Chapter 2 Chapter Two Seventy Summers

"It's me, you don't send air anymore, I won't accept it anymore, you are fine, but we can't, I can't tolerate another person in my heart, we are not two substances that can collide." I breathed That's it.He is silent. "Did you hear that?" I wondered if he was still listening. "Yeah." He answered me. I looked at the F15 fighter he built in front of me, and wanted to ask him: "Can we still be friends?" But I felt that I was very naive, so I finally didn't speak. A spoiled young master like him probably won't be willing to be my friend anymore.

Sure enough, Gao Haiming did not send another thirty-third can of air. In order to promote a new brand of shampoo and conditioner that his company represented, I had to go to his company for a meeting. Fortunately, it was not him who had the meeting with me, but the person in charge of the marketing department. I went to his company several times and passed him. I can't even see him in my office. He seems to be avoiding me on purpose. On this day, after a meeting in his company's conference room, I passed by his office, and I finally saw him, as usual, with his head down and building a model.

"Hey." I stood outside the door and greeted him. He looked up at me with a slightly embarrassed expression. "What kind of fighter is this?" I asked him. "This is F Eighteen D," he said. "You built the thirty-fourth fighter plane?" I remember he said last time, including mine, he built a total of thirty-three fighter planes. "Yeah." He nodded and continued to build his fighter. "Don't bother you anymore." I said. "Am I being persistent?" he asked me. I shook my head: "People who study science are very persistent. Every scientific theory may be overturned by others in the future. Scientists firmly believe that their theories will stand the test of time and will not be overthrown."

"Yes, two substances cannot collide, it's just a matter of time." "Goodbye." I said. When I turned to leave, I suddenly understood why he gave me 33 cans of air, because he also built 33 models of fighter planes. He said that 33 fighter planes in different corners represent love.Thirty-three cans of air, does that mean the same thing? I feel so worthless, this is my first job, and this is happening to my first client. In the next few months, Gao Haiming didn't look for me again. "Will you go to Xiaojue's graduation ceremony?" On this day, Mengmeng asked me.

"The air ticket is expensive, it won't happen, and he will come back the day after the graduation ceremony." I said. Unexpectedly, it will be three years so soon, and in four months, Xiaojue will graduate. "That's a pity." Mengmeng said, "Didn't I hear that some air tickets are very cheap?" I was really eager to attend Xiaojue's college graduation ceremony, this day is very important to him. I bought a ticket to the UK from a travel agency, and it was much cheaper than a direct flight ticket. Xiaojue decided to come back the next day after the graduation ceremony. I didn't tell him that I would go to England. I wanted to give him a surprise.

I took a three-day vacation to the UK, and I thought it would go well. Unexpectedly, when I was connecting in Dubai, the airport was blocked, and many soldiers with live ammunition entered the airport.I heard on the radio that the Islamic Allah claimed to have planted a bomb at the airport, so the military wanted to seal off the airport and search it, and all flights were forced to be cancelled. If I wait another day, I won't be able to attend Xiaojue's graduation ceremony in time. I waited for two days at the Dubai airport, the airport has not been unsealed, and there is no time to attend Xiaojue’s graduation ceremony. I called Xiaojue at the airport, and I had to tell him at this time. I called him in his dormitory room. The woman answers the phone.

"He's not here," she said in English. Who is she?Probably his roommate's girlfriend. I told her about my situation. "I'll tell him," she said. I spent two days alone in Dubai, I really hated myself, why would I buy this kind of air ticket cheaply?It was ten o'clock in the morning, and Xiaojue had already put on her graduation gown and was sitting in the auditorium. The airport was finally unsealed, and the plane arrived at Heathrow Airport. Before Xiaojue, I took the train to the University of Bristol. "He left this morning," said his roommate.

