Chapter 9 1998 Summer Solstice · Warm Fog · Breaking Time (2)

The days of the third year of high school were very lonely, and there were endless test papers every day.And there is only Fu Xiaosi by his side, and then looking back on the years of the first year of high school, he will become a little choked up. Because of her family relationship and the fact that she was good at the art test, Qiqi has already been recommended to the Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts, so she often does not come to class, and will stay at home to draw and write to me when she is free.And Lu Zhiang was in the science class, he stayed in the third class with Yu Yu, while Xiao Si and I chose the liberal arts class to study in the seventh class.And Xiao Si did not continue to draw pictures for the magazine because of the pressure of study, and I did not mention this matter to him.I can only feel sentimental by flipping through the paintings of previous sacrifices for many nights. Those magazines are piled up in front of me one by one with an old smell, which is very similar to my old past.

Sometimes in class, I would suddenly have illusions, as if I was sitting next to Me, she was sleeping quietly on the table, the sun was shining on her hair, her brows were slightly frowned, and she seemed stubborn in her dream.Behind them are Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang, Xiao Si is drawing patterns on the table, while Lu Zhiang is sleeping next to him.As soon as I turned my head, I could see those two heroic faces that I had seen countless times. But blink again, and everything returns to reality.Xiao Si is on the other side of the classroom. Many times when I look at him through various faces, I can see him looking at the blackboard seriously, and then writing something quickly in the notebook.Sometimes looking at his side face makes me a little sad, and I don't know why.It may be because I know that such days are too short, and I will graduate soon.Sometimes I can hear the sound of the piano coming from nowhere, wondering if Lu Zhiang is playing it.

And what will it be like to graduate?I can't even imagine.I have heard many people say before that graduation is a window, we have to smash it, and then walk through the shards, bloody and bloody, and start a completely different life. Fu Xiaosi sometimes wonders why time suddenly speeds up. It seems that everything was still in the hot summer of 1996 in the previous moment, and in another moment, it was already the end of 1997. In December, There have been many heavy snowfalls in Asakawa, and the atmosphere of Christmas is getting stronger and stronger. You can see all kinds of gifts, Christmas trees and various Christmas trees hanging in the shops on the streets.

Such a beautiful little angel, even with eyes closed, he could hear the sound of 1998 walking towards them step by step. Many times when Fu Xiaosi walked alone through the tree-lined avenue between the teaching building and the playground, he would vaguely think of many things about the first year of high school, and the second year of high school seemed to be skipped.It seems that 1997 was missing out of thin air in my life.And what happened in 1997?So much so that I still brood on it to this day. Actually it is clear.I remember it better than anyone else.Just deliberately don't think about it.

What happened in 1997? When Hong Kong returned to China in 1997, the whole of China was bustling for almost a week.But there was also the Asian financial turmoil in 1997, and the sky didn't seem to be all that bright. In 1997, a Chinese naval vessel visited the world for the first time.And these kinds of things don't have much meaning to Fu Xiaosi or Li Xia.And what is meaningful? It was in 1997 when the liberal arts and sciences were separated, Lu Zhiang said to himself, Xiaosi, I want to stay and study science. It was in 1997 that I met Lixia and told Lixia, Lixia, I don’t want to go to university anymore.I'm gone, but I will miss you forever.

In 1997, the school’s newly built liberal arts building was put into use, so since then science students and liberal arts students began to attend classes in two different buildings, separated by an empty playground. Up to now, Fu Xiaosi has been used to park the bicycle with Lu Zhiang in the carport every morning, wave goodbye, and then go to different classrooms. And what else changed in 1997?Is it too much or too little?Fu Xiaosi couldn't figure it out, so he didn't want to bother thinking about it.In many cases, there is actually no time to think about other things. In the dire world like the third year of high school, learning is everything.

It's just that Lu Zhiang and Fu Xiaosi still go to school and go home together every day.Most of the time, Lu Zhiang would finish class earlier than Fu Xiaosi, because the teachers of Class 7 were notoriously procrastinating, and the liberal arts exams were more frequent than the science exams, and the liberal arts in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School were very famous in the whole province.Many times Lu Zhiang would carry his schoolbag across the playground after school, walk from the science building to the liberal arts building, and then wait outside Xiao Si's classroom for him to go home after school.

