Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

After about half an hour, Lao Zhang suddenly asked, "Is he handsome?" I was taken aback, "Who? Heh, he? He's very handsome and has an excellent temperament." Lao Zhang said: "It's strange, I thought this kind of man was on the verge of extinction, but if you meet him, where's the luck?" "Tang Jing also met Mo Jiaqian." I protested. "Tang Jing's conditions are much better than yours, Zijun, I believe you have to admit it." I said, "Let's change the subject, and I'll let you know when we make progress." "You will marry, I have a hunch, you will marry him."

I tensed up, "Old Zhang, somehow I feel the same way, I think I'm going to get married." "An artist's sixth sense is stronger." He muttered to himself. I don't dare to say it out, I actually don't want to get married, I just hope to have a man who supports and loves me by my side, we depend on each other for life, but we don't invade each other, and we will always maintain a relationship between friends and lovers. I am afraid that there is no such ideal livelihood in the world, but I dare not give up on him, so I have no choice but to get married.

In Cao Yu's novel, Chen Bailu has this kind of dialogue: "For such a good man, it is always a bit unbearable to force him into a husband." But a thirty-six-year-old woman doesn't have many options to choose from. Marriage is still an ideal ending. I am not a romantic woman. If I live with a man for an endless period, I will suffer from a nervous breakdown and wrinkle my face. "Once I get married, I will lose you, Zijun." Lao Zhang said regretfully. "how come?" I said: "I will definitely do things. I have learned a lesson once. It is impossible for a woman to be financially independent."

"How could someone like him let you out to squeeze mud at a so-called artist who is neither male nor female?" Lao Zhang said dejectedly. I was shocked: "Old Zhang, don't underestimate yourself." "You women, come out of a mansion, suffer a little bit, and be picked up by another white knight to enjoy the blessings." I laughed out loud, "Listen, who is speaking such naivety? White Knight, hahaha, at my age, don't fall off the horse and break your old bones." "I'm going to lose you." He repeated the words without thinking. Zhai Jun dated me in hot weather.

He doesn't like being stuck indoors, and we often go to some inexplicable places, like small parks managed by the city council.In the sun, sweating all over, he handed me a can of lukewarm beer, without saying a word, just sitting in the shade of a tree, from a certain angle, it is very romantic, the people around us We were both boys and girls in white school uniforms, and the two of us stood out very much. Believe it or not, the relationship was cultivated. The grass in the park was long, and the flying mosquitoes bit people. I couldn't help but slapped on my calf, "snapping" repeatedly, and beat the time for the dialogue to add interest.

I enjoy it a lot, but I’m not very involved, and sometimes it’s funny. It’s not like this when adult men and women communicate. They should pay equal attention to rationality and sensuality. But we didn't do that. After three or five dates, I was sure that he hadn't seen other women, and I was very sweet, so I slowly told my thoughts. He listened "um, um" and was very patient, but I didn't know anything about him. I don't want to know either. One morning, when I got up to comb my hair, I looked at the bright light and suddenly caught a glimpse of a white hair on the sideburns. I thought it was a reflection of the light, but after a closer look, it turned out to be white hair. My heart was beating wildly, and I quickly picked it out, but it was not.

Snow-white and shiny white hair from head to tail! My heart seemed to stop suddenly.I stood up tremblingly, I didn't know what to do, it was over, my hair was white, I didn't do anything, my hair was already gray. what should I do?Pull out all the gray hairs?blackened?Or cut it short? After a long while, I could hear myself chanting: "You should laugh at me if you are passionate, and you will grow up early." I fell on the table and laughed "cuckoo". What else is there to say?The hair is all white. How beautiful Zhai Jun's white hair looks, men always have the upper hand.

Later, when he suggested going to the old coffee shop on the top of the hill, I had no objection. In my eyes, he is more valuable. Before the hair is white, there will be no such feeling. We drink a lot of beer relatively. It was gradually raining, leaving us at the café near the French windows. There are wisterias growing on the bamboo frame in the open air. The leaves are green after being washed by the rain, and the flowers are rose red, which makes it more magnificent. On the other side is the pond, looking at it at a glance, it looks like a misty and rainy scene full of water. I laughed and said, "Not too long ago, they had Petty Bell's record 'Tennessee Waltz,' which brought the whole vibe back to the 1950s."

