Chapter 4 "Who Do You Think of When You Are Lonely" Chapter 4

Chapter Four (1) There were only a few couples in the bar, and they were clapping desperately for Liu Chang.Xiao Yi stood at the door and was deeply hit by Liu Chang's singing, unable to move for a long time.During the interlude, Liu Chang raised his head and suddenly saw Xiao Yi who was standing by the door in a daze.His beard had grown long, as if he hadn't shaved for many days, but the surprise of seeing Xiao Yi lit up his eyes like a fire in an instant. "Xiao Yi!" Liu Chang yelled, threw away the guitar in his hand and ran down the stage.Seeing this, Xiao Yi's first reaction was to turn around and rush outside in a panic.

Xiao Yi, who has not recovered from her injury, can't run fast, Liu sings and catches up with her. "Let me chase again, Xiao Yi, you let me chase again!" Liu Chang grabbed her arm and said through gritted teeth, "Stop!" Xiao Yi stopped, panting heavily, the luggage slipped from the palm of her hand to the ground. "My God, what did he do to you!" Liu Chang supported Xiao Yi and said, "Why did you run out alone in the middle of the night? What's wrong, tell me quickly!" "Why didn't you leave?" Xiao Yi said, "Didn't you go home?"

"I didn't leave." Liu Chang said, "I've always been here." "why?" "Wait for you to come back." Liu Chang suddenly grinned, "My intuition has always been very good, have you forgotten?" "What does your intuition tell you?" Xiao Yi asked. "Tell me you will come back, you will need me." Liu Chang said, "So, I have bought the train tickets to go home, so I stayed here. I sing here every day, I hope you will hear it." Xiao Yi looked at Liu Chang, but couldn't say a word. "Don't be moved." Liu Chang said, "Because it's useless to be moved." After Liu Chang finished speaking, he stretched out his arms and hugged Xiao Yi tightly.

"Come back to me," Liu Chang whispered in Xiao Yi's ear, "I know you will definitely come back. Let me give you happiness, Xiao Yi, the happiness you will never escape." "Hey, it hurts." Xiao Yi shouted. Liu Chang quickly let go of her, and said at a loss, "By the way, your injury hasn't healed yet, has it?" "No, no." Xiao Yi desperately shook her head at Liu Chang. "What is that?" Liu Chang touched the back of his head, not understanding. "I'm here to say goodbye to you." Xiao Yi said, "Liu Chang, I've decided to leave."

"Where are you going?" Liu Chang asked. "I don't know." Xiao Yi shook her head desperately and said, "I only know that I can never stay here again." "Silly girl." Liu Chang was heartbroken, and stretched out his arms and said, "No matter what, you have to remember, I will always keep this place for you, my arms, and I am willing to withstand all wind and rain for you." At that moment in the whole world, there was only Liu Chang's arms. "Liu Chang!" Xiao Yi couldn't hold on any longer, she threw herself into that warm embrace.

"I'm down!" Liu Chang shouted exaggeratedly, raised his hand, hesitated in the air for a while, then stroked Xiao Yi's long hair and said, "Comrade Xiao Yi, I will make a mistake if you do this." "Take me away." Xiao Yi said, "Take me away, no matter where you go." "Okay." Liu Chang patted Xiao Yi on the back and said gently, "Okay, no problem." The hut that Liu Chang rented is right between the school and "SUN". It has one bedroom and one living room.As soon as he entered the door, Liu Chang brought a chair for Xiao Yi to sit down, and bent down to tidy up the scattered newspapers, music scores, and dirty clothes.

"Sorry, it's a bit messy." Liu Chang said, "But it's close to the school, the rent is not expensive, and you can see the sunset at night, which is pretty good." After tidying up the room, Liu Chang brought a basin of hot water to wipe Xiao Yi's face.Xiao Yi thanked him and took the hot towel he had twisted for her, her eyes were attracted by a big fish tank on the TV cabinet. Liu Chang said with a smile: "It was originally prepared for Xiao Chong. This tank is big, so it can swim more freely." "You rented this house a long time ago?" Xiao Yi was surprised.

"Before the final exam." Liu Chang said, "I have considered everything, but I didn't consider that he will appear." "I'm sorry." Xiao Yi said. "Why do you say I'm sorry?" Liu Chang laughed, "Look, isn't it me who won in the end?" "Sounds awkward." Xiao Yi said. "Just listen to your ears." Liu Chang put the basin in his hand, carried Xiao Yi's small bag and said, "It's getting late, you should take a rest, the bedroom has an air conditioner, so it won't heat you up." "What about you?" Xiao Yi asked.

"I'll just sleep on the sofa outside and act as your bodyguard!" Liu Chang said, "Let's go out for food after dawn!" "Sounds awkward!" Xiao Yi and Liu Chang said together this time.After finishing speaking, both of them couldn't help laughing.Liu Chang stared blankly at Xiao Yi's smile, and Xiao Yi looked at Liu Chang in a daze and said, "Let's go." "what?" "Sleep." Xiao Yi said. "Sleep?" Liu Chang asked with a smile. "Let's all sleep in." Xiao Yi understood the teasing in Liu Chang's tone, but she trusted him, so she ignored him. Instead, she pushed the bedroom door open and turned to Liu Chang and said, "Hurry up!" Come in."

"Cha!" Liu Chang followed Xiao Yi into the inner room, and when the air conditioner was turned on, the heat dissipated, and the two of them slowly recovered.Liu Chang asked Xiao Yi to sleep on the bed, and he took the thin quilt and lay down on the floor, saying, "Go to sleep, it's almost dawn." "Sing a song for me." Xiao Yi refused to sleep, sat up from the bed, hugged her legs, put her chin on her knees, and said to Liu Chang. "No way." Liu Chang said, "It will disturb the neighbors." "Holidays, uh, maybe they haven't slept yet." Xiao Yi begged, "I can't sleep if you don't sing."

