Chapter 23 Chapter 21 The Flames of the Lord

Liao Binqi never came to the office after the frank talk that night.Text messages are still sent occasionally, but they are greatly reduced.Liu Dabei felt that this troublesome matter was over, and he was still grateful for the girl's understanding.Time flies, and the semester is over in a blink of an eye.Because he couldn't buy a train ticket, Liu Dabei couldn't go back to his hometown.As soon as the winter break came, the school was almost empty. At the kind invitation of Zeng Wei, Liu Dabei went to Huizhou to spend a Hakka New Year at Zeng’s brother-in-law’s house in Daya Bay.The Hakka people also live too fatly in the new year. They eat fish and meat all day long, and vegetables are rare.I didn't drink less wine, and my eyes were hazy every day.Zeng Wei's family is warm and simple, Liu Dabei didn't know many polite things in the world, it was as if he lived in his own home.After more than ten days of Chinese New Year, the white wine is not counted, only the half tank of "wine brewing" brewed by Zeng Wei's mother, Liu Dabei watches TV every night, drinking one cup after another like drinking tea, and finally drank it upside down!After returning to school after the winter vacation, I weighed myself, and I gained four or five catties. This year is really worth it.

The drizzle was endless, and the grayish-yellow rain and fog enveloped the sky all day long.The walls were damp, and the tiled floor was glistening with dew.After washing the clothes for several days, the electrical appliances in the house sometimes fail to start, and even the air I breathe always has a musty smell.Needless to say, this is exactly the bad weather for "returning to the south" in spring in Guangdong.From time to time, it was accompanied by a drop in temperature, and the damp air-conditioning pierced the muscles and bones.It was almost twelve o'clock in the evening. From Lao Xie, everyone finished drinking tea and prepared to go back to rest.Just as Liu Dabei went up to the seventh floor, he received a text message from Liao Binqi:

"I still can't forget you, I cried and cried..." Liu Dabei's heart skipped a beat, he knew it was troublesome.He didn't know how to respond to this girl, after much deliberation, he simply turned off his phone and went to sleep.Although I can't bear it in my heart, but thinking of being entangled with such a big girl, it will be endless. The long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain, so simply ignoring it is the best strategy.When I turned it on the next morning, the phone kept ringing, and there were a lot of text messages, all from the girl, and the last one was at 3:30 in the morning.The sentence that expresses love cannot but be said to be painful and touching. Liu Dabei is like a thorn in his back, very troubled, with pity and loathing in his heart.To be loved by others is a joyful thing, but to be liked by someone you don't like, love becomes a burden.Misplaced love can become a kind of condemnation, a kind of oppression, the deeper the love, the more it seems like a sin, and the further the other party has to run away.On the third night, Liu Dabei knew he couldn't escape, so he had another interview with the girl.Liao Binqi burst into tears after saying something twice, and it didn't make sense at all.When rationality meets emotion, it is like a scholar meets a soldier. Even if Liu Dabei speaks eloquently, can he persuade a girl to like him or not?Talk about love, talk about love, although love comes out of talking, sometimes talking alone can't solve all problems.Liu Dabei didn't expect things to turn out like this.And the more he refused, the more the girl rushed forward.It's scary when a woman is irrational.This kind of matter can't be discussed among friends, after all, Liao Binqi is a senior in high school.Liu Dabei thought of one person, Yan Ge, isn't she Liao's good friend?The girl was also bold and generous.

"What can you do with me, Mr. Liu? You seem to be very troubled..." Yan Ge said. "It's so clever! It can see into my heart at a glance." One Sunday afternoon, it was the time for "relaxing" in the third year of high school.Liu Dabei asked Yan Ge out to eat outside the school, and while eating, poured out the recent "sorrow" to her.Yan Ge just laughed out loud.After speaking, Liu Dabei asked her to be a "lobbyist" and do Liao Binqi's work. "Oh, Mr. Liu, Mr. Liu, you have a lot of good fortune. There are beautiful girls who chase after you so hard, and you not only don't get caught, but you also hide from them every day. I really don't understand..."

