Chapter 7 Chapter 6 Her Retained Willfulness

Xin Chen was afraid of such a sudden silence, as if there were memories floating in the air, these memories became clearer in front of his eyes little by little, as if they were tangible and within reach.She could almost feel the scorching sun cast mottled light and shadow through the shade of the plane trees, vaguely heard her own crisp laughter when she was young, and smelled the faint fragrance of Albizia julibrissin, and the handsome young man in her memory was watching her, at this moment They overlap with the pair of deep eyes in front of them, and they are also full of concern and tenderness, as if there is no long distance between them.

She bit her lip tightly, pulling herself back to reality.For a long time, she has learned to store her memories properly in a corner of her heart and not to flip them easily. Xin Chen managed to show a casual smile, and put aside the cell phone he had been holding tightly, "You are right, the demolition notice was posted downstairs, it seems that this house is almost at the end of its life." Lu Fei didn't mind her changing the subject, "What are your plans?" "Let's see and talk." Lu Fei didn't plan to let her perfunctory, "Didn't you read the date of the announcement?"

"Not paying attention." "The demolition compensation negotiation is about to begin. The developer this time is Haotian Group. They have always been known for their pursuit of efficiency. They have completed the preliminary planning and entrusted the demolition to a professional demolition company. As far as I know, domestic demolition companies Acting and word of mouth are not good, but the guarantee of speed is famous." "It doesn't matter. I don't intend to be a nail household. I can accept the demolition conditions that most people can accept." "Where do you want to live in the future, do you like to watch the river or the lake? Maybe a house with a yard in a suburban area is better for planting flowers. I will drive you to see it someday."

Xin Chen shook his head, "No, I'm not interested in buying a house. I just got the demolition money and I just went to another place." "Where are you going?" "I haven't thought about it yet. Maybe I will live in a place with a milder climate and four seasons of flowers. Anyway, it's the same wherever my work is done." "Are you going to leave here again when I come back?" Xin Chen looked at him in surprise, "Why do you speculate like this? There is no causal relationship at all. You have been to many places, and you know what it's like to live in other places. I have lived in this city since I was a child. Isn’t it normal to want to change the environment after leaving?”

"I can't help but make such an association. Last time I came back, you went to Qinling; this time you said you were going to another place, so you didn't even say where." "We haven't communicated at all for almost seven years. We each have our own lives. I really don't know what you think. Why do you have to connect two unrelated things?" "You and I both know that it's not really irrelevant, right?" He looked at her and asked calmly, Xin Chen could only look away, "Xiao Chen, don't deny it. You don't want to Seeing me again, you almost died on an ill-prepared hike to escape, and now you have decided to leave the place where you grew up."

"You think too much, Lu Fei, my life is not your responsibility." Xin Chen almost blurted out without thinking, and both of them were stunned at the same time. After a long time, Xin Chen smiled wearily, "Yes, you said this to me when I was 17 years old: Xin Chen, your life is your own business after all, not my responsibility. Look, every word I remembered it all. I never made myself anyone's responsibility, so let me arrange my life and you live yours, okay?" This refusal came so clearly and directly, Lu Fei was silent, looking at the still young and beautiful face in front of him with a desolate and indifferent expression, his heart tightened, "I hate myself. Although self-criticism is meaningless, I am indeed a An out-and-out fool, Xiaochen, I actually hurt you with such a cold sentence."

"I forgot, you still love to reflect on yourself so much. No, Lu Fei, I didn't mean to rectify or blame you, nor did I mean to be angry with you. In fact, your words are good words for me, absolutely not Even if it hurts, I have to understand this truth sooner or later, and learn to be responsible for myself.” She tilted her head, and the casual smile appeared on her face again, “You taught me this, I am very grateful, it is better than letting life directly teach you what to do.” I'm much more gentle." Her tone was calm, and Lu Fei was speechless for a moment. The phone rang, and Xin Chen picked it up to answer it. It was David Fan who called. He told Xin Chen that the client had just seen the LOGO she designed and was satisfied with the second set of plans. At the same time, he proposed to adjust the color tone. Chen Yiyi agreed, "Okay, alright, although I think your client may be a bit weak, but whoever pays is the boss, I will adjust it according to what he said."