"Okay." Liu Chang said, "But you have to promise me to lie down first. Don't think about those unhappy things." Chapter Four (2) "Okay." Xiao Yi said. So Liu Chang took the wooden guitar from the outhouse, and began to sing for Xiao Yi the song he once sang: Your mood is always flying, you want to think about everything, grab some comfort, you always like to be in the crowd Wandering you are most afraid of the feeling of being alone, your heart is so fragile, it will break if you touch it, you can’t withstand a little wind, you always need many people to accompany you, you are most afraid of the dark every day, but there will always be black people, and no one can The feeling of being alone with someone forever Everyone has to face it Not just you I will feel tired When you are lonely you will think of who Do you want to find someone to accompany you The joy and sorrow Only I can understand Let me walk with you for a while The singing voice sung by Liu has always been magical to Xiao Yi. Xiao Yi lay down in that singing voice and closed her eyes quietly.After a song, Liu Chang put down his guitar, stood up and approached the bed, he touched Xiao Yi's face lightly, and then whispered: "Good night, dear, I'm glad you're back, very happy." Xiao Yi's heart trembled endlessly. After Liu Chang finished speaking, he fell on the floor and quickly fell asleep. Amidst his soft snoring, Xiao Yi also quickly fell asleep.In the dream, she returned to her hometown, it was spring, the rape blossoms in the suburbs were golden and warm, and the blue sky was as bright and pure as a baby's eyes. In the dream, someone was holding her hand all the time. Xiao Yi didn't know who he was, but that hand Spacious and warm, making people attached.Ye's back gradually drifted away, but she had no urge to catch up. The overwhelming rapeseed blossoms are brilliant all the way to the horizon, separating the past and the present at the two ends of the boundless infinity. Early the next morning, the sun drove straight in, awakening Xiao Yi's dream.Only then did she realize that it wasn't all a dream. Liu Chang, who was lying on the floor, rolled to the side of her bed at some point, and fell asleep holding her hand the whole time! He looked like he was sleeping soundly, and there was even a slight smile on the corner of his mouth.Xiao Yi gently took his hand away, crept up, walked through the living room to the bathroom, washed up casually, and went out with her small bag. The weather is fine and the air is fine.A bird flies alone through the branches and disappears in an instant.Xiao Yi suddenly thought of a line of lyrics: No bird flew by, asking about this broken parting.That should be a song sung by Liu Chang. It is poignant and desolate, and the poetic lyrics sang all the holes in the gorgeous coat of love. The hand held by Liu Chang all night still had a faint temperature, Xiao Yi subconsciously put it into the pocket of his coat, as if afraid that the temperature would suddenly disappear.Since this area is very close to the school, she was familiar with the road, and easily found the nearby supermarket and bought a lot of food and daily necessities. The mobile phone is hanging on the chest, but it has been turned off.I don't know if Ye has returned home now, is he relieved or anxious to see her leave? Better not to think about it.Xiao Yi comforted herself and said, maybe all of this has really passed, and what I have been desperately looking back and trying to keep these days, maybe it is not what I want, and I am reluctant, and it is just because I am unwilling. That's fine, isn't it? After I figured it out, I felt a little happier, and I started to feel hungry, and even started to think about what I could make for lunch. The road is close, the car soon arrived at the door of the house, Xiao Yi took the things out of the car, thanked the driver and was about to enter the door, and bumped into Liu Chang who was rushing out. "Hi!" Xiao Yi said, "Why are you going?" "Where have you been?" Liu Chang grabbed Xiao Yi, his eyes seemed to burst into flames. "Go for food." Xiao Yi said while walking in with two big bags, "You have nothing here, like a refugee camp, I don't want to drink northwest wind with you." "Why didn't you tell me when you went out!" Liu Chang took the things for her and asked in a muffled voice. "Aren't you sleeping?" "Then why don't you turn on your phone?" "Forgot." Xiao Yi said. Liu Chang panted: "Grandma, you scared me to death, I thought you ran away again." Xiao Yi looked at Liu Chang, and after a long time spit out two words: "Stupid!" "I'm stupid." Liu Chang said stupidly, "If you run away again, I really don't know what to do." "Then let me run around and try?" Xiao Yi thought his appearance was funny, so she purposely annoyed him. "How dare you!" Liu Chang blew his beard and stared at her. Xiao Yi put down the bag in her hand, turned around and pretended to leave, but it was because there was something outside the house, and she wanted to carry it in.Unexpectedly, before she