The 69th floor is the tallest building in the city.If I jump down, I can fly like a butterfly... Life is like a story, and stories make life.If there is no encounter, there will be no story, but the story is sad or happy, but we can never make the decisions ourselves.Spring, summer, autumn and winter go round and round, and those days of pain and laughter that have passed away but are still memorable are like bundles of happy tracks.Those flying butterflies seem to have been to this sweet and warm world, and they have been gorgeous, so don't say that everything is in vain... first part Some girls are born to be pampered.Ruomei is.Since she was fourteen years old, a large group of boys followed her, and with a wave of her hand, she didn't have to do any physical work herself.That's all, she also has a brother who is eight years older than her, which is incredible and enviable to girls of our age.I remember that when it was windy and rainy, we all rushed home with big schoolbags. Ruomei would be picked up by her brother on a motorcycle, put on a transparent raincoat for her, and carefully arrange the corners of the clothes for her. Then help her into the car.

Section 1: Wild lilies also have spring (1) Wild Lily also has spring. Ruomei was my buddy in junior high school.When you read her name, you may think: If it is a rose?In fact, it is not Ruo, Ruomei is a rose, I have never seen a girl who looks more like a rose than her.Some girls are born to be pampered.Ruomei is.Since she was fourteen years old, a large group of boys followed her, and with a wave of her hand, she didn't have to do any physical work herself.That's all, she also has a brother who is eight years older than her, which is incredible and enviable to girls of our age.I remember that when it was windy and rainy, we all rushed home with big schoolbags. Ruomei would be picked up by her brother on a motorcycle, put on a transparent raincoat for her, and carefully arrange the corners of the clothes for her. Then help her into the car.The girls were tongue-tied with envy.But after getting along with me, Ruomei refused her brother to pick her up, preferring to go home with me in the rain or with a small flower umbrella.Ruomei likes me because I am brave, I dare to talk back to the most vicious math teacher, and I dare to stand outside the window on the fourth floor of the teaching building while cleaning the glass and making faces at the people inside.Ruomei jumped up and waved to me in panic and said, "Dead Yeye, please come down quickly, if you don't come down I'm going to have a heart attack." If Ruomei is a rose, I'm a little wild lily, Growing up against each other, it's just that Ruomei regards me as if she knows me, so I never feel inferior.My first contact with her brother was on Ruomei's fourteenth birthday. Ruomei said to her brother: "This is my best friend Ye Ye." Then she said to me: "This is my elder brother Ruosong " Ruosong reached out to shake my hand, I was so scared that my face flushed and I jumped back suddenly.It made the two brothers and sisters laugh out loud.It was on that night that she fell in love with Ruo Song.Many years later, I also feel that it is not too much to use the word "love".Wakamatsu can sing very well.Ruomei is tone deaf, I really didn't expect him to have a brother who can sing so well.It was a summer night, in the living room of Ruomei's house, he was holding a guitar and singing to us one by one. "The world is not as sad as you imagine. Whenever the spring breeze blows, the leaves are green and green on the branches. Summer has just begun, and the cicadas are composing songs on the branches..." These are songs we have never heard before, he His voice is very clean. When singing, he would occasionally look at me, and I would lower my head shyly.At Ruomei's order, he was the one who sent me home that night. I sat on the back of his motorcycle, tugging at his clothes nervously and frantically.My heart is turbulent.I wish I never got home.After getting out of the car, he said to me: Ye Ye, go upstairs slowly, I will look at you.His voice is so gentle, and he is also very good-looking. When I got home, I couldn't fall asleep. My mind was full of his songs and his appearance.I sighed and thought, the whole family is either handsome or beautiful. I really don't know what kind of blessings Ruomei's mother had in her previous life.After that, I always hoped that Ruomei would invite me to her house to play. If Ruomei kept refusing to invite me, I would make excuses to go.When I'm lucky, I can always meet her elder brother. He calls me Yatou, pats my head and says, "Girl, you've grown so much taller!" I like it when he calls me Yatou, it's so sweet in my heart.

