Chapter 10 chapter Ten

He asked quietly: "Would you laugh at an old man who shed tears for no reason?" "Don't be kidding, Mr. Ma, are you still crying?" I said. The editor gave me a white look, as if blaming me for showing off my humor at the wrong moment. But the effect of my words was not bad. Mr. Ma said with a sigh of relief: "People don't shed tears when they are not sad." He loves her so much.You don't have to be a wise and powerful niche to be eligible to fall in love, everyone is equal before feelings.From the very beginning, we felt that Ma Dongsheng was the man who knew the most about feelings.I said, "I was thinking, maybe these clothes can be given to Marley?"

Ma Dongsheng nodded. He ordered the company's people to drive three 14-seater cars to remove all the clothes. "Miss Xu, I am very grateful to you. Hand over her relics to me, you will not regret it, and I will keep them well." After he left, we also went home. Both Sister Bian and I were covered with the scent of the cloakroom aromatherapy, which lingered, and the whole experience seemed as if it were real. "What will he do with those clothes?" Sister Editor asked. I said without thinking: "He will go home and make an identical room, hang up all these clothes, and then sit in the room every day, recalling the days he spent with Yao Jing."

"Would he really do that?" "Absolutely." I'm pretty sure. "He loves her so much, why can't he keep her?" Sister Bian asked. "Your parents love you too, why do you still move out? He can't satisfy her, everything is fake." "You speak so ambiguously." I smiled wryly and stopped answering. We have an important date tonight. On the way to Qu's house, Sister Bian still said to herself, "Actually, those things belong to you." "Where am I going to wear it? I'm useless at all." No one's appearance is self-contained. It must attract the attention of all human beings, and then sigh: how elegant, beautiful and tasteful.

I'm an ordinary man, and I don't need this kind of armor to dress up.How dangerous it is to be so conspicuous as a human being and become the target of public criticism. It's hard to get off at the beginning, but I don't have to worry about that, I'm not yet entitled to the pain. We turned a corner and went to pick up Shi Qi. He waited for us outside the door and was greatly relieved when he saw us. He promised us to dress in the most ordinary way, but in the end, he couldn't help but show off. He was all white, with white sneakers.His registered face made passers-by look back at him frequently.

He got into the car quietly and huddled in the back seat.His dark skin made his eyes brighter and his teeth whiter. I don't know who he is going to use his talent capital to attract this time. We arrived earlier, and Marley came to answer the door in person. She was still dressed in the homely schoolgirl style, light and beautiful, with her hair tied in a ponytail, wearing a tight-fitting skirt and flat shoes. The editor immediately said: "Do you remember this outfit?" I immediately thought of Yao Jing's most popular dress when she first entered the film industry that I had seen in old pictorials.Marley really looks like her mother, while Shi Qi is in a daze.

We introduced Shi Qi to her. Marley was very friendly to us, but he was very ordinary to Shi Qi. She didn't recognize him. Shi Qi wasted his efforts in vain, I blinked at him in my busy schedule. "Mom and Dad will be down soon, let's sit on the terrace first." Marley greeted us. The Qu family knew it was a good family at a glance. The living room was clean and generous, with a small rosewood mirror frame hanging on it, which read: Christ is the Lord of my house.The atmosphere is soft and kind, which makes the guests feel relieved. The terrace is huge, and there are a few old Chinese-style rattan chairs, which have been washed red and ripe, and are very comfortable. The buttocks are slightly recessed, so I sat down honestly.

The three of us left Shi Qi in the living room. "Aunt Xu," Marley said to me, "Do you know what Daddy asked me to see just now?" She had an incredulous look on her face. "I know, clothes." "Hey! He said it was left by my biological mother, and asked me if I liked it." I asked, "Do you like it?" "Huh—" She tightened her nose, which surprised us a lot. "Why, what's your opinion?" I was taken aback. "Those clothes are not for people!" said Marley. "It looks like she is in a masquerade every day, or like a luxurious circus uniform. It's strange that she has a room full of clothes like that." live.

This is the generation gap.With a difference of more than ten years, our bear's paw has become Marley's arsenic.This is something we never dreamed of beforehand. "Aunt Xu, have you noticed that those clothes are made of toffee paper, red, green and green, rusty and brittle, and they can't be washed at all." Marley said: "How can the clothes not be washed? How dirty! Every piece is stained with a different perfume." My sister and I looked at Marley in a daze, 100% at a loss for words. "What," said Marley, slightly disturbed, "did I say something wrong? Did I do something wrong?"