"I've heard what a poem in the book said--'Out of the east gate, there are women like clouds, even though they are like clouds, I think about them'. She loves me and I don't love her. What can I do?" "That's true. 'Falling flowers are intentional, flowing water is ruthless'! However, I would like to know, Mr. Liu, what does your ideal love look like?" "It is difficult for a person to love what he loves. My ideal love is still old-fashioned, idealistic, and transcends utility. If love cannot transcend utility, it is just a transaction. When one person is what he loves, age, age, Birth, status, race, and even ethical relations are not barriers. True love breaks through everything! If two people love each other at this moment, the whole world can ignore it! I think love should be like this. But saying this in today’s era seems like It's childish and out of place at all..."

"I found that Mr. Liu, you often have very profound theories, but you just don't know how to practice it, hehe... I don't want to talk to you about those abstract and illusory loves, but I will ask you a realistic question. For example, now Liao Binqi likes you, right? She is wishful thinking. But if now you also like Liao Binqi, Liao Binqi also likes you, you are in love. And you see, you are a teacher, she is a student, "teacher-student love" is nothing Good term! You have to bear strong social pressure for this, you have to face condemnation from public opinion, and your job may be lost. In this case-you have to pay a huge and heavy price, but you can still stick to yourself love?"

Liu Dabei turned his head and pondered for a moment, then said: "I think I can. I think I can still dedicate myself to some abstract idea, hehe... This is probably a matter of temperament. When I was in high school, I My teachers said I was 'unrealistic'; when I was in college, I was often ridiculed as a 'ridiculous idealist'. Generally, I am quite flexible. But if my absolute ideals are challenged, I will definitely 'rather be broken than broken'. There are some things in the world that are not negotiable, not only for love. Even if I pay a huge price, I think I will fulfill my love. It's hard to say what will happen in the future, at least for now I'm still going to do certain things without hesitation..."

"Well, this answer is quite honest. Based on my understanding of Mr. Liu, I also think you can... . I find that you are really stupid sometimes, hehe..." "Really? Huh.... Have you ever read the Bible?" "The Bible? No, Mr. Liu, do you even read Christian books?" "That is the root of Western culture, similar to our Four Books and Five Classics, Confucius, Mencius and Laozhuang, one of the core classics. There is a very beautiful poetic drama in the "Bible? Old Testament" called "Song of Songs". This " There's a verse in the Song of Songs, and that's what my ideal love looks like. Would you like to hear it?"

"Of course! The thing I admire the most about Mr. Liu is your extraordinary memory..." "Heh, listen up— "I wake you under the apple tree, ... Put me as a seal on your heart, on the arm as a seal; For love is as strong as death, Jealousy is as cruel as hell. The lightning that flashes is the lightning of a flame, is the consuming fire of the LORD. Love that many waters cannot quench, Even the floods cannot drown, If a man trades all the treasures of his house for love, They were all despised. " "What a touching poem! Who can afford such love... I suddenly remembered an image, Mr. Liu, the image you like..."

"what is it?" "Ms. Liu should like girls like 'Sibella', right?" "Hehe, yes, do you remember that movie?" "I re-watched it during the Chinese New Year! "27 Lost Kiss of Summer", that film was really well shot. The little boy said: 'Sometimes I really want to kill you.' Sibella asked: 'What about other times?' 'Other times I want to love you forever!'  …” "Have you memorized all the lines? But let's get back to the point, tell me, what should I do now?" "Ms. Liu, let me tell you the truth. Liao Binqi and I were actually having a fight..."

