Chapter 9 The third last rose (2)

When the doorbell rang, another guest arrived. Mrs. Huang introduced to us, "In fact, you have already met, this is Pu Jiamin." Pu Jiamin is so handsome that I don't know which movie star he looks like, with a personable demeanor.He frowned, and walked over with something on his mind, his eyes stayed on Taichu like last time, and then stayed there. I was uncomfortable at the beginning, so don't turn your face away. The relatives and friends of the Huang family were all like people in fairy tales. I sighed, God treated them too kindly, with wealth, appearance, and content. No wonder my father-in-law became a stranger from outside and was excluded.

And Taichu, Taichu is definitely a member of the Huang family. She has never been to Europe, and has lived with a poor father for more than ten years, but her temperament has not changed, and her face has an arrogant and pure color, which makes her in the world. In this case, there is no shame. "Where are the roses?"Mrs. Huang asked, "Have you come out yet?" Huang Zhenhua said, "Jia Min, come over and have a glass of whiskey." Mrs. Huang asked again: "Is the meal ready soon? I heard that this chef is newly hired. How is his skill?" Pu Jiamin was very preoccupied, kept silent, and drank mulled wine.

Everyone quickly fell silent. Sir Luo said to Tai Chu: "I know there is a misunderstanding between you and your mother, can you allow her to explain?" A cough came from behind us, "Sorry for keeping everyone waiting." I was the first to turn around, and saw a woman standing at the end of the corridor walking over gracefully, in a hurry. I was stunned. She didn't have any manners, and she didn't dress up much. She still looked nervous and held her hands. This woman is not young, she wears a very ordinary black dress, the only feature is a belt with jade. But her beauty is indescribable!Her face was soft and crystal-clear, her eyes were as profound as black jade, her figure was slender and slender, and she seemed to have stepped out of a painting of a beautiful lady. Is she the mother of the beginning?

I didn't believe that there are beautiful women in the world.The beauty in the beginning only made me feel warm and comfortable, but the beauty of this woman is soul-stirring and I cannot control myself.I suddenly felt a kind of fear and couldn't speak. But she was more nervous than us. She didn't rush to embrace and cry bitterly like the woman who was separated from her daughter in the novel. She just stammered and asked, "Is it Taichu? Is it Tanghua?" She was as shy as a young girl , but there is no trace of affectation in the voice, it is the most natural and pure.

I could see the initial animosity that had built up over the past fifteen years dissolve in that instant. "It must be mother." Tai Chu said gently. "Yes, yes." Her mother calmed down slightly. Sir Luo came over and said, "Let's sit down and talk slowly." In the beginning, she never went to hug her mother. She called her mother "Mrs. Luo".It is true that she is Mrs. Luo to the letter, but after Jia Baoyu, few people call their mother "wife". It was beyond my expectation that she was so ingenious in the beginning. This is the first time I have encountered such a dramatic situation in my life. I don’t know how, but I can handle it with ease. It must be because of Taichu. At the same time, I also realized for the first time that Taichu has a mountain collapse in front of me and remains unmoved. ability.

I underestimated this chick. After dinner we drank tea and chatted. Mrs. Luo said: "You said that in the beginning it looked like me..." Taichu hurriedly said, "How dare I look like a wife!" Good guy, the abbreviation of "Mrs. Luo" has changed to "Mrs.", "It's not half as good." Huang Zhenhua said: "I think it's true that the mother is not half as good as the daughter. Look at how calm and wise Taichu is? You are only twenty years old. Your mother has been like a cloud all her life." "Madam" didn't make any distinctions, and smiled kindly.

I can't believe my eyes, is she my mother-in-law?She looked as straightforward as the big sister in the beginning, and she motioned me to approach the corner of the long window to talk. She gently said to me: "You and Tai Chu plan to get married next year, right?" "Yes." "I don't approve of early marriage for girls," she said very gently, "because I myself failed in early marriage, and I am wary, but I believe you will be happy. Tanghua, because you are an outstanding man, I don't know how to date, but My elder brother Zhenhua praised you, he can't be wrong." Her tone was so weak and dependent, I noticed it right away.

The gentle art of women has long been lost today, a little accommodation, we as men should be grateful to God, the ability of women in this era to charge is definitely superior to ours, they are just as tough as us, fighting with real knives and guns to fight to the death , the fact is not allowed. Our generation has never been able to enjoy this kind of enjoyment, but in Mrs. Luo, I understand how lovely and moving a woman is with a feminine charm. She suddenly became sad, "But what qualifications do I have to be the mother in the beginning? What qualifications do I have to speak? I am not worthy?"

My father-in-law described her as a gaudy, vain, hot-blooded woman, which is not true.He and she are people in two worlds. She deserves the current man, a man who is wholehearted, capable and qualified to take care of her. I dare not say that my father-in-law was wrong, the whole thing is a tragedy. "Will you take good care of Taichu?" she asked. "I will." I hesitated a little, "but we can't stay in Hong Kong for a long time." "I dare not ask you to accompany me," she said sadly, "but my brother said you'd better stay in Hong Kong."

I nodded, I understand that with my profession, following Huang Zhenhua, who is good at dancing, and with Sir Luo's relationship, it will not be difficult to become the second Huang Zhenhua in a few years. I turned my head and found that Pu Jiamin was chatting with Taichu, Taichu's expression was serious, so I can tell that there must be something in the conversation. I couldn't help but ask, "Who is that handsome man?" She replied: "Oh, that's Pu Jiamin, an old friend of our family, in the future, I'll tell you." Mrs. Huang came over and asked, "I'm very nervous, mother-in-law sees son-in-law." She smiled.

