Chapter 8 chapter eight

I didn't go upstairs. Taking advantage of the drunkenness, I walked alone, getting farther and farther away, and suddenly found that I had come to the place where Wen Si lived. I went up to the third floor, and he said that his door was always open for me. I believed him, and when I reached the door, I stretched out my hand and rang the bell. No one answered the door, so I turned my head and walked away, then stopped, I squatted down and opened the door felt, the small key was still under the felt. I picked it up and held it in my palm for a while. I wanted to put it back to the original place, but finally couldn't bear it, inserted it into the keyhole, turned it lightly, and the door opened.

I have been here several times, it seems like a lifetime ago, but in fact it was not so long ago. His house was still the same, orderly and chaotic, with countless samples of materials spread out on the floor.Wen Si always said that he hated the small pieces of samples the most, and it seemed that he couldn’t see clearly, so the manufacturers sent him the materials, all of which were delivered in original packaging. I walked through the flowers, but they were all made of black and white materials. When I came to the kitchen, I wanted to make a cup of coffee, and suddenly I heard the sound of people breathing.

No, not people. It's an animal, I froze, why, Wen Si raised a dog? I put down the cup to follow, and the sound of gasping came from the room. I hesitated for a moment, and gently opened the door.The view from the room turned me to stone. people!It's people, two people.Two naked people hug each other on the bed. My heart sank. There were other people in Wensi, and I hurriedly withdrew, trying to make up for my careless mistake silently. The two people on the bed were startled by me, and both faces looked at me in astonishment. My eyes inevitably came into contact with them, as if I saw a ghost, the muscles on my face twitched uncontrollably.

How I wanted to turn around and run away, but my legs didn't work, as if I was nailed to the ground, my back was covered with cold sweat, I seemed to have been standing at the door of the bedroom for a century, but I knew it was only a few seconds. The people on the bed were Wen Si and Teng Haiqi. I get it, I get it all.In that instant I understood everything. Their complexions are grayer than mine. In the end, my body was able to move first. Stars flashed in front of my eyes and my ears were buzzing, but I didn't scream or speak. I turned around and left Wensi's apartment. I can't believe it, but before I left, I closed the door for them.

Everything is a thing of the past. My heart was unexpectedly peaceful. It turned out to be such a thing. By this time, I finally decided to return to North America to continue my wandering life. The feng shui of this city does not match my horoscope. Even the plane tickets are booked. This time, because the mind has been made up, everything is going on silently, no one's opinion is needed at all, and the family can see it, so I don't say much. I suddenly wanted to get married.Put the past into a secret room, close the door tightly and never open it, throw the key into the sea, or bury it in an unknown cemetery.And all this requires someone to help me.A friend, like A Zhang of Ji Na, is a tolerant and calm friend.

This time to North America, we must focus on choosing a marriage partner. There is still time, there is still time to move forward with a purpose. I was busy buying clothes to keep out the cold, completely like a normal person. I have always wanted to buy a silk quilt and add an electric blanket to live a perfect winter. At that time, I took the electric blanket to repair, and the electrician made fun of me, "Honey, what you need is a boyfriend." I immediately replied, "But electric blankets are more reliable." On the street that day, Zuo Shudong's car followed me all the time. She likes to use this method. If she is a man, she is afraid that some women will fall for her too.

I pretended not to see, she got out of the car and called me. I look up, on the street, I face the light, she is backlit, I squint my eyes to see her face, startled, she has no makeup, no outline at all, no eyebrows, no boundaries for eyes, gray lips, skin My pores are very thick, she opened her mouth and said to me, she wants to talk to me. I said directly, "I can't help him." "Please get in the car." I refused, the driver parked the car in the middle of the road, and the car behind me pressed the number desperately, and the traffic police came to issue a ticket.

She pulled me, and I still said, "No one can help him." Her lips trembled, "He is my only relative, save him." "It's his choice, you don't have to worry too much." "not one by one" The police came and said: "Please get in the car, the car must leave here." I quickly took the first two steps and squeezed into the crowd. "Yunna," Zuo Shudong chased after her, "he didn't do it voluntarily, he never did it voluntarily, he needs you." I don't want to think about that ugly moment again. "Vance is very disordered now, he needs you."

I ignored her and walked quickly, leaving her alone, I walked hurriedly for ten minutes, and when I turned back, I couldn't see her. I breathe a sigh of relief. I have heard people say that it is difficult for people like them to turn back, and there is no need to turn back. They have their own world and their own country. I sigh deeply. Gina came to see me, bought some necessary things for me, and asked me to take them or send them over. Is there anyone in America to collect things for me?You have to pay taxes, don't be naive. No one in a foreign country is willing to fill in the money for you first, so what if you are a lover, it is a country where parents are not as close as money.

