Chapter 11 "Rumours" five

When Christmas was approaching, one day, Wu Fei was wandering on the street, and accidentally ran into Yang Xiaoning's father.That was the only time after she broke up with Yang Xiaoning that she had a hand-to-hand fight with the immediate family members of the Yang family. When Wu Fei broke up with Yang Xiaoning, she often wandered around the area where Yang Xiaoning lived.At first, she didn't know whether it was out of habit or some kind of interpretation that she didn't understand. She was a little afraid and looked forward to meeting the Yang family she missed in that area she was familiar with. She hoped, perhaps, their mercy could give her a new life. A long-awaited unexpected answer.

In fact, Wu Fei no longer expected them to give her an answer, but occasionally she still haunted that area, half of them remembering, and the other half looking for some unknown idea.Women are like this, most of them are superstitious about their own hunches, and they are 100% sure that that thing will make her meet the person or thing she wants to see.Therefore, Wu Fei used her premonition as an excuse to habitually wander in that neighborhood all year round.It's a pity that no one has told her that she finally met someone from the Yang family. It has nothing to do with her feelings. If she insists on implicating a theory, it belongs to a certain category of "probability" at most.

Regardless of whether it was a hunch or a probability, one day, Wu Fei finally met a member of that family. At that time, Papa Yang was buying fried chestnuts in sugar at a stall. When he heard Wu Fei calling him, he turned his head for a while, and then he recognized Wu Fei after looking at it for a long time.The old man frowned, his face twitched a few times, and he hesitated for a while before he held up a bag of chestnuts and said something incomprehensible: "Don't tell your auntie!" After speaking, he hurried away. Wu Fei stopped where she was, looked at Papa Yang's back, and felt sad.

When Wu Fei and Yang Xiaoning were in love, she went to his house every week. His father had already suffered from diabetes at that time. Like many patients with the disease, the more he shouldn't eat, the more he craved sweets. The favorite is sugar fried. chestnut. Wu Fei didn't have good experience with her own father, and when she suddenly saw "father" in someone else's house, she turned out to be a kind-hearted old man, and she couldn't help being grateful for life.So every time after eating at their house, Wu Fei would create an opportunity to take a walk alone with Papa Yang. Every time, she would buy half a catty of fried chestnuts with sugar at their alley, and share the food with Papa Yang while walking, in exchange for the happiness of the old man. her own joy.

Every time when approaching the door of the house, as usual, Mr. Yang would happily tell Wu Fei: "Don't tell your auntie!" In this meaningless sentence, it is full of things that make Wu Fei obsessed with only belonging to "family". "The joy of harmony. Wu Fei has never felt any family happiness since she was a child, and she has sincere feelings for Yang Xiaopengning's parents from the bottom of her heart. After Yang Xiaoning disappeared, Wu Fei tried to verify with his parents, but they tried their best to avoid seeing Wu Fei.Facts have proved that in that case, in that family, it turned out that she was the only one who always made the mistake of not treating herself as an outsider.After a long time, Wu Fei is still looking for reasons for them for self-comfort: there are no parents in the world-everyone's parents are parents.

Wu Fei walked on the street for a long time that day, and when she came home at night, she caught up with a routine power outage in the community where their home was located.When she came in, her mother had already fallen asleep.When Wu's mother heard that Wu Fei came back, she complained vaguely in her own room why she came back so late, and said that there was still food left in the kitchen, and continued to sleep.Wu Fei responded casually, went back to her room in the dark, and sat beside her single bed in a daze. After sitting for a while, my eyes gradually adapted to the darkness, and I realized that there was a bright moon outside the window, which was quite classically beautiful.Facing the classic moon, Wu Fei suddenly felt a little puzzled, and felt something sprouting in her nose, creating some strange blockages.I thought to myself, why did Li Bai write "Moonlight in front of the bed" instead of "Moonlight in front of the window"?

For some reason, upstairs, neighbors on which floor and which household started to play the piano, the sound was not too loud, just enough to hear it clearly, it was Faye Wong's song, it was leisurely, the player was a little absent-minded, The rhythm is scattered, exuding the feeling of blues, and suddenly the style becomes more romantic. The melody is Wu Fei's favorite song in college: "Missing is a kind of very mysterious thing, like a shadow, following the shape... silent and breathless, coming out, not in the heart, bottom, in a blink of an eye, engulfing me, in loneliness, I can't resist, especially at night, thinking You, to, can't, breathe... I am willing, I am willing to be for you, I am willing to be for you, I am willing to be for you, forget my name, be exiled to the sky..."