"I can't believe it, my daughter is ready to get married." Mrs. Luo replied with a sigh. "In your life, Rose, there have been legends and legends. Someone should write a novel called Rose's Legend." Mrs. Huang laughed. "I'm still a rose," she said, "it's shameless for an old woman to bear such a name. It was the rose in the beginning." But she is still so beautiful, the delicate and sharp chin refuses to deform at all, the fine lines at the corners of the eyes are just a kind of style, at the age of forty, she is the last dark rose in summer, it is about to wither, Deep yellow stamens bloomed from the petals, and there was a flashing mole of tears in the corner of her eyes. When I got home that day, I couldn't sleep. Taichu and I sat on the patio all night talking about her mother. "She is so beautiful," Taichu sighed, "beautiful beyond my imagination, and she is forty years old, can you imagine her at twenty or thirty?" "Of course I know." I said, "Upside down all living beings." "That's right," she said. "Her terrifying beauty is really... how can a person be so beautiful? I thought my aunt was good-looking, but compared to her, it's nothing like that." .Oh, it's beyond my imagination, I'm dizzy." "The most unbearable thing is that she doesn't realize her beauty, woohoo, so her beauty has increased by 30%. Have you ever noticed that she has no confidence when she walks, is helpless, and is often tripped by the corner of the carpet?" "Yes." Taichu lowered his head. "The original mole at the corner of your eye looks exactly like your mother's mole?" I asked. "I understand now, my father asked me to go to the hospital to have the mole removed, because he didn't want me to look too much like my mother." Tai Chu touched the corner of his eyes. "Your poor father," I said. "How can I comfort him in the future, I can no longer help him hate Mrs. Luo." "That man named Pu Jiamin, what did he tell you?" "He said I looked like Mrs. Luo." "It's more than that." "He told me why Mrs. Luo left me alone." "He is an outsider, how does he know?" "Because Mrs. Luo abandoned me for his brother." "Who is his brother?" "died." "I did not understand." "It's a very simple story: two couples had a divorce, and they were deadlocked over the custody of the child. The woman had a relationship with a lawyer who was suffering from cancer. For the remaining three months, she gave up her daughter and divorced to go to the dying man. people." "The woman is Mrs. Luo?" I asked in shock, "Is the man Pu Jiamin's elder brother?" "The former Mrs. Luo." Tai Chu nodded. "Oh, so soul-stirring?" I said, "Story like this still exists?" "Yes. My father never told me." Taichu said, "Pu Jiamin told me that later my father took revenge and refused to let Mrs. Luo see me. He could have sued me in court, but Mrs. Luo was afraid that the child would be irritated." I wouldn't believe these words at first, but for some reason, when I saw Mrs. Luo, I believed them without reservation." "Are you angry with your father?" "No, no, I forgive him. If you get and lose a woman like Mrs. Luo, your life will be over." A person's life is actually so fragile and short. I asked, "What else did Pu Jiamin tell you?" "He said he has six children." Tai Chu smiled, "Four boys and two girls." "My God!" I also laughed, "So many children." "Yeah, it's not popular to have so many babies now. He said that one of the daughters was twins and lost the budget. It can be seen that he originally planned to have five. It is really a big family, but he said that the two of them originally planned to have nine. This one was stopped after the doctor dissuaded it. Mr. Pu said that his eldest brother’s wish was to have more children and nephews.” I was dumbfounded, and after a while I said: "The elder brother of Mr. Pu must be a transcendent figure." "Mr. Pu said that his elder brother is really a perfect person." I was displeased, "It's all right if you trust Mrs. Luo, why do you trust strangers too?" Taichu said awkwardly, "I didn't expect Mrs. Luo to have so many boyfriends." "Do you want to learn from her?" "When did I say that?" Taichu narrowed his eyes. I surrender immediately. "The birds are out," she said, "and it's daylight." "What kind of bird is in the downtown? Those are the two starlings raised next door." I said. "Brother Tang, I still think San Jose is better. The life there is so peaceful and peaceful. I can't handle the complexity here." "Yes, I also like an ordinary life, we will go back soon." "My son is aiming everywhere. You don't know. If you go back to San Jose to find a job, you will only be slightly better than my father in your life. Will you be satisfied? Or just start fighting in Hong Kong now, and get bored after three to five years. , back to San Jose to rest." I have a trace of fear, and Taichu fully sees the meaning in my heart. "Brother Tang, I know you very well. You