Chapter 8 31-35

Looking at her delicate silhouette, I felt a very gentle feeling in my heart, and said softly: "Fan Bao, you sing well, but I haven't heard it before, can you sing me one now? " "Sing what?" "Just sing the song by Xu Zhimo. The one composed by Chen Qiuxia." Meng Fan smiled slyly: "I can't sing. I want you to sing it to me." "I can't sing well." "It's okay, didn't Yang Xueping say that you sing well?" When I heard the word "Yang Xueping", I was so frightened that I hurriedly said, "Okay, okay, I'll sing it for you. Don't laugh at me if I don't sing well."

"Hee hee, it's just a joke!" So I sang softly: I am a cloud in the sky, Occasionally projected on your wave heart - Don't be surprised, No need to rejoice— It disappeared in an instant. You and I meet on the sea of ​​night, You have yours, I have mine, direction; It's fine if you remember, or you'd better forget, The mutual light at this rendezvous! When I sang the second stanza, which is the chorus, Meng Fan also sang with me.Her voice is clear and soft, which makes me feel at ease.Because it was outside the classroom, in order not to disturb others, we sang very quietly, only the two of us could hear it.Accompanied by the sound of the rain, we sang it over and over again.Singing and singing, her head and I shook gently with the rhythm.I gently took her hand, she trembled slightly, and did not refuse.

I will never forget the rain that night. The people in the dormitory found that I was walking on the road with Meng Fan again, knowing that I hadn't messed up that day, so I started to act recklessly again.They asked me about Meng Fan's situation.I'm just saying briefly that I'm from the 91st level of the foreign language department.They asked how it was done, and I said it was still in the initial stage, and everything hadn't been decided yet.They tried their best, threatened and lured them, but they couldn't get more from me. But Jin Ziguang, an idler, has great magical powers. He found out that there are two most beautiful beauties in the 91st grade of the foreign language department. One is Meng Fan and the other is Gu Lin.So everyone pinched me on the bed together and asked me if the beauty I had sex with was Gu Lin or Meng Fan. If I didn't tell you, I wouldn't be able to get out of the Excellent Habitat alive.I couldn't stand the torture, so I had to confess Meng Fan's name.But for the question of "how did I get it", I only said that I met in the drama club, and they asked for details, but I refused to say life or death.I think there are many details that only belong to me and Meng Fan, how can I share them with others?They finally had to give up.

On that rainy night, after I held Meng Fan's hand, I suffered from insomnia for a long time.I have long recalled the feeling of holding her hand and singing in the rain.I often unconsciously hold my hand in the air, as if holding her little hand.Such deep-seated lovesickness made me suffer a lot, and finally I decided that we must push our relationship to a new height. On the third day, the rain finally stopped.At 8:30, I suggested to Meng Fan to go outside together, and she agreed. On the campus after the rain, some low-lying places still have stagnant water.The air is fresh and crisp, with an earthy fragrance.A bright moon hangs in the sky, which is quite cool.We walked slowly, passing by strange classmates in twos and threes, looking at us with envy.

I turned my face to look at the beautiful girl next to me, she was graceful and graceful, her eyebrows were picturesque, she was really perfect.When the evening wind blows, her hair flutters gently.I would love to touch it, but I don't have the guts. In fact, my real purpose today is not just touching her hair.For a long time, I have dreamed of being able to hug her and kiss her, but I feel that it is such a distant and unattainable goal!But since taking her hand, I feel like the prospect is starting to emerge. I have imagined the scene of kissing a woman countless times, but so far it has never been realized.When I was in middle school, I heard that I had to move my tongue around when I kissed, and I thought it was so dirty.But now whenever I see Meng Fan's white-toothed cherry lips, I do have the urge to taste her tongue, and every time I think of it, I get an erection quickly.

In the past two days, I have been out of my mind, and have been planning how to kiss Meng Fan, and devised various plans for this.To kiss her, you have to hug her first.But where should I hold it?Do you hug your shoulders first or your waist first?Yu Xiang taught us before, to hold hands first, and then pull her into his arms when she is not paying attention. What Yu Xiang said should never be wrong, right?And I already held her hand the day before yesterday, so I have a better basis for action.So I went to pull Meng Fan's hand again, but I didn't expect her hand to dodge like an electric shock, and said angrily, "What are you doing?"

