Chapter 7 Part VII

61 The setting sun shone in from the window in the corridor, refracted back and forth on the stairs, and slowly turned into a soft liquid, accumulating in Yi Yao's increasingly reddened eye sockets. Yi Yao's fingers gripped tighter and tighter. "What do you mean?" Yi Yao grabbed the broom and stood in front of him. "It's nothing...they said they can give you money..." The boy lowered his head, his outstretched hand remained in the air stiffly.White The shirt was exposed from the cuffs of the school uniform. It was very clean, without any dirt. "What do you mean?" Yi Yao opened his eyes wide.I don't want to blink, and I don't want to shed stinging tears after blinking.

"They said that if they give you money, they can have sex with you..." The boy bowed his head and did not speak. "Is it sleeping?" Yi Yao raised his head and asked him. The boy didn't speak, didn't shake his head or nod. "Who told you that"?Yi Yao took a deep breath, and his tone became much more relaxed. The boy raised his head slightly.The light illuminated half of his face.He pursed his lips tightly and shook his head. "It's okay, tell me." Yi Yaoshen took his 100 bucks, "I agreed with them, I will give 50 to whoever introduces you."

The boy raised his head, and a surprised expression was projected into Yi Yao's line of sight. Some flowers will turn into shriveled powder in the cold of winter. One will witness such a seemingly slow but infinitely swift process.From the beautiful fragrance and bright colors of flowers at the beginning, to withered and fallen petals, and finally to dust trampled by people. People will forget the good times.Then trampled on those bright colors that bloomed in the wind without feeling sorry. ---- It was your good friend Tang Xiaomi who said that you are actually very pitiful.I didn't believe it...

----What about you now?Do you believe it? 62 Yi Yao lowered his head, and slowly stuffed the pink banknote that was crumpled up due to force back into the boy's hand. She put away the broom, turned and walked upstairs to the classroom. She turned her head and looked at the face of the strange boy in the sunset, she said, believe it or not, I really am not like this. Yi Yao turned around and ran up the stairs at a faster pace. A boy's low voice came from behind him, "Hello. My name is Gu Senxi. I'm actually not giving you money...". Yi Yao didn't wait for him to finish, turned around, raised his foot and kicked the trash can next to him towards him.

Plastic trash cans rolled down the stairs, and countless waste paper and plastic bags flew out and scattered all over the stairs.The boy turned to the side, avoiding the trash can that fell on him. He looked up, and there was no one in the corridor. Light flooded in from the windows in the corridor above the stairs. He stood for a while, then bent down, picked up the waste papers one by one, then helped the trash can, and put the waste papers back. 63 If he just asked himself to pour water to satisfy his desire to dominate him, Yi Yao felt that it didn't matter.And now ----- With eyes closed, he could still imagine Tang Xiaomi's beautiful and moving face in front of other classmates. As a good friend, he smeared himself completely black in front of others.

"She is very poor---" "She is like this because of some reasons that are inconvenient to say, maybe it is the difficulty of the family---" "She's sure she didn't mean to—" Among a group of boys with smiles of various meanings, she portrays her compassionately and touchingly. There is no one in the classroom.All the people went home. When cleaning the corridor before, the labor committee member who left last gave the key to Yi Yao and told her to lock the door. The classroom was filled with a smell similar to bleach after being cleaned, and it looked a little bit clear in the strong afterglow of the setting sun.

Yi Yao walked quickly to the podium, pulled open the drawer of the podium forcefully, took out the bottle of glue inside, unscrewed the cap, walked to Tang Xiaomi's seat, and slammed it down on the table . Then pour the short nibs and white powder left over from the chalk box into the glue and knead them into a sticky piece. After Yi Yao finished venting, he turned and walked to his seat, only to find that he couldn't find his schoolbag. The empty drawer gaped like a mocking face. Yi Yao lowered his head and cried softly, raised his sleeves to wipe his tears, only to find that the sleeves were covered in dust.

