Chapter 13 Chapter Eleven

Xu Qijin came back from the outside.He took off his coat, got into the bed, and buried his face deeply in Li Siluo's hair. "Are you back?" Li Siluo turned around in a daze and hugged him. Xu Qijin's face was buried deeper and deeper, as if he wanted to get under her hair. "What's the matter?" She opened her sleepy eyes and asked him. "Siluo, let's get married." "Hmm." She responded softly. When she woke up the next day, she couldn't remember whether what she heard in her sleep last night or Xu Qijin really proposed to her.Countless times, when she was entangled with his body, he would always ask her excitedly:

"Will you marry me?" A man commits a lot when he has a passionate attachment to a woman's body.She never took it for real.But this time, he was serious. Xu Qijin bought the house last year, and she always stays here a few days a week.If she wants to get married, she just needs to go home tomorrow and bring her luggage. On this day, she and Xu Qijin went to a department store to buy some wedding supplies.He has his things to look at, and she has hers to look at. When the two met in the stationery department, Li Siluo found that Xu Qijin bought the following items: Two pillowcases, two sheets, a new mixer and a waffle oven.He has recently fallen in love with quiche for breakfast.In addition, there is a set of stereo, which is placed in the study.He also held a new pair of slippers and some men's underwear.

What she bought herself was an astronomical telescope and a bag of croissants. "Why are you buying binoculars?" Xu Qijin asked her. "To look at the sky." She answered it as a matter of course. When she saw this telescope just now, she thought so. "Can you read astronomy?" he asked. "Not yet." She smiled. "And this one?" He pointed to the croissant she was holding in her arms. "Because I want to eat." He looked at her, a little strange.She looked at herself and felt a little strange. The two things she bought had nothing to do with marriage.Without the astronomical telescope and croissant, her new life will still begin.

When Xu Qijin sent her home, she asked him: "Why are you getting married?" "I want a wife." Xu Qijin said holding the bag of underwear. At that moment, she was full of disappointment.What she wants to hear is: "Siluo, I want to spend the rest of my life with you." At night, she was in her room packing up the things she was going to move to the new house.Because she often spends the night at Xu Qijin's house, she has already put most of her things in his house.There was only one small tin can, which she never took with her. She carefully opened the small round jar that was originally used to hold chocolate, and took out the diving watch.The diving watch has been broken long ago, and the time is stuck at 11:37.This white plastic diving watch will glow underwater.The watch was given to her by Jiang Yanzhong when she was fifteen years old.He saved a month's allowance, gave her this diving watch, and encouraged her to learn swimming.That summer vacation, Jiang Yanzhong took her to the beach almost every day.

After so many years, she still thinks of him often. At dawn, she was still packing up.I don't know if I'm packing up things, or I'm packing up some memories. That night, she asked Luo Manli to meet at the bar. "It's so enviable to be able to get married before the age of thirty." Luo Manli teased her. "Do you have any news about Jiang Yanzhong?" "We're getting married soon, why do you still think of your first love?" "Just wondering what he's become now?" "You don't know where he is, how can I know?" "Don't you have an old colleague who is good friends with his brother?"

"That old colleague immigrated a few years ago, and we haven't been in touch for a long time. Don't you have Jiang Yanzhong's previous address and phone number?" "Called a long time ago and said there is no such person. Maybe he has moved and his phone number has changed." "Why are you looking for him?" Li Siluo held his head and asked with a smile: "If we were still together, do you think my story would be different?" "There will never be an answer to this. Don't you love Xu Qijin?" "I love him, he is very good to me. But, miss, sometimes it is another matter, I really want to see Jiang Yanzhong again."

"Are you missing your first love or your first love?" "Maybe I miss both of them. It's been fifteen years. No matter how happy I am living now, I can't let him go." "It's been so long. If you find him, but he has forgotten you, what will you do?" "It's fine if he forgets me, so I can forget him too." Xu Qijin went to Vancouver, Canada for a meeting.He will stay there for five days.The day after he came back was the day they registered their marriage, and that day was the weekend. Li Siluo sent Xu Qijin away, and went to the house where Jiang Yanzhong lived alone.She thought, maybe it's just that the phone number has changed, and he still lives here.She tremblingly pressed the doorknob of Block B on the fourth floor.I don't know what he has become now?

There was no one in the house.She stood outside the door, reluctant to leave. She was afraid that after leaving, she would not have the courage to come back.She waited like this from morning till dusk.At this time, a woman came back. "Who are you looking for?" the woman asked her as she took out the key to open the door. "May I ask if the surname here is Jiang?" "There is no Jiang here." The woman took off her shoes and put them outside the door. "Do you know where they moved to?" "I've never heard of a resident named Jiang here." The woman scratched her head and asked curiously, "Who are you looking for?"