Section 2: Wild lilies also have spring (2) However, youthful emotions are only precious to me. In the eyes of others, they are either incurable or worth mentioning. I carefully protect my secrets and prevent him from leaking a little bit.That's how I grew up.Although Ruomei and Ruomei didn't study in the same school in high school, our relationship is still very good.Maybe it was Ai Wu Ji Wu, Ruo Song also loved me very much, and gave me a beautiful wallet on my 18th birthday.I couldn't put it down, holding it to endorse and study hard.The third year of high school passed in a flash.After the college entrance examination, I was admitted to a university in the south, while Ruomei stayed in the local area to study.When Ruomei was seeing me off from the station, she hugged me and wept bitterly: "Ye Ye, I will be lonely when you leave." I patted her on the shoulder to express my comfort.I saw Ruosong over Ruomei's shoulder, he was carrying my big bag of luggage, his eyes were deep and difficult to understand.He didn't say two words until the car drove: "Take care." I said: "Okay." Then I waved goodbye to them calmly.It wasn't until the car drove away that I sat in the compartment and started crying.The aunt on the opposite side said: "Girl, it's the first time to go out, don't be sad, next time it will be much better." She didn't know that my crying was not because I was reluctant to leave home, but I was actually just reluctant to leave Ruosong, even though there was a relationship between me and Ruosong. Nothing happened.Of course Ruomei would not be lonely without me, love stories follow one after another, because beautiful women will never have a chance to be lonely.On the first Mid-Autumn Festival when I left home, I stood on the playground in the autumn wind and used an IC card to call my mother and then called Ruomei. Ruomei was not at home, and Ruosong answered the call.I asked him a happy Mid-Autumn Festival, and he politely asked me if I was still used to being outside and had I ever cried.I am a little proud to say that all the girls are holding their phones and crying in the dormitory, but I am not the only one.But the phone is not enough, I can only go to the playground to make calls. "There are rewards for being brave," Ruosong said, "I'll treat you to Haagen-Dazs when you come back." I laughed: "Do you still know about Haagen-Dazs?" Always at the forefront of the times." "Yes, I still remember her wearing those stiletto suspender sandals in the second year of junior high school, and she was scolded to death by our teacher." "Hehe," Ruosong said, "Is it cold?"" It's okay." I thought he was going to hang up the phone, but I was really reluctant, but who knew he said, "Then tell me the phone number, and I'll call you." That night I stood on the playground and chatted with Ruosong for almost half the time. For many hours, before this, I had never talked so much with him, and the receiver was slightly hot when I held it in my hand, until he said: "Go to sleep, have a good dream!" I am very sweet He hung up the phone without hesitation, and returned to the dormitory with a red face.The girl on the lower bunk looked at me and said, "Yeye, you are not in love, are you? Why do you look so good on the sad Mid-Autumn Festival?" "Who is as worthless as you?" Home." The next day Ruomei called me, but she didn't call to wish me a happy Mid-Autumn Festival because she didn't call until almost twelve o'clock and came home last night.

Section 3: Wild lilies also have spring (3) "Fuck you," I complained, "Where do you have me in your heart?" "Swear and swear." Ruomei said, "But Ye Ye, why don't you fall in love? How can I let you go if you don't fall in love? Make up your mind?" From Ruomei's tone, I could see that Ruo Song didn't tell her about our phone conversation last night.Of course I wouldn't mention it, I just said: "I will never fall in love on campus." Ruomei scolded me for being stupid, but I dared not tell her that I fell in love with her elder brother for six full years.I despise anyone except her elder brother.In his sophomore year, Wakamatsu came to me on a business trip. This year, Wakamatsu was nearly 30 years old. He no longer played the piano and sang, but started a business. He held a very high position in a large computer company with a good annual salary.My mother and Ruomei asked him to bring me a big bag of snacks from my hometown.He also took me to dinner in a very high-end restaurant. The first time I was alone with him, I was like a complete little fool.Ruosong helped me pick up vegetables and said, "Ye Ye has become quiet after studying in college?" When we were together, I didn’t even see it?” I blushed and said, “Ruomei’s life is still so colorful, isn’t it?” “Yes,” Ruo Song sighed, “it’s too rich.” “Your sister is The pride of your family." "You are not bad." Ruo Song said: "Compared with you, her ability to take care of herself is much worse. Fortunately, she did