Chapter 1 (1) Rao Xueman When you are lonely, who do you think of? Do you want to find someone to accompany you. —— Zhang Dongliang Lan's favorite sentence is: Xue Xiaoyi, you are a happy child. Once upon a time, Xue Xiaoyi's happiness was visible to many people.She has a handsome boyfriend who works in the IT industry. He picks her up at school every weekend and sends her back with a large bag of snacks. She is the envy of many girls. But, that was all in the past. On Saturday, Lan yawned and sat up from the upper bunk. She leaned forward, patted the side of the bed curiously and said, "Xiao Yi, what's wrong with you, did you quarrel with Ye?"

"No." Xue Xiaoyi sat at the table reading while biting a biscuit, and said vaguely, "He's busy recently." "You have to be careful." Lan said, "When a man is busy, there must be something wrong." Lan is a well-known love expert in the whole school, Xiao Yi put away the book with her back to her and said, "Go on to sleep, I'm going to the Internet cafe, someone is waiting for me." "It's your virtual lover again?" Lan chuckled, "You should examine him and Ye carefully, and whoever is better will take up the post."

Xiao Yi stood up, stretched her arms, patted Lan's head and said, "You're going to talk nonsense, I'm leaving, I'm going to spend a day in the Internet cafe today." After leaving the school gate, Xiao Yi took the bus to go to the Internet cafe alone. In fact, there are quite a lot of Internet cafes near the school, but Xiao Yi likes the Internet cafe not far from Ye's house. There are few people and quiet. Although the charges are more expensive, she is willing.There were no seats on the bus, and her thin fingers were holding the rings. Two middle school girls kept staring at her blue bracelet.It was a gift that Ye gave her when he came back from a business trip to Qingdao. It was a blue chain with two blood-red hearts hanging on it. It was very special.Xiao Yi quietly pulled down the sleeves of her clothes to hide it.The female middle school student was not angry, but cooed.One of them hit the other on the head and said loudly: "I like to ask your boyfriend to give you a ride."

The other said indifferently: "I've already blown it up, can I ask your boyfriend to give it to me?" The two laughed haha, completely ignoring the eyes of the people in the car. Xue Xiaoyi got off the bus at the next stop. She didn't have such a flamboyant youth. When she was sixteen or seventeen, she had been studying hard, tearing up the notes written by boys and throwing them into the trash can.I ran all over the city to buy a reference book, my eyes were red and swollen from memorizing English words, and I cried so hard every time I failed a test. When I was nineteen years old, I met him on a train in a soft sleeper.I fell ill during the Spring Festival, and the high fever had just subsided. My father sent her to the car and told her worriedly: "Find a classmate to pick you up at the station. This is medicine, and you have to take it every four hours."

Said the same thing about four times. Xiao Yi nodded and said, "Okay, okay." Dad said: "Then I'm leaving, and if I have anything to do, I will ask the conductor." Xiao Yi shyly pushed her father away: "Hurry up, hurry up, the car is about to start." After her father left, Xiao Yi started to read.Ye is sitting opposite her, he is also reading, Xiao Yi is watching Baby Anne, and he is reading "Fred the Postman".She noticed that he looked at her occasionally, but didn't speak.Until the fourth hour, he suddenly reminded her, "You should take your medicine."

Xiao Yi took the medicine in her hand, looked at it, and put it back again. He said, "Are all girls afraid of taking medicine?" "If you want to take it, take it!" Seeing his eager eyes, Xiao Yi handed the medicine in front of him mischievously. "I'm not sick." He said helplessly. "You are sick!" Xiao Yi raised her eyebrows. He held up the book in both hands in a gesture of surrender. For the next ten hours, the two were silent again.When the conductor came to change the ticket when she was about to arrive in Nanjing, she couldn't find the little red sign. He smiled and pointed to the small pocket on her jacket. When he took it out, it was indeed inside.

This man really started to pay attention to her secretly from the moment he got in the car. The two got out of the car together, he was empty-handed, and she struggled to carry a big box, which contained the clothes she would wear for a semester and the books she liked to read.He held out his hand to her and said, "I'll come." Xiao Yi put the box on the ground, biting her little fingernails, and said with some embarrassment: "It's quite heavy." He smiled and said, "So I'll come." That day, he kept sending her to the gate of the school and asked her, "Are you alone in Nanjing?"

"Yes." "Learn what?" "Department of drama and literature," she said, "a useless major." "Where," he said, "human spiritual food is provided by you." Xiao Yi already has a crush on him, and she blinked mischievously: "How do you know if you are being sarcastic?" He reacted quickly and said: "Then the male lead in the next play will write about me, so satirize me!" After finishing speaking, he took out his business card and said, "I'm lonely in Nanjing, you can come to play with me when you have nothing to do. "

Judging from his accent, he should be a native of Nanjing. "Okay." Xiao Yi said, "Let's go take the train again when we have nothing to do." He laughed, and then said: "If you are sick, you have to take medicine, and you are a good boy who takes medicine." After speaking, he left. Xiao Yi looked at his business card. His surname was Ye, and he worked in an IT company, so he should have a good job. After the start of the new semester, Xiao Yi almost forgot about this person, and the business card was thrown away like waste paper by Lan during a dormitory cleaning, but she didn't expect to meet him again when she was visiting the bookstore a few months later.In a very small private bookstore, the hot weather is so hot that people are going crazy, Xiao Yi is holding an ice cream in her hand, the owner reminds her unhappy: "Don't get it on the book, be careful!"

She turned to leave very unhappy, someone behind her held her back and said, "It's you?" It was him. Chapter 1 (2) Where in life do not meet. He invited her to Haagen-Dazs.Xiao Yi buried her face in the expensive ice cream and laughed.He said seriously: "Why are you laughing, you girl, I always thought you would call me." "I lost my business card." Xiao Yi said. "Missing things!" he said. "I really didn't expect to meet you." Xiao Yi said with a smile, "You are more handsome than in winter." "Haha." He also laughed, and said seriously after laughing, "You are thinner than in winter, I thought about it for a long time, and decided to call you."

