Awakening of Insects today. He was dragged out of his sleep by a distant thunder, walked out of Yanchun Pavilion, listened to the bright palace lanterns pouring down the ground and listened outside the palace, the spring insects hadn't come out yet, and there was no sound. Everything in the dream is only a few fragments left. Drunken and soft fireworks are thin in April, startling the dream of hibiscus.Years of dust and smoke, the mirror wears away, and the wind and rain suddenly come at dusk. I vaguely remembered that the first time I met her was actually on the day of Waking of Insects.

ten years ago. I was thirteen and she was about eighteen or nineteen. I am twenty-three now, and she is about eighteen or nineteen. I still don't know where she came from, where her hometown is, and what kind of life she lived before. But what she is doing and thinking now, how do I know? Listening to the distant thunder, it seemed to hit my heart. The night is windy.I shrank slightly, I have always been afraid of cold things since I was thirteen years old. I think she's right that I never actually grew up. For ten years, I stubbornly waited for her at the age of thirteen. Someone behind me gently puts the burqa on me.

You don't need to look back to know it's Zhang Qingyuan.She sleeps very alertly, so she will know it. Zhang Qingyuan is the person I look after most often.She used to be a palace maid next to Concubine Yang Shu. When I arrived at Concubine Shu's place, she was taking off her shoes and was slapping a caterpillar on the stone table.I asked Concubine Shu to come. For this encounter, she often doubts herself.Ask me why. Because I like the look of evil in your eyes.I laughed. Then wherever I go, there will be people shooting bugs.It wasn't until I was so annoyed that I banned it for a while before I stopped.

In fact, none of them knew it. The important reason was that the one sitting on the left of the table Zhang Qingyuan took was my queen mother. I like the viciousness and unscrupulousness of women like no one else. Just like the first time I saw the person I like, I realized that what I need is not a gentle and gentle woman. At that time, I once thought at night that if she could slap bugs in front of me deliberately and casually like other women, my life would be considered complete. Unfortunately, I'm afraid I'll never see it. She was on my side, and I was trapped in the age of thirteen or fourteen. Although there were so many moving faces around me, I would always only remember the corners of her smiling eyebrows and eyes in the distant past.

Even now when we meet, we are tired of saying anything, but every time I dream back at midnight, I can clearly see her appearance, for so many years, without a trace of disorder. It turned out that I never forgot her a little bit. "It's late at night, why not go back, Your Majesty, just stay here?" Zhang Qingyuan asked softly. I looked up at the sky, Fomalhaut was in the sky, the light was blue. "It's not time yet." "Why don't you go back and sleep for a while?" Looking back at her carefully, the bright red face under the palace lantern, this familiar scene reminded me of many things.

"No, let's go back." As the chariot approached the Donghua Gate, I called to stop, got down and walked a few steps on the brick floor, the night wind was mixed with the spring cold. "Bofang." Bo Fang hurriedly approached. I paused and said, "Go...to Jinkui Hall to have a look." He asked in surprise: "It's late at night, why don't you report to the Jinkui Palace tomorrow so that the palace envoys can prepare for it?" I whispered: "Don't disturb her, I just take a look quietly." The Jinkui Palace is advancing in the inner palace city, traveling all the way, the carriages and horses are slow.Lifting the curtain and looking, the sky is full of wind and dew, and the apricot blossoms are like snow, and some of them blow into my sleeve.

Just like those spring outings. All the beautiful and lingering, in the end are just such faded bright fragments. The lights in the Jinkui Hall were turned off, and it felt deserted when I walked in. Stop everyone and go in alone. A place I am very familiar with. Entering the main south gate is not the main hall, but a rockery. Passing the side of the rockery, there is a veranda with stalks hanging down. After standing next to Your Excellency for a while, but did not see the candle light, she thought she had already fallen asleep. It's very good here, unlike other palaces, where the lamps are always on, and you can't sleep well all the time.

Hearing the rustling of the Begonia flowers next to him, the light red petals fell all over the ground and no one noticed. No one knows except the full moon in the sky. I finally felt interested and didn't know what I was going to do.When I turned around to leave, I found that she was standing at the moon gate looking at me.In the night, she seemed to blend into the paleness of the whitewashed wall behind her. My throat constricted and I couldn't say anything. She looked at me calmly, her eyes were calm, like looking at the most common crabapple tree under the moon. And I, when I heard the thunder of Awakening Zhes, it clearly passed by my ears.