Sometimes when Li Xia looked out the window, he would see Lu Zhiang sitting quietly in the corridor with earphones on, the sunlight slowly circled the halo on his body, and occasionally he could hear the sound of pigeons taking off.When Lu Zhiang raised his head, he would also smile at Li Xia who was distracted, and then playfully made a "concentrate on class" expression like a teacher teaching others.Only at this time Li Xia would feel that Lu Zhiang looked like a freshman in high school, a carefree young man. But everyone knows about Lu Zhiang's changes, Lixia knows, Yume knows, Qiqi knows, all the girls in the school who like Lu Zhiang know, but no one feels it as deeply as Fu Xiaosi.

And this kind of change is dissolved in the whole year, like salt sprinkled into the water, and then gradually dissolves, and finally completely merges with the water so that no trace can be seen.On the way to school, when Lu Zhiang was quietly sitting outside Xiao Si’s classroom waiting for him to leave school, in the occasional piano sound from Lu Zhiang’s lonely piano classroom, during the long winter and summer holidays, Between looking up and bowing his head, in one text message after another, on the silent way home at sunset, Fu Xiaosi felt his changes day by day, and felt a little sad in his heart, like a rippling wave. out of the tide.

And what has become of Lu Zhiang?Is it quiet?Or lonely?Can't understand.Li Xia often feels that Lu Zhiang has become another Fu Xiaosi, but he looks more peaceful than Xiaosi, but more silent.Because Xiao Si is a kind of silence with sharp edges and corners, and Lu Zhiang has gradually become a person who is very gentle towards everything. Unlike before, he loves to talk, laugh, and whistle to the beautiful girls in the past. Cycling quietly, when I am free, I will ask Xiao Si Lixia to go to the library together, and occasionally start to frown while doing the questions with black frame glasses, I will find a sunny corner in the library, and then take out a thick The reference book began to quietly calculate on the draft paper. The most exaggerated thing is that he will use the concept of mathematics to analyze the troubles you encounter in life, just like a nerd who has been persecuted by the science department for many years.Only rarely, and only when Lixia meets Qiqi, is there a very familiar person around, Lu Zhiang will return to his previous appearance, can talk a lot, have vivid expressions, and occasionally fists and kicks with Xiao Si, But most of the time it was an extremely quiet face with a smile.When watching Lu Zhiang concentrate on drawing function images one after another on the draft, Li Xia will recall the Lu Zhiang who dozed off unscrupulously next to Xiao Si and herself, think of the Lu Zhiang whose smile is like the morning sun in spring, A gust of wind will suddenly blow through my heart, blowing away those past events from my heart to all directions.

Did high school change everything?Or did we change ourselves in the third year of high school? Ever since Li Xia and Fu Xiaosi left class three, Yu Yu hardly talked in class, only occasionally chatting with Lu Zhiang.I met that during the rest time after each get out of class, I would lie on the balcony and look towards the balcony on the playground. Sometimes I would see the red dress that Li Xia often wears, very red and very red. Back and forth in the aisles upstairs, sometimes she would appear on the balcony with Fu Xiaosi, but because they were too far away, they couldn't see their expressions when they met.But she would still happily wave her arms at Lixia, even though she knew that Lixia didn't see her a lot of the time.And Lu Zhiang would often stand beside him and smile quietly. After Li Xia left, it seemed that Lu Zhiang was responsible for dealing with the teacher's sudden questions, and Lu Zhiang was helping to deal with many things that happened in the class.Sometimes when I met, I would ask Lu Zhiang, she said, do you feel lonely after leaving Xiaosi?Lu Zhiang just laughed, didn't speak, and then said without any expression, actually met because he felt lonely after leaving Lixia, so he hoped to hear similar words from me, right?When I meet such a strong person, I will never say such words as loneliness and loneliness.In fact, this is not ashamed, you don't need to feel embarrassed at all.It’s like I would complain to Xiao Si every day, saying that it’s so boring to leave him, the whole class is a group of science machines. When I met him, I glanced at him and said, come here less, how can you be wow wow, haven't you transformed now, quiet and silent prince type.Wow, wow, is that you from two years ago? One sentence made Lu Zhiang feel ashamed, and after holding back for a long time, he began to complain that the world is unfair