Chapter 24 "Light of the Earth" means of commercial operation

means of doing business (1) 5 The first stop in Beijing was very successful from the opening to the end. The sponsors provided means of business operation, such as holding high-end parties in the gorgeous exhibition hall, etc., and also guaranteed the influence of the exhibition. The paintings were favored or reserved by many people. The art exhibition was held all the way south, and the momentum became more and more powerful.Gorgeous art exhibition billboards can be seen everywhere in the city streets.Their modernist works were reproduced into giant light boxes, hung high above them, which stood out in the commercial advertisements full of handsome men and beautiful women, and the names of the two authors stood out.On the last night of the art exhibition in Chengdu, after attending a banquet, he returned to the hotel exhausted, and after calling Xin He, he felt so sleepy that he was about to fall asleep.

When he was about to take a rest after taking a shower, an accompanying staff member knocked on his door and told him that there was a person in the lobby downstairs who said he must see you, and that person had been wandering around your art exhibition for several days. . He didn't know why, but the first reaction in his heart was Huai.He wanted to confirm with the person, but hesitated for a second, so he said, okay, thanks, I see.I'll go down right away. He wondered why Huai was in Chengdu, but he didn't have time to think about it, he was already uneasy, and he became excited for no reason, so excited that he couldn't control it.The spirit came suddenly.He tidied up quickly, put on his clothes, and then hurried into the elevator and went downstairs alone.

In the empty and gorgeous hotel lobby, he looked around, but he didn't see Huai's shadow, and his heart suddenly became tense and empty. While he was looking around, a voice sounded from behind. Are you Jian Sheng? Just like that, he turned his head and saw a man who was over half a century old and looked like an elder standing there.He has gray hair, wears very plain clothes, and is somewhat fat. Jian Sheng struggled to figure out who this person was.It is naturally very impolite not to be able to call out seniors by their names smoothly.But no matter how he recalled, he didn't remember that he ever knew this person.

The man walked over to him and continued to ask him, you are Jian Sheng and your mother is Tong Suqing, right? Jian Sheng was stunned, and even forgot to answer for a moment, and just stood there so firmly, as if he foresaw that an old and huge fact was approaching slowly and irresistibly, and the oppressive feeling of darkness made him at a loss what to do. The man met his eyes, his eyes were full of flickering expressions, his dry and pale lips moved slightly, but he didn't speak for a long time.At that moment of silence, Jian Sheng only felt a dull pain in his chest again, as if he was suddenly dragged into the dark river of time, and the rushing waves beat him to the bottom of the river, as if he was drowning and could not breathe.

Jian Sheng, I am your father.He said.Forgive me, Jane. Jian Sheng stared at this tired and fat old man, and covered his face with his hands in disbelief.He felt the blood rushing violently at the bottom of his chest, and the impact made the top of his head ache.An old stranger, when he was already over thirty, suddenly appeared in front of him and told himself, I am your father. All this is too ridiculous. He said with great restraint, wait a minute, what's your name?How did you find me? The man paused and answered him, Jian Sheng, I am your father, Jian Weidong.Your mother may have mentioned the name to you.I saw your art exhibition advertisement on the street, and I also entered your art exhibition to see and ask around.I think I am sure that you are the son of me and Tong Suqing, Jian Sheng.

Jian Sheng still hadn't changed his sensitive personality, he felt extremely sad all of a sudden, and tears filled his eyes unknowingly.He tried to calmly say, let's... go upstairs to my room and sit down, don't stand here... They go into the elevator.In the small and cramped elevator space, only the two of them were reflected on the mirror-like aluminum door.Jian Sheng stood in front, and his father stood behind.He looked at the face of the man behind him from the door, feeling an irresistible sense of denial in his heart.The two were silent, only the slight noise of the elevator rising continuously.

Jian Sheng took him to his room.He pulled a chair for his father to sit down, poured him another cup of tea and put it on the coffee table, then walked into the bathroom and locked the door. Means of doing business (2) He faced himself in the mirror in the small white space and found it difficult to accept.He turned on the tap to wash his face, wiped it off with a towel, and walked out of the bathroom. Jian Sheng walked over and sat on the edge of the bed, facing his father. Jian Sheng, how have you been all these years? fine. where is your mother now She died a long time ago.Now please don't make me tell you how she died.Father.

Jian Sheng said softly.The voice fell, and the two fell into a long silence. Jane Sheng, I... Father hesitated to speak, extremely hesitant and choked up.He paused and continued, Jian Sheng, I want you...forgive me.As the old man spoke, tears rolled down his wrinkled eye sockets, and there was a faint cry in his dry and hoarse voice. ……It was my fault.Jian Sheng.Over the years, I have thought over and over again, knowing that as a father, I did ridiculous and selfish scandals, and I was too cruel to you and Suqing.If you get retribution in the future, you deserve it.Later, after my life became stable, I went to look for your mother for a long time, but there was no news... She is a good person... I made things difficult for her... I just didn't expect that she had passed away... It was my fault that I suffered her... …I have been in Chengdu since then, and I have a family, but it is not as expected.Even if it is retribution, I will accept it.

I know it must not be a good thing to come to you now... I saw your name written on the billboard, so I hurried to ask the staff who knew you at the art exhibition, and I was finally sure that it was you, Jian Sheng.In the end, I couldn't help but came to you... I thought I could find Suqing...but... I didn't expect her...to leave earlier than me... Jian Sheng, of course I know that I am not a father...but I just want to fulfill this wish before I close my eyes... Come and see you... see you, can you... forgive me... see How have you been all these years... Sitting across from the father, his slumped expression and rambling words made people feel desolate.After he said this, Jian Sheng could no longer bear it.He bent down, put his elbows on his knees, and covered his face tightly with his hands.Tears dripped down between the fingers.

Jian Sheng's crying voice came from between the fingers covering his face, he said, father...Of course I can forgive you...but...who will forgive me... He went on intermittently, being a father... I don't know how you can do that by putting your own son...on the ground...turning around and walking away... If you want to do this, why did you give birth to me in the first place... If you really have a heart of repentance, you should have gone to me more than thirty years ago.Instead of appearing here... His voice was mournful and hoarse, still as if he encountered difficult things when he was a teenager, as fragile as if he had never grown up.He is always so fragile at such moments that it is difficult to hold on to himself.He knows that since he can remember, various shortcomings of the family have been deeply implanted in his character and destiny.The whole period of growing up when his father was absent, and the tragedy with his mother later, have always been the gaps that he could not look directly at and face, and rotted deep in his heart.Now that fate actually played such a subversive joke again, he only felt it was very cruel.

He tried his best to suppress his crying.What a shame to cry, he can't go on like this.Jian Sheng stopped talking.His father was sitting across from him trembling, looking at him blankly, with a tear in the corner of his eye. Jian Sheng stood up calmly, went into the bathroom to wash his face.Locking the door and sitting on the toilet for a long time, I just feel extremely humiliated. After a long time, Jian Sheng sat on the toilet seat, feeling that he was completely numb and unable to stand up.He heard his father's knock on the door, and knocked on the bathroom door hesitantly and tremblingly.He said, sorry, Jane.If you don't want to see me, I'm leaving now. Jian Sheng couldn't bear it anymore and suddenly opened the door.Father loomed in front of him.He said, don't go.Come back with me, we go to visit mother's grave.