Chapter 9 Part IX

81 I don't quite remember whether their fruitless dreams have no color or no sound. If there is no color—— In my dreams, the colorful bar symbol that appeared at the end of all TV programs in the middle of the night often appeared.That is to say, I often dream that I watch TV alone until late at night, and see that the whole world is dormant, and even the TV will display such a symbol, telling you that I am going to rest. And if there is no sound—— In my dreams, there are often the sounds of textbooks in the classroom being flipped by countless hands, and the cicadas outside the window are broken by the electric fan above the head, and they are scattered on the eyelids, intermittently and endlessly.The air is full of summer heat that is constantly evaporating.Bored people panic.Even the blackboard seems to have grown a layer of gray and white spots in such a humid and hot weather.The students on duty after class always complain.Then wave the blackboard eraser even harder.That swipe, swipe, swipe sound.And those unidentified weeping voices.Sometimes it's choking, sometimes it's whimpering.Sometimes weeping.Sometimes it's crying.Then day by day, it slowly turned into a cry.

Is that right? really? Is there anything in the dream? 82 Qi Ming brought back from the office the burden that the teacher had approved yesterday. Did not fall, but was blown to a higher sky. In fact, I don't know why they fly so high.No wings, no feathers. Just because it's light?Just because there is no weight? So can we always drift with the wind like this? Countless tiny grass seeds are wrapped in the spring wind. They are also like those light plastic bags, blown by the wind to countless ignorant regions. Die in cold cities, thrive in damp deserts. Then it dyes time and space into thousands of indistinguishable greens.

There was such a scene in my dream, I used my hands to push aside the lush soft tall grass, and there was a dark corpse underneath. 82 When he was almost at the door of the classroom, the preparatory bell rang at the end of the corridor. The rare sunlight in winter shone through the tall windows, casting huge spots of light on the ground. In the air where the dust is floating, countless small galaxy moves like a slow motion motion. Like those tiny universes on the slides you saw in geography class. There was a lot of noise in the classroom. When he walked in, he saw a crowd gathered together, and through the gap between his shoulders, he saw Tang Xiaomi standing in the middle of the crowd.It was still that innocent and beautiful face.

Qi Ming squeezed through the crowd and walked towards his seat. When passing by Tang Xiaomi's seat, he saw her unrecognizable table.Chalk tips of different lengths and sticky white powder are all fixed on the tabletop by the dried glue. The boy who has something good to do pokes it with a pen, "Oh, it's stuck so firmly, this table is useless." "Who did you offend, Tang Xiaomi?" A girl gave her a sympathetic look. "I don't know..." It was still such an innocent and beautiful tone and expression, like the purest white soft flower, blooming crystal clear in the first light of the morning.

Qi Ming turned his head, put a stack of homework books on the podium, then sat back in his seat, took out the textbooks for the first class, and put the Gacha in his schoolbag.She raised her head to look at Yi Yao's seat, which was still beside the air leaking window, empty, as if no one had ever sat there.A ray of light came from the gaps in the leaves outside the window, and fixedly illuminated a small area of ​​the table. Did not sleep well last night.Or to be more precise, he didn't sleep last night. Qi Ming raised his hand and rubbed his red eye sockets.Everything in sight is superimposed with a layer of transparent phantom.Like a lens out of focus.

The class bell dispersed the noisy crowd and returned to their seats to sit again.Only Tang Xiaomi was left standing in his seat with his innocent face up. "Tang Xiaomi, it's time for class." The head teacher pushed his eyes and reminded. "Teacher, my desk..." The class teacher turned around, and after seeing her messy desktop clearly, her chest was visibly enlarged, "How did this happen? Who did it?" Tang Xiaomi shook his head. "Yesterday, Yi Yao locked the door." The labor committee member sitting behind leaned on the back of the chair, turning the mechanical pencil in his hand, "Ask Yi Yao if he should know, but..." Then he turned his head to Yi Yao Empty seats.

