Chapter 2 Sugar-coated lower part

Sugar-coated lower part (1) July, rainy day. Ding Dang was in a hurry when she went out and forgot to bring her umbrella. She jumped off the bus in a panic, put the small bag on her head, and ran into Tianya Bookstore in three steps at a time. "Tianya" is about 500 meters away from a middle school. It is a small bookstore. The owner is about 20 years old. Her name is Ruo Mai. She looks very quiet and has a cute dimple on the corner of her lips.When no one is around, she always sits alone in the shop and reads a book.Although the store is not big, it has a complete range of books and new books come out quickly, so it is deeply loved by a group of girls in the school.

After her sophomore year, Ding Dang worked part-time here during the day after school. The salary was average, but she liked it very much. It was a quiet and safe place.Of course there is another important reason, she likes Ruo Mai, who seems to be quiet Ding Dang appreciates the girl who is so loud, and the weak girl who can miraculously lift two large bags of books with both hands. Ding Dang rushed into the door, shook off the rain on his body, and shouted loudly: "Oh, I'm soaked!" The moment she raised her eyes, she saw Ruo Mai, her expression froze.Ruo Mai was standing in the small cash register, she was wearing a new dress, a red dress, which made her face blush and transparent.Behind her, stood a strange man, his hair was slightly disheveled, he looked a little tired, he was clinging to Ruo Mai, his hands were gently placed on her waist, and his eyes were staring at Ding Dang with a half-smile.Both of them had weird expressions on their faces.

"There's no more change," Ruo Mai said first, she stretched out her hand and handed Ding Dang a hundred dollars, "There's an umbrella at the door, take it and exchange it." The man behind Ruo Mai whistled softly. "Yeah." Ding Dang came back to his senses, took the money, took the umbrella and walked out the door. It was a small flower umbrella with raindrops on it, presumably Ruo Mai had just managed to come to work.The rain started to fall harder and harder. Ding Dang took an umbrella, retreated to the door of a nearby grocery store, took out his mobile phone, and dialed 110. Then, he stared at the small glass door of "Tianya" with a heartbeat of one hundred and two.

No one came out all the time. Five minutes later, the police arrived, and Ding Dang went in behind the police, and over the police's shoulders, Ding Dang saw that Ruo Mai and the man had already walked out of the cash register, they were hugging each other against the bookshelf, and he was kissing her. Ding Dang covered his mouth and yelled in panic. "Don't call the police indiscriminately next time." The policeman clarified the situation and patted Ding Dang's head lightly with the glove in his hand. "Calling the police indiscriminately will be dealt with! It's not a joke!"

"Oh." Ding Dang replied shyly. The man leaned against the bookshelf and laughed, Ruo Mai's face became even redder. "Your boyfriend is handsome, but he looks a bit bad! That's why I regard him as a robber." After Ding Dang finished speaking, he felt a little embarrassed, so he laughed. The man raised his fist and made a gesture to hit her. Ding Dang was not afraid, and said, "Let's fight, anyway, the police didn't go far, so it's very convenient to come back." "Let's go." Ruo Mai dragged the man with a smile, and said to Ding Dang, "I'll leave it to you today. Fortunately, it's raining, so there won't be many people."

"No problem." Ding Dang leaned close to Ruo Mai's ear and said, "Just remember, don't perform scenes that are not suitable for children here in broad daylight." "Damn!" Ruo Mai slapped her coquettishly, and left with her boyfriend on her arm. The one holding the umbrella is a boy, and Ruo Mai hides under the umbrella with a happy expression on his face.It's no wonder Ding Dang is reckless, I've known Ruo Mai for so long, I really don't know she has such a boyfriend. There is a small speaker in the bookstore, sometimes Ruo Mai will use it to play songs, Ding Dang turns on the speaker, and the radio station is playing her favorite Long Kuan Jiuduan, and the very distinctive female voice is singing: In the far away from you A place used to growing up alone Finding myself wanting you just like everyone else Bumping around I can't forget just to know the weight of me in your heart over the years I know you are my family I don't want you to change anymore...

Ruo Mai once discussed with Ding Dang, is it about you are my lover, or are you my family?Ding Dang said, of course it's a lover, if you don't sing a love song, what would a lover sing? But I sound like a relative, Ruo Mai insists.What a wonderful family, Ruo Mai said to Ding Dang, haven't you heard a sentence, it is true that husband and wife have become brothers and sisters for many years. Thinking of this, Ding Dang smiled. She couldn't help but walked to the bookshelf, opened a newly arrived map book, and drew a long line with her fingers from Beijing to Nanjing. (2)

The light in the bar was dim, but Ding Dang still easily recognized him.He should be Ruo Mai's boyfriend, sitting near the window with a girl in his arms, smoking a cigarette. Ding Dang put the beer heavily in front of their table. He also seemed to recognize Ding Dang, waved at Ding Dang, and smiled nonchalantly.Girls and Ruo Mai are two completely different types, with yellow hair, sexy clothes, heavy eye shadows, in short, they are uncomfortable no matter how they look.The two of them didn't sit at the bar for too long, when the bill was 80 yuan, he paid Ding Dang 100 yuan, and said generously: "You don't have to change it."