Waking of Insects.Waking of Insects. Everything starts from this day. The first time I met her was on February 20th, the first year of Qianxing. I was thirteen years old that year. At that time, I was on the Butiantai, looking at Ziweiyuan in Zhongtian.But it didn't move, as if my father was still safe and sound. However, my father passed away yesterday and left a will saying, The prince is the emperor. Respect the queen as the empress dowager, and have the right to dispose of military and state affairs. Send envoys to mourn Khitan. Nothing else. I wanted to tell him I was terrified, and I knelt by his bed, shivering with cold tears in the cold February weather.But he didn't say anything. In the end, he left his last words. He grabbed my hand and said, "Be kind to the world and benefit from it."

I don't even know how to face his death, how can I face the world? I am afraid.Afraid of dead bodies, afraid of cold things.This fear has continued to me now, and may follow me for the rest of my life. Father stopped at Yanqing Hall.According to his edict, I will be the emperor before the coffin. After accepting the three prostrations and nine obeisances from the courtiers, I knelt down to the inner hall and said, "I ask the empress to hang the curtain to photograph the world." Two years ago, Tianxi was four years old, and I was eleven years old.Because of his father's long-term illness, he lived in the palace, and the government was completely in the hands of the queen mother.At that time, the prime minister Kou Zhun secretly discussed and asked the emperor to let the crown prince, that is, our supervisor, but the news reached his mother, so Kou Zhun was dismissed as prime minister, and Ding Wei replaced him.Later, because of Zhou Huaizheng's plot to abolish the empress, Ding Wei was killed.The two servants in the palace—Yang Chongxun, envoy of the Hakka province, and Yang Huaiji, the governor of the inner hall, went to inform Ding Wei.The next day, Zhou Huaizheng was killed, and Kou Zhun was demoted to Sima of Hengzhou.Since then, the mother has firmly established a foundation in the court.