His ticket left today, I thought he would wait for me, maybe the ticket cannot be extended. I have been waiting at the airport for a make-up flight back to Hong Kong. I have been waiting for a day, and I don't know when I will wait. I finally couldn't help crying in the airport toilet, and a British woman comforted me: "Are you OK?" I shook my head. In fact, I was tired and hungry. I didn't expect that I would be stranded at Heathrow Airport. I called Xiaojue at the airport, and he really went home. "Where are you?" he asked me. "At Heathrow Airport, waiting for a seat."

"They said there were no seats for the next week, so I had to come back," he said. "I know." I fought back tears, not wanting him to worry, "I will be back soon." On the second day, I finally got the seat. When I arrived in Hong Kong, I went straight to Xiao Jue’s home in North Point. He was having dinner with his mother, three older sisters, brother-in-law and two nephews. I thought we would hug at Heathrow Airport, but I didn’t expect it to be so bad. I haven't seen her for three years, but Xiaojue seems to have grown taller, perhaps because she lost weight.

I thought a lot about what to say to him, but in front of so many people, I couldn't open my mouth. "Sit down and eat, Huan'er." His mother told me. "When you come back from your studies, you must repay someone." His third sister said. I smiled and looked at Xiaojue, as long as he has achievements, no matter how hard I work, it will be worth it. "That person is me, your tuition is really not cheap." His third sister said while picking a dish of food in front of me with chopsticks. She even erased my credit!I don't like his third sister, she has always been a snobbish woman.

After dinner, Xiaojue sent me home. "You haven't walked this road with me for three years." I said, holding his hand. "Thank you for allowing me to study for the past three years." He said. "Don't say that—" I stopped him. "I will pay you back the money I make in the future." "I don't want you to pay it back." I said. He put his hands on my arms: "I will give you happiness." At that moment, I had the feeling that all hardships are rewarded, and I was about to shed tears. "What job are you looking for?" I asked him. "Of course it is an internship in an accounting firm. There are several big accounting firms in Hong Kong. I will start writing a cover letter tomorrow." "Why are there girls on the phone when I call you in Dubai?" "She's my roommate's girlfriend." I got it right. "I thought it was someone." I said. "Don't you believe me?" "How could it be? I don't know who to trust except you." "You're thin." He said, touching my cheek. "Never mind." I said. It's been almost half a month, and Xiaojue still can't find a job. "Didn't you go for an interview that day? What was the result?" I asked him. "They hired me." "Then why don't you go to work?" "That accounting firm is too small." He said, "I want to join Ma Cao Accounting Firm, which is the largest Chinese-funded accounting firm in the bank." "Did you write a letter to apply?" "I wrote it, but there is no response. This kind of Chinese-funded company needs some personnel relations, and I don't have any." The next day, I bit the bullet and called Gao Haiming. I haven't seen him for a long time. "It's me, Qiu Huaner." I said. "Huan'er?" His voice was a little excited. "Can I ask you a favor?" "What's up?" "You said that your brother-in-law is a partner of Ma Cao's accounting firm, can you ask your sister to recommend someone to your brother-in-law?" "Who?" he asked me. "His name is Ou Xiaojue. He just graduated from the University of Bristol in the UK. He has already written an application letter, but there has been no reply." "Okay, let me try." "Thank you." I said. I turned him down and then begged him, and I didn't expect him to actually help. Two days later, Xiaojue happily told me: "Ma Cao Accountant Building asked me to go for an interview." Gao Haiming helped me. Xiaojue was notified of her admission on the same day. "What time do you go to work?" I asked him. "The first of next month," he said. "That's gotta have some decent suits," I said. "Where do I get the money? I don't even have a credit card. I just wear old clothes." "How can it be? Didn't you say that it is a big accountant's office? You must dress decently." I