Zhai Jun nodded silently, "I've been here before. I dated girls in college. This is the ideal place." "Where's the female classmate?" "I'm old. I'm probably busy picking a son-in-law." He was very melancholy, "The little beauty who was in the fair back then is now old and fat." I shook out Su Dongpo's words again, "Even if you don't know each other when you meet, your face is dusty and your hair is like frost," I added, "I believe you are still the same." "Look at my wrinkles." He was a little helpless, "My parents say I am very vicissitudes."

I am speechless. There were only two of us left in the restaurant. He suddenly put his big hand on mine. "You don't have long nails," Zhai Jun said. "No, you know I'm in this business now..." I didn't pull my hand back. His hands are very warm and warm. "Is marriage a complicated thing?" He asked lightly. I was a little nervous and a little sad that the moment had finally arrived, but I wasn't too happy, I just felt relieved. I said, "Not necessarily, it's up to people to be rich and thrifty." Heh, I really admire myself for being able to talk and laugh freely at such a juncture.

He nodded, but didn't say anything for a while. Zhai Jun is like this, he spends more time thinking than talking. After a long time, the rain gradually stopped, and he said, "Let's go." I stood up with him and left. He finally mentioned marriage. I don't feel like there's a second spring coming, but I'm going to have a home. The tension gradually passed, and I felt a little bit happy. Gradually, this little bit of happiness was like a drop of ink dropped into water, slowly expanding, and a bowl of water became light black, light black, not thick black. My happiness now ends here. Word spread quickly. Ziqun asked in surprise, "Sister, you're in luck." "Who said that?" I don't want to admit it, and if it doesn't work, I don't have to step down. "Mrs. Jiang." "Who is Mrs. Jiang?" I was baffled and inquired about these mysterious packets. "Mrs. Jiang who is divorced from Mr. Jiang." Ziqun said, "That old woman who likes to wear knickerbockers." "You said she was old? I'm afraid she won't admit it." I remembered. "Maybe I'm only in my thirties, but I always have a homely demeanor," Ziqun smiled, "Aren't you lucky?" I rushed to ask, "What does Mrs. Jiang say?" "He said he saw you watching a movie with a man. He was very intimate. He came to ask me, and I said I didn't know." "Mrs. Jiang thought I would not reveal it, so she said to me: Veronica, if Mrs. Shi is still married, I should be fine, right?" The subgroup smiled.I thought of Mrs. Jiang wearing knickerbockers and carrying a small golden handbag, and couldn't help coughing and laughing on the table. I raised my head, "She thinks that I have the same conditions as hers. If I have a boyfriend, she can also be chased by someone." Zijun nodded, "Not bad." I asked, "Then why did Elizabeth Taylor marry seven times, and some women remain aunts forever?" "Ask her." "I'm much cuter than Mrs. Jiang." I made an exaggerated air. Ziqun also jokingly said, "Who has the guts to read your two names together?" I'm still thinking about what this woman said. Ziqun: "Don't talk about it, just talk about it elsewhere. Is this news true or false?" "Really, we're still in the process of going." Ziqun jumped up, "Really? How is your character?" "One wait one." "Wow, your net worth is clean? Your career is noble?" "Yes." "When will we meet?" "Ten strokes haven't been written yet, what do you see?" "What stage are you at?" I looked up and thought, "The stage of drinking beer." "Beware of becoming brothers and sisters!" I smile. "He knows about you?" came again. "An'er introduced us to each other, do you think he knows?" "An'er, I'm getting more and more confused." So I will tell you the ins and outs of the future. Ziqun opened his mouth wide: "Adventurous encounters, marriages are predetermined." I said, "I'm not married yet. Don't bring this matter up in front of your parents, as well as your elder brother and sister-in-law. Anyway, if you can get married, everyone will sit down and have a meal." "Invite them to eat? They don't deserve it." Ziqun pouted, "No one has ups and downs, but our family is particularly snobby." I was silent for a while, "Maybe when I am proud, I have the attitude of a villain who is complacent and offends others." "Sister, why do you take everything on your shoulders?" She couldn't bear it. "Hey, I really like to be original and unique. I'm not Lai, and I'm not good at everything. My husband ran away. I'm not good at learning. Likeable." The subgroup