Chapter 10 chapter Ten

There was no one in Danqing's house, and the phone rang thousands of times in vain. Qiao Lishan couldn't bear the emptiness, so he put his mind on the phone. It must be even more uncomfortable to knock on a door for many years, but the door does not open. A girl at Danqing's age is most afraid of the sky suddenly brightening and disappearing, and people dying suddenly. She has no experience in dealing with impermanence and overreacts, which is also worthy of forgiveness. Poor little girl. How to contact her family to pick her up. Qiao Lishan went out to observe Danqing. She fell into a deep sleep.

The ivory skin is smooth and smooth, and the whole face is covered with a thin layer of fine hair, like a peach. The young girl always looks like a lovely fruit. He didn't want her to spend the night here, it was too dangerous. Qiao Lishan tried to go back to the study to do his homework, but he couldn't write a word at all. He stayed in the easy chair and listened to music. After a long time, he couldn't hold on anymore, and fell asleep on the cushion. Instead, Danqing woke up first. As soon as he opened his eyes, he didn't know where he was, and as soon as he became conscious, all the sorrow and suffering came one after another, and Danqing took a deep breath.

She had calmed down, went to the kitchen to drink water, took a shower, opened the closet, picked out Qiao Lishan's clean shirt and trousers, and felt hungry. Those who were alive still survived. Danqing made fried egg sandwiches and ate them. Only then did I remember: where is the owner of the house? Putting down the food and looking for it, I found him lying in an easy chair. It was almost dusk, and Danqing felt depressed and lost all thoughts. This is the famous twilight fear. Fortunately, Qiao Lishan was there. She went over and took his hand. He opened his eyes and smiled at her, "Are you okay?"

Dan Qing nodded, "It's much better." He stroked her hair, "Time heals all wounds." "I guess so." "It's still raining?" "Xi Xi Xi Xi." "Has summer passed?" "It's coming to an end." "It's been a long and bitter summer for us." Danqing put her head on his lap, and both of them lost their loved ones. After a while, Qiao Lishan asked: "Do your parents know that you are with me?" Danqing replied disgustedly: "They never cared about where I went." "That's not true."

"You want me to go now?" "Don't worry." "you like me?" "I like it very much." "Take me away, let's go far away, don't let them find you." Qiao Lishan smiled. Danqing's mood is at the most turbulent moment, and every word and action is inevitably perverse. Seeing that he didn't respond, Danqing said, "If you don't decide now, you will regret it." Qiao Lishan said gently: "I see that I will." Hearing what he said, Danqing was a little happy again, and held the corner of his mouth slightly.

Qiao Lishan said softly: "I have much more experience than you." "So what?" "I can't take advantage of little girls." "You're too introverted." "Maybe, let's do this, for the sake of remedy, I let you hide in my house to rest." "Thank you." "By the way, are you hungry? Mine is growling." Qiao Lishan relieved himself in this way. He is a little melancholy, the time is wrong, the same ten-year gap, if he is thirty-seven and she is twenty-seven, there is really no problem at all. But at this moment, Danqing clearly wanted to find greater excitement to overwhelm the greatest sadness of losing her aunt.Once things are over, regrets are inevitable.

Qiao Lishan has his pride, he will not take advantage of others. He goes to the kitchen to make dinner, and Dan-cheong washes the wet suit off. Qiao Lishan didn't notice her, and called again, but there was still no one in her house. Or Danqing is right, she is used to being independent, and her family members think she is capable, so they let her develop freely and don't pay much attention to her. Qiao Lishan took pity on her very much. She came to watch him cook beef, and he asked her, "Where are your little boyfriends?" Danqing said with a straight face, "I don't have a boyfriend, I only like you."

Qiao Lishan was a little touched. He believed her. In a few years, when she grew up, she would not be able to maintain such innocence. Maybe this summer is not too bad, Ruan Danqing's innocence will stay in his heart for a long time, maybe until he is eighty years old, if he is eighty years old. He thought Danqing had controlled his emotions, so he watched TV with her at night, and when he turned around, he saw her tears streaming down her face again. He sighed and took her in his arms. Qiao Lishan found Danqing's family at two o'clock in the middle of the night. "Who are you?" The man who answered the phone was very rude, "Who is looking for Miss Ge?"