accompanied Xiaojue to buy suits, he chose two suits, and I paid for him. "Where did you get the money?" he asked me. "Isn't it enough to sign the card? There is no need to pay back the money immediately." I put two thousand yuan in his wallet and said, "You need money to go to work." Luckily, he was getting paid more than me to begin with, and I was already deeply in debt. In order to thank Gao Haiming for his help, I am going to give him a gift.He likes fighter plane models so much, why not give him a box of models? I went to the model shop in Mongkok where Gao Haiming made models, and saw the boss again. "It's you again?" He recognized me, "Do you want someone to build a model again?" "What kind of fighter plane hasn't been built by the person who built the model?" I asked him. "A lot of them have been built." I browsed in front of the model rack and found an interesting looking model fighter plane. "What fighter is this?" I asked the boss. "EA-6A Wild Weasel, not very new." "Has he built it?" "It seems not yet." "I want this one, please wrap it up for me." "Aren't you looking for him to build?" The boss asked me. "I'll just take it." He was a little baffled. "Did you know him?" he asked me. I smiled and shook my head. The next day, I made a special trip to deliver gifts to Gao Haiming, but his secretary said he was not there. "Can you give this to him for me?" I asked his secretary. "of course can." The next day, in the office, I received a call from Gao Haiming. "Thank you for the gift," he said. "No, I thank you for your help." "Have you ever seen a wild weasel?" "You mean fighter jets?" "No, I mean wild weasel." "I haven't seen it. That fighter plane was designed according to the appearance of a wild weasel, right? A wild weasel probably looks like that." "Wild weasels will shoot out an extremely stinky liquid from their anus when they encounter enemies. The people who are shot can only barely wash away the smell even if they soak in vanilla water for three days and three nights." "No wonder the name of the fighter is Wild Weasel." I said with a smile. "In fact, weasels are kind and will only fight back when they are attacked. When two male weasels compete for a female, there is also a gentleman's agreement, that is, they can slap each other and bite each other with their mouths, but they will not hurt each other with stinky liquid. other side." "They are very gentlemen." I don't know if Gao Haiming means that he will have a gentleman's contest with Xiaojue.His willingness to recommend Xiaojue is also an expression of a gentleman's demeanor. "Anyway, thanks for your help," I said. "You don't need to say thank you to me, never," he said, "Even if you don't love me, I will protect you for the rest of my life." I am speechless. Sometimes, I can't believe that there is a man who is so kind to me. Maybe, when a man can't get a woman, he will say "I will protect you forever", "You never need to say thank you to me" In the case of deep love, they deliberately opened a wound for themselves, but this wound will heal soon, and they will forget their promise to this woman. "Xiaojue, will you make a promise to me?" I asked Xiaojue. "What promise?" he asked me. "I don't know." I snuggled up to him. "Why do men always make promises to women, but not women to men?" he asked me. "Because women are the animals that like to listen to promises the most in the world. Can you make me a promise?" "I will love you for seventy summers." Xiaojue said. "Why is it summer?" "it is summer now." "Seventy summers, really?" "Unless there is no more summer in the world." He vowed. "Xiaojue, you have changed. You used to not be able to speak sweet words." "You asked me to tell you." He looked a little innocent. I hope my feeling is wrong, I feel that Xiaojue is a little different from when she left me three years ago.I don't know if this difference is because we haven't seen each other for three years, so it takes a little getting used to, or something else. "Are you used to this job?" I asked him. "It's not bad, but the people there seem to be very snobby." "Facing numbers every day, it is inevitable." I comforted him. "I still have exams to take," he said. "Is there enough money?" I asked him. He nods. I took out a thousand yuan from my wallet and gave it to him: "I still have it here." "No