Zuo Shudong appeared again that night. Her face without makeup looked a bit like a female ghost who had died in vain. What was even more frightening was that her left eye was swollen like a tumor, with bruises all over the circumference spreading to her cheekbones. It was obvious who had slapped her. Gina saw her on the street corner, let out a short scream, and asked me who it was. Zuo Shudong came over to hold me back, "I'll have a showdown with him, if he doesn't let Wen Si go, I'll fight him hard." Her voice was anxious and confused. This him, of course, is Teng Haiqi.

I don't want to listen. "Are you really ignoring the text?" She said hoarsely. "What happened to Wensi?" Gina asked. Zuo Shudong said: "He locked himself in the room and couldn't come out for several days—" I said, "I can't take care of myself, I can't take care of him." "Yunna." Gina stopped me. Zuo Shudong's tears rolled down, "I shouldn't hide it from you. I should have explained to you the kind of person Wen Si is, but he didn't have the courage. Several times, he told me that to marry you, he had to start from scratch." "He will never leave Teng Haiqi." "how do you know?" "Can you leave him?" I asked. "How do you know?" She took a step back. "Of course I do," I said. "Who are you?" she asked tremblingly. I stretched out my wrist, "See, I am hurt like this because of him." Zuo Shudong exclaimed, her complexion changed drastically, I felt sorry for her, and said to her: "I will not fight that person again, I am also defeated by him." I dragged Gina away. Gina was suspicious, but she didn't know how to speak. I sat down with her in the tea room. I ordered an ice cream. Halfway through eating, I suddenly felt sick and vomited. Gina helped me to the bathroom to clean up the dirt on my body, and then went to her to rest. I didn't say anything. I was afraid that if I told her about it, she would tell her about it, Ah Zhang, and Ah Zhang would talk about it with his own people. Our own people have our own people, and within a few days, the whole world knew about it. Gina asked, "Is that Wen Si's sister?" "yes." "Who hit her?" "I don't know. Don't worry about her. She is very capable. Whoever dares to break ground at the age of 10 will not have a good life." "Who?" Gina was nervous, "Who is so violent?" I turned over and ignored her. "Yunna—" she was anxious. "Hush, watch TV, Ah Zhang will call soon." Gina didn't give up on me, so she could only face the TV angrily. I have been lying down and did not sleep. When the call came, I heard it first, and I thought it was Ah Zhang. Gina handed the microphone to me in a hurry, "Your mother is looking for you." I was worried that something might happen to my father, so I jumped up. "Yunna, Wensi is in the hospital." Mother panicked. "Who notified you?" I wasn't very excited. "His sister." "The whole family is exaggerated." "No, Yunna, Wen Sizhen is in the emergency room. The doctor has spoken to me and I've asked for confirmation. Do you want to see him?" "What accident?" "He committed suicide." "I'll go." I put down the phone. I closed my eyes, and my eyelids were burning. I saw Teng Haiqi's handsome face approaching, gradually enlarged and blurred, and suddenly his face changed into a triangular head of a poisonous snake. The snake letter was slippery and bloody red. Sticking to my face, the fangs of that ferocious poisonous snake bit my flesh, bite after bite, bite after bite, I was tingling and sweating profusely. After poisoning me, now it's Zuo Wensi's turn. We must unite to find new life, we must. I rushed to the hospital.Zuo Shudong was not there. I asked the nurse to see the patient Zuo Wensi for me. The nurse said: "He is not out of danger yet, who are you? It's not convenient for him to see friends." "Where's his sister?" I asked anxiously, "It was his sister who informed me." "She is also undergoing treatment herself. She has just given her an injection, and her spirit is relatively stable. You can see her." "Okay, please take me there." The nurse seemed to have stepped out of a corpse freezer.He gave me a frozen look, as if saying: Shall I take you?you think! She said: "On the fourth floor, Room 4070" and walked away without looking back. I couldn't touch the elevator for a while, so I had to go up the stairs and ran to the third floor. My chest seemed to explode, and my legs were weak. I barely changed to another floor. I looked for 407 in the corridor, and finally saw The door number, as if seeing the face of a loved one, pushed the door and went in. He saw Zuo Shudong leaning on the bed. She looked pale, and when she saw it was me, she stretched out her hand. I asked her to hold her hand, and she said to me, "Sit next to me." I sit over. I asked her, "What happened to Wen Si?" She didn't answer me, she just said: "When we were very young, we were very poor and had nothing. Both Wen Si and I loved to eat a kind of bread. At that time, it cost 30 cents a piece. I was eating very sweet butter, but I had no money. When I passed Shiduo, I saw this kind of bread in a small glass box, and I kept standing