"No no." Marley waited for me to finish talking, and I was exhausted. Different environments breed different races. I think Yao Jing discovered that although Marley looks the same as her in appearance, she is not the slightest bit similar to her in character. Her daughter doesn't care about what she pursues at all. So she couldn't give Marley anything. Marley wouldn't take it. I totally get it. I understand how she would give everything to strangers. Marley said tentatively, "I can't possibly use those clothes, can I?" "You're right," sister editor said, "it doesn't matter, your father will have to keep them."

Marley was relieved to hear that. She turned her head and said loudly, "Mom and Dad have come down." The Qu couple are first-class good citizens, gentle and refined, they have been married for ten years and have no children, so they gladly adopt Marley. Mrs. Qu is actually Marley's real aunt. Marley is at home with his adoptive parents and has no regrets. Marley introduced us, and we were busy introducing Shi Qi. Mrs. Qu was very polite and kept saying, "Marley, don't you recognize this big star? You can see it on TV every day." Marley smiled politely, but the blank look in her eyes proved that she didn't know who the big star was at all, and it didn't matter whether she recognized Shi Qi's identity or not.

When He Shiqi met his nemesis, he couldn't use his charm.I was secretly thankful, otherwise this kid would have made many troubles. The astonishment that Shi Qi suffered made his lively and sparkling personality far inferior. He really kept his promise, he just sat in a corner and didn't say a word. We were just about to sit down for dinner when the doorbell rang, and Marley immediately went to open the door, with the pony tail shaking, infinitely coquettish. "It's Lawrence," Marley cheered. This is the real man, she came in holding his arm. It's a comparison. Lawrence is about the same age as Shi Qi, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, but he has a bookish look, a delicate, shy and restrained innocence, and compares Shi Qi to a quack, and his gray khaki pants are heavy. It's really beautiful, and the old-fashioned white shirt matches his status. Shi Qi looks like...that is, like a TV star, who can open his mouth to sing when he takes the microphone on stage at any time. You can see where a person's time is spent. On the other side, Lawrence and Marley went to the study to have a heart-to-heart talk after a quick bowl of soup. Mrs. Qu shook her head, "This child is rude." "Girls' feelings are always like poetry." I said with a smile. Shi Qi lowered his head and drank the soup without making a sound. In fact, he doesn't have to be sad, there are still fans, the kind of little girls who are thirteen or fourteen years old and still in junior high school.Marley, who went to university and plans to pursue a master's degree, is naturally not one of them. Even if there are idols, they are also writers and painters. We finished the light and delicious dishes, and the servants brought fruit. Marley sent Lawrence away. She clapped her hands over and picked strawberries from the plate to eat. Mrs. Qu said with a smile: "I spoiled her, she is shameful." Marley just laughed. The happiness and contentment on this girl's face seemed to be dripping out. Sister Editor said softly: "Who said there are no happy people in the world? If any poet or philosopher complains again, introduce Cheng Mali to him." "It's beautiful," I said, "Marley is beautiful." Mrs. Qu said, "Where is it?" Because there is no unsatisfied resentment in Marley, her brows and eyes are cheerful and happy. So Marley is the most beautiful girl we've ever seen. After dinner we had to say good-bye, and were kept by Marley. She dragged us into the room, and poor Shi Qi became a supporting role talking with his aunt all night. Marley asked us, "Who's that guy?" I smiled: "Did you say Shi Qi?" Are you finally interested in him? "What a strange person, with a few locks of hair deliberately brushed down, hanging on the forehead, cut in a fashionable style, but only formal, without spirit, and the white clothes and trousers, wow, just missing a sailor hat —” She bent down laughing. My sister and I looked at each other again. I was a little discouraged and felt desolate. What happened? How far has the times progressed now?Why does this girl Marley find things so old-fashioned and ridiculous that we think they are novel and beautiful? Are our lives too comfortable, too conformist, out of touch with the times? I really have to devote myself to society and do something, otherwise how can I grow old like this? I was silent and speechless. Marley asked, "Don't you think he's funny?" I quickly