64 The warehouse behind the school is rarely visited. Weeds grow wildly.Even in winter there is still no sign of wilting and lodging.All kinds of weeds, soft, hard, thorny, and covered with fluffy spherical flowers, spread out, fully occupying this fast open space outside the warehouse wall. Yi Yao looked for it along the way, the playground, the stadium, the basketball court, and the sink behind the cafeteria. But nothing was found. There is no previous thing in the schoolbag, and it will not disappear out of thin air. Yi Yao stood in the grass and clenched his fists. When he heard footsteps in the weeds behind him, Yi Yao turned around and saw Gu Senxi following.

Yi Yao patted the dust off his hands and said, what are you doing with me? Gu Senxi blushed a little, held the schoolbag on his shoulder with one hand, looked at Yi Yao and said, "I want to tell you, I didn't mean that." Yi Yao frowned and said, "What do you mean?" Gu Senxi blushed even more, and said, "That's the one—" "Go to bed?" Yi Yao thought for a while, raised his hand and waved, interrupting him, "Forget it, it doesn't matter, I don't have time to know what you mean." Yi Yao turned around and walked back to the school. As soon as he turned around the corner of the warehouse, he saw various colorful textbooks floating in the abandoned fountain at the back door of the school. A corner of his schoolbag was hanging empty on the rockery. Most soaked in water.

The sun dangled on the water. The water in the fountain has not been changed for a long time, there are black green water plants, and some white plastic lunch boxes.The pungent stench floated heavily on the surface of the water. Yi Yao stood for a while, then took off his shoes and socks, pulled his trousers to his knees, and stepped into the pool. But it was much deeper than expected, thinking it would only reach the calves, but when he stepped into the water and instantly rolled over his knees and soaked his thighs, Yi Yao had no time to withdraw, and the whole body followed the water plants on the soles of his feet. Feeling greasy, the body leaned back and fell into it.