there looking at it.” I was very anxious, I wanted to know what was going on with Wensi, but she just told me something irrelevant. It was the doctor's reaction after injecting her. The excessive sedative drug reminded her of the past that had been forgotten for a long time and hidden in her heart. "—The boss of Nashiduo is a wretched middle-aged man. He pinched my arm and held butter bread in the other hand. He told me that as long as I listen to him, I can eat bread every day. I just Hesitating, Wen Si has already pulled me away, I was thirteen years old at that time, there was a vicious look in Wen Si's eyes, I will never forget it." My breathing also gradually became easier at this time. I asked softly, "Wen Si, why did he do that?" Zuo Shudong still didn't answer me, she continued on by herself, "I saw that look in his eyes again when I decided to live with someone else, full of resentment, as if about to spew fire." I am silent. But she held my hand tightly, her long nails digging into the flesh of my wrist. I didn't feel any pain either, just let her pinch desperately like that. "But why did he let himself down again? I am for him, and for whom is he? I married Teng Haiqi, and I paid the price to make Teng famous for him. Everything was arranged by me, and why was he ruined by Teng Haiqi? Do we Are the two really that cheap? They are destined to live in the gutter without seeing the light?" I sighed, "You take a rest, don't think too much." She gasped, tears streaming down her already red and swollen eyes. I asked, "How is Wensi?" "he--" At this time, a nurse opened the door and came in, "Who wants to visit Zuo Wensi? He can see people now." "Me." I stood up immediately. "Come with me." The nurse said with a wooden face. I don't blame her. If it were me, I would look down on patients who commit suicide.There are so many people in the world who are suffering from all sorts of strange and terminal illnesses, and they want to ask God for more time but they can't get it, but some people regard the good life as a plaything and commit suicide. She and I walked into the downstairs ward: "Three minutes." She told me. Evans is lying down like a wax figure. He cut his own pulse and committed suicide. Same as me.coma due to excessive blood loss.At stake.The courage at that moment was aroused by the extreme pain, and I felt that life would be better than death, but I wanted a solution. "Vince." His eyelids trembled. He didn't even have the strength to open his eyes. I know he can hear me. "Why bother, Wen Si. This world is originally composed of many different people. You are not the first and you will not be the last. Why feel guilty?" His lips quivered and he couldn't make a sound. The nurse said: "It's time, please go early tomorrow." I whispered in Wensi's ear: "I'll come back tomorrow, those vicious women will drive me away." As soon as his hand moved, I squeezed him tightly. When I came out, Ji Na drove out the small car and waited for me. Ah Zhang sat beside her. I checked the time. At five o'clock in the morning, Dongfang was showing his belly. Gina pushed the car door open, I got in the car and sat in the back seat, I felt like I was going to freeze, Ah Zhang immediately took off his thick sweater and put it on my shoulders, his body temperature passed from the sweater to my body, I watched gratefully He glanced. "Is he all right? We've checked with the doctor." I covered my face with my hands, and then vigorously rubbed the numb muscles on my face. Ah Zhang poured out a cup of hot tea from a thermos, "Come, take a sip." I have never seen such a thoughtful person who took the teacup and didn't know what to say. After a long time, I said: "For the same person, the same technique, the same hand." They were stunned, looked at each other, Qiqi asked: "For the same person? Teng Haiqi forced him? How come?" I gritted my teeth and said, "He's not a human, he's a devil!" Ah Zhang winked at Ji Na, implying that she should stop asking. But Gina still said: "We have to wait for Wensi to recover before we can ask more carefully." It seemed regretful. I pulled Ah Zhang's sweater tightly, shrunk into a ball. Dimly remembering that there was no other way out back then, he took this tactic angrily, immersed himself in the scalding hot water, watched the blood floating in the water, like red clouds, and did not lose consciousness for a long time, only the pain that pierced his heart. I have always regretted belittling my own life and swore I would never do it again. I sort out their relationship in the bottom of my heart.The conclusion is that if you want to commit suicide, it is better to kill Teng Haiqi. Six years ago I really thought I had killed him, so I had to die with him, Wen Si, why are you so stupid. The repeated thoughts made me have a splitting headache, and I stumbled onto the bed, face down, and just stayed there. I don't change clothes or eat. I sleep when I'm tired and open my eyes wide when I wake up.It's called being disheartened.When he could get up, he went to visit Wen Si again. He is better than yesterday. I said, "Look