Chapter 4 Chapter Four

"She has no obvious enemies, and she has such a good demeanor." "There must be enemies. Everyone has them. Yao Jing is not so jealous. Yes, she is going downhill, but she must still have enemies." "I'm going to investigate," Sister Editor said. I said excitedly: "Let us co-author this book, which is a commemoration for Yao Jing." She shook her head slowly, "Let's talk about it later." We went to the newspaper office, and when my colleagues saw me, they said loudly and exaggeratedly: "Okay, okay, I'm back." I looked up, "what's the matter?"

The sister editor laughed, "What else is there? Reporters from various film and TV series are about to call." Shoutou came out, "Oh, you." His face was ugly. "Why?" I glared at him, "What's not satisfactory?" "Of course I'm not satisfied. If I love to see my girlfriend's picture in the movie and drama version, I would have gone after the little star." I said, "It's not like I'm going to bring it back. This is called natural beauty and hard to give up." Yang Shoulin sneered, don't look at his usually flat face as cute as a cat, but when he lowered his face, he looked like a smiling tiger.

"Don't embarrass me in public," I pointed my hand vigorously at his chest, gnashing my teeth and warned him, "Be careful of your dog's head." He kept silent, and glanced at the editor, "Are you crazy with her too? Your version is still two paragraphs short." Sister Zhi shrugged and returned to her seat. I pulled Shoulin to sit down and reason. His shirt sleeves were rolled up, and he looked very busy. "What do you want?" "Why don't you take a three-month leave?" He asked me, "Today, my colleague is just answering the phone for you, so he doesn't have to do serious business."

"Manager Yang, I'm a special reporter for the newspaper—" "I don't want you to be a female celebrity feature, why don't you translate the National Geographic article about the universe?" I asked: "Have you obtained the copyright of others? You will make random comments on whatever materials you like, and there will be a lot of mistakes. You will do it!" Shou Lin was furious: "What are you going to do?" I'm being honest, "I like to create, it's completely my own work, it's my personal thing." "I won't quarrel with you because of business, but Sako, I think your wish can't be realized at present, can you be more realistic?"

"Do you want me to resign? Look, Shou Lin, I have no job to resign. You never hired me. I never paid a salary at Xin Wen Ri Wan Bao. Why do you express dissatisfaction?" "I'm your boyfriend." "Really? So you just control my head and my feet?" "Sako, I've always heard people say that you have a very unruly personality. I didn't believe it before, but now I have to believe it." "Really, what did they say?" I smiled, "Did they say I was an adulteress? Do you believe it or not?" Shoulin was furious about it. "Don't talk nonsense when you are angry, you will regret it in the future, why bother?" I propped my head on my hands.

Even a small character like me would offend people for no reason, so that others would criticize me for not being a woman in front of my close boyfriend.Yao Jing, how could Yao Jing have no enemies? Only in the mouth of the enemy can one know her details, and only the enemy will wholeheartedly delve into her secrets, even remember how many months and days her silk stockings have been snagged. But who is her enemy? Few people have to be openly hostile to anyone, except that kind of fool.Fewer people would admit to being an enemy to a dead person. There have always been hopeless fools, none of whom have the hatred of killing their fathers, neither of which have the hatred of seizing their husbands, and they also form a wide range of hatred.

Some people must think that Yao Jing's limelight is stronger than him, and they secretly hate it in their hearts. Who is this man? "..." Shou Lin was still teaching me, "Did you hear that?" No, I didn't hear it at all, my thoughts drifted a hundred and eight thousand miles away. "What exactly do you want?" Shou Lin was still pressing. It is not without reason that a person is called Shoutou. I said: "What do I want? I want to go on vacation in the Caribbean, swim in the sun with a knowledgeable, handsome, dark brown man, eat lobster and drink champagne, and dance barefoot on the fine white sand at night. until the dark blue sky turns pink."