and good intentions are not rewarded.Encounter looked at him and couldn't lose his temper, but thought it was great that Xiao Si had such a friend, and silently said "thank you" to him in his heart. Even though I met every night, I still chatted with Lixia until late, told her a lot of things that happened in the bar, told her that Qingtian sent her back to school every day, and told her that the bar got more and more money, but it kept going. She dared not tell the secret that had been buried in her heart for a while, not even Qingtian.Because Yu Yu always feels that once he speaks out, then everything can never go back.Completely, forever, without turning back. Many nights when I met, I would recall what happened over the past year.In the life of the school, only Li Xia and a few people made her feel that there was a little bit of meaning, and other things, no matter whether it was sinking or ascending, she would not even let her take a second look.She still walks differently in the eyes of all the girls in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School, and still wears different clothes with more and more earrings.And at the end of the second year of high school, La Lixia managed to get her ears pierced by playing hard and soft, and then bought a pair of earrings, one for each of them.Encounter still remembers Lixia's terrified expression after getting his ears pierced, and he would fiddle with the hair around his ears every three seconds, for fear that someone would see it.But later Lixia liked that earring even more than herself.Many times when I met Lixia, I saw that Lixia was terribly farting in front of the earring in the mirror, so I started to laugh at her until she blushed, saying that she was a woman from a good family who had never had her ears pierced.But ridicule is ridicule, but my heart is full of warmth. I always laugh when I meet you, it's very annoying.But I often look at the pierced ears in a daze, and I still remember the tears shed because of the pain.Many times I think, when I was young, I experienced exactly the same pain as Yuen, so in the days to come, even if I need to go to hell, I think I will follow her without frowning.Because I have always believed that, as long as you hold the hand you meet, no matter what direction you run, you are always heading to heaven.This idea has not changed at any time. ——Lixia·2002 During this year, Lixia didn't go back to school for many times, and would live in Qingtian's rented house at night.But Yu Yu understood that Qingtian would not do anything to him.Even if he was sleeping next to him with his head resting on his arm, he would not mess with himself.Encountered listening to the sound of Qingtian's breathing many nights, I feel that the world is very quiet.The entire dark and closed space is filled with the breath he breathed out, and then breathed in by himself, and then he breathes again, and so on.encounter Because of these extremely gentle images, Jian thought of words like "forever" and "happiness" that he would never think of on weekdays for many nights. During this year, Qingtian picked up a cat and named it Black.Lixia also began to learn to cook slowly, and sometimes went to the vegetable market with Qingtian to buy vegetables.I even gradually developed the same habit as Qingtian, reading a passage of the Bible every day when the sun goes down, so many times I met a thick Bible in my schoolbag, and read a short passage after school every day. Leave the classroom again. At Christmas in 1996, Qingtian bought a mobile phone for Yuyu, and he also bought one for himself, and it was exactly the same as Yuyu.Many times when I meet in class, I will receive text messages from Qingtian.Sometimes I asked her if she was hungry, sometimes she told her that Blake had mischievously fallen into a ditch on the side of the road and now he was running home dripping wet, sometimes it was just a sudden thought-"It's windy outside the window, I miss you all of a sudden." Sometimes when I meet, I feel that if I marry Qingtian, it should be a very happy thing. In the ordinary day after day, there are all kinds of tiny warmth that always shine like the sun. But since the owner of the bar told Yuyu the news that day, Yuyu felt that life seemed to be burning slowly.With thick smoke and even a burning sensation, the whole life was burned. ——Yeah, my friend is currently working as a producer in a record company in Beijing. Are you interested in going to Beijing to sing? That morning Yu Yu finally plucked up the courage to send a short message to Qingtian, she said, I am going to Beijing, will you accompany me? And the whole morning, the phone I met didn't ring at all.At the beginning, I could still calm down and think about other things or sleep, but as time went on, I started to