how stupid you are." He smiled miserably and said softly: "He won't let me go." "Nonsense, he doesn't have this ability." I comforted him. "He has a videotape...photograph." Vince said softly. He is so nasty!I am stunned. "If I publish the photos, my reputation will be ruined, and I can't get along anymore. This small place can't be wrong." "What condition does he have?" I said. "Tell me to leave you, Yunna, he wants me to leave you," Wensi said with difficulty, "Tell me to follow him forever, I can't do it, I really can't, I'd rather die, I..." He was very excited. The doctor came over and said, "Miss, his condition is unstable today, please come back in the afternoon." "Wen Si, please be quiet for a while, and I will come again." "Yunna..." He burst into tears, "Yunna——" The doctor must have thought that he committed suicide for me, and hinted that I should leave quickly. Gina met me at the door. I apologized and said: "I don't go to work alone, as if the whole world has to follow me." "At this time, what kind words are you talking about?" She disagreed. "I forgot to go and see Zuo Shudong." I held on to the car door. "No need, she has been discharged from the hospital," Gina said, "I just checked." "Where has she gone?" I wondered. "She's very unstable." "Leave her alone, come on, let's go have breakfast." I followed Gina, without a soul at all, like a walking dead. "Will Vince recover?" "The body does," I said, "the mind never." "Talk from experience." She nodded, "What are you going to do?" I was at a loss. "Wensi's character is too cowardly, it will be a burden to you, and you will suffer for him." Gina said. I can't just kick him away when he's at his lowest.I said, "He needs friends." "It's best to fix the relationship on friendship." I was surprised, "Such sensible words don't seem like what you said." "It's Zhang's opinion." "I'll know what to do." "Yunna, you've already bought your plane tickets." "No." But I have decided not to go. Sitting down in the dining room, I ordered a dish of Keji, poured the whole bottle of syrup on it, and pushed it into my appetite in piles, so sweet and so greasy, I suddenly felt full, and everything was settled. After eating, I wiped my mouth and stood up. "Where are you going?" Gina asked in astonishment. "Go to Teng Haiqi." "Yunna, you're crazy." Gina changed color and grabbed me. "I'm not crazy. I'm not afraid of him. Wen Si is a famous person. He's afraid of losing his reputation. I'm not afraid." Gina said, "I beg you, Yunna, please calm down." "No," I said calmly, "let go of me." My tone was stern and indifferent, and Gina had to let me go. I took out the pocket and used the public phone to call Teng Haiqi's office building. To my surprise, I had always remembered his phone number. From the last time I checked the phone book to now, I had kept these few numbers in the past few months. The number is unforgettable. It was him himself who came to answer the phone.It is said that there is no airs in the fashion nowadays, and the more number one the person is, the more he has to show goodwill to show his newness, so he does not go through a female secretary. I said, "I am Wang Yunna." He said, "Okay, I was looking for you too." The voice was extremely annoyed. "Come out and talk," I said. He sneered, "How about an appointment to meet?" "Okay, go to Wen Si's house, it's quiet and convenient, see you in twenty minutes." I hung up the phone. Gina was behind me, watching me nervously. "I'll be fine," I shook her hand, "don't worry," I smiled, "don't look at me like I'm windy and cold." I went out and called a streetcar. He arrived before me and was already picking out the keys. I knew I couldn't show weakness at this juncture, so I also took out a key. To him, this was an accident, but he immediately clicked his tongue repeatedly, "This man Wensi gave away the key indiscriminately. In the future, this apartment will become a place rented out by clocks. He must be said well." Yes, not only the two of us have a key, Zuo Shudong also has a key, and she can come and go as she pleases, otherwise I would not have misunderstood her as Wensi's lover at the beginning. "You talk to Wensi, he doesn't have to listen to you, he would rather die than leave you." I mocked him. Teng Haiqi turned his head, his face was livid, and he gritted his teeth, "You don't love him, why are you fighting with me for him?" "You don't love him either," I said coldly, "If you love him, hand over the video tape and photos." "Joke, what's none of your business?" He grinned, "These were all taken with his consent." "How old was he? Sixteen? Seventeen?" "You don't care." He clenched his fists, "His whole person is shaped by me. Without me, there would be no him. How could I let him leave me?" "You psychopathic monster!" I snapped at him. "What right do you have to scold me?" He glared at me. "Give Vince a chance." "Who will give me a chance?" He refused to let go. "Teng Haiqi, if you want to disclose these secrets, your reputation will be damaged. Why bother yourself? You don't love Wen Si, you should also love