I was very surprised, I held hands the day before yesterday, why didn't I let you do it again today?So he had no choice but to say awkwardly: "What's wrong with holding hands?" "What are you doing holding hands? Are you a hooligan?" She was a little annoyed. I couldn't help being very frustrated, and my mood plummeted.At first I thought holding hands would be fine, so I could use this as a basis to try to hug her and then kiss her, but now Meng Fan came to the bottom and refused to even hold hands. It seems that my plan today is to Totally broke.Holding hands would be called a hooligan by her, but hugging her would be regarded as rape.I couldn't touch her bottom line, and I didn't dare to act rashly.

So I comforted myself in my heart and said, being with her, looking at her, and feeling safe and happy in my heart is enough, why do I have to hug her?But I changed my mind and thought again, if I don't hug her, what is it called being in love?If there is no skin, how will the hair be attached?Since he loves her, it will be a matter of time to hug her, and maybe there will be more intimate contact in the future.In the Han Dynasty, Zhang Chang blatantly thrushed his wife's eyebrows in the car, and the emperor asked Zhang Chang if there was such a thing.Zhang Chang replied: "The minister and his wife are more than thrushes." Ha ha, what an interesting answer!

Thinking of this, my little brother began to get a little excited again, and my ambition became restless again, hoping to continue to take action.But Meng Fan gave me an unexpected blow just now, which completely messed up my plan.What to do now?I walked and thought like this, and my heart was full of endless battles.After walking sullenly for a few minutes, Meng Fan looked at me and asked, "What's wrong? Are you unhappy?" "No la." She looked at me, was silent for a while, and said, "Let's go back." "Okay." I felt like a failure. I am not willing to fail like this.I made up my mind again, slowly approaching Meng Fan consciously or unconsciously, and started my sinister action.I stretched out my hand and put it behind her back, as long as I gritted my teeth and exerted strength, I could hug him.But I dare not.I have encouraged myself many times before the war:

"Get ready to fight!" But when I really walked with her, I didn't have any courage. Under the awe of her amazing beauty, I almost completely lost the courage to act.I wanted to hug her very much, but I was afraid of making her unhappy.If she doesn't want to, am I not blaspheming her?In this way, I stretched out my despicable and cowardly hand many times, but hesitated for a long time, just lingered a few centimeters away from her back, swipe in the air, and finally withdrew shamefully, without any achievements.Her beautiful body was like a magnet attracting me, but when I stretched out my hand, the magnet seemed to change poles suddenly, and the attraction turned into repulsion.I was exhausted by this magnetic transformation.Once, when I gritted my teeth and made up my mind to hug, two boys came in front of me, so I had to withdraw my hand again.