But Ding Dang still took the twenty yuan he found in his hand, and chased him to the door and handed it to him. "Hehe, it's for you." He said. "No." Ding Dang said. "Oh?" He laughed, "If I don't charge you twenty yuan, will you call the police again, little sister?" "How do you know each other?" The girl beside him began to feel strange. "I won't call the police this time." Ding Dang said, "I will report to Ruo Mai this time." icing (11) He glanced at Ding Dang, said coldly: "Whatever you want." Then he took the girl and walked away.

In the bookstore, Ding Dang threw the twenty yuan in front of Ruo Mai angrily and said, "Here, the leftovers from your boyfriend picking up girls in the bar." Ruo Mai squeezed twenty yuan in his hand, and slowly kneaded it into a small ball without making a sound. It took a long time before he asked, "You mean Xiaodong?" "I don't care about his little things, anyway, he's the one who performed unsuitable scenes in the bookstore that morning!" "Hehe." Ruo Mai could actually laugh. "Such a man was knocked down with one kick." Ding Dang said fiercely.

Ruo Mai smiled and said, "We haven't seen each other for almost ten years. In fact, he is not my boyfriend." Ding Dang looked at Ruo Mai in surprise, she always remembered the happiness and intoxication on Ruo Mai's face when he kissed her that day, how could it not be her boyfriend? "Ten years?" Ding Dang tentatively asked, "My childhood sweetheart?" "Well." Ruo Mai said, "You saw us that day, and it was the first time we met in ten years. I don't know where he has been or what he has been doing all these years." Ding Dang asked Ruo Mai: "Then you, do you like him?" Ruo Mai nodded. "Have you always liked him, since you were little?" Ruo Mai nodded again. "Like someone like this, isn't it a little bit two hundred and five?" Ding Dang continued to ask. "No." Ruo Mai said, "It's actually very beautiful." "Two hundred and five!" Ding Dang smiled, and hit Ruo Mai's head hard, but his heart was inexplicable, and the pain suddenly became unbearable.Ruo Mai is giggling, since she reunited with Xiaodong, this kind of smile has often hung on her face. At this moment, Ding Dang's cell phone rang, and it was from his mother. On the other side of the phone, she complained, "You haven't come to see me for several months, and you didn't come during the holidays. It's too much!" "My family doesn't welcome me." Ding Dang stepped aside and said, "I think it's better for me to disturb you less." "Your father said that you didn't go back to him, did you live in the school?" "yes." "Ding Dang," Mom said, "you always worry me." "I'm fine, no need." Ding Dang hung up the phone. "Are you sulking with your mother?" Ruo Mai looked at Ding Dang and said, "Try to keep your parents' affairs to a minimum, their choices are sometimes helpless." Ruo Mai is such a kind girl, she always thinks of others more in everything, and Ding Dang occasionally talks to her about his thoughts, but they are not too deep.Ding Dang really likes Ruo Mai, her attitude towards love alone is not comparable to that of ordinary women, isn't it? (3) Xiaodong entered "Tianya" and saw Ding Dang alone in the store. He approached, lazily leaned against the cashier, and said to her, "Robbery! Give me all the money collected today. Look at us For the sake of fate, the money in your wallet, forget it." "Do you think I dare not call 110 again?" Ding Dang made a gesture of invitation and said, "If Sister Mai is not here, please go." Xiaodong took out his mobile phone, ran out and muttered a few words, then came back and handed the phone to Ding Dang, saying, "I'm looking for you." Ding Dang took it half-believingly, but Ruo Mai was there.Ruo Mai asked softly, "How much money is there in the store?" "More than three hundred yuan." Ding Dang said, "It's raining again today, so there are very few people." "Give it all to him." "Oh." Ding Dang put down the phone, took out all the money from the cash drawer, and handed it to Xiaodong.Xiao Dong whistled at Ding Dang and walked away. "Pig!" Ding Dang cursed fiercely at his back. As soon as the scolding stopped, the glass door was pushed open again. Ding Dang thought it was Xiaodong who heard her scolding him and turned to her to settle the score. Who knew that when he looked up, it was Hu Tong.Hu Tong wore a new coat, was clean-shaven, and looked very energetic. Ding Dang asked: "What? You came back from Thailand, didn't the ladyboy eat you?" "Hey." Hu Tong said, "This place closes at eight o'clock, I'll wait for you to eat." "I don't eat Western food." Ding Dang said.Hu Tongtong likes to play with flirts. Every time he invites Ding Dang to eat Western food, Ding Dang feels that he is not full. The steak is often as hard as iron, his arms are numb