Chapter 6 Chapter Six

She went out to take a look, and saw Ou Yongliang sitting in the living room with a gray face, trying to calm down, and, what's more, he was holding a bag of things in his arms. Su Shunjuan was stunned when she saw it, it was a baby , is Xiao Qifang who was born not long ago. She asked anxiously, "What's going on here?" Ou Yongliang's voice was dull: "Xiangru and I have already broken up, and I will take care of the youngest daughter. Shunjuan, please do me a favor, I don't know how to take care of children." Su Shunjuan immediately took the hot potato.

She gave the child to the landlady's wife to take care of temporarily, and immediately followed Ou Yongliang to find Yao Xiangru, hoping that they would have a chance to reconcile. But when I arrived at Qingfeng Street, I found that the gate was ajar, and when I opened it, I saw people leaving the building empty. Yao Xiangru and Shao Shao, who was a little over a year old, left forever. Shao Shao said: "We moved to Enping Road and lived there until I got housing subsidies from the government." "Who takes care of you?" "Most of the time in the nursery, the mother has to go to work."

"How's it going there?" "I don't remember." Shaoshao smiled, what's the use of having such a good memory. "You are a brave girl." "It's true that I'm not particularly self-pitying." Su Shunjuan said: "I never knew why they broke up." It's not that they can't get along. It can be seen that Yao Xiang is determined to live with District Yongliang, otherwise, she will not rush to have a second child. It can be seen that a great change has taken place. What is it? Shao Shao wondered, "Why didn't you ask Mr. Ou? You have been married for thirty years."

"He's going to say it already." Shao Shao shook her head, she didn't expect that the previous generation loved playing guessing games so much, they were husband and wife for a long time, and they didn't know each other's mind for a long time. "Xiao Deng and I have said good and bad things." Su Shunjuan smiled, "Even if it hurts the other party?" "We have no conflict of interest, why would he want to hurt me?" Su Shunjuan sighed, "It seems that you have figured out every detail." "It's also out of desperation."

"The times are different, and so are people's hearts." After a while, Shao Shao felt sleepy, closed his eyes, and fell asleep. Seeing this situation, Su Shunwo was startled, and couldn't help shaking her head, Shaoshao is not young anymore, she doesn't have any worries at all, she sleeps as soon as she says, they are like her age, daughters are in their teens, and they are really full of worries. Su Shunjuan recalled the last time she visited Yao Xiangru. The child is not yet full moon, and the fragrance is like lying on the bed. Shao Shao, who is more than one year old, rests his head on the corner of his mother's bed, puts his fingers in his mouth, and listens to the adults.

Su Shunjuan said: "Yongliang treats you very well." "It's rare to treat Shaoshao as if he came out of his own hands." "Shao Shao is also surnamed Qu." Yao Xiangru kept smiling, but her eyes were looking away, not meeting Su Shunjuan's gaze. "You will be very happy." But Yao Xiangru suddenly asked Su Shunjuan: "Do you still remember Xuhao?" "How can you not remember!" "Xu Hao probably won't come back, right?" When Su Shunjuan heard this, she couldn't hold back the tears, which rolled down her cheeks.

But Yao Xiangru kept looking into the distance, still smiling, and finally she said, "I also don't think he will come back." Su Shunjuan did not expect Yao Xiangru to break up with Ou Yongliang within a month, and even leave behind her newborn baby without a trace. Su Shunjuan seized this opportunity and finally got her wish. She is Ou Yongliang's legal wife. Over the years, she has asked herself a hundred and eight thousand times, are you happy? She has also answered a hundred and eight thousand times, I am no happier than celibate. Au Yongliang soon left the plastic factory and set up his own business, designing new types of plastic molds, and the business was very successful.

