Chapter 14 [Pick up] black shoes

The bed they shared was big enough to sleep four.It was covered with a black quilt, black sheets and white pillowcases.Margaret wears a black nightdress, and a red one when she is light. She also likes to wear a silk scarf when she is leisurely. It is also red, and the material is the same as that of the nightdress. Weiwei knows that Margaret is not sleepy at all, her insomnia has been rampant recently, she said she was sleepy, she just wanted to escape that boring movie, and only by lying that she was sleepy can Weiwei obediently accompany her home . As soon as she entered the door, Marguerite turned on the TV and put in a disc of a female artist's concert like the beginning of all sleepless nights. She sat on the sofa and smoked a cigarette. After watching this tireless concert, the singer was dyed white. Hair, dressed like a European princess, eyelashes fluttering and tears streaming down my face.

Wei Wei sat on a narrow bench, blankly thinking about how to pass the night.She also suffered from insomnia. She knows the hard work of insomnia patients. Sometimes people may become confused due to insomnia, and the end of confusion is often extreme behavior, so she has always tried to stay up late with Margaret. After watching the concert, Marguerite was still as calm as water.She walked softly in the room, wearing a pair of custom-made silk and satin shoes, black, with blue sky embroidered on the upper of the left foot and green grass on the upper of the right foot. The craftsman who embroidered the shoes was a very handsome man. Margaret told him the pattern she wanted. As a result, the shoes were embroidered very quickly. Only in three or two afternoons, Margaret always liked to take a detour to go here. Take a look at a shoe store.Wei Wei once lost her temper, rushed into the shoe store and scolded the owner of the shoe store enough.Marguerite turned and left without saying anything.Since then, Wei Wei has never seen her go to that store again, and she doesn't know if they really have a secret relationship, but she is jealous.

She knows that the relationship between the two women is just a clean and simple company, and maybe this kind of relationship can last longer and longer.But the world of two people is always full of instability.If a handsome man appeared between them, and by chance, Marguerite was looking forward to a love life in her heart, Wei Wei would be left out in the cold.Their interdependence would cease to exist.In this situation, she had to hastily drive away all those who seemed to be approaching Margaret. That night, when she was slightly thinking about how to stay up late with Marguerite, she saw her walking around in these hand-embroidered satin shoes, through which she could almost see the handsome and courteous look of the shoemaker. Face.She suddenly became a little aggrieved, angry and upset.

"Why do you walk around the house in these shoes all the time?" She made a point of not sounding jealous. "It's comfortable." Marguerite didn't even look at her, and used a cake mold in the living room to make a pink strawberry cake.She gently took off the ring on her hand, dealt with the cheese sauce, and sucked the remaining cream on her finger from time to time. "Can you stop wearing these shoes in the future?!" Slightly annoyed. Margarita pretended not to hear, took the prepared things and went to the kitchen, turned on the oven, and set the temperature regularly.

Seeing that she was silent, Wei Wei was a little anxious, and before she had time to put on her shoes, she rushed to Margaret in two or three steps, and said arrogantly: "You choose, which pair of shoes or me do you choose?!" Sometimes Marguerite likes to be slightly nervous, like a surly little girl, but sometimes, her irrationality is really a headache, and it is terribly annoying.And she herself is also nervous, and she is usually unwilling to do appeasement work. This may be because she can share joys and sorrows.So she simply avoided all the weird questions she had when she was hysterical.

Put down the cake mold, turn off the oven, go straight back to the bedroom, sit on the edge of the bed and continue knitting the unfinished black shawl.Wei Wei was completely hit by her coldness, got up in a hurry, and ran into the house.Picking up the shoes that Marguerite took off by the bed, looked at them, and said, "This guy really is a good crafter! Making such suitable shoes pleases you." Margaret looked up at her and said: "He is a shoemaker, you compare your shoemaking skills with a shoemaker... you have too high demands on yourself?!" Wei Wei: "You understand what I mean! I just want to ask you a word..." She paused here to let Margaret, who was weaving the scarf, raise her head and concentrate on what she said next.

