Chapter 24 Chapter 23 "I think, so this is the feeling of nostalgia.", 2005.

Yu Shouheng The two of us have gone through untold hardships and finally returned home. Fortunately, it's just about an hour and a half later than originally estimated. During the whole train journey, I didn't say a word to Kang Zhengxing, I just slept for tens of minutes, while he looked out the window with his head turned. After getting out of the car, we walked along the path next to the train station towards the river embankment. This road is also the route we must pass from our home to Hanyang High School. Both of us looked rather embarrassed, but I thought, it's just a trip home anyway, there's no need to be glamorous.

We are still silent.It's like we don't have anything to say anymore in this life. We have all grown up, and the words we speak become less and less, not as much as when we were young, and more of them are just muttering to ourselves, trying to tell ourselves everything, because when we grow up, we finally realize that we have Fewer and fewer people are willing to listen to others. The two of us stepped onto the embankment, stopped, and watched the sun gradually move westward, and soon it would sink into the top of the mountain. "That day, why did you leave without saying goodbye?" he said suddenly.

"When?" "September 21, 1999, the day we last met." "I don't know, I just don't think it's necessary for us to meet again." "Because you found out you liked me?" he said with a smile. I didn't speak. "Because you found out that we are no longer friends?" He laughed again. "Or, do you really regret what happened and want to pretend that nothing happened?" I turned around and punched him. He sat down on the embankment. "What the hell are you doing?" I began to yell at him in series. "Who do you think you are?"

"You told me you didn't want to be my friend at all!" "It was you who broke our friendship first!" "You said we weren't friends at all!" pause. "Because I don't just want to be your friend," he said. I punched him again. "And you already knew." I hit him hard again. "But you can't live without me by your side." "I don't understand," I said. "You know, you know it from elementary school to now, you're just used to deceiving yourself and others," he said. "I don't understand!" I repeated.

"You know, because you know that when you were in elementary school, the teacher also ordered me to be friends with you, because at that time, you were a bad student, and no other classmates wanted to talk to you, and you had no friends at all. So you promised the teacher to be my friend." I didn't want to listen to him, so I turned and walked away. "Because you were afraid that if you told me this secret, I wouldn't be good friends with you anymore, so you kept this secret from elementary school to now." I don't understand, I don't understand, I don't understand anything.

I walked home, leaving him behind, thinking more and more angrily as I walked. I secretly turned my head to look at the embankment, I don't know where Kang Zhengxing is? I don't care anyway. Why do I have to go home?Why should I go home with Kang Zhengxing, I don't need him by my side at all, I don't need friends at all. why do i have to go home Why on earth should I go home? I walked to the door of Kang Zhengxing's house and stopped. His door was hung with white curtains, and a funeral was being held, a very quiet, very quiet funeral. A woman came out of his house, it was Du Huijia, her eyes were red from crying, and she glanced at me.

I paused for a moment, then took a long, deep breath. why do i want to go homeright. I suddenly remembered why I had to go home. for what?For whom? Today is June 3, 2005, and I received an obituary last Wednesday. I opened it to take a look, and it was a very familiar, very familiar name, which I will never forget in my life. He died in a serious car accident. We haven't seen each other for a long time. We haven't heard from each other for a long time. We used to be best, best friends. I think a lot about the summers we spent together. And the reason why I came back this summer was to attend his farewell ceremony.

I remembered what I was going to tell him. I don't know if anyone else, like me, started mumbling, talking to themselves. Maybe Kang Zhengxing once did it, maybe Du Huijia did too. I think it was when I finally grew up that I finally realized the thing of "loneliness". I think it's because we need someone to accompany us so much that we keep trying to say those monologues about ourselves. I think, it turns out that this is the feeling of "missing", missing someone I once loved. When I started to learn to miss, I finally had the courage to tell him. goodbye.