Chapter 5 Chapter 5 Dance on the Tip of the Knife

This is the tenth day of breaking up with Doodle. When Bao Baolan was lying on the table and carving the tenth mark, the teacher invited her out of the classroom, and said to her earnestly: "You can fall asleep in the morning reading class. How can you take the college entrance examination like you? What kind of test will you use?" "I didn't fall asleep." Bao Baolan said, "Teacher, you are wrong." "Hey!" said the teacher, "Isn't it true that you didn't read early? You see, everyone wants to run now. Why aren't you in a hurry?"

"Are you in a hurry? Just do whatever you want, and a miracle cannot happen in such a short amount of time." Baobaolan said in a self-defeating manner. "Ni Xing, you have a bright future. Your foundation is not bad, and your Chinese scores are so good. The key is your attitude towards study. You seem to be too careless about the college entrance examination." . Baobaolan felt irritable, so he said, "Is there anything else? I'm going back to read if there's nothing else." The teacher sighed.He waved her to leave. In Baobaolan, a key high school, there are not many students who can discourage the teacher, and everyone is desperately trying to get ahead in a certain way.Because of her writing, Baobaolan is considered to be outstanding. Her manuscripts are published in the most famous magazines in the country, and she can receive a decent manuscript fee in two days.Recently, a reporter wrote an exclusive interview for her, titled "The little girl who makes words blossom and bear fruit".Moreover, the first full-length novel is about to be published. For a high school student, these should be considered quite good.But Baobaolan is not proud and complacent, because she knows that even so, in the eyes of many, many people, she is still an outlier. Didn't the girl who used to be at the same table scold herself: "Pervert."

That time it was just a small dispute. When everyone talked about Haruki Murakami's novel, Baobaolan expressed some opinions on a whim, which was obviously different from that girl's opinion. The girl's mouth was not as good as hers, so she refuted Losing face, he just flattened his lips in front of Bao Baolan and said those two vicious words: "Pervert!" At that time, Bao Baolan was smiling, she turned around and asked the girl, "Do you know how to explain the word abnormal?" The girl hesitated for a moment, then said, "Go look it up in the dictionary yourself."

"There's no need to check." Bao Baolan said, "You are the best comment." Later, when the girl asked to change the same table, Bao Baolan volunteered to sit in the back seat of the classroom, which is a dead corner of the classroom and her favorite place. If she was late surfing the Internet the day before, she could lie down there and sleep peacefully for a whole day. I feel that generally no teacher will care about it. Learning is your own business. Everyone is sharpening their heads and trying to get into the top ten and squeeze into key universities. Only Bao Baolan has no ideals. Do you want to be a writer?No, no, Bao Baolan knows that this is not his ideal.

Writing is just to find an outlet for the restless heart every day, nothing more. It's strange to say that the more I don't want to read, the more I want to write. The novel in my hand develops very quickly, and she named it "Grey Fairy".This is the inspiration she got from netizen Qiqi. Every time she finished chatting with Qiqi, the stories would come out one by one.Although Baobaolan had never met Qiqi before, she could feel the loneliness in that girl's heart exactly like her own, the gray loneliness through the vast network. As usual, Bao Baolan began to serialize his new work on Yuno's website, and he has received enthusiastic support from everyone after posting the first three chapters.Yuno wrote to her and said: "Honey, you are the best." Qi Qi also said in the chat room: "Hey, no matter how you look at me, you are a genius. But Bao Baolan, you What exactly do you want to write?"

Yes, what exactly do you want to write? A lonely story, so lonely that it makes you tremble, hehehe.On the phone, Bao Baolan said to Huang Le that Huang Le is the editor of the publishing house, and he seemed full of ambitions for Bao Baolan's book: "Make an appointment for a time to chat, and I will introduce you to a friend who is engaged in publishing. Let him give you some advice, too." "Don't." Baobaolan said, "I can't write with my hands tied." "Hahaha." Huang Le said, "These words have reached my heart, what I want is your hearty heart, don't let me down."