Marguerite really stopped what she was doing and looked at her. Wei Wei: "I just want to ask you a question - who do you choose between these shoes and me?" Marguerite said without thinking or showing any expression: "You." She cried, she was afraid of losing Margaret, afraid of any form of separation, Wei Wei thought: For two women, if one of them has changed in body or soul, it is impossible to renew the relationship in other aspects. She is afraid of winter, afraid of not being warm.Her heart is actually full of confusion.It seems that she has always been a loser, a person who has lost the favor of her lover.So her worry about gain and loss looks somewhat morbid.Margaret didn't know her past and thoughts, so she couldn't accept such a sudden change in her mood.

She wiped away her tears and said solemnly, "Come with me." After she finished speaking, she walked to the living room with the pair of black satin shoes in her hand, took out a pair of sneakers from the shoe cabinet, and motioned for Margaret to put them on. She took Marguerite to the top of the 27th floor.The wind was cool, the kind that could penetrate bones.The people and cars on the ground became very small and peaceful.No more quarreling, no more wandering.It seems that only in such an abyss-high distance can there be a real city of joy. I don't know whether Huancheng should be called Huancheng.

Marguerite was still holding the needle and the yarn she hadn't put down in time, and she would never cry out.Just looking at Wei Wei at the edge of the guardrail on the top of the building, I pressed my head down, and my hair flew in the clear wind, giving off a soft cherry smell.She still didn't speak or cry, just watched her actions.She thought to herself: If she jumped down slightly, she would jump down too. Anyway, the movie can't be finished, anyway, all the sources of happiness are dead. The source of her happiness is lightness. She looks forward to seeing her "source" 7 meters away in front of her, flicking her hair flying in the wind wantonly, looking so happy and free.

The wind is getting stronger.The sound pierced the ears harshly. Wei Wei grabbed the guardrail with one hand, and threw the pair of satin shoes down with the other. The pair of shoes disappeared, drifting further and further away, until they were hidden in the night, and its route and whereabouts could no longer be discerned.Wei Wei straightened up, only to find that Margaret had disappeared. She suddenly burst into tears, crying loudly.Since she didn't hear any footsteps coming down the stairs, she thought that Marguerite had fallen on the other side of the guardrail.In her sensory world, Huancheng suddenly changed its shape. She clearly saw a cloud of brown smoke in front of her eyes, and then a woman who fell from a building holding a woolen yarn. The stiff movement when she fell kept appearing in front of her eyes until after flying for a long time It fell to the ground without making any noise, the woman's knees did not bend, and a person made a free fall like a 50-kilogram bag of flour.Then it hit the ground, the surroundings of the woman's body were vibrated and a lot of white dust was scattered, and the dust powder flew high into the sky until it attacked her sight and filled her eyes.

