Chapter 11 crisp (1)

On the wet river beach, several boys gathered together, the bright light of the flames swayed, and the sound of the branches being burned was softened by the moist air.Taking a closer look, I found that Chen Yan with short hair was also mixed in with this group of boys.It had just rained last night, and it took them a lot of effort to light a fire. Cheng Ke squatted at the place closest to the flames.He moved his feet and got closer to the mass of heat. The flames in the humid air seemed not to be lethal.Ten minutes ago, these boys fell to death many frogs, and now those frogs are piled up on the ground.

After the rain in summer, groups of frogs appear in the small water beach by the river. After nightfall, if you look for their cooing sounds and shine a flashlight on them, they will not be able to move.This method of catching frogs was told by Cheng Ke's father. When they were sent to the countryside, food alone could not satisfy the appetite of educated youths. They always took flashlights and sacks at night to catch a bag full of frogs as supper. night.In order to prove whether the frog illuminated by the flashlight would remain motionless, these boys went out at night, just like the educated youths back then, and killed them to the riverside with flashlights and sacks.What Dad said was right. The moment the frog was attacked by the light of the flashlight, the frog really couldn't move, only two fat gills were still beating rhythmically.One played the flashlight, one caught the frogs, and the other held the sack. In less than half an hour, the three-person working group caught half the sack of frogs.

It is not easy to kill a bunch of lives without a murder weapon. Dozens of frogs with powerful legs are in a mess in the sack. "How to kill them?" The boy carrying the sack couldn't stand the group of energetic frogs at first, and now he formed a small alliance with the frogs squeezed in a sack, organized and planned Jump in all directions to minimize the stamina of the bag bearer. "Fall them to death!" As he said, Cheng Ke took the sack from the thin boy and walked to a big rock.He gripped the mouth of the sack tightly in his hands, then lifted the sack high above his head.After the gravitational potential energy was fully accumulated, Cheng Ke threw the sack heavily against the hard rock.The surge of the frogs is still not over, they are layered on top of each other, cushioning the impact.Cheng Ke repeated the action just now several times, and faint blood seeped out from the rough fibers.The surge in the sack gradually degenerated into a struggle, and Cheng Ke felt that the life of that ally was being consumed by the impact of the stone.More blood seeped out, Cheng Ke was tired, he put the sack on the ground, other boys came forward, but no one dared to open the sack.

Cheng Ke snatched the flashlight from the hand of the boy beside him, and when the light came on, he opened the sack, and there was not much anger left, only a few twitching legs.These slender legs can push the frog's body to a distance of three meters a few minutes ago. "Frogs are the long jump champions in the biological world," this is what the nature teacher said.With one leg that was still twitching, Cheng Ke pulled out the whole frog. It was not dead yet, and it was doing the last twitching that its vitality could support.Cheng Ke smashed the frog hard against the stone, and this time, it could no longer move.

"A frog is screaming!" Chen Yan stopped, and Cheng Ke also stopped with her.The investors ran away with the money, so the buildings on the opposite side stopped working when they were half built. People called these buildings "unfinished buildings".Unfinished buildings are gathering places for neglected lives. Homeless people, wild cats, wild dogs, frogs, and bugs mingle here, and the dogtail grass that has not been seen in the city for a long time also falls.Chen Yan squatted down and listened quietly to the cry of the frog. Cheng Ke put his huge schoolbag on the ground and asked Chen Yan to sit down.After listening to it for a long time, I found that the cry was mixed with various unknown insect calls.

"Do you remember we killed frogs when we were young?" Cheng Ke said with his head down. "Of course I remember, you are the best at killing frogs." "Afterwards, I never dared to eat frogs again." The disposable chopsticks were sharpened, and the fire was at the right time.Cheng Ke was the first to strike again. He picked up a chopstick and put it into the frog's big mouth. He held it's body, and with a little force, the sharp tip of the chopstick passed through between the frog's legs. come out.Chen Yan swallowed and swallowed the vomit that poured into her throat. She crouched with her hands around her knees, watching Cheng Ke's every movement.Raising her eyes inadvertently, Cheng Ke's eyes fell on Chen Yan. Her chin was on her thin knees, and her hair was as short as a boy's.Chen Yan also saw him, Cheng Ke's eyes were different from usual, there were bloodstains on his hands, it can't be said that he was cruel, but cruelty was on his body.

The other boys followed Cheng Ke's example, and Chen Yan kept squatting with his knees hugged, the smell of blood spreading in the humid air.The frog in the flame gradually changed color, Chen Yan and Cheng Ke were on both sides of the fire, Chen Yan's face swayed behind the fire, Cheng Ke looked at her from the corner of his eye, she seemed to be isolated in another century by the fire. "If you didn't kill frogs very hard at that time, how could you mess around! It's faster to kill frogs in front of them than to go out and fight." Growing up is destined to be inseparable from fighting and killing, especially boys.On that night many years ago, Cheng Ke also ate a skewered frog and swallowed the bones together. He still remembers the feeling of the frog bones and teeth grinding against each other.