Then in November, my father issued an edict that, except for major military and state affairs, I would still decide in person, and I would discuss the rest with Prime Minister Ding Wei, Privy Councilor Cao Yong, and others.When I heard the news, my throat choked for a moment, and tears flowed down my face. On the way back, I cried to the crown prince Zuo Shuzi Yan Shu.He is only thirty-two years old and has a good temper. I like to read his words most on weekdays.I hope he can help me. The next day he made a statement for me, and when I went to see my mother, she asked me, "Are you worried about your father's health?" I shook my head and said timidly, "I don't want to..." The queen mother slapped me on the left cheek. Ding said that he was the prime minister, and he saluted the queen mother, asking the queen mother not to hang the curtain in the hall, and please leave the hall.The queen mother sneered and remained silent. Zhang Jingzong and Lei Yungong then said: "The emperor sees things and is by his side day and night. Why don't we leave the Imperial Palace?" Zhang Jingzong was personally appointed by his father to serve Zishantang, and he wanted him to be my confidant.It turned out that he was the same as everyone else. I looked up at the patterns on the algae well and counted the scales of those dragons. When they counted to the third one, they discussed it and decided that the empress dowager and I will discuss state affairs together in the Chengming hall, with the emperor on the left and the empress dowager on the right, and the decision will be made behind the curtain.I thought it was over, so I stood up and went to wake up in front of my father. But the queen mother took out another handwritten book, and Bo Fang, who had served me by my side since I was a child, hurriedly took it out and read it out.I sit down again.It turned out that the empress mother didn't like hanging curtains, and wanted to review the chapters by herself in the forbidden palace, and summoned the assistant ministers in case of major events. The ministers roared, and the scene was chaotic. I then continued to look up and count the scales of the dragon. Bo Fang whispered in my ear: "That handwriting seems to be Ding Wei's handwriting." That being the case, just now he proposed to invite the Empress Dowager to the Royal Palace? I also want to sneer like the queen mother, but my eyes are so hot that tears are about to burst out. Everyone seemed to have forgotten that his father was lying there, his bones still cold. Probably many years or soon, I will lie here too, and then let my wife, children and courtiers quarrel. I secretly swear in my heart that I will never stop coffining in Yanqing Palace from now on. Zhongtian Ziweiyuan is the seat of the emperor. The eight stars of Dongfan and the seven stars of Xifan are arranged in the Beidou Bei, left and right, forming the image of Yiwei. Among the five stars of the North Pole, Beichen is the most respected in Ziwei Palace. I lay in the orbital instrument and used the travel gauge to find the position on the double gauge, and looked at Beichen carefully. I don't know if my father has arrived there now? But if all the emperors of the past and present have to go there, how many heroic souls can be accommodated there? Suddenly someone beside me asked, "Hey, what are you doing lying in this strange box?" I suddenly heard someone talking to me by my side, and I was startled, and Beichen lost his position in a flick of the tour guide. Didn't I tell the servant not to let others in? Sit up slowly and look at her. This is the first time I met her, and the first time I saw such a strange girl. Her dress was strange, with narrow sleeves and a collar that stood up as if wrapping around her neck.And... she was actually wearing pants, which were very small and tight. A girl ran out in the middle of the night and came to Sitianjian, still wearing pants. Unwashed, disheveled hair, undressed, plain face. It's really strange. Could it be lost soul sleepwalking? So I stretched out my hand and shook it a few times in front of her.Unexpectedly, she grabbed my hand and asked, "What are you doing? You think I can't see you?" "...No, your clothes are very strange." I whispered.In front of her confident questioning, I actually felt guilty. I really am not fit to be an emperor. She looked down at her clothes, laughed out loud, and said, "I'm sorry, I forgot to change it." She seemed to have forgotten that she was still holding my hand and didn't let go, so she just smiled to herself. Her palms were warm and warm.As if she came from the summer. She looked at me, smiled and let go of my hand, but then patted my right cheek with that hand, and asked, "little brother, why are you blushing?" ...she touches my face. ...she was actually here, touching my face. I was dumbfounded, and felt that my face had a fever, and the blood kept rushing up. But she looked up at the sky in the cold wind, and said to herself: "I don't know which era I jumped to? There is not even an air conditioner, it's really uncomfortable." I didn't know what she was talking about, so I stayed silent.I've never seen such an innocent woman touch a man's face. "Little brother, my sister asked you something." I am already thirteen years old and inherit the throne, but she casually calls me her younger brother, but for some reason, I think she is gentler than those who knelt down to His Majesty Dan and called me Long Live.So I look at her and nod. "What time is it now?" "It's about midnight," I said. "No, sister is asking you, what dynasty is it now?" she asked. This person doesn't know whose family is in the world now? Where is she from? But I actually answered her obediently: "It is now the 20th day of the second month of the first year of Qianxing in the Song Dynasty." "The first year of Qianxing? What emperor?" She frowned. "Ministers put forward the table, and it is about to be proposed as Ying Fuji's ancient magic power to make the emperor civilized, Wu Ding, Zhang Sheng, Yuan Xiao." I said. "Wow, can you recite this long?" She laughed. This person doesn't seem to know what concealment is, she can open her mouth as much as she wants, and stare her eyes as wide as she wants. Doesn't she know what a girl's reserve is? Don't you know that it will be very difficult for people to live as they please? "Then, there must be a temple name of the late emperor, right?" she asked. I said in a low voice, "...the first emperor just passed away, and the