are an ambitious person, no more than your father. If you want to stay, don't waste your time for me. I will go back to study and live with my father." I said, "I don't want to listen to this kind of talk, I don't want to listen to it." Too early to laugh. "I'll go back with you and talk about it." "Whatever you want, I'm going to bed, tell my mother, I won't go to the market today." At the beginning, she called my mother "Mom", and her own mother was "Mrs. Luo", and I really obeyed. Mom arranged for breakfast to come out, and I ate it alone. I told her Nagisa was in bed.Her old man loves Taichu deeply and will not take offense. But Taichu was determined to return to the United States. She set me free, but what kind of freedom would that freedom be without her in my life? horrible. Afterwards, the Huang family invited us to a series of banquets, all of which were rejected by Taichu.She is still the same, doing her Fang Taichu - a female student who came to Hong Kong for vacation.She is not interested in things like getting promoted and getting rich. She is really a real artist. In the early days, she was very fond of her aunt, and she was willing to have tea with her aunt. Mrs. Huang is not Huang Zhenhua's lobbyist. She just said succinctly: "People in Hong Kong, regardless of gender, want to climb up. It's rare for the two of you to get out of the mud." I took a sip of tea and said with a smile: "Climb up? Where are you going? People don't necessarily make progress that much. Their goal is to make money. Auntie, forgive me." Mrs. Huang said, "You are quite right." Taichu said: "It's useless for me to ask for money, I have everything." She glanced at me, "I don't know what he thinks about prosperity and wealth?" I laughed, "When you get close to vermilion, you get red; when you get close to ink, you get black. My opinion is the same as yours." Tai Chu rolled his eyes at me, "It's really shameless, Auntie, don't believe his words, this is his usual trick, there is no sincerity at all, saying it is nothing." I threatened her: "You don't slander me in front of your aunt, and you can't serve you when you go home." "Auntie, listen to what this is." Mrs. Huang sighed, "This is a flirtatious joke." Taichu's face suddenly turned red. Her aunt smiled and said, "You two are very good. You are really a couple. I am very happy for you." Taichu said: "You may not get any benefits from living with this kind of person." She glanced at me, "But without him, life is boring, and I don't know how to live." "Each each other." "You will come back when you get married," said the aunt. "Know." "When will you get married?" "Next year," I said, "I plan to go back and look for a job. After half a year, I have a little savings and I can get married. At least I need to find an apartment, buy a suit, and go to Europe once." I winked at Taichu. Mrs. Huang nodded slightly. "I'm poor," I shrugged. "It was hard at first, but when she has a baby in the future, she will have to draw while breastfeeding." Tai Chu said: "If you say such things again, I will force you to return to Hong Kong to make a living." "Afraid," I immediately raised my hand in surrender, "Don't do it." I have been fooling around with my favorite in the beginning. "Have you decided to go back?" her aunt asked. Tai Chu said: "Yes, Brother Tang also agrees." Mrs. Huang said with a smile, "I'm afraid your uncle will be disappointed." Huang Zhenhua was indeed disappointed.He made a lot of complaints that I was wasting my time—not laying the groundwork for my career when I was young, and regretting it when I was old. "So what if you think you are a professional?" He said, "Everyone is divided into nines. If you go to the United States to work, you can save less than a watch in ten years." He sighed. Mrs. Huang touched his elbow, "Everyone has his own ambition, Zhenhua." I kept silent, what Huang Zhenhua said was natural and reasonable, it's not that I don't know, this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me, I just don't want to part with the beginning. "Didn't Pu Jiamin think that he could go to Canada to live incognito? Three years later, he became bored and moved back to Hong Kong. Let me tell you, Hong Kong is an addictive place to live in, so it's natural." otherwise, why are so many people crowded here?" "Go and come back." Mrs. Huang said. Huang Zhenhua said: "Tanghua, I will not serve you badly. If you persuade Taichu to come back, I will prepare a contract for you. The starting salary is 300,000 a year. I will lend you money to buy a house and start a family." He patted my Shoulder……" We got on the plane anyway.I was very silent during the journey, I was thinking about the conditions Huang Zhenhua gave me. If it wasn't for Taichu, he wouldn't have treated me so well—I just graduated, and I'm not sure about my skills, I don't have outstanding talents, and