"I'm Danqing's friend." Who are you? "Where is Danqing at the moment?" the man asked. Qiao Lishan was sullen and ignored him. That person was Ruan Zhidong. Seeing that there was no reply, he raised his voice to call Ge Xiaojia. "Any news from Danqing?" She hurriedly picked up the phone, "Which one?" "Miss Ge, I'm Qiao Lishan, remember?" Ge Xiaojia breathed a sigh of relief, "I know you, is Danqing okay?" "She's at my house, you don't have to worry." Ge Xiaojia took a deep breath. "What happened today is really regrettable."

Ge Xiaojia couldn't help crying. "My number is 35771." "Please take care of Danqing, we have to go out to do errands at dawn." "Can I help?" "I don't think so, thank you." Ge Xiaojia hung up. Qiao Lishan turned his head and saw Danqing standing behind him. "See, I tell you they don't care." Qiao Lishan disagreed, "They trust you, this is the highest respect, some parents treat their children like thieves, step by step, are you willing to do that?" Dan Qing didn't make a sound. "You're in a bad mood, you're wearing tinted eyes, whatever you're looking at right now can't possibly be fair, now go to bed and don't talk much."

Dan Qing leaned on an unfamiliar bed, sleeping and waking up at times, of course it was impossible to sleep well, and her heart was full of sorrow and resentment. At dawn, Qiao Lishan came in and kissed her face lightly. Danqing smelled the fragrance of shaving water and knew it was another new day. She was so moved that she never thought that the sun would still rise. Danqing closed her eyes tightly, hoping that this day would disappear automatically. Qiao Lishan comforted in a low voice: "We will always lose the one we love." Danqing looked at her hand in bewilderment, this heavy blow forced her to grow up rapidly. "Miss Ge will pick you up in a while." "when?" "After eleven o'clock, she has to go to a few places first." Dan Qing kept his head down. "Are you ready for today?" Danqing took a deep breath, nodded, and got off the quilt. "Good girl." Qiao Lishan praised her. Danqing smiled bitterly, "One must face what he must accomplish." "well said." "Thank you for staying with me all day, Fang Dufei." "I also plan to spend another day with you, a big gift." He deliberately made her laugh. "No need, Fang Dufei, I don't even want it delivered to my door, I know it well." "This is the only time in my life that I was a gentleman, and I may regret it for the rest of my life." Danqing said maturely: "You are too polite." He was startled, and took a closer look at Danqing. She was a little girl when she came in yesterday, but today, she is calm and composed, with an adult attitude. When Ge Xiaojia rang the bell, Danqing was completely ready, and the mother and daughter couldn't help hugging when they met. Ruan Zhidong was waiting for the two of them downstairs. Qiao Lishan said: "If it is convenient, I would also like to go to the last mourning together." Ge Xiaojia was still hesitating, but Danqing had already said, "Let him go." Ge Xiaojia nodded. Ruan Zhidong drove up and let a couple of young people sit in the back seat. Danqing has not been in the car with his parents for a long time, and he has mixed feelings, as if going back in time, with infinite emotion. She asked: "Why, we are obviously in love, but we don't know how to express it when there is nothing wrong. We must only see the truth when we are in trouble, and miss the best years. Father, tell me why." Qiao Lishan pressed Danqing's hand. When Ge Xiaojia heard her daughter say this, tears streamed down her face. "Stop fighting," Danqing begged, "If you can't keep going today, you can go tomorrow, everyone take a step back, father, mother wants you to change, you agree to it, mother, if you can bear it, please forgive me." Qiao Lishan handed Danqing a handkerchief. No one spoke any more along the way. After a long time, Ge Xiaojia said: "Danqing, she left Juanzi Cafe to you." Danqing didn't say anything. After a while she asked, "Is there a suicide note?" "No. A letter can express her mood at that time." "The whole thing is completely unnecessary, it's the greatest waste," Ruan Zhidong said sadly: "No matter what she writes, we will never forgive him," the voice choked, "It's not enough for so many people to love her, and she still feels Satisfied, what else can we say if we make such a bad move." "Is it an accident?" Danqing asked softly. "no." Danqing didn't ask any more, it was no longer important, what was lost was already lost. Ge Xiaojia asked, "What are you holding?" "Oh," Danqing lowered his head, "it's a veil." "Yes—" Ge Xiaojia asked. Dan Qing nodded, "Can I keep it as a souvenir?" "certainly." Qiao Lishan held Danqing's hand tightly. Ruan Zhidong said: "Danqing, we