They never heard from Yao Xiangru. Su Shunjuan had a feeling that Ou Yongliang didn't deliberately look for her. To Su Shunjuan, this was simply his wish. Why did she go to her?It would be better if she never appeared again forever. But as time passed, Su Shunjuan's status became stable, and her children grew up. She began to miss Yao Xiangru and felt a little guilty. Until one day, Su Shunjuan saw the obituary in the newspaper. She gently handed the newspaper in front of Ou Yongliang, and whispered, "Would you like to talk to Qi Fang?" Ou Yongliang was taken aback for a moment, then shook his hands, stopped turning his head, and said after a while, "What are you talking about? You are Qifang's mother."

Qifang was indeed brought up by her alone, and she deliberately let Qifang grow up to five years old, completely out of the baby stage, and only then did she give birth to Yanhe. But when Su Shunjuan raised her head, she was startled and saw Ou Yongliang's face was full of tears, she pointed at him in confusion: "You are crying!" "When did I cry?" He hurried into the study and locked the door. At this moment, Su Shunjuan realized that Ou Yongliang had never loved anyone else. Ou Yongliang locked himself in the study for a whole day. There is a long window in the study that leads to the garden, but the curtain is drawn so that the situation inside cannot be seen clearly.

The next morning, Su Shunjuan was in a hurry and called Qifang, "Use the key to open the door and go in." Yanhe said, "I'm ready." "No," said her mother, "Qi Fang." There is a big difference here. Qifang hurriedly opened the window and saw her father lying on the couch with a haggard face. When she saw someone, she propped up her upper body, shielded the sun with her hands, and let out a hoarse exclamation. What he said was, "You came to see me, you forgive me." Then, a sob broke out. Qifang was taken aback, and stepped forward, "Father, it's me."