"Is that frog delicious?" "It doesn't smell like anything, I just feel like I swallowed something..." Biology class, stress experiments, skinned frogs.The frog was messed up, and Chen Yan suddenly felt a little excited, which made her ashamed.Cruelly hurting another life, we all have this kind of desire in our hearts, this desire makes people feel cold all over... Capturing, abusing, and having fun, this is boys' desire to dominate at its best.Break apart the disposable sanitary chopsticks, put them through the frog's mouth, smash them on the ground, and the other end of the chopsticks sticks out from the frog's stomach.The yellow liquid remained on the chopsticks, and the frog's legs were still shaking.

The 7- and 8-year-old children have already started to learn to smoke, and they all have a lighter in their pockets. The boys start to light the fire, and put the frog whose legs are still moving on the fire to barbecue.The frog began to change color. In the dim light, Chen Yan couldn't tell what color it had turned into.Cheng Ke no longer killed frogs himself, he stood aside, planning the next act of brutality.Chen Yan still hugged his knees and squatted on the ground. This was the safest position. He shrunk himself into a ball, and he would not be noticed in the darkest corner.The huddled Chen Yan was a hedgehog. Cheng Ke looked at her, but didn't dare to touch her.

The paper for the first batch of origami boats ran out quickly, and after lunch, the three girls wandered the various stationery stores.It seems that the rogue rabbit is very popular, and the stationery store is full of the shadow of this rabbit. You can't give Kurt Cobain a bunch of rabbits!It turned out that it was not easy to choose a few stacks of clean and simple book wrapping paper. Chen Yan picked up a piece of golden cellophane, and spread it out to face the light.A thin sheet of paper filters out the heat, leaving only the brighter light.Through it, the world is much milder.Chen Yan picked up all the cellophane and spread it out at the reception desk.When she got back, she cut the cellophane into thin strips, crumpled them, and stuffed them into the paper boats, so that the paper boats had golden interiors.