Shou Lin turned blue with anger. I patted him on the shoulder, "I'm home, Shou Lin, don't sound like a father." I grabbed my bag and ran downstairs. I didn't lie to Shou Lin, I really need a long vacation and a playmate, I don't even need to know his name, besides playing, I don't have to worry about bank statements, taxes, interpersonal relationships, office politics, oil, salt, firewood and rice , clothes, footwear... I heard that in places like Bali and Bermuda, you can go anywhere as long as you wear a piece of batik cloth with magnificent patterns. Of course, I believe that the local aborigines also need to worry about life, old age, sickness and death. After all, the poor people who take a month's vacation and temporarily leave their daily life environment don't need to care so much.

If Yao Jing could let go and become a native girl for a month, the situation would be different. The phone kept ringing when I got home, and it was rotten. I pulled the plug and didn't dare to listen. Sister Editor came to the door later, she was breathless and excited, as if she was intoxicated in Yao Jing's legend like me. She held a lot of pictures, "Please take a look." They are all photos of Yao Jing. To be honest, I didn't study her carefully before, but now, I just feel that her dress and appearance are perfect. "The only lady." "Without a doubt," I said.

The two of us are admiring the photos. Yao Jing looks the most radiant after returning from her honeymoon. Although she is not smug, she can see that she is very satisfied. But life was full of disappointments, and I guess she knew within a year that Zhang Xu wasn't an ideal husband. He is not used to the Hong Kong style of life, and spends more than half of his time in the United States.Yao Jing is just the opposite of him. It's not that he is unwilling to give up his career here, but that living with Zhang Xu's family is not that simple. Women with a little independent personality are no longer willing to live with their parents-in-law. The members of the Zhang family didn't like Yao Jing.