took a step, Liu Chang suddenly dragged her into his arms, lifted her chin, and kissed her lips involuntarily. Liu Chang's kiss was so intense and fiery, it seemed as long as a century.This sudden kiss made Xiao Yi completely lose her mind, and her mind went blank.Until Liu Chang finally let her go, and said almost childishly: "It's all right now, the uncooked rice is finally cooked." Xiao Yi suddenly pushed Liu Chang away, ran into the bathroom, and closed the door. She actually let him kiss her! "Oh, don't be like this." Liu Chang knocked on the door outside anxiously and said, "If you feel that you are at a disadvantage, at worst, come out and I'll let you kiss me, okay?" Xiao Yi was silent inside. "Hey!" Liu Chang slammed the door loudly, threatening her, "If you don't open the door again, I'll hit the door!" Xiao Yi suddenly opened the door, which Liu Chang did not expect.Seeing Xiao Yi staring at him silently, Liu Chang took a step back in fright, raised his hands and said, "I plead guilty, I plead guilty." "Go cook!" Xiao Yi told him, "I'm almost starving to death!" Chapter Four (3) "Cha!" Seeing that Xiao Yi was no longer angry, Liu Chang happily ran into the kitchen, but he came out again in less than a minute and asked very seriously, "Do you use boiling water or cold water for cooking?" "What do you usually eat?" Xiao Yi asked him. "I usually just drink alcohol." Liu Chang said, "If you're hungry, there's fast food in the bar." In the end, that meal was made by Xiao Yi, a plate of shredded pork with green peppers, a plate of shredded potatoes, and a bowl of tomato and egg soup. They looked red, yellow and green, quite attractive. Liu Chang rushed to the table exaggeratedly and said, "It smells so delicious, my stomach jumped out!" Xiao Yi untied her apron, sat down at the table and said, "I don't care if it's not delicious, it's the first time I've made it, and I used to watch others make it." "I dare say it's your debut show!" Liu Chang's eyes widened, "Oh, Xiaosheng, I'm so honored!" "What nonsense are you talking about!" Xiao Yi patted Liu heavily and said, "Wash your hands and eat!" "You hit me!" Liu Chang said. "What's wrong with hitting you, who told you to talk nonsense!" "Haha, you hit me!" Liu Chang clapped his hands happily and said, "Haven't you heard of beating?" Xiao Yi stood up and immediately kicked Liu Chang's leg. Unexpectedly, Liu Chang was even happier: "Hahaha, I haven't said the last sentence yet. Hitting is kissing and scolding is love. Kicking you is the most realistic! Hahaha!" Liu Chang was really overjoyed. After finally laughing, he hugged the dumbfounding Xiao Yi into his arms and asked softly, "Tell me, am I done?" Xiao Yi didn't speak. Liu Chang pushed forward: "Are you willing to cook for me for the rest of your life?" "I don't want to." This time the answer was straightforward. "Then I'll learn." Liu Chang seemed quite conceited. "It doesn't work either." "Then do it as a nanny!" Liu Chang said with determination, "We have a son and a daughter, and we sit and play mahjong against each other. What a wonderful day, don't you think?" "We will quarrel." Xiao Yi said. "If you quarrel, quarrel." Liu Chang said, "Didn't you just say that beating is kissing and scolding is love." "We will get bored." Xiao Yi said. "No." Liu Chang said, "The thing I'm best at is making new ideas." "We'll be too old to love each other." "If there is such a day, we will also wish for it." Liu Chang said, "So it doesn't matter." "I'm still afraid." Xiao Yi said. "What are you afraid of?" "I'm afraid I'm already in love with you." "Silly girl." Liu Chang stretched out a finger, caressed Xiao Yi's lips and said, "If you love it, you will love it. It's not a shame to fall in love with a handsome guy like me." "But I haven't had time to forget him." Xiao Yi leaned on Liu Chang's chest and whispered, "Please, give me a little time, okay?" "Okay." Liu Chang said, "I can give you a whole life." "Nicky." Xiao Yi broke free from his arms angrily, went back to the table and sat down and said, "Eat quickly, or the food will be cold." Liu Chang picked up a chopstick of shredded meat with green peppers and put it in his mouth. After chewing for a long time, he frowned and said, "This meat has been infected by me, and it seems a little numb." "Ah!" Xiao Yi said, "Did I put in too much pepper?" While talking, she picked up a chopstick and tasted it. "How can I be my girlfriend without a sense of humor?" Liu Chang laughed and said, "It seems that I need some time to investigate you!" "Smelly!" Xiao Yi scolded angrily. "The way you look angry is so magnificent, it makes people never get tired of it!" Liu Chang stared at Xiao Yi's face and said. "Nicky!!" This time, the two shouted in unison, and then laughed in unison. "Look, look!" Liu Chang said smugly, "Follow me, at least one hundred years more!" That night, Xiao Yi accompanied Liu Chang to "SUN".Because it is not far, so walk.Before walking ten steps away, Liu Chang asked at least three times: "Are you cold?" "You asked me