feel restless.When going to the playground to do exercises, when going to the water room to pour water, when standing on the balcony and looking at Lixia's liberal arts building, she would keep looking at her phone and see that she was wrong Feel like that dark screen will never light up again. When I went back to the dormitory to rest at noon, Li Xia laughed when I saw you frequently looking at your phone. Li Xia said why did you suddenly start paying attention to your phone when I met you? When Li Xia said this, he actually didn’t expect that Yu Yu would lose his temper so much, so when Yu Yu suddenly dropped his phone on the bed, Li Xia was a little dumbfounded, and Yu Yu’s force was too great, and the phone hit the wall against the bed In an instant, the screen dimmed. After school in the afternoon, Li Xia rode his bicycle out of the school gate, and then rode down the hillside, feeling many small sad feelings in his heart.Lixia put Yuyu's mobile phone in her schoolbag, and was going to take it out to help her fix it, because after all, it was because of her own words that Yuyu dropped the phone.When I went to school in the afternoon, I met that I left my mobile phone in the dormitory and didn't take it away. When Li Xia reminded her, she just said lightly, it's broken, so why bring it. After staying in the mobile phone maintenance department for about an hour, the sky began to get dark, and the boy who repaired the mobile phone finally showed up. smiled, then handed it to Lixia, and said, then, it’s fixed. Lixia pressed the power button, and then the screen lit up. After a while, Lixia was about to ride back to school when the phone vibrated. Lixia accidentally pressed the read button, and a short message from Qingtian appeared: ——Encounter, I'm sorry, but I won't go to Beijing with you, I'm sorry. On the way back to school, Lixia was full of various problems in his mind. Before the old problems disappeared, new ones would occupy his mind again, making him feel like a psychopath. --Beijing?What Beijing? ——What did you go to Beijing for?Never mentioned it. —A trip to Beijing?Or to live? ——How long will it take?when to go? And all the problems were suspended in the dusk air, those special film-like particles in the dusk air entered the body along with the breath, Li Xia felt that the whole body was covered with furry thorns, full of irritability and restlessness. After parking the car in the shed, when Lixia was running towards the liberal arts building, he happened to meet Lu Zhiang who was finishing get out of class. He saw Lixia and told her what happened in the afternoon. At first, it was a small conflict. The head teacher made her stand at the back of the classroom because she was sleeping in class.And the later evolution produced strange mutations like being irradiated with nuclear radiation, so all the students were dumbfounded in the conversation with the teacher. ——Why are you sleeping again when I met you? ——Sorry, I'm a little sleepy. --a bit sleepy?What are you talking about? The college entrance examination is about to take place. What if you can’t pass the university entrance exam? ——There is nothing to do, there must be a way out, and no one will die. ——What attitude do you have!Then since you won't die, why don't you come to my class again? —Oh, that's fine too.I didn't want to go on it. Li Xia's heart beat faster and faster while listening to Lu Zhiang's narration, she could even imagine Yu Yu standing proudly on the seat, and her tone of refusal to admit defeat to the teacher.Li Xia thought very sadly that Yu Yu might really be leaving. Li Xia asked Lu Zhiang where he met, Lu Zhiang pointed to the classroom and said, he probably hasn't left yet. Until a long time later, I can still recall the weather, smell, temperature, and the sound of pigeons flying into the air outside the classroom window.I saw Yu met bending over with a broom and cleaning the empty classroom alone.I looked at her slightly trembling shoulders and back, and the sound of the tide echoed in my heart.Later, I met and saw me, and then smiled at me.But I didn't realize that until Yuen closed the classroom door at the end, it was the last day that Yuen and I got together in Asakawa No. 1 Middle School.And from that day on, Yu Yu never came to school again. The moment I returned the phone to Yu Yu, I felt in a trance that the sky suddenly darkened.It never seemed to light up again. ——1999 Lixia The day I met and left was December 23, the day before Christmas, the crowd at the train station was small, and the air dropped rapidly in the evening. Wen, the sky is very gloomy and black, as if it is going to snow.I raised my head and thought vaguely, Asakawa, which is full of Christmas joy under the heavy snow, should be impossible to see, right? Standing in