yourself." He suddenly raised his head and laughed, which made my hair stand on end. The veins on his forehead were exposed, and the corners of his mouth spattered with saliva.I feel timid and take a step back. "My reputation?" He said bitterly, "Miss Wang Yunna, my reputation has already been terminated by you, and I have already lost my personality." "As soon as you left, I had no choice but to be with a woman like Zuo Shudong. My wife, business, partners, friends, and relatives all abandoned me. Do you think I didn't pay the price? Now I still have What? What am I afraid of?" Teng Haiqi said. I calm down.What he said was the truth. "I have nothing, Wang Yunna, I am even afraid of women, I can no longer get close to women, I am no longer a man, Wang Yunna, you underestimated your lethality, you made me unable to live or die, and now you have to take it out of your own hands. Go to Wensi?" He gritted his teeth and pointed at me, and I stared at him blankly, Teng Haiqi's true face was completely revealed, the anger, resentment, hatred, bitterness, unwillingness, and helplessness on his face were all revealed. Only now did I realize that there was no winner in the incident seven years ago. He and I both failed, and lost everything. We will never be able to hold our heads up. He continued: "What did I do wrong? I just had a relationship with a woman other than my wife. How many men still remain their standard husbands without knowing it, and I just met you. You will die with me ! Why can't you just swallow your anger and accept your fate obediently like other women? Why don't you be generous and forget this matter? Why do you want me to look good? " He took a breath, "You bitch, like a snake and a scorpion, whoever touches you will be unlucky, if you don't touch Wensi, Wensi is still fine until now." He reversed all the words, saying black words into white words, and white words into black words, but he thought that nothing could be more correct.It is the world that is sorry to him, not that he owes the world. He's crazy. A flash of fear flashed through me.He is already crazy. I said in a trembling voice: "Teng Haiqi, it's not too late, let Wen Si go, and yourself, how can there be such a stupid person like you in the world, jumping into the dung cellar by yourself, hoping that the splashed dirt will splash on your body On the enemy? It is you who will be defiled in the end." "I don't care, I want to die with him." He yelled. "He won't die with you, no matter what, I will be with him." "Then let him wait to see the photos in the tabloids." Teng Haiqi said. "Teng Haiqi, don't hurt him." I said. "As long as he comes back to me, I will never reveal this secret." "Why don't you admit the truth? He no longer loves you, Teng Haiqi, what is the difference between what you have done and a jealous crazy woman?" He suddenly rushed up and grabbed my throat, "I hate you. I hate you!" I didn't expect him to lose his sanity, and I couldn't avoid it for a while. His strength was boundless, and his hands gradually tightened. I gradually held my breath, my eardrums were buzzing, my heart was peaceful, and I heard the gurgling sound of my throat. I scratched and danced with both hands, it's over, this time I'm over. Just at the critical moment, I suddenly heard someone shout, "Let her go, if you don't let her go, I'll be rude." My throat loosened, and I fell to the ground wearily. I wanted to open my mouth to speak, but I couldn't. I could only make a hoarse voice, and I felt dizzy, and my eyes turned black. But I heard Zuo Shudong's voice. "You don't even let her go? For so many years, you let a girl live in the shadows, and you still don't let her go?" It turned out that she sympathized with me, and I leaned against the corner. It turned out that there are still people who sympathize with me in this world. Teng Haiqi didn't make a sound. I open my eyes.I understand why Teng has no voice. Zuo Shudong held a gun in her hand, and her index finger was tightly clasped on the mechanism. "No," I held out my hand, "no—" but couldn't utter a sentence. I want to say: everything has a price, don't, don't be rash. I struggled to get up. Zuo Shudong could only hear: "Sit over there, sit far away!" Teng Haiqi walked to the corner of the bed and sat down. "Throw the key over here!" She continued, "Don't think I can't shoot, don't think that you are the only one who has nothing." The resentment in Zuo Shudong's voice was comparable to his, "You use me, you With my money, with my body. You give me the illusion that all my sufferings are rewarding..." she said. "You don't even give me the minimum dignity, you even want to kill the only person I love in the world—" Zuo Shudong became more and more excited as he spoke, and his fingers would snap at some point. She spit out the accusation word by word like nails spit out between her teeth, hate, all hate, exhausted from hate, burning up with hatred, turning into ashes, wishing to rush forward and slap the enemy tendons, skin the enemy, and the most pitiful thing is that once, the enemy was in love with the enemy.