I don't speak very well, worth 300,000 yuan? Taichu said: "You have something on your mind." I do not deny. She said softly, "I know what you're thinking?" I hold her hand tightly. "We don't rely on others," she said. "We rely on ourselves. There is no need to rely on others." "Yes." I said. Mr. Fang was waiting for us at the airport. He shaved his head and put on a new shirt. The shirt had just been unpacked and put on, and there were creases. His strength was lost. Ancestor's love for her father was boundless, and she went up to hug him. Old Fang smiled foolishly, "You are back." I hugged him too. He Duanyang Taichu, "You are more beautiful, why, have you seen your mother?" Startled, she looked at me. "Yes." I replied, "I see you." Elder Fang said: "I knew they had a way, and they are really powerful." He asked Tai Chu, "What do you think of her?" "It's beautiful." Tai Chu said, "Father, where shall we have dinner?" She didn't want to say more. I understand how she feels. Old Mr. Fang fell silent, his back was bent, his hair was grizzled, and his expression was languid again. I sympathetically supported him. We had a rather rich dinner, and then Taichu said that I was tired and wanted to go back to the dormitory. I sent her back, and then Mr. Fang. He invited me to sit in his apartment. I felt tired, but I agreed. He took out the wine, poured himself a glass and drank it himself.I knew he wanted to say a few words to me. Elder Fang asked me: "Mother in the early days, how is she?" I said, "Very good." Poor man. "Is she still so beautiful?" he asked quietly. "Yes." I said. "Rose..." He was lost in thought, with a smile on the corner of his mouth, thinking that he remembered the sweet past, with a dazed expression, and his thoughts flew far away.The poor man. "Dad," I pressed his hand, "don't think too much." He told me: "Tang Hua, I really shouldn't hate her, she gave me the best days of my life." "Yes, Dad, I understand what you mean." I felt unspeakably sad. "Why does she have to be with me for the rest of my life? Tell me, what reason does she have for me for the rest of my life? During the ten years she spent with me, I only need to put on my clothes to go to work every day, and I don't have to worry about anything. All the sundries in the house were spared for me and put in the clean clothes I replaced. The money was not enough, and she covered it with her own savings. The house was spotless, the food was deliciously cooked, and Little Rose was brought up by herself. I am not lucky, Tang Hua, I'm not lucky." I patted his shoulder lightly. "In those nine years and three and a half months, I lived a comfortable life that could not be compared to an emperor. Only those three thousand days I was truly alive. Now that I have figured it out, what Huang Zhenhua said is right, what else do I want? ?Many people have never lived a day," he laughed dryly, "I'm a mediocre person, I've worked hard for 20 years, but I didn't get a better chance to be promoted, people don't like me, They despise me. Before I had roses, I was not afraid, but without roses, I lost everything.” "Dad, you still have Taichu, you still have me." "Yes." There was a burst of red light on his face, "Yes, I still have you." "Dad, you should rest." I was very tired, "You should go to bed too." "Okay, okay." He still refused to let me go. I know why everyone doesn't like Mr. Fang.He never took into account the needs of others, never thought of others.When his wife was with him, he didn't have any intention of repaying him, and enjoyed the happiness in a daze. After his wife left him, he didn't do anything, and lived in a daze.Just like tonight, I've been on the plane for more than ten hours, and I'm extremely tired, but he didn't expect this, and he wished I could talk with him all night. People get irritable when they are tired, so I hurriedly said goodbye to him and drove home. After taking a shower, he fell on the bed and fell asleep immediately. In the morning I could hear the phone ringing and ringing, but I didn't have the energy to pick it up. The phone ringing finally stopped. I turned over and continued to sleep. After a while, the doorbell rang loudly, knocking on the door vigorously and hurriedly. I couldn't get out of bed to open the door.Standing outside the door was a panicked Taichu with sweat on her forehead. She pulled me and asked sharply, "Why don't you answer the phone? Dad is in the hospital!" I woke up suddenly. "Hospital?" I hurriedly grabbed my jeans and put them on, "Why? I was fine when I broke up with him last night." "He had a heart attack and fell to the ground. The landlord found out and sent him to the hospital. I have already visited him. The doctor treated him as an emergency and he was not allowed to visit. Brother Tang——Brother Tang—" she burst into tears stand up. Without saying a word, I rushed to the hospital