Chapter 10 Chapter 10 The Speed ​​of Flying

At two o'clock in the morning, I woke up. The slightly sore pain in my wrist reminds me of what happened yesterday.I sat up, turned on the lamp, removed the gauze, and looked at my own wound. This is the wound I left for myself, two ways.Like two pink ugly worms, entrenched.I wonder how it can be pink, it can be black, purple, even blue, but it should never be pink.I still remember the hypocritical words that Maizi said when he bandaged me: "Fortunately, the injury is not too deep." Every idiot knows she'll be happy if I'm dead. Maybe it was a chaotic day, Mother Wu didn't remember to close the window for me when she left, the summer wind blew up the curtains, maybe the factor of fear of cold in the body broke out again, and on such a hot day, I felt a slight chill.I got out of bed, went out, and came to Lin Huanzhi's room.His room was never locked, I just pushed it open.I remembered a night many, many years ago, when I pushed his door open for the first time, he sat up from the bed and said, "Oh, Qiqi, are you afraid?"

"No." I said, "The teacher said that there is a child in our class who has leukemia, and he asked everyone to donate money." The next day, he took my hand to donate to the school, and what he gave was a check, which said 10,000 yuan.At that time, I didn't know what a big number 10,000 was, but I could perfectly understand the envy and flattery in the eyes of teachers and classmates. "Ye Xiaoji's family has deposits in Swiss banks!" "Ye Xiaoji is an orphan, but her father loves her very much. She has a hundred princess dresses!" "Ye Xiaoji wasn't so pretty in the first place. After her father adopted her, he took her to have a beauty treatment!"

"Ye Xiaoji never needs to do homework. I heard that their family has a servant who does homework for her!" "Ye Xiaoji..." "Ye Xiaoji..." For a long time, I became a "legend" on campus.I grew up under the envy and envy of everyone, and I never felt that I had changed. I was still an orphan, an orphan in a beautiful world. He will never know how many nights I have gently opened his door like this, wearing my cotton nightgown, and gently sitting down beside his bed.Maybe it was because he was too tired during the day, but when he fell asleep, he always slept so soundly and deeply.He couldn't see or read a girl's fears at night.I stayed up all night like this, sat by his bed until dawn, then got up and left.

Tonight, his window is still closed, the moonlight shines on his face, I can see that his temples have gray hair.On the bedside table is the stomach medicine that he can't live without all year round, exactly the same as when I was a child. I hugged my knees and sat down on the cool wooden floor beside his bed. I didn't understand the hatred in my heart. After countless attempts to leave , I still don't understand. I think of Yuno once holding my head and saying: "Qiqi, he loves you very much, and you love him very much, you should stop torturing each other like this."

Oh.Uno. She is such a cold and smart girl, she keeps me warm.She took my hand and took me to see a psychiatrist.For the first time, I finally dared to approach a stranger, asking him to tell me what my heart longed for. The doctor is very young and a man.He said: "Qiqi, hehe, your name is Qiqi, which is really a good name. Well, let's talk about your name first, do you like your name?" "It doesn't matter." I said. "Then tell me you have something to say." He approached me holding the medical records. "No." I said. "How about we play a game?" He put down the damn medical records, handed me a picture and said, "Look carefully and tell me what you see?"

There are two stupid mountains on the picture, I pushed his hand holding the picture away and said, "Show me this, think I'm an idiot?" He was not angry, but said: "Look carefully?" I looked again, and the two mountains became two faces facing each other. "Look again," he said. This time, what I saw was a long stream of fine water and several stretching roads leading to the distance. "I can't run." I said. "Have you been up all night?" she said angrily. "You have dark circles." "I can go to sleep with sam." I said, "put on Leslie's song, three seconds into the state."