Sister Editor said: "He is not in charge of her life." "It is clear." We admire the pair of wall people in the photo. I said, "If only life were like a photograph." "The world of fairy tales is very boring." Sister Bian correctly distributed the pearl of wisdom again. "Really." I admitted, "once I went to visit my cousin, she lives in New York and has two Cantonese maids, her husband's family has ample interest to support their living expenses, three children, her husband is obedient, and she herself is in business It's been smooth sailing again, I'm so envious, I almost didn't marry Yang Shoulin right away, and I did the same thing." But on the way home, I thought, no, no, I’m still myself, I’m not a woman who has gone through many vicissitudes, and I want to be a good home when I have food. I started investing at the age of two, how did I get to forty-two?As a person, forty-two is a good time, no, no, no, I am a bit ambitious. "So you keep pushing Shoulin?" "Well, getting married is like immigrating. It's best to procrastinate and procrastinate. Don't act rashly unless necessary." "Don't be too naive, you don't need to tell Shoutou about these things." "You know, I didn't expect you to be such a lovely person." I said suddenly. "To each other. I always thought you were our idle, arrogant girlfriend." We looked at each other and smiled. "How did you know Shou Lin?" "It's in the newspaper office. How did Yao Jing know Zhang Xu?" The editor said: "She traveled to New York, and the leader of the overseas Chinese treated guests for dinner. This is how the two got acquainted." "Is it love at first sight?" I asked. "You have met Zhang Xu, what do you say?" "That kind of temperament and style is nothing to say." The editor said: "Actually, it doesn't matter who the man or woman contributes money to support the family, as long as the money can be spent, friends still have the meaning of sharing money." "Didn't Yao Jing take it out all the time?" The editor sighed, and took out the newspaper clipping. "Look here: 'Wang Yu said that only old and decrepit women are in a hurry to dress up', a talk published in August last year, editor's note: 'Anything else?'" Who is Wang Yu?Such a fun name. "'Wang Yu said again: I'm only twenty-five years old, I won't get married so early, and falling out with my boyfriend is not a big deal'. The boyfriend refers to Shi Qi. It was last November, and it was widely rumored that Shi Qi would marry Yao Jing collaborated in filming." I sat up abruptly. There is a clue. That's exactly who we're looking for, a seasoned, outspoken thirteen. "Yao Jing remained silent on this matter," the editor continued, "while Shi Qi denied it." "and after?" "Later, we couldn't find any evidence, so we let it go. But Wang Yu kept pointing at Sang and scolding Huai, and dealt with Yao Jing non-stop." "How old is she?" "She doesn't think that way. This is an industry where there is no discipline and success is the king. There is no such thing as respect. Since she thinks she has been offended, of course she must try her best to counterattack, and she will lose Shi Qi for this." "Are there any pictures?" Photos will be handed over immediately. Wang Yu has thick eyebrows and big eyes, and is very beautiful, but the makeup is too heavy. If it is not for the modern clothes, she looks like Juehui in "Family Spring and Autumn". I said, "It's beautiful." But my tone was perfunctory. "It's not good to see who is in this business. Even if it's a plastic flower, it's still a flower." "Where's Shi Qi?" Sister Editor is so kind, ask her what she wants, and there are photos to see right away. Wow, I didn't know there was such a person in the city. I couldn't help but say, "This is Zhao Fei in the 1980s." "And she has a good character, very young, only twenty-one years old." "What's the name of that movie?" "The filming was not finished, and the fetus was stillborn. Yao Jing was very sad for a while." Everything seemed to be going badly before she died. "Why is it unfinished?" "What's so strange? Pat the boss and don't want to take out any more money, so just let it go." I'm bored. Finally I said, "Let's go find Wang Yu." "No, look for Shi Qi first." "Okay," I said, "go find Shi Qi." "Look at me." Sister Editor said. She quickly asked this boy named Shi Qi out on an appointment. We drank tea in a café in a grand hotel. About four o'clock, I thought he would be late, celebrities can be late, one hour, two hours and three hours, this is the common practice. He didn't.He arrived on time. I have never seen such a handsome boy in my life. Tall, slender, with neat and tidy hair, handsome facial features, a beige pink leather jacket on broad shoulders, already a little dirty, white jeans tightly wrapping his legs, and a pair of sneakers on his feet. youth. Shockingly youthful. He greeted us and sat down gracefully, exuding charm. I told myself that this person will be popular, he must be popular, and he has the quality of a star. The editor said, "I didn't expect you to be so punctual." He was startled for a moment, and suddenly there was hesitation on his face, and he finally said: "Punctuality is the virtue of an emperor. This is the advice given to me by a friend of mine." When it was my turn to be startled, I immediately asked, "Who is my friend?" "Yao Jing." There was a complicated look in his eyes. A person's eyes will always betray his thoughts, unless that person's soul is old and dull, and life is better than death. There must be something inside this, but we didn't expect to get straight to the point. We have already heard the word Yao Jing. A person is always alone, and he is still a child, and he can't help but confide his emotions