when he cuts it, and his stomach is still growling. "Then, Sichuan cuisine." "Too spicy." “Hunan Cuisine.” "no appetite." "Say, what do you want to eat?" Hu Yi put his arms together and looked at Ding Dang with a good temper. "I want to go back to school and sleep." Ding Dang said, "I don't need to go to the bar tonight. I can finally go to bed early. I just want to sleep." "People are iron, and food is steel. If you don't eat a meal, you will feel flustered." Hu Tong said, "After eating, I will send you back to school to sleep, isn't it okay?" "What?" Ding Dang narrowed his eyes. "Oh, your thoughts are messy and complicated." Hu Tong said, "That's it, I'll go back to the travel agency first and pick you up on time at eight o'clock." Hu Yitong earned a lot of money running around in the past two years, bought a Chery QQ, and drove it all day to show off.He went like the wind, and when he reached the door, he turned around and said to Ding Dang, "The weather has changed a lot these two days, and it's still a bit cold at night. Don't wear so little, you'll catch a cold easily." Ding Dang was wearing a water-blue short-sleeved shirt. She had almost no red clothes, and she rarely wore skirts. icing (12) After the age of eleven, Ding Dang never wore a red dress again. At dusk, Ruo Mai came.At that time, there happened to be several female middle school students who had just finished school in the store, and Ding Dang asked Ruo Mai strangely: "Why are you here at this time?" "He invited me to dinner tonight." Ruo Mai said softly, looking very happy. "Hmph, treat you to dinner with your money." Ding Dang dismissed it. "Hee hee, what does that matter?" Ruo Mai said, "In short, it's good for two people to eat together." The female middle school student with a book in her hand came to pay, and when she heard Ruo Mai's words, she chuckled.Ding Dang deliberately said loudly: "Look, my little sister is laughing at you. Little sister, tell me, should the boy or the girl pay for the dinner?" Ruo Mai was so anxious that he was about to hit the jingle, but who knew that the girl replied slowly: "All girls in our class pay the bill, but it's nothing, it means that the status of girls has improved, and they dominate the world of both sexes." After the girls finished speaking, they laughed and left with the books they just found. "Status?" Ruo Mai propped his arms on the cash register, obviously still thinking about what the girls said just now. "Fantasy!" Ding Dang scolded. "I just like him." Ruo Mai said eloquently, "You know, when we were young, our family was poor, we couldn't afford delicious food, and we couldn't wear nice clothes. We were always bullied by boys, and it was him who protected him." looking at me. Once, it was my birthday, in order to send For my birthday present, he went to someone’s shop to steal the hairpin, but was beaten half to death. Later, an aunt saw him pitifully and bought the hairpin for him. His face was still bleeding, so she came Send me a card..." "But," Ding Dang said disappointedly, "people can change." "It's fine if I don't change." Ruo Mai replied.Ding Dang was speechless. After a while, Xiaodong really came to the bookstore to pick up Ruomai. "Honey, let's go!" He put his arms around Ruo Mai's waist as soon as he entered the door, and quickly took her away. In just a few seconds, Ding Dang felt strangely that Ruo Mai's happiness filled the entire bookstore like a goddess scattering flowers.Just for a moment, Ding Dang was stunned in front of the cash register.She seemed to realize suddenly that sometimes, being able to love someone wantonly and caring about that person regardless of whether he likes her or not is actually a great happiness. (4) Ding Dang called Hu Tongtong and said: "It's convenient for you, buy me a train ticket to Beijing the fastest. Tonight, a hard seat is fine." "What are you doing?" Hu Tong asked in surprise, "Didn't you agree to have dinner together tonight?" "There is something urgent." Ding Dang said. "Miss, don't scare me with surprises, will you?" "Will you help me with a word?" "Help." Hu Tong replied. At eight o'clock, he actually delivered the ticket. It was the train at about 10:30 at night, and it should be around ten o'clock the next morning when we arrived in Beijing.Ding Dang thanked him, buried his head in his wallet and counted the money to him, he pressed Ding Dang and said, "Don't be so serious with me, right?" "I'm not someone like you!" Ding Dang hardened his heart, and stuffed the money into his hand. Hu Tong seemed to be really angry, with a dark face, he opened the door and went out.Soon, Ding Dang heard the sound of him starting the car. The tickets and money were all red, lying there motionless.Ding Dang took the ticket in his hand, only