She looked back at Lu Fei and said with a smile, "I'm really busy right now, let's talk another day." She politely ordered him to leave again, and Lu Fei let out a long sigh, "This Saturday, I will treat Uncle Xin's family to dinner, and I will pick you up then, okay?" Xin Chen felt that his aunt Li Xin might not welcome him, but he didn't say anything, "I'll talk to Uncle about it." The door closed behind Lu Fei, and Xin Chen stood there in a daze. After a while, she walked into the bedroom.Her bedroom is as minimally decorated as the studio outside, with a bed covered with an off-white bed cover, a large wardrobe, and other than that, there are no extra furnishings.

She opened the closet, and the clothes inside were neatly packed without any mess.She took out a dark red Oxford cloth bag from a corner, sat cross-legged on the floor, opened the bag, took out the standard competition rubber and cloth chess mat inside, flattened it in front of her, and then arranged the chess pieces one by one. "King against king, queen against queen; black king on white square, white king on black square. White queen on white square, black queen on black square." "The latter is the most powerful piece in chess. It can be moved horizontally, vertically, or obliquely. The number of moves is not limited, but it cannot be overstepped."

"Yes, this is translocation." "No, no, it's against the rules." "Are you going to be rambunctious again?" This chess set was brought to her by Lu Fei when she was 15 years old. In that year, Xin Kaiyu was still doing business freely and rarely at home.Lu Fei often came over to help her with homework and play chess with her for fun. His deep and sweet voice seemed to still echo in the room at this moment. Although she made the greatest changes to the structure of the house during the renovation, replacing all the old furniture, including the two old-fashioned wicker chairs that they used to sit on the balcony chatting many times, although they were basically intact, she also let the decoration workers took away.

But she ended up keeping this chess set. She clearly remembered all the rules, but never played against anyone again.Only on some lonely nights, she would take it out, arrange it silently, and listen to the guidance of that voice, and move the chess pieces, as if the boy was still sitting opposite, guiding herself patiently. "You live in your own world, and sometimes you completely ignore other people's feelings." Xin Chen's previous boyfriend Feng Yi'an once accused her of this. After all, she is not the willful girl who would walk away at the slightest disagreement. She just smiled and said, "Hey, let's be fair. I didn't ask you to give up your world, nor did I ask you to take my feelings too seriously." important." "Are we in love?" "Walking, eating, watching movies, hugging, and kissing, what is it if it's not love? You wouldn't do these things with a passer-by, would you?" "Of course I wouldn't do this with just anyone, but you don't care who you are doing all this with." "It's as if I don't have any demands on men." She protested, lacking in confidence. "Your request is not aimed at me. You just want someone who is knowledgeable and pleasing to the eye to accompany you when you are not working, hiking, traveling, or in a daze. When it comes to the future, it seems to be my own. You don't care at all." She had no choice but to admit defeat, "I'm sorry, I thought that I had almost become a reasonable and good person, but I didn't expect that I would be such a virtuous person in your eyes." Feng Yi'an turned around with an anger she didn't understand, and he came to her after a few days. Feng Yi'an's resignation ended, and at the end of the breakup, she admitted that although she was unhappy, she did feel relieved. Feng Yi'an's father is an old colleague of her uncle Xin Kaiming, who also holds a leadership position in another department, and the two have a close relationship.Xin Kaiming was very puzzled by their breakup, "Xiaochen, you really have to change your willful habit." Xin Chen knew that he had a bad criminal record, so he could only explain: "Feng Yi'an proposed this breakup." "No matter who proposed it, you should sit down and talk about it, don't play tricks. Last time I saw Lao Feng, he also said that his son is very satisfied with you." "Uncle, there's no need to talk about it. Feng Yi'an has already made a new girlfriend. We met on the road a few days ago." Xin Chen told his uncle helplessly.At that time, Feng Yi'an greeted her and took the initiative to introduce the lovely people around him. He was very