise count as one?" I said. "The problem is what you shouted." The big pig said leisurely. "What did I shout for?" "Tell me," Erzhu lowered his head as if reciting a text, "let Lin Lan die..." I sat blankly. "Come on, sign it!" Er Zhu put the pen into my hand. Dazed, I signed my name on the check and sank into the pillow.