not pass the exam. If she goes to university outside like you, I will Mom must force me to accompany her." "That's because she is blessed." I said sourly. "Hehe." Wakamatsu was noncommittal.After dinner, Ruosong asked me: "Where do you want to go to play? Ruomei told me to accompany you well. Otherwise, I won't be spared when I go home." "How about singing?" I mustered up the courage to say: "Long time no Listening to your singing." "Hehe, good." "Ruosong agreed readily beyond my expectation. That night Ruosong sang a lot of songs, and he sang whatever I ordered. I was deeply intoxicated by his singing In the middle of the song, many things that I never dared to imagine wandered back and forth in my heart. Finally, Wakamatsu said: "Ye Ye, I have sung so much, you should also sing one, right? "I was shy for a long time, and finally ordered a song that I have liked for many years-"Wild Lily Also Has Spring." It was like a dream, and our meeting was so short.You are like a breeze gently blowing into my heart..." For the first time, I found that my singing voice was so beautiful. When I sang, Ruosong lit a cigarette, and he watched me sing in the smoke , I was nervous again, staring at the screen, but my eyes were blurred for some reason, and I couldn’t read the words on the screen clearly. A song was sung at the end of the day. It was late at night after singing, and Ruosong even took a taxi to see me off Back to school, all the way, as if I was his own sister. I couldn't describe my happiness, so I couldn't help but stop him when I said goodbye: "Ruosong. " "Ok? "He turned around." Thank you. "I said: "I'm very happy tonight. "

Section 4: Wild lilies also have spring (4) "Girl, don't be polite to big brother." He said with a smile, and pinched my face affectionately. "The girl has grown up." I said bravely. "That's good," said Ruosong, "goodbye, big girl!" After Ruosong left, I was still intoxicated in the memory of that night for many days and couldn't extricate myself.summer vacation.I can't wait to go home, hoping to see Wakamatsu sooner.I think there are actually a lot of things that can be said to Wakamatsu, and age is not a problem.Everything is not a problem. Although I am not as beautiful as Ruomei, I am sure that I have grown up and become a lovely big girl.On the day I went to his house, Ruomei happened to be in a bad mood. I asked her why she refused to tell the truth, but invited me to watch an evening movie, and then went to the bar after the movie.I followed her.But on the way home, we were unfortunately entangled by some drunken gangsters. In order to protect Ruomei from getting out, I was stabbed heavily in the shoulder.In the hospital, Ruomei hugged me and cried like hell. I was so painful that my face was purple, but I kept reassuring her that she was fine.It wasn't until Ruosong came to my hospital bed that I couldn't help crying like a tearful person.Ruomei sobbed and said, "Brother, Yeye is all for me." "Still talking?" Ruosong said fiercely to her, "You're so old and not sensible at all!" "Don't scold Ruomei." The properties of the medicine have come up, I said angrily. "Okay." He gently touched my face with his fingers and said, "You have a good rest." I fell asleep under the magic touch.However, not long after I was discharged from the hospital, I heard that he was getting married soon.I met that lucky girl.She is also a beautiful woman. She just came back from studying in the United States. She wears famous brand clothes. When she greets me, she uses English.My English is not so good, so I had to chat with her.Ruomei didn't like her sister-in-law-to-be, she turned her back and made faces at me.Her elder brother saw her and glared at her. Ruomei stuck out her tongue and obediently pulled me out to go shopping. The sun was shining brightly, and my heart was broken into pieces.It's so funny, I don't have time to say anything, I fell in love without knowing it, and I fell in love without knowing it.I want to give Wakamatsu a wedding gift, and after much deliberation, perhaps the best gift is my diaries over the years, filled with my thoughts and admiration for him.I have never been a willful girl, but now, I said to myself, why not be willful once?I don't want to get anything, I just hope Ruosong can know my heart in time, so that I don't love in vain.I arrived at Ruo Song's company under the scorching sun. He was busy when he saw me and put down his work. He invited me to sit at the coffee shop opposite. "I wish you a happy wedding! Happiness is just fine, better than anything else!" I was a little incoherent. "Does it still hurt?" He put two sugars in the coffee for me, leaned over and asked me. "It hurts." I said.In fact, what I said was distressed. "Then rest well and don't run around." "I'm here to wish you a happy wedding." I said. "It's still early," Ruo Song said, "I think you are more anxious than Ruo Mei, why are you worried that I won't be able to marry a wife?"