didn't answer. I sigh. She said, "You gotta hold him tight." "How much strength do I have to catch him? I have to be willing to drink water, so like Mrs. Jiang and her like, it is too high to estimate themselves. Women at our stage are more passive than active. There is no need to be an old lady with noble character." "Where are there so many complaints?" Ziqun laughed. "It's not easy for a man to marry you these days." I felt. "Sister, I am optimistic about you. If you work hard, there will be no problem." She winked her eyes. "Stop laughing with me, I'll skin you." Let's get married, let your breath out, lest Mrs. Jiang and his ilk always want to make peace with me.At that time, she said again: Zijun is actually married, so we also have hope. How can the long population be blocked?Let her be happy, I shouldn't be stingy, helping others is the foundation of happiness. Because of Zhai Jun's favor, I regained my confidence and looked radiant. People have always said: women are different in love.No, no, that's not the case at all. It has nothing to do with love at all. I don't know why there are such rumors. Like how people have been wrong about love for centuries, love is sweet.They say: Everyone should love at least once in their life.My opinion is slightly different. Love is a plague of misfortune, and it is a blessing to never meet in a lifetime. Marriage has nothing to do with being in love. People always think that after they mature in love, they will get married naturally, but they don't know that marriage is just a way of life. Everyone can get married, it's very simple. Love...is something else entirely. Only in romance novels, men and women meet each other and love each other without thinking. So far, I want to break my head, and I don't understand how Huang Rong fell in love with Guo Jing. My radiance is caused by a sense of triumphant joy: I am still admired, I am not lonely, I have something to depend on. It's so boring to analyze the relationship in such a detailed way, and I wish I could say: I'm in love. Soon I became familiar with Zhai Jun's temper and the details of life. Basically the two of us have the same place.For example, they are similar in age, they don’t care about food, they prefer to be quiet, choose elegant plain colors to wear, like to read novels, go to bed early, etc. He treats people more coldly than I do. After Tang Jing left, only Lao Zhang was left, and he had no communication at all. Ask him how he can do it.He said: "People invite me to dinner, but if I don't go, I will never invite others to dinner." I laughed, it was so simple to put it bluntly.There are quite a few brokers and the like who tell their wives and children late at night that he has an unstoppable entertainment, which makes it even more ridiculous. Every three to five days, Ziqun came to ask: "Are you going to open the skylight? What are you delaying? Adults said a few words and hit it off immediately. Do you want to order a cup of ice cream and soda in the ice room and drink it with two straws on your forehead?" No way? My mouth is so itchy that I can't stand it any longer. I want to leak the news of your joy. "I can't make it." I said quickly. "Left and right are just telling parents, why not, to make them happy." "They have never been happy for me, how can they be happy at this moment?" "Maybe knowing your happy event will change your opinion." Ziqun said. "I don't care what they think." Ziqun still happily went to tell his parents. The reaction of the two elders was quite ingenious, neither Ziqun nor I expected. The old mother said: "Married again?" She immediately put on a straight face: "Who is the other party? Isn't she the best now? The historian still cares for her very much, so don't make the hunchback stumble, and the two ends will be lost. I will have a child again soon, a lot of children Different surnames, something too new, we can't get used to it." Ziqun was very angry and came to complain to me. I said, "Isn't it? Now you've become a villain, talking right and wrong everywhere." "How can she say such things? You are her own daughter." "You ask me, who do I ask?" I don't care. "You have always been nice to them. At that time, you would make trouble with Shi Juan for everything you wanted." At that time... Now if I have the opportunity, I will not be one-sided. A woman's infatuation with her natal family should be limited. "What else did my mother say?" I asked. "Tell you to hold on to his money." "I've never been good at it." "Does he have money?" "have no idea." "it depends?" "Not likely." "elder