polite and thoughtful, and it seemed that there was no more unpleasantness. Of course, it was irreparable. Hearing that he just broke up and found a new love, Xin Kaiming was even more annoyed, and almost called his father Xingshi to question him, Xin Chen hurriedly stopped him, and said with a smile: "Don't ask any more questions, breaking up is very common, uncle, we It just doesn't match up." Li Xin on the other side was thoughtful, "Since Xiaochen said so, don't worry too much about young people's affairs." Xin Kaiming had no choice but to give up. Xin Chen heaved a sigh of relief. After more than a year of dating, the two of them can be regarded as getting along well, but Feng Yi'an didn't wrong her, and she really didn't invest in it.When everyone felt that she was no longer willful, she still retained a little willfulness, that is, she stubbornly left a part of her life in the world where only herself was left. She couldn't give Feng Yi'an the focus she asked for. With this premise, the result of the breakup didn't hurt anyone. Xin Chen stretched out his hand to sweep, disturbed the chessboard in front of him, hugged his knees, leaned back against the closet, looked through the bedroom window, and saw the group of pigeons flying low and passing by. She chose a rational life, planting flowers, hiking, working hard, and associating with men who are also rational and reliable. Although she lacks a little enthusiasm, she is gentle and tolerant. She just couldn't give up the warm memories she had since she was 14 years old, even if he resolutely walked out of her world later and had no contact with her. Xin Di yelled at the phone, this is her standard tone when she answers her mother's phone call after she grows up. Putting down the phone, Xin Di sighed.Until the year she was in college, her mother Li Xin was the absolute ruler of her life. Deciding when to conceive and release her into the world was just the beginning. The next step was to decide which brand of milk powder she would eat, which kindergarten she would go to, and which kind of interest. class, which musical instrument to learn, which painting technique to learn from which teacher, which elementary or middle school to attend, which head teacher to enroll in, what kind of clothes to wear, what kind of friends to make, which movies and Extra-curricular books...in every detail, and all-encompassing. Being controlled in this way, growing up in a regular manner, she can still maintain her imagination and have a passion for art. Xin Di feels that she can boast to herself without blushing: You are such a wonderful flower. She will always remember that the first time Xin Chen had menstruation was during the summer vacation when she was 13 years old. The contrast with her panicked run home from school during her menarche was so strong that she asked in shame, "Chenzi, aren't you scared?" Xin Chen asked: "What's so scary, my father showed me the book on physical hygiene and told me that I would definitely go through this developmental process." Xin Di knows that her father loves her more than her little uncle loves Xin Chen, but she can't imagine that a father will talk about this topic with his daughter.Even her mother, after the fact, implicitly talked about things such as hygiene that should be paid attention to, and at the same time added the moral education of a lady who should be more self-respecting and self-loving in the future. After going to university, Xin Di moved into the well-known poor dormitory of the Academy of Fine Arts. For the first time, she shared a room with five other people. Looking up to the sky and laughing, I feel that freedom comes so sweetly. Of course she loves her mother, but she doesn't love the life her mother arranged for her, let alone the dusty and ill-fitting clothes that accompany her growing up.If anyone wants to tell her that clothes are just belongings, she promises to sneer immediately.No, as far as she is concerned, the influence of clothes on the development of the body and soul cannot be overstated. She has always agreed with this sentence: You have a much better life if you wear impressive clothes (if you wear impressive clothes) Impressive clothing, your life will be better). Going home only once a week and arranging her own clothes, Xin Di used the shortest time to adapt to college life. When Li Xin found that her daughter was irreversibly out of her control, she was helpless. Xin Di gradually learned to use a hippie smile to prevaricate her mother, including the issue of urging her to go on a blind date, find a boyfriend and get married. From