Section 5: Wild lilies also have spring (5) "No, no." I shook my hand in a panic and said, "If you want to marry, I don't know how many people are lining up." "Young girl's mouth is so sweet." Ruosong said: "If this day really comes, I ask you to keep it." The order is good." "No," I said with my head down, "I want Gasser." "Hehe." Ruosong disagreed: "The little girl is quite humorous." I stood up and handed the big bag of diaries to him A shove in front of me, and I ran away.In the next few days, I didn't dare to go out, so I waited for Ruosong's call at home. I thought he would give me an explanation. I knew him and believed him.Ruo Song didn't call, but Ruo Mei called me instead, and complained to me on the phone: "Brother doesn't let me go out at night, I'm so bored to death." "You can do it," I said, "Let you Those crazy bees and butterflies rest?" "Dead Yeye," Ruomei scolded, "it will hurt people more and more." "Where's your brother?" Still couldn't help asking. "Watching TV with that foreign girl in the living room, like two door gods, it's impossible to sneak out." A pain flashed through my heart, Ruosong was with his girlfriend, maybe, he didn't have time to look through those I'm talking to myself. "Good Yeye, come and accompany me." Ruomei said, "Bring me two pairs of spicy chicken wings, a corn on the cob and a box of mashed potatoes. I'm hungry." "Hungry?" "Lose weight, no dinner Dare to eat more." "Let's reduce you to a refugee camp." I was annoyed. "You don't know how popular skinny beauties are now." She said: "Come on, come on, my brother said to buy double, he please." When I entered her house with KFC, I met Ruosong's daughter My friend rushed out the door, looked at me like air, and walked away with a livid face.Ruomei is in the living room, pouted with grievance. "What's wrong?" I asked.Seeing me as if I were a savior, Ruomei said, "She speaks English at my house. I couldn't bear her so I asked her if she could speak Chinese. She said yes, but it's just a habit. I said you have to follow my house when you are in my house Habit, she said you were really spoiled by your brother, I called her a vixen, and she ran away in anger." "Ah!" I said, "Romei, how can you do this?" "I just can't understand her " "Where's your brother?" "On the terrace. Go and persuade him, Yeye, let me take a bath to calm down." Wakamatsu smoked on the terrace.Seeing me, I said nonchalantly: "Oh, Ye Ye is here?" "Ruomei is self-willed." I said, "Don't blame her." "Why?" Ruo Song said: "I won't be angry with her " "Aren't you going to chase?" I asked. "Hehe," Ruo Song said, "I will come back if I want to." "I'm here to get my things back." I said in a low voice, afraid that Ruo Mei would hear. "What?" "You know." I was almost made to cry by him. "I won't pay it back." He said domineeringly, "You still want to go back after giving it to me?" I was at a loss as to what to do.Wakamatsu what do you mean? "You're still young." Ruosong said: "The story is long, please be happy?" "Ruosong." I tried to sound mature, trying to be on an equal footing with him: "If there is no satisfactory protagonist, there is no story."

Section 6: Wild lilies also have spring (6) "But most of the time you can't be a director, how can you do the casting by yourself?" After he finished speaking, he patted me on the shoulder and went into his room, and never came out.After Ruomei took a bath, Bi Luo lightened her shirt, she was so dazzlingly beautiful.I looked at her and sighed: "A beautiful woman like you, tell me what else do you need?" "Love." Ruomei leaned on my shoulder. "Is it too much to deal with?" "I just want the only one." "Hehe," I said, "Who is our princess happy and worried about?" "Ye Ye, Ye Ye!" Ruomei leaned against me Said: "I just found out about something." "What?" "My elder brother is not my own elder brother. My mother used to think that she could not conceive, so she adopted my elder brother. Who knew that eight years later, she became pregnant with me by accident. "I was like a thunderbolt. "I love him." Ruomei said: "From the day I knew the truth, I wanted to marry him. In fact, my mother also had the same meaning. My mother said, I am too self-willed, only he can control me But Yeye, I don’t want him to marry me just to repay his parents’ kindness.” “Your brother loves you so much,” I said, “He will not give you what you want?” “Really?” Ruomei Turning worry into joy: "I want to tell him what's on my mind, do you think it's okay?" "Yes." I hugged her, but I actually felt cold.When I walked out of Ruomei's house, my steps were messy. If I had any fantasies before, they would have disappeared long ago.I used to think that I was a girl who knew how to love, so I could bury a love in my heart for so many years. Until now, I realized that I don’t understand the true face of love at all. It’s unpredictable, and it will make you despair when you turn around .I went back to the South to continue my studies.In the following holidays, I was busy participating in various social practices, or carrying a small backpack for self-help travel, but I never went home again.After graduation, despite everyone's opposition, he chose a job that allowed him to stay in the south.The friends in my hometown gradually faded away, only Ruomei would often call me to report the progress of her love with Ruosong. "It's too ripe." Ruomei said, "It's nothing new, but I think maybe I was born to be his rose. So I'm happy." "Bless you all." I said. "Ye Ye, will you come back when we get married?" Ruo Mei said: "My brother said you should go home." "You still call him brother?" "If you can't change it, let's call it forever." Grinning: "What about you? Haven't you waited for someone worthy of love?" I suspect that you don't understand style." I hung up the phone with a smile.When they got married, I didn't go back after all.But I sent a very expensive gift, two platinum rings.Imagine them wearing them, hand in hand through the long years of the world of mortals.Just the day before their wedding, I received an express mail.It was sent by Ruomatsu. On a piece of paper, there was only a website written with a pen.I surf the Internet very quickly.It was a flash song Wakamatsu made for me, and the title of the song was "Wild Lilies Also Have Spring".I once sang that song for him face to face, and the lyrics of this song are on the title page of every diary I have. Flash is very beautifully produced, and a line of words popped out at the end of the song: "Give it to Ye Ye. Promise me that you will be happy. Ruosong." How should I tell Ruosong that I am happy.I am really happy.I have found my spring in kindness and tolerance.I also understand that love does not necessarily have to be truly owned.