with her. This is the moment in the beginning when I was needed the most. Her father died of a heart attack that afternoon at the age of forty-nine. Taichu cried until his eyes were red and swollen, heartbroken. I will report the news to Hong Kong.Telegrams and phone calls from the Huang family kept urging me to bring Taichu back to Hong Kong. But Taichu was so sad that he couldn't even speak, holding her father's relic every day to hurt his nerves. I am also very disgusted with the snobbishness of the Huang family. Now that Taichu's return to Hong Kong is a foregone conclusion, why force people to leave in a hurry?Her father's bones are still cold. In the early days, the whole person lost weight, slept badly at night, and ate less during the day. She felt guilty for not spending more time with her father during his lifetime. Forty-nine years old.In any case, everyone has to admit that this man died at a young age, but when Mr. Fang was alive, he looked like a fifty-nine-year-old man, both in appearance and in heart. He is long dead. He died the day his wife left him. The first lobbyist sent by the Huang family was Pu Jiamin. Pu Jiamin has a great relationship with the Huang family, I know that. I have no dislike for Pu, he is gentle and polite, handsome and romantic, and his attitude is good. When he came to us, he explained his purpose, and then sat in the living room as a lobbyist.Obviously he didn't know what happened, but he had no choice but to come and sit down because of his loyalty. He told me, "Mrs. Luo asked me to come... She told Taichu not to be too sad." Taichu asked, "Why didn't she come by herself?" "It's... not convenient for her to come." "I know," Taichu said with tears, "she despises him, she despises him! But he is dead." "No, no, no," Pu Jiamin argued, "There is no such thing. In the beginning, she was not such a person. You misunderstood. She was coming, but she was afraid that you would not welcome her. She waited for news from you every day, and you didn't." Call her." Fu Jiamin said: "Ms. Luo's temper is like this. The past is over. It's not unkind. She has always had the same attitude towards Fang Xiewen and Pu Jiaming. You can't misunderstand her. In the beginning, especially you can not." I sigh. This Pu Jiamin is a talented person, but sometimes he can't talk clearly, like a girl in love. Taichu sent him away, "Please go back, I will leave when I can." He stared at Tai Chu, "I'm here to accompany you." His voice was very soft.I couldn't help getting angry, "I'm here." "It doesn't matter if there are more than one person, the funeral has not yet been held, and there are more than one helper," he said. After hesitating at first, she finally nodded. I feel that Pu Jiamin has special feelings for Taichu, maybe because of her mother, she loves the house and the black.However, he is too selfless and hateful. "I'm staying at the Sheraton Hotel," he said. "You can call me anytime." I said, "Anyway, you always report here at nine o'clock every morning." Pu Jiamin ignored the sarcasm in my tone, he said softly to Taichu: "I understand your feelings, when my elder brother passed away, I only had one feeling: I wish I could go with him." When Da Chu heard this, if he met a confidant, he looked up at him. He continued mockingly, "It's good to be able to follow. This will save decades of troubles." I was stunned. People like him also have troubles. Ninety percent of the people in the world should buy a rope to kill themselves. "But I survived," Pu Jiamin said. Pu Jiamin said: "To live healthily and happily is to repay your father's kindness in nurturing you. Think about it, if he knows that you are so sad, negative, and lack of energy, what will he do?" He can really talk, with that mouth, even the birds on the tree can be tricked down? Sure enough, Taichu was refreshed and listened intently. "I'll see you every day," he said, "you have to take care of your health." "Yes yes yes." Taichu said gratefully. He patted her hand. I have a sense of foreboding. I asked Pu Jiamin: "Is Mrs. Pu not here?" He smiled, "She has to take care of the child." Taichu asked: "How many children does Mr. Pu have?" Minded to meddle in other people's business, it can be seen that he is in a better mood, and Pu Jiamin's frivolous words on the scene had a miraculous effect. He replied: "Currently six children, four boys and two girls." Taichu opened his eyes wide, "So many!" "A lot? Not many. Our previous generation had five or six children. Children have the right to live and don't have to worry about their future. Today's parents are only willing to have one or two for their own freedom and evasion of responsibility..." "The population is too crowded." Taichu said. I didn't interrupt because I thought it would be good to give Tai Chu a chance to talk easily. "Of course, I'm just saying: Parents who are eligible to have