the beginning of the serious talk to the later warm-hearted offensive, she can handle everything with ease. For example, my mother said: "Xiaodi, it's time to think about personal issues." Xin Di will reply with great sincerity: "I have been thinking about it very seriously, and I have come to the conclusion that it is better to lack than to abuse." When she was 28 years old, her mother could no longer wait for her to think about it slowly, "Xiaodi, when I think of your father and I leaving, you are left alone in this world, and I feel uncomfortable. " It is probably difficult for ordinary girls to resist such a warm confession from their mother. When Xin Di relayed the words to her good friend Ye Zhiqiu, who is also 28 years old and unmarried, tears came to Ye Zhiqiu's eyes immediately. But Xin Di only smiled and took her mother's hand, and said affectionately: "Mom, you and father are the mainstay at this age. You are serving the country and have not retired yet. How can you say that? Besides, if I It's far more pitiful to meet someone unkind, than to live alone, isn't it?" Her mother was left speechless. However, this time, what her mother said to her on the phone is not something she can just perfunctory. She knew that her mother had always liked Lu Fei. Of course, who wouldn't like such an excellent man. She has protected her playmate since she was in kindergarten. One of her best friends since she was a child, Xin Di also likes it. When she was young, she once said "I will marry Lu Fei when I grow up", which made the two families amused. The adults laughed from ear to ear, and jokingly ordered a baby kiss. It's just that she clearly knows that the love between the two has never been colored by the feelings of a man and a woman, let alone that she now knows that Lu Fei has feelings for Xin Chen that go beyond friendship. Xin Di didn't dare to say this to her mother. Her mother always believed that Xin Chen had at least destroyed the possible development between her and the two boys. One was naturally Lu Fei, and the other was her college classmate, Photographed by Yan Xuhui. As for Xinchen's previous boyfriend, Feng Yi'an, Li Xin also planned to give Xindi priority, "This kid is very good. His father and your father have worked together for many years. He is the same age as you, graduated from a prestigious school, has a smooth career, and family conditions." Appropriate, has no bad habits, and has a good personality." Xin Di laughed out loud at this standard blind date introduction and resolutely refused to meet, so Li Xin gave up. After Xin Chen and Feng Yi'an broke up, Li Xin showed an expression of "I expected it earlier", which made Xin Di even more puzzled. Xin Di felt that the charges Li Xin assigned to Xin Chen were inexplicable, and she tried her best to explain to her mother before: "Lu Fei and I are brothers and sisters, and we are nothing more than sisters and brothers in the future. Besides, Chen Zi was only sixteen or seventeen at the time. Years old, you are exaggerating too much." Li Xin just looked at her helplessly, "You are too simple, Xiao Di. That kid Xin Chen is a big kid, far more complicated than you imagined." Xin Di originally wanted to say, "It's thanks to you that I'm so simple", but after all, she didn't dare to offend her mother who has rheumatic heart disease too much, so she could only swallow it back. When Yan Xuhui was mentioned, Xin Di was even more surprised. The ancients said that the poor are rich in culture and martial arts. In modern times, entering the Academy of Fine Arts is equivalent to learning martial arts. Compared with ordinary colleges and universities, it costs more money to study photography.When they were in school, digital cameras were not popular yet, not to mention the shooting equipment, film and developing were also a considerable expense, not to mention that they had to go out to collect pictures from time to time, or invite models to shoot.Yan Xuhui's family background is rich, and he often travels all over the world. When he presses the shutter, he looks at the film like dung, and he really admires many people, including the teacher. His favorite subjects are beauties first and landscapes second.He and Xin Di exchanged fashion photography, and they had a lot in common.The two have similar tastes and opinions, and both are a little arrogant and a little uninhibited. He can also understand Xin Di's design expression very well, and the effect of the shooting can satisfy her.So the two often got together and hooked up beautiful models inside and outside the campus. Xin Di came up with