Section 7: Eight Hours for Two (1) Two people's eight hours suddenly one day, I was afraid to sleep.I was afraid that if I fell asleep, I would never wake up again.So I couldn't sleep all night.Sometimes when I think about it, it’s fine if I can’t sleep, but I still have to suffer from repeated stomach pains.Of course Tao Ran doesn't know that I have a stomachache. He is too tired during the day and always sleeps so deeply and soundly at night.When I was tossing and turning, I remembered that the doctor wearing glasses in the hospital handed me the medical records coldly and said, "I'm afraid your stomach needs to be checked carefully." It was a physical examination organized by our unit.Xiao Qi from the same department comforted me and said: "Don't listen to the doctors, they are always alarmist." After she finished speaking, she left first, saying that she had a date with her boyfriend.I was alone, wearing my gray windbreaker, walking out of the hospital, and a gray pigeon slanted past me.I couldn't walk at first, and I was a little crooked, so I missed F, and thought that he once said to me lovingly: "M, you are like a little gray pigeon." F actually couldn't see me, We are far apart and chat through the Internet.Sometimes we also say some intimate words, there are endless fancy names in the chat room, we just knock on two lonely symbols to meet in the chat room, and then comfort each other.We felt good about each other, so we met again.That's all.But I always feel that F is closer to me than Tao Ran.I came to this strange city for Tao Ran.In fact, I am not used to it, not used to eating, not used to sleeping, not even breathing.The reason why I fell in love with Tao Ran at first was because he was tall, but now, the streets are full of tall men, and I am just a petite woman who hates the wind and sand all over the sky and the never-ending pages of newspapers.On lonely nights, I babbled to F on the Internet: Tao Ran and I were top students in the Chinese Department of a key university. After graduation, I went back to his hometown with him. He was assigned to a TV station, and I was assigned to an evening newspaper.Each other's jobs are pretty good, we rent a two-bedroom house and live together.When you have nothing to do at night, take out your savings and order a little, and imagine the day when you live in a mansion that is completely your own.In order to shorten this waiting time, I started writing books, hoping to earn some royalties. Those books would not be signed by my name. One of my senior sisters gave me this opportunity. She only needs to drink coffee every day to charge me. E-mail, but it can cost more than twice as much as mine. F made fun of me and said: "No wonder you are so talented in chatting, which books are actually written by you, tell me, and I will buy them."

Section 8: Eight Hours for Two (2) "Don't buy it," I said, "I don't get a penny of royalties, you might as well treat me to a candied haws." "Mail me your work," he said, "I will read it carefully." I insisted I don't care if he reads the email or not, at least in my heart, I finally have a real reader.He wrote back to me early the next morning, and said in the letter: "So your name is Mai Ya. Is Mai Ya your real name or a pseudonym? If you like your writing, you can become a real writer." Attached my manuscript Send it back, the typos are marked with a red pen, it can be seen that he has read it very carefully.When typing late at night, I often have a lot of typos, and I am too lazy to correct them.Thank you very much for F's seriousness.I know that in this world, it is very difficult for a man to read some words seriously.Unless, he likes you.Tao Ran just didn't have time to read what I wrote.In order to make money, he has taken the initiative to transfer from the news department of the TV station to the advertising department. His performance is quite good, but he seldom goes home for dinner. I made his favorite spicy tofu. It deflated little by little, and when it was ten o'clock, I dumped it out intact, because my stomach could no longer eat anything irritating.I drank a glass of plain water and started chatting with F online again.I said to F: "Loneliness is the biggest killer, kill all the passion in life." F said: "I am the biggest killer of loneliness, instantly let him disappear without a trace." "That's true," I said , "F, hold me tighter." He hugged me tightly, and we didn't speak a word for three minutes.The screen is blank.But I really don't feel that cold.I put my fingers on the keyboard and thought, in fact, I am no longer a child, but I am still addicted to such games, I am really empty to the extreme, otherwise I would not be like this.Then F said, "Two hours on the plane, I can really hug you." I gave him a sticker of the plane.He also gave me two little people who love each other.The little man put his arms around the waist of the little girl, and the little girl's eyes curled up in laughter.The big mouth grinned to the back of the head. "Bah bah bah," I said unhappily, "I'm not that ugly." He said, "Seriously, do you want to see me?" "Heh," I said, "I'm a married woman."" Heh, I'm a married man." "So, no real hugs," I said. "So conservative?" He teased me. "say to me. "I don't have enough confidence," he said, "I want to be by your side, I bet you will let me hug you, believe it or not?" "Believe it!" I said.I just like the confidence of F.Such an ambiguous conversation with a strange man through an unknown distance, the night finally became a little lighter. I told F that I was going to get off, and F kissed me and wished me a good dream.He will never keep me.I suspect that he has other chat friends, but often when I go back to the chat room many times, he has disappeared. I don't know if he has changed another name.