said: "Don't say it in front of him." Otherwise, he will really take poison. Marley smiled: "Aunt Liang, Aunt Xu, do you think Lawrence is much better than him?" People in love are like this, hoping that others praise their lover is happier than hearing others praise themselves. I was sensible enough to say immediately, "Of course, Marley, Lawrence is a good match for you." She was very proud, looking up at her delicate chin. Marley was lucky enough to fall in love with the one she was supposed to love, and just for once, I forgave Old Man Moon, and he finally did a good thing.The other cases he handled were appalling. I made fun of Marley, "I really can't see you being so happy. Logically speaking, you should live in a poor family and be a miserable child who lost his mother's love." Marley shrugged and smiled. If it is not done well, she will not love Lawrence but Shi Qi, and she will suffer a lot.It's unbelievable that she can seek good luck and avoid bad luck. What else do we have to say. "Marley, we wish you happiness." Marley smiled confidently: "That's for sure." The editor said: "Great, don't forget to keep in touch." The three of us held hands, and Marley liked us as much as we liked her. She walks us out of the living room. Mrs. Qu admired Shi Qi very much, and said frequently: "It turns out that the bigger the star, the less pretentious. Now I understand." We say goodbye. On the way home, sister editor and I expressed a lot of emotion: "Under such youth, how can we not bow our heads", "Marley probably hasn't been sad in his life", "Yao Jing let her daughter live in Qu's house, and she will never be sad again." Correct no". "There is no standard for happiness, what the person thinks is good is good"... Shi Qi lost his voice. I turned my head to look at him, he was thinking with his eyes down, not knowing what to think. I asked him, "Bored?" He doesn't answer. "I've been clamoring to see Marley. What's your impression after seeing him?" He hummed. I find it funny.I said, "You were cast in the same mold as Yao Jing, aren't you satisfied?" "What's the use? There's no soul at all, like a plastic doll made in the shape of Yao Jing." He was sullen. I blurted out, "No! Marley isn't like that, if you don't appreciate her." Both of them young men devalued each other to nothing. "I'll never fall in love with a girl like her." "Thank the Lord, you will not." was our answer. Shi Qi said: "Too rude to people." We secretly laughed, he had always been spoiled by women, he wanted the wind to get the wind, and the rain to get the rain, and fairy concubines such as Yao Jing had had a relationship with him, how could he swallow this tone. I said: "Don't be too crazy, you will know when you get old and look bad." "Step on me, and spoil me as much as you want," he said angrily, "Don't I think about it for myself? Don't worry, I won't ask you to borrow it." Shi Qi has long been proven to be a cheapskate. The editor said: "Who is sure about the second half of life? Don't listen to Zuozi's nonsense, what kind of foundation does she have for thousands of years?" The editor said: "Zao Zi has always had no food for sleeping, and he is self-styled, and refuses to sit in an office building. He will suffer in the future." I said angrily, "You villain, how much better are you than me?" "I have a regular job, and I'm going back to Xinwenbao tomorrow." I said wrongly: "Shi Qi, I will unite with you and drive her out of the car." Everyone laughed wildly. We put Shi Qi down halfway. Downstairs of his apartment, there was a group of small movie fans wandering around waiting for him according to the rules. When they saw the shadow of their idol, they hurriedly surrounded him. Normally, Shi Qi might not have such patience, but he just suffered an unprecedented coldness tonight and needed the power of the crowd to restore his self-confidence and self-esteem, so he was unexpectedly amiable, signing autographs for them one by one, and even answering questions. I sighed, people are cheap, if you don’t lose something, you don’t know how valuable that thing is, and you think movie fans are long-winded on weekdays, it’s terrible. It's like the writer thinks the readers are vulgar and is impatient to live. It's not like I have always found it difficult to communicate with Shou Lin, so that today my heart feels like a knife is piercing. Suddenly I grabbed the steering wheel. Sister Editor turned pale with shock, "You're crazy." "Drive to Yang's house." "What?" "I'm going to see him." "It's too late, maybe there are two people waiting, he and his new girlfriend." "I don't care, I want to see it with my own eyes." Sister Editor had no choice but to turn the car around. I was ashamed again, "No no, let's