design ideas and thought of some unconstrained themes. He made some so-called creative films, which won a lot of praise, and some were adopted by magazines. Some even won minor awards. After all, Li Xin was worried about Xin Di, and would often question her whereabouts. Xin Di treated Yan Xuhui as a completely harmless neutral person to her mother to reassure her.Unexpectedly, Yan Xuhui, who is thin, tall, seemingly honest, and well-spoken, hides his edges and corners well in front of his elders, and he is quite favored by Li Xin. In her sophomore year, Xin Di was going to Beijing to see a clothing exhibition, and her mother asked her colleagues as usual, and she was surprised when she heard Yan Xuhui's name, "He didn't study clothing, so what kind of clothing exhibition do you want to see?" Then she nodded, "Xiao Di, With him taking care of you, I feel more at ease." Xin Di didn't bother to explain that he went for the models at the fashion show, but Li Xin misunderstood it. In his junior year, Xin Di persuaded Xin Chen to put on his favorite work and asked Yan Xuhui to take a photo. He immediately fell in love with Xin Chen, and the photos he took were very successful. Xin Kaiming saw that Xinchen's academic performance dropped sharply in the second semester of her second year of high school, so she arranged for her to study fine arts so that she could apply for an art major. Yan Xuhui also volunteered to guide her.Xin Di noticed his small thoughts, and Xin Di bluntly warned him to restrain himself, "My sister is still an underage girl, and she is going to be in her third year of high school. If you dare to harass her, be careful that I will turn against you. " Yan Xuhui nodded repeatedly, but he still couldn't help himself. He also ran to find Xin Chen during the holidays, and later persuaded her to take a set of commercial photos, which caused a big disturbance.When Li Xin was angry, she naturally deduced a story of empathy and other love, which frustrates Xin Di every time she mentions it later. "Where does this come from? Mom, Yan Xuhui and I are schoolmates, and we have a pure classmate relationship. I don't feel anything about him at all. Don't drag me with him." "Who and who are pure friendships at the beginning. Are there few classmates who fall in love and get married?" Xin Di understands that she is as unlikely to convince her mother as her mother is to convince her, and she finds that as long as she doesn't have a boyfriend, her mother will insist on finding the most ready-made explanation for her talented and cheerful daughter who is still single .She had no choice but to let her mother go. Anyway, her mother only complained at home, and her father didn't take it as seriously as she did. Xin Di couldn't satisfy her mother's request. She had several romances one after another, but she still couldn't concentrate on it.She considers herself not a picky person, but she is hopelessly fond of criticizing other people's clothing, and few people can pass her taste; Resonance, asking her to talk to a dull white-collar elite would kill her.Those bland and watery ways of getting along with each other made her feel that it would be more interesting to spend her time watching fashion show CDs alone at home. She once exchanged with Xin Chen curiously: "What is the fun of being in love?" At that time, Xinchen was a sophomore in college, and there was a handsome boy next to her. She just smiled and said, "Maybe it will make me not feel lonely." lonely?Xin Di felt that this word was really far away from her.She has never felt lonely. She is very popular in school. She has a close friend Ye Zhiqiu, and many teachers and classmates who admire her talent. After work, she is so busy that she has no time to be lonely. Settle down and sort out the design ideas for further improvement. If being in love only occupies a little of her limited spare time, she shrugged and decided to forget it. Of course, there are also men who can talk to each other. Xin Di's friend A Feng is a good example.The two met by chance at an art exhibition. A Feng, who was wearing a plaid shirt, looked a bit like a literary youth, with a bit of a clean and unruly temperament, casual and meticulous in his clothes, and a witty conversation. Speaking of a regular job, Ah Feng and his friends co-owned a car repair and refit company. They have nothing to do with literature and art. They just invested in a bar that wasn't very profitable. From self-driving to more exciting mountain climbing. Xin Di exchanged contact information with him, and they also dated later. They like the same art