Chapter 9 [九] There is still some time before dawn

The midnight show was over, and Zoro Yang confirmed his feelings—he needed a woman. He stood at the entrance of the Pearl Hotel. On the small blackboard standing at the entrance, the titles of today's screenings were written in white chalk.Next to the small blackboard, on the limestone steps, sat a man in a winter jacket and thin-leg pants. The man was smoking a cigarette, and the flame in his hand was shining brightly.Yang Zuoluo was startled when he saw her woolen hat and the way she was holding a cigarette. He still stood still, looking at the short-haired man.That person must be cold, and kept warming his hands with his breath.

Yang Zuoluo didn't want to break the silence.He thought: She is Saining.She came to me because of the day's affairs, and she didn't want to go in, and she didn't want to face the embarrassment.It seems that she is really not joking, she is serious.Maybe what I said during the day hurt her, and she came to the door in embarrassment because of her love... After cleaning, the cleaners came out one after another.They were two bloated women, one talking and the other silent.They passed through the gate of the cinema, saw Yang Zuoluo, and said "goodbye". This voice broke the silence and alarmed Sai Ning who was in deep thought.

They stared at each other for dozens of seconds.Yang Zuoluo broke the deadlock and walked up: "Why are you here? You don't go in, it's so cold outside. Did you come to see me? Then come in and tell me." Senin didn't refute, but nodded, feeling lonely.Follow him into the theater.There were only a few lights on here and there.Yang Zuoluo saw that it was inconvenient to talk here, so he took her into his bedroom. In that room, movie posters were plastered all over, and graffiti was sprayed on the door and some corners.Opposite the drinking fountain is a fish tank, in which there is only a small fish with a transparent belly swimming around.The lights were dim, and people standing in the room, looking at anything, seemed to be separated by a layer of oil paper.Such dim light can easily make people hallucinate, for example, Senin feels warm and a little drunk at this moment.But Yang Zuoluo felt desolate and lonely.

"Oh, sit down and talk, don't just stand." Yang Zuoluo broke the deadlock. Senin was sitting on a red single canvas sofa, his legs were evenly spaced, and his winter clothes were squeezed by the sudden seating, making a sound like a balloon deflated in the air.She looked down at her frozen red hands, because the air in the room was very warm, and her nose was very sensitive when the cold and hot alternated. She could clearly smell the tobacco smell from her palms and mouth.She thought to herself: I smoked too much today. "Oh, how long have you been lingering at the door... How long are you going to stay there if I don't see you? Why don't you come in?"

"Ah, I was wondering if my brain was really frozen." Senin's advantage is that she is strong, but her disadvantage is that she is aggressive because of her strength. Yang Zuoluo: "Are you still angry?" "why not?" "Did you come to me just to get sulky and hurt me?" Yang Zuoluo actually liked Ser Ning's aggressiveness, he thought she was a little animal that could only bite, sometimes gentle, sometimes sad and sometimes eloquent. Senin felt hot, so he took off his winter clothes and put them on the back of the sofa, staring at the fish tank to reduce embarrassment:

"A girl was rejected for the first marriage proposal. You say that if she can still bounce, then she is either sick or it's just a joke. But I am neither, so I can't bounce. This is It's normal." "I just don't think you're serious enough." Yang Zuoluo has always been a person who is easily tempted, and he also knows how to handle the hooked feelings with ease. Senin looked up at him: "I'm thirsty." Yang Zuoluo got up to pour water, put in a slice of lemon by the way, and handed it to her.Hearing the sound of her swallowing, he suddenly felt that he was close to another living body.This feeling almost disappeared in his life trajectory, and he was a little excited.

He also thought of Senin's expression when he was holding the guitar and singing, that girl should not lie, God gave her such a pure voice.That girl can't lie, God gave her big wet and black eyes, occasionally flickering a helpless look. She drank the water from the glass and watched the lemon fall into the bottom of the glass. Yang Zuoluo: "Do you still drink?" Senin put the cup on the table and shook his head. Yang Zuoluo: "You are a person who likes to walk around. Generally, such people don't want to get married so soon." Senin held his right hand with his left hand: "I didn't think about it that much...I just think that if you meet the right person, you can get married."

Yang Zuoluo: "Let's start talking about love." Sai Ning walked from the fish tank to the opposite of Yang Zuoluo: "Maybe I'm too impatient, let's start with love." She was happy, as if she had made a big decision, and let go of a pending heart. After speaking, she turned around and picked up the winter clothes thrown on the sofa, put them on and left. Yang Zuoluo voiced his thoughts loudly and eagerly: "Stay here." Senin turned around after hearing this, somewhat unexpected.She asked, "Huh? What did you say?" Yang Zuoluo: "I mean, it's so late and the road is dark, you'd better stay here. We can watch a movie or something, and it will be dawn soon."

Senin: "But I'm tired and want to sleep." Yang Zuoluo: "That's it, you sleep, I'll watch a movie." The winter in Huancheng is far away, and people who have been under the influence of heating for a long time will feel confused.When Yang Zuoluo said these words, he was already a little drowsy.But he still tried his best, and in order to show his reserve, he obediently walked to the small color TV, and randomly picked a disc from a pile of unwatched discs, as a signal to Sai Ning that he could go to sleep boldly and leave him alone. . After sleeping for an unknown amount of time, Yang Zuoluo felt someone hugging him from behind, with two arms passing through his ribs and clasped in front of his chest.