He was wearing a light blue shirt, and he looked at Xiao Yi with eyes full of love and affection. No boy has seen herself like this, Xiao Yi turned her face away and blushed. Then he made up his mind and said: "I can't live up to this fate." "What?" Xiao Yi turned her head and asked him. "I mean..." he paused, "I mean it's good to have you as my girlfriend, I've always wanted a girlfriend like you." Xiao Yi's heart was beating wildly, and she used a spoon to pound the ice cream back and forth. After a long time of pounding, she said, "You thought you were writing a script?" He said confidently, "You can think about it for three minutes." Three minutes later, Xiao Yi pushed the already smashed ice cream in front of him and said, "Eat it, and I will agree to think about it." He ate without saying a word, wiped his mouth with a paper towel after eating, and said, "Look, I'm really not that picky man, haha." The way he smiles is a bit like Luo Jialiang, a Hong Kong actor that Xiao Yi likes more.But Xiao Yi's liking for Luo Jialiang has nothing to do with his appearance, she just likes the way he loves girls in every play, never speaks out when he is wronged, and is always stupid to the end when he meets someone she likes. I don't know if Ye is also like this? "Fantasy." Lan scolded her when she found out, "Be careful of being cheated of money and sex by others!" "I don't have any money, so I'll just settle for sex." Xiao Yi said, "Maybe he's the one who lost money." Love is such a sudden thing. From the beginning to the slow progress, every detail is incredible.In Ye Xiaoxiao's apartment, he hugged her, put his chin against her long hair and said, "Xiao Yi, I have been waiting for you for so long, we will be together forever." Xiao Yi tilted her head and asked him, "How long is a lifetime?" "As long as you want." "Yeah, how much do you love me?" "You little girl who likes to ask questions," Ye sat upright and said, "You are a literati, or I will tell you a fairy tale." "Okay, okay." Xiao Yi put her head on his knee. Ye said seriously: "The little rabbit is going to bed; it is holding the big rabbit's long ears tightly, and wants the big rabbit to listen to it carefully." "Guess how much I love you?" asked the little bunny. "Oh! I probably can't figure it out." The big rabbit said with a smile. "I love you so much." The little bunny opened his arms as far as they could go. Big Rabbit has longer arms. He opened it up and said, "But, I love you so much." The little rabbit moved his right ear and thought: Well, this is really a lot. "I love you, it's as high as I lift it, it can't be higher." The little rabbit said, pushing up with both arms. "I love you as high as I can lift, as high as I can lift," Big Rabbit said too. Oh, thought Little Rabbit, that's too bad, and he's taller than me. The little rabbit had another good idea. It put its feet on the tree trunk and stood upside down.He said: "I love you to the tip of my toes so much." Big Rabbit grabbed Little Rabbit's hand, threw it up higher than its head, and said, "I love you to your toes." Little Rabbit cried out, "I love you till I cross the path, far beyond the river." Big Rabbit said, "I love you all the way across the river and beyond the mountains." The little rabbit thought, that's really far away.It rubbed its red eyes, and began to feel sleepy, unable to think; it looked up at the big black night behind the bushes, and felt that there was nothing further than the sky. The big rabbit gently hugged the yawning little rabbit. The little rabbit closed its eyes and murmured, "I love you from here to the moon" before falling asleep. "Oh! so far," said Big Hare. "Very far indeed, very far." The big rabbit gently put the little rabbit on the bed of leaves, bowed his head, kissed it, and wished it good night. Then, the big rabbit lay down beside the little rabbit, and said with a small smile, "I love you from here to the moon and... around and back." When Ye was telling the story, his voice was slow and steady, and Xiao Yi's tears flowed down like that, which startled Ye. Ye took out a tissue, wiped away her tears with a smile, and asked knowingly: "Why? Will you cry?" "Where did you find this story, you villain?" "I saw it on the Internet." Ye said honestly, "Try to write it down and tell you." "It's very long." Xiao Yi said, "I wouldn't necessarily remember it." "I want to please you." Ye hehe smiled, hugged her a little tighter and said, "I am a big rabbit, and you are a little rabbit, so I must love you more than you love me." Later, this story became Xiao Yi's "bedtime story".If you stayed at Ye's place on the weekend, Ye would pat her on the face and say, "Go to sleep, I love you, from here to the moon, and then... around back." It's only a year. Giving has become so reserved. Xiao Yi pushed open the door of the Internet cafe and walked in. The Internet cafe was full of people. After