coldly." Xiao Yi said angrily. "This effect is what I want!" After Liu Chang finished speaking, he hugged Xiao Yi with a smile. Xiao Yi didn't struggle, the two walked towards "SUN" slowly, when they were approaching the door, Xiao Yi stopped and refused to leave.Liu Chang smiled, and let go of Xiao Yi knowingly.At this moment, a person rushed out from the bar and hugged Xiao Yi tightly: "Haha, it's me, it's me!" It is blue. "I'm back! I called you to turn off your phone. I didn't expect you to be together! It seems that I'm away these days and I missed a lot of news." Lan said, winking at Liu Chang. "Didn't it mean you'll be back tomorrow?" Xiao Yi asked Lan. "Their family is boring, so I'm back today." Lan said to Liu Chang, "The troupe will provide board and lodging tomorrow. How about we go to your place tonight?" "No problem." Liu Chang said, "Sleeping on the floor." Xiao Yi stared at Liu Chang, and Liu Chang said, "It's useless to stare at me. There is only one bed at home. Where can she sleep if she doesn't sleep on the floor?" "I don't." Lan said dreamily, "The speed of the spaceship is not as fast as yours." Xiao Yi ignored the two of them and walked in. Lan's boyfriend Xiao Gao had his hair cut and looked very energetic. Seeing Xiao Yi coming in, he raised the wine glass in his hand to say hello to her. Xiao Yi also sat down on the high chair by the bar.The waiter recognized her and quickly brought a cup of hot water. "Ask for a secret recipe." Xiao Gao approached, and mysteriously said to Xiao Yi. "What?" "Does your best friend have a death spot?" Xiao Gao said, "I can't control her over and over again." "What do you want?" Xiao Yi didn't understand. Xiao Gao said: "She always doesn't follow the rules when she does things, and I have a headache to death." "Haha." Xiao Yi smiled, took a sip of hot water and said, "This is the characteristic of Meimeilan, and it is also what makes her attractive, don't you know?" Chapter Four (4) "It's too much." Xiao Gao shook his head. Xiao Yi looked at Lan who was sitting far away and refused to approach, and now she understood quite a bit: "Have you had a fight?" "Which day will it not be noisy?" Xiao Gao said, "on the first day when she came to my house, she would dance with me with a knife in front of my parents. It's really depressing." "Hehe." Xiao Yi smiled, "Then you can shoot with a gun and see who is more cruel than whom." "I dare not." Xiao Gao said. See, this is love, one thing for another.Which writer once said that in a love drama, the protagonist is always the most tired and the supporting role is the most hurt.Xiao Yi thought rudely in her heart, these words are really classic. Liu Chang began to sing the first song of the night, someone ordered it, Dao Lang's, and the hoarse Dao Lang became popular as if overnight. Many people in this world became popular overnight. This is really a bit like love. Just one sunrise and sunset will completely change the appearance, whether it is surprise or pain, it is equally incredible and irreversible. You are my lover, a woman like a rose, use your fiery lips to make me lose my soul endlessly in the middle of the night, you are my lover, pure as a lily, soothe the passionate love in my heart with your light body temperature Scars... It is completely different from Liu Chang's previous affectionate singing, which makes everyone in the bar feel high.The electric guitar player got excited and ran around the stage.Xiao Gao put his feet on the bar and hummed vigorously, Lan smacked his lips in Xiao Yi's ear and said, "Look, look, what kind of layman have I followed!" "Don't be like this." Xiao Yi said, "The performance will be performed the day after tomorrow, and you all have to flirt with the public on the stage, keep fit, keep fit!" "If it weren't for this, I really want to say BYEBYE to him today." Lan said, "I can't fucking stand him for a second." In the end, Lan still didn't wait for the performance, but it wasn't Lan who didn't calm down, but Xiao Gao.It was past two o'clock in the middle of the night when I returned to Liu Chang's rented house that night.Xiao Gao drank a little too much, he was swaying when he walked, and when he entered the door, he threw himself on the sofa in the living room and couldn't move. After Xiao Yi and Lan washed up, they went into the back room. Xiao Yi said to Lan: "There is no air conditioner outside, so you wake him up and let him sleep on the floor inside." "He's so beautiful," Lan said loudly, "it would be nice to have a place for him to live in!" "What did you say?" Xiao Gao heard it, raised his head on the sofa and asked loudly, "What did you say!" Seeing that Lan was about to have a seizure, Xiao Yi quickly stopped her and said in a low voice, "Okay, don't say a word." "Go in and sleep!" Liu Chang also came over to smooth things over, "Just leave the door open, this house is not big, and the air conditioner should be enough if the doors and windows are closed." Unexpectedly, Xiao Gao jumped up from the sofa, rushed towards Lan, and shouted: "What did you say, please repeat what you just said!" Xiao Gao must be strong and courageous, he is usually obedient to Lan, Lan has never seen him in such a red-eyed posture, and on the contrary, he feels guilty, so he waved his hand and said generously: "Forget it , I don’t care about you if you drink too much, I’m sleepy, I’ll tell you tomorrow.” After speaking, he yawned and walked in, but Xiao Gao didn’t give up, but grabbed Lan’s arm and said: "I'm not allowed to sleep if I'm sleepy, and no one is allowed to sleep until I make it clear!" "What are you doing, buddy. It's getting late, ladies need to rest and go to bed!" Liu Chang tried to drag Xiao Gao away. "You really feel sorry for a woman!" Xiao Gao threw Liu Chang away, pointed at his head and shouted, "I said Liu Chang, you can do it, a lover, a lover, you will not let go Look at the green light above my head, it can illuminate ten streets!" After speaking, he began to sing in tune: "You are my lover, a woman like a rose..." Lan rushed over and slapped Xiao Gao resoundingly. Lan was really ruthless. After a "pop", Xiao Gao's singing stopped, and a creepy smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. In the quiet air that seemed to freeze, he swayed toward everyone. A goodbye gesture, turned and walked out.His footsteps are so steady and powerful, he doesn't look drunk at all. "That's a joke." After a while, Lan said. "Go to sleep." Xiao Yi said, "I can't hold on anymore." After speaking, Xiao Yi walked to the bed, fell down, and closed her eyes. In the middle of the night, Xiao Yi seemed to hear Lan talking, and she said in Xiao Yi's ear: "The one you love, the one who loves you, the whole life, entanglement, how can you tell the difference? Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi, How are we going to repay these debts?" When he woke up, Lan was no longer there, and Liu Chang was changing the strings of his acoustic guitar. Xiao Yi asked Liu Chang, "She left?" Liu Chang nodded. "She will be fine." Xiao Yi said, "She will forget about it soon." "What about you?" Liu Chang asked. Xiao Yi smiled: "I think I will too." After Liu Chang changed the strings, he plucked the guitar briskly with his fingers, and smiled: "This is my Xiao Yi." However, what Liu Chang and Xiao Yi didn't expect was that Lan and Xiao Gao both played the game of "Evaporation", and they didn't even participate in the rehearsal the next night! The headmaster was stunned when he heard the news, the head of the department was furious, and a thousand tickets went out. The city leaders finally agreed to come, and the journalists also came. It was going to be staged, but the hero and heroine disappeared. Isn't this a joke? "Look for it!" At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, the head of the department yelled at Liu Chang and Xiao Yi at the gate of "SUN", "We must find them no matter what!" "I don't think so, so call the police." Liu Chang said seriously. Xiao Yi pinched his arm. "If it doesn't work, Xiao Yi and I will go," Liu Chang said, "Let's be a little more skilled, and our image is not bad." Chapter Four (5) "You're still laughing and joking at any point." The head of the department said with a sullen face, "I have no sense of responsibility at all. If they don't show up tomorrow, they will be expelled! Can you still joke about this?" Xiao Yi stuck out her tongue and ran to the side to dial Lan's phone, but it was still turned off! If you hit Xiao Gao again, the phone will also be turned off! "What should I do?" Liu Chang came over and whispered, "The old man seems to be going crazy." "Let it be fate!" Xiao Yi stretched out her hand to Liu Chang and said, "Borrow your mobile phone." "What are you doing?" Liu Chang didn't understand. "Never mind." Xiao Yi took the phone, turned her back to Liu Chang, and sent a short message to Lan word by word: "Please contact me as soon as you turn on the phone, we are very worried about you." Lan's call came back an hour later, and she knew that she had drunk enough. She said to Liu Chang on the phone: "I want to find Xiao Yi, find Xiao Yi." Xiao Yi snatched the phone, and Lan said, "I drank too much." "Lan!" Xiao Yi said angrily, "You can't do this, tell me where you are, we'll pick you up." "What do you mean it's not allowed?" Blue said, "I tell you, there are people who drink more than me. I'm at the boiling point of Blue, come on, you'll know when you come. It's really interesting, interesting..." Xiao Yi and Liu Chang put down the phone and rushed towards "Blue Boiling Point". "Blue Boiling Point" is the largest and most luxurious bar in the city. It is a place frequented by urban white-collar workers. After Xiao Yi and Liu Chang went in, they searched for a long time but couldn't find Lan. When they were about to make a phone call, they saw someone in the corner. She screamed: "Xiao Yi, Xiao Yi, I'm here!" It was Lan, with his arms raised high, and a wine glass still in his hand.A man held a drink in one hand, put one arm around her waist, and buried his head