to realize that it was a ticket for a soft berth, the lower berth, and the money she gave was not enough at all. Thinking about what he said just now, it seemed a little too much. Ding Dang took out his mobile phone to call Hu Tong, probably this guy was still angry, and he didn't even answer for a long time. Seeing off the last customer, Ding Dang closed the door and planned to go to the station, but found that Hu Tong didn't leave at all, the car was still parked at the door, she approached and knocked on the window, Hu Tong opened the car door, stood up and gestured to Ding Dang : "Get in the car, I'll take you to eat, and then take you to the station." Ding Dang smiled: "Aren't you angry?" "I can understand as well as a little girl!" In the past two years, Hu Tong has been wandering outside, contacting all kinds of people, and his mouth has become more and more eloquent. Ding Dang got into the car, Hu started the car together, and finally couldn't help asking: "Why are you going to Beijing?" Ding Dang buried his head: "It's nothing, I just want to go suddenly." "But five years ago, didn't you just write the severance letter, and I sent it with you, did you forget?" Hu Tong reminded Ding Dang. "Really?" Ding Dang asked, "It's been five years?" "No, five years. I went to Beijing on July 10th." Hu Tong said. Ding Dang looked at Hu Tong in disbelief. In her feeling, Hu Tong shouldn't be such a careful man who would even remember the date. "That was the first time I led a group out alone." Hu Tong said, "I almost didn't get killed that time, haha. Fortunately, I have you." "What do you mean it's good to have me?" Ding Dang didn't understand. "You always have a bitter face, and I thought, in fact, some people look worse than me. Thinking about it this way makes me much happier." "Nonsense." Ding Dang scolded. icing (13) After having a simple dinner with Hu Tong, Ding Dang called Xiaocui's home at Nanjing Railway Station. That was the number Xiaocui left her with her home address when she lived at Xiaocui's home five years ago.At that time, Xiao Cui sent Ding Dang out of the house and gave her a note saying: "I remember that when I come to Beijing, I will come to see my sister to play." Ding Dang nodded obediently and left with his bag on his back. In the summer of Beijing five years ago, Xiao Cui's smile was as clear as yesterday.If it were any other girl, Ding Dang would definitely not admit defeat, but Xiaocui is different. She is such a beautiful girl, as calm and pure as a lake, and Ding Dang feels that he has no chance to fight her. That's the kind of girl that Amin likes, Ding Dang can feel it. Ding Dang never called Xiao Cui once.But she didn't throw it away either. Amin didn't use a mobile phone. For Ding Dang, the phone seemed to be a clue, and he couldn't bear to throw it away casually. "I'm looking for Miss Xiaocui." Ding Dang said. "Xiao Cui?" The voice over there sounded strange, "Who is looking for Xiao Cui?" "I'm her friend." Ding Dang said, "I want to find her, can I?" "Stop joking." The other side quickly hung up the phone. Ding Dang thought he had dialed the wrong number, and when he dialed again, it was still the same voice, and said angrily, "I don't care who you are, but don't make such pranks again!" "I'm sorry." Ding Dang said quickly, "Could you please tell me where Miss Xiaocui is, I'm really in a hurry to find her, can you?" He hung up the phone with a bang.Call again, the phone is hung up, and I can't get through. "If you can't find anyone, I don't think you can go." Hu said looking at Ding Dang. "No." Ding Dang said, "I still want to go." "Niu." Hu Yitong had no choice but to say, "Let's go, I'll take you to the car." In the car, Ding Dang didn't close his eyes all night, feeling overwhelmed with anxiety, not knowing what would happen.Maybe Amin will stay in that school to study as a graduate student. People like him should learn endlessly; if he graduates, he will definitely stay in Beijing for Xiaocui; Can figure out where he went.In short, Ding Dang intends not to give up until he finds A Ming. This trip can also be regarded as a trip.Working hard every holiday, and never having time to rest and think, Ding Dang felt in a daze that he really should change his way of life.After getting off the train, she found Xiaocui's home according to the address on the note, and rang the doorbell. A middle-aged woman opened the door. Xiaocui's mother had met her once, but she didn't know if she still remembered her. "Auntie, I'm looking for Xiao Cui." Ding Dang said, "Is she at home?" "You were the one who called last night?" "Yes, yes." Ding Dang also recognized her voice, "Where's Xiao Cui?" She let Ding Dang into the room and asked her, "How long have you been in touch? Don't you know