Chapter 8 Chapter VII

The flight from Vancouver to Hong Kong was already waiting on the tarmac, and passengers boarded the plane one after another.Mo Junyi fastened her two-month-old son to her chest with a baby belt.She holds the ticket in her left hand and a large cotton bag over her right shoulder.The heavy cotton bags held baby diapers, formula, feeding bottles, blankets and the child's clothes.She was almost the last to enter the boarding corridor. Seeing the young mother, the stewardess hurried forward and asked her: "Ma'am, do you need my help?" "No need." She said politely.

"You can board the plane earlier with your child, and you don't have to queue with other passengers." The stewardess said. "yes?" Mo Junyi has never used this kind of mother-first service.She will remember it later.This kind of convenience is not available when you are single. The flight is almost full.On the narrow aisle, several passengers were still struggling to stuff their carry-on luggage into the overhead box.The child kept twisting in her arms, and Mo Junyi searched for her seat in the cabin in a panic. Her seat was next to the aisle, which she had specifically requested.To her left sat three people, an old couple and a man.A novel by Han Chunyi was placed on the man's lap.

Mo Junyi put the big cotton bag on the seat first, and then loosened the baby belt so that she could sit down with the baby in her arms.The child's little hands tugged at her collar, exposing one of her bra straps.She pulled his little hand away, and he suddenly burst into tears, as if he was always trying to make things difficult for her.She found that there seemed to be a familiar person in the distance.She raised her head; the moment she raised her head, that person was already projected on her pupils. She sat down quickly.The child in his arms was still crying, and he kept scratching her neck with his hands, leaving a few red finger marks on her neck.Tears welled up in her eyes.

Why is it him?Why is it here? Du Canglin sat behind.When she saw him just now, she saw a woman sitting beside him.That person is probably his wife?She was nothing like the selfish, ordinary-looking woman she had imagined in her head.However, she who sat beside him, although ordinary, looked very virtuous.Her belly bulged slightly, snuggling up to her husband happily.She is pregnant. "Ma'am, are you okay?" the man sitting next to her asked her. "I'm fine." She said, crying. Seeing the baby struggling in her arms, he asked her, "Do you want me to hold your baby for you?"

He soon realized that he had used the wrong word, that the baby was not an object and could not be held. "I mean, do you want me to hold your baby for you for a while?" He said sincerely. "No, thank you." "My surname is Jiang. If you have anything to do, just ask." "Mr. Jiang, am I looking bad now?" Mo Junyi raised her head slightly and asked him. Jiang Yanzhong didn't know how to answer her question. He thought that she was probably a woman who was a bit depressed after childbirth. "No." He reassured her. "I know it is."

On her face without makeup, there were still some residual red spots, which were sensitive skin that started a few days ago.Living with the child for more than a month made her pale and haggard.The child refused to sleep last night and tossed her all night.In the rush to the airport this morning, she left her hair untouched so it was fluffy.After giving birth, her breasts became loose and covered with sores.Today she is wearing an old cotton coat and a pair of cheap cotton trousers from six years ago. She was so bad no man would want to look at her more than once. Why did he have to meet Du Canglin at this time?

The moment of reunion was so unbearable. She dared not turn her head to look at him at all.When she left him, she thought he would miss her forever. That night three years ago, she and Du Canglin had sex on that bed at home.He wears two condoms.He wears two condoms every time except during her menstrual and menstrual periods.She knew that he was afraid that she would be pregnant.He was afraid that she would use her pregnancy to force him to divorce. "Can I not use it?" She hooked his neck and asked him. "If you don't use it, there will be children." "I want to have a baby for you," she said with a smile.

"After giving birth, my body is not as good as it is now." He smiled. "I'm not afraid. Do you think our child will look like you or me?" "Do you really want kids?" "Yeah." She nodded firmly. "You will regret this." "That means, even if I have children, you won't marry me, will you?" she cried. "You're here again!" Du Canglin stopped and wiped away her tears. "When you and your wife do this, do you also use two?" "Don't mention her, okay?" "I want to know." She looked at him persistently.

"I haven't touched her for a long time." Du Canglin hugged her vigorously and said: "I will never give you up." Mo Junyi's tears burst out again.She knew she shouldn't trust him.If he loves her so much, why doesn't he want to divorce her?Is it just for the so-called morality?He always said that he hadn't touched his wife for a long time; but how could he never touch her when they slept together every day?If he doesn't touch her, won't she doubt it? However, she deeply believed in such an unbelievable thing.If she didn't believe that, how could she bear the fact that Du Canglin slept with another woman every night?

She believed that Du Canglin would never give up on her.Whether it is true or false, there are some things that she wants to believe forever. When she got off work that day, she wanted to go shopping, but it started to rain suddenly, so she walked into a bookstore to avoid the rain.In the bookstore, she accidentally saw a book by Han Chunyi.The title was quirky, so she bought it. When the rain stopped, she went home by bus. In the carriage, she began to read the novel.The heroine of the story fell in love with a married man. While watching, tears flowed down her face. The car went back and forth many times, but she didn't get out of the car, so she couldn't bear to watch it.