need," he said. "You're different from me. You're an accountant. You can't be too poor. Do you want to bring a lunch box back to eat?" "I will pay you back when I take my salary." "Do you still care about me?" "Don't blame my sister, she—" "I didn't," I said. It’s hard to get to the day of salary payment, except for the money to be returned to Mengmeng’s mother, the household to father and the payment of credit cards, there is not much left. Fortunately, I received a call from Zhu Danni in the afternoon. She is my MLM client. In Quarry Bay, I often introduce other customers to me.She is a troublesome person. If it is not for the sake of money, I really don't like dealing with her.For example, on this day, she called in the afternoon and asked me to deliver the goods to her in the evening. "If you're not free, you don't have to have dinner with me." Xiaojue said. "No, I can leave at half past eight." I said. Zhu Danni and three wives were playing mahjong in a restaurant. When I went there, Zhu Danni lost a lot of money. "Miss Zhu, your diamond ring is so beautiful." I saw a new diamond ring on her left ring finger. "I just bought it today, so I'm losing money now." She complained, "I really want to eat pork and carrots, do you have any here?" The woman sitting across from her said: "How can there be pigs and carrots in this place!" "There seems to be a stall nearby, I'll buy it." I said. "How embarrassing?" Zhu Danni said. "It doesn't matter, I want to eat too." I said. I went to a nearby food stall and bought a large box of pig carrots, and I just ran into Xiaojue at this time. "What are you holding?" he asked me. "I'll be there soon," I said. I hurried up to the restaurant and accidentally splashed carrot juice on my skirt. What a pity. "Thank you." Zhu Dani said. "How about this shop?" I asked Danni Zhu. "I win as soon as you run away," she said bluntly. "It's my fault." "How much?" "Oh, what a joke." "I mean the skin care products." "Oh, here's the receipt." I handed the receipt to her. "Oh, it hurts." She rubbed her shoulders with her hands. "Is it here?" I rubbed her shoulders for her. "Yes, very comfortable." I just wanted to rub her a couple of times, but I'm too embarrassed to stop at this time. "Thank you." Zhu Danni gave me the money. "Then I'll go first." I said. Coming out of the room, Xiaojue was standing outside the room. "Where are we going to eat?" I asked him. "Whatever you want," he said. "In two years, I won't be a distributor." I said. I thought, in another two years, when the salary is better and Xiaojue can make money, I don't want to be this kind of slave. "I paid my salary today," I told him. "yes?" He seemed listless. When he sent me home, I asked him, "Is there something going on today?" "No," he said. He seems to have a lot more on his mind now than before. For the next two months or so, Xiaojue said she would work overtime, and we rarely saw each other. "May I come to your house for dinner tonight?" I asked him on the phone that day. "Yeah," he said. I ate at his house, but he didn't come home to eat.That night, he waited until twelve o'clock before he came back. "Aren't you leaving yet?" he asked me. "Busy?" I asked him. He nods. "Then I'm going back, you don't have to send me off." "Yeah," he said. I didn't expect that he really wasn't going to send me off. "Are you busy recently?" I asked him. "Yeah." He closed his eyes and said. "Then you have to be careful not to get hurt." I covered him with a quilt before leaving. As soon as I left Xiaojue's home, I received a call from Mengmeng. Anyway, I was also puzzled, so I asked her to have coffee in Tsim Sha Tsui. "I did that with Hu Tiehan," she said. "What did you do?" I was confused. "That's it!" She winked at me. "No way? When did you start?" "The time you went to England, I was very bored. I asked him out, and there was no one else available. It was just the two of us. We talked a lot. It turns out that although we have known each other for a long time, we have never understood each other very well." "You guys went to bed that night?" "no." "One day, I went to the police station to pick him up from get off work, and he came out with a large bunch of ginger flowers in his arms. Who would give ginger flowers to girls? He is the kind of person." "It's better to say that you have had a crush on him for