65 ——Actually, at that time, I really only felt the water flowing through my ears and nose in an instant, and the pungent stench engulfed me in an instant.Didn't even have time to feel the cold. ——Actually, at that time, I heard Gu Senxi's shout, and I thought it was you. ——Actually, at that time, I thought for a moment that it would be good to die just like this. 66 A long time ago, in Yi Yao's memory, this pool was still very beautiful.At that time, I had just entered the school, and the main entrance of the school was still being repaired, so all the students entered through the back entrance. At that time, there was a beautiful fountain in this pool every day, and many boys and girls were eating bento together by the pool.On the rockery in the middle of the pool, the yellow horned tree, every spring, will drop countless tender green or pink The buds of the fish are floating on the water, being scratched by the red koi inside. Until later, after the gate was repaired, all the students entered the school from there, and gradually no one came to this former school gate. Until the first winter, because there were no students throwing bread crumbs into the pond, the last koi in the pond, after swimming slowly for a long time, finally floated on its back slowly, with a white belly Hit by the lonely winter sun It has to be blue. Yi Yao took off his coat and wrung the water, most of his trousers were soaked. Two puddles of water quickly formed under his feet, and Yi Yao raised his hand to wipe the dripping water from his face. She turned her head, and Gu Senxi pulled up her pants very high, showing the boy's strong calves and thighs. Soak in the black pool water.He picked up the last book and shook it vigorously, then spread it out on the edge of the sink.Then stepped out of the pool. Yi Yao ignored Gu Senxi who was standing behind him, and walked out of the school with a pile of wet books in his arms.When he was about to walk out of the school gate, Yi Yao looked up and saw Qi Ming. The subtitles that pop up in my mind are the text messages on my phone. --The teacher asked me to go to some things, I won't wait for you to go home today.you go first. Corresponding to that was the back view of Qi Ming and a girl walking side by side.The two pushed the cart very slowly, Qi Ming turned his face to the girl and smiled, his hair was blown away by the wind, refreshing and clean.On the back seat of Qi Ming's car was a very wrapped Beautiful box. --It is also difficult to guess whether it is going to be sent out or just received. But these are not important anymore. Yi Yao followed behind them, also walking slowly. The wind blew on the body, and the clothes were wet and cold against the skin.But the feeling of cold seems to have disappeared. It's just that the hand holding the book was too hard, sending out bursts of soreness. In the previous class, the biology teacher said that any muscle that is too hard will form lactic acid due to lack of oxygen when it decomposes and releases energy, so it will feel sore. So, is the heart full of sadness also because the heart is too hard? Following Qi Ming to the school gate, he happened to see Tang Xiaomi holding a kebab.Surrounded by a few girls, like a few bright flowers.In the gray season of winter, it is too bright. It was still such an innocent and beautiful voice, with just the right amount of surprise and sympathy, and with a tone that was neither high nor low, it drew everyone's attention. --Oh, Yi Yao, how did you make it look like this? Qi Ming in front and the girl beside him turned around. The moment Qi Ming showed a surprised expression, the sky darkened severely. Yi Yao raised his hand to wipe off the water running down his bangs from his forehead, and pulled down a strand of stinky dark green water grass. The flow of people and light around has become unimportant. It was as if someone installed a remote-controlled camera in Yi Yao's eyes, and the camera automatically focused on Qi Ming and the girl beside him.Lock it in clearly, then zoom in, zoom out, zoom out infinitely. The scene of him standing with him was quiet and beautiful in Yi Yao's eyes.It's like once when Yi Yao stopped alone on the way to make friends, and when he saw the tall trees swaying quietly in the wind, That silent beauty. Clean and beautiful boys.And clean and beautiful girls. If the person standing next to Qi Ming was himself with the smell of water plants in his hair, it would be like a farce. Yi Yao squeezed the book in his arms even harder.After they were soaked in water, they kept sinking. Yi Yao stared at the girl's face, thinking she must have seen it somewhere.But I can't remember it all the time.Memories are like radios approached by magnets, sending out chaotic bands. It wasn't until Yi Yao turned around when he heard Gu Xisen's "Huh--" beside him, that he suddenly realized. Gu Xisen walked up to the girl and said, "Sister, you haven't come home yet." When they turned around, they had two identical faces. 