to others, otherwise he will have trouble sleeping and eating in his heart. From this point of view, Yao Jing was his first love.I already have some points in my heart, and I really can't bear to ask any more. turn out to be.It turns out there is such a story. Shi Qi is indeed beautiful and young, but is that what Yao Jing wants? He asked, "Why do you want to see me?" "Come out and talk about your new movie." "No, you're not interested in my new film. It's for one person, isn't it?" I don't ring. They are all extremely smart, otherwise they wouldn't be able to do it in this circle. He added: "You're the girl, aren't you? She left you her property." "Yes, I am that girl." "So it's safe to talk to you, isn't it?" "yes" He doesn't turn his head.At that moment, his eyes were red, and he fought back tears. I thought of Zhang Xu.Zhang Xu also shed tears for her. They all love her, but they can't help her. We were silent for a long time. The ceiling of the teahouse is made of glass.The sun was very bright that day, and the three of us couldn't keep our eyes open because of the refraction through the glass.Some time ago, the editor laughed and said that coming here to drink tea is like applying sunscreen. But today, the fierce sun only makes me feel pale. I didn't smoke at first, but these few days made me feel unprecedentedly tired, so I couldn't help lighting another cigarette. Shi Qi looked away, and said, "Not long ago, she told me that she had a dream every morning." Let's wait for him to speak. "She dreamed that she was struggling to walk a slope. At that time, it was raining heavily, and her clothes and shoes were wet. She called out her husband's name——Zhang Xu. Seeing Zhang Xu standing in front of her, but then his face changed into a stranger, she didn't know him at all..." I have a sore nose. Shi Qi continued: "I asked her, is that stranger like me? No, she said, not like me." Miss Editor handed me a handkerchief, and I covered my face. I understand this, of course not like him. Shi Qi is not qualified to enter her dream yet. The older child wiped away the tears with his fingers, but the tears were still there, and he couldn't stop them. When I saw that situation, I became more and more sad, and we cried silently facing him. Sister Bian gave Shi Qi a handkerchief again. He stood up, "You two forgive me, I will take a step first." The older child got up and walked away. I lay on the coffee table, sobbing until my sleeves were wet. "And why?" I don't ring. "Okay, okay;" another voice suddenly interjected, "I'm here, why are you crying? I've never seen you cry." It's Yang Shoulin. I looked up listlessly. "What's wrong with you?" He carefully held my shoulders. Are men always afraid of tears, or do they like to see women showing their cowardly side? These tears were not for him. The editor said: "Shoulin, it's none of your business here, you can enjoy beer with your friends." Shoulin is still reluctant to part. I'm sluggish. Wandering along the long embankment by the sea with sister-in-law. I said, "What a lovely boy he is." "He's still young and has real temperament." "Why didn't she run away with him? It would be nice to take the money and escape with him to an inaccessible place to have a happy time. Look at him, he loves her so much that he can't express it." The editor stared at the sea where the golden snake danced wildly, and she said: "If someone loves me like that, I would die willingly." Women always have a romantic side. Such a lovely big child, I sigh, with beautiful features like Absalom, and a majestic figure like King David. I swear if I were Yao Jing, I would go all out to indulge once, at least once. We only live in this world for a few short decades, so don't be too hard on yourself. The editor said mockingly: "Everyone is like you, who is going to vomit blood against Bai Haitang?" I will not answer. At the moment I broke up with her and went home lonely. When I got home I saw young Adamus waiting for me at the door. wait for me?I can't believe my eyes. "Shi Qi." I said, "Why are you here?" "My mother also lives here." He has recovered and said mischievously. "Do not believe." "I'm here to visit a friend." I laugh. "I made a special trip to find you, I have something to say to you." I nodded, this is called spit out quickly. "Ming people don't use secret words in front of their eyes," he said, "I don't have to say that I can't write this or that." "Don't worry." I said. "Can I go to your apartment?" He put his hands in his pockets. I think a lot of girls are waiting for him to say that. But we, we are different, we are siblings. "Please." I said. we sit down.Ask him what to drink. "Have you any sherry?" I thought of the amber wine in the crystal cup I saw in Yao Jing's house. "No," I said, "I only have beer." He nodded. He learned a lot from Yao Jing, it can be seen. "What do you want to say?" "I just want to talk to someone who understands." "I have good ears," I said. Mouth and pen are not very reliable, but it depends on the person.You must not be rash with Yao Jing. "I knew her two years ago," he began. "She was just married." "Yes. She is already very unhappy." "But in the eyes of ordinary people, she leads a very happy life." "What can ordinary people see?" Shi Qi said something very meaningful. "In the eyes of ordinary people, movie stars are gods who only get divorced." "How do you know she's unhappy?" "How many happy women lean against the door frame with their arms folded and watch the scenery silently when they are free?" Shi Qi asked me back. I bow my head. "How many happy women are sitting silently on a corner chair smoking, looking at the misty green smoke, sitting for hours?" I forced a