go home." "Miss, what's the matter with you?" I said again: "Go, go to Yang's house." The sister-in-law sighed. The car stopped at the gate of Yang's house.Shoulin's family lived in a two-story bungalow.His bedroom window could be seen from the street, and we looked up to see that there was no light in his room.He hasn't come home so late, so it can be seen that his daily social life is not affected in the slightest. I am just a dispensable person. He was a little angry with me, and he gave me a few words of persuasion, but it was hopeless and counted. "Call him." Sister Editor said, "He can hear you." "Others are not here." "Maybe it's just not turning on the lights," she said sarcastically, "I miss you in the dark." "Forget it, you go to work tomorrow and say I greet him, let's go." "Why, do you want to be lonely with Yao Jing?" She opened the car door and suddenly called out: "Yang Shoulin, come out to play! Yang Shoulin, come out to play!" I was taken aback. She simply got out of the car to ring the doorbell. This area is so quiet, when she disturbed her, the room suddenly became commotion. I saw Uncle Yang and Auntie poking their heads out on the balcony, and I heard Auntie Yang ask her husband, "Where did you come from?" Another voice said, "Father, I'm so old, what other little hooligan friends do I have?" "It's us." Sister Editor called out. "Oh." Yang lost her voice in three mouths. Shou Lin came to open the door for us, and immediately asked me, "Are you drunk?" I kept silent and smirked. The sister editor said to Shoulin: "This is your fault. My girlfriend came to see you well. You are always rude. You are not a bad person. You look ugly. No wonder Zuozi is angry." Shou Lin was silent, he was wearing casual clothes. Under the street lamp, I asked, "Didn't you go out?" Shou Lin glared at me, "You can still see me when you go out?" Sister Editor pointed out, "Shou Lin, don't be like a child who is angry." I said: "Let's go, you should go to bed early." The editor spoke again: "You came here specially to find him, why are you afraid of embarrassment? Both of them don't agree with each other." There was a narration, and the atmosphere between the two of us softened. I am sincerely grateful to Sister Editor, who would be willing to play this kind of silent film role?Only my friend Liang edited. "Come in and sit down," Shou Lin said. "I also followed in, so as not to say a word, and the two of them announced goodbye to Zhen Zhong." Shou Lin and I looked at each other, not knowing what it was like. Sitting down in the study, Shou Lin couldn't help but say again: "Is the business done? Is 'Yao Jing's Life' finished?" The editor asked, "Why don't you spare her?" "No, I just greeted her." Sister Bian comforted me, "It doesn't matter, his tone is so sarcastic, indicating that he still cares. If he is really polite to you, he will be a stranger." I nod. Fortunately, Shou Lin didn't chase Sister Bian away. I asked: "Do you have a girlfriend?" We seemed to be having a funny show. "You came to question me? No, I don't have a girlfriend." "Why," Sister Bian asked, "Who did you see at the restaurant that day?" "That's my brother's girlfriend, from New York—well, what do I have to explain to you?" I suddenly felt that there was still hope for things. "Zuozi," Shou Lin was annoyed, "you can't call me and leave me. Whether I have other women is another matter. You can't treat me as an idle person, just to accompany you, Miss Xu, when you are bored." pastime." "She should also have her own career. Shoulin, you should be considerate of her. She has been with you in and out for many years. She finally had the opportunity to follow a piece of valuable news, and you were furious. Shoulin, maybe you Things that are considered insignificant are very important to her, can't you use her eyes to measure this matter?" I kept nodding my head, wishing I could kowtow to her. "Forget it, why don't you want Zuozi to pursue you again? Besides, you were the one who chased people back then, and more than a hundred eyes of "Xinwenbao" are witnesses." Shou Lin seemed to have been slapped and was speechless. "Men, don't be stingy. In the future, she will conceive and give birth to you in October. How hard it is." Shou Lin still likes me, it can be seen from his eyes.Otherwise, it is useless to have a dozen children, and there will be no points for each head. Shou Lin gasped and didn't say a word. "Why, are you going to sit with each other until dawn?" Miss Bian stared at me. I could only say, "I'm a little too angry—" Shou Lin does not accept this apology. I had to go further: "It's not that I don't regret——" He seemed to be listening. "—Yao Jing is so beautiful and so famous, but the person