I was both excited and frustrated, angry at my cowardice and incompetence. Time was quickly wasted.The lights of the classrooms of the Department of Chemistry appeared far ahead, and we were about to return to the crowded area of ​​the campus.The best opportunity to commit a crime is about to be lost. The battle between heaven and man in my heart reached a climax at this time, and I felt that I could not bear to lose like this.Since I have to take this step sooner or later, I should give it a try anyway.I remember Yu Xiang once said: "Forcibly kissing, if the other party still likes you a little bit, the resistance will not be too long." I believe that Meng Fan likes me, and not just a little bit, but rather, so this The risk is worth the risk.So I decided to kiss.To make such a bad move, he was forced to do nothing. When I walked under a hibiscus tree, I saw no one in front of me, so I suddenly had an idea, pointed to the right and said, "Lu Xiaolin is here!" Meng Fan turned her head to look, and I took the opportunity to kiss her. Meng Fan didn't see anyone, so she turned around and said, "I didn't see..." Before I finished speaking, my mouth just arrived and sealed her little mouth tightly.My two sinful big hands also rushed to her at the same time, holding her tightly in my arms. Meng Fan struggled desperately: "Uh...! Uh...!" He stretched out his hand, and with a "slap", a loud slap hit my face heavily.I didn't expect her reaction to be so strong, her face was burning with pain, but since she has already made a move, there is no turning back, if she stops at this time, the consequences will be disastrous.Meng Fan will definitely walk away and never talk to me again.So I took out my hand to subdue her hand that hit me, wrapped her arms and body tightly with my arms, as unbreakable as an iron barrel, and continued to kiss her.She desperately shook her little head to avoid my kiss, tossed and tossed for a full minute, and whispered: "Let me go! Let go... woo..." There was a cry in her voice. My mind went blank, I barely knew what I was doing, just a strong belief: I can't let her go!After being kissed again by me several times, she slowly gave up her futile resistance, and the resistance force on her arm gradually weakened, and she just breathed weakly through her nostrils. I was afraid of suffocating her, so I quickly let go of my mouth.Meng Fan panted heavily, stared at me bitterly, and did not speak.I looked at her, gasping for breath myself.The two gasped together.In fact, I also consumed a lot of physical strength during the two-minute fight, and more importantly, I suffered an unprecedented strong mental shock.I think Meng Fan must have been frightened by me, and I was not much less frightened than her.This was the first time in my life that I committed a crime, and I was in a hurry and panicked. Meng Fan grabbed his hands violently, with great strength.Fortunately, I was vigilant so I didn't let her break free. Meng Fan yelled softly, "Let me go!" I firmly said: "Don't let go! I won't let go for the rest of my life!" "You're a bad guy! Bastard!" "I love you!" "That can't be like this!" "I still want to do this!" I said viciously, and then I kissed her roughly again. Meng Fan closed his eyes, no longer resisting, just continued to pant. When I kissed her forcefully just now, I used all my strength to subdue her resistance. I didn't have time to experience what it was like to kiss, so I sent out my first kiss in a daze.Now is the second kiss, because there is no resistance, and you can start to feel the kiss.I stopped being rough, and gently kissed her delicate lips, smelling her sweet breath, and I was ecstatic for a while. This was also the first time I really hugged Meng Fan. Her soft and plump breasts rose and fell due to panting, which gave me great stimulation.My little brother suddenly soared into the sky and stood up straight.I know it must be against Meng Fan, she is shorter than me, probably near her navel, she must be able to feel it.I feel very guilty in my heart, and feel that this is really blaspheming her, but there is no way for my little brother to withdraw. I kissed for a while, but Meng Fan neither resisted nor responded, like a piece of wood.I saw that her hair was a little messy, so I reached out and straightened it for her.She opened her eyes and did not take the opportunity to escape.Her expression softened a lot, at least that resentful look was gone. At this time, someone walked by us, and Meng Fan lowered his head in shame.I dragged her into the shade of a tree in a secluded place, but she only resisted a little, and followed me obediently. When I got under the tree, I took Meng Fan's hand and said, "Yes, I'm sorry, I scared you. I, I really like you, I can't help but want to kiss you." Meng Fan pouted aggrievedly. With a small mouth and tears in his eyes, he looked at me without speaking. My heart was filled with pity, and I said softly, "Will you forgive me?" "No forgiveness!" she said quietly. "Then how can you forgive me?" "I will never forgive you!" "You can punish me however you want." "No punishment." "If you're not happy, hit me, okay?" "Do not hit." "Then scold me?" "Don't scold." I was happy: "Then you forgive me?" "No forgiveness." I saw the tears in her eyes were about to fall, so I gently took her into