"Try your best." Bao Baolan said, "I even failed the college entrance examination, and I'm sorry for myself if I can't write well." "Then I'm charged with too much crime. I still have to study hard." Huang Le hung up the phone with a grin, as if he was afraid of taking responsibility. After putting on the phone, Bao Baolan said that he thought, not only the college entrance examination, but also love.I really don't know if it's worth it or not. I still want to do graffiti, I hope there will be news of him.I just can't let go of my self-esteem and take the initiative to contact him.

Huang Le said he didn't want to rush, but every day it was either a phone call or a letter to Yi Meier. Bao Baolan pressed him, and he wrote very late on weekends.When she was writing, she had a bad habit of hanging in the chat room. Qiqi slipped in and said to her, "I saw Yuno too, she is so beautiful." "Wow, who invited whom to dinner?" "I met her by chance, and I didn't say hello to her." Qi Qi said. "Why not?" "I'm ashamed." "Why do you feel inferior?" Bao Baolan didn't understand. "Isn't it on the same path?" Qiqi immediately said vigilantly after finishing speaking, "Don't say it, don't say it, and you will write it into a novel if you say it, it's so scary."

"Will you buy my novels?" Bao Baolan said, "If I can't sell all of them, my life will be over." "Buy, buy, buy." Qiqi said, "I'll buy a hundred copies." Baobaolan was so happy that he sent flowers to Qiqi.At this moment, he saw the graffiti coming in, although he was using an unfamiliar ID.But as soon as he opened his mouth, he knew it must be graffiti, Bao Baolan stared at the computer screen for a long time, she thought, if he doesn't want to talk to me, then I won't say it, let's see who can beat the other. In the end, no one really said anything.Tuya and Qiqi babbled a few words, then ran to the forum and posted a picture under Baobaolan's new work, a girl with pink lips, a bit mischievous.The girl was wearing revealing clothes, so after a while, Yuno deleted the picture.

Qi Qi asked cautiously: "Bao Baolan and you two really broke up?" "Yeah." Bao Baolan said exaggeratedly. "Do you really like him?" "have no idea." "Kissed?" "Yeah, Qiqi is bad." "The kiss in your novel is well written, it's about you and the graffiti." Qi Qi chased after her. Baobao had no choice but to adopt a roundabout tactic: "Did it go into your heart, haha." "Ah bah!" Qiqi said, "I often didn't feel it at that time." "Then I'll write about your feelings next time!"