she loves doesn't love her, and she doesn't love the person who loves her. It's useless." It is necessary to continue, "Shou Lin, at least you and I are shining together, let's not miss this relationship." The editor screamed strangely, "Please forgive me, I have goosebumps all over my body, and I almost vomited out of dinner overnight, what are you talking about that is not spoken by a human being?" I laughed awkwardly, but somehow, my nose turned sore, tears flowed down slowly, and the atmosphere, dialogue and environment were completely like a bitter scene. Shou Lin's eyes were also red, and he said: "We are all too strong, modern people are proud of being strong, and would rather die than surrender, Sako, I am very glad that you have spoken what is in your heart, I understand." I choked up and said: "When I die, I hope that my husband and children will be by my side, and I hope that someone will fight for my inheritance. I hope that my granddaughter will love my sesame mung bean gemstone ring, claiming that it was left to her by my grandmother." .I hope that my grandson will discuss with me when I get married. I hope that I will be at odds with everyone in my husband's family and keep bickering. I hope to be a happy woman, please help me." Shoulin suddenly squeezed my hand tightly. I don't know whether it's because I love him or because my inner fear breaks out. My tears are like rivers bursting banks. Before that, not to mention Shou Lin, even I thought that I could play games in the world for a lifetime.cry? This was probably the most sincere expression of my life. Too much dew will kill you. Shoulin hugged me. After a long time, we both looked up and saw Editor Liang staring at us helplessly, as if we couldn't believe such a lingering and disgusting scene. I said mockingly: "I don't plan to be a modern person anymore. I can't even give birth to a child. I hope to be able to confine myself and eat longan soup. I don't want to lose face. Whatever you think of me as old-fashioned, I want Be a vulgar and ordinary woman in the eyes of trendy women." The most important thing is benefits, carrying a false name, suffering is also suffering. The editor said with a smile, "Women who are unhappy in their careers, because the road is blocked, clamor to get back to basics. This is exactly the same complex as a female star who goes to school when there is no filming." Maybe she's right. That night, sister editor sent me home. She said: "I am so familiar with you that I am not afraid that you will hate you. Although you can grow old together without love, I think you are not so good at patience. Do you love Shou Lin or not? Seeing Yao Jing's example, you are so scared that you vomit, so Did you rush to hug his thigh?" I can't answer. Except for a girl as young as Yumali, no one can answer this question one or two. I leave the last two chapters of the book to the editor. She asked: "Are there any novels co-authored by the two? Is the ranking according to the strokes?" I think there is nothing more ridiculous than co-authoring a book. Doing art requires high ambition. It is too late for a famous author to publish a book alone. How could he send his work to share a pair of pants with others. So I said, "Use your name." "What, you almost lost a good marriage because of this book..." "It's 'almost'. Don't be polite anymore. You have contributed the most, and it is very appropriate to use your name. You can mention me on the title page." "Then I'm not too polite." Very good, it is good not to be hypocritical. She started to go to work, and even in her busy schedule, she prepared the cover of the book and so on.This book is much more important to her than it is to me. Shou Lin and I are considering getting married. As soon as my parents heard that I was going to start a family, they rushed over immediately. Seeing Shou Lin, they were very satisfied. They praised Shou Lin in front of Uncle Yang, and then spoiled me a lot, describing me as a cannibal, and hoped that the Yang family would discipline me more. It was the first time that I noticed that my parents were so cunning, wearing thousands of clothes and flattering, and this trick succeeded again. After listening to this dialogue in the corner, Sister Editor was very emotional. She said: "The older the method, the more effective it is. Once you use the soft skills of a woman's original capital, Shou Lin will obey." The editor said: "At this moment, Aunt Xu is throwing high hats in the past, and Aunt Yang immediately loses her way. Tell me, what's the use of relying on real skills? The boss doesn't know if he is dead." I laughed and said, "Don't be jealous, I'll teach you this kung fu tomorrow." "What did your mother give