sister--" "I know what you're going to say. I know my current situation best myself." I smiled, "Don't bother everyone." "Are you happy?" Ziqun asked. Women enjoy this period of time the most, when the responsibility has not yet been lifted, and there is a reliable person by their side. I am proud of Mr. Zhai, no matter what occasion I meet with acquaintances, I will introduce him. I try to be as subtle as possible, hoping not to cause resentment. I secretly said to Zhai Jun: "Take you to show off." He replied, "My pleasure." By the third month, he arranged for me to meet his parents. The two elders are no different from old-fashioned people, but they are unusually kind and sensible.I didn’t ask a single gossip, didn’t mention my education, occupation, background, or age, and conveyed the message “As long as my son is happy, we like it too” everywhere. impulse. After seeing my parents, we found a cafe to eat cake, and just sat down, someone put a hand on my shoulder, and my intuitive reaction was to brush that hand away, regardless of whether it was a man or a woman.Then I looked up and saw that it was Collin Jones, and I glared at him even more angrily. But Lin Zhongsi stayed in embarrassment for a while, and suddenly said: "I'm sorry, I recognized the wrong person." Zhai Jun slightly raised his voice: "Look carefully next time." Collin Jones bowed and left. I quickly argued, "This person..." Zhai Jun interrupted me and said, "Don't talk about him anymore." I was silent for a while, "My past..." He quickly said, "Who cares?" Sincerely moved, my nose was a little sour, and I still didn't forget to play tricks, "I won the Nobel Prize before, and I don't care?" He tilted his head, "I'm sorry, everyone is treated equally, and there are too many things to do. Please work harder next year." I laughed out loud and burst into tears. Collin Jones called the next day and was scolded by me. "Why do you use your hands and feet? Everyone puts my shoulders on my shoulders. Aren't I so tired? In the public, you are deliberately flirting. Who do you want to misunderstand? You long-haired ghost, next time you don't behave properly, I will summon you." The police pull you." It took him a long time to respond, and he said, "You value him very much." "The bull's head is wrong with the horse's mouth." "I can tell you care a lot." I don't ring. "So even old friends are written off," he sighed. "You're serious about him." I'm still silent. "They all said that you have found a partner, but I still don't believe it. I saw with my own eyes how you fell in love with him..." Colin Jones said. Yes, he is right, I have a crush on Zhai Jun.His character is all on the bright side, and it can be said that he has almost no shortcomings. I have no doubts about him. "He's much better than me." I was stunned, "What?" "He beat me ten times, and I am convinced when I lose at the hands of this person." Hearing that Ke Linzhongsi praised Zhai Jun, I laughed out of joy, and my mouth did not spare him, "I want you to obey? Hearing it in other people's ears, I thought I had nothing to do with you." Jones said, "Little women succeed." I restrained my smile, "Ke Lin, wish me happiness." "I wish you happiness from the bottom of my heart." There was something lovely about this foreigner. "From now on, Zhong Lang is a stranger." He said with a wry smile. "Hey, where did you learn this sentence in Chinese?" "Goodbye, Zijun, best wishes." "Goodbye, Colin, you too." This stage is the happiest. I don't know Zhai's shortcomings, and he doesn't know my shortcomings. In everyone's eyes, each other is the best of all.We only meet each other after we get dressed up every day, talking and laughing for pure entertainment, saying goodbye in the evening, we will not default on each other, if we can live like this from generation to generation, we will also be relatives of gods. Lao Zhang threatened me, "But soon you will have to dress him, put the bath water in, make breakfast, go to dinners, deal with the old people in his family, worry about his career development, and by the way, watch out for any chicks stalking him, you Are you afraid, Zijun?" I was very frank, "Scared." "Don't tell me, Zijun, it's better to be single than to be single." "Of course, it's just a small way. Marriage is the most decent system." "Although there are tens of thousands of people, how can I go?" "What can I do?" I said regretfully. "It's still a pleasure, isn't it?" I tilted my head and thought for a moment, "It's worth it for him..." "I should really like to see this man." "He will pick me up in a