"Sleeping also costs money." Yuno said angrily, "If I had known this, I would have changed my career to become a psychiatrist." "When will you take me to play with Baobaolan?" I asked her. "I've discussed it with your father, and I've also asked for Sam's opinion. After the injury on your hand heals, you can start." "Hey," I said, "don't lie to me?" "Of course not." Yuno said, "Don't tell Baobaolan, in this way, we can give her a surprise." I smile. "Go down for some breakfast?" Yuno said.

"No, I'm not hungry." "Your father is down there." Yunora said to me, "Let's go, let him see how good you look today!" "No, no!" I shook her off. "What's wrong?" Yuno said, "You always have to face him." "I don't want to, at least right now." I don't start. "Alright then." Yuno patted me and said, "Then I'll go down and have breakfast with him, and when you're willing to come down, come down and find me yourself." "Yuno!" I called to her. She ignored me, opened the door and walked away.I heard her cheerful footsteps as she descended the stairs.I will never be able to have such a cheerful footsteps.In this home, I often feel like a cat, with sly steps, nocturnal, and fleeing in panic if there is any movement.

After Yuno left, I ran to play RO for a while, and I was already a level 87 magician in it, invincible.This is my favorite online game. In fact, my favorite is the flowers outside the magic city. One is blue, one is red and one is yellow, so gorgeous that it will take your breath away. Yuno finally came up again, leaned against the door and said to me, "He's gone." "I know." I said. My ears are so sensitive that I can never hear his cars coming and going clearly. "You turn off the computer, and I'll take you to do your hair." Yuno said. "Is it his order?" I said without turning my head while chasing a monster, "It's strange, why do you obey him now?"

Yuno didn't speak, she stepped forward and forcibly turned off my computer. "Hey!" I said, "Don't overdo it!" "I'm just going too far." She folded her arms, looked at me with a smile and said, "Die Qiqi, if you don't go out with me now, I won't care about you anymore, and I won't take you to Baobaolan Play." "You rascal!" "I learned it from you," she said. I reluctantly followed her into the barbershop.As soon as I sat down, the lady said: "Yeah, lavender is not good-looking, and golden yellow is popular now. It's so cool to dye a strand of golden yellow on black hair!"

