Lin Huanzhi looked at me, and I looked at him. Over the years, I have always called him Lin Huanzhi.And he kept calling me Qiqi.This should be the third time I have run away from home. He found me easily the first two times, but this time, he searched for me for five days.I was stuck at the door of the Internet cafe by him alive, a little embarrassed, looked at him for a few seconds, and then turned my eyes to the ground. He said to me with a slight sarcasm: "Why didn't you go to Afghanistan?" When we quarreled with him, I said I was going to Afghanistan so that he would never find me.Of course I couldn't go to Afghanistan, and I didn't even have the courage to take the train to other places, so I played hide-and-seek with him in this familiar city all day long.My life was not bad. Before I left, I stole more than a thousand dollars from him, and now I only have a few coins in my pocket.But just now on the Internet, Bu Yi said that he can take me in. We have already agreed on the time and place to meet. I told him that I was wearing a white T-shirt, old jeans, carrying a small blue bag, and my hair was very long. beautiful.

Commoner laughed and said, of course I know that the goblin Qi Qi is a beauty, and I am also a smart person, I would not pay anything if it is not for the beauty. My idea is actually very simple, I just want to rub the commoner for dinner.Although netizens are unreliable, it should still be possible to solve the problem of food and clothing at critical times.We made an appointment at "Sandia", a good western restaurant, and I asked him to bring his card to the appointment, but don't fail to pay the bill.He giggled, and said that for the beauty Qi Qi, I would go up and down the mountain of swords and fire, let alone swiping a small card.People on the Internet have always been so glib, so of course I wouldn't be moved. All I was thinking about was what to order for a while to comfort my hungry stomach.

But what I didn't expect was that Lin Huanzhi found me. He lifted his chin towards me, and I obediently got into his car.He drove without saying a word, as usual, when he was very, very angry he always said nothing.I couldn't stand the torment of this silence, so I spoke up: "Did it cost you a lot of money to find me?" "Yes." he said. "You don't have to come to me," I said, "I can live fine." "Really?" he said, seeing through me. "Just with the few dollars in your pocket?" I blushed, and suddenly realized that maybe he had been following me these days, and suddenly appeared in front of me when I was helpless.What he said next proved my conjecture even more. He said: "Although the hotel you live in is cheap, the hot water is always not available. If you walk twenty meters forward, you will find a three-star hotel." Hotel. Discounted single room, good and cost-effective. And safer.”

I lowered my head, all the way down to my knees, exhausted even by anger. For so many years, I have never been his opponent. It really has been many, many years. I always remember that afternoon. It rained heavily and violently. I have never seen such overwhelming rain again, as if it is going to drown the whole world alive.Lin Huanzhi stood there leaning against that window, his eyes swept over the faces of our dozen children one by one, then suddenly pointed at me and said, "It's her." "Qiqi?" the dean said, "This kid is a bit withdrawn and has a bad temper."

Lin Huanzhi didn't answer her, but came over, knelt down in front of me, stretched out his hand and said to me, "Your name is Qiqi? Shake my hand, I will take care of your life from now on." "Do you have a princess dress?" I asked him.After Luo Ningzi was adopted, she came back to visit us. She was wearing a beautiful princess dress and gave each of us candy. I threw the candy she gave me into the toilet. "Yes." He grinned, "From now on, you can have whatever you want." I know very little about my life experience, except that my surname is Ye, and in the orphanage, they all call me Qiqi, Ye Qiqi.After Lin Huanzhi adopted me, he didn't ask me to have the same surname as him. He just gave me another scientific name, Ye Xiaoji, for the convenience of going to school.

Lonely loneliness. I understand that he is a lonely adult and I am a lonely child. We depend on each other. He didn't break his promise, gave me everything I wanted, and promised me many unreasonable demands, even including taking a year off from school in the second year of high school. In fact, this is my trick, I don't want to study anymore, I feel dizzy when I sit in class, otherwise, I would never throw the chalk that the teacher threw at me back in his face in math class superior.Not to mention kissing in the classroom with the boy I don't like, that boy is chased by many people, but I swear, I really didn't like him for a second.

I didn't even know his name, whether it was Zeng Wei or Zeng Wei. I just left the school freely. Maizi came to see me. She is a doctor and an old friend of Lin Huanzhi, ten years younger than Lin Huanzhi.I know she has always liked Lin Huanzhi very much.I also know that she doesn't like me.I overheard her saying to Lin Huanzhi: "You have to be careful about Qiqi, take her out to have fun, if it develops into depression, it will be troublesome." "Don't talk nonsense." Lin Huanzhi scolded her. "I'm a doctor, can I still scare you?" Lin Huanzhi fell silent.