Section 9: Eight hours for two (3) In short, F is very mysterious to me. I don’t know anything except which city he is in, and I don’t want to ask. All online relationships are probably like this.I smiled and poured myself another glass of boiled water.I still have more than 10,000 words of manuscripts to catch up, but I am already very tired, and I suspect that I will fall asleep while typing.I used the time of pouring water to imagine F. I hope he is not too tall, wears a decent suit, is clean, smiles, and has white teeth.If we do meet one day, I won't be disappointed.When Tao Ran came back, he was already half-drunk and said a lot of inexplicable things. I waited for him to wash up, helped him to bed, he hugged me, smelled of alcohol, I pushed him away without showing any trace, and then I heard him shout "Trine! "Huh?" I looked at him. "Triana!" he continued, before falling asleep with his head tilted.I heard clearly that Trina should be a woman's name, and she should have just finished drinking with Tao Ran.Perhaps Tao Ran's hand just left her waist.When I was hating my imagination, Tao Ran's cell phone rang, and a female voice asked, "Tao Ran, where have you been, Tao Ran?" I turned off his cell phone without saying a word, feeling extremely sad.I had no one to talk to, and I didn't go back to the Internet to find F. F was just a shadow, but Trina was a real person.I think of Tao Ran, a clean boy wearing jerseys and sneakers, who delivered a large bag of roasted sweet potatoes to our dormitory in the cold winter. All the girls in the dormitory said to me enviously: "Tao Ran really hurts." Man, Mai Ya, you are blessed in this life." Love only belongs to the moonlight on that university campus.In this unbearably cold city, it is doomed to gradually shrink.I stayed up all night, writing sentimental romance novels, with the heroine and heroine as childhood sweethearts.But in the end she lost him at last, and I cried while writing.After I finished writing, I still sent a copy to my senior sister, and then I sent a letter to F, and I said in the letter: "F, please call me, I am H." I left my phone number , sit and watch the sky gradually brighten.Tao Ran woke up in the early morning, and he said, "Mai Ya, you wrote for another night?" "Yes." I said, "Senior sister is urging for it." Don't earn it. You are so talented, you can become a writer yourself. Why do you want to be someone else's shooter?" "Then what kind of money do you earn?" I turned to him and asked him.He hesitated for a moment and let me go and said, "Earning money should be a man's business." "Hehe." I forced a happy face and said, "How can I get married if I don't have money? I'm in a hurry to marry you!" "Mai Ya." He looked at me: "Are you angry?" "No." I said. "You're angry!" He sighed and said, "I'll try to go home earlier, last night was a big advertiser, he insisted on letting me drink..." I covered his mouth and didn't let him continue.Then I said, "Call the newspaper for me and tell me that I'm sick and I want to sleep."