while." "Tsk tsk tsk, it's different after all." Lao Zhang teased me, "If someone picks you up, your broken car can also be reimbursed." I also laughed, "If I had known this, I wouldn't have to go to the license plate test. Really, when I saw the examiner, my legs were shaking, I was so disappointed." Lao Zhang stared at me, "Zijun, you look like a child, with no wounds or hatred." "Yes, it is said that this is my greatest strength," I pulled the flesh on my cheeks, "thick skin, I pretended nothing happened. Get a chair and come down from the stage by myself, no matter what you say .” Lao Zhang raised his thumb, and before he could say "OK", the door sounded "Duk Tuk". I quickly went to open the door, "Here we come." Lao Zhang was upset, "What a little Yiren bird." Zhai Jun came in, and I introduced them. Old Zhang accepted him immediately. Afterwards, he said, "Because he has a noble temperament, a good man." I said, "Even if you say he's wrong, I'm afraid I have to marry him." Zhang Bai glanced at me. "This is the biggest and best opportunity for a woman of this century." I'm exaggerating a bit. "Is that so?" Old Zhang was unconvinced, "And what about Mrs. Simplin?" "I'm happier than her." I rushed to answer. After a while, Lao Zhang nodded. During this meeting, Mr. Zhai visited my work environment. He wanted to see my "work", and I blushed.He refused to take it out anyway, so he laughed it off.Lao Zhang was very angry, "It's not shameful." He scolded me. Lao Zhang asked Zhai Jun again, "Three afternoons a week, make sure she leaves here before six o'clock. I really need this female helper. If you let her sit at home, there will be too much space to keep her from thinking wildly." Zhai Jun just smiled and said nothing. Lao Zhang whispered to me again: "A master, throw a stone to ask the way. The stone thrown at him disappeared without a trace. It is hard to fathom the depth. Are you not afraid? Do you know what he is thinking?" I smiled, "I don't even want to know what he's thinking, is it scary to know?" Coming out of old Zhang's house, Zhai Jun said, "Zijun, how about we get married?" I have been waiting for this sentence for a long time, and it seems that I have heard it many times, but now he really said it, but it feels a little unreal. I asked slowly, "Have you thought it through?" He said in surprise, "Of course." "Actually, there are many girls out there who are eighteen or twenty-two waiting to marry someone like you." He smiled, "I've known this for twenty years." I said nervously, "Then let's get married, as soon as possible!" Really bland. Love in romance novels is not like that. However, such an ordinary experience has also become a legend in the mouths of others. My sister-in-law came to see me for the first time in three years, she didn't say anything, she just marveled at this marriage. "...Of course you are beautiful, Zijun, but after all, there are still as many as 300,000 beautiful women in Hong Kong. It is really a marriage of thousands of miles, and the daughter is like an iceman." Nan Ernan said, your two aunts have the same skills, and if you want to learn from them, once they become successful, they will be of great use. Unfortunately, they are busy people, and they don't see them once a year, so they don't have time to come Tell you one, two..." I interrupted her, "Sister-in-law is getting more and more interesting." "Of course we wish you well, Zijun." "I understand that too." I believed her. After a while she asked, "Does he have any money at home?" "I want to know too, but how do I start the investigation?" I laughed. "Could it be pointing at old Mr. Zhai and asking: 'Hey, to be honest, how much property does your family have, and are they all owned by your descendants?'" The sister-in-law was displeased, "Zijun, you are getting more and more interesting." "Sorry." The sister-in-law immediately said enviously: "Zijun, you are really capable...do you still have children?" "We didn't talk about it." "Oh, it's better to settle everything before marriage," she warned me. I laughed, "If the agreement is settled, you will not get married, and everything must be cut quickly." "You are an expert, you should know." Expert, I laughed out loud, Marriage expert, me. My sister-in-law was embarrassed by me. Ziqun gave me a blank look, "My sister is not happy, laughing for no reason, beware of turning into thirteen o'clock." If Tang Jing was here, she would know that ninety percent of the purpose of laughing is to cover up ugliness. I miss Tang Jing. In the middle of the night, count the clock and call