front of him, Lixia kept crying, even though Lixia had been crying a lot since she knew she was going to leave Asakawa, give up her studies, give up her friends and give up everything she had now, but when the parting was right in front of her eyes, Lixia didn't feel like crying at all. They didn't dare to make a sound.Because on the way to the train station, I met Lixia and told Lixia, she said you must not cry, otherwise I will be very sad when I leave, and I will miss you and you even more in the days to come.So, if you think I'm sad, just cry as much as you want, Miss Lixia. Two boys, Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang, carried her luggage onto the train and put it on the luggage rack, then put the fruit and snacks they bought on Lixia's berth, and told her what to do, what to do in any situation How, Lu Zhiang is okay, he used to love to talk a lot, but Fu Xiaosi is not used to it, there are too many things to explain, too many things to tell, too many things to worry about, so much that he feels like talking too much in an instant. I have become a mother-level woman, so I feel strange while talking, and then I blush more and more, but I can't do it without talking, so I can only bite the bullet and continue to explain one by one. When Yuyu watched the two boys busy, she felt very sad, she thought, why wasn't Qingtian the one who did these things.And what is Qingtian doing at this moment?Are you busy with tuning before the show?Or pour the milk into the cat bowl and feed it to Blake?Or is it standing on the balcony facing the sinking sunset and reading a certain chapter of the Bible, hearing hallucinations of angels flapping their wings? But what's the use.These are things that are no longer necessary to think about, and thinking about it will only make you sadder.So Yu Yu shook his head, it seems that sadness is a substantial thing, and you can get rid of it by shaking your head. When Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang were about to get off the car, Lixia gently pulled Fu Xiaosi, she said, Lixia is a good girl, you have to take care of her. In fact, Fu Xiaosi could hear the meaning hidden in Encounter's words, but he still nodded silently, didn't say much, then pushed Lu Zhiang's back, said "Excuse me, excuse me" and squeezed out of the car go. The train moved slowly, and the long flute sounded very far in the evening air.Yu Yu put her face against the window, watching Li Xia Fu Xiaosi Lu Zhiang and the three of them standing on the platform and slowly backing away.Yuyu suddenly felt that this scene had appeared in a previous dream, at the same time and at the same place, she could clearly remember Lixia, Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang in the dream, but she was not sure if it was Qingtian.Could it be that he had predicted the direction of his destiny a long time ago? Encounter has been pressing her face against the glass hard, the glass in winter brings biting coldness, she hopes to look at them again and again, because this time she leaves, she doesn't know when she will come back, and she will never come back , or maybe one day when I return to this city full of camphor, she, they, have already been scattered all over the world.When Li Xia and the others were about to disappear at the end of the railroad tracks, she saw Li Xia suddenly chasing towards the train, but after all she couldn't catch up with the speed of the train, so her running appearance disappeared at the edge of the window frame.At that moment, Li Xia's heartbroken expression was instantly magnified and quickly filled all the vision in front of him, but the expression was silent, only the monotonous sound of the train hitting the rails, but when he met Li Xia's wailing at that moment has long been lingering in his ears, like the forte in a symphony, gradually intensifying.gradually strengthened. Yuyu stood up and walked towards the toilet, Lixia's sad and crying face was still in front of him, a child was crying in the aisle, because his mother told him to throw away the finished candy box, the little boy was in a hurry Daxing's tears flowed down, staining his whole face, he cried while crying, Mom, please let me keep it, there used to be a lot of candies in it, those candies are very beautiful, really, I I don't lie to you!Don't throw it away, okay, mom, let me keep it... "You asked me to keep it." —You let me keep it! —You asked me to keep it. —let me stay... At that moment, Yuyu suddenly covered her mouth and rushed into the toilet, because she felt a lot of things in her chest surged upwards, from the deep part of her body that was not exposed to light, along the stomach, along the esophagus, along the throat, against the The tonsils billow upward against the mouth.She covered her mouth with all