Mr. Ou regained his composure at this time, he cleared his throat, "I must have drunk too much, and I slept in the study for such a long time." But his wife had already heard those two words. Forgive, forgive what, that incident, is the reason why Yao Xiangru left him? It took three days for Mr. Ou's eyes to subside. Then, the Ou family read about Shao Shao's marriage announcement in the newspaper. It was Su Shunjuan who couldn't hold her breath first. "I want to meet Shao Shao." Unexpectedly, Ou Yongliang said: "I have already inquired about it. Shao Shao works in the Information Bureau and is very popular. It seems that he has already gained a foothold in society." Su Shunjuan didn't say a word, the environment made man, so he believed. Qifang and Yanhe have nothing to do. "I heard that her words and style are very powerful, you have to be careful." "Will she remember us?" "What do you say?" "The average child doesn't remember past the age of four." "Really, then why did Qifang keep asking when she was young, who was that beautiful long-haired aunt who hugged and kissed her, and why didn't she come to play anymore." Su Shunjuan kept silent. It was a thorn in her heart. She couldn't explain why a young baby could describe the mother's appearance so aptly. Perhaps, the flesh and blood were connected, and the baby had a special feeling. She finally met Shao Shao. Shao Shao did not disappoint her. She has an independent personality, is shrewd and intelligent, knows exactly what she is doing, has accurate eyesight, predicts things like a god, and looks like a capable woman of the era. In comparison, both Qifang and Yanhe are useless. One lives by her father and has never worked a day job. The other feels that her father's house is not good enough, and she wants to go to Gao Panfu's house, always waiting for others to fulfill her personal wishes. So naive, disappointment is inevitable. Su Shunjuan looked at Shaoshao who was dozing beside her, she wished Yanhe was like this sister. When the plane arrived in Shanghai, Shao Shao naturally opened his eyes. "wake up?" Shao Shao nodded, but there was no dream. After getting off the plane, Shaoshao showed her abilities. She carried her aunt's hand luggage on her shoulders, held her arm with one hand, and took the lead. Leaving the airport smoothly. Then I negotiated the price with the taxi driver, paid in US dollars, straight and clear, with strong arms and eyes looking around, first helped the aunt to get on the bus, then took care of the luggage, waved and watched, arrived at the hotel, and found the room. Seeing this, Su Shunjuan couldn't help but secretly said, Xiangru, if you have a girl like this, you should close your eyes. "Auntie, rest for a while, I'll go find some information." "What's the use of resting, we'll find Maoming North Road right now." Shao Shao rubbed her hands. "You hesitate?" "I am a little scared." "The old lady is your grandmother, why be nervous." Shao Shao suddenly said: "She is also a piece of modern history." Aunt Su was startled, slowly recalling Shao Shao's words, and smiled wryly. "Think about it, she hasn't seen anything, the Revolution of 1911, the civil war between warlords, the fight against Japanese ghosts, the struggle between the Kuomintang and the Communist Party, and the anti-three and five-anti, big voices, and the Cultural Revolution." Aunt Su was silent. Shao Shao rubbed his eyes with his hands. Su Shunjuan did not expect that an official who was educated in the colony and was absorbed by the colonial government in his youth would say such words, it was a surprise. "Besides, I didn't bring them a refrigerator or TV." "Those, Ou Yongliang has already done it for them." "Heh, thank Mr. Au for me." "Should be." "Tomorrow morning, tomorrow morning we will go." As a result, both of them couldn't stand it anymore. At dusk, they found a car and headed for Maoming North Road. The whole old place is soaked in a layer of golden mist. If you look carefully, it is actually dust. New construction is mixed with old houses and old roads, like patches on rags, which is extremely unnatural. However, Shaoshao didn't come here for sightseeing, she came to find her mother's history. Knock and the door opens. "We're looking for Ms. Xu Xuying." "she went out." "who are you?" "I am the caretaker of Mrs. Xu, and my surname is Zhang." "I'm the granddaughter of Mrs. Xu. Is my grandmother there? I'll come and see her." The other party was taken aback, and the door slowly opened. It was an old apartment building that had been repaired. In the ubiquitous layer of dust, Shao Shao saw an old man sitting on a wicker chair on the balcony with his back behind the door. This is her grandmother. The source of her life. Shao Shao cleared her throat, wanting to approach her. But at that scene, Zhang's mother suddenly said: "The old lady no longer recognizes people." Shao Shao stopped. Zhang's mother further explained: "She is not mentally clear." Shao Shao took a step back abruptly. "When I came, the old man was already like this." Shaoshao lost control, tears streaming down her face. This was the biggest blow she had suffered since her mother's death. The mystery of her life experience was revealed