"Ah, no way? Didn't you always go out with her before?" "Do you remember the tall boy who played "Hamlet" at the art festival last semester?" "Remember, he played the prince!" "It's him, looks good, right? It's him! At first he was Liao Binqi's boyfriend. Then, for some reason, one day he suddenly asked me out, saying that he liked me.... After a few days, they broke up Liao Binqi thought it was me 'seducing' her boyfriend. Not only did she not have to do it, but she also talked bad about me everywhere! Fortunately, everyone has seen her usual behavior. The boy also came out to admit that he broke up with me Irrelevant. Oh, it’s really annoying! The boy is also reasonable. He told me that he really can’t stand Liao Bingqi. Leaving aside the pretentiousness, this can be tolerated. She is that kind of person. The worst thing is being cold to others Sudden heat, all of a sudden I get along with you very well, and all of a sudden I am a stranger to you. She is more self-willed and selfish, who can stand her! Originally, other girls in our class ignored her except me. She took the initiative She came to play with me, I don't care, I don't care about her weird temper... I have been friends with her for more than a year, and I can't help such a woman! Fortunately, Teacher Liu, you didn't get along with her. She sticks together, or you will be miserable!" "Really? That girl is so scary? Are you demonizing her?" "You still don't believe me? Let me tell you a true story. I saw it with my own eyes. When we were in the second year of high school, she dated a boy in the third year of high school. When it was good, it was very good. It is said that her 'first time' was also At that time, she tattooed the character 'Bin' on her right arm—the Bin of civil and military. 'Bin' is the last character of the boy's name in the third year of high school. Later, the boy was admitted to university, and at the beginning of the last semester , suddenly wrote a letter saying to break up, he fell in love with someone else in college. Liao Bingqi cried for several days, her eyes were swollen like longan. I was afraid that something would happen to her, so I stayed with her every day, and finally saw her bit by bit with a blade Please cut out the writing on the arm..." "Ah, no way? So cruel!" Liu Dabei exclaimed in shock. "I was right next to her at the time, bleeding profusely, dripping.... I was scared to death, but she was still laughing! At this moment, she stopped crying..." "This girl is really scary!" "That's right. And the last time that 'Prince Hamlet' broke up with her, I heard that she also used a razor to carve words on her wrist, and even went to the school doctor's office to bandage it. One night after self-study, my current deskmate saw it with his own eyes. She was walking around in the pouring rain like a madman... It scared me, and I had nightmares every day during that time, afraid that one day Liao Binqi would cut my throat with a blade in the middle of the night..." "Hehe... This girl has a tendency to self-harm and abuse, she should see a psychiatrist... But thinking about it, she is also very pitiful..." "You must not sympathize with her! As soon as you sympathize with her, you are in her way! Why does she often pester you now, she just thinks there is still a chance. She keeps forcing you, just to take advantage of your sympathy Heart. If you are a little weak, she will entangle you like a vine until she entangles you to death! There is only one way to deal with a woman like her, that is, you have to be hard-hearted. No matter how she tries to contact you, you will be alone Attitude——'A dead pig is not afraid of boiling water', resolutely ignore it! In this way, she will have nothing to do with you! Mr. Liu, the mistake you made at the beginning was to sympathize, but in the end, she became more and more entangled. Now you are depressed ?” "Well, I know. But I always feel that this girl is also very pitiful..." "No wonder your name is Liu Dabei. You are so merciful and merciful! You are not the Buddha. You want to save all living beings. Why do you think so much about others? Hehe..." Lin Jiani thought Liu Dabei's novel class was fun and exciting, and she even sent a text message to congratulate the teacher.They began to learn, "Necklace", and other texts.The teacher's lectures are very special, especially that one.He asked a classmate to find a character in the novel, searched the whole novel, and then analyzed each character slowly, from the protagonist to the supporting characters who said a half sentence, and even the supporting characters who had no lines.After studying the characters, I started to study the scenery in the novel, and I noticed every change.Not only what the author wrote, but also what the author didn't write is also estimated one by one.It is jokingly said that it wants to dismantle Lu Xun's "building blocks" one by one for everyone to see, the various parts, hidden buttons, baggage, implication, overtones, unintentional talk, etc. inside.After going through this process of thorough dismantling and closing, Jiani finally understood what the novel was all about.I used to hear people say, "Those who know how to watch look at the doorway, those who don't know how to watch the excitement", it turns out that I have been blindly watching the excitement for many years.In addition to the few texts, Liu Dabei also selected and printed several foreign short stories for everyone to do the exercise of "unwrapping clocks and