know that this tragedy will definitely shock you, and hope you can deal with it with strength." Danqing said, "Yesterday, I thought about running away." Her father asked, "What about today? Today is the most important day." Her mother said, "Don't push her, let her slowly make room for her grief." Danqing looked out of the street. Qiao Lishan said in her ear, "Look at how civilized your parents are." Yes, but it's a pity that most of the time, they treat each other in an extremely primitive and cruel way. No matter how to deal with this tragedy emotionally, Danqing knows that she is no longer the little Dan she used to be. Ruan Zhidong was a pillar of the sky in this matter, handled it very properly, and gave his ex-wife the greatest spiritual support. Danqing has never seen his parents get along so well. Qiao Lishan has also been with Danqing.On the day Zhang Haiming and Song Wenpei boarded the plane, they went to see them off together. Peipei whispered to Danqing: "The last time I flew by plane, it was very bitter. A girl in a low-cut skirt sat next to me, and accidentally poured a whole cup of coffee on my lap, and it was sticky for more than ten hours." However, the little tortures in life will always be overcome, the plane will definitely arrive, and the customs will definitely be able to pass, but it is never possible for the deceased to meet again.Danqing no longer cared about these innocuous details. She patiently listened to Peipei's nagging, but she had lost her resonance. The mentality of the two girls was far apart. Danqing left Song Wenpei, and they have already gone in opposite directions. The time finally came, shaking hands, hugging, saying goodbye, breaking up, Danqing heaved a sigh of relief. That night, Danqing asked his mother calmly, "Have you met Hu Shizhen?" Ge Xiaojia glanced at her, but didn't dare to answer immediately. After pondering for a while, he asked insincerely, "Don't you hate him anymore?" "Hate, why not hate, but besides hating him, I have to live." Ge Xiaojia breathed a sigh of relief, Danqing saw through. After a while, she replied, "Yes." "Is he devastated, or will he marry Miss Gu Liberty as he intended?" Ge Xiaojia was silent. "Tell me, Mother, I am sure I can take any blow." "Both." "what?" "He was infinitely sad, but at the same time decided to take Ms. Gu back to Paris to get married." Dan Qing smiled instead of anger. "He asked to see you, I didn't think it was appropriate, so I didn't agree to him." Ge Xiaojia paused, "Seriously, Danqing, life is so tiring and aimless, maybe Juanzi just wants to die sooner—" Danqing interrupted her, "Mother, I don't allow you to think like that." Ge Xiaojia smiled wryly. Danqing said, "Isn't the situation better, where is Mr. Zhang?" "We're still at the stage where you play more, sir." "With time, you will become familiar." "But at our age, it's just tired." Danqing couldn't think of any words to comfort and enlighten his mother. "What are you going to do with Juanzi Cafe?" "After graduation, I took care of it myself and turned it into a salon where literary and art workers can gather." "Juanzi will approve of this idea, then, let's talk about everything when you come back." Both mother and daughter packed their bags. Danqing only had one piece of hand luggage. Her mother was very troubled and said repeatedly, "No wonder Queen Elizabeth II took water with her when she travels." But it was not easy, there were three suitcases. Danqing admired her mother for being tireless after so many hardships. Could it be that she was complaining and nagging to help her vent all the pain in her heart and balance her mind. On the contrary, Aunt Juanzi never vented her emotions, and it was even more difficult to resolve her knots. "How can you wear two nightgowns for sixteen days? It's really like fleeing." Ge Xiaojia was still muttering to himself. Either way, you can't blame society, you can't blame fate, and you can use your nightgown to vent your anger. Danqing understood, she saw a lot of truths that she hadn't seen before. She asked Qiao Lishan to meet at Juanzi Cafe. She makes coffee for him. I remembered that the first time they met was in this coffee room. Danqing said, "I know you're going to write a novel with a background in the 1960s." Qiao Lishan raised his eyebrows, "How did you guess that?" "Remember those boxes of old pictorials, you said those materials were useful." Qiao Lishan smiled and agreed. "Then you should listen to some popular tune from the early sixties." "OK." Danqing took out the small forty-five-rpm record that Juanzi collected, put it on the turntable, and sang with a bright and innocent female voice: "Look, look at my heart like an open book, I, love, no one, except you." Qiao