about Xiao Cui?" "What happened to Xiao Cui?" Ding Dang asked. "She's dead." Ding Dang's head buzzed and it grew bigger. "She has congenital heart disease, which broke out three years ago." Xiaocui's mother made a cup of tea for Ding Dang and said, "When were you friends? Why haven't I heard her mention it?" "I've seen you, and stayed at your house overnight?" "Really?" She seemed to be trying hard but couldn't remember. "I am a fellow of Cheng Aming." Ding Dang said, "Auntie, where is Aming, can you tell me?" "A Ming?" Xiao Cui's mother asked, "Who is A Ming?" "Sister Xiaocui's boyfriend, why don't you know him?" "Impossible." Xiao Cui's mother said, "It's true that Xiao Cui and many boys are good friends, but she has never been in a relationship. Keep everything from me. Our Xiaocui is the most obedient, she never does things that I don't like her to do..." As Xiaocui's mother said, her eyes were already red, and Ding Dang quickly took a tissue from the table and gave it to her. "But?" Ding Dang suddenly remembered that time, at the door of the cafeteria, Xiao Cui forced A Ming to say: Cheng A Ming, you said Xiao Cui, I love you forever, you said it in front of your little sister. "Xiaocui, I will love you forever." Amin's oath echoed in his ears all the time. Who would have expected that this life would be as short as a pigeon whistle. "I'm sorry to bother you." Ding Dang stood up and was about to say goodbye. At this moment, the doorbell rang, and they walked to the door together. Xiaocui's mother opened the door. Ding Dang stayed there at that time. It was none other than A Ming, with a big bag of fruit in his hand, with the same surprised expression on his face as Ding Dang. icing (14) (5) That night, Ding Dang followed A Ming back to his residence. A Ming called Ding Dang to sit down, and said to Ding Dang: "This hut was originally rented to my mother. She was not used to living in it. She said that the weather in Beijing was bad, and after her eyes got better, she went back to her hometown arguing. Anyway, the rent was paid. I I will live there until the end of the year and then go back to school. I am happy to read here and be quiet.” "Are you still studying?" "Working and studying for graduate school at the same time." Amin said, "You also know my family background, so I can't stop." "I'm the same as you now." Ding Dang said, "My mother has been laid off all the time, and my father's money has been cheated out by others. All these years, I have supported myself." "That's good." Amin handed her a glass of water and said, "It's not shameful to raise yourself, it's an honor." "Amin." Ding Dang said, "I suddenly want to drink, you can drink with me, okay?" "Not good. I can't drink." "A little bit, for the sake of my traveling so far to see you." "Okay." Amin said, "You sit down, and I'll go buy it." "I go." After Ding Dang finished speaking, he ran out the door. After a while, someone brought back a whole case of beer.Ding Dang said with a smile: "Actually, I'm not addicted to cigarettes, and I've also lost my addiction to smoking. Now, try to be a good girl." A Ming suddenly stretched out his hand and rubbed Ding Dang's hair.Ding Dang lowered his head, tears came down and dripped on the floor, but Amin didn't see it.After a while, Ding Dang raised his head, handed Amin a can of beer and said, "Have some?" "Okay." Amin said. "When you met Miss Xiaocui, did you know about her?" "yes." "Strange, her mother told me at first that she didn't recognize you." "Since Xiaocui left, my aunt has been like this. Sometimes she is clear-headed and sometimes confused. You know, she is just such a daughter, and she must not be able to accept it psychologically." "Do you miss her?" Ding Dang asked. A Ming raised his head to look at Ding Dang, smiled and said, "Little boy, ask these questions!" "I'm only three years younger than you." Ding Dang said. Amin suddenly understood and said, "But why do I feel that you are much, much younger than me?" "That's because I keep repeating grades." "Hehe, yes, but you are so smart, as long as your grades are good." "That's because I'm motivated." "Really?" Amin took a sip of wine and asked with interest, "I'd like to hear what is the motivation that can make our Ding Dang reborn all of a sudden." "I won't tell you." Ding Dang tilted his head and smiled mischievously. Not long after, both of them were drunk, Ding Dang turned on the radio, and the heartbreaking music of the flute came from the radio at midnight. Ding Dang blushed and asked A Ming, "A Ming, shall we dance?" "I won't." Amin said. "It's just two people walking, one two one, one two one, it's very simple." Ding Dang dragged Amin up from the chair and put his hands on his waist. Amin hesitated at first, but then maybe