watches", Wilde's "The Nightingale and the Rose", Daudet's "The Star", Maupassant's "Happiness", Chekhov's "Death of a Petty Civil Servant"  …. When she was on "The Necklace", Jiani found that the teacher seemed a little disappointed.It was time to sum up the entire chapter, and Liu Dabei called several people to talk about their views on Mathilde. Almost all of them agreed. They just condemned the woman who deserved it according to the "central idea" summarized in the extracurricular materials. Call her so vain.Liu Dabei shook his head when he heard this, his brows were furrowed, and he seemed very annoyed: "... Where did you hear the appreciation lessons I gave you? I have been teaching you for almost a year, why are you still stubborn? Is your heart as hard as a stone, and your brain has lost the ability to think? What else can you do besides parroting the words of the mediocre? Alas... Let’s just talk about this novel, my opinion is It is different from your information. A beautiful girl from a well-to-do family yearns for high society and wants to live a better life. Is there something wrong?... Vanity? Who in the world does not have vanity? You generously recognize and forgive your own vanity Heart, why don't you share a little bit with others? For the beauty of one night, you took a woman's ten years of youth, don't you still have the heart to condemn her? Pat your chest, feel whether it is warm blood or cold current? Such a small happiness has to pay such a huge price. Doesn’t it just show the ups and downs of ordinary people’s life? "The poor and humble couples mourn for everything" —— In order to compensate for the lost diamond necklace, the young couple struggled in obscurity for ten years. Years of hard work are just to maintain the dignity of being a human being. Isn’t the tough will of ordinary people to be a man, the indomitable spirit of not yielding to the jokes of fate, and the tenacity of the grassroots struggling on the edge of life vividly in this novel? How do you see it at all? No? Think about it: if one of you were to suffer from a similar 'misfortune from heaven', would you have the courage to fight against misfortune?... First I sympathized with the poor girl, and then I felt sorry for this pair of people in the world. The ordinary couple is full of respect...” The rainy season is over.For many days in a row, it was sunny and bright, and the spring breeze was refreshing.Sure enough, Liao Binqi no longer had any contact with Liu Dabei, and Yan Ge's method had a miraculous effect.Liu Dabei always felt a little bit sorry, but he really couldn't think of a better way.Occasionally thinking about it, I sighed for no reason, and silently recited Dr. Qu's poems to comfort myself—— "But the infinity of heaven and earth, I mourn the long work of life. In the past, Yu Fuji, I don't hear of those who come..." During evening self-study, Huang Qiuhao came to talk to Liu Dabei.The boy suddenly hesitated to speak, he hesitated to speak several times.Liu Dabei went for a walk in the playground with him.In the dark, when neither could see each other's expressions, Huang Qiuhao confided his troubles to the teacher.He thought the teacher would reprimand him after listening, but Liu Dabei just laughed out loud.Patting him on the shoulder, telling him many things like a brother, the pain that had plagued him for a long time suddenly disappeared.It turns out that he "gets involved" in the "bad habit" of masturbating since he was in junior high school.Often while redeeming myself, I feel that I have fallen and become a sex maniac.However, this matter was out of control, and his frequent impulses nearly broke his mind.Accompanied by all kinds of extreme obscene and perverted sexual fantasies, he couldn't restrain himself even a little bit of stimulation with girls.After it was over, he kept berating himself, but did the same thing a second time.He was struggling endlessly in this cycle of nightmares.In the end, he simply gave up on himself and became a guy among his classmates who especially liked to talk dirty.Some time ago, he accidentally turned to an old magazine and saw an advertisement saying that masturbation is a "killer of youth". .He was terrified, he felt like he was going insane, and fear seized him deeply.He was tortured almost to the point of madness... .Finally he plucked up the courage to come to the teacher.When Liu Dabei told him what was going on, he felt ridiculous.It turns out that this is just a very common physiological phenomenon of human beings. According to Comrade Liu, "Gorillas masturbate when they have nothing to do..." When he was having lunch the next day, he suddenly thought of this sentence, and he took a sip. The rice was sprayed all over the table. One after another, several men and women came to consult Liu Dabei for love and sexual issues.He thought these kids knew everything!It is mentioned in the textbook, and TV, radio, and the Internet are also often involved. I usually read the articles written by them and the messy things posted on Qzone, and I think they are all veterans in the field of love.In the process of talking and questioning, Liu Dabei discovered that although they had a lot of hearsay knowledge, almost no one had formally talked to them about the correct concept of love and sex.Taking the chapter on the human reproductive system in the junior high school biology book as an example, he asked many students, but the teacher didn't talk about it back then, and let them read it by themselves.On