her strength until her jaw ached, unscrewed the toilet door and rushed in, then slammed the door shut hard.At that moment the world returned to silence.The tide returns to calm after the turbulence, and the mirrored lake sleeps quietly, as if it will never have waves again. A door separates a whole period of once brilliant and shining youth. —What happened to that little girl?Do trains get motion sick?I can see how distressed she is. ——Yeah, when she rushed to the toilet, I saw tears in her eyes. —It seems to be alone. —Run away from home?Pitiful…… Leaning against the window, I fell asleep slowly, woke up occasionally, saw the sky completely dark, woke up again, fell asleep again, and saw the sky brighten again, and then darkened again.My heart is very empty, like the empty basketball gymnasium of the school, a basketball bounces and falls on the ground alone, making a hollow sound. When I close my eyes, I think of Qingtian.In fact, before I left, I met and went to Qingtian, because after all, I have to leave here, some words have to be said no matter how difficult it is, and the rooted plants will rise from the ground. Those words are like another layer of skin growing close to the skin , the moment he said it, it would be bloody and painful.But you can't get around it.No matter how far you go, it is still like a ghost hitting a wall, returning to the fork of fate in a thousand turns, the sky is dying, and the crow is flying along the low sky. Many pictures flickered back and forth.Yuyu remembered that when he walked into the room, he saw Qingtian sitting on the sofa, clasped his hands together, and propped his forehead. Hearing the sound of Yuyu entering the door, he raised his head and said softly, "Sit down for a while." . Qingtian stretched out his hand to gesture around him, but when he raised his head, he saw that Yuyu had pulled a chair far away and sat down, so Qingtian's outstretched hand froze in the air, and he didn't pull it back for a long time. Then neither of them spoke. Silence for ten seconds.I met and remembered that Qingtian once ran out to buy medicine in the middle of the night because he had a fever. It was in winter, he was so in a hurry that he forgot to put on his coat and shoes. As a result, after buying the medicine, the two of them had a fever together, and then lay down at home for two days , Sleeping in the quilt, you look at me and I look at you, the more you look at it, the more funny you feel, and you even forget the discomfort caused by being sick. It is such a happy thing to feel sick for the first time. Silence for twenty seconds.The fingers I met were sore from exerting too much force.The ring on the finger hurt the phalange.This ring was given by Qingtian on his birthday. He hammered it out of a very ordinary piece of silver, but because he had never made such a complicated thing before, he smashed his finger with a hammer.Yuyu still remembers the scene when he gave her the ring with gauze-wrapped fingers, such a romantic scene, but that idiot in Qingtian just kept repeating "blood and sweat, blood and sweat" and "it hurts me to death" It hurts me to death" and other unsuitable sentences, like naughty children chattering endlessly.When she was about to give up her inner romantic longing, Qingtian suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged her into his jacket. He pressed his chin with some stubble and not clean shaved to her face, and said, from now on you take this simple You can come to me anytime and exchange it for a real diamond ring, valid for 100 years.hook. Thirty seconds of silence.Yuyu raised her head and saw that Qingtian's eyes started to become moist, so she suddenly felt very sad in her heart, as if someone was trampling on her heart over and over again.At that moment, she decided to give up and leave, she thought, it doesn't matter if the hero must say the provocative lines "You stay and don't go" like those hypocritical scenes in the movie to stay, because she For sure, in Qingtian's heart, there must be a silent cry.Just when Lixia was about to say "Qingtian, I won't leave", Qingtian suddenly raised his head and said: ——I'm sorry I can't accompany you. After you go to Beijing, you have to work hard.Be brave with or without someone by your side. At that moment, Yu Yu felt that the world seemed to return to the original, and everything lost its meaning.Including leaving, or staying. When Yu met closed the door, she didn't look back. She seemed to have been living so stubbornly all her life, and she never looked back to see the way before.She once told Li Xia that she doesn't like to look back on the past, because she knows that as long as people linger on the past, they will be weaker in the face of the future.However, if she looked back at that time, she could see Qingtian's