finally waiting for a computer, Xiao Yi went online. On QQ, she said to S: "S, I have failed." Chapter 1 (3) "Beijing is really hot." S said, "Where are you?" Because of work, S is always on the Internet. He has known Xiao Yi for many years, and he is the best listener. No matter what Xiao Yi says, he has the ability to talk about it, as if he didn't hear it. "I feel like we're breaking up." "What are you planning to write to me recently?" "Are you listening?" "exist." "Is it because I don't feel new about him anymore?" "Xiao Yi, are you crying?" S suddenly asked. "I'm not crying now, I've cried before." "You must look good when you cry, don't you?" "I don't know. I never look in the mirror when I cry." "Okay. I guess it must be pretty. I like to see girls cry~" "S, hello BT." "Ok." "I failed, you BT." "Well. Are we a match made in heaven?" After talking nonsense with S, the depression in my heart subsided a lot. S played a song for her on the Internet. It was a male voice that sounded very lonely: "I was seriously injured. Leaving is just a cure. Let go and escape from the shore of sadness. It's a pity The only thing is that I didn't find a prescription for numbness. If you stay for one more minute, you will feel pain for one more minute. I should learn how to forget..." Xiao Yi snorted and said: "S you are uneasy and kind, you will make things worse." "I add Dabao SOD honey. It is good to use it." With tears in her eyes, Xiao Yi laughed haha. S said: "By the way, your last manuscript was banned by our boss. The writing is fine, but he said it was too decadent." "You tell him I'm broken in love." "Long live broken love, long live, long live." "I don't seem to be able to write anymore." "Okay, take a break." "It will be useless if you rest." "I'll give it." S said. "S, actually I just want someone to love me like he used to. I'm a person who needs a lot of love." "It hurts you." S said. "S is a good man." Xiao Yi wiped away the tears from the corner of her eyes and said, "I will write a good manuscript in the future, so I will give it to you." "It's vulgar, isn't it?" S said, "It makes me feel like selling myself for a manuscript!" "Hahaha." Only S can make Xiao Yi laugh uncontrollably. "That's right." S said, "Just be happy." Xiao Yi touched her cheek subconsciously.It was an early summer afternoon, maybe he was really busy, maybe he was with other women, maybe he really shouldn't care so much. S' profile picture darkened.Xiao Yi also kept her own secrets and wrote novels.About an hour later, S suddenly asked, "Do you want to go out and play?" "Where?" "I went to Wuhan to see the cherry blossoms. I heard that they bloom very beautifully." "Who are there?" S thought for a while and said, "I'm dating you right now." "I'll think about it." Xiao Yi said. "Okay." S said, "But to remind you, the cherry blossoms won't bloom for too long." Xiao Yi didn't reply anymore, this sudden invitation gave her a strange impulse to agree to S, she felt that she urgently needed to go out for a walk, just like the song S sang: I was seriously injured , leaving is just a cure. "Okay." Xiao Yi said, "I'll see you in Wuhan next weekend." S sent a smiling expression. The most common emoji in QQ. Back at school that day, Lan handed over a courier and said, "Xiao Yi, your courier will arrive as soon as you leave." Xiao Yi took it and found that the signature was actually Ye.Thin, it should be just a letter. In the same city, what express delivery? Lan joked, "Yo, love delivery?" Xiao Yi hesitated to tear it apart, a certain ominous premonition made her heart thump. "Open it." Lan urged. Xiao Yi opened it and found that there was indeed a text message and a key to the door in the express mail. Ye said in the letter: "Xiao Yi: I'm going on a business trip to study in Beijing for a month. I leave the key to you so that you can use the computer so that you can feed my little pet for me. Also, take care of yourself." I'm going on a business trip for a month. Such an understatement. Looking at the letter, Xiao Yi felt sad, and finally couldn't help it, sobbing on the table. She didn't understand whether Ye really didn't know or was fake. In these days when she couldn't get affirmation and was ignored indefinitely, she couldn't bear it for even a minute. "It's okay." Lan grabbed the letter and glanced at it, patted her on the shoulder to comfort her and said, "Are all men so careless? One month will pass in a flash. By then, Xiaobie will be better than a newlywed. I'm afraid It's too sweet for you to bear." "If you're tired, just cut it off, why bother?!" Xiao Yi said angrily with tears in her eyes. "I'm not Ye, it's useless for you to get mad at me and act like a spoiled child!" Lan laughed, "Stop crying, Xiao Yi, let's go, I'll take you to the DUCK rehearsal, that lead singer, don't be too cool." DUCK is a well-known band in the school. Xiao Yi has seen the lead