Lishan had never heard this song before in his memory. He was stunned. The melody and lyrics were so simple that it was unbelievable. More than 20 years ago, did teenagers fall in love like this? No matter how this novel is written, he cannot imitate the mentality and values ​​of young people at that time. Danqing said, "There are more." She changed to another record, and the lyrics said: "Every moment, every moment, I will remember today, you used the most tender gesture, loved me and kissed me, although you may leave me, you will always stay in my heart, Every moment, I will remember today." Dan Qing shook his head. Qiao Lishan couldn't help but let out a laugh. Dan Qing put away the record, "I don't blame you, so you said, mother's generation was so difficult to be a human being, and they had such a rigid view of feelings when they were young. In the 1980s, the atmosphere changed drastically, and it's not surprising that they couldn't adapt." Qiao Lishan nodded. Danqing said in a low voice, "Aunt Juanzi, I couldn't turn around." Qiao Lishan quickly changed the topic, "I'll just write today's story according to my ability." "Otherwise, just drag it to the twenties, there is a slight difference, and no one will criticize you. People born at that time, even if they are alive, are already too old to open and close their eyes, and you can talk nonsense. " Qiao Lishan couldn't help laughing, "You come to write, you know how to write well." Danqing nodded, "You like to tease me the most." Qiao Lishan said: "Laugh at people and be laughed at, and have fun while suffering." Danqing raised his head, "I will come back three years later, and I will manage the Juanzi Coffee Shop to flourish and take over my aunt's business. If you want to see me, you know where to find me." Qiao Lishan was startled. Danqing caught it and said, "Don't worry, I know you're not Hu Shizhen." Pause, "We won't make blank promises, which will waste time and trouble." Qiao Lishan let go of his heart. Danqing mocked and said, "You can bring your wife or girlfriend, anyone is welcome." Qiao Lishan stared at her, "If I'm still single, will your husband or boyfriend kick me out?" In any case, Ji Juanzi's story will not repeat itself. Danqing lowered his head, and suddenly heard Qiao Lishan cough. She looked up and saw Hu Shizhen pushing the door in. Startled, Danqing let go of his hand and broke the cup. Danqing didn't expect that he would be so afraid of Hu Shizhen. She stared at him blankly, and Hu Shizhen grew back his mustache. He looked haggard and thinner, but his eyes glowed faintly, like a wild beast. Finally, Danqing responded calmly: "You haven't left yet?" Hu Shizhen's voice was extremely hoarse, "Just now... I saw her come in in a daze." Both Danqing and Qiao Lishan knew who she was talking about. Danqing said, "You read it wrong." "No, I seem to see her push the door and come in, so I follow her. She is very young, dressed as we first met, white skirt, red shoes...Danqing, please come down." He begged. While Danqing and Qiao Lishan were shocked, they remained silent. After a while, Danqing said: "I don't have the ability, I can't invite her." "But I clearly saw her." Hu Shizhen murmured. "You read it wrong." Danqing said again. Hu Shizhen slumped down in the chair. Danqing wanted to drive him away, but was held down by Qiao Lishan. Hu Shizhen was panting, only then did Danqing smell alcohol all over his body. Gu Youyou followed, and she helped him up, saying, "If you don't go to the airport, you won't be able to catch up." When she saw Danqing, she was at a loss and didn't know what to say. Danqing said, "You have won, so hurry up and take away your prize." Gu Ziyou dragged Hu Shizhen out. After a long time, Qiao Lishan asked Danqing: "You have to say that." Dan Qing asked: "Why not, I don't want to talk about demeanor and self-cultivation. If I love someone, I will let him know, if I hate someone, I will also let him know. Now, I also know how to be more reserved, but why should I be wronged?" Qiao Lishan was silent for a while, and replied: "I think you are right." "Thank you, Fang Dufei." Danqing turned off all the water, electricity and gas mains in the coffee room. Qiao Lishan suddenly asked: "Have you seen her?" Danqing replied: "No." After thinking about it, I regret to say again: "No." Qiao Lishan said, "Let's go." Just as they were about to leave, a young man and woman pushed the door in, "Is there any iced tea?" The girl had a sunny face and a smile all over her face, like Ruan Danqing in early summer. Danqing stayed for a few seconds before answering: "We are no longer in business." The girl didn't think it was disobedient, and said to her boyfriend, "Let's go to the street, there is