"NND!" I scolded her, "Three days ago you said that lavender is the most popular! Are you out of your mind or flooded?" She was too scared to speak. "Just black." Yuno said, "It's still the best black." The lady looked at me, meaning to ask for my opinion.I said impatiently: "Okay, listen to my boss, what is she talking about?" You Nuo smiled: "Wouldn't it be nice to meet Bao Baolan if you're pretty?" "Cut!" I said, "It's not a blind date!" "Why did your hand hurt?" The young lady was talkative. "I cut it myself." I said. "Doesn't it hurt?" She mumbled. I yelled fiercely: "You better get my hair done before I cut yours!" The young lady had no choice but to turn her head and complain to Yuno: "Your sister is like a gangster." Yuno smiled, "You're right, didn't you hear that she called me the boss just now! Hurry up, be careful we demolish your shop!" "You don't look like it!" The young lady looked at her and said seriously. "Hahahahaha!" This time it was my turn to laugh up and down.Sometimes when Yuno became humorous, it was fatal. After finishing my hair, I had a simple lunch with Yuno, and I was already in Sam's office around two o'clock in the afternoon.He poured me a glass of ice water and asked me, "How are you feeling today?" "It doesn't matter." I said in unison with him. "You still ask?" I didn't make sense. He laughed.After laughing, he sat down opposite me: "Tell me, why are you arguing with Dad again?" I held the ice water, leaned on the sofa, and slowly recalled. It was six o'clock in the morning when he came home.At that time, I was playing an online game that had just been released in public beta. The game was very abnormal, and I couldn't upgrade to two levels in one night.Then I heard him driving back, and then I heard him going upstairs.I ran over quickly, opened the door of my room, and asked him when he passed by: "Are you tired or not?" He looked into my room, saw my flickering computer screen, and asked, "Are you tired or not?" "I'm seventeen." I said, "Do you remember how old you are?" "Qiqi." He ignored my sarcasm, but looked at me in surprise and said, "Why did your hair become like this again?" Yeah, three days ago, I dyed my hair purple.The lady in the hair salon said that this is the most popular color right now. "It was like this three days ago." I said coldly, "It's already outdated news, why are you so excited?" "Go!" He came and dragged me, "Now go and dye it black, all black, your messy look is unbearable!" "If you can't bear it, you have to bear it!" I pushed him away, "Look at your watch, it's six o'clock, do you think the barber shop is a bar, open all day and all night?" "You wait." He pointed at me, "I won't be named Lin if I don't change your hair back to black today!" Then, he went downstairs, I heard him call Maizi, I really don't understand, he is such a big man, whenever he can't fix something, he calls Maizi, as if Maizi is him private nanny.I walked downstairs with a provocative mood, and after he hung up the phone, I said: "Actually, you can really marry her home, she will be a good wife, and she can discipline you a little bit." "Shut up!" he yelled at me. "I don't." I said, "The mouth grows on me. If I want to say it, I can say it if I want to. Are you afraid that I will say something bad? But don't worry, you raised me After so many years, I will save some face for you, I will never tell Maizi or others how you stay out of the house at night to spend time and drink..." Before I could finish my sentence, he smashed the ashtray to the ground and smashed it to pieces. Fragments of the crystal, like fine dust, rose from the floor, fell, and rose again... Just then, Mama Wu came in.She had long been used to such scenes without being surprised, and quickly put down the vegetables in her hand and ran over to clean up the ground.Lin Huanzhi told her, "Go, get me a pair of scissors." "What?" Wu's mother looked up in surprise. "Take it if you want!" he roared angrily. "Qiqi. Are you mad at your father again!" Mama Wu rushed forward and pushed me upstairs, "Go upstairs quickly, go upstairs, and come down after I clean up this place!" "Leave me alone! I'm willing to stay here!" I pushed Mama Wu away, and when I was confronting Mama Wu, Lin Huanzhi had already run to the study and took out a pair of large scissors, and walked forward: "Come here! The barbershop is closed, so I'll wring your hair out for you!" "Sir!" Mama Wu went to stop him again, "Don't do this, the scissors are dangerous, give them to me!" Mama Wu finally managed to snatch the scissors and ran into the study with them.I looked at Lin Huanzhi, his face turned green with anger, but I was really not very angry at that time, so I lazily said, "So what if you cut my hair? It's bald." It still has to grow, and I can dye it into any color I like when I grow up, can you control me for a while, can you control me for a lifetime?" He stood there, staggering.Then, he gritted his teeth and said, "Life is long, don't say it so early, let's wait and see!" "Aren't you going to send me to the juvenile prison?" I asked with a sneer. He