It was as if a bug had crawled into the blood vessel, crawling disgustingly towards the heart inch by inch. "Yi Yao didn't come to class?" The head teacher's expression became ugly. There was silence in the classroom.No one answered. It's just that various expressions emerged from everyone's faces.With their own ideas, they express their hearts vividly and vividly. "Forget it, it doesn't matter, it probably wasn't someone's intention. I'll just clean it up after class." Tang Xiaomi raised her hand and twisted the hair hanging down her face back behind her ears.

--never mind. - it doesn't matter. ——Probably no one did it on purpose. ——I just clean it up after class. Every word is like a dagger glowing green in the dark.Swipe towards a certain target and stab it with precision. There was a smell of blood in the darkness.It's suffocatingly sweet. "Then teacher, I'll get this desk after school, can I use Yi Yao's desk first?" Tang Xiaomi raised her head and asked seriously: "Anyway, she didn't come to class today, so I can borrow it first?" "Well, you move there first." The head teacher opened the handout, and this little accident was over.But at the end he still added: "It's really outrageous."

A boy volunteered to move Yi Yao's table over, carefully arranged it for Tang Xiaomi, and then dragged the unrecognizable table to the window and placed it heavily. Tang Xiaomi sat down, smiled and said "thank you" to the boy, her beautiful expression looked transparent and soft in the sunlight. 83 Finally climbed into the heart.That fat, disgusting bug. The tingling sensation of being bitten and devoured.Passed along the blood to the scalp, throbbing on the temples. 84 "He doesn't have a tie! Why didn't the director of the Academic Affairs Office arrest him? It's not fair!"

"His eyes are so beautiful, his eyelashes look like fake." "He has a very straight nose." "You're horny~" "what?" Such conversations happen every day among girls gathered in schools, whether in Shanghai or any other city in the country.The target of the above conversation is Gu Senxi, who is leaning against the door of the classroom and looking in. With one hand on the edge of the door frame, he leaned half of his body and looked into the classroom. After searching for a long time, he finally gave up. He reached out and grabbed a girl beside him who was walking into the classroom with her head down. Because she was too hard, the girl opened her mouth. screamed.Gu Senxi was also taken aback, and quickly let go of his hands, spread his hands to show his "innocence", and asked, "Is Yi Yao there?"