genre, appreciate similar bands, movies, directors and writers. Such a high level of interest and taste makes Xin Di a little confused. Is it true? Did you meet the right person? But after getting along slowly, they talked speculatively, but they couldn't find a little heartbeat and throbbing.After getting acquainted with each other day by day, you can pat each other on the shoulder and talk about your thoughts, but there is no way to hug and make out, let alone kiss, can this be the feeling of being in love? The answer others gave Xin Di was not like this. Xin Chen said with a smile: "If you can't have a sense of physical intimacy with him, you'll be a close friend if you can talk to him." Ye Zhiqiu, Xindi's good friend who is in love, said: "When I was with him, sometimes we didn't have to say anything, and we each did our own thing, but when he turned around by chance, he must be looking back at me at the same time." Xin Di admitted dejectedly that she was not in love, and she didn't know which link went wrong. She turned a possible boyfriend into a buddy. Afeng felt the same way with her, and they agreed that it would be more appropriate to go back and be friends, and half-jokingly agreed that if they couldn't find a suitable partner and their family forced marriage, they might as well live together after the age of 35. Lu Fei quietly returned to work in Hanjiang City, and when he mentioned that he had broken up with his girlfriend and was single, Li Xin's imagination was stimulated again, and she had been talking about him on the phone just now, Xin Di's head suddenly grew bigger . She was fascinated by the design draft in front of her, turning the pencil quickly with one hand, which was a habitual action of hers.The thin pencil is turning in a variety of ways between her fingers. People who just saw it can't help but be surprised, but the people in Somei's design department have long been used to seeing it, and know that it is best not to disturb her at this time. But not everyone was aware of it. The front desk called and said that Mr. Dai from the advertising company had brought a modified advertisement sample and asked Director Xin to review it again. Xin Di regretted taking this job very much. She found that since she got the title of design director, she sounded majestic, but she had to deal with more and more administrative affairs, and most of these were annoying to her. Trouble is trouble, but I can't push it away, so I have to throw down the pencil and go to the reception room. Another design director, A KEN, was also sitting there, chatting with David Fan.She couldn't help but be surprised that KEN, who doesn't care about people in general, actually had a good conversation with David Fan. Could it be that this person's beauty affects both men and women.Seeing her come in, Ah KEN said: "I signed everything, let's go back to work first." The improved sample looked fine, and Xin Di muttered: "Isn't it over for KEN to sign it alone?" But after careful review, he signed and approved, and got up to leave. David Fan hurriedly said: "Xin Di, I like Jacky Cheung's songs. ?" "good." "Are you free on Saturday night? Go see his concert tour together." Xin Di leaned on the table in the reception room, slightly surprised, "David Fan, do you want to date me?" David Fan nodded of course. After thinking about it a few days ago, he felt that playing hard-to-get tricks with Xin Di was probably a waste of effort, and he planned to pursue it straightforwardly.He guessed that Xindi might not have much interest in Jacky Cheung, but there are not many such performances in the local area, and the choice is limited, so he can only try. Xin Di looked at him thoughtfully, and suddenly there was a sly smile on the corner of her mouth, which made David Fan feel a little sly. He was almost a little nervous, and he didn't know what was going on in her head. "It's fine to watch the concert, but you have to agree to have dinner with me first on Friday night." David Fan was overjoyed, and he couldn't believe his good luck, "Of course, of course." "The location is up to me." David Fan had no objection. Xin Di returned to the design room, and A KEN was standing in front of her design draft and carefully looked at it. He was a thin Hong Kong man in his 40s, as if all the nutrients in his body were concentrated on his head. His hair was unusually lush and thick, and he wore Sophisticated and simple, like an urban yuppie. "KEN, if you want to be here in the future, don't leave all the business matters to me. One day I will be disturbed by these things." A KEN said in plain