her. She comes to answer the phone. I happily called, "Tang Jing." "It's Zijun?" She didn't believe it, "It's too expensive, why don't you write a letter if you have something to do?" I told her about my recent experience. "How do you feel?" I asked. "It's too expensive, it costs hundreds of yuan in phone bills." Her sharpness remained the same as before, and she gave me a trick that was wrong. "Tang Jing, what do you think?" "Zijun, with a talent like you, it's only a matter of time before you remarry. Within a certain range, you and I are as good as we can be, and we don't want to marry each other." When it comes to dating, keep everything simple, I don’t have any feelings about this matter, but you can imagine how I felt when I married Mo’s back then, you always blame me for not telling you earlier, in fact, I really think it’s not worth publicizing.” "The average woman thinks we're lucky." Tang Jing said: "But I think their conditions are extremely poor." I smile. "Are you happy?" she asked. "No, it's not happiness, but a sense of security—I'm back at the original position, and everything can be treated as if it never happened." I said: "It's like when I was young, I went to the Lunar New Year's Fair market with the adults. After the colorful lights, I was suddenly separated from the adults. I was confused and frightened, but I was finally claimed by them and took them home. What happened during the process is no longer important. It is a terrible thing to get lost. No matter how colorful the venue is, how can you spend your whole life wandering around. I don’t care, as long as I go back to the dry land and live my life safely, I am no longer demanding. Happiness is too complicated. I dare not say that I am not happy." I choked up, "Do you understand?" Tang Jing was silent for a while, "You think too much, Zijun." "In the past few years, I have had a lot of free time, and I am very self-inflated." "You should be happy, it's not easy to find a match." "And you?" "With a big belly, I am very tired. I know that being a human being is nothing more than this, but I still have to have a child. I feel guilty and mentally miserable." She laughed loudly. I am silent. "It's time to hang up." We say goodbye. Even if you are a wedding expert, you have to take care of the details, at least buy a more reasonable and tidy dress.I had nowhere to go, so I had to run to make a cheongsam. The cheongsam is really the Chinese women’s Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva. It is suitable for any occasion. You let me wear a white gauze and a short-sleeved white dress like Gu Lingling. I really don't have the courage to remarry. It doesn't matter if other people's flesh is sour, I can say that they are jealous. I visited Zhai Jun’s house in Hong Kong, and found it spacious and ideally clean, semi-new and old, with simple and subtle decoration, without any frivolous things at all. An hourly maid tidied up the sundries. I am very satisfied, and I can live in it with a toothbrush. Now I have no principles at all, my personality is very flexible, I can bend and stretch, as long as my self-esteem is not violated, everything is negotiable. We decided to travel and get married. When trying on the new clothes, Zhai Jun was pleasantly surprised: "What a beautiful cheongsam!" he said. Recalling the haste, ostentation, confusion, boredom, and excitement of the life of Juan, now I can feel peaceful and warm. Zhang Yunxin's friend Xiao Cai said: Everyone should get married twice.Once at a very young age and another at middle age.If you don’t get married once when you are young, you will not learn to be good when you are middle-aged. There is no happy marriage without hard work, he said, so we must gain experience. Of course he was joking, but besides exaggeration, there is also truth. Juansheng wanted to give me a wedding present, which embarrassed me. I am not a trendy person, I cannot accept this kind of generosity. Juansheng suddenly said: "What's the matter? Do you know? When Deborah married Xie Xian, He sent a set of silverware worth more than 10,000 yuan, and went to Lane Crawford to pick it up again and again." He was confident. I was both annoyed and funny, this kind of gossip in the film and television industry, he got it from Gu Lingling, and now Dr. Shi Juansheng's eyesight is wide open, and his conversation is no longer what it used to be. "Really? So do you plan to go to Lane Crawford to pick out gifts for me?" But he said, "Zijun, if you can get married again, a big stone will be put down in my heart." "Yes." I smiled