67 If you look back at the scene of that day many years later.It must be sad. In the evening when the last rays of the sunset are left in winter, the surroundings are gathered by gray dust. The boy and the girl stood at the gray school gate in the twilight. The four of them exchanged various gazes at each other. sorrowful.Distressed.Mercy.sympathetic.adoring. It seemed that dyes of various colors were injected into the air, stirred, and finally turned into a dark mess.In a space that cannot be named, frying, rolling and boiling, strong water vapor evaporates, turning every window of youth, All covered with a frosty haze. But the color is swallowed by the heavy winter, or some kind of mood in winter.Only black, or white, or all kinds of gray after black and white superimposed are left to be rubbed on the paper. Just like a black and white photo in a frame, no matter how bright the smile is, the person in the photo will definitely feel sad. It was as if the shutter was pressed by a pair of invisible hands, and there was a click. After many, many years-- Floating heavily in the eye sockets is the area in the memory that is like a thunderbolt that I dare not touch again. 68 People's physical sensations always come long after the spiritual sensations come. It's like the relationship between light and sound.I must have seen the sudden flash of light from the sky early, and then connected After a few seconds of silence, there was a loud thunder that suddenly exploded in the ear holes. In the same way, physical sensations are never as fast and intense as mental sensations. It must have hurt my heart deeply, and then tears came out and choked my throat. The sky is crowded with black and red clouds.The light of the setting sun gradually disappeared. Ten minutes ago, various emotions were swimming and colliding in the body, like an anxious monster who couldn't find an exit, every pore was sealed tightly with scotch tape, and the whole body was infinitely swollen, almost exploding open. And in an instant, all emotions disappeared completely, without leaving even a trace of residue. And what surged in the next moment was a coldness that had no power to fight back. The drenched clothes wrapped tightly around his body like a layer of ice. Dark clouds rolled and swallowed the last rays of light. Yi Yao exhaled, as if he was about to let out a mouthful of ice. 69 When I approached the alley, I could smell the aroma of food wafting from inside. The lights on the side of the street came on one after another. The twilight was pulled over like a curtain, and with a whoosh it was almost impossible to see. Yi Yao bent down to lock the car, and glanced at the exquisite box on the back of Qi Ming's car. "Give it to someone? Or someone else gave it to you?" Yi Yao asked, pointing to Qi Ming's back seat. "This? Oh, Gu Senxiang gave it to me. Last time we won a prize in a math competition together. I didn't go to receive the prize, so she took it for me. I met her in the office today, and she gave it to me." Qi Ming took Shaking the box, some noises came from inside. "I heard it's still a small crystal cup. Hehe." Qi Ming leaned the car next to Yi Yao's car, bent down to lock the car. "I didn't go to receive the award last time, because the Children's Palace is too far away, and I don't know where it is. But Gu Senxiang doesn't know either. It took her a long time to get there, but the award ceremony has already started. Hehe." Qi Ming straightened up, turned the box over and looked around, then shook his head, "Why is the bag so complicated, you girls like this, I don't know what you are thinking." A certain dark place in Yi Yao's heart was slightly sunken, as if an invisible foot was slowly stepping on the soft surface. "Girls' hearts are not complicated at all." Yi Yao raised his head, half of his face was illuminated by the light at the entrance of the alley, "It's just that sometimes you think too complicated, and sometimes you think too simple. " Qi Ming bared his teeth and smiled, pointing to the thing in his hand: "Then is this simple or complicated?" Yi Yao tilted his head with a smile: "Since she made such a complicated bag, I don't think you should think too simple." Qi Ming spread his hands, with a "don't understand" expression on his face.At the end, she turned her head to Yi Yao and said, "I haven't asked you today, why did you look like this?" After speaking, he raised his hand and took off the things in Yi Yao's hair. Yi Yao pulled the schoolbag from the book basket and said, "My schoolbag fell into the pool. I went down to pick it up, but slipped and fell." "Oh, so." Qi Ming nodded and walked into the alley. Yi Yao stopped behind him. There was still a smile on his face, but his eye sockets were still slowly turning red. That kind of emotion, which can't be described as angry or touched, quickly climbed up from the soles of his feet, melting every joint.It made Yi Yao lose all strength in his whole body.Only the eye sockets became more and more red. ——Why no matter what I say, you just nod and believe it. Yi Yao rubbed his eyes and followed. From afar, I saw Li Wanxin standing at the door waiting for Qi Ming to come home. Before Qi Ming could reach the door, she greeted him, took Qi Ming's schoolbag, and pulled him in, saying "Oh, my ancestor Why did you come back now, are you hungry?" and so on. Yi Yao moved the corner of his mouth, and a thin smile appeared on his face. Qi Ming turned his head, with a rascal expression on his face, he nodded at her, meaning "hey, I'm home," Yi Yao smiled and nodded, then turned and walked towards the door of his own house. He took out the key from his schoolbag and inserted it into the lock, only to find that he couldn't turn it. Yi Yao twisted hard again. The door was still closed tightly. The house was not empty.Yi Yao heard a deliberately lowered voice. At that moment, all