you as a dowry?" Sister Bian asked. "I hope it's jewelry," I said. "Cash is fine." "Gems also hold value." "Who will you sell to when the war is in turmoil?" "It's beautiful to wear, and it's worth fleeing. I don't want their old-fashioned ones with protruding trims. I want Puscilati. Wow, wearing a white shirt and jeans, and a ponytail, but wearing a pair of Puscilati. Large sapphire and diamond earrings in white gold, you think, how worthy." Sister Editor smiled and said, "Yao Jing has a companion." I said silently, "I want to visit Yao Jing's grave." "Make an appointment with Marley." "Marley? You should know that she has no affection for her biological mother, and it would be unbeautiful to force her." The voice may be a little higher, but the mother heard it, and said, "Zuozi, we met Zhang Xu on the plane this time, so sit in the row in front of us." "Mother, do you know him?" "I met him at the Chinese Fellowship, we knew him, he probably just thought we were familiar, he was the famous Mr. Zhang." "He alone?" "one person." "Is Mrs. Zhang not with you? Girlfriend?" "Only one person." I immediately wondered why he came back. I only heard my father ask me: "Zuo Zi, what is the relationship between Yao Jing and you?" "It's okay, I've only seen her twice." "Is what the entertainment section of the newspaper said true?" Mom asked. "I don't know, I haven't seen it." "Why don't you know about your own affairs?" Dad asked. It's not easy to draw conclusions about one's own affairs. It's other people's affairs. It must be black, wrong or dirty, so don't even think about it. "Did Shoulin see it? Does Shoulin mind?" Mom went to please her future son-in-law again. I said, "Shoulin doesn't read Chinese." "Nonsense, Shou Lin is the general manager of Xin Wen Bao." "Shou Lin doesn't read the entertainment edition, nor does he read supplements, let alone TV programs. Shou Lin is a noble person." Shou Lin said with a smile: "I immediately renounce my aristocratic status." "I've seen it and forgotten it. Who will remember a piece of news in the overnight newspaper? The Yao Jing incident has long been silent, and no one remembers it." I turned my head and asked the editor, "What is the latest news?" "Someone repaid over one million gambling debts for someone else." "Who is so addicted to gambling?" Aunt Yang asked. I asked again: "Who is someone? Is the first 'someone' a man or a woman? Is the second 'someone' a man or a woman? Answer quickly, I love this kind of game." Everyone laughed. People who are alive always have an excuse to find information about laughing, which is why all comedies are blockbusters. The next day, I went to visit the grave. The cemetery is in the urban area, and it is full of high-rise buildings when you look up. There is no Xiao Sha at all, and it has nothing in common with the cemetery where Count Gula haunted Transovonia. I have always been bold, when I was studying in a foreign country, the old house I rented was next door to a cemetery, and in the early morning, thick fog fell in the space below my knees, and I couldn't see my feet. Not necessarily afraid. It took me a long time to find Yao Jing's tombstone. I'm not going to ask the administrator "hey, where is Yao Jing".too rude. I bought flowers. I remember she liked white fragrant flowers.Flowers without fragrance are useless.I bought a lot of work hairpins and underwrote the entire flower stall.Fragrant. I buried half of my face in the flowers for a long, long time. I wish I could still call her: "Yao Jing, come out and have a cup of coffee, tell me your favorite movie, and what's good about Jisia's design." I miss her so badly. A gentle voice came over: "Miss Xu." I raised my head, "Mr. Ma." Ma Dongsheng said softly, "You are really An Juan's good friend." I said, "No, you are." He must have come every day, this silent and great man. I was not willing to put down the large bouquet of fragrant flowers, and gently shook my face on the soft petals, unable to think of anything to say to Ma Dongsheng for a while. "I heard that Ms. Xu has donated all the money to the girls' home?" he asked. "Well, the girl will have a minor operation this month, and the money will be used to cultivate her for the rest of her life." "Thank you." Ma Dongsheng said, "I think An Juan will be satisfied with your arrangement." I nodded slightly. "I'll take a step first. I think you have something to say to her." He left, and his thin figure disappeared among the shadows of the leaves. I couldn't think of anything to say to Yao Jing, so I put the flowers in a stone vase. Sighing, a hand rests on my shoulder. "Sako." I was startled, stopped and realized that it was Shi Qi's voice. His hands kept pulling the branches, climbing