Why did Han Chunyi say what was on her mind?She not only spoke of her thoughts, but also of her pain and happiness. In her whole life, she had never shed so many tears like when she was with Du Canglin, but she had never been as happy as when she was with him. The ultimate suffering and the ultimate joy are all given by him. The heroine in the novel says to her man: "I think I should marry someone I don't love very much, and then have an affair with you. This is more fair." Mo Junyi also thought of this before, but she couldn't do it.She told Du Canglin: "If there were a man exactly like you, and he had no wife, I would love him at once." However, how could there be a person exactly like him? In her company, a male colleague gets along well with her.She knew he was interested in her, and she kept avoiding him. That day, she had a fight with Du Canglin.They fight almost every week, all fighting over the same issue. She asked him to stay overnight, but he refused. The next day, without telling Du Canglin, she went to eat French food with that male colleague. She dressed up beautifully for the appointment.She really wants to fall in love with someone else; then, she can forget him, and she can release herself from endless pain. But that meal was terrible. She felt guilty while eating.She felt guilty that she dated another man behind Du Canglin's back.Why does she feel guilty?He already has a wife.She has the right to love another.However, she is guilty. When the man got up to go to the bathroom, she watched his back.Compared with Du Canglin, his back is so pale and without content.Except for Du Canglin, she could never fall in love with anyone again. She wants to be a dedicated third party.Is this ridiculous?She loves a man who is not specific.She knew that Du Canglin loved her far more than his wife, far more than when he loved his wife the most, if he had ever loved his wife.She had to believe that in order to continue. When the man drove her home, she turned on the radio in the car, just in time to hear Channel A hosted by Xia Xinju. A twenty-three-year-old girl called into the show and said her boyfriend hadn't touched her in five months.Did he no longer love her?She burst into tears on the other end of the phone, sobbing and saying: "I feel like a little bitch." "When a man doesn't love a woman, won't he touch her again?" Mo Junyi asked him. "No." "Can a man sleep with a woman he no longer loves?" she asked sadly. "How do you want me to answer you?" "Tell the truth." "Some men can." "why?" "Although he no longer loves that woman, that woman loves him. She will climb on top of him." That night, when she returned home, as soon as she entered the door, she took off all her clothes and crawled into bed.She was sure that her man was exceptional.Du Canglin will never touch a woman he no longer loves.Although he was not sleeping next to her at this moment, she was naked, with one hand resting on the other pillow, imagining that he was beside her. When she woke up in the middle of the night, she realized that Du Canglin was not sleeping beside her. She really wanted to call him, really wanted to hear his voice, but she knew that she didn't have the right—— No right to call someone's husband at midnight. The next night, when they were making love on the bed, she hugged Du Canglin and kept crying. "Why are you crying?" he asked her nervously. "Do you know where I went last night?" she asked him with tears in her eyes. Du Canglin shook his head. "You can't do most of the things with me." She wiped away her tears and smiled wryly. "Yes." He sighed deeply. "I often think about how long and far the road you can walk with me will be." She looked at Du Canglin and was silent for a long time, and Du Canglin was also silent. "I knew that one day, I would be the only one left to go on," she said. "Why do you always say things like that when you're happiest?" he asked sadly. "Because I'm afraid of losing you." She curled up on Du Canglin and sobbed. "No." He stroked her body gently. "Can you live with two women for the rest of your life?" He can't answer. "I often tell myself that I borrowed you, and when the time limit expires, I have to return it to someone else." "Do you want to give me back to someone else?" he asked her with a smile. "I wish I could be so cruel." She smiled sadly. "You will not." "I will." She fell asleep on top of him. In order not to wake her up, he let her hold him down.Until late at night, the bell rang to go home, and he had to go.He gently moved her aside and got up to take a shower. The soap Mo Junyi bought was the same as the one Du Canglin used at home.A long time ago, she asked him which brand and scent of soap he used at home, and then, she bought the same.Then, when he came home from here, his wife would not smell another soap on him and suspect him of it. No one was as thoughtful as she thought. Sometimes, she thinks she is too kind.If she wanted to snatch Du Canglin over, she should deliberately buy another scented soap to let his wife know that he has another woman, then she might divorce him.At that time, he will be free. Du Canglin took a shower, dried his body with a towel, then put on his pants and prepared to go home. Looking at Du Canglin's back, she felt a sore nose.One of the hardest things in her life was watching him put on his pants and go home after making love to him. She pretended to be asleep.Du Canglin put on his clothes, kissed her deeply on the forehead, and then closed the door gently.His back is always so melancholy.In an instant, she recognized the fact that he was a man who had to go home.He could never stay with her until tomorrow. Her tomorrow is only herself.How cruel is this fact? They quarrel almost every time they meet.She found it unbearable to think that he belonged to someone else. When Du Canglin's birthday was