my arms, and gently sucked her tears dry.This is a scene that I have only read about in novels, but now I have really realized it.Her tears are a little salty and a little sweet. To me, they are as sweet and precious as wine that has been buried for three hundred years. She opened her eyes and looked at me, angrily said: "You bully me!" "How did I bully you?" "You... big villain! Big pervert!" "Hey, that's right." I smiled, "That's right, I'm a pervert. What is a pervert? It's a wolf that reveals itself when it sees a beautiful woman. If you weren't so beautiful, how could I have degenerated into a pervert? I It's all because of you! Your beauty is my abettor! An excellent young man with a bright future and achievements is ruined by you!" "I'm not beautiful, I'm ugly." Meng Fan still had tears in his eyes. "Are you not beautiful? If you are not beautiful, the roses will turn pale, the stars in the night sky will lose their brilliance, dandelions will no longer flutter in the spring breeze, and snowflakes will fall alone in the deep black sea." I Amazed at one's own ability to speak out, the magic of love can turn a man with no literary talent into a harp poet in an instant. Still dissatisfied, Meng Fan pouted and said, "I'm just an ugly monster." I had no choice but to continue to explore my poor writing potential, and stretched out a hand to make a lyrical gesture: "You are ugly? If even the treasure is ugly, what else in the world is worthy of my love? I will find a good tree branch and hang it on my belt , leaving this dark age angrily—the next life will wait for the treasure.” Meng Fan smiled and said: "It's useless to wait for the next life, the next life will still be ugly." "You are ugly, and I am also ugly, one male and one female, so ugly as sixteen." "Damn!" She punched my chest. Meng Fan was crying and laughing at the pear blossom with rain, it was so cute, I couldn't help tightening my arms around her again, and kissed her deeply.She closed her eyes, raised her head, and smiled, the tears still wet on her face.The four lips met, the bodies of both of them trembled for a while, and their breathing suddenly became rapid.I tried to stick my tongue out to find her tongue, but she clenched her teeth tightly, and I couldn't push it away a few times.I think she may be inexperienced. After kissing for about two minutes, both of them had disheveled hair on their temples. Meng Fan groaned softly twice, her body became softer and weaker, as if her spine had been pulled out, and she fell straight down.In order not to let her become a pile of mud slumped on the ground, I had to try my best to wrap her with my arms to stop her falling.I also kissed my heart agitatedly, and when I heard her soft groan, I was even dizzy before my eyes, and I could hardly hold her body that lost the sense of center of gravity, and almost fell down with her. After kissing like this for another two minutes, I still couldn't pry Meng Fan's teeth open, but I was already fascinated and ecstatic.After the kiss, Meng Fan lay in my arms and panted lightly. I stroked her hair and felt that I was the happiest person in the world. "I didn't expect my first kiss to be taken away by you, an ugly monster!" She said bitterly. "I didn't expect my first kiss to be taken away by you, an ugly monster!" I imitated her. She was annoyed: "How dare you call me ugly!" I hurriedly made amends and said, "I'm talking nonsense. In fact, you are the most beautiful girl in my heart. Even if you put Xi Shi in front of me now, I won't even look at her." "Then what if Yang Xueping is put in front of you?" I was so frightened that my face turned pale, and I quickly said: "Fan Bao, today is a good day for our first kiss, don't mention other people, okay? Today belongs to you and me only." Meng Fan had no objection to this sentence, so she regained her joy, and walked back to the classroom of the Chemistry Department holding hands with me. When we entered the classroom, several people saw me, and immediately showed a smirk on their faces, and quickly poked their companions with their hands, signaling that they also came to see me.Soon, everyone in the lecture theater came to see me and Meng Fan.Meng Fan realized something was wrong, looked at me, and blushed all of a sudden. I was baffled and asked her in a low voice: "What's wrong?" Meng Fan didn't answer, but said in a low voice, "Pack up your schoolbags and let's go!" So the two of us packed our schoolbags in a hurry, and Meng Fan ran with his head down and rushed out of the classroom.The students on the side let out a burst of light laughter.I also hurriedly followed out.As soon as we went out, the whole classroom was full of happy laughter. "What's going on?" I asked again. Meng Fan blushed and did not answer, but said, "Go and take a picture yourself in front of the mirror." There was a mirror next to the toilet, so I ran over, and when I saw it, I was shocked. It turned out that my left face was slightly swollen, and there was a red palm print on it, which was very clear.Of course, this slap mark was left by Meng Fan just now. In order to subdue her, I didn't have time to pay attention to this slap. Later, I managed to kiss her hand, and I was trapped in the gentle countryside, riding clouds and fog, without feeling any pain at all.Now seeing