singer. He has an unusually clean and pure voice. He is one level higher than Xiao Yi and the others. His name is Liu Chang. Taking such a name seems like a natural gift It exists just to sing. Liu Chang is quite handsome, and many girls in the department are his followers. "I decided to pursue Liu Chang." Lan announced to Xiao Yi on the way to listen to the song. Xiao Yi was startled: "He has a girlfriend." Liu Chang's girlfriend is from a foreign department. She is a very good girl. She is the bass player of DUCK. I heard that she is the most foul-speaking girl in the school.I also heard that Liu Chang was quite afraid of her. "Fair competition." Lan said, "So, you have to cheer me up and stir up the flames for me later, and praise me to the fullest, remember?" Chapter 1 (4) "Don't, don't, I'm afraid I won't be able to do it." Xiao Yi quickly evaded, "I'm not in any mood right now." "Yeah." Lan said angrily, "You will lose your soul if you leave Ye." "Really?" Xiao Yi raised her eyebrows, satisfying Lan with the sadness that crossed her heart. "Hey, I really like him." Lan patted his chest and said, "I'm getting nervous now." It seems that just a month ago, Lan was still hesitating whether to meet that netizen in Hainan, but now, she has focused on Liu Chang, and as long as her love is not finalized, she can change freely. It's a pity that my love is already a bad cold, and Ye's care and love are the only good medicine. Without these, I can only be in a trance and waver all day long. When she walked to the door, Xiao Yi finally received a short message from Ye, five words: I'm here, don't read. Xiao Yi couldn't help calling, Ye said: "What's the matter, Xiao Yi, did you receive the express mail?" "Why does it take a month?" Xiao Yi said, "Why didn't you make a phone call before leaving?" Ye was silent for a while, as if he didn't know how to answer.Xiao Yi's heart softened immediately, and she said in a low tone: "Come back early, and have a good time outside." "Okay." Ye looked relieved. "Then I'll hang up." Xiao Yi said. "Okay." Ye said, "I'll call you when I'm free." Lan looked at Xiao Yi's pale face and said, "What's wrong?" "It's nothing." Xiao Yi said, "Go and listen to the music, I have something else to do." After speaking, she ignored Lan's shout and ran away.She went to Ye's apartment. Ye is the kind of clean man, and his apartment is as spotless as the others.The sheets should have been freshly changed and the soap smelled fresh.Xiao Yi leaned her face against the pillow, as if she could smell Ye's familiar scent, that was the man she loved so much, he was crazy at work, and when he fell asleep, he breathed as sweetly as a baby. I remember that at the hottest moment, Ye asked her to move in with him more than once.Xiao Yi has always refused, just because she doesn't want to proceed too quickly.But it seems to be too fast, like a long novel written by a novice who is holding his feet. The story has just reached its climax, and it ends inexplicably. Xiao Chong is a yellow goldfish with a golden yellow body.After Ye bought it back, he stared at it whenever he had time, for fear that it would die, and took care of it meticulously.The name Xiao Chong was named by Xiao Yi, and Xiao Yi said sourly: "Ye loves you so much, you should call him Xiao Chong." "Every pet is pet." Ye laughed, hugged Xiao Yi and said, "Xiao Chong, what a good name." At this moment, Xiao Chong, whose owner is not at home, is still swimming happily in the water. Xiao Yi gives it fish food, thinking, it is better to be a fish like Xiao Chong, so that there will be no pain and sorrow of lovesickness up. Ye has a laptop, but he basically doesn’t use it. He said that he is always facing the computer at work, and when he sees the computer after get off work, he will feel that he is still at work, so Ye doesn’t play QQ. Many Sundays, Ye sleeps in and Xiao Yi opens Writing on QQ, writing makes Xiao Yi feel free, and some imagined twists and turns of the plot seem to make her love moist and full of expectations.But Ye seldom reads Xiao Yi's stuff, and only occasionally asks, "Did the hero write about me?" Xiao Yi held the magazine and asked with a smile, "What do you think?" "Of course I have." Ye said confidently, "Who else can I write about if I don't?" Sometimes, Xiao Yi used the royalties to buy gifts for Ye, such as a nice-looking Gillette razor, or a dark blue tie, or a handy wallet.Ye Hui hugged her exaggeratedly and said: "Wow, Xiao Yi can also make money, and I can enjoy myself." "S said, in fact, you can earn a lot of money by writing. You can buy a house or a car..." "Who is S?" Ye asked. "An editor." Xiao Yi said, "I often publish articles in his magazine, and he always pays me the highest manuscript fee, which is very generous." "Haha." Ye said while drinking the coffee that Xiao Yi made for him, "Could it be that he's in love with you?" "Are you jealous?" Xiao