Later, he said that he would take me on a trip to Europe, and he had all the passports ready, but I refused to go anyway. Maizi came to persuade me and said a lot of high-sounding words.I said viciously: "Shut up!" She was stunned for a long time, tears were about to come out, Lin Huanzhi sighed and pulled her away. When I’m not going to school, I don’t like to go out, but I often quarrel with Lin Huanzhi on the Internet, such as when he asked me to go to some oral English training class, or accused me of being too avant-garde in clothes.After every quarrel, I am exhausted.It's not that I didn't want to ease the relationship between us, but in fact it is getting worse day by day.

No, it was so bad that he had to run away from home in order to solve the problem. Of course, it is only a temporary solution, unless one day, I really and completely leave that home. I told Lin Huanzhi that I was hungry and I was going to "Santia".He held the steering wheel and said, "No problem." I know that he will accommodate me. This is his weakness. He always reflects his tolerance and greatness by accommodating me. He is willing to be used by me repeatedly to prove his choice without regret.It's a pity that I'm not grateful to him. I thought unconscionably more than once that I would rather grow up in an orphanage to this day. Maybe mediocre or helpless, but I'm sure I won't be scarred.

I ate a lot that meal, as if only eating could drown all my unhappiness.Lin Huanzhi had no appetite at all, and was slowly sipping a cup of charcoal-roasted coffee opposite me.I couldn't help looking around while I was eating, there was no single man in the huge hall, and the guy named Commoner might not have come at all.But I'm really interested to see what he looks like, who is the only man who can make me laugh out loud online. While Lin Huanzhi was going to the bathroom, I quietly turned on my phone.In order to avoid being found, the mobile phone was not turned on for many days.As soon as I opened the short message, I flocked to it.Countless messages were sent by the self-righteous handsome guy surnamed Zeng: Miss your smile, miss your coat, miss your white socks and the smell on your body...