It was the effect of the alcohol that started to slowly relax.The music was still playing softly, Ding Dang rested his head on Amin's chest, listening to his clear heartbeat, his heart was more at ease than ever before. "Amin." Ding Dang raised his head and asked, "Will you marry me?" "Yes." Amin said in a low voice, "Yes, I will definitely marry you and live a happy life for you." As he spoke, he lowered his head to search for Ding Dang's lips, saw his gradually enlarged face, Ding Dang was a little dizzy.Then, he heard Amin whispering on her lips: "Yes, Xiao Cui, I promise I will." Ding Dang's heart fell to the ground like a plate, and with a jingle, it was broken beyond repair.But Amin hugged her tighter and tighter, unwilling to let go. When he woke up the next day, the sun was shining, and A Ming was still sleeping. It seemed that he was really drunk.Ding Dang put on his clothes, carried a small bag and planned to leave quietly.Unexpectedly, A Ming still chased him to the train station. After catching up with Ding Dang, the first thing he said was: "I said I can't drink, you don't believe me. I didn't say something nonsense, did I?" "I'm drunk," Ding Dang said, "I didn't hear anything." "Oh." A Ming was feeling more cramped than ever before, and asked in a low voice, "Then I didn't do anything wrong, did I?" "Hehe." Ding Dang stood on tiptoe and rubbed A Ming's hair with a smile: "You are my big brother, what can you do!" Amin smiled easily.He sent Ding Dang to the train all the way, and silently packed her luggage.There were not many people in the carriage, and it was clean.A Ming said: "Have a good sleep, you will be home when you wake up." After speaking, he turned and got out of the car. Ding Dang rushed to the window, shouted loudly at the back of his head: "Amin, Amin." and stretched out his hand to him.Amin also stretched out his hand to hold her. Ding Dang suddenly couldn't say a word in the temperature and humidity of his palm. Tears fell down and fell on the back of Amin's hand. "What's wrong with you?" Amin was surprised. "It's nothing." Ding Dang wiped away tears with a smile. "Goodbye." Amin said. "This is parting from life and death." Ding Dang sat up straight and said to himself.She couldn't live in his heart, and the only choice was to stay away from now on as before. icing (15) (6) From summer to autumn, there is only one autumn leaf. In October, Ding Dang, who was found to be more than three months pregnant, walked into the hospital accompanied by Ruo Mai. The nurse's face was as cold as ice. Ding Dang endured the cold and pain, and remained silent. For some unknown reason, something went wrong in that operation. She lost a lot of blood and almost died. After waking up, Ruo Mai put her cheek on the back of Ding Dang's hand, and said distressedly: "Ding Dang, why do you do this, you shouldn't cherish yourself like this." "I want to give birth to him." Ding Dang closed his eyes, trying to smile and said, "I want to give birth to a child, I hope to have the same eyes and the same nose as him." "Who the hell is he? Makes you so stupid." "A person I am determined to forget." Ding Dang said. "But the more you want to forget the person, the more you can't forget it." "No." Ding Dang bit his lower lip and said, "I swear, I will definitely forget him. Definitely." Hu Tong pushed the door open and came in, holding a bouquet of bright red roses, twelve in total.He leaned over to Ding Dang and said, "I'm here to pick you up and leave the hospital. I want to tell you that I just bought a house and will start renovations at the end of the year." Ding Dang said blankly: "I just killed someone else's child." Hutong didn't seem to hear, he continued: "That house has large French windows, I remember you said you like it. Don't you still want to go to the Maldives? I asked, and there will be a group there at the end of the year. " Ruo Mai jokingly said: "When you propose, you have to kneel down. How can you stand so straight?" In front of Ruo Mai, Hu Tong knelt down decisively while holding the flowers. Ding Dang tilted his head to one side, tears streaming down his face. In fact, like Hu Tong, she is a wayward child. Fortunately, Ding Dang's body recovered well.At Hu Tong's insistence, Ding Dang quit her job in the bar, but she still insisted on working in Ruo Mai's bookstore. Almost every two weeks, Xiaodong would come to "Tianya" for one purpose, to get money.Ruo Mai lost weight day by day, and his face gradually lost its rosiness.When there are not many customers, I like to lean against the bookshelf in a daze.Ding Dang saw it hurt in his eyes, but he couldn't say much. That day, it snowed suddenly and it was freezing cold.There was no one in the store.Ruo Mai was wearing a red overcoat, and