Yi tilted her head and asked, hoping that he would answer: Yes. But Ye said, "No, no, hehe, not at all." Xiao Yi lay on Ye's shoulder and asked, "Ye, don't you love me too much?" "What are you talking about!" Ye said, rubbing her hair, "You silly girl is talking stupid things!" At this moment, the laptop is lying quietly, and Ye Wu's home looks extraordinarily empty and deserted.Fortunately, there is a S.S who is always online and never knows, but he actually comforts Xiao Yi all the time. The magazine made by S is very beautiful. Xiao Yi originally thought that there would be dozens of people working hard for it. After getting to know S, she realized that there are only three editors. S is the chief editor.There is also a boss at the top who does not work and is only responsible for shooting manuscripts.The three of them supported this kind of sky, and the magazine sold quite well. It is not an exaggeration at all for S to describe himself as "painful and painstaking". Xiao Yi remembered the invitation about the cherry blossoms during the day, she wanted to say something to S, but she didn't know how to say it, so she stared at S's head in a daze. Just then, the phone rang.Xiao Yi rushed to the phone excitedly, but her hands froze in mid-air, it couldn't be Ye, he wouldn't know that he was at his house at this time, so he definitely wouldn't call back. Xiao Yi never answered Ye's private calls. A few seconds later, Ye's voice came out: I'm Champ, I'm not at home now, please leave a message for me. "I'm Lian, when you come out to play, call me." Over there was a cheerful girl who hurriedly finished speaking and then hung up. lotus? Xiao Yi didn't remember that Ye had such a friend.Seeing the little pet happily swimming up to catch prey in the transparent fish tank, he desperately comforted himself in his heart and said, "Xiao Yi, you can't be jealous." Chapter 1 (5) Who knew that the phone rang again just as I sat back in front of the computer. "Champ, the photos from the outing have been developed, when will you come to get them? Or I'll drive them to you before you come back." It was still a female voice, and she didn't report her family name, it must be because she knew who she was without reporting Ye.outing?When Ye is free for an outing, doesn't he always shout that he is getting busier and has no time to smoke?Xiao Yi found that she really didn't understand Ye's life more and more. Such an unexpected distance made her feel discouraged and desperate. Xiao Yi grabbed her bag and ran away, afraid of another phone call, afraid of hearing the voice of a strange woman ringing in Ye's room again.As soon as she went out, the phone rang, and Xiao Yi picked it up, it was Lan. "Come here if you're a friend!" Lan said without any discussion, "I'll wait for you in the lecture theater, come anyway you say! Otherwise, I'll turn my back on you!" After Lan shouted, he hung up the phone. When Xiao Yi arrived, the rehearsal had already started, and Liu Chang was singing a song that Xiao Yi had never heard before. The song had beautiful lyrics that Xiao Yi couldn't bear to listen to: Didn't we agree to travel far away to see how big the world is? I agreed to watch the movie Roman Holiday and read a lot of books about travel. I thought it was agreed that we would work hard together. I have never doubted and believed that no matter how far the distance is, we can get closer step by step. What happened to make you Later, I gave up the TV and played the detailed MV to wake up all my memories. My heart can’t rest. You don’t know. In my heart, Lan was applauding vigorously, shaking with the music. Xiao Yi froze there, the music was playing loudly, but when the love gradually and unstoppably faded away, who would care if the person he once loved was so hurt by a sad love song that he couldn't move? Who will stand still and never leave? "Does it sound good?" Lan turned her head and asked Xiao Yi. "Whose song is it?" "This Song by Zhang Dongliang." Lan said. "I'm going back to the dormitory." Xiao Yi said suddenly, "I'm very sleepy." "Listen!" Lan grabbed Xiao Yi's shoulder and said, "How can such a good music be missed!" "I said I'm going back to the dormitory!" Xiao Yi raised her voice and said, "Don't always force others to make things difficult for you, okay?" "NND." Lan was so angry that she uttered foul words, "What's wrong with you? Could it be that you can't live without a man? Look at yourself dead, what's the difference between dead and dead!" The two quarreled so badly that the music on the stage stopped. Lan raised her hands in a gesture of apology, and shouted loudly, "Hey hey hey, the two sisters were joking, don't mind." The bass player's hair was dyed very red, and she should be Liu Chang's girlfriend. She said with a tiger face: "Everyone who comes to listen to the music, please be quiet. If you are arguing like this, let's arrange