In his dream at night, Chen Yan was lying in a paper boat, surrounded by golden cellophane.The cellophane reflects the sunlight in a unique way, the light twists and turns in the wrinkled cellophane, and when it hits Chen Yan's eyes, they are already tired, but still beautiful.She remembered that she was in a dream, trying to maintain her balance, stood up, and saw the orange sky, and the remaining corner of the sun was slowly sinking in the distance.The surface of the river is no longer dim yellow, but orange, and everything is unbelievably warm... During the days of origami boat for Kurt, Chen Yan's dream became more and more flying.It turns out that being crushed by a ghost only happens once a month, almost always at the end of the month.But during this time, almost every two or three days.Every time he was pressed by a ghost, Chen Yan would feel that he would be taken away by something, and that numb feeling was suffocating.The only way to get rid of it is to concentrate all your energy and let the neck twist a little. Dreams fly away, life goes on.During this period of time, Cheng Ke and Zhang Li got tired of being together, and he often got up late, so he often went to school in a numb state in the morning, leaving Chen Yan alone in the bus.Chen Yan was afraid that he would fall asleep on the bus, so he kept folding paper boats in the bus. Opening his eyes, Chen Yan found himself in a dry and cold noon.The temperature and humidity of the air are not like those in Wuhan, and the sun is shining pale in the distance.The car stopped in a desolate open space, and there was no passenger in the car. Chen Yan looked outside and found a lot of warehouses that had been demolished in half.These warehouses have revolving iron staircases, suspended in mid-air, so sharp that they are scary.Chen Yan stood up slowly, walked around in the carriage, making loud noises with every step, but there was no other sound outside, which made Chen Yan a little embarrassed.After finally getting to the front of the car, she found a driver wearing a huge military padded jacket and asbestos gloves.The driver held a cigarette in his hand and his eyes were dull.When he saw Chen Yan, he suddenly raised his hand and pointed to a certain direction in the distance.Chen Yan looked in the direction he was pointing at, and a dazzling light shot over, everything disappeared in the incandescence. After waking up, Chen Yan seemed out of touch with his previous experience, not knowing where he was.The bus is still driving, and has already passed the school stop.Chen Yan was still holding a half-folded paper boat in his hand. The car was almost at Jianghan Road, and the Yan Avenue under construction looked a little embarrassed.Just after it rained, Chen Yan got out of the car and stepped on the muddy road.It is already 7:30. Cheng Ke sent a text message asking her why she didn't come to school, and Chen Yan said that she was sick. She walked to the bottom beach alone, sucked some humid air, and gave herself a morning off.Being able to go to the bottom beach in the morning is like a dream, and there is a touch of green in the sky, which makes everything more like a dream. Chen Yan likes to fold paper boats in the quilt, and she folds paper boats skillfully in complete darkness.When she woke up the next morning, she was always surrounded by paper boats, which spread across the bed like children, each with its own expression. As the memorial day approaches, Chen Yan often likes to lean against Kurt Cobain's poster for several minutes.She tried to construct a three-dimensional kurt cobian based on the plane. Behind her diary, there is a countdown, from 40 to 30 and then to 20... I don't know when it started, there is also a countdown in the class. The first thing the monitor does every morning is to make the number on the countdown smaller.The gradually decreasing numbers remind everyone that the college entrance examination is one day closer.Sitting in the last row with Cheng Ke, Wang Feng added several zeros after the number when no one was paying attention, causing the whole class to laugh. During break time, the school playground is always crowded. Two basketball courts are divided by four basketballs. A dozen girls play volleyball in a circle in the gap. In addition, there are badminton players and people coming and going.Between the last class in the afternoon and evening self-study, Chen Yan, Yuan Jing, and Fang Rongrong sat by the flower bed and finished their meal together.The fried powder was packed in a plastic bag, and the pepper was not melted, and it was condensed into a ball and pressed under the green vegetables.Then there's pearl green tea, where pink pearl beans are soaked in dull tea water, waiting to be inhaled through stout straws.They ate while watching the basketball being thrown around. The movement made the ground elastic, making this short break full of rhythm. Cheng Ke was playing basketball with the group of people in the class. He made all kinds of beautiful moves but still failed to score a goal. Zhang Li was playing badminton next to him, and the two of them exchanged glances from time to time.In the volleyball circle, a thin girl finally caught the ball. She was so excited that she sent the ball flying, and it landed on Chen Yan's forehead.The fried noodles in Chen Yan's mouth hadn't finished chewing when he was pushed back by the ball. Due to the effect of inertia, two pieces of fried noodles and half a vegetable leaf got stuck in his throat.Yuan Jing was quick to catch Chen Yan, otherwise, she would fall down among the freshly fertilized flowers.The boys who were playing ball in the class immediately surrounded them, asked about their health, and took the opportunity to show a little collectivism. Cheng Ke rushed to the front, and said to the girl who ran over in a panic, "Who did it?" Everyone came, and it was obvious that the girl in front of him did it, so he asked knowingly.The girl was very thin, with a black body, thin skin and crisp flesh. She was wearing a white top, which was empty inside.The girl half bent her body and kept saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." The moment he was hit, Chen Yan felt some snot dripping upwards.Chen Yan has allergic rhinitis, which was inherited from her father. Whenever she goes to places with a lot of dust, her nose starts to have some secretions.The impact of the ball pushed those secretions to Chen Yan's brain, and his mind was confused by these things for a while.She went to a far away place in a trance, and her eyes extended from the football field behind her to a far away place.The tentacles of vision suddenly become sensitive, and all kinds of senses are also overly sensitive. The sound is under the feet, but the picture flows in the body. The sky seems to be deeper than usual, becoming more three-dimensional.The sound of running water was flowing between her calves, but the water had already filled her chest. What she saw became ubiquitous, not