children can have more children," he bowed, "I don't mean everyone, there is always room for smart people in the world." It's too arrogant. Taichu asked: "Does Mr. Pu think he is a smart person?" Good question. Pu Jiamin smiled, "I wasted my whole life for being smart." Confused at first. I coughed, "How about a cup of coffee?" Tai Chu did not answer, he answered first: "I want a cup of black coffee." How can this be reasonable, he treats me as a servant?Is it a young man? Taichu said, "I'll make it." She and I squeezed into the small kitchen to make espresso. Taichu taught me: "Why are you being rude to him?" "Who is he? Why should I be polite to him?" "It's not like that." I sneered, "I only know how my father-in-law feels now, but I am stronger than him, and I will fight to the end." "What are you talking about? Crazy!" Tai Chu gave me a blank look. Pu Jiamin probed in, "Can I help?" "It's none of your business here!" I suddenly showed dissatisfaction. He was startled, and gave me a white look.She brings out the coffee. "I want to take some photos of Little Rose another day," Pu Jiamin said, "Ms. Luo always wants photos of Little Rose. It's the first time I saw you, and you're only half a tiny bit old." He looked at Taichu, " But that day I met you outside the hotel, I was really confused, I thought you were Mrs. Luo, but why is Mrs. Luo so young?" His voice was indeed a little confused. Taichu asked, "Is it really that similar?" "If you have multiple moles under the corners of your eyes, it's more like that." Tai Chu touched the small scar at the corner of his eye. They made an appointment to take pictures on Saturday. I knew that I should follow them to take pictures, but out of a kind of pride, I didn't do it.The most important thing between men and women is the word "belief". If I don't believe in Taichu, we will not be optimistic in this period.There are only those who have been thieves for thousands of years, how can there be those who have been against thieves for thousands of years.Although the words are so beautiful, I don't feel the taste in my heart. This gentle and elegant middle-aged man made me overturn the Wuweijia. I really have a special feeling in my heart. He alone was enough trouble, and within a week, her aunt also arrived in the beginning. No matter how lovely Mrs. Huang is, I am not angry. I said: "At the beginning, I knew that your natal family would be bothersome, so it's another matter between the two of us." After I said it, I was afraid that she would respond to me casually: It is too late to say something else, so I looked at her with trepidation. Taichu naturally knew what was on my mind, how could she not know, this smart and exquisite girl!She looked at me angrily and amusedly, but let me go without answering, oh, lovely Taichu. On the day of the funeral, Taichu's aunt wore a black dress, held a bouquet of flowers in her hand, and stood beside her in a dignified and solemn manner.At the beginning, Taichu complained that her mother didn't show up, but later she cried when she saw the coffin. The pastor read Psalm 23 in a dull and professional tone: "The Lord is my pastoral voice, my heart will not lack..." Pu Jiamin took out a handkerchief and wanted to hand it to Taichu, I deliberately stepped forward, pushed him away, and put my hand on Taichu's shoulder. "...Though I pass through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall not be afraid; your rod and your staff lead me..." After the ceremony, we sprinkled the soil and flowers, Taichu fell on my shoulders and wept. Mrs. Huang accompanied us home without saying anything. Going to bed at the beginning of the night, Pu Jiamin went back to the hotel, and Mrs. Huang and I were left alone. I made coffee and drank with her. She said: "You don't have to worry about Pu Jiamin." I blushed immediately, this discerning lady. She continued, "Jiamin's expression is a little dazed, he's a little confused," Mrs. Huang's tone was very emotional, "He told me: he thought Little Rose was a rose." "It's not like her mother at first." I protested. "You don't like Mrs. Luo?" Mrs. Huang said. I am silent.It's not that I don't like Mrs. Luo, such a beautiful woman... "Do you think Mrs. Luo has too many men in her life?" My face is red again. "You child, what an ancient stone mountain." Mrs. Huang sighed. I said softly: "A decent person always dies." "Do you think I'm a decent person?" Mrs. Huang asked. "Naturally." I said sincerely. She smiled: "I have also been married twice." "I don't believe it!" My jaw dropped. "Can I still use this kind of thing to scare you?" She said, "Tang Hua, if things don't happen to you, you don't understand, so you don't understand, you and Taichu are too young, you only know black is black, White is white, but you don't know that there are many shades of gray between these two colors, you are too arbitrary." "In