it." ?” "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Lan continued to apologize, looking quite obedient. "It's not good to look at it!" The woman made an inch of it. "Hey, sisters don't talk like that, right?" Lan started to get a little angry. The woman suddenly threw Bess on the ground, and after a dull bang, she jumped off the stage of the lecture theater and jumped in front of them aggressively: "You teach me how to speak, ah, you teach!" Seeing that something was wrong, Liu Chang also followed, dragged the woman along and said, "Sister A Sen, what are you fussing about with the little sisters, come on, continue to line up." The one called Sister Asen angrily shook off Liu Chang's hold on her hand and said, "KAO, you've got a younger sister sitting underneath, are you excited? Look at your kitsch look when you sing!" "Hey, big sister." Lan said, "You can just scold me, but there is no reason for you to scold brother Liu Chang." "Brothers and sisters are very affectionate." Asen looked at Lan, then at Xiao Yi, and hummed, "What kind of lady do you pretend to be? Let me tell you, men like you won't really like you. His mother is the life of an abandoned wife!" "What did you say?" Xiao Yi stopped Lan who was about to jump up, and asked her with a cold face. "Are you deaf or something?" A Sen also looked at Xiao Yi coldly. Xiao Yi raised her hand and slapped her without saying a word. The slap was so fast and sudden that the one named Asen couldn't stand still for a long time, and the blue eyeballs were about to fall out. Asen came back to his senses and rushed towards Xiao Yi, but was blocked by Liu Chang. "Run!" Lan grabbed Xiao Yi and was about to run outside. "What are you running for!" Xiao Yi yelled angrily, "Fighting, who is afraid of whom!" "Hahaha..." Liu Chang and the boys on the stage might not have seen girls fight, so they couldn't help laughing.Xiao Yi picked up a chair next to her and threw it on the ground: "Whoever laughs again, I will hit whoever laughs again!" "I always say don't let people in during rehearsals, look at the crazy things you put in!" Asen pointed at Liu Chang's nose and cursed, "Your fucking brain is broken or something!" Liu Chang also got angry, and he pushed Asen and said: "You are shameless for giving you face, aren't you? If you don't want to do it, you can get out!" "Hahaha." This time it was Lan's turn, laughing like convulsions. As a result, Lan got his wish, A Sen ran away in anger, and the rehearsal was ruined.Liu Chang said respectfully: "I'll invite my two younger sisters to drink coffee." They came out of the lecture theater, the wind blowing hard.Lan poked Xiao Yi's waist excitedly and said, "Hey hey hey, it's so smooth, it's all thanks to your slap." Xiao Yi said in a low voice: "Please, I won't go for coffee, and you don't want me to be a light bulb, right?" "Hey hey." Lan said with her hands clasped, "You are such a good and understanding girl. Thank you for your fulfillment." Chapter 1 (6) "I wish you success soon." Xiao Yi said sincerely. When turning around, Xiao Yi heard Liu Chang asking Lan: "Hey, why doesn't she go?" "Oh, she has a cold and needs to go back to the dormitory to rest." Lan lied without thinking. On weekends, there is no one in the dormitory, and everyone is either enjoying youth or love.Xiao Yi felt uncomfortable, and then her stomach started to hurt again.I lay on the bed for two hours without falling asleep, fearing that I would be too hungry to fall asleep at night, so I put on my coat and prepared to go out to eat a bowl of noodles.Walking out of the girls' dormitory, I saw someone standing in the corner smoking a cigarette, the red cigarette butt flickered on and off. Nowadays, there are not many boys who are willing to wait so infatuatedly. Xiao Yi walked past emotionally, but the man grabbed her sleeve.Said in a slightly hoarse voice: "Hi, finally waiting for you." Xiao Yi was taken aback because that person was none other than Liu Chang. Startled for a second, Xiao Yi quickly pushed Liu Chang away. "Do you know who I am most grateful to now?" Liu Chang asked, but before Xiao Yi answered, he replied, "I am most grateful to my Chinese teacher in elementary school, thank her for teaching me the idiom 'waiting for a rabbit', no Thinking of it would really come in handy.” "Heh." Xiao Yi couldn't laugh or cry, "Where's Lan?" "She's drunk too much, and she's playing boxing games with some of my buddies." "You! Didn't you say you drink coffee? Why are you drinking again?" "Does she want to drink herself?" Liu Chang said, "but thank God, if she doesn't drink, I won't be able to leave." That's true, Lan is a person who likes to create an atmosphere, and when he gets excited, he often can't control himself.But Xiao Yi still didn't understand and asked Liu Chang: "You don't drink with her, what are you doing here?" Liu Chang said seriously: "I suddenly wanted to