"An old friend." "Well, I can understand. I also have the experience of finding a very old friend." The woman said with one hand on the door. "Really?" Li Siluo stood outside the door for a whole day, his legs were numb, and he supported the wall with one hand. "I'm luckier than you. I finally found him." "real?" "But he doesn't remember who I am." The woman threw the purse in her hand into the house. "Oh." Li Siluo suddenly felt very depressed.While it wasn't her story, she feared that her own would end the same way.

"Thank you." Li Siluo turned and left. "wait--" Li Siluo turned around, and the woman asked her: "Do you have a phone number to leave? I'll ask the owner for you. There are some old neighbors here. Maybe you can ask them. What's your friend's name?" "Jiang Yanzhong." Li Siluo wrote the phone number on a piece of white paper and handed it to the woman. "Miss, what's your last name?" Li Siluo asked. "My surname is Xia." The woman said. It's been the third day and no news at all.She thought that her story might end like this.It's good not to see.If she didn't see her, she would never know whether Jiang Yanzhong had forgotten her.If she can't see it, Jiang Yanzhong is still beautiful in her memories.It's been fifteen years, maybe, one day, when she passed him on the road, she wouldn't recognize him either.

She and Jiang Yanzhong have been together for less than a year.At that time, they quarreled almost every time they met.Obviously they love each other very much, but they always refuse to give in to each other.When they broke up, she hid herself and cried for many days. She thought she would cry blindly.She knew he was crying too.Later, when she grew up, she finally understood that both she and Jiang Yanzhong were very greedy people, both wanted to possess each other, but couldn't bear being possessed by the other, it was impossible for these two people to live happily together. After they separated, she often thought, if she had slept with Jiang Yanzhong, would the story be different?Will they miss each other a little more? On the morning of the fourth day, she received a call from Xu Qijin from Vancouver. "I'll be back tomorrow." Xu Ganjin said on the other end of the phone. "See you tomorrow," she said. Tomorrow came, and she would not go looking for her old dreams again. The phone rang, it was a young woman's, beautiful voice. "Is it Miss Li? My surname is Xia, and I live in your old friend's house—" "I remember." "Does your friend live with his parents and brother?" "right." "An old neighbor met his mother recently, so there is news about him." "real?" "I'll read you the address—" "Will you go to him?" the woman surnamed Xia asked on the other end of the phone. "I will." "Then, good luck to you." She thought she was going to despair, but he suddenly appeared.She wanted to see him at once, but she was afraid of seeing him.What has Jiang Yanzhong become now, what has she become in his heart? If a woman with memories came to see him, would Jiang Yanzhong be surprised?Could he already have someone he loves?Perhaps, he doesn't quite remember the possession and greed of fifteen years ago. If there are still many tomorrows, she will reconsider whether it is good to rediscover the old dream.Because there is only one tomorrow, she mustered up the courage to look at the man who has been lingering in her memory for fifteen years. She took the address to Caroline Hill Road, Causeway Bay.She went up to the thirteenth floor, summoned up the courage to ring the doorbell. It was Jiang Yanzhong who came to open the door. When he saw her, he was slightly startled. "Silo." It was he who called her first. The tense nerves all over her body relaxed in an instant.Her story is more beautiful than that Miss Xia who met her by chance.Her first love has not forgotten her. Jiang Yanzhong grew taller, from a lively boy to a steady man. "How are you?" she asked him. Fifteen years, it seems like yesterday. "Do you live here?" she asked. "Yes, please come in." It seems that he lives alone in the house. There are two rooms in total, one of which is full of books.Jiang Yanzhong has always loved reading.When they were together, he used to tell her stories from books. "The place is messy," he said awkwardly. "No, it's just that there are more books. Did I bother you?" "of course not." "I've been to the place where you used to live. I heard you moved here. I want to see what you've become. You haven't changed much." "You too. Silo, would you like something to drink?" "There must be coffee? Your favorite coffee." Then, she took out a bag of things from her purse and said: "One bean of coffee bought at Starbucks." "Let's just drink this." Jiang Yanzhong made two cups of coffee. "What job do you do now?" "At the publishing house." "What books do you publish?" "There are many types. Have you read Han Chunyi's book?" "Yes! I like reading romance novels." "What about you? Where do you work?" "I just quit my job, and I have to be busy with some things recently." "What are you busy with?" "I'm getting married." "Oh, congratulations." "What about you? Are you still alone?" "Yes, it seems that I am more suitable to live alone." "It's just that you haven't found someone you'd like to live with." "may be." She took a sip of coffee and