against her chest.There is a charming and moving smile on Lan's face. Xiao Yi and Liu Chang stopped at the same time. Because of the figure holding Lan, Xiao Yi can recognize it with just a glance.She suddenly felt an overwhelming pain in her stomach, and she couldn't stand still. "Let's go!" Liu Chang grabbed Xiao Yi and went out, but Lan broke away from Ye and ran over, stopped Xiao Yi and Liu Chang and said, "What's the matter, aren't you looking for me, why don't you play for a while?" "Do you know that you are disgusting?!" Liu Chang looked at Lan and said. "I don't know." Lan looked at Ye and said word by word, "I don't know what's so disgusting about me." Ye followed after him, he was already so drunk that he didn't even recognize Xiao Yi, so he just grabbed Lan and shouted: "Come here, let's continue drinking!" "A chance encounter!" Lan explained to Xiao Yi with a smile, "He was like this when I met him. I really thought it was funny, look at Xiao Yi, we are always misplaced, aren't we?" "The school is looking for you, don't forget you have a performance tomorrow." Xiao Yi finished speaking coldly, turned around and walked out of "Blue Boiling Point" without looking back. Liu Chang followed her out, and the two walked one after the other, without speaking for a long time. Finally, Liu Chang caught up, grabbed Xiao Yi and said, "He drank too much, why don't we send him home together?" Xiao Yi stood still, and she said to Liu Chang: "Listen well, I will never have any relationship with that person again." Liu Chang grinned and said, "To be honest, I really like to hear that." "Is there anything else you want to hear more?" Xiao Yi asked Liu Chang. "Tell me?" "I love you." "you……" "I love you, Liu Chang." After Xiao Yi finished speaking, she turned and ran.Liu Chang was stunned for about two minutes before he remembered to run after him.After finally catching up, he hugged him tightly and never wanted to let go. "Will we be separated?" Xiao Yi asked. "No." Liu Chang said, "I will never let you leave me." "Are you going to break my heart?" "Won't." "What if I break your heart?" "I will forgive you." "What if your words don't count?" This time, Liu Chang did not answer, but looked at Xiao Yi's shining eyes in the dark night and said, "Honey, you have too many questions, I decided to make you shut up!" After speaking, he lowered his head and kissed Xiao Yi. The stars all over the sky, dancing in the night sky, refuse to rest, never fall. The next day, Xiao Yi changed her cell phone number. The old card was shredded finely with scissors and thrown into the trash can.Liu Chang watched her do all this silently, and flicked her forehead lightly with his fingers when he was done, and said, "Okay, a new life has begun." "Do you think Lan and Xiao Gao will go to the performance?" Xiao Yi asked Liu Chang worriedly. "You're such an old man, so you should be able to tell which is more important," Liu Chang said, "I'll make a phone call later to ask about it. Besides, I've got the ticket, and I'll go to see it with you at night." "Love scenes are boring." Xiao Yi laughed. "Boring is also love." Liu Chang's words are really classic. Before going to the show, there was still some time, Xiao Yi said to Liu Chang: "I want to go to the Internet cafe, there is a manuscript that has not been sent out yet." "Go." Liu Chang stroked her long hair and said, "Send me a short message when you're done, and I'll pick you up by bike." "Why didn't you clamor to go with me?" Xiao Yi deliberately made fun of him. "Hey!" Liu Chang said, "You are all mine now, what am I afraid of!" "Liu Chang! You are not allowed to talk nonsense!" Xiao Yi put on a straight face. "Hey! I'm yours now, what else can't I tell you!" Liu Chang pushed her into the Internet cafe and said, "Go, go, I just happened to go to the video store, in order to chase you , I have been idle for a long time." Xiao Yi glanced at him and went into the Internet cafe alone. The first thing to do was to find S, but S was not online, so Xiao Yi sent him the article he had written a long time ago, who knew that his QQ avatar lit up as soon as the letter was sent: "Xiao Yi, I am here of." Chapter Four (6) "Hey!" Xiao Yi said, "Why are you always online?" "It's boring." "Find a girlfriend." "Hey, there is no one like you around." "Then find someone better than me." Xiao Yi said, "By the way, I will give you my new phone number, and you can call me from my new number later." "Haha, is the old account in arrears?" "No." Xiao Yi said, "It means saying goodbye to the past." "Oh?" "S, I think I finally see myself clearly, and finally know what I want. I never thought about it before. It's actually quite easy to start and end a relationship. It's really unnecessary to embarrass myself like that before. Oh." "Yes." S said, "Xiao Yi, you are right, it is like this." "You have to bless me." "Keep pushing forward. Making things worse." S scolded. "Hee hee. Dabao SOD honey is added." "First declare, then I will be ranked first, and it will be my turn to break