when he came in, his cheeks were also red, as if they were swollen. "What's wrong?" Ding Dang leaned over, "Crying?" "It's okay." Ruo Mai said. At this moment, the store door was pushed open with a slam, and Xiaodong followed in. He grabbed Ruo Mai and said, "I didn't mean it, wife, don't be angry with me!" Ruo Mai seemed a little afraid of him, and pushed him desperately.He hugged Ruo Mai tightly and refused to let go, Ruo Mai finally burst into tears. "Let her go." Ding Dang couldn't help but stepped forward to dissuade her. "None of your business!" Xiaodong yelled at Ding Dang loudly, "Go aside!" "It's none of my business if she cries!" Ding Dang said, "You just let me go, what's the point of making a woman cry!" Xiaodong angrily wanted to come over to play Ding Dang, but Ruo Mai desperately stopped him, who cried and shouted: "Ding Dang, you go, you go, leave him alone!" "Don't be afraid of him!" Ding Dang said, "Isn't it just a fight, whoever is afraid of whom!" "Don't think I can't do anything to you because you're a woman!" Xiaodong said with bloodshot eyes, "If you fuck me again, I'll be you!" Ding Dang also jumped up: "Let me tell you, I am Ding Dang, not Ruo Mai. I am not afraid of anything. Isn't it just my life? Come on, I will fight with you. If you bully Ruo Mai like this, I will pay you back if she can bear it." I can't stand it!" "Ding Dang!" Ruo Mai stepped forward and held down Ding Dang, "Don't mess around, you listen to me, you go first!" "No!" Ding Dang shouted, "Today I must let him give you an explanation, or I will be him!" Xiaodong has already raised a bench. "Don't worry about our affairs." At this moment, Ruo Mai looked at Ding Dang and uttered these words clearly. Ding Dang angrily opened the door and ran away. icing (16) (7) Ding Dang didn't go to Tianya for three days.She hates Ruo Mai's cowardice, and can't understand her blindly accommodating love.Three days later, Ding Dang's anger finally dissipated. As soon as she came to "Tianya", she found a striking sign hanging outside the bookstore: For Rent. Ding Dang rushed in and found a mess inside, Ruo Mai was squatting on the ground to clean up. "What's wrong?" Ding Dang shook Ruo Mai's shoulder, "Why did you become like this?" "It's nothing." Ruo Mai said, "Ding Dang is really sorry, you have to find another job, I'll sell this place." Ding Dang didn't understand. "It doesn't make any money, so it's good to sell it." Ruo Mai said, "I'm leaving, Ding Dang, take care of yourself." "where are you going?" "I will go wherever he goes, and he promises to take me away." "What's the matter, can you tell me?" "He owes a lot of money to others, and I will pay it off for him." "Bullshit!" Ding Dang said, "Ruo Mai, can you stop being so stupid? Xiaodong is not a serious person at first glance. For a person like this, you can just pay his debts for him, and you still have to follow him. Make fun of your own future!" Ruo Mai stood up, looked at Ding Dang, and said slowly, "But without him, what future do I have?" Ding Dang was deeply hit by these words, and slowly leaned against the wall. After a few seconds of silence, she waved her hand and pushed Ruo Mai's stack of books to the ground.This scene happened to be bumped into by Hu Tong who just came in, and he leaned forward recklessly and said, "How about it, have you vented enough, and if you haven't, then punch me again." As he spoke, he puffed out his chest with a smile on his face. "Let's go." Ding Dang said, "I suddenly want to eat Western food tonight." "No problem." Hu Tong said. "Ding Dang." Ruo Mai chased up from behind, handed her three hundred yuan and said, "Your reward." "No need." Ding Dang said, "I know it's not easy for you." Ruo Mai didn't insist and lowered his head.Ding Dang hugged her vigorously, and whispered in her ear, "Promise me, take care of yourself, okay?" "En." Ruo Mai nodded. Ding Dang lets go of Ruo Mai and gets into Hutong's car. At night, Hu Tong drove to the top of the mountain to watch the stars with Ding Dang. The stars in midsummer gave Ding Dang the urge to shout out loud.Hu Tong handed her the coat and said, "It's cold in here, let's put it on." "Hutong." Ding Dang said, "I want to ask you an old-fashioned question." "Just ask." "Do you want to marry the person who loves you, or marry the person you love?" "This will vary from person to person." Hu Tong said. Ding Dang didn't understand.Hu Tong knocked on her forehead and said, "For example, for you, it is better to marry the person who loves you. For a person like me, it is better to marry the person I love." Hutong's tongue twister didn't make Ding Dang confused.Ding Dang asked: "Hu Tong, is your marriage proposal really true?" "Marriage is a big deal, isn't it a trifle?" Hu said seriously. "That's