Chapter 3 [3] Got stuck by the fishbone

The lavender sugar in my mouth melted away.Margaret's thoughts came back to her eyes. It was still the room, the bed, and the unfavorable blinds. The fragments of sunlight projected through the gaps in the curtains were still warm, making all the dust impossible to escape. Her eyes were dry, without any tears.Although she is still so beautiful, her skin is still fresh.She had inherited the name of the dead little fish as her pseudonym. She said that she is no longer "Mag", and Mag is a card that was popped out of the palm by grandma and the world, maybe it is a whiteboard or a three-barrel or a red middle.She is just Marguerite now, she is the reincarnation of a fish, the present life of a small transparent fish that cannot swim out of the fish tank until death.

Most of the time after Margaret was 21 years old, she sat in a private cinema and watched movies.She had her neck well scrubbed and wore a pearl necklace.The pearls still shone, though the hooks were old and faded. The name of this private cinema is called "Pearl Hotel".You must be wondering why a movie theater is called a "restaurant"? It was opened by Zoro Yang.Now Yang Zuoluo is thinner than when he was 24 years old, with tanned skin, capable of a 27-year-old man and the unique lonely eyes of Huancheng people.He has always wanted to open a restaurant since he was very young, but he suffered from stomach problems, and his appetite turned into greed.In the end, he decided to open a movie theater. To commemorate his unfinished dream, the movie theater was also called a restaurant, and because Marguerite liked pearls, it was called "Pearl Hotel".

Yang Zuoluo no longer lives on the 21st floor. There is a sunny house behind the cinema, with large French doors and sunflowers on the roof. That is his current residence. He always had a premonition that he would meet a woman to live with and give him love, instead of dealing with a girl who cried strangely because of hardship every day.He is waiting for his own "clockwise" every day, and that person should be able to eat rice crackers with him and observe Marguerite's behavior while watching a movie. He always sat in the second row of the movie theater watching Marguerite, who was a little weak.He rarely talked to strangers, and he hated introducing Marguerite to others.If a stranger asked about her, he would say:

"Her name is Margaret. She is from Russia. She came here to look for relatives. She fell in love with a man in Huancheng. The man had two dates with her at the Pearl Hotel. Who would have thought that she would break the appointment many times later? After waiting for a long time, she found out about the man. It had already disappeared, so she stayed here and waited for that man to come back, waiting for several years..." I heard it, and everyone made a sound of tsk tsk. The faces of Huancheng people are always filled with happy expressions. If you want to entertain, you can entertain, and if you want culture, you can culture.Only when you come to the Pearl Hotel and watch a foreign art film, will you cheer up and cry.In addition, they are often not unhappy once a year or so.

Only Marguerite, she is unhappy, she is depressed.Her sorrow became so different in the eyes of the people around her.When those men see her, they will be in awe, and no matter how rude they are, they will become polite. The temperature difference in the Pearl Hotel is not big in the four seasons. There is heating in winter and air conditioning in summer.Magritte wears a gray dress all year round, a black cashmere shawl, and a pair of pearl-colored flat shoes.She has thin shoulder blades, curly hair, straight nose, dark eyes, pink lips, which makes everyone's heart beat. She always sits in the first row. No matter what the film is, she always sits on the red sofa with a flashlight, paper and pen. When the film makes her heart move, she turns on the flashlight and writes down some thoughts on the paper.She is now a screenwriter.She pinned all her hopes on that semi-autobiographical film.But the plot always stayed at the year when I saw the photo album at the age of 19, and could not advance any further.She was in pain and felt trapped in her life, like a fish bone stuck in her throat.

She doesn't like to eat. She is very thin. She hid in her shawl and wept softly. She had pharyngitis, and she sprayed a medicine on her throat, and this small movement would make a lot of men who came to watch movies with excuses feel distressed. Her little notebook is full of pictures and words.Those pencil words that were forcibly inlaid into the paper in the dark conveyed a fragmented artistic conception, with so many vague memories connected by the plot of the movie, both real and illusory. She is full of impotent power - she wants to make her movie and play it in the Pearl Hotel, so that those people in Huancheng who don't know their pain all day can feel the pain. At that time, the source of the pain of those servants is from her.She would have continued to sit huddled in the first row, only to turn her head towards the crowd to see their pained expressions under the languid light.She has a desire to let others feel her soul, but deep down, she is afraid that it will really touch others and make people sad.In that case, grandma's words will be fulfilled again.

She was curled up in the theater seat, and Yang Zuoluo handed her a bowl of corn chowder. Her thin hands held the porcelain bowl, and the heat rushed up. Yang Zuoluo: "It's been cold recently, you should wear more clothes." Marguerite took a spoonful of soup, gave him a mouthful, and then gave herself another mouthful.In this way, a bowl of soup was cleaned up one spoon at a time. Zorro Yang: "Is there any progress in your script?" Margaret: "No..." Knowing that she was sad, Yang Zuoluo quickly changed the topic: "My dear princess, someone has brought you flowers again. Are you not bothered? If you are bothered by them, cheer up quickly, don't be sad, and put the unhappy Forget it all, lest everyone fall in love with your sorrow."

Margaret: "Hold the bowl so you don't drop it. The next movie is about to start, and I'm going to sleep for a while now." She didn't want to talk to him any further, to prevaricate him. At that time, the lights in the theater were very bright, Yang Zuoluo watched her lick off the remaining soup on her lips, knowing it was prevarication, but walked away contentedly. "Happy City - it's an interesting city, if you're a visitor, you'll stop for it, throw your shoes high on the roof, never want to leave the city. People are rich, no one cares about you Whether you are still in love, whether you are still playing the role of a clown, whether you are still thinking about a certain girl at the party. When everyone no longer cares about other people's emotions, the city will be quiet and quiet.

Every townsman is immersed in his own joy.You can dress up as a chopstick, a pile of sushi, or a piece of gold-plated soap that shines like gold...whatever you dress up, people here will treat you with friendly eyes, even if you fall in love with your dog . Here, there is no class, let alone struggle.The city is full of artists, the local folk art industry is thriving, and every day can be very relaxing.You can easily become like everyone else..." Margaret wrote down the above three paragraphs in her notebook.rest assured!Depressed patients know how to use bright words. Most of them are very smart and think about unfathomable things all day long.Once you start thinking about something, you have to figure it out. Over time, you first fall in love with the problem itself, and then gradually become hysterical.The more you don't understand, the more you need to understand.

At the beginning, Margaret didn't understand the way of life of the people in Huancheng, and she was very puzzled by those joys that seemed like no one else.Later, she gradually learned to use words to sum up her lack of confusion.She secretly figured out a metaphor, that is - being raped by life. She touched the woolen surface of the red soft chair with her left hand, feeling the superiority of life of this group of people raped by life.Suddenly feel bored.