Tang Xiaomi, who was talking with a group of girls at the blackboard, turned her head, squinted her eyes and looked at Gu Senxi for a while, then smiled, "She didn't come to class." "Oh? Why?" Gu Senxi frowned. "How do I know, maybe at home..." Tang Xiaomi paused, and said with a brighter smile, "Take care of yourself." Quiet laughter came from all over the classroom.Like snakes, insects, rats and ants scurrying in the dark. But more unscrupulous than them.Whether he raised his hand to cover his mouth, or lowered his voice and suffocated in his throat, they all presumptuously exaggerated a sense of deliberate fear that others would not see and hear. ——just to laugh at you. ——I just wanted to laugh for you. Gu Senxi gathered his expression, and looked quietly at Tang Xiaomi who was smiling brightly in front of him. Tang Xiaomi was still smiling and looking at him. Her delicate eyebrows, eyes, and bright lips all expressed a peacock-like pride and tenderness. A beautiful posture conveys a "how" message. Gu Senxi slowly grinned at the corners of his mouth, revealing his beautiful teeth, as white as a row of ceramics, and smiled intently at Tang Xiaomi.On the contrary, Tang Xiaomi's scalp was a little numb from his laughter, and he left the sentence "crazy" and walked back to his seat. Gu Senxi pulled one corner of his mouth evilly, looked at Tang Xiaomi who was offended by him, and was about to add more fuel to the fire, when he turned around and saw the boy standing in front of him. Holding a stack of collected homework books, a black tie neatly tied around the neckline, a clean white shirt, and straight hair neatly arranged into soft bangs. "Your squad leader?" Gu Senxi defined this for the talented boy in front of him. But he didn't get an answer, Qi Ming changed the heavy homework to the other hand, and said, "Why are you looking for Yi Yao?" Gu Senxi shrugged his shoulders, but didn't answer, just smiled with his teeth showing, turned and left. After walking two steps, he turned around and said to Qi Ming with a half-smile, "Why are you asking this?" 85 When Yi Yao arrived at the school, it was already the last class in the morning. With great difficulty, Yi Yao parked his bicycle in the carport that was so full that he was about to jump out, pulled out the key and rushed to the classroom. All the students are in class, but the sporadic voice of the teacher's explanation from the classroom echoes in the empty campus.I have had this experience before, in the quiet campus, even the leaves are shaking, and I can hear the clear echo. The whole campus looks like an abandoned white hospital. As soon as he walked to the door of the classroom, he called for a report. The teacher turned his face, and realized from the schoolbag that Yi Yao was carrying that it turned out that this was not a student who was "late for this class" but a student who was "truant all morning today".So his face became very ugly.After stopping to say a few words, Yi Yao was allowed to come in for class. Yi Yao walked to the seat, and the hands that were just about to take off the schoolbag from his shoulders stopped halfway, his eyes were firmly fixed on the desk, and he couldn't move away.After a while, he yelled at Tang Xiaomi: "Tang Xiaomi, give me back your table!" Everyone, including the teacher, was taken aback by Yi Yao's voice. After the first few seconds of astonishment passed, the teacher's face flushed red, "Yi Yao, sit down for me! Why are you yelling at me now! " Tang Xiaomi hurriedly stood up, and explained falteringly: "I'm sorry, teacher, it's my fault. I thought Yi Yao wouldn't come to class today, so I temporarily changed my desk that was soiled by others with her." Then she turned around , bowed and nodded to Yi Yao to apologize, "I'll trade it back with you now." Tang Xiaomi dragged the dirty table back to her seat, and was about to sit down, when suddenly she raised her head in a sudden realization: "Huh? How do you know this table is mine?" Sitting down, Yi Yao suddenly stiffened his back. There was no way to turn around.In other words, you can imagine such a face full of innocence and doubts without turning your head. It is also conceivable how such a face is surrounded by monosyllabic words of various emotions such as "oh...", "ah?", "um..." This slowly turned into a proud and proud face, like a victory banner, fluttering in the wind on a certain high point, fluttering. Qi Ming lowered his head, not even having the strength to raise it. Outside the window is the steep spring sky.The sound of howling wind, through the glass, clearly blew past my ears. 86 "Braised pork! Master, add an extra spoon, don't be so stingy!" "I hate vegetables the most!" "Fat meat is disgusting." The line in front of the cafeteria window reached the door, and it was like this every day at noon.Students who move slower can only choose some unpalatable dishes left. Qi Ming and Yi Yao stood at the back of the line.Qi Ming leaned out to look at the still long line ahead, and sighed slightly.Yi Yao, on the other hand, stood there indifferently, with no expression on his face. About the same place