layer by layer, and she finally found her paternal relatives, but her grandmother could not recognize each other. Shaoshao moved forward excitedly, "Grandma, I'm Xu Shaoshao, I'm back to see you." The old man turned his head slightly and looked at Shao Shao with a blank expression on his face. "Grandmother, I am your grandson." The old man had gray hair, every inch of skin was wrinkled, and his whole body was finally clean. She looked at Shao Shao for a long time, and seemed to want to identify Shao Shao, but she failed, she didn't know who this woman was. Shao Shao held her grandmother's hand and wiped away tears with the back of the other hand, like a child. The old man suddenly asked, "Are you back?" Shao Shao nodded sharply, "Yes, I'm back." The old man immediately grabbed Shaoshao's hand tightly, "You are back, then, where is my Xu Hao, when will Xu Hao come back?" Shaoshao was startled, she understood that the old man has become insane since his son disappeared, and the grandmother was greatly stimulated and lost her mind. Shaoshao summoned up her courage and told her grandmother frankly: "My father is long gone." The old man looked at Shaoshao blankly, "I'm gone, I won't be coming back." "Yes," Shao Shao said, "Grandma, I am his daughter, and I am here now." The old man murmured: "Yes, Xu Hao is not coming back. We have no money. We have to pay. You have to pay to be shot to death. Otherwise, you will be tortured and bleed slowly. You have not died when you carry it home. Say, where did we get the money?" Shaoshao was already heartbroken, but when she heard these words, she felt as if she had fallen into an ice cellar. She stood up with a "huo", took a step back, and suddenly bumped into a chair with her back, and the chair fell to the ground with a loud crash. It was Su Shunjuan who supported her. Shao Shao's body couldn't stop shaking. Shao Shao asked in disbelief: "What did you say, grandma, what did you say?" She was like falling into a nightmare maze. The old man turned his face away and continued to look at the alley. A child chased another child, clattering and screaming. Shaoshao shrank to the corner and couldn't help stroking her arm, it turned out that her skin was covered with goose bumps. At this moment, someone asked, "Who are you?" Shao Shao turned her head blankly, only to see a woman about the same age as Aunt Su standing at the door. Mama Zhang hurriedly stepped forward to whisper to her. The woman's face turned pale, full of surprise, "Who do you say you are?" Shao Shao asked, "Who are you?" "I'm Xu Xuying, Xu Xuhao's younger sister." "Then you are my aunt, I am Xu Xuhao's daughter Shaoshao." "Xuhao has a daughter?" Xu Xuying cried as she spoke. When Su Shunjuan witnessed this scene, her face was ashen, and she covered her eyes with a handkerchief and wept. "I also brought Ms. Su, my father's classmate." "Who is your mother?" "My mother's name is Yao Xiangru." "Where is she?" "She died at the beginning of the year." Xu Xuying looked at her niece, "You look like your father, I don't need to read any proof, I trust you." At this moment, Shao Shao no longer knew who she looked like, hugging the strange aunt, crying loudly. Hearing the crying, the old man raised his head, "Don't cry, don't cry, why are you crying? Your father is coming back soon, Xu Hao, you are a boy, and you will take care of your mother and sister in the future, why do you cry all the time?" When Shaoshao heard it, she felt that the sufferings in life were endless, and she didn't know if she could bear it. She grasped her aunt's hand tightly, tears streaming down her back, her whole back was drenched with sweat, and her heart was extremely bitter. The situation of being unable to go home after dark is exactly the same as at this moment. At this time, fortunately Aunt Su came over and said, "Shaoshao, go and wash your face, don't get excited." Shao Shao thought, this is the truth, don't provoke grandma and aunt. She slowly suppressed her emotions. Aunt gave her a cup of white chrysanthemum tea. Zhang Ma said, "I'm going to feed the old man." Shao Shao quickly stood up, "Let me do it." Zhang Ma said, "I'm familiar with it, so she will eat more." Su Shunjuan made the decision at this moment: "Shaoshao, let's go back first and let my aunt eat." Shao Shao left the hotel room and phone number to say goodbye. Aunt Su kept stroking her hand gently to show her comfort. Shao Shao touched her wet forehead and suddenly laughed, "No wonder my mother didn't mention my life experience at all. She did the right thing, and she really knew it was useless." Aunt Su remained silent. After a while, Shaoshao said again: "It turns out that she has borne it all by herself, such a bitter mother." That night, Shao Shao could not sleep all night, sitting on the corner of the bed, weeping silently, as soon as he closed his eyes, he seemed to see a blood-stained young man being carried to the door of the house, his body was pierced, and black blood was gurgling. After seeing it, his sanity fell into a coma. Shao Shao clenched her fists until her knuckles turned white. That young man was her father. She heard the sound of De De De, and after a long while, she realized that it was the