He opened his sleeping eyes and held the arm on his chest with his hand. He saw the silver nail polish, which was incomplete in some places.His head bumped against it with a buzz, and he knew it was Senin. He looked back with doubt and anticipation.I saw Senin wearing a camisole.Her body was arched, her head would have rested on his shoulder. The movie on the TV was still playing. On the screen, a naked person stood with wings outstretched, and the outside of the castle was dark and yellow. Her chest is firm, not big, and her neck is very thin... In order to keep calm, Yang Zuoluo forced himself not to look down.

But still can't stop kissing.They put their arms around each other's necks, Yang Zuoluo sat on the sofa, while Senin first bent over to reach his body, and then sat on his lap, his mouth was cold from the shortness of breath, and again and again from the cold Kissing, several times the teeth collided together, making a solid sound.When kissing, Yang Zuoluo's hand moved over her body.At this time, people are unable to think. Senin didn't make any sound at all, as if he didn't enjoy the process, only Yang Zuoluo was crazy. Sai Ning lay limp on the sofa, didn't move and didn't speak, Yang Zuoluo stopped exercising after sweating, and suddenly became cold.He just became sober.He touched Sai Ning and found that she was hot all over.Only then did he know that she had a high fever. Yang Zuoluo frantically turned on the switch of the incandescent light and dressed her.There were teeth marks on her pale lips. At this time, he saw a dark red color on the sofa.He was dizzy for a while before he calmed down.Some of him hated his actions, some hated the way he treated Senin, thinking that he was so selfish and cruel.He immediately felt that Sai Ning was the best girl in the world, so he handed over his virginity to a bastard like Yang Zuoluo.He felt sorry for her for a while. When Senin was sent to the hospital, he was already in a daze, muttering in his mouth.After Yang Zuoluo rushed forward, paid the fee and consulted the doctor, he didn't pay attention to her ravings. And babbling is the most likely to reveal secrets. Soon, it was dawn. Yang Zuoluo waited beside Sai Ning who received the needle, and while holding her hand that hadn't been needled, he fell asleep on one side.Senin opened his eyes and saw the hands being held, the bright sky outside the window, the singing of birds, and the increasingly noisy voices of people on the street.The sheets are white, the walls are white, the nurse's shoes are white, the clouds are white, and the whites of Yang Zuoluo's eyes are white.His gaze finally settled on Yang Zuoluo's face.That face that always makes her feel like a world away, that face that can take her back to many childhood days, that plain white face.When she was in a daze, Yang Zuoluo woke up.He squeezed his hand even tighter, and leaned over to kiss her forehead. He put his own clothes on Sai Ning's body, supported her, and walked out of the hospital.The sun is shining brightly on the street, and that kind of brightness will make babies born at this moment not believe that there is winter in the world. Sai Ning's shoelaces were untied, and Yang Zuoluo immediately bent down to help her tie them tightly.She was stunned, and the tunnel of memory stretched out. The girl in the picture was wearing a plain white dress, and the boy took her cold little hand to take her to the school infirmary for medical treatment. He bent down and tied a bow for her. Later, they grew up a bit, the girl wore a black dress, and the boy walked a distance away from her, their expressions were very depressed, and they looked at each other stubbornly from a visible distance.The girl's shoelaces were loose, and the boy never knelt down to help her tie them like he did when he was a child.He stood far away, watching her tie herself up, and then continued to follow her not far behind... Yang Zuoluo, who had tied her shoelaces, stood up, and Senin's memory ended with it.She looked into his eyes and shook his hand uneasily. He didn't understand the sadness in her eyes, even the tears. He thought that her eyes were red because she was exhausted by illness and was weak.So Yang Zuoluo began to curse Huancheng's heating system: "Damn it, why did this weird heating system break down in this important winter, and let Sai Ning suffer from the cold? Such a bad heating is worse than uneasiness, and such a bad house is worse than nothing." live……" Yang Zuoluo expressed his desire to live together very logically, but Saining refused. Her head was still hurting violently, and a picture of the cemetery vaguely appeared in front of her eyes: Memorial Day, pale mourning for the dead in front of the stone tablet in the cemetery. Only she knew that before coming to the Pearl Hotel, after Yang Zuoluo left her house, she went to the cemetery alone. On this day 3 years ago, in the largest hospital in Huancheng, she sent away her beloved one. That person loved her very much and took care of her until one day, he knew that he was going to leave her, so he taught her to learn to be self-reliant.At first she thought he didn't care about her, and after she tied her shoelaces, she felt miserable for a while.It was years later that she understood his meaningful love.That love empowered her, made her strong, and was always by her side. When love becomes a kind of belief, it's nothing more than that. Those unforgettable memories came up again and again, so she didn't agree to live with Yang Zuoluo, she just wanted to think clearly about her situation. In the intertwining of blurred memories and reality, she felt that she might be wrong.In order not to let the mistakes get worse, she has to stop and adjust herself.