defined by sight.This wonderful feeling only lasted about 2 seconds.Then, her senses quickly returned to normal and she began to experience pain and swelling. Maybe it’s what’s called the unsheathing of the soul, where our skin creates rules for our existence, everything has boundaries.Under this limitation, we have a desire for so-called freedom, and also create the illusion of freedom.Everyone lives in incompleteness, and this incompleteness is the driving force of this world.In the process of escaping from incompleteness and pursuing some unknown objects, life has been spent by us.It's just a strategy of settling people, new handicaps are dealing with a rapidly expanding population, and everyone has to be part of a gigantic process. When Chen Yan completely woke up from his first shot, the preparatory bell rang.The people on the playground started to pack up their stuff and rushed to their respective classrooms.Yuan Jing and Fang Rongrong pulled Chen Yan up, and the three rushed to the sixth floor together.The entire staircase suddenly became bloated and crumbling.Yuan Jing complained non-stop: "What the fuck, put the classroom on the sixth floor, and you'd be so tired to go upstairs, you just don't want us to come down to play!" Fang Rongrong echoed beside him. Cheng Ke and Wang Feng didn't miss the time to go upstairs, and they were still busy grabbing the ball. "Stop messing around and go to class!" Zhang Li said and walked to Cheng Ke's side. This sentence showed the abnormal relationship between her and Cheng Ke. She disciplined her sweetly, and he had to accept it honestly.Wang Feng patted Cheng Ke, and jokingly said, "Don't worry about being so tight? It's okay to study geography late in this section." Zhang Li despised him a bit, quickened his pace, and walked to the front. Before Cheng Ke could give in, the basketball in his hand rolled down the stairs like a snowball and landed on Chen Yan's forehead.Chen Yan was hit again and fell down like a piece of playing cards. The process of falling became long and slow in Chen Yan's psychological time.It was Yuan Jing's hands that caught her, but she felt that she had fallen into the river and began to sink impatiently.In the muddy river water, Chen Yan sank with his eyes open, and the sky was gradually soaked into the water.A few green beer bottles floated above, a huge ferry passed by, and the sound of the engine rippling in the water. The candy sandals on Chen Yan's feet were washed away by the water, and she watched Jiang Shui's hand unbutton her shoes and take off her favorite sandals.The brightly colored sandals were carried far away by the water... She tried to grab them, but couldn't move, as if being pressed by a ghost. It was the afternoon when I fell into the water at the age of 13, and the fish swam over.It bit her gently with its mouth, and then jumped into the sky.Chen Yan floated in the air like a piece of paper, and when he lowered his head, he saw the muddy river water. She said, "Am I flying?" It said, "You've been flying all the time." At 13, the sky was scratched.In summer, 40 degrees, only the driver, conductor and Chen Yan are left in the bus.Seats are hot and the glass may shatter at any moment.The sun was extremely dazzling, but she still looked at the sky. Where is the sky that has not been touched?She kept looking. On the ferry, the old machine was panting heavily, looking particularly helpless.Standing at the stern of the boat, Chen Yan was fascinated by the sky. She found the unscratched sky.She fell into the water just because she wanted to touch that piece of sky... She grabbed the fish's whiskers to keep from being blown away by the strong air current.She saw cars coming and going on the second bridge, and a street lamp was still on during the day.She asked the elephant fish: "Aren't you afraid of being seen?" The elephant fish trembled its beard and said, "Don't worry! No one else can see me!" "where are we going?" "I'm going in the sand." As he spoke, the elephant fish opened its mouth and waved its fins to signal for Chen Yan to enter its mouth.Its body smells like candy, and entering it is like entering a candy store.It moved slowly, and Chen Yan even felt a little weightless.She heard a sparse sound, perhaps in the sand.Xiangyu slowly opened his mouth and let Chen Yan walk out. "Have we gotten into the sand yet?" The elephant fish nodded, its whiskers swaying back and forth with its movements.The surrounding sand also seemed to be infected, and the frequency of vibrations increased rapidly.The sand is like a granular atmosphere. Chen Yan ran with his arms open, feeling like he was flying in the thick atmosphere. When Chen Yan woke up in the geography evening self-study, she found tears in her eyes and drooling. She lowered her head and took out a napkin from her pocket to clean the corners of her eyes, mouth and table.Like a fish will always be a complex, it goes away, so there is no way to prove that it ever existed. The geography teacher stopped the lecture, stood on the podium, and said with a Xinzhou accent: "Chen Yan, you're up? Do you want to check? Can you still go to class? If not, go take a rest first?" Chen Yan glanced at his watch and found that the It's almost 8 o'clock, and I've been in a coma for nearly two hours. Chen Yan stood up and said, "I'll go out and wash my face!" The teacher raised his hand and motioned for her to go out, as if it were a kind of grace. Before 8 o'clock, the sky had already begun to dim, and the lights in each classroom were different, and there were buzzing sounds like insects in each classroom.Chen Yan looked at her feet, the buckle was undone, she squatted down and fastened it again.The top of a certain building in the distance is constantly emitting laser light. The light is so straight that it is a little stiff, and it keeps shooting. The soles of the shoes are made of plastic, and the floor is made of marble. The two collided and made a loose sound. With this loose sound, Chen Yan walked all the way through the classrooms of five classes before arriving at the toilet.People say that there are often unclean things in the yin air in the toilet. In the dark night, Chen Yan felt a bit of coolness.Chen Yan stomped her feet vigorously, but the voice control light was broken. She stood in the dark, and the light in the distance scattered to the door of the toilet, but there was darkness inside. The small record store downstairs of the school was playing vulgar pop songs, but there was no human breath here.Chen Yan stood at the entrance, hesitantly daring to enter.She stomped her feet vigorously again, but the light still didn't turn on.Only the court is illuminated by the moonlight, beautifully left aside.Chen Yan ran down and lay down in the center of the court, experiencing the eerie tranquility before 8:15.There is a cooing sound in the grass, it should be the voice of a frog, a young frog, a tadpole that was still dark a few days ago, the voice is clear and crisp.