strange sound of her teeth clattering. While hesitating, she suddenly heard someone knocking on the door. She jumped up and asked hoarsely, "Who?" "Shao Shao, I am Zhi Neng." Deng Zhineng, how could it be Deng Zhineng? Shaoshao hurried to open the door, and when she saw her husband, as if seeing a savior, Lai Lai burst into tears, "Big mouth, big mouth, you are here." Deng Zhineng quickly hugged her, "Shaoshao, why do you have a face like gold paper?" "Big mouth, it's a long story, how did you get here?" "I was sitting alone at home, and I came here on a whim, frightened and frightened." "Thank you, Big Mouth, I need you, I really need you right now." "Then let me tell you the truth, it was Ms. Su who called me here." "It's her again, Aunt Su is really a good person." "She already told me about it on the phone, so you don't have to repeat it." He sat on the edge of the bed, yawned, and undressed. "Big mouth, can you sleep?" "It's full of women, children, old and weak. Can I fall down by me alone? I have to rest and recuperate." This sentence reminded Shao Shao that her blood flowed through her whole body, gradually warming up and regaining her composure. That's right, if she falls down first, can she still take care of her grandmother and aunt? Shao Shao hurriedly went to the shower to wash her hair. Thinking of my mother's hard life, I cried for a while. When he came out in his bathrobe, he saw Deng Zhineng was meditating. "What are you thinking?" "I was thinking, all these years, I don't know who has taken care of Xu's mother and daughter." This is true, and you can still see the old man's passport, which shows that there must be extra money to support him. "I heard from Aunt Su that it seems to be Ou Yongliang." "It must be him, but why is he so kind?" "They are good classmates." "Yes, I can only think that way." "Big mouth, what did you think of?" Deng Zhineng remained silent. "Sleep." Shao Shao lay beside him in his clothes, "Dazui, it's lucky that I married you." Strange that no matter what happens to the world, the sun rises. Lying on the bed, Shaoshao suddenly remembered the newsreel he had watched a while ago. The civil war in Yugoslavia was full of mourners. Volunteer organizations managed to get a tourist bus to take a group of orphans to the German border, but they still encountered snipers. The upper windshield was completely shattered, and the adults covered the children with their bodies to protect them. However, two of the more than forty orphans were shot and died. The corpse is placed in the operating room of the hospital, the camera is pushed forward, half covered with white paper, with small hands and feet, and a peaceful face. Shaoshao remembered that she burst into tears suddenly, ah, she has already gone to the kingdom of God, and all of them have become little angels with wings, and they will never have to suffer. It is good to go to the kingdom of heaven despite being so miserable in this world. At this moment, Shaoshao suddenly felt that life was not very meaningful. Shao Shao wept silently. Deng Zhineng patted her on the back. Shaoshao blamed her husband: "It's all your fault. I don't want to know my life experience at all. It was you who asked me to find out the truth. From now on, I will never be able to sleep peacefully." Deng Zhineng sighed, "Sometimes I think the colonial government's stupid education is absolutely correct." Really, what do you know so much, everything ended in the 1911 Revolution, put a full stop, and put it on the shelf. Deng Zhineng also said: "Knowing too much is useless." Its daybreak. Aunt Su came and knocked on the door. Obviously, she didn't sleep well either. As soon as she sat down, she murmured to herself: "Back then we also knew that bad luck was bad, so we took Xiangru and walked to the south without looking back." Shao Shao chased after him and asked, "Does my father know of my existence?" "No, I don't think he knows." Shao Shao was depressed and extremely desolate. "I don't know if it would be better, or else I will have one more thing on my mind." Su Shunjuan sighed deeply. Shao Shao stared blankly at the gray sky outside the window. At this time, someone knocked on the door. Shaoshao got up and opened the door, outside the door stood her aunt Xu Xuying whom she only met yesterday. "Why are you here?" Shao Shao hurriedly stepped forward to hold her hands. "Before you go out, I'll ask you to do something." "Please say." Xu Xuying looked at the other two guests in the room. Shaoshao said, "They are all my own people." Xu Xuying remained silent. At this moment, Deng Zhineng said wittily, "Aunt Su, come on, let's go downstairs and have a cup of coffee." The two walked out of the room and closed the door. After a while, Xu Xuying said, "Shaoshao, I have a son." "Oh yes." Those were her cousins. What do you need, Shao Shao thought. "He suffered a little during the Cultural Revolution." Shao Shao had no choice but to comfort her softly, "That's a thing of the past." "After getting married, I added a grandson to the family, who is 21 years old this year." "That's great, but do you need tuition fees to study abroad?" Xu Xuying was silent. Shaoshao thought that she was embarrassed to