a long time." I said. "We went to bed in the scent of ginger flowers." She looked very memorable. "Why are you listless?" she asked me. "I think Xiaojue seems to be different from before when she comes back." "Has he changed his mind?" "He won't." "We are all so young, how can we expect to never change." "You and Tiehan are still walking together, the relationship between childhood sweethearts is very strong." I said. "Is Gao Haiming still looking for you?" "there is none left." "Hey, why do men like women's breasts so much?" Meng Meng asked me suddenly, she didn't listen to me at all, she was still thinking about Tie Han. "How do I know? I'm not a man." I laughed. "Could it be because he doesn't have one himself?" "Maybe it's their insecurity." "Women are also insecure!" "A woman's breasts are a man's shoulders," I said. "That feeling is so warm." Mengmeng said sweetly. After Xiaojue came back to Hong Kong, I only had sex with him three times. "Don't worry, maybe he will grow up, everyone will grow up, this is unavoidable." Mengmeng said. Maybe Xiaojue has really grown up, and I need some time to understand this kind of growth. "Tie Han graduated from the police academy this weekend, I booked a table for dinner, you must come." Mengmeng said. "Sure." I said. "What gift should we buy for Tiehan?" I asked Xiaojue on the phone. "You decide, I'm not free these days." He said. "Xiaojue, is there nothing going on between us?" I couldn't help asking him. "What's the matter?" He asked me back. "Maybe I'm suspicious, see you on the weekend." After get off work, I bought a military watch for Tie Han from a store selling military supplies in a nearby shopping mall.Next to the military shop, there is a model shop. I saw a built Wild Weasel fighter plane in the window. Did Gao Haiming have already built his one? On the weekend night, Mengmeng, Tiehan, Yu Deren, Xiaojue and I had dinner by the hotel pool. "Xiaojue and I chose it, do you like it?" I gave the military watch to Tie Han. "I like it." Mengmeng snatched it from Tie Han, put it on, and said to Tie Han, "We each take turns wearing it for a day." "Let's cut the cake!" Yu Deren said, "It's to celebrate Tie Han officially becoming a policeman." The iron man was cutting the cake, and I passed the cake to Xiaojue, Mengmeng's elbow hit me, and I accidentally poured the cake on Xiaojue's pants. "Shit! You're so stupid!" He pushed the cake off his trousers with one hand and scolded me fiercely. He had never tried to talk to me like this before, and it was in public. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't bear it. For the sake of face, I insisted and said to him: "Why are you losing your temper so much? It's not a big deal." "It's all because of my carelessness." Mengmeng said. He stopped talking all night. The atmosphere, the eerie silence, we've never been like this before. "I'm sorry." I told him on the way home. "You don't have to tell me you're sorry, you're the one who paid me to study." "I never intended to threaten you with this," I explained. "Maybe we've been apart for so long, don't you think we're all different?" he said. "What happened?" I asked him. "Nothing," he said. "Are you in love with someone else?" I asked him. "Do I look like it?" He asked me back. "You've changed." I said. "You have also changed." He said, "I saw you serving people like that in the restaurant that day, don't you think that you are so low?" I didn't expect this sentence to come out of his mouth. This sentence is more uncomfortable than when he scolded me for being stupid just now.He is my boyfriend, how could he criticize me like this?It turned out that he had kept this matter in his heart all along, and he only said it now. "It's about the money, too," I said. "I will pay you back the money you paid for my education in the past three years," he said. "What do you mean?" I asked him, "I said it's for the money, but I don't want you to pay it back." "That's what I owe you." "Xiaojue, what do you mean?" I couldn't help crying. "Maybe we're not on the same page," he said. "Out of step?" I couldn't believe it. "In the past three years, everyone has been in a different environment—" "We have correspondence!" "How much do you know about the hardships I suffered in England?" He asked me back, "In winter, the heating in the room I lived