"Scary." Qi Qi said, "Baobaolan is a little witch. But why can't she deal with a boy?" "You teach me?" "Give me your boyfriend for three days and I'll teach you." Qi Qi said, "Otherwise I won't understand his personality." "I just think of him as garbage, if you want to pick it up, pick it up." Just talking nonsense with Qi Qi, the night was getting late, Bao Baolan went to bed very late, woke up at ten o'clock the next day, felt a little headache for some reason, and curled up on the bed in a daze.But grandma came in and asked, "Don't make up lessons today. Your parents are calling to come over later to discuss with you about filling out your application. They want you to wait at home." "Why don't you mend it?" Baobaolan didn't care about his physical discomfort, so he hurriedly got up to wash up, then read two books randomly and left the house, almost fleeing in despair. Summer is coming, walking on the street, the sun occasionally makes you feel suffocated.Baobaolan wandered aimlessly outside the mall, and saw that skirt, a small, blue skirt, through the big glass window of the mall.There is a small circle of white at the bottom of the skirt, which covers a model with an expressionless face, exuding plenty of temptation.Put the tip of your nose up to the glass, and the number on the label is a depressing 1880.Bao Baolan cursed rudely in his heart: "NND, why don't you steal the money." While cursing, he sat down on the steps beside the mall.Unexpectedly, the fountain next to the steps rushed up silently.Splashed water all over his body.Storm Blue jumped up angrily, at this moment, she saw the graffiti. To be precise, graffiti and sissies.In the small square on the left side of the shopping mall, Graffiti was drawing an advertisement picture on the wall, and Xixi was holding the paint bucket for him, looking up and smiling at him.While doing graffiti, she suddenly buried herself down, flicked Xixi's forehead with her fingers, and Xixi laughed like a hype. Bao Baolan's tears flowed down unexpectedly. Looking at the graffiti through tears, a cute little baby is grinning with chubby hands and feet, and there seem to be stars all around him, blue, purple, yellow, and red stars, spreading all over the snow-white wall , This is graffiti, his paintings are always so exaggerated but just right, this is graffiti, he can forget a relationship in ten days or even less and start another story smoothly. Bao Baolan roughly wiped away her tears with her sleeve, then she walked over with a smile. "Hey." She greeted almost defiantly. "Hey." It was Xixi who responded to her first. Doodle jumped off the bench and asked her with a strange expression, "Why are you here?" "Did you buy this place with graffiti?" Bao Baolan looked around and said, "Why can't I come here?" "Just tell me if you miss me." Tuya smiled half-smile. "Think about it." Baobaolan said, "I'm not telling you right now." The expression on Xixi's face was very unnatural.Bao Baolan looked at her and said, "Why are you wearing red clothes, don't you know that he dislikes others wearing red clothes?" Xixi didn't bother to talk back to Baobaolan, but scribbled graffiti to signal him to leave. Doodle whistled briskly and said, "Didn't you see that I was drawing? Just stay on the sidelines obediently. Brother, please go to dinner after drawing!" After speaking, the man jumped on the stool again. Xixi is a thin-skinned little girl, and her face will soon become unbearable. Looking at the graffiti, and then at the indifferent Baobai Lan, she curled her mouth, threw the paint bucket in her hand on the ground, turned around and ran away. "Hey, run away." Baobaolan reminded Doodle. "Isn't it exactly what you think." Tuya bent down to look at her and said, "It's just right that she left, you are better than her, I invite you to a good place today, the pizza there is really good." "Graffiti, you are really shameless." Bao Baolan scolded. "Yeah, otherwise, how could we get along with each other." Tuya squinted at Bao Baolan and said, "Excuse me, can you pick it up for me?" "Don't do it." Bao Baolan said. "Really?" Doodle said, "Don't regret it, this is not a good job for everyone." "Hahaha..." Baobaolan laughed loudly until tears came out of the laughter.Laughing so much that he graffitied into anger, jumped down and said viciously: "You fucking laugh at me again!" Very close, very close distance.These days, the long-awaited distance in my heart and dreams, the graffiti face is close at hand, and he is so handsome and heart-warming when he is angry.Bao Baolan collapsed across the board, and said in a low voice: "K." But Tuya stretched out his hand, and gently wiped away the round teardrop from the corner of her eye.Then, he said with a smirk: "It seems, sister Xiaobao, you really miss me." Bao Baolan gently pushed him away, and lowered his body to pick up the paint bucket on the ground. Doodle said with a smile: "That's right, let's go eat, drink and have fun after we finish!" Baobaolan watched Doodle's confident attitude towards her, and the love and hatred in her heart were strangely intertwined into a fury. She took a deep breath, and slammed the paint bucket in her hand on the ground. The voice of graffiti scolding mother swaggered