Chapter 21 [Two Eleven] Hole

When we returned to the Pearl Hotel, there were very few people watching the movie.Presumably because of the cold weather, there were only a few spectators sitting in twos and threes, and the popcorn smelled very sweet. He found himself hungry again.He wants to rethink the relationship issue while eating. In the kitchen, I found a piece of blueberry cake and boiled a bag of hot milk. The dining table is made of wood, and it only takes a few seconds to walk from here to his bedroom.But he didn't want to go back to the bedroom, he hoped that the time would be delayed as long as possible, he didn't want to face the empty room, where Senin's style was inspected not long ago.

He decided to eat the cake elegantly at the dining table, not wanting to give people the bad impression of overeating like other lovelorn people. As he ate, he thought: I've been looking for someone like that, a girl who doesn't care if her breasts are small.Now I realize that I am an unfortunate person, living peacefully for so many years, running a movie theater, and meeting unhappy people.Whose fault is this fucking weird city?Who else can I fall in love with?What is the standard for falling in love with someone?How can I completely forget my past, do I need to help my loved ones forget their past?This is really a little too serious.But what should we do? !Why does Marguerite keep making me sad?Why do I feel like there is a hole in my heart and I never stop wanting to fill it.So I get new lovers and try to stuff them into this hole, and in the end it's all going to be empty.Is this hole still there?What is this hole?Is it my bad luck?Or is it a manifestation of my inner resistance?Did you really get hurt in the past?Is it someone who makes me hesitate to talk?Is it Marguerite? !Is she that root? !I don't know, anyway, I never knew myself enough, I was too lazy to analyze these problems.But if you don't analyze it, it seems that the problem is always there.I have to figure out what the hell is this hole?What am I going to do next?To forget the hole, to jump over the hole, or to fill the hole? !hole hole...

Thinking about the hole, he ate the cake and drank the milk, and went back to the bedroom.This man is closer to a child, he is simple and loves to ask questions.Somewhat stupid, after asking hard questions, he still likes to answer himself casually. Because he has failed so much, it seems that he has done nothing that stands out!In this way, he becomes discouraged and feels that he is unreliable. He is often depressed for a while, and sighs for a while, and then turns into helplessness towards himself, and he does not investigate his behavior deeply.Huancheng is full of such people.Only such a person can live safely in Huancheng, and will not be driven crazy by his own heart.

Now for his fish. That little red fish with no horns but transparent skin. A little fish that never shed tears. That lonely little fish with nothing left but freedom. died. The weather in Huancheng has not changed because of this, it is still so cold and so dry. He lost a fish and a girl the day the little fish called "Marguerite" died. When he fished out the body, he almost pushed his head into the water. He suddenly discovered that since that day many years ago, he had never been deeply sad or remembered deeply. Never forget someone or something, let alone force yourself to forget.

I never took it seriously again, never stopped to sort out my thoughts, never held such a constant temperature and look up to women.That should be a kind of attachment, he thought!That is a force that makes people think they can go on.Men get it, aphrodisiac.A woman gets it, and her heart is full of spring... Including Senin, he recalled this sudden feeling.Something was wrong—when Senin first appeared, it was the right time to fill his void.But now that Sai Ning is about to leave him again, he finds that the pain in his heart is far less than that of the past. The tears he shed for Sai Ning were only because he was moved by that story, maybe because he was moved by himself... I'm afraid it's a little egotistical to say this Ridiculous, but that's about it for the emotion.He is a man, so he should have a posture.And this woman unguardedly broke his posture, sneaked into his life forcefully, intending to marry him and have children with him, and grow old together...but a posture is a posture after all, and a pose is just a pose after all.

Can this kind of warmth last forever without problems? Yang Zuoluo knows that he is a passionate person, and within a few days, he can break all desires and fall in love with a brand new soul. In short, he is a blind and long man.He will be with one person, and then fall in love with each other for a long time. Every day is like a fairy couple, thinking that it can last forever.And in the end someone always escapes.It is impossible for such a person to let him guard the empty boudoir alone.Soon he self-disintegrates everything... Of course, there are always exceptions to everything.The first love is his exception.Marguerite's play of Xiaoyu has become a classic story, which is eternal.Senin will soon be shelved.He had some short-term pain, and it was justified.

For him, sleep should have been endless.But today he has insomnia.Tried many positions in bed, but it was all in vain.For this reason, he was a little angry, and walked to the theater hall in a broken pot, sat on his sofa, and planned to kill the time of the whole midnight show. What kills him is always time and patience, both of which are the most abundant things in his life storehouse.Hooray for killing time! He has seen too many movies, and Yang Zuoluo's attitude towards movies is no longer pretentious. He believes that movies are a form of expression, not sacred or profound.The movie is very straightforward and powerful, instead of carrying "art" on its head and using it as a target for the audience to watch.

Because of this, he usually has an attitude of giving up on films that are too boring and mysterious.He didn't like to torture himself to pursue some art.He believes that "art" should be humane and have a strong visual impact.It shouldn't be that after watching it with a half-hearted attitude, people are still speculating about some incomprehensible scenes, and then secretly ask questions, and blame themselves for being imbecile when they can't explain it.He hates those who call him imbecile after watching the movie, and he also hates that kind of movie and its related directors.

