Chapter 19 2002 Summer Solstice · Liulan · Cherry Blossom Festival (2)

In fact, in the idea I met, it should be that I went back to Asakawa silently, hit Qingtian, the only person I trusted and could show weakness in front of him, hugged him and cried, and let go of all the grievances I suffered in Beijing. Cry out, and then go back to the peaceful life with Qingtian before, and don't tell Lixia that they are back, and have been quietly waiting for them to graduate from high school and leave Asakawa.She didn't want Lixia to see a failed self, and tell them that she had come back after Lixia and the others went to another city. But these imaginations were like water splashed into the middle of the hot road in the scorching sun when they met the entrance of STMOS, and turned into white steam and evaporated, leaving no trace of water.

Like it never happened. Never happened. When I met and saw Qingtian walking out of STAMOS holding a girl's hand, my heart was like a quiet lake deep in the forest, without a single ripple, even after the violent whirlwind, the water surface was still as smooth as a mirror.If you close it with your fingers and knock it up, there will be a hollow knocking sound echoing in the forest, like someone knocking on a closed door.The mirror reflects the person who once bestowed these years with splendid years. In front of him was Qingtian's stunned and panicked face, his handsome facial features showed a flustered and astonished expression, which was still so clear in the dim twilight.At the moment his expression changed, he quickly let go of the girl's hand, and then froze in the air in embarrassment.The girl noticed the strange change in an instant. First, she raised her head and looked at Qingtian, who seemed to be petrified instantly. Then, following Qingtian's motionless eyes, she saw a girl standing not far in front of Qingtian. She had messy short hair and an expressionless face. face, and the rucksack slid from his hands and fell to the ground with a "snap".Familiar color, familiar style, and the exact same backpack hanging behind the door of Qingtian's house.

When meeting saw the two clenched hands let go, there was no joy, and even a strong disgust and deep despair.She even thought it was a bit ridiculous, Qingtian, what do you think if you let go of your hand at such a time, would it make any difference?In the face-to-face embarrassment, what is it if you let go of your hand like this?Is it my indebtedness in the heart, or the panic that cannot be concealed? When Kechen’s thoughts were still lingering in Yuyu’s mind, when these thoughts were still surging violently, another simple action happened, and this action, in front of Yuyu’s eyes, seemed to appear often in movies. Slow close-up shots, bit by bit, bit by bit, eating away the flesh and bones under the body.

In that slow-motion shot, Qingtian raised his hand slowly again, groped for the girl's hand, then held it even harder, and firmly never let go.Like a demonstration, like showing off, like a display, like a flag planted on the hill of victory, at that moment pushed the encounter into the bottomless abyss. The world returns to darkness at that moment.And in my memory, the handsome boy who gave him a ring with gauze wrapped around his fingers, the senior who blushed and called his name on the stairs of junior high school, and the young boy who was sleeping beside his pillow breathing quietly, at this moment, Died in the boundless darkness.

A thousand birds flew past. Bring the most gorgeous funeral in summer, and also take away the memories lost in the years. There is a vast expanse of white land left, on which the sunlight tramples out a void of pain. It seemed that there was no need to speak anymore, but he still greeted abruptly, as if another self was speaking in plain language. Qingtian... are you okay? Well, it's okay...you're back? No, it's just a work holiday in Beijing, so come back and have a look.your girlfriend? Also singing at STMOS. The word "also" pierced hard in my heart, like the skin test I did before the injection when I was a child. The sharp needle picked up a layer of skin, and then quickly injected painful toxins.

Hello, my name is Yuyu, and I'm a former classmate of Qingtian, from junior high school.After graduation, I went to Beijing. The girl looked flustered, she didn't dare to answer, she subconsciously leaned behind Qingtian, that kind of weakness, all boys should want to protect it.Even myself, there will be slight fluctuations in my heart.So, I deserved that no one wanted me, how could such a strong character gather in a girl's body. Meet, how are you in Beijing? Fortunately, I also sing there, and I have participated in several concerts, I also have fans! The forced smile is filled with false happiness in the night.

That's good... I'm still worried about your bad life, ha, it's useless to worry. The expression of relief, the handsome facial features, the familiar smell from being close, everything is still the Qingtian in memory, the sentence "I'm worried for nothing" made a big hole in my heart, and blood gushed out.You can't smell the smell of blood in the air. Well, I said it when I left, I will live a good life, I have been such a child since I was a child. Just as the strong smile was struggling, suddenly there was a drawn-out shout from behind, following the drawn-out "Meet—" in the air, a boy with neat short hair ran over, with a clean face, He is as tall as Qingtian, and the travel bag on his back shows a trace of wandering.

"Haha, I actually bumped into you, huh?" Duan Qiao looked at the embarrassing scene in front of him, touched his head, pointed to Qing Tian and Lin Tian, ​​"Your friend?" "Well," the smiling face appeared again, as naturally as holding Duan Qiao's hand, "Qingtian, Lin Tian." Yu Yu leaned her head on Qiao's shoulder and continued, "My boyfriend, Duan Qiao." Duan Qiao almost fell down, but fortunately Yu Yu supported him and pinched his arm hard. Is it a hint?Forget it.Duan Qiao is also a smart boy, so he stretched out his hand generously towards Qingtian, um, hello, I am the boyfriend I met, she must have been very headstrong before, she must have caused you trouble, please give me more pointers .