any case, Mrs. Huang, you'd better tell Pu Jiamin not to waste his efforts. Mrs. Luo and her daughter are two people." Mrs. Huang nodded, "It is true that she was a shrewd girl in the beginning, she may not be willing to pay a huge price for her feelings, thank God." "What do you mean by that? You love me very much in the beginning." "nature." "I don't understand what you said just now. Love is free, there is no price at all, and love is pleasant. Why do people think that love is life or death? It's enough to suffer if you can't sleep at night." Mrs. Huang smiled and said, "This is another new theory." "When the time is right, Tai Chu will naturally return to Hong Kong with me." "Tai Chu has promised to return to Hong Kong." "Who said that?" I jumped up. "Jia Min said." My heart was stabbed by a sharp knife, "How did he know what he said?" I asked knowingly. "Of course Taichu promised him." "When did it happen?" My hands were cold, my stomach was cramping, my forehead was sweating, and all the blood rushed to my head. "Probably a day or two." "But..." My voice whimpered a little, "but she never mentioned it to me, but..." "Tang Hua, you men all have this problem. She will have to decide what's going on with her. I'll tell you later. You don't have to be so angry." I'm not angry, I'm just hesitant. In the past, she would discuss everything with me, from sesame mung beans to cutting an inch of hair, and now she treats me as if I didn't come. This shows that I am in her To what extent has the status in my mind dropped. I have always been confident and emotionally stable, but now I have to admit that I messed up the steps. I took a breath of fresh air and tried to be as calm as possible. They want me to be chaotic, but I will not be chaotic. I don't want to follow in the footsteps of old Mr. Fang, I don't. I know Mrs. Huang can sense my stubbornness. "It was you who said just now, Tang Hua, that love should be happy. It's not about fighting, it should be about entertainment." I smiled wryly, "But I've kind of found the truth, and whatever it is, it's never easy." Mrs. Huang patted me on the back with a lot of force, comforting me one after another.Mrs. Huang is the kind of woman who makes people want to hug her. The next day, when I saw Tai Chu, I casually asked her when she would return to Hong Kong. The gas in her stomach was equivalent to 500 tons of dynamite, and she had to look indifferent. Now if anyone comes to visit me and ask me about love, I will answer with the word "bitter". Tai Chu pondered and said: "At first, I thought that my father would be lonely here alone, but now that he is gone, why should I stay here..." I reminded her: "You haven't graduated yet." "Uncle said that you can transfer to a university in Hong Kong." "Ninth stream." "Hey, brother Tang, don't you really like Hong Kong?" "I've changed my mind now." "I also agreed to my aunt because of you. I think your parents are in Hong Kong, and I can get along with them. What's more, my uncle is right. A man should seize the opportunity to start a career. One of the best places to develop is in the construction industry." It’s Hong Kong. Uncle said that there is still work to be done, and you are ready to make a move, so I agreed to do it because I thought it would be easy to do.” My anger was half gone, "Really? Is it for me?" "What's the matter with you?" she said. The general situation is over, I helped Tai Chu pack her luggage and send it back to Hong Kong for her.She is very willing to give away most of the things and throw them away. For her, the only precious thing is her own works, that large number of paintings. But suddenly my mother-in-law woke up, and even brought the large box of shells we picked up on the beach in Florida with me—if I changed my mind at the beginning, it would be good to keep these—I felt deeply sad for myself. I'm almost turning into a junk picker, wandering through the clutter, reminiscing. Once in Hong Kong, the journey of life has developed into a new stage. Everyone is no longer the same person as before. Whether the change is good or bad, no one knows.Human beings have the greatest fear of the unknown, and transformation is also an unknown. For the beginning, this unknown will not be too bad. The whole Huang family will take care of her and take care of her before it's too late, so as to make up for the shortcomings of the past ten years.And to me- As for me, their love for Taichu will distract Taichu from my attention, but if things are really that bad, I can justifiably not go back.In fact, my parents also want me to reunite with them, and I have learned my skills not to show my skills, and I am too sorry for the whole family. So we left San Jose. Taichu will live in her own small apartment, she insists on not moving into Luo Zhai.The members of the Huang family were obedient to her, so they chose a small apartment on the first floor of the new building on the mountain to decorate it for her.The first time I returned to Hong Kong in the early days, I became the owner. The house on that floor was designed by Pu Jiamin.