also a family there." The two hopped away. Danqing finally locked the glass door. She asked Qiao Lishan: "Will she come back?" "I don't think so." He replied mildly. He sent Danqing home, telling her his plans for the coming year along the way.First, he will meet Mr. Ai, and the master will introduce him to a publishing house and let him try to write in English.If the talks are good, he will not have to go anywhere for the next year, and the manager will lock him in a dark cell and tell him to write. If the conditions are not met, he will continue to write Chinese novels, practice makes perfect, he will have more free time, and he can find time to visit Danqing. Danqing asked: "Will Fang Dufei really come to see me?" "Yes, he will come with Qiao Lishan." Danqing wanted to laugh, but he couldn't laugh because of the heavy pressure in his heart. They exchanged addresses. After this summer, Danqing thought, separate things. Only her father was left like a cat in the city, unable to move because he had to support his wife and children. Danqing smiled, and what made Miss Zhou Nannan feel disheartened was that Ruan Zhidong's love for his daughter was far more than what she got. This explains the old-fashioned woman's desire to have a child every once in a while.It is not used to bind the husband, but to make the third party retreat. Qiao Lishan sent Xiaodan to the door, "I won't go in, remember tomorrow night at eight o'clock, I will pick you up to dance." Dan Qing nodded. Seeing her daughter's bewildered expression, Ge Xiaojia sighed and said, "College student-to-be, whether you can throw it away or not, what's going on here has nothing to do with you. You have to start a new life." "Will he remember me?" "Who? I haven't broken up yet, so I'm afraid of forgetting." "Qiao Lishan, will he forget me?" "Let him worry about this problem. You are younger than him and forget the past more easily than him." "Mother, is there a way to filter the memories, forget all the unpleasant ones, and keep all the sweet ones." Ge Xiaojia said: "One can only do it if his practice is very deep. I'm still practicing." Dan Qing fell on the bed with his arms behind his head. "What do you want to forget?" Ge Xiaojia asked. "I want to forget that you and your father have broken up, I want to forget the tragedy of Aunt Juanzi, and I want to forget that there are four years of homework waiting for me." Ge Xiaojia remained silent, and patted Danqing's thigh lightly, without stopping for a long time. Danqing murmured: "It can be guessed that the older you are, the more things you want to forget. In the future, you may want to forget the setbacks in your career and the frustrations in your relationship. Maybe one day, it's best to forget your last name and who you are. ." "Okay." Ge Xiaojia stopped her daughter, fearing that Danqing's words would become worse. But there were indeed some mornings when Ge Xiaojia wished that Ge Xiaojia was not Ge Xiaojia, unfortunately Danqing was right. "I'm going to dance tomorrow night." One last dance. "Want to ask me to borrow clothes?" "Yes, the black gauze trim would be ideal." Ge Xiaojia originally wanted to object, fearing that the dress would be too reserved, but then she thought, there are already too many unsatisfactory things in the world, why bother to spoil Danqing's interest for a dress. So she said: "It's in the locker, you can get it yourself, remember to leave for the airport at 7:30 in the morning." "It's counted when we hit it, and we start to worry about it now, it won't be worth it," Danqing said, "Maybe the sunspots will explode tonight, and everything will be wiped out, so it's useless to worry about it." Ge Xiaojia was angry and funny, and then couldn't help feeling deeply sad. The breeze and moon, music and dance had nothing to do with Juanzi, but she was friendly during her lifetime and only mourned for three days, and then she started eating, drinking, marrying and returning to normal. You must go through the whole journey, Ge Xiaojia clenched her fists tightly, otherwise the loss will be huge and it is not worth it. From that moment on, Ge Xiaojia knew that she would never go to the bar to get drunk again. The next day, Danqing and his mother counted all the documents they should bring, and every once in a while, the mother and daughter hugged each other. Danqing felt a little timid in her heart, in two days she would have to rely entirely on herself, and she would no longer be able to take advantage of ready-made supplies, she had to go to the street to buy daily necessities, and she had to go to the hospital for illness, and she could only discuss with her left hand and right hand about all difficulties. A trace of fear emerged leisurely. There