said, "Fifteen years have passed so quickly, it seems like yesterday. I was worried that you wouldn't recognize me!" "How can you not recognize it?" "I went to the place where you lived before, and the new tenant is a lady surnamed Xia. She told me that she also visited a very old friend, but the other party did not recognize her." "That person may be an old friend, not an old lover. If we were together once, we will never forget it." "If I didn't come here to look for you, but met you on the street, would you also recognize me?" Jiang Yanzhong looked at her and said, "I never thought I wouldn't recognize her." She smiled: "We never met again." "Are you still wearing this diving watch?" Jiang Yanzhong saw the diving watch on her wrist. "Ok." "Eleven thirty-seven? It's so late now?" He was taken aback. "No. The watch is broken." "Why do you still wear a broken watch?" "I'm afraid you won't recognize me." "If I don't recognize you, I won't remember this watch." "What does Han Chunyi look like?" "Haha, fierce." "She wrote a reunion story." "I know which one you're talking about." "A pair of old lovers who had been separated for many years met by chance. Everyone thought about going to bed, but in the end they gave up the idea because the other party has become like a relative." "That was the story she wrote two years ago." "The story of the reunion is touching in any era." "Because we all long to be reunited with old people." "Will we also become family members?" Jiang Yanzhong looked at her, unable to answer. "We can't be family," she said. "No, we won't," he said. She looked into the depths of his eyes.She didn't come here to find a relative.What she was looking for was the man she had been obsessed with for fifteen years.What she is looking for is not the feeling of relatives, but the memory of love.She wants to believe that love will never die. When he recognized the watch on her wrist, her body was already facing him, facing the long memories of those fifteen years. She is a woman who is going to get married tomorrow, but at this moment, she is lying under the body of her old lover, bearing every wave of his.Eros never dies, and they cannot be kin. At half past ten in the evening, she sat on the edge of the bed, put on her shoes, and said, "I'm leaving." "I'll take you back." Jiang Yanzhong said. When passing by his study, she saw a book, "The Night Before the Stars Come Out" by Michel Lemiu. "Can you lend me this book? I lost that one." "You take it." "I'll give it back to you after I finish reading it." Jiang Yanzhong took her back by taxi.There is a bright moon in the sky, which has been following behind their car. "Do you like this book?" Jiang Yanzhong asked. "Well. It says it's for kids, but it's more for grown-ups. There's a page in the book that says 'If we could change the skins any way we wanted, would anyone see me in this one?', I really thought about it." "How can no one want your - skin? This one of mine is more dangerous." The full moon was already separated by a mountain, the car stopped, and Jiang Yan asked her: "Is it here?" "Yes. I live here." "Goodbye," she said. "Goodbye," he said with a smile. She got out of the car. "Siluo—" he suddenly stopped her. She turned around immediately and asked him, "What's the matter?" He looks at her. Fifteen years is too short, and this moment is too long. Finally, he opened his mouth and said: "I wish you happiness." "Thank you." She nodded - nodding, smiling. he's gone.There was a moment when she thought he still loved her. He remembered the watch on her wrist, what is it if it is not love?She deliberately went to him wearing a watch.If he forgets the watch, she will forget him too.However, he did not forget.She thought that missing for fifteen years was not alone. If Jiang Yanzhong asked her: "Can you not get married?" Maybe she would still get married, but she would remember this night for the rest of her life.There is no tomorrow for her and him.Even so, she still longed for him to say, "Don't get married." It was with this hope that she went to see him. She suddenly understood, how ridiculous is this idea?Jiang Yanzhong went to bed with her to finish what he hadn't done fifteen years ago.He wanted to enter her body, go to that place he had never been to, and fill up the regrets of the past, as if this was perfect enough to draw a full stop. But she thought that he had also loved her for fifteen years.At the moment of physical entanglement, the two of them were thinking a little differently. Tonight, he no longer has any regrets.She no longer has either.She knew that her missing might be lonely.All reunion stories also have their own arms. She made a phone call to a woman surnamed Xia and told her: "I found what I was looking for." "Does he recognize you?" "He knows me." "Then you are very lucky." "Yes. Thank you. Miss Xia, I think your voice is very familiar." "Really?" She smiled on the other end of the phone. The clock on the head pointed to eleven o'clock, and it was almost tomorrow.She felt that yesterday was better.Yesterday's dream was relatively long. She turned on the radio and heard a familiar voice say: "If you had the chance to go back in time, which year would you go back to?" Isn't this the voice of a woman surnamed Xia? (full text)