He made them all go to hell! He suddenly longed to see Marguerite, to hear her talk, to hug her. People who have just experienced a broken love can easily think of the first and most true love, and make a comparison to dismiss the broken love in front of them.While thinking this way, someone pushed him. is slight. Wei Wei didn't wear colored contact lenses as usual, but dark green framed plate glasses, shirt and sweater, like a female scientist.Holding a flashlight, I searched for things near their usual seats. Wei Wei: "Get up and help me find something!" Yang Zuoluo: "What happened?"

Slight: "Key." Yang Zuoluo: "Can't you go home?" Wei Wei: "Margarita still has the door key. In fact, it's okay to lose the door key... The key I'm talking about is... the key that someone gave as a souvenir for playing that playground game." Zoro Yang: "Oh, once you went with Mag, didn't you?!" Slightly capturing his words: "Mag? Do you call her Mag? Isn't that her childhood name?" Yang Zuoluo: "When we met, she was only called Mag, there was no 'Lite'!" Wei Wei: "Then do you know her past?"

Yang Zuoluo: "Which time period and what past are you referring to?" Wei Wei: "Before you met me, how long is the past, I want to know everything you know." Yang Zuoluo: "Don't you know anything now?" Wei Wei: "I know that her grandmother lives in the locked room in the apartment now, and her grandmother died there. I also know that her childhood was probably unhappy. Besides, she didn't talk about it, and I didn't ask Yes! But I want to know the relationship between the two of you, can you tell me?" Yang Zuoluo: "When she was 19 years old, she came to Huancheng and was with her grandmother. Later we fell in love." Wei Wei: "...Why did it become the current situation?" Yang Zuoluo: "Because she is more superstitious, how should I put it? That's right, she thinks that she is unlucky and will make people around her unlucky, so she asks to break up with me." Wei Wei: "Are you stupid?! Do you accept such a reason?!" Yang Zuoluo: "She was very stubborn... besides the situation at that time, choosing to break up was the most helpful for her." Wei Wei: "Is she not in a good state of mind?" Yang Zuoluo: "Yeah, I was very fragile at the time. So I followed her." Wei Wei: "How did her grandmother die?!" Yang Zuoluo didn't want to talk anymore, so he interrupted and said, "Are you here to find the keys or to inquire about gossip?!" She raised her eyebrows slightly: "Of course I'm here to find the key, but I just want you to help me find it. Besides, how can Margaret's matter be gossip?! But I really don't want to ask her directly, because I'm afraid when I talk about it. Brings back memories for her, makes her unhappy. We're all so close, we should always know. If I don't ask you, who should I ask?!" Yang Zuoluo suddenly said: "Then how much does she know about your past? At least I don't know anything." Wei Wei was a little taken aback by the question, and muttered sadly: "She didn't take the initiative to ask me, even if I lied, she wouldn't pursue any flaws. Sometimes I feel that she doesn't like me..." Yang Zuoluo: "Where is she?" Wei Wei: "Going back to sleep. Her sleeping condition has just improved, and I don't want to delay her sleep... Don't interrupt, can you tell me more about her past?" Yang Zuoluo: "I'm sleepy, let's try another day. Oh, right. I met Gesang today, and she asked me to tell you that the cafe is going to be sold and she's getting married." Slightly surprised: "What did you say? Say it again!" Yang Zuoluo: "What's wrong with you biting someone?!... She said she was going to sell the shop and get married." Wei Wei: "Marry? Marry who?!" Zoro Yang: "A fashionista." Wei Wei: "What else did she say?" Yang Zuoluo: "I also said... I also told you not to look for her again in the future." Wei Wei: "What the hell is she talking about?! My God, please help me." She was dizzy and couldn't stand up. Yang Zuoluo helped her to sit on the sofa. Wei Wei: "How did you know Gesang?" She realized that she hadn't introduced them to each other. Yang Zuoluo: "It was a chance that Sai Ning introduced her to me, saying she was your friend." Slightly nervous: "Did you say anything?" Yang Zuoluo: "Hey, why are you nervous?! We didn't say anything, we just said hello. She said she came to the Pearl Hotel to look for you, but you weren't here, so let me send you a message. The first time I saw her was much more energetic than the last time." Wei Wei: "Great, it's great that she can get married!" Yang Zuoluo: "No, I couldn't sleep at first, but now I'm sleepy and I have to go to sleep. You can also sleep there for a while, and you can look for it tomorrow when you turn on the headlights during the day. It's pitch black now!" Wei Wei: "By the way, let me go to your room to look for it. I remember we went to look for the disc during the day, and I'm afraid it fell out of our pocket." Yang Zuoluo thought for a while: "It's too dark, so it's inconvenient. I'll help you find it tomorrow." He still has principles. He curled his lips slightly, snorted, and buried his head in the seat, holding the flashlight to find it.Yang Zuoluo couldn't bear it anymore, so he went back to sleep.