speak, which was really rare. Shaoshao heard from colleagues that some relatives opened their mouths with a forceful attitude, as if they were asking for debts. After a long time, she said, "That child is already in a foreign country." "That's great." "His name is Zheng Jian." "I'll contact him right away, please give me the address." "This is Zheng Jian's photo." He is a handsome young man with a stubborn mouth. "I heard from his classmates that someone saw him in San Francisco." Shao Shao nodded. "I hope he's still alive." Shao Shao said nothing. "But there's no news at all. Why didn't he write to me?" Shao Shao was unable to answer this question. "If you can find him, tell him how much his parents miss him." "I know." "It's strange, they are all like this. They went out in the middle of the night and never came back." Xu Xuying complained softly. "I'll try to find him." "Shaoshao, something happened to your father, someone informed you." Shao Shao raised his head suddenly. "It is said that he is a close classmate who knows his actions like the back of his hand." There was a "hum" in Shaoshao's ears. "Auntie, were you there the night my father was sent home?" "I'm at my husband's house." "Only my grandmother witnessed the truth?" Xu Xuying nodded. "Poor grandma." Shaoshao murmured to herself. "Shao Shao, I'm leaving." "Wait a minute, when do we get together again?" Xu Xuying suddenly smiled, and gently stroked Shaoshao's temples, "I'm not in the mood to eat or drink, so please tell Mrs. Ou that we are very grateful for Mr. Ou's care for us all these years." Shao Shao remained calm, "He keeps sending money here?" "Yes, since '53 until now." "You guys, don't you find it awkward?" "I have been living on this small amount of foreign exchange, and I have no time to think about other things. Only when I receive remittances every month can I breathe a sigh of relief." "I will send it later." "That's even better." "I'll take you home." "No need, remember Zheng Jian." "I will try my best." After Xu Xuying left, Shaoshao began to pack her luggage. Deng Zhineng saw it and asked, "Where are you going?" "go home." "How often do you get together with your grandmother?" "Next time, everyone is not in the mood this time." Deng Zhineng looked at Shaoshao's complexion, he didn't feel any difference, and he was even more worried. He thought about it: "It's good to go home." Shaoshao suddenly asked: "How can mother bury so many past events in her heart without mentioning a single word?" "great." "It's no wonder she didn't give me my surname Xu." "Yes, the fate of the family members surnamed Xu is very tragic." "However, my surname is obviously not in the district, so why should I be honored?" "After I go back, I'll help you with the formalities. You and your mother's surname is Yao." "I heard that my maternal grandfather and uncle are still in the United States." "There's no need to contact them, they want to find you, isn't that easy?" Shao Shao smiled, her smile was confused and distant, she said softly: "I always thought my mother was just a woman who could endure hardships, who knew there was such a terrible story behind it." "Chinese people of that age, when you tell a story, you are guaranteed to be horrified." They went home. The first thing Shaoshao did was to contact Zheng Jian everywhere. "Uncle Hua, you need to help me find this young man, he has been away from home for a long time." "Miss Au, please sit down first." Shao Shao handed over Zheng Jian's photo, name, school and unit and other information. Director Hua took a closer look and put down the photo, "Why didn't you come here until now?" Shaoshao said: "Because it is only today that I have found someone who is in the early stage." "I'll find him for you." "He is my nephew." "Miss Au, no matter who she is, it is equally important to us." "Thank you, Uncle Hua." The middle-aged man sent Shao Shao to the door, and shook hands politely to say goodbye. She reported to her new post and received her old colleagues. Sitting in front of the writing desk, Shaoshao seemed to have passed away. She seemed to be a traveler in a time tunnel, traveling back and forth, and finally returned to her own time. When the colleague saw her, he was taken aback, "Shao, why did you lose so much weight overnight?" Shao Shao touched his face, "I, thin?" "You seem to have been seriously ill. What's the matter? An unhappy marriage, or difficulties at work? Speak up and don't worry everyone." Shao Shao lowered her head. "Don't take everything to heart, complain if you can." "I miss my mother terribly." "Everyone knows that your mother and daughter have a very good relationship, but—" Shaoshao followed up with a kind colleague: "Birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable. It is advisable to be humble and adapt to the changes. It is a serious matter to live a good life." The colleague giggled, "You understand." Immediately put all the documents in front of her, "This is your homework, entertain reporters at three o'clock in the afternoon, there are many people who have a lot to say." Shao Shao smiled. Fortunately, there is so much time to rush out in a limited time, otherwise I really don't know what I am doing alive.