away. Not far away, the phone rang, and it was Huang Le again. "Come to the 'Impression' tea restaurant on Zhongshan Road. I have read the fragments of the novel you sent, and I want to chat with you." "Still worried about me?" Baobaolan said. "Where is it!" Huang Le said, "Are you coming or not?" "See you in half an hour." When Bao Baolan walked into the tea bar, he saw Huang Le, and there was another person sitting beside him.Huang Le introduced to her, "Tao Ke, a powerful general in our publishing department, with him, you are expected to become the most famous and best-selling author this year." Bao Baolan nodded to them and sat down, ordered expensive tea, and thought viciously in his heart: "I will not give the manuscript to anyone who dares to say a few words!" It calmed down slowly, why should I be angry with anyone, what's the big deal. Or Qiqi is right, there is no true love in this world. Love is enough to make you despair before you turn around. Looking up, she found that Huang Le and Tao Ke were looking at her. "Toast to you?" Bao Baolan smiled in disguise, took the tea made by the waitress, raised the teacup and said with a smile.Unexpectedly, Tao Ke came over, sniffed the cup in her hand and said, "I will enjoy it, Taiwan frozen top oolong?" "Good nose." Baobaolan withdrew her hand with a smile. "Call me?" Tao Ke said, "Is it as eloquent as the people in your novels?" "No way, have you read my novel?" Bao Baolan didn't expect it. "Tao Ke thinks highly of you." Huang Le said, "I showed him some of your works, and he was so excited at the time, he was willing to cooperate with me, hahaha." "That's a good relationship." Baobaolan said, "Let's make a fortune together." Tao Ke looked at her and laughed when Bao Baolan said that, and Bao Baolan said strangely: "What are you laughing at?" "It's very straightforward." Tao Ke said, "I thought you would say that everything is for literature." Bao Baolan almost spit out a sip of tea: "I'm sorry to disappoint you, I'm just such an ordinary person, I write for nothing but money." "Really?" Tao Ke said, "I can't stop watching." "Don't be smart." Bao Baolan lowered his head. "Tao class can read faces." Huang Le said, "You have to be careful with him." "Hehe." Bao Baolan turned to Tao Ke, "Can you see that I'm hungry?" Tao Ke smiled, didn't speak, pushed the order board on the table in front of her and said, "Order what you want." Bao Baolan unceremoniously ordered a bowl of wontons.Huang Le couldn't wait to ask her, "How's the progress these two days?" "Please!" Baobaolan said, "How about letting me eat enough to talk about business?" Huang Le spread his hands in embarrassment and said, "Okay, okay." Under the watchful eyes of the two men, Baobaolan finished a large bowl of wontons in a hurry. "How is it?" Tao Ke asked her, "It tastes so delicious, do you want another bowl?" "No more." Bao Baolan shook his head, "Why are you called Tao Ke? I've been skipping classes a lot lately. This name irritates me." "Then put it in your novel and be the protagonist. You don't need to pay for it." Tao Ke said, took out a pack of cigarettes, swallowed one himself, and gave Huang Le one, then looked at him with inquiring eyes. Baobaolan, Baobaolan understood what he meant, and stretched out his hand to take one. I learned to smoke a long time ago, and sometimes I smoke with Doodles, but halfway through the smoke, Doodles usually tore it off and wiped it out, and then said to her: "Xiao Bao, you look so cool that you are so disgusting !" Bao Baolan laughed haha, picked up the half-extinguished cigarette butt and poked it at Doodle's body, Doodle jumped up and down in fright, and finally had to use violence to suppress Bao Baolan. Then, the kiss mentioned by Qi Qi and described by Bao Baolan in the works is really just a kiss. In the small rented house with graffiti, there is a young body full of passion but never deviant.Doodle is certainly not the kind of child who follows the rules, but he has a very strange tolerance and patience for Bao Baolan. "Come back to your senses." Baobaolan quietly reminded herself.The past is like a needle, no matter how you guard against it, it will always penetrate your memory sharply without knowing it, like a dance on the tip of a knife, no matter how light and beautiful you are, you will never escape the fate of pain. "What are you thinking about?" Tao Ke lit a cigarette for her. "I miss my boyfriend." Bao Baolan said, "He abandoned me, am I very bad?" "Heh, you hate him for writing novels," Tao Ke said. "Good idea." Bao Baolan raised his eyebrows. "We are going to tell you about your novel." Huang Le couldn't bear it long ago, and took the opportunity to get into the topic, "Your novel started quite well, and the image of the protagonist named Qiqi is also very plump and very Modern, I hope the ending can be cruel, I don’t want comedy, the crueler the better it will sell.” "What kind of cruel method?" Baobaolan exhaled a big smoke circle and said, "drugs? Suicide? Hehe, don't be too old-fashioned." "Then you are not old-fashioned." Huang Le said slyly, "I believe you can handle it." After he finished speaking, he started to ask again, one after another, Bao Baolan almost couldn't remember.While Huang Le