Mandarin, "I'll give you a chance, Sandy, Xiao Dai is so handsome, and he clearly wants to pursue you." Sandy is the English name he gave Xin Di on his own initiative. He is a relatively well-known designer in Hong Kong. He was hired by Suomei boss Zeng Cheng with a lot of money a year ago. She was intimidated by that serious face, but Xin Di's nerves were thicker, and she was not moved by other people's ostentation at all. He was weak, and she was even weaker than him. A KEN asked all the girls in the design department to have English names, claiming that it would be easier to address them.The local area is not as concentrated as Beijing and Shanghai where foreign companies are concentrated. It has not always been the custom for everyone to have a foreign name, but everyone responded enthusiastically. Even the girls in the finance department and marketing department followed suit and called each other Susan and Mary. Class is coming.Only Xindi ignored him, he called her Sandy, she refused to agree honestly, and called him "Mr. Wang Yaolun" without a word, which made him very annoyed. The girls are very difficult to deal with, and they probably want to engage in the legendary personnel struggle that mainland companies are famous for. But after a few rounds, he found that Xin Di was not addicted to playing office politics. She had no interest in power, and she was a straightforward girl.After reading Xin Di's design draft, he sighed and shook his head, and said directly: "Sandy, I didn't say anything, you are very talented." Xin Di also admitted that this arrogant Hong Kong native is also talented. His designs are well integrated with the market, and he is highly sensitive to popular commercial elements. He is very skilled in using fabric materials, which is worth learning for her. The two felt sorry for each other, and they began to call each other's English names as a reconciliation.The titles of the two are both design directors, but according to Zeng Cheng's arrangement, the division of labor is clear and checks and balances each other, so they cooperate well. Xin Di looked at him suspiciously, "KEN, you only stay here for a few days a year, yet you know his name and that he wants to pursue me, you are like a paparazzi." A KEN laughed, "It's intuition. If you don't have a good intuition when you eat design, you can be out of the game. I read the design draft you just released, Sandy, it seems that there is a naughty boy living in your heart who refuses to grow up. A female version of Peter Pan." This statement made Xin Di startled.Of course she remembered that many years ago, Lu Fei described Xin Chen in a similar way, which left a deep impression on her.Ah KEN sees her design with a professional eye and is very attentive.However, Lu Fei, who was 18 years old at the time, had always had a serious personality, was cautious in his words and deeds, and did not reveal his interest in any girls. If he hadn't observed Xin Chen carefully, how could he have come to this conclusion. She can only admit that her mother is much more sensitive than she is in this regard. A KEN spread out her design sketches, and pointed with enthusiasm: "One thing is strange to me, Sandy. When people draw manuscripts, the faces of the models are all omitted. Why do you take the trouble to draw very clearly every time, and it seems to be the same model? A girl." Xin Di laughed and said: "It's against the harmony of heaven for a man to be too delicate. A KEN, sooner or later I won't have any secrets in front of you. This girl is my cousin. I liked to draw her since I was a child. Self-consciousness will come to her face." Of course, she doesn't just think of Xin Chen when she draws manuscripts. In fact, every piece of work comes out, and when she sees the company's fitting models wearing it, she can't help but imagine what the sixteen or seventeen-year-old Xin Chen would look like when she puts it on.This kind of association sometimes has a very ironic effect, because the positioning of the main brand of Suomei, which she is responsible for designing, has become more and more mature in recent years, but the second-tier brand she is only responsible for approving is following the youthful route. "This girl is so beautiful and vivid, when will you introduce me?" "Have you seen it? When we went to eat together last time, I'll show you that my cousin and her boyfriend are on the next table." Two months ago, Xin Di took Ah KEN to eat local specialties, and happened to meet Xin Chen and Feng Yi'an eating together, and nodded to each other as greetings.A KEN is used to beauties, and