Section 10: Eight Hours for Two (4) I lay down on the bed, but I didn't actually fall asleep.Listening to him wash his face and brush his teeth, eat breakfast, and call me to ask for leave.When I was about to go out, I felt him standing beside my bed for a while, but I didn't open my eyes.I couldn't sleep at all, and my stomach hurt sharply again.I got up and took a handful of stomach medicines indiscriminately, but the pain did not relieve at all.I willingly endured the pain.At this moment, my mobile phone rang, and it was a strange male voice: "Hello." My phone almost fell from my hand. "I'm sorry," he said, "I opened the mailbox late today, so I saw your letter." "Much faster than I expected." I said, "What should I call you? F?" "Hehe." He He laughed and said, "Today at five o'clock in the morning, when you sent the letter, I was actually awake." "What's the use of that?" I said, "You're not by my side." "Stomach still hurts?" I.I cried and only a stranger remembered my stomach ache. "Not good." He said, "The more I cry, the more my stomach hurts." I continued to cry.He hung up the phone.I was crying loudly, who would like a woman who is always resentful?I finally fell asleep slowly in the pain of self-defeating and giving up. I dreamed of my mother in my dream, and my mother said: "If you insist on walking so far, I can't control you anymore." In the examination room, when I was in the third year of high school, there were always endless tests. I tried my best to get into a good university. I couldn't get enough sleep every day, and I had to get up before dawn to memorize vocabulary.The endless alarm clock rings endlessly.When I woke up, it was not the alarm clock, but the phone. "Hello." I answer the phone like sleepwalking. "F." He said, "I'm at Room 1306, New Century Hotel." "F!" My sleepiness disappeared. "I told you," he said, "I can literally hug you just on a two-hour plane ride." I held the phone, unable to utter a word. "I can stay here for eight hours." F said, "May, I'll wait for you." I quickly got out of bed, washed, put on makeup, and changed clothes. Twenty minutes later, I was already standing at the door of his room.I woke up the moment I was about to knock on the door.etc.Who is he? Who is F?Why do you have to cross thousands of mountains and rivers for a strange woman?Just as I was hesitating, the door suddenly opened, and a man stood at the door, and said with an accent that I had known before: "Mai Ya? I feel you coming." I looked at him.He should be the kind of man I like very much, a little older than I imagined, but with a very refined temperament, looking into my eyes, full of love.Most importantly, he can feel me, and communicate with me all the time.I threw myself into his arms and the door closed behind us.He whispered in my ear, "Mai Ya, I really can't hear you crying like that, so I came without saying hello." "Take me away," I said, "F, I want to leave far away This damn place." Chapter 11: Eight Hours for Two (5) "Anything is fine." F said, "There will be a long time to come." "No." I shrank into his arms and said, "I wish I only had eight hours of life, and then I will give you all eight hours. If the time is longer, love will It will fade to nothing." "That's not very pleasant." F said helplessly.I smiled at him and he kissed my eyes.Then he said: "I came in a hurry, I didn't bring any presents, so I had to buy a bunch of flowers downstairs." I looked up and saw the bunch of flowers, which were roses, pink, and a lot of them were blooming delicately and noblely.I walked over, buried my face in the flower, and said stupidly: "A rich man can be romantic again. Mai Ya fell into a fairy tale and is wandering in a fairyland." I have to listen to the story of Alice