ignored me and sat down on the sofa to smoke.The ashtray was gone, he raised his voice to call Wu's mother, and Wu's mother ran out of the study in a panic, and I found out later that she was hiding inside to call Yuno.I really don't know what would have happened if Yuno hadn't come that day. "What's with the blade?" Sam said. "How did you hold the blade in your hand?" I said: "I haven't left, I have been standing there watching him smoke. In fact, I was thinking, I see what kind of tricks you can play. I will play with him to the end no matter what I say! Not long after, Maizi disappeared. Here it is, as soon as she came in, Lin Huanzhi asked her if she was found." Maizi looked at him, then at me, and said, "You guys, why are you so angry so early in the morning?" "I asked you if anyone found it!" He shouted at Maizi. "It's time to work if you want to look for it!" Maizi said, "It's only what time it is, and none of the stores are open." I immediately understood that he asked Maizi to find someone to do my hair for me, and immediately burst out laughing, I really almost burst into tears, I think there is no funnier thing in the world than this, because of the color of my hair , he can actually mobilize people like this. "Let's open a barber shop." I suggested after laughing, "You see this house is big enough, you can open a barber shop on the first floor for your use at any time. Of course, it's also okay to open a bar. It's also good for you." It's more practical." I finally managed to piss him off, the only time I've won after all these years, he picked up a handful of magazines on the table and rolled them up to beat me up, the magazines hit me, it didn't hurt at all, but I still hid habitually, and at this moment I saw a small razor blade on the stairway on the first floor where the debris was piled up. It was used by Mama Wu when cleaning the floor. I love chewing gum, and I vomited after eating it. Those things have to be scraped off with a razor blade. I walked over and quickly took the blade into my hand. He was startled.His face was very pale. "And you cut the knife to your own wrist?" Sam asked. "Yes." I said. "But, Qiqi, do you think you really won?" "No." My tears flowed down, "I said, Sam no no no." Sam cruelly analyzed for me: "Qiqi, listen to me, these years you have been living in the shadow created by yourself, you think you will live better without him, but in fact, you can't do without his protection , this is a fact that you have been unwilling to admit, right?" I shook my head desperately, tears splashing. "That's right!" Sam raised his voice and said, "He is the most important person in your life, and what you are most afraid of is losing him. Since fate has arranged for you to live together, you should get to know him with peace of mind." "He doesn't care about me," I said. "How do you know he doesn't care about you? Because he doesn't come home at night?" Sam said, "But Qiqi, he has his responsibility, but you can't blame him entirely, if you never say what you need, he How do you know what you need?" "I'm so sleepy, Sam." I broke down, "I don't want to say any more." "Then go to sleep." Sam brought me a colorful blanket and said, "I'll turn down the air conditioner." "By the way." When my eyes were about to close, I suddenly remembered to ask him, "Do you have to charge money to sleep here?" He thought about it, smiled and said to me: "Do you love his money?" "Money is the most useless thing," I said, and soon fell asleep.I met Bao Baolan in my dream. She was wearing a very cartoon pajamas, holding a book and turning to the last page and said to me: "Look, Qiqi, this is your destiny." After speaking, she turned and left. I chased all the way.The smoke was overwhelming, and she soon disappeared. I woke up and someone held my hand, it was Yuno.She said, "Qiqi, are you awake? I heard you shouting Baobaolan." "The ending..." I murmured. "What ending?" "I haven't been able to see clearly the ending that Baobaolan wants to give me." "Hehe, it's hard for her to sell a book like you!" Yuno got up, turned on the light, and said to me, "Sam left earlier, I'll pick you up at five o'clock, see You slept soundly, so I didn't wake you up." "what time is it now?" "Seven o'clock." God, I have slept for so long. I brace myself to sit up.Yuno took out something from his bag and handed it to me, saying, "Look, what good things did I buy for you this afternoon!" It's a beautiful bracelet, I like it very much. "I saw it when I was passing by a Tibetan jewelry store. I bought two identical ones, one for you and one for Baobaolan." Yuno said, "This bracelet is wide, and when you wear it, others will not be able to see your wound. " I took it over: "Yunuo, Baobaolan is absolutely right, you are an angel." "Hey." She turned around exaggeratedly, "Did you see my wings?" "Yes." I said, "Golden ones." "Let's go!" She stretched out her hand to drag me, "We should go back." I followed Yuno out, and at the gate of the hospital, a car approached slowly and stopped in front of us. It was Lin Huanzhi.He bought a new car