the other hand, the school has been a headache for students dating.Every night, there are school leaders who go to the playground, behind the laboratory, the balcony of the observatory and other dark corners of Jiashu Middle School to "beat mandarin ducks".I also ordered the head teacher to speak in the class meeting before, and the principal also yelled at the men and women who were dating during the assembly.Threats and lures, but the effect is actually zero.The head teacher of another class is almost like a thief, sniffing the smell of love in the class all day long.There is no other way but to take high pressure.Liu Dabei never cared about these things, he believed that students should also have their own private lives.There were people dating in his class, and he knew about them.But his knowledge is different from others, because the students wrote it down in their weekly diaries, or they came to the office to chat with him.He chatted with those men and women once or twice, and he often broke up with them willingly.One of the things he said most often was: Now that we are dating, what are we doing for four years in college. Realizing the seriousness of the problem, Liu Dabei prepared for several days, and even made a slide show. He specially found a class meeting to "talk about sex and love", talking about the concept of love from the physiological structure of men and women, Sexual ethics, condom use.He thought the students would boo, but he didn't expect them to listen very carefully. From the beginning to the end, the classroom was quiet, and the effect was unexpectedly good.It seems that children need such guidance.These children born in the 90s, for a while, we see them as sophisticated and sophisticated adults, which is amazing; for a while, their naivety and ignorance let you understand that children are children after all.The boundary of age experience cannot be crossed by physical or mental precocity. "... Humans have to eat to maintain their own existence; to maintain the reproduction of the race, they have to have sexual intercourse. The entire history of civilization happened here... Since ancient times in China, our views on sex have been relatively healthy and open Yes. "Book of Changes" has a cloud: "Heaven and earth are dense, and all things are mellow. Men and women form essence, and all things are born." 'Food, sex, and sex.' ... Before the entire Tang and Song Dynasties, they were all normal. Since when did they become abnormal, unhealthy, and abnormal? The Northern Song Dynasty came out with 'Ercheng', and the Southern Song Dynasty came out with a 'Zhu Xi' , came to advocate 'Taoism'... In the Ming and Qing dynasties, their theory, the so-called "Cheng-Zhu Confucianism" became the official ideology.Writing stereotyped essays in imperial examinations, if you want to take the exam for scholars, promote scholars and want to be an official, you must learn that method, otherwise you can just let it go!The intellectual character of these Taoist masters is not bad, but as long as any thought or theory is designated as one, there will be abuses!No matter how good the thing is, if it has to be the only thing, then it is a bastard!So what's "preserving the principles of nature and destroying human desires" and "starving to death is a small thing, but being dishonest is a big thing" and so on have become "killing people with reason"! ...... In the May Fourth era, the so-called "cannibalistic etiquette" and "overthrowing the Confucian family shop" actually have anything to do with Confucius?It's just a bunch of "wrong-mouthed monks who have recited scriptures crookedly" for eight hundred years!Turning lively thoughts into a pitch-black saucepan!Hypocrisy, high-sounding, unreasonable -- a group of people in today's society who lament "the human heart is not ancient" at every turn. The so-called "morality" they yearn for is nothing but the "Cheng Zhu Neo-Confucianism" for 800 years Dregs of dregs of dregs, shit is worthless!In my opinion, people's hearts are the oldest today!why?It is because of the re-introduction of Western ideas since the reform and opening up, which has continuously detoxified Chinese society... Then what is the morality about sex that I want to tell you?When I was in college on this issue, I read many works by Chinese and foreign scholars, and finally concluded that: no matter how abhorrent or unacceptable a person’s sexual affairs are to ordinary people, no matter he (she) is gay , heterosexual, bisexual, sadist, masochist, fetish, etc., even he is not interested in people, only in pigs, dogs, horses, like bestiality... Don't laugh, in sex On the one hand, human beings are full of strange things. In ancient Rome, there was a lady who liked to have sex with horses; a certain empress in Russian history was said to like mules; Children... .In a word, no matter how weird a person's sexual orientation is, as long as he follows two principles—first, he doesn't hurt himself, and second, he doesn't affect others, then let him do it!As for you now, of course you have the right to control your own body, but you have to know how serious the consequences are!Pregnancy, miscarriage, abortion - all physical and psychological trauma to girls!Therefore, girls especially have to protect themselves... .The school and I have talked too much about this!In short, don't try to date lightly, if it doesn't work, whether it's a boy or a girl, you should try your best to 'be in heat, stop being polite' - this is my attitude... "