Meng Fan's palm print in the mirror, I suddenly felt a sharp pain on the left side of my face, like a fire. Meng Fan followed me and observed my face in the mirror, slowly showing a smug smile: "Zhu Bajie looks in the mirror—it's not a person inside and out!" I said angrily, "You're still laughing!" "You deserve it!" She laughed even harder. "The attack is really ruthless, you want to watch the widow!" "Bah!" Meng Fan desperately grabbed my hand.The pain made me grin my teeth, and when I raised my hand, it was red again. "You are perverted, you are cruel to your sweetheart like this." "Hmph, come on, you're not my sweetheart." "Then what am I?" "You are Zhu Bajie! Zhu Bajie looks in the mirror." "Hey," I smirked, rubbed my hands and approached her, "Zhu Bajie can not only look in the mirror, but also carry his wife." Meng Fan screamed "Ah" and ran back, I chased after her and grabbed her, dragged her to the grove just now and kissed her wildly again. "Fun Treasure!" "Ok……" "Fuck!" "Ok……" "I love you!" "Ok……" As soon as I got back to the dormitory, Jin Ziguang found the palm print on my face: "Old Qi, what happened? Did you fight just now? Didn't you suffer?" "I didn't fight, I was beaten by my girlfriend." I knew that this lie was unacceptable, so I confessed it voluntarily. "Wow! Haha, the beauty Meng Fan beat her, so powerful! Be honest, did she want to take advantage of the beating? Everyone, come and see!" All the idlers gathered together to examine it carefully, as seriously as reading the inscriptions on a Shang and Zhou bronze ware just unearthed. "Nonsense! The question now is, which school of palm was used to hit it." "This palm is powerful, penetrating three points into the flesh, it doesn't seem to come from a woman's hand, so it must not be the ancient tomb sect's palm." "It's a pity that it's a palm instead of a claw, otherwise it must be the descendant of Mei Chaofeng's Jiuyin White Bone Claw." "Could this be the legendary Eighteen Dragon Subduing Palms?" "The Eighteen Dragon Subduing Palms mainly rely on strong internal force to force the palm wind to kill people. Generally, you don't need to hit the body directly. I think it's more like Qiu Qianren's Iron Sand Palm." Everyone nodded together after hearing this, and shouted: "The Iron Palm floats on the water. what!" The next morning, as soon as I got up, I went to look in the mirror, and found that the palm prints had changed from red to purple, which became more obvious. I felt that I couldn't see people, so I had to ask Chen Qiwei to help me go to the cafeteria to get dinner and come back.Chen Qiwei said, if he hadn't seen that I was about to die from poison, he would not have pity on me.I didn't dare to go to the class that day, so I asked them to answer it for me.Just spent a day in the dormitory, reading books by myself. After dinner in the dormitory, I didn't dare to go to self-study, thinking about how Meng Fan would react if he couldn't see me in the classroom.Just thinking about it, there was a commotion in the corridor of the dormitory, and someone shouted: "Come on, come on, pretty girl, pretty girl!" Then Jin Ziguang rushed in to report: "The owner of the palm print is here! He entered our building just now, and he must be looking for you!" At this time, Chen Qiwei also came to report: "Lao Qi, your family'Iron Palm Water Floating' is here!" After a while, Meng Fan really came to our dormitory.It was her first time here, so I formally introduced her to the people in our dormitory: "This is my girlfriend, Meng Fan." Meng Fan gave me a sideways look, moved her lips, and finally did not object to the word "girlfriend". The idlers in our dormitory huddled together, salivating and chatting with Meng Fan for two minutes, and then they all went out tactfully. Meng Fan said, "You didn't reserve a seat for me today." "Look at my face, can I still go out?" She looked carefully, fell silent for a while, and asked in a low voice, "Does it still hurt?" "It doesn't hurt anymore." She stretched out her hand to my face and stroked it lightly for a while, then suddenly became angry: "Hmph, who wants you to be dishonest! You deserve it!" "It deserves it, it deserves it. For you, I am willing to die ten thousand times. What is a slap?" "Hmph! You still have the nerve to say that? You know how to bully me!" "hey-hey……" "Come with me to the movies," she ordered. "It's only Friday, and the school doesn't show movies. Only tomorrow." "Let's go to the cinema down the street." "What movie?" "Old movie, "Romance on Lushan Mountain"." "It's very famous. I saw it once when I was in elementary school, and I almost forgot about it." "Me too. I just remember that Zhang Yu is so beautiful." "A little worse than you." "Sycophant!" Meng Fan was very happy and pulled me up, "Let's go!" "Hey, hey, my face..." "Do you think you are Qi Qin Guo Fucheng, and others will look at your face? It's okay! It's too late now, they can't see clearly." As it turned out, even though it was getting late, my face still attracted a lot of attention under the lights.Meng Fan walked triumphantly on the road, as if the palm print on my face was her military medal. After watching the movie and returning to the dormitory, I found that the bastards were all excitedly surrounding the tape recorder. The voice of my conversation with Meng Fan came from the tape recorder: "For you, I am willing to die 10,000 times. What is a slap?" Hmph! You still have the nerve to say that? You know how to bully me!"