On the faces of the two boys, one is smiling brightly, the other is sad and lost.Qingtian looked at Yu Yu with a bright smile in front of him, and felt infinitely lost in his heart, as if he was thrown from a tall building, never touching the ground, falling and falling, every time he felt that he should fall to the bottom, his flesh and blood would be bloody. But it continued to fall, endlessly. Hello, my name is Qingtian, I am a senior I met before, please give me advice. Hands clasped together.They are all the powerful arms of boys full of blood vessels.Both are knuckle-protruding fingers.However, one hand was clean and blank, and on the ring finger of the other hand was the extremely familiar ring.A ring that was exactly the same as his own.

Meeting put the hand with the ring in his pocket, lowered his head, thinking in a trance, this is really a perfect farewell, like a confession ceremony. Qingtian, when I turned to say goodbye to you, I felt like a theater in my heart. Suddenly there were countless empty seats, the lights came on, the crowd dispersed, and I was left alone on the stage.In the days I've been away, you've finally matured.Your hair has finally grown, and you have learned to wear warm clothes.You don't dress up as a different kind of kid like you used to.But such an outstanding you has nothing to do with me.A good boyfriend, a good husband, a good father, these words that are evaluated in my heart, now all need to be preceded by "other people's". The mistakes you made in your early years remind you to gradually become better.

Now I am no longer the girl with thorns all over my body, and I am no longer the problem student who used to be hot-tempered and loves to fight. Now I will swallow my anger and protect myself better. I am more gentle now. I will also learn to hold the boy's hand and no longer just walk forward alone, but this kind of me is irrelevant to you now, and you need to add a sentence "other people" in front of my name. of".I am very sad and melancholy, but what can I do?It was in the failed love with you that I learned this, and it was in the days when I was separated from you that I became so gentle. From then on, we will live in our own happiness. I will always remember those old times and things that you know me about. Please also remember that I remember what I sprinkled on you, my best years.That is the only thing in my meager life - a little wealth, I gave it to you with great difficulty, so you should cherish it.Remember my name, and those things that I will tell you with tears and sadness. ——Meet in 1998 Qingtian turned the corner of the street, he who had been silent just now suddenly squatted down and sat on the ground against the wall, his throat was choked and he let out a sobbing sound. How can you appear in front of me again?How can I think of you again? How can you wish me happiness as if nothing had happened? Qingtian felt his eyes hurt, and wiped them with his hands only to find tears in his hands.When he looked up, he saw many birds flying in the evening sky. Met, why didn't I walk with you back then?You who thought you were self-willed at the beginning, now it seems that there is nothing that cannot be tolerated. It's just that no one gave up, and everyone said goodbye together and walked in different directions without looking back. So the setting sun closed the heavy door.No one can push it away. When I meet you walk with your head down, try to think about other things.Otherwise, tears will fall. On the other hand, Duan Qiao beside him walked with his hands in his pockets as if nothing had happened, and he could see that he was slightly excited. "Hey," my face was a little red, and two dimples appeared at the corners of my mouth, "how about I really be your boyfriend. I will be a very good architect in the future! Although my family is not very rich, I will Work hard to make money..." "Don't follow me!" The sudden outburst of emotion scared me even when I met myself.Duan Qiao stood there in a daze, not realizing what was going on.Seeing Yuyu going further and further away, gradually disappearing into the crowd, I felt lost in my heart. Duan Qiao muttered to himself, you must think I'm joking, but... I'm serious. The injured face, the expression of innocence, gradually melted into the night of Asakawa, and flowed into a sad song between the camphor and the dense branches and leaves of the camphor. When I left Asakawa by train, I met the platform that was constantly receding outside the window, and a voice in my heart said to myself, this time I really left, really, I left.Tears flowed down his cheeks and into the corners of his mouth.It turns out that the bitter tears described in literary works are all true. Yu Yu turned around and suddenly saw Duan Qiao's particularly sad face.In an instant, Li Xia's face when he saw him off half a year ago emerged from the depths of his memory, overlapping with Duan Qiao's sad eyes in front of him, and his sad emotions were instantly magnified.Just when Yu met her throat was so choked that she couldn't speak, she heard Duan Qiao's short but clean voice: Architecture is a frozen note. Sound is a solid promise. In the long sound of the train whistle blowing white smoke, Duan Qiao said, I love you. "Hey," being patted on the head, he pulled out from the long memory, as if he had a dream, a long, long, long dream, "what are you thinking about?" "No." He lowered his head and sorted out the accounts. "Don't be stubborn," Duan Qiao grinned, revealing the child's dimples, "I allow you to cheat mentally for three minutes." "Then I thank you." "You don't have to be polite at all." Duan Qiao was half angry and had nothing to do with her, turned around and continued to move things. Encounter looking at Duan Qiao, the heart seems to be crumpled together by gentle hands. I am no longer that unruly and willful girl. But this kind of me has nothing to do with you. The awards ceremony that day was very successful. When Fu Xiaosi took the stage, many of his fans cheered him up. The host even joked that Fu Xiaosi looked more like a star than a star.Qiqi was wearing a red evening gown, her hair was pulled up high, and her whole body radiated light.Li Xia looked at the two of them standing on the stage, and for a moment even felt that they were a good match.This feeling even made me feel funny. Later, when Qi Qi sang, it was no longer the voice of a girl in high school, but now Gong Qi's voice was full of popular femininity.In the thunderous applause of the audience, Li Xia turned his head and saw the envious light shining in Yu Yu's eyes, as well as the tears accumulated in his eyes. Li Xia turned his head to look at the stage, and couldn't bear to watch Encounter again, because such an encounter made people want to cry. Lixia thought, Qiqi's current appearance should have appeared in the dreams she met countless times.I hope that one day, God can give me the glory and the light all over my body. abada.cn(txt share) next page back to directory back to home page