again, which is really rich. "Sit down." Yuno opened the front door and greeted me. I still opened the back door by myself and sat in.Uno closed the front door with some reluctance, and also entered the back door and sat beside me. "Are you hungry?" Lin Huanzhi asked. "Sandia," I said. According to my previous experience, he would definitely agree to me, but today he said no, he said: "No, let's go home and eat. Mama Wu burned my favorite pig's trotters." Voila, like it's all right. This war is over again.I looked at the gauze on my wrist and thought in defeat, how could I win, I don't know how thoroughly I lost. Yuno squeezed my hand in my lap, her hand was warm and comforting. When the car arrived at the door of our house, Yuno jumped out of the car and said to us, "I won't go in, I still have things to do." "Oh." Lin Huanzhi got into the car again and said, "Then I'll see you off." "No need, you and Qiqi have dinner quickly, I have an appointment with a friend, it's nearby, and it's not far to walk there." After finishing speaking, she walked away lightly. Lin Huanzhi and I entered the house, and Wu's mother had already left work. The food was on the table, and there were indeed pig's trotters.I was very hungry, so I filled a bowl and ate it first. He also sat at the table and said to me: "Go, get me a big bowl to serve rice. I'm hungry today." "Don't you have any hands yourself?" I asked with my rice in my hands. He glared at me. Dee, cannibalism is soft, so I had no choice but to go into the kitchen and bring him a bucket-sized bowl. We haven't had dinner together like this for a long time.He started to talk to me about going back to school, saying that this is not allowed and that is not allowed, talking like an old woman.I listen, don't talk back, I know if I talk back, it will be another war.I have just recovered a little bit of energy, and I need to recharge again, and now is not the time. "That's good." He looked at me and said suddenly. "What's good?" I don't understand. "I'm talking about your hair," he said. "Girls are cute like that." He rarely praised me, so I jumped up instinctively and said, "I'm full, I'm going upstairs." "Girls are cute like this." It was the first time in my life that I heard him praise me. I couldn't figure out what made him change. The night was deserted.As usual, I was accompanied by only a computer.There is a violent blue post on the forum: If I can't figure it out this week, I will commit suicide.It seems that it is not easy to be a writer, she is suffering. I didn't follow up, didn't tell her that I was going to see her, just like Yuno said, this way, I could give her a surprise.I imagined how I would look when I saw Baobaolan. For a person like me who can’t take it out, I don’t know if he would be too stupid to speak.I took out the bracelet Yuno gave me and put it on my uninjured right wrist, remembering her softly saying to me: "This way, others won't be able to see your wound." The delicate things in my heart are flowing, she is such a careful and good girl, she does not dislike me, and comforts me. I couldn't help texting her: "Where are you?" She didn't reply, probably because she didn't hear.I had no choice but to make a phone call, and when I heard the noisy voice over there, she said to me in a cheerful voice, "Qiqi, some old classmates are here to play with Qingmei." I waited for her to invite me, but she didn't, she just said: "Qiqi should go to bed early when you are tired, don't play computer so late." She forgot that I slept for almost an afternoon. I fell on the bed and couldn't sleep. Baobaolan has her career, Yuno has her world, but I have nothing. In a daze, it seems to hear Lin Huanzhi's voice going out, but it doesn't seem to be.After an hour of tossing and turning in bed, I finally decided to go out.The light in Lin Huanzhi's room was on, and I wasn't sure if he was at home, so I secretly took my backpack, went downstairs on tiptoe, opened the door, took a taxi, and went straight to the University City. Fearing that Yuno would see me, I entered through the back door, which I accidentally discovered when I went to the bathroom.The door was locked, so I climbed in through the window, walked through a small passage, and arrived at the noisy hall.In fact, I heard Yuno's singing as soon as I jumped in from the window. She was singing a song I had never heard before: I dare say, I have never heard such a beautiful singing voice, never seen such an incomparable charming smile, seeing her jump off the stage amidst warm applause after singing, I am going to go quietly to cover her eyes Eyes, in her words: Surprise her. But my steps stopped in an instant.I saw Yuno sat down at a seat by the window, and the person sitting opposite him was Lin Huanzhi. Lin Huanzhi was smiling, a gentle, relaxed smile that I had never seen before. Then, they clink glasses. My eyes suddenly got a little wet, Yuno is really an angel, I saw her golden wings flapping non-stop under the blurred light of the bar. And I, destined to be locked at the origin, will never be able to fly in this life.