the twigs into a half-moon shape, pulling them all the time, shaking the leaves off.This man, no matter who meets him, will suffer disaster. "You come here every day too?" I asked. "I want to talk to her," Shi Qi said. "I tried my best to contact her. I searched all over the city for psychics. I think she is going crazy." "Are there any grades?" He didn't answer me, but squatted on the back of the tombstone and supported the stone tablet with his forehead. That kind of situation looked sad. "Shhhh," I coaxed him, "Get up, let people see what is right and what is wrong, you don't want to do this," I gently pulled him up, "It will be fine after a while, you won't be like this forever." He rested his head on my shoulder and I gently pushed him away. "Get out of the way," I said, "I'm getting married soon, I need to avoid suspicion, you can't hurt me." Shi Qi said: "No one belongs to me." "If you want people to belong to you, you must first belong to people. Are you willing to give up yourself and belong to a girl?" He dared not answer me. "Film well, Shi Qi, cherish your future." I said. Shi Qi picked up the bouquet from the grass and placed it densely in front of the tomb. Shi Qi hugged me, "Goodbye friend." He said. I winked at him, "We're always your friends." "Let's go together," he said. "I still have to wait." "Waiting for someone? Waiting for someone here?" "Yes, I have an idea that one is coming." "Who?" I won't say, I hope it's Zhang Xu.Others are in Hong Kong and should come. Today is Yao Jing's birthday. Before I finished speaking, I saw a lot of people dragging men and women along the path. Look more clearly, it's Zhao Yifen and Zhao Yue'e, and they are dragging Da Bao and Xiao Bao.I'm a little ashamed, I've always looked down on them, and I don't think they are Yao Jing's kind, but the family affection will be revealed one day. They seemed to have forgotten who I was and didn't pay attention, I consciously pulled Shi Qi aside and let the big tree block it. But seeing them bowing in a sticky manner, and then presenting flowers, the cheerleaders left. "Who is it?" Shi Qi asked, "It's not like a movie fan." "It's Yao Jing's two older sisters." "What? They?" Shi Qi was surprised, "I didn't expect that." Shi Qi didn't know Yao Jing's true face at all, and there was no need for it.I bid him good-bye again gently. A car horn sounded in the distance, and Shi Qi raised his head in surprise. I immediately understood that he had a friend waiting for him in the car. who is it?male or female? Ah, it's one thing not to forget Yao Jing, but another thing to tell him not to be coquettish and happy. I haven't had a chance to use my imagination yet. At the end of the path, a girl in a bright red skirt with a large neckline has appeared. She has an exquisite figure and puts her hands on her waist, looking at Shi Qi with a half-smile. It can be seen from a distance that she is a beautiful woman, her eyes are black and white, and her sun brown skin makes her more fit. Shi Qi hurried over, turned his head and waved to me. I smile wryly. As soon as Shi Qi left, the sky turned cloudy, and it gradually began to rain, so I opened my umbrella. Looking at the watch, it's lunch time, I think Zhang Xu will probably be absent. The water drops on the umbrella are like stars all over the sky. I left slowly, and the flowers became more and more fragrant in the light rain. When I got to the side of the road, someone got out of the car and called me: "Miss Xu." I was taken aback, Zhang Xu! "Mr. Zhang, so you have already come." I was pleasantly surprised. He wears a pair of black glasses, wears a black suit, and is polite and old-fashioned. "When did you come?" "After ten o'clock, I will watch you go in." "You made a special trip to wait for me?" "Yes, I have something to tell you." "what" "Shall we go get a cup of coffee?" I got into his car and he told the driver to drive to the suburbs. People in the Zhang family seem to have a great affection for black, which matches their family's personality: indifferent, noble, and distant. When we got to our destination, it was still raining.Find a seat near the window in the cafe and sit down. He lit a cigarette and didn't speak for a while. Zhang Xu is definitely not easy to get along with, so how do you make a couple?Like a piece of ice, I don't say a word for half a day, my inner world is as mysterious as a pyramid, no matter how hard I try, I can't touch the edge. Zhang Xu finally spoke. He said, "We also talked the day before Jing passed away." It turns out that talking is a big show. It turns out that they usually don't speak. I'll wait for him to go on. "We talked about breaking up." what! "My opinion is...my opinion is...such a