approaching, she said to him: "On your birthday, can I celebrate with you?" He was silent for a long time. On his birthday, she was waiting for him at home.He called in the morning and said, "Can I come tomorrow?" "If you don't come today, then don't come in the future." She hung up the phone. She may not be as kind as she thought. She bought a piece of soap that was the same as what he used at home, not because she didn't want his wife to find out that he had a third party, but because she was afraid that when his wife found out, Du Canglin would not be able to see him again. she.Between her marriage and his, she has no confidence that he will choose herself. Now she just wanted to push herself to a desperate situation, and she wanted to be the only woman who would stay with him for the rest of her life. That night, Du Canglin did not come after all, and she lost.She was too sad to go to work, and was still silent in bed the next afternoon. Hearing the sound of Du Canglin opening the door with a key, she pretended to be asleep.He came in, sat next to her, and covered her with a quilt. She turned and stared at him. He is so strange, never belonged to her. She sighed and said, "Go back and be your good husband." "Don't do this. I said I would never give up on you." He stroked her lids. She turned her face away and said: "It's not that you give up on me, but I give up on you. I don't want you to suffer, nor do I want to suffer myself." After a moment's silence, she said again: "One day, when you are free, come to me again." After that day, she moved away, changed her phone number, and changed her job to keep him from finding her. Two months later, she found out she was pregnant.Must have miscalculated the safety period last time. She was finally pregnant with Du Canglin's child, but unfortunately, she broke up with him.She wasn't going to tell him, she didn't want to ruin his life now. She ran to Vancouver alone, planning to give birth to the child quietly here.She has no relatives and friends here.She is happily looking forward to the arrival of her child, who is the last evidence of her and Du Canglin's love. However, as her belly swelled day by day, her mood swings became more and more severe day by day.In the dead of night, in that small apartment, she often cried alone.She needed a husband, and her husband was someone else's husband.Is she too headstrong? On the day of giving birth, she walked into the hospital alone carrying a large bag of postpartum supplies.She was in pain for a full twenty hours, and the child tortured her to death.When she needed her husband the most, only doctors and nurses were with her. The baby croaked in her arms.Half an hour after takeoff, he was still crying with all his might.Everyone in the cabin looked at her with bored eyes. The woman sitting in the back complained: "It's so noisy!" "Hey, don't cry, don't cry!" Jiang Yanzhong, who was sitting beside her, helped coax the child. "Madam, do you want to help?" The stewardess came up and asked her. The old woman sitting in the same row as her said: "The child may not be able to stand the change in air pressure. Try feeding him some water, and he will calm down." She asked the stewardess for a glass of warm boiled water and bottle-fed him.The baby pushed the bottle away, splashing water in her face. A middle-aged woman sitting in front turned her head and taught her: "Get up and give him a walk." It's not that she doesn't know that she can stand up and walk around, but she doesn't have the courage to stand up at all, she doesn't want Du Canglin to see her. Du Canglin's wife is happily pregnant with his child.Why can this woman bear him a child in a legitimate way, but she can't? Didn't he say that he hasn't touched her for a long time?After she left, he slept with her again. A man can touch a woman he no longer loves.She just had to believe it. The child cried until his hair was soaked and his eyelids were flushed, but he still refused to give up.He grabbed her hair tightly and wouldn't let go.Why does he always have to make trouble with her?Does he know how much she has suffered for him?He couldn't make her feel better. "Please, don't cry anymore." She hugged him, tears welling up.She hates herself, she can't have kids at all. Today was the worst day of her life; worse than the day she gave birth alone in the hospital.She used to think that was the worst. "I won't let you cry anymore!" she said, poking his nose. The child cried even harder, almost crying out all his viscera. She stood up with the baby in her arms.His cries became quieter.Every eye in the cabin was on her.She walked towards Du Canglin step by step. Du Canglin looked at her, at a loss. She put the child on his lap and said: "He is your child, you come and hug him!" His wife was stunned and showed a look of astonishment. Everyone in the cabin fell silent. Du Canglin patted the child's back with his hands, and in his arms, the child really stopped crying. She hadn't seen Du Canglin for a long, long time.She still loved him unrepentantly.He will remain forever in her memory, and her longing will always be there. At this moment, Du Canglin raised his head and looked at her with heartache.That heartbroken expression turned into a reunion smile in an instant.There was bitterness in the smile, and the scene of him covering her with the quilt on the day of parting came to her mind again.She suddenly understood that he didn't want her to be pregnant, not because of selfish reasons, but because he knew that she couldn't bear the pain. She leaned feebly on the back of the chair with her hand and answered his smile with a smile.She never doubted his love for her.However, she also knew that the road he could walk with her would not be too long or too far.He is a man who has to come home. He could never stay with her until tomorrow.