across a row, stood Tang Xiaomi. Due to twists and turns in the last class, the teacher can only make up for the lost time by procrastinating the class.It is also reasonable to lead to such a situation where the group is queued very far behind the line. But a few minutes later, Tang Xiaomi smiled brightly and handed the lunch box to the boy at the very front of the line.I didn't know which class it was from, so I took it with a smile and asked in detail what dishes I needed. Yi Yao turned his face away, just in time to meet Qi Ming's gaze. The big wall clock on the wall of the canteen points to one o'clock. The crowd gradually thinned out.The master in the window cleaned up the huge hollowed-out aluminum basin, and the clanging sound echoed a little lonely in the huge space of the cafeteria. "By the way, Gu Senxi came to see you this morning." "Who?" "Gu Senxiang's younger brother, didn't you fall into the pool with him that day?" "Oh." I remembered who it was, "Why does he want me?" "I asked, but he didn't say anything." "Oh." Yi Yao agreed, while picking out the uneaten fatty meat and eggplant from the lunch box. "Do you want beef?" Qi Ming pushed his lunch box towards Yi Yao, "I brought it from home." "Well, no need." Yi Yao shook his head, and just about to say something, he bent down to the side.After a while, he got up and pulled a stack of thick tissues to cover his mouth. "What are you going to do!" Qi Ming lowered his voice and asked a little annoyed. "Don't worry about it," Yi Yao put the lid on the lunch box, "I can do it myself." "You have a way to fart!" Qi Ming resisted not wanting to get angry, and turned his head to the side, "You want money but no money, experience but no experience... Let me tell you, don't be stupid! If you plan to give birth. ....." "Don't be stupid," Yi Yao waved his hand, and didn't want to discuss with him any further. After all, it's not something that can be put on the table, and who knows how many ears are pricked in the air, "You don't want me to give birth to me." will happen." Yi Yao stood up, took the lunch box and walked towards the sink behind the cafeteria.After taking two steps, he turned around and smiled slightly mockingly: "You said that as if you were very experienced." 87 During the lunch break, there is always an atmosphere shrouded in laziness in the school. It's like mixing honey into hot milk, and then stirring slowly, the sweet aroma and heat that continue to evaporate. There were one or two boys on the basketball court. The sound of the basketball hitting the concrete floor echoed briefly in the school. The sun at noon in spring is still oblique, and trees and people are drawn into long shadows, pointing north.Or South?Yi Yao couldn't tell the difference clearly, anyway, this was a geography problem that he had done wrong.When I was commenting on the test papers, I remembered that I used a red pen to draw it, but I still can't recall it now. In other words, next time you take the exam, you will still make mistakes. There was no one in the sink either. Yi Yao originally wanted to throw the rice away, but after looking at the lunch box, the food inside had hardly been touched, so he closed the lid and prepared to take it home.Without waiting for Qi Ming who was still washing the dishes, he left alone. "I want to take a walk alone." Yi Yao waved Qi Ming and walked towards the classroom by himself. In fact, I don't really want to go back to the classroom. After looking at Tang Xiaomi's flower-like face for a long time, I really couldn't help but want to throw sulfuric acid on it. Yi Yao walked around the teaching building, and behind the teacher's office was an almost deserted boulevard.The phoenix trees on both sides are ridiculously big, like those intertwined old trees in the virgin forest in the fantasy world. As Yi Yao walked, he rubbed his right forehead with his hand.A large bulge can be felt through the hair with a finger, and there is a scarred wound on it.What happened last night kept replaying in his mind, as if someone had pressed an infinite loop button, Lin Huafeng pulled his hair and hit the wall over and over again. "Yi Yao." Someone called her.But she didn't hear it, and still walked forward. Yi Yao didn't turn his head until the second louder call came to his ears, but there was no one behind him.Looking around, he saw Gu Senxi smiling and waving at him in the window on the first floor, biting a pen. 88 — What are you doing in the teacher's office? ——Do test papers. --you alone? ——Well, I didn’t go to the last exam, and the teacher fined me to do it all by myself. --Oh. --help me do it. --what? --what. ——Why should I help you? ——Just say you will do it or not? I don't know which window glass the reflection came from. On the test paper spread out on Yi Yao's lap, a small bright white spot dangled slightly. It looked like a magnifying glass was used to ignite a fire in a physics experiment. A piece of paper felt like it was going to turn black at any moment and burst into a cyan flame. Yi Yao sat on the concrete steps under the window, spreading the test paper on his lap. "Hey", something