husband and wife relationship, it's better to separate." There was only our table in the coffee room, and it was dead silent.At this time, another pair of young men and women came in and sat not far away. They're flirting-- "If you love me, you should formally propose to me on your knees." "Okay, I'll go buy a cushion first." The woman pushed the man, and the man took advantage of the situation to hug her. Zhang Xu continued: "She has been crying." I listened with a blank face. The young girl said, "Well, I saw it." "Let's deal with them." The man pulled her closer and began to fight. Zhang Xu said, "She kept crying." Men and women in love blatantly laugh and slap each other. Suddenly Zhang Xu couldn't bear it any longer, and turned his head to shout at them: "Shut up!" Good scolding. While they were in shock, I walked over and took out a hundred yuan from my pocket, "Go, take a taxi to the nearest hotel, if you are too late, you will make a mistake, and your desire will burn." The man continued to speak, but the woman tugged at his sleeve, and the two finally left. The head waiter came over to apologize. I return to my original seat. Zhang Xu covered his face with his hands and continued. "I begged her not to cry, and she told me to go out and ignore her. I had to go and drink by myself." "I thought about it for a long time and thought that divorce would be good for her." "I didn't come home until early in the morning. She wasn't in bed. I found her in the study and she was slumped over the desk. She stopped crying. She helped me while I was packing. I flew to New York that day." "Three days later, the lawyer informed me that she died of a heart attack." I asked, "Did she commit suicide?" "No," he said, "absolutely not." Well she died of a broken heart. "When she married me, she expected too much. She was a naive woman who thought that I could give her everything. Afterwards, I disappointed her. She lost a lot, and she refused to admit it to the world. able to help her." "She can't lose you. With you there, she at least has hope." He was silent, his head was lowered, and he never took off his sunglasses. I changed the subject: "When will you get married?" "I'm married," he said in a low voice. "what?" He doesn't answer. I'm kind of devastated, they're so good at it, it's unbelievable. "Is that the ballerina?" He nodded. "Will you be happy?" He was at a loss. Instead, I couldn't bear it, "As long as your mother is happy, you will be happy. It is the most painful for a man to be caught in a bad relationship between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law." He couldn't leave his family to live alone. "But I will miss Jing for the rest of my life. She treats me so well that she doesn't complain." "I think she probably owes you. Can you trust your previous life?" He didn't answer either. I sighed and called the waiter to check out. The car kept driving out of the city.Zhang Xu bled from regret.If Yao Jing was alive at this moment, maybe he would have the courage to leave the old lady Zhang and live with Yao Jing, but Yao Jing has aged and faded in recent years, and it is doubtful whether he can support another love nest with such a huge expense. I smiled wryly, maybe she went in time, and it would be even worse if she went down, she is a woman who cares so much about posture. 张煦轻轻说：“她看人，一向不准，独独对你，徐小姐，你真的不负她所托。” 他真的这么想？其实姚晶根本没有经过选择，只不过当时我恰巧在她身边出现过，她顺手一捞，就把我这个名字抓住，放在遗嘱之内，完全是万念俱灰，全不经意的一种举止，反正除了她的亲人男人，任何人都可以成为她的承继人。 我抬起头，“我到了。” 他让我下车。 我与他握手道别。 寿头在家中等我。 见我回来，也不以为意，只说：“看来我真得对你这种间歇性失踪要习以为常才行。” 我过去坐下，微笑。 “今夜一起吃饭，已订好房间，你父母明天就要回纽约。” “什么地方，吃什么菜？” “你不用管，总而言之跟着来。”他笑，“爸爸的意思是，将来或者你可以帮新文周刊负责两页软性资料如时装化妆之类。” 我笑意很浓。“是的，而女人所能够做，不过是那些。” 寿林不理我，他自管自说下去，“不过爸爸说你千万别以教育家的姿态出现，教读者如何穿如何吃，人家现在很精明的，看到小家气自是的'专家文章'是要讪笑的。” 我问：“今晚吃什么菜？” 寿林转过头来，“你看你，又不耐烦了，你以为我不知道？” 我问：“我应该穿什么衣服？” “旗袍。旗袍可以应付任何场合。” 我开始换衣服，化妆，梳头。寿林第一次坐在床沿看着我做这些事，好像我们已经成为夫妻。 他一边闲闲地道：“你倒说说看，姚晶是个怎么样的女人。” “寂寞的女人。” “谁相信！”寿林讪笑，“生命中那么多男人，那么浓的戏剧性，那么七彩缤纷。” “不不，其实她是套黑白片。” “佐子，你真是怪，对事物总有与众不同的一套看法。” “但那是事实。” “每个人都认为他看到的是事实。”寿林笑。 我不再与他分辩。 我换了一件旗袍又一件旗袍，不知怎么，老是拿不定主意。 也许是因为寿林全不介意，非常享受的样子，他索性躺在床上，吃巧克力看报纸。 巧克力屑全撒在被褥上，一翻身，又被他压在衬衫上，被体温融化，一点一点棕色，邋遢得诙谐。 结了婚就是这样子的人，不能计较，还是早些熟悉得好。 父母终于来了电话来催。 我才匆匆穿袜子鞋子。 寿林打个呵欠放下报纸，老夫老妻格，我拉他起床。 我们叫车子赶去。以后，以后会有许多类似的应酬及宴会得双双出席，我们要尽力装扮成一对壁人模样，无论在打扮以及气质方面都要衬到绝顶，好使观者悦目。 难怪人家说夫妻的相貌会得越来越相似。 寿林在车内伸出手来，紧紧握住我的手。 我们俩算是经过了一番患难的。 赶到现场，父母满面笑容地责备我们几句，问我们为什么迟到。 杨伯伯说：“来，快看烟花。” 只看见贵宾厅的落地玻璃窗外突然爆出一阵七彩的雨，如滴滴金丝爆炸起来，形成庞大的一朵伞形的花，向我们迎面扑过来，几乎一伸手就可以抓住它的璀璨。 这朵烟雨包含了孔雀蓝、艳红、鲜黄、银、金，以及电光紫好几种耀眼的色彩，使人眼睛都睁不开来。 然而只一刹间，金属粉便纷纷坠落，如星尘般，洒往海面，化为乌有。 天空归于黑暗寂静。 我等了数秒钟，“咦，还有呢？”忍不住问。 杨伯母笑说：“就这么多，没有啦。” “什么？才数秒钟就完了？” “自然，放完了当然就没了。” “怎么一片漆黑？” “烟花放完，当然一片黑暗。” “但是，但是刚才明明气象万千，美得令人窒息。” “烟花就是那样子的，傻子。” 我打一个寒颤，我应该比谁都明白。 “——来来来，各位起筷，这只冷盘还不错，醺蹄更是一流的，各位不要客气——” 我是早该知道的。 她比烟花寂寞。