smile, "Your powers of observation are very strong." "I watched her quietly for more than ten days, and I knew that she was in a very dissatisfied mood, and there was a knot that could not be untied." "She's much older than you, how did you start paying attention to her?" Shi Qi was immersed in memories, his handsome face was full of dreams, his head rested on the sofa, and he combed his soft hair with his fingers. "Because she's beautiful," he said simply. I know.She is so beautiful that even the same sex can't help but sigh. Such a woman is generally called a stunner. Shi Qi continued: "Her mentality is very fragile, completely different from the shrewd and capable people portrayed by the outside world. I believe she also has a cunning side, but she didn't show it in front of me." "You had a girlfriend at the time, didn't you?" "Yes, Wang Yu." "She is also several years older than you." "In my whole life, I have never walked with girls of the same age, let alone Bubblegum Little White Sox of eighteen or twenty-two," he smiled lightly, "Those innocent and lively girls, Leave it to mature men in their fifties or sixties." I couldn't help showing a smile too. He sighed, "I think my first and last love in this life is Yao Jing." "You are so young, how do you know that you will never love again?" "How is it possible for this kind of thing to happen many times?" His expression was both joyful and painful. "I have loved once in my life, and my wish is fulfilled." "Some people can love many times." "They confuse the complexities of need, friendship, gratitude, and I'm different." "During the eight months with Yao Jing, I feel that I have exhausted my life's affection." Shi Qi said bitterly and proudly. "What about her?" "She doesn't love me." Shi Qi's tone was like an upside-down five-flavored frame. "Who does she love?" "She loves no one." "She is narcissistic?" "No, Yao Duan is not a narcissist. Except when she is putting on makeup, she rarely looks in the mirror. She doesn't think she is beautiful at all. On the contrary, she thinks she is outdated, riddled with holes, Not worth mentioning." "Inferiority?" I sat up straight in disbelief. "It can be said that she has no sense of accomplishment." Shi Qi continued, "I happen to be that kind of person too, and we are very similar in many ways." "Of course she loves Zhang Xu." I said. "She has great hopes in him. At one time, she thought he was the sunshine in her life." "And you, you are the apple of her eye." "I hope it will be." "Do you love Wang Yu?" "We are crazy together. She has a very relaxed and happy personality. She has no hatred and kindness with others. She can meet my needs at that time." "She loves you?" "She likes me very much, she loves me very much. But it's not as good as the outside world said, I never spent her money, because she didn't have any spare money on hand." "Did you use Yao Jing's money?" "No, in front of Yao, I have a strange self-esteem, I will do my best to protect her and cherish her... Besides, we don't need money, except that time in Hawaii, I remember she insisted on buying first-class tickets, I don't have enough money For change, she suggested to pay it for me, but I flatly refused." Hawaii! I don't believe that Yao Jing's skin as white as Song Baitai porcelain has ever been baptized by the sun romantically. I am so relieved that they have been to Hawaii after all. "how many days?" "Five days." "Too short," I said. "She doesn't love me." Shi Qi said. "She doesn't love Zhang Xu either, why marry him?" Shi Qi said to himself. Shi Qi regards me as a confidant. "It flies like five hours. I don't want to sleep at night. I stay by her side all night. I know this kind of good time will never happen again." Such a bitter love, this big child once had such a bitter love. I said: "It is better than countless people in the world." He simply lay wantonly on my sofa, did not take off his running shoes, put his arms on his head, closed his eyes and reveled in painful and happy memories. At this time, he had already taken off his leather jacket, and was only wearing a white short-sleeved cotton sweater. He raised his well-muscled arms, and he could see the fluffy armpit hair. His closed eyelashes were thicker like a butterfly, and he never paid much attention to men. I am also moved by the appearance. This kind of beauty also attracted Yao Jing, and her loneliness and frustration narrowed the distance between them.I understand what's going on. What shocked me was that he really knew how to love and focused all his energy on her. Yao Jingying and Zhang Xu separated to meet Shi Qi.It doesn't matter whether you get married or not. When there is no war and you are not hungry, your love life is the most important part of your life. I asked, "Did you propose to her?" "One hundred thousand times, three hundred times a day, this is our main dialogue: Marry me, no. Marry me, no." "Why did she say no?" "she does not love me." "She doesn't love Zhang Xu either, why marry him?" Shi Qi suddenly straightened his back and jumped up from the sofa, "I asked her that too!" "What did she say?" "She smiled wryly." "She cares too much about face." I know what's wrong. "Yes, because there are too many people who hate her, and even more people who want her down, so she has to live a more impeccable life." "But those who hate her have long known that her life is wrong. Even a child like you can see it. Who else can't see it?" "I'm not a child," he said provocatively, raising his bushy eyebrows and pointing at me, "I won't allow people to call me that, you don't want me to prove it to you, you'll regret it. " I took a deep breath, afraid that my concentration would not be enough.