knocked his head, and it happened to hit the wound. Before Yi Yao raised his head and opened his mouth, Gu Senxi inside handed out a thick book with a large format, "Take it and write it." It took a few seconds for Yi Yao to reach out to take it and put it under the test paper, and said, "Let me tell you first, my grades are not good. If you fail, don't complain." "Yeah." Gu Senxi nodded, propping one elbow on the edge of the window, resting her chin, looking down at the specks of white hair protruding from the top of Yi Yao's head. "By the way," Yi Yao raised his head, thinking of something, "You came to the classroom to look for me in the morning?" "Ok." "Is something wrong?" "The last time you put your student card in my coat pocket was the day you fell into the water." Gu Senxi took out the student card from his pocket and handed it to her. "Wait, give it to me when you're done." After finishing speaking, Yi Yao stopped talking, bowed his head and continued to draw back and forth on the draft paper. "You have a lot of hair." Gu Senxi had nothing to say. "Shut up, I won't do it if you bother me any more." Silence overhead. Yi Yao moved around, leaning his back against the wall, and quickly wrote a series of numbers on the draft paper. Gu Senxi grinned above her head, but Yi Yao couldn't see it either. "Give me the test paper." "I haven't finished it yet." After the words came out of his mouth, he realized that the words just now were not Gu Senxi's voice.Yi Yao raised his head, and there was a teacher he didn't know standing in the window, his glasses were reflecting light, and he couldn't even see his eyes. In fact, you don't need to look to know that it is a look full of anger. Yi Yao stood up slowly, thinking to himself, um, good luck. Yi Yao and Gu Senxi stood side by side in the classroom. Yi Yao lowered his head, calmly.Gu Senxi was on the sidelines, also quite calm. On the contrary, the teacher's chest heaved violently, and he drank water after speaking a few words. Yi Yao looked at him and felt that it was so serious, even if his ancestral grave was dug up, he didn't need to be so angry. "Why did you help him with the test paper?" The teacher opened his mouth full of teeth that had turned yellow from smoking, and yelled at Yi Yao, almost spraying his saliva on Yi Yao's face. Yi Yao frowned in disgust, but didn't answer.I just thought in my heart, yes, I still want to know, why should I help him with the test paper. 89 I was scolded for half an hour.Finally, it ends with "one person will write a review and hand it in tomorrow". Yi Yao walked out of the office and walked straight to the classroom, regardless of Gu Senxi's "Hello" behind her back. "Hey," Gu Senxi tugged at the loose tie, "I'm sorry." Yi Yao stopped, turned around and looked at Gu Senxi, paused for a while, then raised his eyebrows, "Go home at night, remember to write down my copy of the inspection together." Gu Senxi shrugged, turned around and walked towards his classroom.When I put my hand in my pocket, I felt the hard card. Forgot to return it to her. Then go find her after school.Thinking of this, Gu Senxi walked towards his class. Maybe it was because of anger, when he walked to the long corridor between the teaching building and the academic building, which was covered with various announcements, Yi Yao felt violently nauseous, and a stream of acidic water came out of his stomach and flowed into his stomach mouth.So he bent over and spit into the spittoon beside him. When I straightened up, I saw a group of not many but not few people gathered in front of the bulletin board a few steps ahead. Yi Yao never cared about this excitement. She wiped the corners of her mouth and walked past the crowd, but was stopped by a few dialogues that fell into her ears. "Who is so shameless?" "Isn't it written in the name column, Yi Yao." "Who is Yi Yao? What grade is he in?" "You don't even know Yi Yao, the nickname 'One Hundred Dollars' that has been rumored in school recently." Like a whip suddenly thrown from the air, it hit his face heavily. Yi Yao squeezed into the crowd and slowly approached the bulletin board. When the people around him were knocked away, they all responded with an angry expression of "who is it?" He retreated to the side and stood with his mouth shut, folded his arms in front of his chest, and waited with a half-smile expression. After everyone around had quieted down, only the two girls standing in front of Yi Yao who were closest to the bulletin board were still discussing. "What do you mean cauliflower?" "Oh, don't be disgusting, I'm going to throw up." They didn't turn around to see the expressionless Yi Yao until the people behind him pulled their clothes to hint them. 90 A whole quiet corridor. The sound disappeared.The temperature is gone.The light is gone.The faces and movements of those onlookers disappeared.Time becomes a slow-flowing river here.The river water is so thick that it can hardly flow.And the sulphurous smell and steam that permeates the river. The hallway slowly turns into a huge tunnel-like cavern. A cave that doesn't know where it connects.