are only dozens of hours left in the whole summer vacation, so we must make good use of it. The next day, Ruan Zhidong came, handed Danqing a promissory note, and said with a smile: "Although this thing can't speak, it has the loudest voice." Ge Xiaojia looked at the silver code, "What about you, what should you do?" "Salary is paid at the end of the month, so what are you worried about?" Danqing likes to see her parents discussing things like this. "Let's have a meal for the family of three tonight." Ge Xiaojia took a look at Danqing, "She asked someone to dance." Ruan Zhidong thought about it, "Danqing, if you don't mind, how about the two of us also standing in line?" "Great." Danqing clapped his hands. "It's a deal." Ge Xiaojia said, "Are you kidding me, I can't jump." "Mother--" "Danqing, don't do to others what you want." She turned into the room. Ruan Zhidong was helpless, she still couldn't completely forgive him. In the evening, Danqing dressed up, sat in the living room and read magazines, and waited for Qiao Lishan to pick him up. As soon as Ge Xiaojia came out, she only saw a bright light, and her eyes lit up. Xiao Danqing didn't know how to make up at all, but a tube of lipstick had already made her whole face bright, and she couldn't find any creases that were crystal clear and tight. The skin, just sitting there, can also see the potential. "Okay, okay." Ge Xiaojia nodded. At a certain time, the butterfly will inevitably break out of the cocoon, and there is no way to stop it. Ge Xiaojia smiled and said, "If Qiao Lishan forgets you, I'll give him a certificate." "Mother always takes good care of her daughter." Danqing smiled. When the doorbell rang, Ge Xiaojia went to open the door, and it was Qiao Lishan who came. He also brought flowers and candies in the old-fashioned way, which made Ge Xiaojia feel warm. "Take her home early, she will go out early in the morning." But Danqing said: "Mother, don't mention tomorrow, tomorrow may never come." Ge Xiaojia replied: "Don't worry, it will come, it will come." Danqing held Qiao Lishan's hand and ran downstairs together. They lingered on the dance floor all night. I don't know why the time passed so fast, the hour hand turned like crazy, one hour at a time. Xiao Dan secretly said: "The god of time likes to play tricks on people. He will speed up the clock to see if you are happy, and slow down the clock when you are in pain, so that you can live like years." Qiao Lishan had never been so reluctant to be alone, speechless. It was a long time before he said, "I will come to see you as soon as possible." "My worst uncle will move out after living in three or two months." "We're on the phone." "I'm just a student." Danqing confessed. "I understand, I'll call you." They danced until the nightclub closed. The band applauded them. Qiao Lishan pulled Danqing and bowed to the band. It was three o'clock in the morning. He was wearing a dress, she was wearing a gauze, and they were walking on the street. "Do you want to go home and sleep?" Danqing said: "It's too late, I can only take a shower and change clothes. Anyway, I don't sleep on the plane and I have nothing else to do." "I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise to send you home before twelve o'clock." Promises are made to be broken, and keeping one in ten is good enough. Qiao Lishan said: "This is a memorable summer, Danqing, because I got to know you." "Thank you, Fang Dufei." When Danqing finally returned home, it was dawn and her mother was in the kitchen making coffee. Danqing opened the door and entered the room. Ge Xiaojia looked behind her and asked, "Where's the boy?" "Go home and change clothes, see you at the airport later." Ge Xiaojia said: "He is indeed the better one." Danqing tugged at the corner of his mouth. "You get ready too, your father's car will arrive in a while." Dan Qing nodded. Back in the room, she opened the drawer, took out the diary, bit the pen holder, and sang softly: "Look, look, my heart is like an open book, I, love, there is no one but you." She turned to a blank page and wrote: In the summer of 1987, there were no wars, nor earthquakes and tsunamis in this city, but I lost my dearest Aunt Juanzi and my innocence, and gained Fang Dufei, and with Ai old lady gave me the watch.My personal gains and losses this summer may be insignificant in the long run, but to the entire universe... "Danqing, come out for breakfast." "It's mom." Danqing closed the diary, put it in the drawer, and locked it. Ge Xiaojia came in, "Hurry up, add a coat, the weather is much cooler." Summer is clearly over. Danqing pushed open the window, there are undoubtedly many, many summers in her life, but there must not be a summer like this summer.