... They laughed out loud. These damned people actually took advantage of our unpreparedness, secretly set up the tape recorder before leaving, and recorded our conversation on tape!I rushed up to grab the tape, but was blocked by Wang Sao and Jin Ziguang. Chen Qiwei quickly took out the tape and hid it. Everyone burst into laughter, and imitated my tone and said: "For you, I am willing to die ten thousand times, what is a slap in the face?" Jin Ziguang pinched his nose and answered like Meng Fan: "Huh! You still have the nerve to say that? You know how to bully me!" Everyone laughed wildly and asked me: "Lao Qi, how did you bully her?" Chen Qiwei had an envious expression on his face: "I'm so happy, if I can also get a slap from a beautiful woman, I would even eat less than ten meals of egg fried rice!" The weather was good on the day of the mountaineering competition. There was a steep road on Luopan Mountain, from the gate of Luopan Mountain Park to the top of the mountain.And we have to run up the road. The vice-principal fired the starting pistol himself, and a large group of us ran up the stairs.Both Chen Qiwei and I belonged to the kind of people who didn't exercise much before. We made an appointment to run together, even if we fell behind, we still had a companion.Unexpectedly, the situation is more serious than we expected.As soon as they started running, other people rushed to the front in a black cloud.We felt that it was too embarrassing to be at the end at the beginning, so we had to speed up to catch up.But within two minutes, our physical strength was exhausted, and the distance between us and the large army was getting wider and wider.The feeling of running up the mountain is completely different from the usual morning run on the flat ground. It is really tiring.We've never felt so bad about it.Of course, there are also many people who are left behind like us. Everyone shook their heads and joked with each other: "It's old, now it's the world of young people!" Among those who were left behind, girls accounted for the vast majority, and Yang Xueping was among them.When she saw me, she nodded to me as a greeting. Running as slow as the girls makes us boys feel ashamed.We discussed it and felt that we had to work hard to keep a distance from the girls, so we ran for a while together.It was said to be a fierce run, but the speed was actually not fast, but at that time, I did my best.After finally pulling the girls down a hundred meters, we were all exhausted.I felt that my legs were so sore, and what was even more uncomfortable was that I couldn't breathe, like having asthma, so I simply stopped and walked slowly.Chen Qiwei was in better condition than me, and looked back at me.I waved my hand and told him to run by himself and leave me alone. At this time, I heard a familiar voice in front of me shouting: "Geng Xiao, come on! Geng Xiao, come on!" That's Meng Fan!She stood with Gu Lin. They didn't participate in the competition today, but were cheerleaders.Seeing her waving to me, I was full of courage and ran to her desperately.The sprint turned out to be pretty stupid.When I ran to her, I had almost exhausted all my strength and couldn't breathe.Alas, I was caught by Meng Fan in the sports that I am least good at.Really bad! Meng Fan trotted a few steps after me, and said with a smile: "Big idiot, big bear! You can't stop, once you stop, you can't run anymore. Come on, come on!" I forced a smile to her.Although I was too tired to care about my face at this time, I still mustered Yu Yong and continued to run.It's always hard to be called a "big idiot" by your sweetheart.I caught up with Chen Qiwei, my fatigue gradually dissipated, and I started to run.And Chen Qiwei's fatigue period has arrived.His face was pale, beads of sweat dripped from his forehead, he waved his hand panting, let me run first.I wanted to repeat what Meng Fan had just said to me, but I felt short of breath when I opened my mouth, so I didn't say anything and continued to run. After a while, I saw Li Meng, a girl from our class, shouting, "Come on, Geng Xiao! Come on, Chen Qiwei!" Li Meng is Chen Qiwei's crush.After the military training, Chen Qiwei has been making friends with Li Meng.The cuteness of Chen Qiwei lies in his shyness.Although his interest in Li Meng was obvious to the whole class, he still insisted that he and Li Meng were only discussing study issues.Hearing Li Meng's encouragement at this time, Chen Qiwei suddenly became heroic, and rushed to catch up. He ran up side by side with me, and slowly caught up with some people running in front. We ran for a while, and saw the lonely and desolate back of the poet Wang Sao.We caught up with him, and saw him staggering, his body leaning to one side, as if he was about to fall at any moment, and the classic pained expression of "The Death of Marat" when he recited poems appeared on his face again, with his head on the ground. He looked up in grief and indignation, panting heavily, eyes half-closed, and eyebrows deeply knit together, just like a pilgrim who died in the middle of the road was looking at Utopia's last thoughts before he died.