in was broken. I put on all the clothes I brought, but I was still shivering all over the body and couldn't sleep all night. sleep. Do you know how many times I slipped and fell on the icy ground?" I was speechless. In the past three years, I had suffered so much. I thought he would know, but he didn't think about me at all.I thought we were suffering together, but he thought he was suffering alone. "Calm down, everyone," he said. I cried secretly all night in my room. "What's the matter?" Le'er, who was sleeping next to me, asked me. "It's okay." I said. She slept with my back on her back. Ten years, I don't believe Xiaojue will leave me, he is not that kind of person, he will not leave me. When I returned to the office the next day, I couldn't work hard. Fang Yuan happily told me that the bottle of 1982 PETRUS I bought for him had increased in value again. I stood in front of the mirror in the bathroom and looked at myself. Am I really as low as Xiaojue said?When I'm trying to make money, am I so ugly that no man will ever fall in love with me? Wang Zhen came out from the toilet. She was wearing a vest and shorts.Originally thin and thin, her arms became very strong, her shoulders became wider, and her belly disappeared. "You—" I don't know when she became like this. "I went to the gym. After the workout, I got better. Now I really love fitness. My trainer is Mr. Hong Kong." She looked proudly in the mirror. Yes, everything changes. "Huan'er, are you afraid of losing Xiaojue?" Mengmeng asked me. "Scared, more scared than death." I said. "He is your first man, most women don't end up with the first man, I want you to remember, in case you lose him—" "Do you think he will change?" I stopped her from going on. "Who can guarantee that he won't change? He never treated you like that day before. You love him so much, that's why he dared to hurt you. " "He loves me, but we have been separated for three years and need a little time to adjust." I dare not tell Mengmeng, Xiaojue said that I am inferior, for a woman, these two words hurt people's heart more than "I don't love you".I can be criticized for being inferior by any man, but it cannot be my own man. "Sometimes I envy you." Mengmeng said. "What do I have to envy? I envy you." "It takes a lot of love to trust a man like this." "Yes, if he changes, I will have nothing. If Xiaojue also changes, I won't love any man anymore." I said. "We seem to say that Xiaojue will change, but won't!" Mengmeng patted the back of my hand, "Let's go home and wait for his call." I hurried home and waited for Xiaojue's call. "elder sister." Leer showed me her report card. Her grades were terrible, she only passed two subjects. "Did you study hard?" I was very angry. "I ran into brother Xiaojue on the street today," she said. "Don't change the subject." "He was with a woman." "It's a colleague, what's so special." "They are very intimate!" My heart felt like an ax was slashed. He fell in love with someone else, and he wanted to leave, not because I was inferior, but because he no longer loved me.Low profile is just an excuse. After get off work the next day, I waited for him outside the accountant building where he worked.He was a little taken aback when he saw me. "Huan'er, what are you doing here?" He asked me. "Aren't you going to find me again?" "I just want everyone to calm down." "Do you have a third party?" I asked him bluntly. "If there is a problem between us, there is also a problem with whether there is a third party." "Is there anyway?" I asked him. "No." He said emphatically. Could it be that Leer lied? "I really don't understand, we waited for three years, and finally we can be together, why did it become like this?" I asked him sadly. "I know you have done a lot for me in the past three years, and I am not an ungrateful person." "You don't have to stay by my side for the sake of grace, that's not what I need." "Can we all calm down? Maybe we have been separated for too long, and it takes a little time to get used to it." I wonder if he can speak so calmly, does it mean that at this moment, I love him far more than he loves me? When I got home at night, I was about to scold Le'er, but my father was worrying in the room. "Le'er hasn't come back yet," he said. I looked at my watch, it was twelve o'clock in the evening, Le'er had never