Her cries continued, her screams accompanied by convulsions.She just wanted to throw those shoes away and make them both forget about the unpleasant suspicions and third parties that might not exist.She just wanted to reassure herself, she was soothing her heart, she hated herself for a moment, she felt that she was destined to be a poor person, and those memories full of scars could not help her predict the future direction more accurately. But... Then she felt cold, and ice on her eyelashes.Later, her heat became less and less, and the cold woke her up.She found that there was no rising white powder in front of her eyes, but some white flowers that fell from the sky. It's snowing, it's snowing in Huancheng. Slightly stop crying.Running to the place where Marguerite was standing just now, she saw a ball of yarn and a needle lying on the ground.She picked them up and held them in her hand, and ran downstairs quickly.She can't wait for the elevator, the stairs are the fastest. The door to the room was closed and she didn't have the key. It was only now that she was sure that Margaret was not dead, and she did not fall to her death as she had imagined.But she was still guessing, afraid that she had really hurt her heart, and there was no room for repayment. ring the bell.One, two... ten.She put her ear on the door and listened carefully to the movement in the room. There was still no sound of footsteps, she lowered her head and called for the door desperately, tears welling up again.Suddenly, Marguerite opened the door and stood in front of her, watching her actions with a blank expression.They looked at each other for a few seconds, Wei Wei was about to hug Margaret, but she turned around, walked barefoot to the sofa in the living room, and sat down cross-legged.Eyes looked in the direction of the grandfather clock. The whole room is very quiet, only this clock is ticking away.Only then did Wei Wei feel that in such a short period of time, he had lost so much strength, and felt his whole body was limp and powerless. She closed the door, dragged her body to the sofa, and put the ball of wool on the coffee table. Wei Wei: "I thought you..." She thought for a while, but swallowed her illusion back. Margaret: "What do you think of me?" She was very peaceful on the contrary. Slight: "Anyway, I threw your shoes and I apologize." Margaret: "Sorry you threw my shoes??" Slight: "Yeah, that's what you love, you have the right to... the right to love a pair of shoes, or the right to love... a cobbler..." Margaret lit a cigarette, slowly stretched the lines on her brows and said, "Why are you so irritable today?" Wei Wei: "I'm thinking about how to pass the time at night, I want to stay up late with you. I know you suffer from insomnia, but I can't help you. Recently, I wake up in the morning and find you are still reading on the sofa in the living room .I have insomnia too, I know it is hard. I think if I can chat with you, you will be relieved a lot..." Although Wei Wei has gone through so many unfortunate pasts, she still regards Margaret as the beginning of her happiness, and holds on to it very carefully, for fear of being hurt or abandoned.So when facing Margaret, she was not so sophisticated and mature.As if her experience hadn't taught her anything. Marguerite was silent. Slightly scared, afraid that she would really abandon herself.She moved her body to the left, then hugged Margaret tightly. Margaret was still holding the cigarette in one hand that was encircled by a slight bend of her arm, but she couldn't move, so she had to lower her wrist so that the ash fell to the floor.She began to speak: "Things are completely different from what you think." Wei Wei still hugged her, but kept her head straight, on the same level as Margaret's eyes, listening to her carefully. Margaret continued: "I passed by that street by accident and found that the shoe store could make satin shoes. Later, I met the shoemaker, who was very nice and handsome. The time I went to pick up the shoes with you, he I noticed you. Later, I went to the Pearl Hotel to look for you, but you were not there that day. I chatted with him. He said that he likes you and wants to make friends with you. He also asked me about your situation, do you have a boyfriend? Friend. Of course you don’t have a boyfriend. Besides, I can’t lie. But I can’t tell him about you and me, and I can’t explain it clearly. Not everyone can understand such feelings. Not good. So I just told him that you are my best friend, and we are like brothers. He has to pass my test before he can contact you directly. In fact, I was afraid that you would find the wrong person, so I let him go for review first. .” The slightly stunned expression is enough to scare a passing hippo. Marguerite went on: "Sometimes I think, we're fine with this, but you're still a girl at the beginning. You need a normal love life, you need to be in contact with other people, not me. I don't take everything seriously, and become loose and wantless. So..." "So you made up your own mind?! Do you still want me to marry someone else after falling in love?! Do you still want to be our child's godmother?!" Wei Wei burst into tears again as she spoke. Tears flowed down the cheekbones, then over the lips, and down the neck. Margarita came to stop her, and answered one by one: "It's my own decision. I hope you can fall in love and marry a good man. I probably won't be a good godmother, because I don't have experience in taking care of children..." After speaking, she herself couldn't bear it any longer.It feels like I'm speaking insincerely.Days of insomnia made her physically and mentally haggard.She is a little sad.After all, she likes being slight so much.But rationality told her that Wei Wei should be a healthy girl, and she has no obligation to accompany her when she suffers from insomnia, besides, her grandmother once said decisive words.In this way, Wei Wei should leave her, marry someone else, and have a healthy and happy family life. Wei Wei hugged Margaret whose eyes were red again, this was the first time Margaret cried since they were together.Wei Wei felt that it was very precious, she put her head on Margaret's left shoulder, and said gently: "I don't want men, they are cowardly, small, hypocritical and blind. Although I am also small, when I am with you I feel that I am the happiest person, full of strength and sincerity. Although I have cheated people and made mistakes in this life, I don’t regret it now. You make me feel stable. I only have these joys when I am with you, so I All the past actions have become very correct, they are all preparations for me to meet you. They accompany me to welcome your arrival..." Margaret didn't quite understand what she meant, but after being excited, most of the words said were self-condemnation and liberation.You don't have to really check every sentence.It is very possible that there is not much wrong with her behavior, but what she said is very embarrassing. These words are just a way to redeem herself.Wei Wei does look like her heart is about to break.She knew that by doing so, she would abandon Wei Wei, how sad this girl with a personality like a small animal should be. She suddenly found herself absurd and unreasonable.She regretted her decision, what the hell tailor and shoemaker or cashier, let them all go to hell.