see you, so I came here. I didn't know your phone number or whether you were there, so I waited here." "No way." Xiao Yi laughed, she didn't believe what Liu Chang said at all. But Liu Chang grabbed her sleeve again and said, "Go, the moonlight is beautiful tonight, my buddy will go for a walk with you." Xiao Yi threw him away again, and said angrily, "I think you may have found the wrong partner. I'm not the kind of girl who likes to joke around." "Just like to slap people?" Liu Chang asked with a smile.At that moment, Xiao Yi suspected that he was seeking revenge for his girlfriend because of that slap, so she stopped talking and walked around him.But Liu Chang strode forward to stop her and said, "Since I have been waiting for you for seventy-three minutes and eighteen seconds, can you wait until I finish talking before leaving?" "Tell me." Xiao Yi took a step back and looked at him coldly, "I've already been beaten, so why don't you want to slap me back to vent her anger?" "Hahaha." Under the moonlight, Liu Chang's skin looked a little pale, and he laughed like a thief.He is really tall, even if Xiao Yi stood up straight, she couldn't reach his chest. "Xue Xiaoyi." Liu Chang scratched his head and said, "Why did you give yourself such a weird name? It feels a bit like a heroine." Xiao Yi didn't answer, but said, "If you don't call, I'm leaving." "A talented woman with one of the best drama coefficients." Liu Chang said, "I've heard about it a long time ago, but seeing it once is better than hearing it a hundred times." "It can't compare to your reputation." Xiao Yi said teasingly, "I'm the top playboy in the whole school. "How dare, how dare." Liu Chang clasped his fists and said, "Young master wants to date a talented woman, I wonder if Sansheng will be so lucky?" "No." Xiao Yi replied simply. "Why?" I met a cow who was convinced of death. Xiao Yi put her face down and said seriously: "I said Liu Chang, if you want to go crazy, you should go to Lan. My stomach hurts to death, and I have to go back to the dormitory and lie down." "The more you lie down, the more it hurts." Liu Chang said, "There is no one in the lecture theater now, why don't we go there and I'll sing for you?" Liu Chang's tone sounded very sincere, and he was completely different from the proud him in the legend.Xiao Yi's heart softened a little, so she said, "I'm sorry, let's try another day, I really don't have much strength today." "No way!" Liu Chang said, "You and your boyfriend reconcile some other day, so why don't I stop eating?" Xiao Yi couldn't help but laugh: "What are you listening to Lan talking about?" "I never listen to others, I only trust my own eyes." Liu Chang pointed to his own eyes and said, "From the expression on your face when you listened to my singing today, and the ruthlessness when you slapped someone, I knew it must be There was a man who broke your heart." "Liu Chang, don't be self-righteous." Xiao Yi was upset, turned her head and left. This time Liu Chang did not stop her, but whistled softly behind her, a tune that was very familiar but could not be named, the whistling sounded beautifully behind Xiao Yi, until she I went up to the third floor and pushed open the door of the dormitory, as if it was still lingering in my ears. It was past one o'clock when Lan came back that night, she was obviously drunk, broke in through the door, and cursed at the dormitory administrator inarticulately: "Bastard, Obasan, I knocked on the door for ten minutes before it opened for me! " Xiao Yi jumped up from the bed, lit a candle, Fu Lan sat down and said, "You, why do you drink like this?" "One is worth ten!" Lan raised her ten fingers and laughed, the candlelight reflected her silver-painted nails, making her look very ghostly.Xiao Yi pressed her hand down and said, "Okay, go to bed soon, it's not good to wake everyone up." “他妈的！”蓝趁着酒劲儿大喊，指甲掐进小忆的肉里，“老子喝了这么多，他却说他不喜欢我这种类型的。你说，我这类型就算不是倾国倾城至少也算个风华绝代吧，那笨鸟怎么就这么没眼光呢？” 宿舍里已经有女生被吵醒，不停地翻身表示着不满。蓝还在絮絮叨叨：“他妈的，给他脸不要脸，真以为本小姐真是嫁不出去的主儿？” 怕蓝疯起来没个完，小忆只好用劲把蓝拖到了露台上。刘唱说得没错，这是一个月亮很圆很大的初夏之夜，月光被打着旋的风吹薄了，淡淡地映在露台上。由于身上只着一层薄衫，小忆被冻得一激灵，蓝也有些醒了，抚着双颊说：“有点冷。” 第一章（7） “我去加件衣服。”小忆对蓝说，“你在这里吹吹风，把酒吹醒了再说。” 等小忆加好衣服出来，蓝已经趴在露台上哭了起来。她的哭声并不大，但身体抽动得厉害，像是害了某种很厉害的疟疾。 月光，不可思议的美，把蓝的泪照成晶莹的琥珀。 小忆走到她身后，也替蓝披上一件薄袄，只是轻轻地拍着她的背，并不劝她。 蓝却转过身来抱住小忆说：“小忆小忆，他当我的面说要追求你。那些男生笑得唏里哗拉，我把自尊揣到口袋里，笑得比他们还要猛。怎么样，我够不够酷？” “他神经的。”小忆说，“你白痴啊，人家逗你玩儿你也当真！” “不不，我知道他说的是真的。”蓝的嘴里喷着酒气，固执地说，“这个世上真的有一见钟情呢，真的呢！” 小忆忽然觉得厌恶，她一把推开蓝说：“你也神经的，喝这么多酒，讲这么多无聊的话做什么！” “嘿嘿。”蓝诡秘地笑起来，可是她并没有止住哭，眼泪仍不断地从她脸上滴落。蓝就这样哭着笑着地把手握成拳头竖到小忆面前说，“采访一下，您老现在是不是特得意？” “蓝，你再这样我生气。” 蓝终于不顾一切地哈哈大笑起来。笑完后，她吐了。 小忆叹口气说：“你先进去吧，我来收拾这里。” “走开！”蓝大声地呵斥她说，“走开！让我安静一会儿！” 小忆走了，把蓝一个人留在露台上，她回到床上，把CD随身听的声音开得老大，把整个身子都缩到被子里。女歌手嘶哑独特的嗓子在唱：“叶子，是不会飞翔的翅膀；翅膀，是落在天上的叶子……” 想念叶，想他把自己紧紧地搂在怀里，说：“叶的本职就是守护花啊。” 可是这些乱七八糟的日子里，守护的天使却不知去向何方。 叶，小忆在心里说：“叶，你到底在哪里？会不会也在想我？” 那晚，小忆并不知道蓝是何时从露台回宿舍睡觉的。清晨醒来的时候，她拿着扫帚和拖把来到露台，却发现露台是干净的，蓝在上铺扬着沙哑的声音说：“亲爱的小忆，我想喝水。” 小忆放下手里的家伙，倒了一杯白开水递给蓝。