knowingly, "To prevent the alimony from getting more and more expensive." "That's not what I meant." He was displeased, "Why make such a joke." "Yes, I'm very lucky. I'm only twenty-two years old this year, so I should be satisfied to marry such a person." "I heard that he is a talent." "yes." "Compared to me—how?" Juansheng suddenly asked childishly. "Better than you." I replied bluntly. "It's natural for you to say that now." He was greatly stimulated. "I'm fair. He has a stronger character than you, and he knows what he's doing, and you never do." He is silent. After a while he asked, "You love him?" "There are many kinds of love, naturally, naturally I love him." Juanchang sighed, "Ping'er wants to see you. Also, I have reported your... news to An'er, and she is very happy for you." "Thank you sir." I said. "You are really in a good mood." "Don't say that, people must be content, now I have everything, as if I can cheer up and move forward." He was speechless, if I were him, I would not speak anymore, it was he who punched me in the face, made me bruised and swollen, and fell bloody in the mud, but I stood up and struggled Rinse it off, put on new clothes, live thick-skinned, and wait until today's opportunity. I didn't show off my "achievement" today to him, revenge?The best revenge is not hatred, but indifference from the bottom of your heart, why bother to hate someone who has nothing to do with you, there is no need to mention the past. The strange thing is that when Shi Juansheng saw that I didn't miss the old bad things, he would often hold me and chat with me, treating me as an old friend.He really believes that I don't hold grudges, always dull? The conversation with Ping'er made me sad. "Papa said you were getting married, Mama." His clear eyes stared at me as if he wanted to see through my heart. In the past two years, he has grown a lot taller, and he is no longer a child who can be hugged in his arms. I said: "Yes." "You said, mother, that you would not marry." "Yes." I was a little ashamed, I really shouldn't have said it to death at that time, anything can happen. "Why did you get married again?" I couldn't answer, so I broke my heart, treated him as an adult, and said what I wanted to say: "Because he is a very good person, so I decided to marry him." Ping'er nodded: "Marrying him, will you be happier than now?" "yes." I think Ping'er's question is extremely reasonable, and it is more precise and direct than the words of several adults (mother, sister-in-law, Juansheng). "Will he treat you well?" Ping'er asked again. "Yes." I was touched. His nose was sore, tears welled up in his eyes, and he caught them with a handkerchief. "Then you will be less lonely." Ping'er said. I choked up with surprise, "You—you know that mom is lonely?" "I guess so." Ping'er said, "You often sit alone, not saying anything, and not smiling." "I thought you didn't love mom anymore." Tears welled up from my eyes. I really didn't expect the child to secretly pay attention to my behavior. "Will I see him?" Ping'er asked. "No, there's no need." I said. "Grandma was upset," he said, "but my sister wrote to me and she said we should be happy for Mom." I burst into tears even more.Terrible, no matter what you do, you can't stop it. Then Ping'er suddenly took the cloth handkerchief from my hand and wiped my tears.This big-headed treasure has grown up and knows how to comfort his mother!Not long ago, he went to kindergarten every day, and he still wanted me to pull him out of bed, pat Xiangxiang’s face and tell stories before he would go to school, but today he actually wiped away my tears for me. Peace and safety are my lifelong achievements. I cried until evening, my eyes swollen like walnuts.Zhai Jun has always been humorous, and when he saw it, he said: "Don't ask, the dust must have blown into your eyes." As soon as we got on the plane, we buried our heads in a deep sleep as soon as we found our seats.In a daze, I felt that Zhai Jun gently pulled the felt and covered me. My heart felt warm for a while, as most husbands would serve their wives in this way, I fell asleep peacefully without a single dream. When I woke up, the stewardess was delivering orange juice. I gestured to her not to wake up Jun Zhai, and she left knowingly. I smiled to myself, stretched my sore waist, and admired the platinum wedding rings on my left and right ring fingers. I couldn't believe how lucky I was to end the first half of my life so ideally.As for the rest of my life... who would be interested, every old lady's life is pretty much the same. (full text)