tried to stay home so late. I checked Le'er's drawer and found that she had taken her ID card and some clothes, and the 800 yuan I put in the drawer was also gone. "Let's go to the police, she ran away from home." It was more than two o'clock when I left the police station, and I didn't dare to wake up Xiaojue. Only then did I think of Tie Han. "Although it's not in my area, I can help you find your sister after get off work." Tie Han said, "Maybe she just went out for a few days, don't worry too much." The next day, I told Xiaojue that my sister was missing. "I'm not at work today, I'll be looking around," I said. "There are so many people, where can I find them?" He said, "I can't ask for leave today." My father and I looked for her in the places Le'er usually likes to go. We searched for her all day, but we couldn't find her. The next day, agents from the Missing Persons Unit came to take statements. "Who else does your sister associate with?" the detective asked me. I couldn't help sobbing on the table. There is no news from Tie Han's side. I pay attention to the newspaper every day, and when I see the news about the discovery of a dead body, I am very frightened, worried that it might be Le Er. For two weeks, there is no news from Leer. Dad and I still have to go to work as usual. There is one less person in the family, and it has become very deserted.Dad drinks every night. "Am I a bad dad?" he asked me. "None of us knew her," I said. Le Er's personality is not like my father and me. She doesn't talk much and is not good at communicating with others. On this day, I went to Gao Haiming's company for a meeting and ran into him in the elevator. "You look bad," he said. "Something happened at home recently." I said. "What's up?" "My sister is missing, she ran away from home." "How old is your sister?" "Thirteen." "So small?" "I have reported it to the police, and it's been almost a month, but I still can't find it." "Do you have a picture of her, I'll keep an eye out for you." I found a picture of me and Leer in my wallet. "Only this one." I said. He took the photo and said, "I'll keep this." Every day at noon and after get off work, I strolled on the street, hoping to meet Leer on the street one day.Walking on the street, I realized for the first time what is meant by a vast crowd. On this day, I was tired from walking, so I called Xiaojue. "I want to see you so much, can you?" I choked up. "Don't cry, where are you?" he asked me. We met at a restaurant in Causeway Bay. "My sister is missing, you know?" I asked him. "How could I not know?" "But you don't seem nervous at all, you don't even have time to accompany me to find her." I blamed him. "Where did you tell me to look for it? Hu Tiehan can't even find it. Is there anything I can do? I don't get off work until ten o'clock every night. I have to get off work, and I have to take exams. You know that." "Forget it," I said, "you don't care about me at all." "What do you think of me?" "What are the two of you together for? When I need you, you are not by my side." "Don't make trouble for no reason, okay? Where do you tell me to find your sister?" Once upon a time, I saw love and tenderness in Xiaojue's eyes, but at this moment, I can no longer see this emotion in his eyes, but only a frustrated reflection of me in his pupils.I'm a bit at a loss, when will he stop loving me? "Do you have a third party?" I asked him. This time, he didn't answer me. I am heartbroken. "How long has it been since?" My voice trembled. "Even if there is a third party, it has nothing to do with our affairs." "Did you forget what you said? You said, unless there is no summer—" I asked him sadly. He is silent. "say something!" "Why do you get to the bottom of everything?" he asked me back. "Unless there is no summer—" I repeated sadly. This sentence, he said not long ago, is vivid in his memory. "That's what I thought—" he said. "At that time?" I laughed, "Have you ever loved me?" He nods. I suddenly felt stupid, I couldn't listen to a word he said, I just wanted him to help me deceive myself, I didn't dare to ask him: "Do you love me now?" "Let's talk about it after finding your sister," he said. "Did you find your sister?" Yu Deren called me and asked. "Not yet," I said. "I'll accompany you to look for it tomorrow, okay?" "great, see you