he didn't mean to be amazed when he saw Xin Chen. He only said that Xin Di let her cousin go out in such simple clothes, and she was really sorry for her designer name. In the middle of the meal, the two people at the table over there seemed to be arguing about something. Xin Di glanced at Feng Yi'an, who was always polite, looking very excited, with veins on his forehead throbbing. Although he tried his best to keep his voice down, he could still see the anger meaning.Xin Chen remained calm, always speaking softly.It was actually Feng Yi'an who got up and left angrily in the end. Xin Chen only smiled wryly, watched him walk out of the restaurant thoughtfully, then lowered his head and continued to drink soup. If there are two people. Xin Di sat down, intending to comfort Xin Chen, but Xin Chen smiled and didn't care about it at all, and just said: "It's nothing, it's just a quarrel, Di Zi goes to accompany your friend." She waved to the waiter to pay the bill, and shrugged her shoulders , "It's terrible that a man has no demeanor." Her demeanor was full, but it made Xin Di feel strange, and when she returned to her desk, KEN smiled and said, "Sandy, your cousin looks more mature than you." She could only acquiesce. After dinner with KEN, Xin Di was a little worried and went to Xin Chen's house. As usual, Xin Chen sat in front of the computer and edited the photos, looking as if nothing had happened. Xin Di asked Xin Chen: "Why did he quarrel with you?" Xin Chen frowned in perplexity and recalled, missing the point, "He's been like this a lot lately. It's all trivial things, and he turns his face when he talks. I talk to him, and he speaks eloquently; I ignore him, and he accuses me of being indifferent." Xin Di realized that she had asked the wrong question, but what she really wanted to know was why Xin Chen tolerated him so much.In her opinion, Feng Yi'an has no charm worthy of Xin Chen's tolerance, and Xin Chen has never been a girl who is willing to tolerate, "It's abnormal to often do this, don't you just let him?" "In two days, he came to my door to apologize, sending flowers and criticizing me, so I'll let it go." "Hey, don't you think it's fun? This man is very immature. He's old this year, and he's still playing this trick." "I've been annoyed for a long time. If I wasn't afraid that my uncle would tell me, I would have just told him to break up." Xin Di almost vomited blood, "I can't see that you are so afraid of my dad, and my dad wouldn't insist on you dating and marrying a childish man." "He's not naive, but..." Xin Chen thought for a while and gave up, "Forget it, God knows what's going on with a man's emotional cycle?" After a few days, Xin Chen and Feng Yi'an broke up. Although Feng Yi'an proposed to break up, Xin Di was relieved for her. She really felt that their relationship always had a strange feeling that she couldn't explain clearly. . A KEN looked down at the design draft again, and concluded: "They just have similar faces. The cousin you met the other day was so calm that it made people frightened. She is the kind that can make men collapse. I sympathize with her boyfriend." "She has grown up, and I will always draw what she looked like when she was 15 years old." "Then I'm not wrong, you are helping her resist growing up in your heart." "Can you resist it? The torrent of time sweeps everything." Xin Di thought, these days are really strange, it seems that they are discussing this issue with everyone. "Some people are blessed, like Vivienne Westwood, who can perform cartwheels at the age of 60. Don't tell me you don't like her." Xin Di nodded, she really likes the punk godmother, although her own design is not punk style, "like her, you have to have a firm belief, uncompromising for decades, I can't do it, I am now I realized more than ever that I was unknowingly compromising change.” "Too fast to live, too young to die, Vivienne Westwood's early store name. Life is short, and the past is hard. Change is not always depressing, like your cousin, even if she grows into an indifferent urban girl now,至少在你心里，永远综合了少女跟顽童的特质，永远启发你的灵感，多好。” “阿KEN，当设计总监浪费你的才能，你应该去兼职搞精神分析做心灵导师了。”辛笛倒并不在意别人分析她的这点小嗜好，而且承认他说得不无道理。 “你否定起我的设计来毫不手软，要我来否定你这样独特的设计，我会有罪恶感，不过……” “拉倒吧，不要跟我讲你的理由，那些我比你还熟悉：我们必须考虑受众，我们必须贴近市场，我们必须保持风格的统一，对不对？这些设计是我私人的灵感，不是拿来给你否定的，拿去研讨定稿的那一部分，会保守得多。” “聪明女孩。”阿KEN笑着赞叹，“真希望曾总能多给你点发挥空间。” 辛笛歪头看设计图，“他不会，他的名言还用我重复给你听吗？时尚只是专业人士有默契地忽悠消费者的阴谋，我猜什么样的设计都打动不了他。” “他是对的，也只有他这样的心态才能不为眼花缭乱的潮流所动，迷失既定的经营策略。可是我依然会觉得可惜，这样美的设计只能停留在纸上。” 辛笛但笑不语，她对自己的前途和设计都有很多想法，并不打算和同事就这个问题讨论下去。 阿KEN拿上他的包准备下班，“去谈场恋爱吧，Sandy，设计不是生活的全部，小戴蛮养眼的。” 辛笛直笑，“夏天没过完，你倒萌动春心了，不要拉扯上我。”