TMGB! When I got angry, I turned off the phone again. There is still no one who looks like a commoner. This world is really full of deception and despair. Lin Huanzhi walked over from a distance, he looked quite handsome.In the past, all the students in our class envied me for having a handsome and rich dad, but I never called him dad, and he never asked me to.I've been trying to figure out whether I love him or hate him, but I just can't figure it out. I believe he is too, and we are each other. He sat down and asked me, "Are you full? You can take it out if you're not full." "You only raised a pig." I reciprocated his sarcasm by defaming myself. "Hehe." He laughed, "Pigs are full of treasures." The implication is very clear! I reminded myself not to get angry, to get angry is to admit defeat.So I smiled and said, "Whether it's wrong or right, it's not all your own choice. You have to forgive me, I was only six years old." He still smiled: "Did you know that a three-year-old baby will scold her mother now, who told you to give birth to me?" The implication is also very clear, your IQ is no different from that of a three-year-old child! I gave up bickering with him and drank a glass of orange juice loudly. It was already dark when I got home. To be precise, this is Lin Huanzhi's home, not mine.The home is big, with four floors.If I was alone I would shiver with cold.I am different from many people. Even in the hot summer, my hands and feet are always cold. Lin Huanzhi’s secretary once bought me expensive health care products for this. She pointed her head and wanted to marry him, but Lin Huanzhi had no interest in marriage at all.He wouldn't even marry Maizi, let alone this vulgar woman surnamed Zhu who always painted her eyes glittering gold. He forbade me to eat the capsules that Secretary Zhu made hype, and said flatly: "Girls don't eat these things indiscriminately." As soon as he changed hands, he gave it to Mama Wu who has been taking care of our diet and daily life. Seeing us coming home, Wu's mother had a look of relief on her face.He scolded me and said, "Go, go, take a shower, and change your clothes for me!" And exaggeratedly holding my nose, as if I just came back from a refugee camp. There is a strange plant in the living room, which is lush all year round. Lin Huanzhi loves it very much and waters it himself.I made a face at Wu's mother, and sat down on the sofa in the living room, my stomach was so full that I didn't want to say a word.Lin Huanzhi held the shower and poured water tirelessly.I know there will be no more quarrels between us, and every quarrel ends so blandly and without excitement.When I stood up and walked upstairs to my room, he suddenly stopped me: "Qiqi." I stop. He said behind me: "Qiqi, your hair is growing, you should cut it shorter." "Okay." I said without looking back. "I'm tired," he said, "you have to be considerate of me." My tears flowed down suddenly, but he couldn't see them.I ran upstairs.I heard my own footsteps echo hastily and dullly in the room.I ran into my room and threw myself on the bed, burying my head in the covers to keep myself from hearing my whimpers. I don't know how long it took, but Mama Wu called me from behind: "Qiqi!" "Leave me alone!" I yelled, laying my head on the pillow. "Someone is looking for you." Mama Wu said, "It's downstairs." "Who?" I asked. She shook her head at me, then walked out of my room. I wiped away my tears and walked out the door. Looking down the spiral staircase, I saw a very familiar face, Zeng Wei?Or Zeng Wei? I walked down lazily.He stood up happily, saw my unhappy face, and immediately defended himself, saying: "Your mobile phone has not been turned on." "No recharge." I said, "It's useless to turn it on." "I haven't seen you for a long time," he said. "I know it's presumptuous, but I really want to see you. By the way, your father is very kind." By the way, where is Lin Huanzhi? I looked around, where did Lin Huanzhi go? "Are you really not going back to school?" He asked me. "Look around," I said. "Do I still need to study?" "I've always heard that your family is very rich, but," he smiled, "I don't think it has much to do with whether you study or not, what do you think?" "Stop talking nonsense." I sat down opposite him, "Save your energy." "Ye Xiaoji." He said, "I really miss you." After speaking, he put his hand on my knee. I looked at him and smiled, he seemed to be encouraged, and he came to hold my hand again, and I suddenly screamed mischievously: "Ah, ah, ah..." He was so frightened that he jumped up from the sofa, and jumped a long way, his face became red and funny, Lin Huanzhi and Wu Ma appeared out of nowhere, Lin Huanzhi glanced at him with stern eyes, and then asked me :"what happened?" The boy picked up his bag and fled. Seeing his embarrassed appearance, I couldn't help laughing.Tears welled up when I smiled, I couldn't stop laughing, and I couldn't stop crying.I was crying and laughing while thinking that I am really crazy, I have always been a lunatic, I need a doctor, a merciful doctor who will save me. Even if it is wheat. Lin Huanzhi walked over and he hugged me.I started shaking in his arms and kept shaking.He patted my back lightly and said to me: "Qiqi, tell me, what exactly do you want?" "I want you to marry." I said, "marry Maizi." "Hehe." He smiled, "It's not that you don't like her all the time." "But you like it, don't you?" I said, "I don't want to be a burden to so-and-so." Lin Huanzhi asked me to sit down, Wu's mother poured tea, which was Lin Huanzhi's favorite Longjing, and Lin Huanzhi said to me word by word in the mist of the tea: "Qiqi, I don't want you to interfere with me. love life. You must also be clear about one thing, I don't get married, it's not because of you. " "But if Maizi says yes, everyone will say yes!" "I'm your father, so can't you be wronged for me?" I raised my head in surprise. I never expected Lin Huanzhi to talk to me like this. Although he has been a responsible father all these years, he never asked me to do a little bit of responsibility as a daughter. I never called him Dad, he didn't blame me one iota. But…… "Marriage is a rope for me." Lin Huanzhi said, "Before adopting you, I got married twice, and each time ended in haste and pain. I don't want to enter into a marriage again. If you can be