up." "Crow mouth!" "Okay," S sent over with a laughing avatar and said, "Bless you, grow old together with your lover, forever in this life. I'm going to read your manuscript, if I don't need it, I will beat you PP, be careful .” After speaking, his QQ went dark. I don't know why, even though I have never met, Xiao Yi always feels that S is the kind of person who can confide in, a trustworthy good friend, Xiao Yi has enough confidence in this point. What made Xiao Yi feel at ease was that Lan and Xiao Gao finally participated in the performance that night.What's more, the performance was a great success, and the entertainment headlines of various newspapers in Nanjing were all such news: college students wrote and performed the stage play "Love You is worse than Love Yourself", which tells the joys and sorrows of urban love.How many tears were earned and so on. It was also heard that Lan cried as soon as the scene was over, crying so hard that she couldn't even continue the reporter's interview. "Go and persuade her." Xiao Gao came to beg Xiao Yi and said, "I don't know what medicine she took wrongly, it's like having a convulsion." "Let her cry." Xiao Yi said, "It will be fine after crying." She didn't try to persuade Lan. Friendship is actually the same as love. In many cases, distance can make each other understand each other better. Liu Chang borrowed a laptop from somewhere, so that Xiao Yi can write and surf the Internet at home.Although it is a narrowband, it is much better than going to an Internet cafe.Liu Chang would occasionally take a look at something Xiao Yi had published in a magazine, but Xiao Yi tried her best to snatch it and refused to let him read it.For some reason, when Liu Chang stared at her writing, she felt shy. "Love still has a process of running in." S said, "This process is wonderful, you have to learn to enjoy it." "You made yourself look like a love expert." Xiao Yi smiled. "Why am I not?" S said unconvinced, "I am much better than you imagined, so don't underestimate me." "That's that!" They were having fun with S, when the doorbell rang, it was Lan, carrying a lot of food, and made a contrived smile at Xiao Yi. Liu Chang was not at home, so Xiao Yi opened the door, looked at her and said, "What are you doing, I don't accept gifts." "Stingy ghost." Lan said. "I'm not angry at all." "Yes, cheapskates are angry." Lan came in, threw the things on the ground and said, "It's all over!" "What do you mean it's over?" Xiao Yi didn't understand. "I reconciled with Xiao Gao, I figured it out." Lan said to Xiao Yi, "Love is like buying vegetables. After picking and picking, only rotten leaves are left in the end. It's better to find the right one, at least you can get it." Something brighter." "What are you talking about." Xiao Yi said to Lan, "I'm not talking about you, you've become more and more outrageous recently." "You still remember what happened that night." Lan said, "It was really a chance encounter. He was already drunk like that when I met him, I swear." "I have nothing to do with him." Xiao Yi said viciously, "If Liu sings, you try?" "Hey." Lan said, "I remind you not to be too proud, even if I let your handsome guy go, I don't know how many seniors are staring at him!" Xiao Yi handed her a bottle of drink and said, "What's yours is yours. If it's not your request, you can't get it." "Little life is going well." Lan turned the drink bottle and said with a smirk, "School will start in two days, and I'm afraid I won't be used to living in the dormitory after school starts. Do you have... er... that de facto marriage? What?" "Go to hell!" Xiao Yi picked up the cushion on the sofa and beat Lan indiscriminately.Lan yelled for help, and it was hard for Xiao Yi to calm down. Seeing Xiao Yi blushing with anger, Lan thought it was funny, so she said: "I know Liu Chang is a gentleman, he was just kidding you, so what are you doing seriously!" "You think everyone is like you!" Xiao Yi was still angry. Lan hurriedly changed the subject: "I said, Ye seems to be really bad, I met him several times later at the 'Blue Boiling Point', and every time he was so drunk that he didn't recognize anyone. Once you fall in love, you really stand by and watch? You can't be so cruel!" "Is it okay not to talk about him?" Xiao Yi said. "Hey! If you don't say it, you still have him in your heart." Lan said, "Be careful, I'll tell Liu Chang." "Who is afraid of whom?" Xiao Yi said. "Yes, everyone in the world knows that Liu Chang is afraid of you. You don't need to mention this light-hearted person!" Lan took Xiao Yi's arm, "Let's go, let's go shopping?" “好！”小忆说。真是好多天都不逛街了，眼看着就要开学，好多东西要买呢。 可是她们刚刚走出家门，就看见系主任和两个警察迎面走来，走近了，其中一个警察口气严肃地问道：“你们谁是薛小忆？” “我。”小忆说，不祥的感觉已经在瞬间罩上心头。 第四章（7） “有桩自杀案，我们想找你协助调查，麻烦你跟我们到局里去一趟。” “谁？”小忆颤声问，“谁自杀？” “叶庄。”警察说。 一听到这两个字，小忆的脸整个地暗下去，人像是失重了，忽忽往下掉没有知觉。一旁的蓝抓紧了小忆的胳膊，失声尖叫。 “他死了？”过了好半天，小忆问。 “今天凌晨。”警察说，“在他租的房子里，他开了煤气，服了过度的安眠药。我们接到报案进入房间的时候他已经死亡。” “好。”小忆显得异乎寻常的冷静。“我跟你们走一趟。” “等等。”蓝问警察，“我可不可以陪她？” “可以，但要在外面等。” 就这样，蓝一直陪小忆到了警局，盘问的时间有些长，小忆出来的时候已经是傍晚七点。她显得有些疲惫，但神情正常。