in Wonderland." I whispered, "Does your wife know that you are here?" "I don't have a wife." He said, "She died two years ago." I was shocked : "Why did she die?" "Cancer." F said: "I was busy with company affairs every day, and she said that she was not feeling well every day, but I didn't care. If it was discovered early, she should be saved." "F." I Walking up to him: "Are you guilty?" He hugged me tightly and said, "Yes, all the time." "You love her very much?" "Yes." "Will you never love anyone else the way you love her?" F hesitated for a while and said: "Yes." "Then why do you still come to see me?" "You are the girl I like," F said: "I don't know why, you always make me feel bad, I hope I can let you Be happier. That's why I'm here." I noticed he was talking about distress.But I like this word very much. Since I worked and moved away from my hometown, I haven't been hurt by anyone.I kept thinking that something was going to happen between me and F, but nothing actually happened.We just cuddled and whispered like that, I called him F, I don't know why, I never asked his real name, and he never said it.我也知道了Ｆ上网的原因，妻子走后，他内心一直非常苦闷，所以才会到网上找人聊聊。而我，就是他最好的聊天对象。就这样一直到聊到吃晚饭的时间，F说：“找这里最好的饭店。我请你好好吃一顿。”我很少在外面吃饭，但我想起陶然曾经跟我提过多次的“怡然居”，应该是很不错的一个地方，我们打的去了“怡然居。”F一直握着我的手，因为一出门我的手就变得冰冰凉。在出租车上，F对我说：“我看北方不适合你，要不你跟我去南方吧，我家门口有一大片的花园，你可以坐在阳光里写作，写你自己的书。”“你在诱惑我，”我轻笑着说：“我连你是谁都不知道呢，焉知你会不会把我给卖掉？”“要想过新生活，就得冒险，为可是没办法的事。”他的下巴低着我的长发，司机暖昧地看我们一眼，我闭上眼睛，什么也不愿意去想。 第12节：两个人的八小时（6） 两个人，要了很大的包厢。没想到的是，我去上洗手间的时候，竟和陶然狭路相逢。我有些惊慌，但瞬间安定下来。陶然显然比我更吃惊，他说：“麦丫？你怎么会在这里。”“有朋友请吃饭。”我说。“什么朋友？”陶然说，“你哪里来的朋友？”原来他也知道我没有朋友。我正想着怎么回答他呢，他一把把我拉到边上低声说：“麦丫，你是在跟踪我？你不会变得这么俗气吧？”我狠狠地甩开他。低声说：“滚。”我回到包厢，Ｆ说：“怎么搞的，出去一下脸色就这么差？”“没什么。”我说。“喝杯酒暖暖身子。”他把酒杯递到我面前，我推开说：“我从不喝酒。”“喝一点点酒对你有好处。”Ｆ再将酒杯递到我唇边说：“试试？”陶然就在这时推门而入，他看看我，再看看F，厉声说：“麦丫，他是谁？”“朋友。”我说。“我看不是一般的朋友，你跟我说清楚到底是怎么回事？”陶然气势汹汹地盯着我，没有风度到了极点。服务小姐赶紧带上了门。“请你出去。”我说，“这里不欢迎你。”F低头喝茶。陶然说：“你马上给我回家去，有什么事我们回家再说！”“别对她那么凶。”F说话了，“她今天是我请来的客人。”“她是我的女人！”陶然说，“这里没你说话的份！”“知道是你的女人，你急什么？”F淡淡地说：“何去何从是她的选择。”“出去！”我再次说。陶然铁青着脸拂袖而去，一句话也没有留下。我强作欢颜跟Ｆ说：“干杯！”“他很爱你。”Ｆ说：“可惜的是年轻人总是不懂得呵护爱情。”“你是在说你自己？”我敏感地说。“也许吧，”Ｆ笑笑：“不过他要是失去你，一定会后悔一辈子的。”“何去何从是我自己的选择。”我把他的话扔还给他。他哈哈笑着说：“我也算是你的一个选择么？”狡猾的Ｆ，可是我打算比他更狡猾，于是我埋头吃菜。好象很长时间我都没有觉得菜有这么香了。吃完饭还有一个小时的时间，Ｆ就要赶到机场。出租车一直送我到小区的门口，Ｆ也下了车，对我说：“到了家不要跟他吵，有什么话都是可以慢慢说的。”“好的。”我说。“乖。”Ｆ摸一下我的头发说：“是我不好，本想给你带来快乐，没想到却是给你那么大的麻烦。”“别这么说。”我说。“那我走了？”他说：“我出差三天后回家。到时我们网上见？” 第13节：两个人的八小时（7） "Okay." I said.车子开走了，可过了一会儿又绕了回来。 Ｆ摇开车窗大声对我说：“麦丫，我说的都是真的！”“什么？”我问。 “全新的生活，阳光下的写作，你完全可以自己做选择。”说完他递给我一张名片说：“想好了，给我打个电话。”我在路灯下看Ｆ的名片，他姓居，叫居新。呵呵，居心不良。难怪他一直没主动告诉我他的真名。名片上很精致，上面的头衔也很大：某公司总裁。我信，Ｆ有总裁的气质。我回到家里，等了很久，陶然一夜末归。我在天明的时候打他的手机，接电话是一个女人，我记得那声音，她应该叫翠娜。她对我说：“陶然不想见你。”我强撑着去报社上班，我在摇摇晃晃的公车上想，命运和爱情，原来从来都由不得自己。所有的来去，不过都是一场梦。到了单位，大家都用关心的眼光在看我。小齐上来挽住我说：“麦丫我想会没事的，做个小手术也许就会好起来。”我不知道她在说什么。小齐掩口奇怪地说：“你昨天没来，我以为……”我走到我的办公桌前，上面放着我的体检报告。 “没事的，没事的，”小齐罗罗嗦嗦地说：“发现得早，根本就没事的。”我笑着说：“当然，当然，这没什么。”我在第二天办了辞职，我没有跟陶然说再见，当然也不会去找Ｆ。拿着我的行李去了北京，隐瞒了我的病情。只是说自己失恋。我的学姐收留了我，给我吃给我住。还给我一台手提电脑。我整天整天地趴在电脑前敲字，幻想着自己在写作中死去。奇怪的是我一直没死。我的勤奋感动了我的学姐，她有一天对我说：“有个长篇的机会，版税挺高。不知道你愿意不愿意？”我用了三个月的时间就写完了一本长篇，拿到生平第一笔版税后我去复查了我的病，我拿着我以前的报告单，北京的医生愤怒地说：“这报告真不负责，要真是这样，你还能活到现在？”“那……？”我问。医生俏皮地说：“注意你的饮食和心情，你可以长命百岁。”我从医院里出来的时候经过书店，我的书正在热销，学姐说已有人想将它拍成电视剧，爱情剧，总是有人愿意看的。我想起陶然，不知道他会不会坐在空屋子里充满悔意地想念我。我又想起Ｆ，我没有给他答复，他就永远地在网上消失了。 Ｆ不知道，我没有选择他只是我不想再次伤害他，那时的我真的以为自己活不长了。但是我一直保留着那张名片，我很想去看看名片上的那个地方，是不是真的终日阳光灿烂，开满了鲜花。我掏钱买了自己一本书，那本书的名字叫《两个人的八小时》。走过邮局的时候，我把书寄给了妈妈。我又开始对人生充满了希望，当然，也包括对爱情的希望。爱情是长长的一生的，怎么可以只有短短的八小时？