My shield, then Qiqi, it's only natural for you to shield me, right?" Seriously, I'm shocked by this level of conversation. "Is that why you adopted me?" I asked him. "You're half right," he said. "What about the other half?" I asked. "You have to experience it for yourself," he said. "I hate you," I said, "your self-righteous love has ruined my life." "I know you've always thought so." Lin Huanzhi said, "I didn't choose wrong back then, and your self-righteousness is no worse than mine. We love each other, and we are destined to meet each other." I am speechless. After a long time, I said: "I want to go to study, France, the United States, Australia, anywhere." "I'll think about it." He promised me. I looked at him and said seriously: "I will always be full of eager anticipation." He laughed again and asked me, "When did you learn to speak politely?" "You should ask me when I have grown up." I said, "I am seventeen years old, and soon I will be eighteen, nineteen, twenty. I will fall in love, I will marry, and I will leave you. You should Make such preparations early. So, driving me out early may not be the best choice." He was deeply hit by my words, buried his head and waved to me weakly to signal me to leave. I leave and go upstairs.Turn on the phone and surf the Internet. Mama Wu came up immediately, poked half of her head in, and said to me, "Qiqi, if you make trouble again, I'll whip you with a leather whip!" I know Wu's mother won't, she loves me very much.I have the same birthday as her daughter, and she makes delicious food, always in duplicate.If I go shopping and see beautiful clothes, I will buy two.I stuck out my tongue at her, and she said to me, "Your father is very sad. You are too much. I'm going home, you remember to comfort him." "Goodbye." I tapped the keyboard quickly without looking back. She closed the door for me, loudly of course, I shrugged and didn't look back. I entered "Castle", which is a website that I often go to, it is a personal website, and the number of visitors is very limited.What first attracted me was its name, its full name, a small golden castle against an almost completely black background, next to a line of small shallow words: a little lonely, a little painful, a little publicized, a little overwhelmed.Kind of needs reassurance.So, click on it, it's a bit beautiful. I seem to have all these "somethings", so I became a frequent visitor to it. The moderator is You Nuo, a girl with a sweet smile who is studying Chinese in college.I heard that she has published a book, and her writing is beautiful.Sometimes when I read the words she wrote, I would cry for no reason.Knowing that I'm in the same city as her, her website feels more familiar to me. Tonight, Bu Yi is not here, Yuno is not here, Baobaolan stays alone in the chat room, sees me in, and sends me a grinning smile.Then he said: "Naughty fairy Qiqi, you are so angry that the commoner!" "By the way, Commoner. Where is he?" "He waited for you in the night wind for three hours, and now he went home and cried bitterly." "Hey." I said, "Bao Baolan, don't be fooled by him, he let me dove, I didn't even see his shadow!" "I don't want to be an online judge." Baobaolan shook his head and said, "Go and see my new work!" "No, no, no, I won't go." I said, "I hate that your articles are full of shadows of a man, who is worthless, boring, and exciting." "Fairy Qiqi is mentally handicapped." "Good scolding." "Fairy Qi Qi is crazy." "Good scolding." "Yaoyao Qiqi has no conscience." "Exactly." ... Bao Baolan kept on scolding, and I just kept on doing it without self-respect.Until she had enough scolding, she stopped, and the chat room was quiet.I take a drink of water with my fingers off the keyboard. Baobaolan suddenly burst into tears. I asked her, "Really crying or fake crying?" "I'm really crying," she said, "I'm about to take the college entrance examination, but I can't do anything." "Don't you know how to surf the Internet?" She scolded me for so long, and it was my turn to take revenge. "I want to commit suicide." Bao Baolan said. "It's less painful to take sleeping pills." I suggested. "I want to jump from upstairs to downstairs like Leslie Cheung." She said, "Flying before dying is romantic enough." "Then take me with you." I said, "I'll just dance with you." "Bring a parachute," Bao Baolan giggled, "We scare our mother to death before we die." "I don't have a mother." I said. "I always said that when I was rebellious." Bao Baolan said: "Actually, it doesn't matter if you have a mother or not!".After speaking, she went offline, leaving me alone.Posts about Leslie Cheung were flying all over the Internet, I clicked on one of his mp3s to listen to, it was in Cantonese that I was not familiar with, with a lonely and affectionate male voice.They said he was depressed. Maizi said that I may also suffer from depression. I hate Maizi, this seemingly gentle and considerate woman, and hate her vicious curses on me. I will take revenge on her, sooner or later. The night was maddeningly quiet.I wrapped my clothes tightly to see Bao Baolan's new post.She didn't write about Leslie Cheung, she was writing about herself, about her cold war with a certain man, which made you sad and desperate.I didn't tell the truth to Bao Baolan, but I actually like her writing, she doesn't need to read at all, she can be a writer.As a writer, you can support yourself. I always remember what she said in a post: I ran all the way, eager to find a face similar to mine in the crowded and hurried crowd. She has a similar fate to mine.I can see the reference of my own life in her, where to go, no longer so hasty. She said it in my heart. In fact, I have been subconsciously looking for that face similar to myself. That person may be my mother or my father. He can tell me where I come from and what I should do. where to go. It's just that this kind of encounter is always in the dream of the night, separated by a distance that can never be reached by reaching out.When I woke up, it was a gorgeous world that Lin Huanzhi gave me. In this world, I bumped into walls everywhere, worried and worried, and finally got scarred, and I could never find an exit. This is not the golden castle I want, I knew it from the moment I was six years old wearing a princess dress and following Lin Huanzhi into his house.