the blood rushed from the whole body to the top of the head.Yi Yao left his schoolbag at the door and sat down by the door. 70 "Dad isn't home again?" "He's still in the restaurant, he's so busy," my mother took out the braised pork that had just turned hot from the microwave, "Hurry up and eat." As soon as Qi Ming sat down at the dining table, the phone rang, Qi Ming got up to get the phone, Li Wanxin frowned and blamed dotingly: "Oh, you should eat first, or it will be cold again." Qi Ming opened the phone cover and saw Yi Yao's text message. Yi Yao heard the sound of the door opening, raised his head, and saw Qi Ming standing in front of his house after changing into soft white slippers.He stretched out his hand towards himself, his arm stopped in the air, his voice was thick and warm in the dusk, he nodded at Yi Yao, and said, "Come to my house first." Yi Yao raised his hand, wiped away the eyes accumulated in his eye sockets with the back of his hand, stood up from the ground, picked up his schoolbag and walked towards the door of Qi Ming's house. After changing his shoes, Yi Yao stood in the living room. Because his clothes and pants were all wet, Yi Yao didn't dare to sit down on the white fabric sofa. Qi Ming opened and closed the closet in the room, found some clothes, walked over, handed them to Yi Yao, and said, "Go in and change first, take off the wet clothes." Li Wanxin sat on the edge of the table and ate by herself, without saying a word, when picking up the food, she threw the chopsticks vigorously between the plate and the bowl, making a loud noise. Yi Yao looked at Qi Ming in embarrassment, and Qi Ming made a gesture of "don't pay attention to her", then pushed Yi Yao into his room and asked her to change clothes. Yi Yao came out of the room wearing Qi Ming's clothes, and carefully sat down on the sofa. Qi Ming greeted her and told her to go over to have dinner, but before he finished speaking, Li Wan coughed a mouthful of phlegm heavily in his mouth, got up and went to the kitchen to spit into the sink. Qi Ming turned around and shouted to the kitchen: "Mom, bring out a pair of bowls and chopsticks." Yi Yao gasped, and glared at Qi Ming. Qi Ming waved his hand and made a gesture to comfort her, "It's okay." When Li Wanxin came back, she didn't take out anything, she sat down on the stool, lowered her eyes and ate on her own, as if she didn't hear Qi Ming's words at all. Qi Ming frowned, didn't say anything, got up and went to the kitchen by himself. When he came out, Qi Ming put the bowl and chopsticks in his hand next to him, and said to Yi Yao, "Come and eat." Yi Yao looked at Li Wanxin's ugly face that looked like it had been covered with paste, and then whispered, "I don't want to eat, you and auntie can eat." Just as Qi Ming was about to say something, Li Wanxin put the bowl heavily on the table, "What do you guys know? People like to be pretty, and you know how to lose weight. They don't eat it. Take care of yourself, and don't put your hot face on your butt." Yi Yao opened his mouth, then closed it again without saying anything.She stuffed the wet clothes she had changed into her schoolbag one by one.While stuffing it, he tore off some of the aquatic plants that were still on his body, not daring to throw it on the ground, so Yi Yao pinched it all in his palm. After Li Wanxin finished eating, she sat down next to Yi Yao, who subconsciously moved to the side. Li Wanxin picked up the remote control from the coffee table, turned on the TV, and the voice of the cold male announcer on the TV rang out in the room. "Why don't you go home?" Li Wanxin stared at the TV, not Yi Yao, and pressed a music channel, which was playing "Two Butterflies". "I forgot to bring the key," Yi Yao replied in a low voice. "Isn't your mother at home? I saw her just now." Li Wanxin put the remote control back on the coffee table, and listened attentively to the vulgar, drool-worthy songs on the TV. "Maybe I went out to buy something." Yi Yao unnaturally picked a protruding edge on the side of the sofa. "Didn't a man come in this afternoon, why go out to buy something when there are customers at home?" Li Wanxin grinned with a half-smile. Yi Yao lowered his head and stopped talking. After a while, I heard Li Wanxin murmur in a low voice: "I think it's that man who came shopping." Yi Yao raised his head and saw Li Wanxin's face that seemed to be smiling but not smiling.The shame that seeped through my heart like a leak quickly shortened the distance between Zhang and Zhang. draw closer.Get closer. That face was so close to Yi Yao's nose that he laughed, as if he could smell the stench of a middle-aged woman in his mouth.A mix of veggies and cheap lipstick. Yi Yao suddenly stood up and rushed into the kitchen, retching violently at the sink. Qi Ming suddenly stood up nervously, and when he was about to rush into the kitchen, he saw his mother's sharp eyes cast from the sofa.Only then did Qi Ming realize how untimely his actions were. Qi Ming sat down slowly, calmed down after a few seconds, raised his face and asked his mother, "What's wrong with her?" Li Wanxin stared at his son's face for half a minute. Just now, Yi Yao's behavior and his son's expression seemed to be an interesting reasoning problem. Like a video camera, Li Wanxin silently took everything into his eyes. She said blankly: "How do I know, I'm disgusted. These days, there are many disgusting things."