他是个中好手，白色与米色的装修正是太初喜爱的。甚至连书桌上的笔架都准备好了，楼下两个车位内泊着一辆小房车与一辆小跑车。 衣柜一打开，里面挂着密密麻麻的四季衣裳，雕花的瓷囊挂在衣架侧，内盛于花瓣，传出草药的清香。 有钱的确好办事，但黄家为太初下的心思，又不止花钱那么简单，这一切一切加在一起，都表露了他们对太初的爱。 我浩叹，如今我势孤力单，要应付黄家谈何容易，当年罗太太一回到香港，不也就住了下来？ 太初那幢“小公寓”也还比我父母住的地方要大，三间房间打通成曲尺型的宽大睡房，一架擅香木的古董屏风内隔开了小型书房。 太初见了这阵仗便连声道谢，显然她是被感动了。我也很感动，他们对太初，确确实实是下了功夫的。 我没有进黄振华的写字楼办公。我打算考公务局的职位。 黄振华着意劝我，一番话把我说得俯首无言。 他说：“我知道，你要表示你的事业与妻子的娘家无关。诚然，气节是重要的，男子汉大丈夫不得不避这种忌讳。但是棠华，请你记住，香港是一个走在时代尖端的商业社会，你若是不值三十万年薪，任凭你是我黄振华老子，我也不会付你这个数字，我只认得才华，不认得人，你别以为三十万折了美金，即使扣了税还是笔大数目，足够你在小镇舒适地生活。告诉你，在香港，这笔薪水约莫刚刚够你一个人略为宽裕的开销，养妻活儿还谈不上。你当然希望家人过得舒服，这里的生活程度就有那么高，不信你去问问溥家敏一家八口连两个女佣人的开销是什么价钱。我们生活在一个真实的世界里，不得不顾及这些事。你放心替我做事，我要是单为亲戚颜面便拉了你进公司，我做不到今天的事业。” 我有什么理由不相信他？他骗我有什么好处？于是我顺理成章地进了黄氏建筑公司。 太初的生活因顺利而感慨良多。 她跟我说：“原来不劳而获是这么快乐的一件事，舅母连钟点女佣都替我佣好了，每星期来三次，我要什么就有什么，茶来伸手，饭来开口，而且他们又不来烦我，连太太都没有叫我去陪她或是什么的。呜，我想这种日子过久了简直大告不妙，人会变懒精的，”她笑，“舅母连香皂都买好了搁在那里，都是狄奥的，我忽然变成了千金小姐了。” “回来一个月都没跑步，昨天下楼运动，才跑半个圈，肺都险点儿炸了。唉，这便是好食懒做的结果。”太初说道。 但是这个好环境使太初有大量的机会施展她的才华，她几乎天天作画，作品改了作风，从写实转为抽象。她喜欢在露台上光线充足的地方画，日日都练习好几个小时。 在这两个月中，我内心极其矛盾，一方面庆幸她终于找到了温暖的巢窝，另一方面又担心这种转变会把我们之间的距离越拉越远。 我看到的只是前车之辙，岳父临终郁郁寡欢，他提到玫瑰的时候，那种苍白茫然的微笑，惆怅旧欢如梦的无奈。 而玫瑰住在白色的平房里，一身锦衣，仍然迷醉着每一个见过她的人。 呵，生活的悲枪才是最大的痛楚，没有任何开脱藉口的痛苦，感情受创伤的不幸人，谁不情愿爆发一场战争，有个扔炸弹的机会，杀与被杀，都落得痛痛快快，好过历久受折磨。 我当然没有到那个地步，可是有时候也在床上辗转反侧，为我与太初的前途担心。 他们正在筹备太初的画展，忙着在大会堂租场子，找广告公司设计场刊，几乎连花牌都要订下了。 我觉得分外的寂寞。 太初的社交圈子越来越广阔，一大班无聊的俊男钉在她的身边，什么牙医生、大律师、建筑师，闹哄哄的金童玉女，每周未去滑水跳舞。 我若不跟着去呢，更加幼稚地造成与她之间的裂痕，跟着去呢，闷得要死。劝太初也不要去呢，又没这个勇气。 凭什么我剥夺太初自由的乐趣？我又不是那种乡下女人，嫁了得体的丈夫，却因她本人出不了大场面，迫不及待地禁止丈夫往上爬，把他的水准扯低来迁就她的无能。 不不，我还有这份自信与骄傲，我不会把太初拘禁在我自己的环境里，所以我痛苦了。 母亲劝我，“她已经是你的人了，不如早日结婚。” 我烦恼地说：“结婚有什么用？那些男人，又不是不知道她有未婚夫，一点都不忌讳，还不是如蜜蜂见了花似的围住她，香港这个无法无天的地方，人人都不择手段。他妈的！还不是看中了太初的母亲是罗德庆爵士夫人，她舅舅是黄振华绅土，不要脸。” 母亲说：“你想他们还懂得'君子不夺人之所好'？结了婚到底好些。” “妈妈，男子汉大丈夫，要以婚书来约束爱人的心……太悲哀了，现代的女人都不肯这么低威呢。” “你若爱她，就不必争这口气，”母亲，“我与你一起上门求婚去。” “向谁求婚？” “她母亲呀。” 妈妈把家中烂铜铁都捡了出来，研究如何重镶过，变成套首饰送给太初做新娘时穿戴。 我忽然暴躁起来，“妈妈，谢谢你，别烦了，再搞也搞不过人家，人家钻石翡翠一箩筐一箩筐的呢！” 妈妈听了这话气得眼睛红了，“我管人家如何？子勿责娘亲，狗不嫌家贫！” 我立刻懊悔，“妈妈，原谅我，妈——” “你糊涂了你！咱们几时要跟人家比？太初喜欢的是你的人，咱们也不过略尽心意而已，你却这样的来损你母亲！” 她老人家气得走进卧室，半日不跟我说话。 我倒在沙发上。 沉吟半晌，我反复地思想，唉，命中有时终须有，命里无时莫强求，做人要豁达一点。 我与母亲上罗家谈论婚事，得到上宾的待遇，罗太太亲自做了点心招待我们。 母亲见了罗太太，一怔，坦白开朗地说：“罗太太，真不相信咱们是亲家，你看上去像是太初的大姐姐。” 罗太太整个脸都涨红，嗫嚅地说：“我也不知道为老不尊是个什么意思。” 母亲连忙笑道：“罗太太，我岂敢是那个意思！” 平时并不见得精明的母亲，比起罗太太，也显得能说会道，由此可见罗太大的怯弱。据黄振华说：她只有在感情的道路上百折不挠，其余世事一窍不通，是个大糊涂。 当日她穿一件白色开司米毛衣，一条黑绿丝绒长裤，戴一套翡翠首饰，皮肤是象牙白的，四十岁的女人还有这许多美丽……我呆视她。 母亲说：“罗太太，我这次来拜访你，是想谈谈咱们孩子的婚事。” “啊，他们几时结婚？”罗太太问。 母亲忍不住又笑，连她都呵护地说：“罗太太，就是这件事想请示你呀。” “我？”罗太太一怔，“本来我是不赞成太初这么早结婚的，但棠华是这么好的孩子……你们拿主意好了。” “当然要太初本人同意……太初自然是千情万愿……我是个不负责任的母亲，我能说什么呢？”她低下头。 我激动地说：“罗太太，你口口声声说自己不负责任，可是比起那些似是而非，满以为把孩子带大便是立了汗马功劳，于是诸多需索的那种母亲是胜过多多了。” 罗太太仍没有抬起头来，“当初我为了自己的快乐，而没有顾及太初的幸福……我并非后悔，但对太初我有太深的内疚。” 母亲没听懂，五十岁的母亲根本不知道在感情中翻筋斗的痛苦。 她说：“罗太太，那么我们与太初商量婚期就是了。” 罗太太说：“有了日子，记得告诉我。” “那自然。”母亲爽快地说：“罗太太，岂有不告诉之理。” 罗太太轻轻与我说：“棠华，你不放心太初？” 我脸红。 罗太太又轻轻说：“有缘分的人，总能在一起，棠华，你别太担心。”听了这样体己的话，我忽然哽咽起来。 我说：“以前我与太初天天见面，送她上学放学，现在简直如陌路人一般，轮队等她的时间，有时到她公寓坐着，也不得安宁，几百个电话打了来找她，我很彷徨……” 罗太太默默地，在想安慰话儿叫我放心。 母亲知趣地坐在一角翻阅杂志。 “此刻工作又忙，我不能分心——有时候难受得像要炸开来，巴不得娶个平凡的普通的女孩子，结了婚算数，日子久了，生下孩子，多多少少有点感情，生活得宁静不一定是不幸福。” “这真是气话……”罗太太轻轻笑，“太初怎能不爱你呢？她一切以你为重，你也太欠信心了。” 我说：“太太，你不必安慰我了。” “呵！你瞧我安慰过谁，你这孩子！” “我不是孩子，我早已大学毕业，我是个成年人。” “你这个口气，像当年的溥家敏。”她莞尔。 “谁要像溥家敏！”我赌气，“我不要像他。” “好，不像不像。”太太哄着我。 我觉得自己活脱脱地似个孩子，作不得声。 “棠华，你别多心了，活活折磨自己，又是何苦来。”罗太太的手搭在我肩膀上，手心的皮肤是滑腻的。 我在此刻也发觉太初并不像她母亲，她们是两个人，容貌上的相似并不代表什么。 我说“我要送母亲回家了。” “你时常来，这个家根本就是你们的家，你们老是对我见外，”她略带抱怨地说，“下星期我生日，你俩又好借故不来了。” “我们并不知道有这回事。”我意外。 “黄振华明明通知你们了，”她笑，“难道他忘了？” “我们一定来。”我说。 “记得振作一点。” “是。”我感激地说道。 回家途中，母亲说：“你去敲定太初，快快结婚，省得夜长梦多了。” 我心中想，但愿太初有她母亲十份之一的温柔就好了，这个女孩子的性格，掷地有金石之声。 当夜，太初在我们家吃晚饭，母亲说到我们的婚事，太初并没有推辞，我心中略为好过。 “那么现在可以着手办事，”母亲兴致勃勃，“先找房子，置家具，订酒席——” 我笑，“不必来全套吧？干脆旅行结婚好了。” 父亲问：“不请客？我怎么向人交代？” 太初掩嘴笑。 “除非媳妇倌不爱见客，”母亲悻悻然，“否则娶了这么漂亮的一个人，不叫亲友开开眼，岂非惨过锦衣夜行？棠华，这件事轮不到你开口。” “喂喂喂，”我心花怒放，“可是在这件事里，我是新郎倌呀。” 父亲问：“太初，介意吗？” “呵，我不介意，高兴还来不及呢，这样热闹一番多好。” “那么你们去旅行结婚，回来补请喜酒。”父亲说。 “可是我没钱。”我说。 “你老子我有就行%。”父亲眯起眼睛，呵呵呵笑。 我那颗悬在半空的心，又暂时纳入胸膛内。 太初还是爱我的。 母亲抽空白我一眼，仿佛在说：你多烦忧了。 父亲问：“打算什么时候去旅行？” 太初说：“春季吧，他们都说春季在欧洲是一流的美丽，现在就太冷了。” 母亲说：“依我看，不妨再早一点。” 父样打圆场道：“春天也不算迟，就这样决定吧，春天棠华有假期。” 母亲也只好点点头。 我握紧太初的手。春天，多么漫长的等待，还有一百零几天。 我说：“我着手找房子。” 送太初回家，她做咖啡给我喝。 我问：“太太下星期生日请客，你知道了吗？” "Know." “谁跟你说的？” “溥家敏。” “为什么不告诉我呢？” “我不想去，不见得你会一个人去。” “为什么不去？我好久没与你参加这种场合了。” “棠哥哥，你怎么不替我想想，这场合多尴尬——自己的母亲跟陌生男人双双出现主持大局……我受不了。” “你也太狷介了。” “是，我学了我父亲小家子气，好了吧？” “你怎么跟我吵？” “棠哥哥，你根本不了解我，人家溥家敏反而很明白……” “溥家敏溥家敏，我看最近你心中除了溥家敏，再也没有第二个人，你是我的未婚妻，你也可以替我设想一下，我听你嘴里老提着旁的男人名字，是什么滋味？” 太初气得跳起来，这时候门铃一响，太初跑去应门，门外站着的正是溥家敏。 Good boy!把这儿当他自己的家了，动不动上门来，连电话通知都没有。 我顿时火遮了眼，猪油蒙了心，眼睛睁得铜铃般大，对着他咆哮：“你敢缠住我老婆，你有完没完？溥家敏，你失心疯了！你追不到她的母亲，你阴魂不散，想来追她？我告诉你，我周棠华活着一日，你休想！” 溥家敏不理我，他转头问太初，“小玫瑰，他喝醉了？” 太初脸色铁青，她说：“周棠华，你给我走！” “你赶我走？”我嚎叫。 “你少出丑，回家清醒了，再说话。”太初如斩钉截铁般干脆。 我如万箭穿心似凄凉，指着太初说：“你，你——” 太初凉薄地问我，“你到底算文疯还是武疯？” 我一步步退出门去，溥家敏想来替我开门，我出一记左钩拳，把他打得撞在墙上，鼻子冒出鲜血，我恶毒地咒他：“杀掉你、我杀你的日子还有哩！” 我在太初的尖叫中冲下楼去。