good," Ding made up his mind, "Hu Tong, if you always love me, I will marry you after I graduate." Hu Yitong exaggeratedly snapped his fingers, and it took a long time before he said, "At least we have to wait for more than 130 days. If it's really not possible, let's have a de facto marriage first. I don't mind." Ding Dang didn't mind his nonsense.She was meditating, the stars in the dark night were like someone's eyes thrown into the sky. The night was too dark, Ding Dang said in his heart: "Amin, look, I have already married myself." icing (17) (8) Ding Dang's graduation ceremony. Both he and she came, which Ding Dang did not expect. A large group of students wearing bachelor uniforms took pictures on the playground. Someone patted Ding Dang on the shoulder and said, "Oh, those are your father and mother. They look very young." It has been ten years since they divorced, and they are responsible for their own lives. Ding Dang suddenly felt sad for them. The only proof of their past love was actually a wounded self. Hu Yitong also came, he was Rose again, his love was strong and monotonous but also tacky that couldn't escape.Rose made a group of girls in the playground scream, and they all probed to see what Ding Dang's prince looked like.Hu Yitong smiled professionally and won the favor of a group of girls. 等到人群终于散尽，胡一同在丁当父母前微微鞠躬，发誓一样地说：“我会照顾好丁当一辈子。” “抽烟吗？”丁当爸爸问他。 “偶尔。”胡一同说。 “做什么的？”丁当妈妈问。 “导游。阿姨想到哪里旅游尽管找我。” “这一行会不会危险？” “怎么会，现在在社会主义新中国。” “你倒是挺会说的。” “凭这张嘴吃饭，没有办法……” 对话渐渐变成他们之间的，和丁当再无关系。不过丁当知道，他们都会满意胡一同的，像胡一同这样的男孩子，应该是他们想象中的那种女婿。 晚上胡一同请吃饭，他有很多新鲜的话题，知道他们都想听一些什么，晚餐的气氛被他调节得恰到好处，爸爸和妈妈之间也很客气，没有往日的冷言冷语，爸爸甚至还替妈妈夹菜，这让丁当感到诧异。趁着他和爸爸上卫生间，妈妈捏着丁当的手，悄悄对丁当说：“眼光不错，我也放心了。” 丁当吃着一片西瓜，有些恶作剧地回嘴：“你什么时候替我担心过呢？” 妈妈尴尬地看着丁当，说不出话。 “你们打算复合？”丁当问。 “什么？”她装做听不懂。 “就当我没问。”丁当用餐巾纸抹抹嘴。 (9) 若麦写来电子邮件，她和他在广州，开了一家小型的美发店，原来小东的专长是替别人理发。 若麦说：“他手艺很好，我们顾客很多，有我管着他，他开始渐渐地收住性子。我们店对面就是一家小书店，有时候我会进去逛一逛，买本书看看，不过我好像并不太怀念过去的日子，守着他，一日一日，都充满了爱和新鲜。刚去的时候，我们请不起人，我替客人洗头，老是弄湿他们的衣服，不过现在已经没关系了，你下次来广州，会发现我很能干哦，他忙的时候，我甚至也敢给客人理一个发了呢，嘻嘻，是不是有点不负责任？” 若麦是个多么文绉绉的女孩，可是为了爱情，她竟然变成了一家美发店的老板娘。丁当不得不承认，爱情改变一个人真的很容易。 当然，丁当也给若麦回信，丁当的信是这样写的：若麦，亲爱的：南京的天气又开始变冷了，今年居然下了两场雪，雪都不大。我租的房子离单位很近，我每天走路去上班，秘书的工作很简单，老板对我也不错。我这人，也没有什么大的理想，好像就这样过一天算一天似的。胡一同整天都在外面带团，房子装好了，我们元旦的时候会结婚，大学毕业不到一年就结婚，好像是早了一点儿，可是早也是嫁晚也是嫁，随他去吧。 你在外面，好好的，小东要是敢欺负你，我来广州替你出气。我结婚的时候，你回来替我做头发啊。 想你的：丁当 糖衣（18） (10) 十二月的圣诞节，丁当结婚的前五天，城市里下起罕见的大雪。雪下得很大，一片，一片，一片，如白色的烟火，在天空静静缤纷。妈妈忽然阑尾炎发作，住进了医院，要动手术。丁当下班后立即赶过去，发现竟然是爸爸在陪着她。妈妈的唠叨少了，爸爸的脾气也收了，他们看上去像是换了两个人，也很亲密，像是从来没有离过婚，复合的迹象也越来越明显。丁当留下一些钱，觉得没有留在那里的必要，于是跟他们告别出来。 天很冷，丁当忽然看到一张熟悉的脸，一个走路走得很慢的女人，手里拎着一个保温桶，和她擦肩而过。 “阿姨？”丁当回过头迟疑地喊。 女人回头，看着她。从她的表情看来，她的视力还不是很好。 “你是，阿明的妈妈？” “是的。”她说，“你是？” “我是阿明的朋友。”丁当说，“真没想到在这里遇到你，怎么，你看病吗？你的眼睛还好吗？要不要我替你做点什么？” “不是的。”阿明妈妈说，“阿明住院了，我来给他送饭。” “阿明，住院？”丁当简直不相信自己的耳朵。 “你还不知道吧，阿明得了重病，住院都一个多月了。” “他不在北京？” “研究生毕业后他就回来了，还不是为了照顾我，我在北京呆不惯，一个人在这里，他又老是不放心，所以就回来工作，谁知道……”阿明妈妈开始抹眼泪。 “阿明到底是什么病？” “胃癌。”阿明妈妈说，“他从小吃饭就不定时，唉。” 丁当靠在墙上，不做声，也做不了声。 (11) 她终于又见到他，她以为一辈子都不会再见的人。 他躺在床上，冲她微笑。 她走上前，流着泪，揉了揉他变得稀少的头发说：“阿明，我来看你了。” “丁当。”他唤她，“是你吗？” “嗯。”丁当把两个手指捏起来，举得高高的，啪的一下放开说：“嘻，一个汤匙啪的一下掉进了碗里。” “丁当。”他说，“我一直在找你。自从我知道自己生病以后。” “是吗？”丁当俯身问，“你找我干什么呢？” “我想跟你说声对不起。”阿明说。 丁当捂住他的嘴：“不许说，永远都不许说对不起。” “那我换三个字，”阿明说，“好不好？” 丁当缓缓地松开她的手。 阿明缓缓地说：“我爱你。” 丁当的泪猝不及防地流了下来。阿明继续说：“那年，从你离开北京后，我就发现我爱上了你，那个在小时候借给我一条红裙子的小姑娘，那个坐在高高的楼顶上奋不顾身要往下跳的小姑娘，那个在我做了混账事后不声不息消失的小姑娘，我刚打算要给她幸福，却又迟了，你说，这该有多遗憾？” “不迟不迟。”丁当摇着头说，“你一定会好起来，一定会。幸福一直都离我们那么远，这一次，我无论如何也不会放弃。” 阿明伸出手来，把丁当的头搂到他的胸前。他的心跳如那夜一样清晰，丁当死死地抓住衣服，不肯放手。 糖衣（19） (12) 刚刚装修好的新房宽大的客厅里，胡一同和丁当面对面地坐着。丁当有些艰难地说：“我打算跟他结婚。对不起，因为为了这一天，我已经等了整整十年。” “我早就猜到。”胡一同说，“我一直担惊受怕，没想到只差五天，我还是没能得到你。” “对不起。”丁当说。 “我要听的不是这三个字。”胡一同站起身来，背着丁当挥挥手说，“你走吧，你本来就是自由的，不用给我说理由。” “一同。” "Let's go." 丁当转身，推开门，离去。 (13) “恭喜你。”丁当对阿明说，“主治大夫说，你有完全治愈的可能。” 阿明很高兴。 “我们结婚吧。”丁当对阿明说，“就下个月，好不好？” “等我好了，我一定娶你过门。”阿明伸出手，揉了揉丁当的头发。 “可是，”丁当撒娇地说，“人家已经有些迫不及待了嘛。” “不知羞！”阿明刮她的鼻子。 “等你病好了，追你的女孩一大串，哪里还轮得到我。”丁当把嘴嘟起来。 阿明把头仰起来，像是在思索。丁当啪的打他一下说：“拜托，女生倒过来求婚，你还那么转啊，你也太不给面子了吧！” 丁当的样子很可爱，阿明忍不住咧嘴笑起来。病房外，阿明的妈妈靠在门边，偷偷在哭泣。 (14) spring is coming. 广州的春天来得比任何地方都早，花裙飞满了每条街。 若麦一早来到店里开门，就看到了蹲在门外的丁当。她惊喜地拉她起来说：“什么时候来的？怎么不早打个电话？” 若麦的肚子已经高高地隆起。丁当兴奋地敲一敲说：“坏若麦，隐瞒军情。” “你不是新婚吗，我可不敢打扰你。” “我们没有结婚。”丁当说。 "what?" “医生说，他应该还有半年的时间。我瞒着他的病情，求了他好久，他才答应和我结婚。可是没想到，就结婚的前一晚，他死掉了。”丁当说，“只差这一晚，我终于还是没能如愿。” 若麦拥抱丁当，在她耳边叹息：“丁当，你打算怎么办？” “还没想好。”丁当说。 “总会过去的。”若麦安慰她。 “我相信。”丁当说着，眼角扫到桌上的一本书，笑着拿到手里说：“还是那么喜欢看书？” “店里多点书好，顾客做头发，有时候要好长时间，看爱情小说，最能打磨时间。”若麦微笑，“这本不错的，你看了准哭。” 那本小说名叫，封面有行小小的字：爱似糖衣，我囫囵吞下，享受刹那甜蜜的错觉。 丁当把书捧在怀里，埋下头，忽然很大声很大声地哭了起来。 临暗 临暗· 上部序“你必须听！”她站在他面前，口气不容置疑。 她把她的IPOD的耳塞塞到他的耳朵里，他歪了一下头，始终是没能躲开。耳朵里传来的音乐是奇怪的，吉他的前奏，完全听不懂的歌词。她站在他面前，一脸严肃的表情。 他把耳塞取下来，扔到沙发上。人站起来，走到窗前，点燃一根烟。 她站在他身后，背对着他，眼泪掉下来。 一分钟后，她拿起他的烟盒，用他的打火机，也点燃了一根烟。 她坐到沙发上，盘着腿，一面流泪一面抽烟，样子很有些滑稽。这是这个月来他和她之间的第N次冷战，一个月前，他们互相称对方“宝贝”，用同一双筷子吃同一个碗里的面条。一个月前，他信誓旦旦地对她说：小爱，我会爱你一万年。 This is love. 他终于拉开门走了。她被香烟呛得七荤八素却坚持着没有昏过去。她近乎于倔傲的把香烟再次送到唇边，继续盘着腿坐在沙发上，眼角的余光掠到放在门边的一双大大的拖鞋。一只朝南，一只向北。 This is love.