Ministry of Etiquette hasn't drawn up the temple name yet." "That's it..." She scratched her hair, and then said, "It's up to you, if you don't know, you don't know." She looked around and asked, "Where is this?" "Tokyo Bianliang." She suddenly realized: "Ah, it turned out to be the Northern Song Dynasty." "This Song Dynasty." I corrected her. "Song Dynasty." She nodded with a smile, "Where is that in Bianliang City..." She looked around, then took a deep breath and asked, "Imperial Palace?" I nod. She was stunned for a long time, pointed at me and asked, "You... have a dragon on your clothes." You just saw it now? Her appearance is ridiculous, so I will not hold her accountable for pointing at the king. I thought she was about to kneel down to plead guilty, but she looked around and whispered in my ear and asked, "Hey, is there a eunuch next to me? I haven't seen one, can you call me over and let me take a look? Sister Please eat candy." ... Eunuch? I looked at her mysterious look and asked, "I don't know what a eunuch is?" She made a fainting posture, and then asked: "Then what should the Song Dynasty be called? Eunuchs?" "You mean the servant?" I asked. "Yes, yes, should it be?" she asked. This woman is really strange. There are not many things in the palace, but there are many servants. She can just go and see by herself. Why do you want me to ask someone to show her? I shook my head and refused. "Stingy!" She snorted, then jumped to the side of Gui Tianyi and asked, "Then what is this?" "The orbiter is used to observe the stars." "Ah? Really? How do you use it?" She immediately drilled in to have a look.Why are girls so casual? I looked down hesitantly, am I going to call someone to take this strange woman away? She sat in the celestial instrument, looked at me through the copper ring, and asked, "Little brother, how do you use it?" I looked at her silently, the brilliance of the already somewhat incomplete waning moon cast a faint blue outline on her hair.Because of the overlapping shadows of the rings, her smile is like a butterfly locked in a sparse cage, without the slightest threat, yet within reach. Hearing the sound of the night wind in early spring brushing past my ears, I drilled into the boundless future carefully. Like an ink painting, it is thick and faint and lonely. I have never seen such a lively life before, and she looks so strange in this dead palace. I walked to her side without listening to my feet. Half-kneeling beside the orbiting instrument, he pointed to the Shuanggui and showed her: "This is the Shuanggui. It is engraved with three hundred and sixty-five degrees of the sky, and the north and the south stand side by side. The place where the North Pole rises from the earth at 35 degrees is the degree of the North Pole. They are all 72 degrees, belonging to Ziwei Palace, 220 degrees in all directions, belonging to the inner and outer palaces of the yellow equator, and 72 degrees of the South Pole. The sky is connected to the top axis of the Shuanggui with a scorpion, you can turn left and right to see the distances of the stars, and go around with the sky..." Before I finished speaking, she looked at the sky with a peeping tube and asked, "What kind of star is that very bright one?" "Where?" I asked. "Here." She pulled my shoulders over, and I was caught off guard, and my chin hit her neck. "Wow, it hurts..." She rubbed her neck, then pulled me under the spy tube. I stared blankly at the stars. I can smell it, the fragrance on her body is like the smell of white orchids, green and dark. The star is in the northeast of Tianshiyuan, everyone should know it. "Weaver Girl Three Stars." I told her. "Ah... so it's Vega." She turned the spying tube around excitedly, "Let me see, where is Cowherd?" She looked for it for a long time and asked, "Is this it?" I leaned over to look, but I couldn't see it because of the wrong angle.She pulls me in.In the small space, I could almost feel her breath gently against my neck. "Hi, isn't it?" she asked. I looked up at her, and she seemed to be much older than me, probably in her late teens...but she looked at me as if I was a child who was only three or four years old. Biting his lower lip, looking at the star, it turned out not to be. "Look, to the north of this star, there are forty-five stars of the Habayashi Army in the south of the wall, gathering and dispersing in threes and threes, so it is Fomalhaut, in the south of the Habayashi Army, and Beisu is in the north. It is a very bright star. The stars, now so bright and big, symbolize the stability of the world; if they are small and have horns, there will be wars." I told her seriously, but she laughed: "Superstition, how is it possible?" Maybe she's right, because I haven't seen a sign in the stars for six or seven years. "I'm going back to prepare things for the palace, little brother, don't tell others that I showed up, no." She rubbed my hair, wanting to go out.But because we were all trapped inside, and I didn't dare to touch her body, I couldn't get out for a while. Impatient, she just climbed off me.Her knee hit my right rib so hard it hurt. I saw her stand up, and finally couldn't bear it, and asked, "Who are you? Where are you from?" "Me?" She looked back at me in the night, and smiled: "I come from a very, very far place...don't tell anyone, I'll come back tomorrow." I nodded hurriedly.She smiled and waved her hand: "Goodbye~" Bye-Bye?I am baffled. She jumped high in front of me, disappeared in the air. As if it never existed. I stared at the place where she disappeared, stayed for a long time, and then came down from the high platform, and the Sitianjian people were waiting below. Looking back at the empty building, he asked the servants, "Did anyone come up just now?" Shake your head together. I thought about it for a long time, and finally realized that she was probably the vixen that Bofang mentioned in the story, and she was here to seduce people. I want to tell Bofang that I was molested by a vixen today.However, thinking of his father made him feel depressed, so he still didn't speak out. Even my father never hugged me, never said more than three words. After all, I don't have a father anymore. That's right, when I met her, it happened to be the loneliest and most difficult period of my life. I didn't grow up, but I had to face my majestic queen mother and courtiers with all their hearts. When I was most afraid of the cold, she came suddenly. Gave me the warmth of a palm.