Wu Fei felt sad when she heard it, her nose was completely stuffed up, her eyes were sore, but she couldn't cry.Sad in her heart, she fumbled to find a candle, lit it tremblingly, and then took out a pen and paper, and wrote the only letter after they broke up to Yang Xiaoning, who had long been nowhere by the bright moon and candlelight. : "My dear you: Today, when passing by Xinzhong Street, I met my father at the door of the cheap supermarket we used to go to. Seeing his strange face when he first looked at me, I know, I finally, finally Still have to face reality and changes alone.

I don't dare to think about the torment of this period of time, besides, it is more than just torment? I just still remember deeply, that October, when I said goodbye to you at the alley, when you kissed me, you left a tear on my lips, with your warmth on it, which made me feel the same as before. The warmth of greed, this warmth has been with me to this day, it seems that it has never gone far... I haven't seen you, has it been four years? Yeah, it's been four years since I didn't see you ... Also try, bit by bit, to admit and face that you won’t come back, try to live your life in a trance, and even think about whether you want to try to love others , can you also laugh and cry for other things besides thinking about you, making you a simple name, floating in the news brought by friends, as if, they are just to remind me to remember, my life The most precious two years in the book were all written about you.

Do you still think of me?At a certain inadvertent moment, are you still the same as when you promised me, making me think that our unacceptable parting is just a helpless parenthesis, maybe it will not interfere with the future reunion, and that After that, we will definitely be together forever from now on.Because you said, I'm here for you. If this is the case, I also hope that leaving is only for you. Sunrise and sunset every day, the constant miss of you has become a habit, the heart is not dead, it is just quiet, the quiet is just to, well, well miss you like before... I understand that what will not change is that I am waiting for you here, what has changed is only the way of waiting for you.

Dear you, missing you can be so peaceful, shouldn't you be grateful? I know that all of this, for you, is unique, just as I know that when that day comes, you will come back to me just as you promised. I love you, I love you, I love you…… Yes, I still love you so hopelessly, so much that I am surprised that I can love someone so deeply. In this night when the power outage can’t touch you, there are no impurities, and I will start again, willing to be tortured in the mood of loving you, just want to know, my dear, are you all right? " After Wu Fei finished writing the letter, she was so moved that she finally shed a few tears and silently burned the letter by candlelight, like a wizard doing. The sound of the piano upstairs had already stopped. Wu Fei gathered herself together, sighed at the ashes on the ground, raised her head and gritted her teeth at Haoyue who was in front of the window instead of in front of the bed, then picked up the phone and thought about it again , finally made up his mind to dial Mo Xilun's number, and when he heard his voice, he calmly asked, "Boss, what are your plans for Christmas?" "Not yet, what do you think?" Mo Xilun was on the other side of the phone, with his usual calm and solemn demeanor, and the background was the warm noise that a normal family should have at that time. "Then, how about living together?" Wu Fei asked with a question. "Okay, let me think about it." Mo Xilun continued solemnly. "Should I still consider it?" Wu Fei asked with a smile. "Hehe, OK, then do as you said." Lao Mo didn't make any further detours. Wu Fei also couldn't explain what kind of mood she was in that made her turn her grudge against Yang Xiaoning into a challenge to her relationship with Mo Xilun.She has a bunch of inexplicable things in her heart, part of which is the sad memory of her old love that she has not let go of after four years, and part of it is a sudden desire to defeat herself instead of placing an impossible bet for the unknown. That confused future. Most women will go through the stage of being "trapped by love". Most women will choose revenge when they have no choice but to lose, but most women are limited by courage and mistakenly apply this "revenge" to themselves, thinking that self-harm can be exchanged for The poor woman with a little bit of pity is like the restless catkins floating on the streets of Beijing in April on earth. They don't know it. It turned out that it was just a misunderstanding of the seasons, without any extra beauty and value. Wu Fei didn't want to conclude whether she was taking revenge, but she had been entangled with herself for a long time, and suddenly she became a little drunk. This drunkenness covered all her judgments. An encounter with her father made her suddenly realize that she had been alone for too long, and this loneliness suddenly became something she couldn't bear for another half a second when Christmas was approaching.