蓝不见了，等在外面的人换成了刘唱，见小忆出来，刘唱一把把她搂到怀里说：“你饿了吧，我带你去吃点东西。” 小忆不露痕迹地挣脱了他。 刘唱并不介意，而是把她拉到摩托车边说：“来，我给你看一样东西。” 说完，他弯腰，从地上捧起来的竟是装在鱼缸里的小宠。 “你从哪里弄到的？”小忆惊讶地把鱼缸接过来。 “我想它对你一定很重要，所以接到蓝的电话后我就骑车跑了一趟。”刘唱说，“那里被封了，我好说歹说，才把小宠弄出来。” “我想去他家看一下。”小忆抱着小宠。 “被封了，进不去的。” “那我就在外面看看。” “好吧。”见小忆执意要去，刘唱只好把小忆带到了那个小区。不知道是不是出了人命案的缘故，整个小区都显得特别冷清，行人表情严肃，来去匆匆。他们并没有走近那个房子，远远地看去，那个一楼的小单元显得特别寂寞，往左边走走，还可以看到后院里的荒草。那是叶和她曾经住过的地方，叶说过，如果她喜欢，可以把这里买下来。小忆还记得，那屋子里挂着一张照片，照片上有个手拿风车的可爱女孩，还有叶买的粉色玫瑰，也许还在开放。一切都没有变，唯一不一样的是，叶不在了。 他永远都不会再回来。 他没有留下任何的遗言。他们说，他亏空公款六十八万，畏罪自杀。 畏罪自杀。 这是多么让人绝望的四个字。 小忆想起蓝早上的时候还对自己说：“叶真的很不好，难道你就这样袖手旁观？”想起那晚，叶把头抵在蓝的胸前，血红着眼高声地喊：“过来过来，我们接着喝！” 那是她最后一次见到他，那是他留在她眼中的最后一个镜头，她曾经爱到骨头里的一个男人，她可以和他分离，可以不与他再有任何交集，可是她不能接受永别，尤其是，这种方式的别离。 太过残忍。 想到这一点，小忆忍不住悲从中来，胃里的翻江倒海又来袭了，跑到路边拼命地呕吐起来。 “走吧。”刘唱扶住她说，“你受凉了，我带你去医院看看。” “不用了。”小忆说，“我只想回去睡一觉。” 刘唱把小忆送回了家里。白天，刘唱寸步不离地守着小忆。晚上他要唱歌，就换成蓝。蓝端着一碗稀饭，大力拍着小忆的面颊说：“快起来，吃东西！” “真吃不下，”小忆虚弱地躺到床上，闭着眼睛说，“一吃就要吐。” 蓝无可奈何地摇头。 “蓝！”小忆忽然从床上坐起来，抓住蓝的手臂说：“求你，帮我找个人，无论如何都要找到她，我要跟她见一面！” “好的。”蓝说，“只要你乖乖把这碗稀饭喝了，外星人我也找来给你！” 蓝没有让小忆失望，一天内，她就替小忆把事情办妥了。 “她这些天都没上班，我好不容易问到了她的地址和电话，她是叶总公司里唯一的女领导。”蓝对小忆说，“不过我恐怕，你不愿意见她。” 小忆迫不及待地接过蓝手里的地址条，一看纸条，小忆差一点就晕了过去！ sky! 那竟是天天家的地址，一个小忆再也熟悉不过的地址，她曾经在那里住过好长一段时间，她曾经以为，她是这个世界上最温柔最美丽最善良的女人！她根本就想不到，她会和叶有任何的交集！ “难怪我第一次见她，就觉得她面熟，原来，我在医院里见过她和叶。”蓝说：“还有一件事我觉得奇异，今天我去找她的时候，你猜我看到了谁？” "Who?" “阿森。” 蓝说：“她的女秘书讲，这几天阿森都在找她。你说，她们怎么会认识？” 小忆下意识地摸了一下身上的伤口，那场发生在天天家附近的车祸如同电光火石一般闪过小忆的心头，刹那间，小忆什么都明白了。她慢慢慢慢地蹲下来抱住自己，冷到骨髓的冷之后，她又吐了。 恶心的感觉无论如何也止不住，像是要把五脏六腑都统统吐出来才肯罢休。 “走吧小忆。”蓝把小忆扶起来说，“我陪你去医院看看，不管什么事情，身体好了我们再做打算！” “我去天天家。”小忆努力地站起身来说，“现在就去。” 第四章（8） “看完病再去也不迟。”蓝劝她。 “是她逼死了他！”小忆不能控制地声嘶力竭地喊道，“六十八万，她控制他，六十八万一条人命，无论如何她要负责任！” 蓝慌乱地捂住她的嘴说：“不要瞎讲，小忆你不要瞎讲！” “就是她就是她就是她！”小忆声泪俱下地说，“我真傻，蓝，我真傻，我被人家耍得团团转，我真傻……” “好了好了。”蓝轻轻拍着小忆的背说，“别哭，乖，我替你约她出来见面。” “别告诉刘唱。”小忆气若游丝地说，“这些事，我不想让他知道。” “好的。”蓝说，“不过你得答应我，你要振作，逝者已逝，小忆，要爱自己，保护自己，你这样，相信也不是叶愿意看到的，你说呢？” 小忆点点头，抱住蓝，紧紧的。 她终于见到了她。 在老树咖啡的包厢里，她与她对坐。 有人死了，有她爱过的或是爱过她的人死了，可是她还是老样子，美得那么的不动声色，美得那么吸人眼球，如同什么事都不曾发生。 小忆开门见山地说：“我只想知道为什么？” “他咎由自取。”她说，“我一次次替他补漏洞，他却一次次再犯。” “你乱讲！”小忆呵斥她说，“叶不是那种贪财的人！” “你们究竟了解多少？”她问。 小忆被她问得愣住了。 “他有多少情人你知道吗？他每天要花多少钱你知道吗？他最喜欢抽的烟是什么牌子？喜欢穿的衣服是什么牌子？他心里的渴望和焦虑呢，你又知道多少？”天天妈妈咄咄逼人地问完以后，替自己点了一根烟，又不屑地加上一句：“你只是个孩子而已。” 小忆咬咬牙说：“我会把我知道的一切都告诉警察。” “随你。”她吐出一口烟，很泰然地说，“你有你的权利。” “你不怕吗？”小忆问她。 “不怕。”她神色安然地说。 "Why?" “因为你远远不是我的对手。” 小忆绝望地说：“叶就是这样败在你手下？” “爱是一场战争。”她凄然一笑说，“不过，这种战争往往是没有结局的，就算到了最后，也很难判定谁输谁赢。” “他跟我承认爱上过你。”小忆说，“就算他犯了错，你为什么非要逼他走绝路？” “你错了，我没有逼他。”天天妈妈说，“我说过了，这是他咎由自取。” “他爱过你，因为你，他跟我分手……”小忆痛苦地说。 “你又错了，他没有。”天天妈妈说，“他爱的，只有他自己。” “你真没有心。”小忆绝望地说。 她笑：“是吗？真这样多好。”说完，她站起身来，打开门招呼小姐买单。然后她走回到小忆身边，俯身对她说：“小姑娘，无论如何，我祝你幸福。经过这一些，下次玩爱情游戏的时候，会更得心应手一些。” 小忆“哗”地一下站起来，推翻了桌上的两个杯子，在她离去之前愤然离去。 见小忆走出来，等在门口的蓝连忙迎上来，问她说：“这么快就好了，怎么样？” 小忆摇摇头一句话也不想说。没错，她说得对，她不是她的对手，现在不是，将来也不是，永远不会是。此番见面，小忆已经得到了自己想得到的答案，叶输得可悲，却也是玩火自焚，不值得可怜。 这是他的劫数。从开始的第一天，就注定了这样的结局。 蓝终于说服小忆，把身体虚弱的她带到了医院，检查的结果却犹如晴天霹雳，是小忆无论如何都没有想到的。 She is pregnant. 蓝拿着化验单，咬牙切齿地说，“这个刘唱也太不小心了！” 小忆眼前发花，双腿发软。 蓝抱抱她说：“没事的，亲爱的，我试过，只是疼一下子，很快就好，我们这就做，我来打电话给刘唱。” 小忆按住蓝的手。 “怎么了？”蓝说，“这事不应该让他知道吗？” “我自己跟他说。”小忆说，“现在我们回家，好不好？” “好吧。”蓝说，“也好，你们商量一下，我们明天再来。” 回到家里，刘唱还没有回来，电脑开着，上面是他的留言：“亲爱的，我今晚要唱两场，晚些回，你自己早点睡。” “你看刘唱对你多好。”蓝说，“真让人羡慕。” 小忆关掉电脑，梳洗完毕后躺到床上，对蓝说：“你先回吧，我没事了。” “好吧。”蓝说，“跟他不要吵，我明天一早来接你。” "No noise." Xiao Yi said. 当然不会吵，因为小忆心里清楚地知道，这个孩子和刘唱无关，她和刘唱之间，根本就不是蓝所想像的那种。算起来，他们不过只是有限的几个吻而已。纯白美好到让人嫉妒。 孩子，应该是叶的。 那个晚上，叶进入小忆身体的时候，没有任何的措施。 所以，这是叶的孩子，叶的。 叶走了，留下了他的孩子。 这是爱情曾经来过的唯一凭证。 也是除了小宠之外，叶留给她的唯一纪念。 小忆抚摸着自己的肚子想：如果生下他来，他会是什么样子，会不会和叶一样，有好看的眼和好看的嘴唇，或者是和罗嘉良一样的微笑？ 第四章（9） 电话在深夜里尖锐地响起来。知道自己新号码的人不多，小忆以为是刘唱，接起来竟是S.“小忆。”S说，“你好吗？” 小忆咬着嘴唇不作声。 “这些天在网上都没见到你。不知道为什么，我感觉你很不好，你告诉我，你好吗？”Ｓ在电话那边的语气特别的温柔。 小忆对着电话痛哭失声。 “我在南京。”S说，“刚刚到的。怎么样，要不要见我？” “好。”小忆说。 也许，一切都是命中注定。 在没有想清楚之前，除了离开，小忆不知道还能做些什么。她收拾了简单的行李，在去见Ｓ前，悄悄地来到“SUN”的门口，站在一扇开着的窗外，可以清晰地听见刘唱的歌声，那是一首邓丽君的老歌：GOODBYE MY LOVE 我的爱人，再见，GOODBYE MY LOVE，相见不知哪一天…… 小忆靠着雪白的墙，泪如雨下。 再见，我的爱人，请相信我是爱你的。 只是，这是我们不得不面对且躲也躲不过的分离。 再见，我的爱人，相见不知哪一天…… 开学了。 小忆没有来上学。 没有人知道她去了哪里。 她只通过EMAIL发出了三封信，一封给父母，请求他们原谅自己的任性，并承诺自己一定会对自己负责。一封给蓝，希望她可以定期替她到叶的坟前送上一束鲜花，并祝她和小高幸福。一封给刘唱，她在给刘唱的信中这样写道：“我已不配给你幸福，找个好姑娘，让她替我爱你，这样，我才会安心。” 网络上，开始流行一则寻人启事，那是一所大学里戏文系的学生们自己拍的DV，是系列片，两三天就换一部。吸引了无数人的关注。一个叫刘唱的男生，在DV里用歌声寻找自己的女朋友，用歌声，将他的爱情宣言，大声地告诉全世界：我会等你，无论你在哪里。我会等你，无论发生过些什么，我都不会在乎。爱你永远，此生不渝。 当你孤单的时候，请一定要想起我。 DV片的点击率出乎寻常的高。 刘唱的歌，唱得很多人掉眼泪。 只是，小忆不知道这一切，她跟着Ｓ到了北京。在Ｓ的帮助下，她做掉了那个孩子。Ｓ给她安排了住处，尽他的力量替她接了很多的文字活儿，这样一来，小忆基本上可以自己养活自己。 Ｓ并没有劝小忆一定要回学校去上课。他开始拼命地加班，亲自到外面去推销杂志，越做越拼命。有一次，他对小忆说：“对你来说，文凭不算重要。我们对物质的要求低一点，生活也会很轻松很快乐。” 小忆抬眼看他。 Ｓ当然明白她眼里的诧异，温和地说：“我可以等，没有关系。” Ｓ原来也姓刘，他叫刘思哲。一个小忆喜欢的名字。他每天一个问候的电话，一周来小忆住的地方两三次，收走小忆写的稿子，自己用，或者替她发给各个杂志社的编辑。而小忆自己，并不上网。 秋天来了。北京的秋天和南京有很大的不同，不过这和小忆都没有太大的关系，她极少上街，因为整天关在屋子里，所以在哪里都是一样。 这样的日子是小忆愿意的，至少在目前。把自己藏起来，和过去隔离，藏在无人可以企及的地方，才会觉得安全。 十月的一个午后，S给小忆带来了一张Ｕ盘，插到她的电脑上。 “是什么？”小忆问。 “看看吧。”S说，“小忆，我想得很清楚，我不能这么自私。你应该有你的选择。” 那是网络上正流行的，刘唱寻找她的所有的DV短片。 我会等你，无论你在哪里。我会等你，无论发生过些什么，我都不会在乎。爱你永远，此生不渝。当你孤单的时候，请想起我。 “他在等你。”Ｓ说，“小忆，我也知道，只有他可以给你快乐。有件事我想告诉你，我已经打电话去过你们学校了，只要你现在回去，可以当做一切都没有发生。另外，我把这里的电话告诉你的好朋友蓝了，我想，他们会很快打电话来，并且，来北京接你回去。” “Ｓ。”小忆流着泪说，“你凭什么不征求我的意见就做这些？” “因为我爱你。”Ｓ说，“所以，我要你幸福。” “如果真是这样，我若走了，你还有什么幸福可言？”小忆颤声问道。 “忘掉刘思哲，记住Ｓ，”Ｓ轻轻地抱住她，在她的耳边轻声说，“你要记住，我要你幸福。 ” 电话响了，一声，一声，又一声。 Ｓ放开小忆，鼓励地说：“去接吧，去。” 窗台上的小花正在怒放，过去的爱恨皆已散场，小忆走到电话边，接起电话，那边没有人说话，传来的只是小忆熟悉的歌声：当你孤单你会想起谁，你想不想找个人来陪，你的快乐伤悲，是否有人体会，让我再陪你走一回…… (full text)