蓝咕噜咕噜地喝下去，把空杯子递还给小忆说：“哥们儿，我昨晚是不是喝高了？” “你说呢？”小忆无可奈何地笑。 “唉！”蓝从床上利落地跳下来说，“十个男生灌我啊，你没见我昨天那个惨烈状，好不容易才活着回来的。” “以后别跟那些人混了。”小忆说，“那样的喝法，没准真把小命儿给丢掉。” “生活太乏味，闹着玩玩呗。”蓝苍白着脸，满不在乎地挥挥手。 “你怎么样？脸色不太好呢。”小忆关心地问。 蓝表情痛苦地捂着胸口：“今天周末你有何节目？” “今天要办系报，”小忆说，“哪里也去不了。” “去吧，主编大人。”蓝倒在小忆床上说：“俺哪儿也不去了，继续睡觉的伟大事业。现在也爬不动了，就呆在你窝里吧。” 小忆办完系报已经是中午，自己胡乱吃了点东西，又在小食堂里打了点稀粥，准备送去给蓝吃，蓝却不知去向何方，她睡过的小忆的枕头上，放着一个塑料袋，小忆打开来，发现里面是四盒“斯达舒”。还有一张纸条，上面写着一行字：胃疼的时候，请“四大叔”帮帮你的忙。 署名是刘唱。 小忆把纸条捏在手里，捏成一个小小的团，扔到了垃圾堆里。 然后，她坐到床边，拨通了叶的电话。叶好像很忙，说话的时候哼哼哈哈。扯了些无聊的话，小忆终于低声说：“我这些天不太好。” “怎么了？”叶有些吃惊的样子。 小忆有些艰难地说：“我们……是不是出了什么问题？” “别瞎想。”叶说，“我正忙，回头复你，好吗？” "not good." 那边沉默了几秒后，传来的是电话被挂断之后的忙音。小忆觉得五脏六腑都被掏空，呆呆地捏着手机，直到短消息的“嘀”声响起。 “你的手机一直不通，胃好些么？” 是刘唱。 小忆没理，两分钟后他拨小忆的手机，小忆把它按掉了。 他的短消息又来：“爱是一场战争，我不怕受伤只怕你不快乐。” “下午没事，陪我喝咖啡吧。”小忆想了想，回。 “好，两点整。咱老树咖啡见：）” 午后的咖啡馆寂寞冷清。小忆去的时候刘唱早已经坐在那里等候，他穿灰白色的休闲衬衫，见小忆走近，连忙笑着站起来欠身对她说：“恭候多时。” “你知道蓝去了哪里？”小忆问。 刘唱油嘴滑舌：“我现在一颗心都吊在你身上，哪里能顾及他人。” “其实蓝特脆弱。”小忆坐下说，“您行行好，别拿她开胃。” “您也行行好，睁大眼多发现我的优点，行不？” “我说正经的呢。” 刘唱把左手举起来做发誓状：“我哪一句不正经天诛地灭。” 小忆看着刘唱笑嘻嘻的样子问：“你到底想干吗？” 刘唱蛮不讲理地说：“你一巴掌打走了我的女朋友，所以，你得做我的女朋友，不然我多寂寞啊。” 第一章（8） “你蛮不讲理。”小忆哭笑不得。 “蛮不讲理的男生才有气质嘛。”刘唱嘻笑着说，却又很快正经下来问，“你相不相信一见钟情呢？” “我连天长地久都不信。”小忆有些赌气地说。 “那你太悲观了。”刘唱替她的咖啡加上一粒糖说，“爱情还是很甜美的，我会慢慢证明给你看。” 甜言蜜语。 叶有多久没对自己说过甜言蜜语？ “想什么？”刘唱察言观色。 “没。”小忆说。 “我会心理学你信不信？”刘唱问。 "Do not believe." “那我就随便说说，你听着就行了，反正也无聊，你看呢？” 小忆点点头。 “你今天找我，其实是有事，对不对？” 小忆有些惊奇。 “你的眼神里闪过惊奇，证明我说对了。”刘唱说，“如果有事，您别客气，尽管吩咐好啦。” “其实也没什么事。”小忆说，“早听说你是'情圣'，我有个问题想问问你。” “你别讽刺我。”刘唱做愠怒状，不过还是忍不住好奇心地说，“你问啊！” 小忆就问了：“如果一个男生不喜欢一个女生了，他会怎么样？” “消失喽。”刘唱说。 小忆的心直直地掉下去，却还是继续勇敢地问道：“为什么要消失？不会直接跟她说吗？说我不喜欢你了，这样不是很好吗？” “有时候说不出口。” “为什么说不出口？” “也许，是怕伤害吧。”刘唱说，“男人有时候，也挺懦弱的。” 小忆看着刘唱，他长得真的很帅气，比叶要帅气多了。刘唱没说错，其实小忆约他出来喝咖啡就是想问这样的一个问题，这是叶一直在逃避的问题，从另一个男生的口中得出的答案，是那样血肉模糊的真实。 “一段感情走了，可以开始另一段。”刘唱说，“死心眼可不好。” 小忆低声说：“我和你，和蓝，不一样。” 刘唱笑起来：“有什么不一样，感情对每个人都是一样的。遇到真正喜欢的人，谁敢说自己不在乎？可是不喜欢就是不喜欢了，强求也没有用。” “是这样吗？”小忆问。 “是这样的。”刘唱肯定地答。 “谢谢你陪我喝咖啡。”小忆说，“我要走了，今天让我请客，好吗？” “你请客也行。不过有个条件。” "you say." “很简单，你答应做我的女朋友。” 小忆说：“那还是你请吧。” “我请也行，也有个条件。” “又有什么条件？” “很简单。你答应我做你的男朋友啊。”刘唱一副阴谋得逞的得意样儿。 “那就AA制吧，AA制你不会也有条件吧？” “有啊。”刘唱说，“AA制当然也有条件。” "you say." “你要快乐些。”刘唱把头凑近些，温柔地看着小忆，温柔地说，“你太不快乐，简直让人心疼。” 甜言蜜语呵，这该死的甜言蜜语，小忆只觉得自己痛到快不能呼吸。 最终，还是刘唱付掉了帐。他们从咖啡馆里走出来的时候还不到三点。刘唱问小忆说：“你现在要去干吗？” “我要去网吧。” “那我也要去。”刘唱像个任性的孩子。 小忆狠狠心说：“别让我讨厌你。” “这么说你现在还多少有些喜欢我喽？”刘唱狡黠地问。 “再见。”小忆跟他挥手，大步流星地朝着附近一家网吧的方向走去。后面又响起了口哨声，很轻快，很动人的爱尔兰音乐。小忆没有回头，一直等到她走进网吧，身后的口哨声才消失。 刘唱并没有跟着进来。 S破天荒不在网上，QQ上有他的留言，只有两个字：“救命。” 办杂志真不是人干的事，每月临发稿的时候，他都处于半疯状态。小忆到信箱里把上次在叶家写了一半的稿子调出来写，心里乱乱的，灵感却出乎意料地顺当，一写还有些收不住手。敲完最后一个字，小忆把它发到S的信箱里，附上一封短信说：“把我的寂寞和矫情都寄与你，发不发表，都不重要。能救你命，自是最好。” 出了网吧的门，天已经全黑。 小忆回校，蓝依旧没回来，手机也没开。于是问同宿舍另一个女孩于颖：“看到蓝没有？” “没。”于颖说，“我还以为你们一起去哪里疯了呢。” 结果，蓝一直都没回来。差不多十点钟的时候，小忆却接到刘唱的电话：“快来'SUN'，蓝又喝多了。” 电话那头，蓝在唱歌，放肆而疯狂。 “SUN”是深受大学生们喜爱的一个酒吧，刘唱和他的乐队在那里驻唱，如果遇到周末，往往挤个水泄不通。小忆赶到那里的时候并不见蓝，刘唱正在台上唱一首寂寞的歌：“怀抱既然不能逗留，何不在离开的时候，一边享受一边泪流。十年之前，我不认识你，你不属于我。我们还是一样，陪在一个陌生人左右，走过渐渐熟悉的街头……” 陈奕迅的。林夕的词，刘唱给出的，崭新的味道。 小忆在那歌声里怔了一小会儿，抓住一个面熟的人大声问：“看到蓝没？” 第一章（9） “厕所。”那人说，“她又喝高了。” 小忆找到厕所里，蓝正在里面呕吐，吐得天昏地暗。见了小忆，把手放到她肩上说：“咦，乖女生今天也来泡吧了？” “别疯了行不行！”小忆啪一下打掉她的手说，“你看看你自己是什么样子！” 蓝呵呵笑着说：“我失恋，当然是一幅死相喽。” “我们回去。”小忆拖她。 “不！要回你自己回，没人请我喝咖啡我自己请自己喝酒还不行？” “好，我自己回。”小忆知道蓝的脾气，发起疯来六亲不认，懒得跟她过招。 “薛小忆！”蓝却后面喊住她说，“你想知道叶在哪里吗？你真的相信他是去北京学习一个月吗？” “你什么意思？”小忆转身。 “没什么意思。”蓝懒懒地靠在洗手间的洗手台边，用手指梳理了一下长发。 “你到底想说什么？”小忆盯着蓝，心跳得飞快。 “我今天下午去医院了。”蓝双手一摊，凄然一笑，高喊着说，“我他妈一天都在吐，所以我去医院配点药，所以我去了妇产科，可是你知道我看到谁了吗，我看到了叶，你的宝贝叶，他陪别的女人在看病呢，那女的怀了他孩子了，你还蒙在鼓里呢！” 蓝的声音奇大无比，一个字一个字如刀一样地刺进小忆的耳膜，小忆奔到蓝的身边，跳起来，用手掌用力地堵住了她的嘴。 蓝真的是喝多了，又被小忆捂得透不过气，人支撑不住，软软地倒在洗手间肮脏的地面上。 “起来，起来！”小忆奋力地拉她，她闭着眼睛纹丝不动。 “蓝！”小忆大力地拍她的脸颊，“蓝，你醒过来！” “哦。”蓝睁开眼吐出一个字，却又头一歪很快地晕过去。小忆这才发现她在发烧，浑身上下，烧得滚烫。 蓝很重，小忆拖也拖不动，只好飞奔出去找人帮忙。刚到外面就被刘唱一把抓住说：“我看到你进来了，还以为看花眼了呢。” “蓝，蓝。”小忆指着卫生间，语无伦次地说，“她晕倒了！” “别急。”刘唱说，“这里天天都有人晕倒，我找人扶她到休息室里睡会儿就好了。” 小忆虚脱地靠在过道旁，看刘唱找人来将蓝架了出来，蓝好像整个昏迷了过去，她的脸颊绯红，蓝色的眼影已全然褪去，只余一些些怅惘的青痕。 “要送医院。”小忆对站在她身边的刘唱说，“她在发烧。” “没事的。”刘唱拉她一把说，“走，听我唱歌去。我们十二点散场，蓝也该睡醒一觉了，到时候我再送你们回去也不迟。” “不了。”小忆说，“我要回去了，蓝交给你，谢谢你。” “听一首歌，就一首！”刘唱挡在他面前，诚恳地说，“好还是不好？” 刘唱看着小忆，他的眼神里有种让人不忍拒绝的真诚。小忆默默地跟着刘唱走回酒吧的大厅，刘唱将她安排到靠舞台的一个角落坐下。键盘手看到刘唱出现就已经弹起了前奏，刘唱跳上台，抱起吉它坐到麦克风前，微笑之后，用深情的嗓音说：“接下来这首歌，送给美丽的小忆，希望当她孤单的时候，她会想起我。” 嘘声之后只剩音乐，然后就是刘唱无懈可击的歌声：你的心情总在飞什么事都想去追想抓住一点安慰你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊你最害怕孤单的滋味你的心那么脆一碰就会碎经不起一点风吹你的身边总是要许多人陪你最害怕每天的天黑但是天总会黑人总要离别谁也不能永远陪谁而孤单的滋味谁都要面对不只是你我会感觉到疲惫当你孤单你会想起谁你想不想找个人来陪你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会让我再陪你走一回就在蓝刚刚说出一个残忍的真相后，这是小忆不能承载也无法承载的深情。在刘唱的歌声中她站起身来，朝着酒吧外面走去。这才发现外面竟然下起了大雨，雨还下得挺大，将霓虹吹成寂寞潮湿的缤纷。小忆咬咬牙，抬脚走进雨中。奇怪的是不觉得冷，大约是因为心里已经冷到极致的缘故吧。 快到学校门口的时候忽然有人追上来，大声喊她的名字：“小忆，小忆！” 是刘唱，打着一把伞跑上来。他把伞往小忆头上一罩，责备地说：“你怎么连听完一首歌的耐心都没有？” “你不用唱歌吗？”小忆掏出纸巾来，在伞下擦着被雨水淋得狼狈的脸和头发。 “有什么比你更重要？”刘唱说。 小忆低头笑：“刘唱呵，你真傻。” “是吗？”刘唱说，“我不觉得呢。” “我要走了。”小忆转身就走。 “我的姑奶奶，让我送你回去。你这样会感冒的！”风很大，刘唱一只手用力地抓住伞，另一只手用力地把小忆拉回伞下。 小忆没再挣扎。 两人就这样一直走到女生宿舍的门口，小忆跟刘唱说再见，这才发现他一把伞只替小忆遮雨了，自己早就淋了个全身湿透。 第一章（10） “湿了。”小忆指着他的衣服说。 “呵呵。没关系。”刘唱满不在乎地在衣服上拍了拍，“我要赶去唱歌了，再见。” 那一夜，蓝都没有回来。 小忆睡一会儿醒一会儿，听雨打在窗户上的声音。好像很久都没有下过雨了，好像很久都没有见过叶了，有些东西隔久了再重逢，是很生疏的一种依恋。 当再见到叶的时候，或许，真的不知道该说什么好了吧。 PART2蓝的眼睛缓缓睁开了。她看着小忆，缓缓吐出两个字：“真的。”“我不信。”小忆趴到病床上忽然就哭起来，“他一直是爱我的！他一直是爱我的！他不可能有别的女人，你一定是看错了，你撒谎！”