tomorrow." After get off work the next day, someone from Yude drove to pick me up. "Where did you get a car?" I asked him. "Ask a friend to borrow it. It's more convenient to have a car." "Thank you." "You've lost a lot of weight." "yes?" Yu Deren drove from Hong Kong to Sai Kung. "That's Big Wave Bay over there. Do you remember that we stayed in Big Wave Bay for one night? That haunted house is really scary." Yu Deren said. How can I not remember?If we hadn't grown up, would Xiaojue have always stayed by my side? "How are you and Xiaojue?" Yu Deren asked me. "He's breaking up—" I said sadly. "How can he do this?" "Stop talking." I stopped him. We walked from Sai Kung to Tsim Sha Tsui. I looked at every girl passing by on the street, but I couldn't see Le Er. "Don't look for it anymore, you can't find it, go home." I said. I was so tired that I fell asleep on the chair. "Here we are." Yu Deren said softly. "Yeah." I opened my eyes and found Yu Deren holding my hand. "What are you doing?" I flinched. Flushing all over his face, he explained to me, "I've always liked you, too." "I'll tell Xiaojue." I angrily took off my seat belt and got out of the car. "Huan'er—" Yu Deren chased after him. "I didn't expect you to be this kind of person." I scolded him. "Am I not qualified to like you?" He asked me back. "Yes, you are not eligible." I said. "why?" I can't answer. "You have always looked down on me." Yu Deren said. He was right, I looked down on him at all in my heart, and never thought about the possibility of him and me. "You think I'm mean at all, don't you?" he said despondently. Low format?Isn't this exactly Xiaojue's criticism of me?It turns out that Yu Deren and I are the same kind of people.People who are not loved by others become inferior. "I'm as low as you at all." I said with tears. "I'm sorry." Yu Deren said ashamedly. I raised my hand and said, "Don't tell Xiaojue." As soon as I got home, I received a call from Gao Haiming. "I found your sister," he said on the phone. "Really? Where is she?" "I work in a flower shop in Huaxuan. I'm off work now. I can find her only after dawn. I'll accompany you tomorrow." Why did Leer hide in the flower shop? At five o'clock in the morning, Gao Haiming drove me to the flower market, and I saw Le Er carrying goods in a flower shop. She cut her long hair short, and she looked a little older than she actually was. "Le'er—" I called her. When she saw me, she was not surprised at all. She is such a person. Sometimes, she doesn't even have any expression on her face. "Why did you run away from home?" I asked her. "I don't like reading," she said. I had planned many words to scold her, but at this moment, I reached out and touched her head. "Go home." I told her. Dad was very happy to see Leer. To thank Gao Haiming, I invited him to dinner at his favorite Italian restaurant in Wanchai. "Thank you," I said. "How did you find her?" "I took the photo and looked around, and I also asked a private detective for help. Yesterday, unexpectedly, I saw her in the Flower Market. I'm not sure if it's her. She is still very young in the photo." "That was taken two years ago." "Where did she live while she was away?" "She is very courageous, she sleeps in the park or in the hotel." "Why did you think she was in the Flower Market?" "I also ran away from home once." Gao Haiming said. "yes?" "I went to work in a factory, and my mother hired a private detective to find me two weeks later. On the first day I left home, I went to the Flower Market. I bought a lot of daisies with half of my money." "Half the money to buy daisies?" "I like it," he said. "Why did you leave?" I asked him. "Maybe it was too boring. I actually had a lot of fun during those two weeks. Now, if the work is not satisfactory, I would like to leave, but I don't have the courage anymore." "I never had the courage." "You're happier," he said. "happiness?" "You don't have to hide from reality." "I think you and my sister are happier, you can leave if you don't like it." “你妹妹以后打算怎样？” “爸爸害怕她会再出走，不敢逼她继续念书。” “有没有想过让她出国？也许香港的读书环境并不适合她。” “我哪有本事供她？” “她有兴趣去日本吗？我有一个日本朋友，可以帮得上忙的。先让你妹妹去日本学习语言，住在我朋友家里，他和太太会照顾她的，生活费不成问题，他们以前也帮忙一些留学生。” “学费也要钱呀。” “和生活费相比，学费就很便宜了，我可以帮忙。” “不可以要你帮忙的。” 我不想再欠高海明。 “你何不问问你妹妹的想法？给她一个机会吧。” 回家路上，我想，我肯供晓觉出国，却不肯帮自己的妹妹，似乎太过分了。 “乐儿，你想去日本念书吗？”我试探她的口气。 “真的可以去吗？”她雀跃地问我。 高海明说得对，我该给她一条出路。