was chattering, Bao Baolan took a look at Tao Ke and found that he was also looking at him. The two of them laughed tacitly at Huang Le's long-winded words.Compared with Huang Le, who is strict and eye-catching, Tao Ke makes people feel more relaxed. He is a very pure and clear boy, not annoying. Thinking wildly, Huang Le finally finished speaking, and asked, "Do you understand what I mean?" "I don't even remember." Bao Baolan said. "She's not listening at all," Tao Ke added. "You!" Huang Le was furious. "Anyway, I can write whatever I want." Bao Baolan got up and said, "If you don't like it, you can leave it, I don't force it, thank you for the good tea, the wonton tastes good, see you again!" This time it was Tao Ke's turn to laugh, but Baobaolan didn't look back. Walking out of the tea restaurant, the sun seemed to be more intense. Not far away, Bao Baolan suddenly felt dizzy, and her heart was overwhelmed. She squatted on the side of the road and began to vomit violently. She vomited out all the wontons she had just eaten. It's over, I can't move, and I don't have any strength in my whole body. Someone walked up to her, handed her a bottle of mineral water, and reminded her to rinse her mouth. It's pottery class. He said gently to Baobaolan: "You are sick, I knew you were sick when I saw you today. Let's go, I'll take you to the hospital to hang water, you should recover sooner." "No need." Bao Baolan tried his best to spread a smile and said, "Just go home and have a rest." "Then I'll take you home." Tao Ke said. Tao Ke drove a small blue car. He helped Bao Lan get into the car, asked for the address, and then drove forward without saying a word.Being favored by others is not good enough to put on a cool show, Bao Baolan had no choice but to break the silence: "Where's Huang Le?" "Going on a date." "Why don't you go on a date?" "I'm broken in love." Tao Ke said humorously, "I share the same illness with you." "I'm real, I'm not lying to you." After Bao Baolan finished speaking, he didn't want to talk any more, his body seemed to be emptied by something, and he couldn't even sit still. "You can't be tough even if you are young." Tao Ke said, "I'd better send you to hang the water, which can be regarded as my contribution to the literary cause of our country." After finishing speaking, the front of the car had turned around. When the nurse poked the needle into Bao Baolan's arm, Bao Baolan almost fell asleep. When he woke up, the water had just been hung up, and Tao Ke was sitting beside her and flipping through the evening paper of the day.He saw Bao Baolan open his eyes, and said to her: "Your phone has rang many times, I was afraid it would affect you, so I turned it off for you." Baobaolan looked down at the mobile phone hanging on his chest, and said with some embarrassment: "You are really unlucky today." "Dramatic." Tao Ke said, "It can be written into a novel, haha." "It can be considered." Bao Baolan said sincerely, "Thank you." "Get up and do some exercise?" Tao Ran said, "If it's okay, I'll take you home." "Okay." Baobaolan is not the kind of delicate girl, she quickly jumped off the bed and said, "Go home, go home, you don't have to see me off, I'll just take the bus." "Do good things to the end. This is my style." "That's right." Baobaolan reached out for his pocket, "I'll give you the money spent." "Royalties are deducted." Tao Ke said, "You are really interesting, little girl. I can't think of all those works that come from you." "You just say that I'm not good at writing?" Bao Baolan said. "It's time for the college entrance examination." Tao Ke said, "Take good care of your body." Bao Baolan glanced at Tao Ke quickly, and his heart moved quickly. It has been a long time since anyone talked to him like this, and Tuya would not talk to himself in such a caring tone. When Bao Baolan wrote desperately, he At most, they would say: "I want to torture myself to death! Look at how crazy you are!" baffling!How could Tao Ke be compared with graffiti? Bao Baolan was embarrassed by his inner little Jiujiu. Tao Ke was just a strange and unlucky guy. He lost time and money for himself when he just met.isn't it? "Take the medicine well." Tao Ke said, "No, I'll come back tomorrow for another water treatment." "Yeah." Bao Baolan nodded. Tao Ke led her out of the hospital, it was already dusk, the sky was so stuffy that it was going to rain.A few pigeons flew up in the evening when it was about to rain, making the sky less dull.Sitting in the car of Tao class again, Bao Baolan turned on his mobile phone. First, there was a short message, which was actually graffiti: "If you don't want to die, come back obediently." Immediately afterwards, calls came one after another, this time It was my mother, yelling over there: "Ni Xing, what the hell are you doing! Come back to me immediately!" Mom's voice was too loud, Bao Baolan took the phone away from her ear, frowned, and hung up. "Mom is calling you home?" It seemed that Tao could hear clearly. Bao Baolan nodded feebly, come back, come back.They are calling themselves back.Holding a small plastic bag of medicine in her hand, she leaned softly on the seat, thinking sourly, where did she come from, and where should she return?