sad face and his big tears hitting the floor. The person on the opposite bunk turned over, coughed, and went back to sleep.Li Xia raised his hand and looked at his watch, it was almost 12 o'clock.And today is Christmas Eve, the students in the entire Asakawa should be having a carnival.She thought that Li Xia, Fu Xiaosi and the others must be crowded in Tonglu Square, waiting with the noisy crowd for the bell tower to ring zero.Yu Yu looked out of the window, only to realize that it had started to snow heavily outside at some point. She silently counted the snowflakes, one by one, and then the snow seemed to have all fallen into the depths of the damp heart and melted into the In the loneliness that gradually breeds. She looked at the watch and counted down silently in her heart, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... "--Merry Christmas!" The sudden burst of noise from the crowd made Li Xia's ears buzz, and he couldn't even hear what Fu Xiaosi was shouting beside him, and he didn't see what Fu Xiaosi was doing when he closed his eyes and made a wish, so I don't know if he made a wish. The heavy snow kept falling, within a short time, the hairs of Fu Xiaosi and Lu Zhiang were covered with snowflakes.The three of them sat on a bench by the side of the square, surrounded by a steady stream of people. Fu Xiaosi turned his face and asked Li Xia if he had made a wish when the bell rang just now. ——Yes, I made a lot of promises, such as the college entrance examination went well, my parents are healthy, all stray cats and dogs don’t get sick from the cold, my hair is getting longer, etc., etc., even very kind I made a wish for you to make your eyes clearer and clearer and not have cataracts forever... ——…You have cataracts… Lu Zhiang interjected, and after saying "no brain" for a dozen times, he said to Li Xia, "It won't work if you express your wish, you idiot." Li Xia suddenly realized that it was too late to say "yes", so he was dumbfounded and didn't know what to say. Fu Xiaosi suddenly burst out laughing, and then patted Li Xia on the head. Li Xia turned his head to see Fu Xiaosi's smile, and then thought to himself, I haven't seen this smile for a long time.Then it took a while to realize that the action of Fu Xiaosi patting himself on the head just now seemed a bit too intimate.Then his face turned slightly red. Lu Zhiang saw everything, and then smiled slightly. Suddenly, a lot of fireworks appeared in the sky. For a moment, the sky seemed to be blooming with countless flowers. Everyone in the square raised their heads. The laughter of lovers, the explosion of fireworks, the slight sound of snowflakes falling on the treetops, the children The sound of running and running, among thousands of voices, only Li Xia can hear the words in his heart ——Fortunately, there is a wish that has not been uttered, so can this wish really come true? Meet saw the second hand suddenly move to 12, at that moment she seemed to hear the bell from the distant Asakawa, as if she had traveled through countless years and mountains and arrived in front of her.At that moment, tears slid down his face and dripped on the snow-white quilt.She closed her eyes and quietly made a wish in her heart. Qingtian, one day, you will see my CD on the CD shelf as the sales champion.I will not give up this ideal, because for this ideal, I have given up on you.Dear God, this is not a temporary wish I made on a whim. For this goal, I have never given up and have been working hard. You have to believe me.Therefore, please give me the Gospel to illuminate the dark night ahead, and there is still an unknown and long road ahead. ——Meet in 1997 On the way home from Tonglu Square, Lixia was still complaining endlessly that she had expressed her wish, while Lu Zhiang continued to tease him saying "no brain, no brain", and the two bickered all the way.But Fu Xiaosi suddenly interjected, he said, in order to make you feel less sad, let me tell you the wish I just made. Li Xia opened his mouth wide and waved his hands, saying, no need, no need to be buried with him. Fu Xiaosi said, because the wish I just made has come true.I just saw the short message my mother sent me after I went out in the evening. She told me that she had received the finalist notice from Shanghai and that I had entered the final of the Jinchuan Art Competition. The moment Xiao Si finished speaking, Lu Zhiang and Li Xia opened their mouths wide at the same time, even if the cold wind poured in, they couldn't make them close their mouths, because they were really surprised. Tsugawa Art Competition. No wonder Lu Zhiang and Li Xia were so surprised.Because last year's first Jinchuan Competition almost turned China upside down, in addition to the award-winning students can directly enter the Academy of Fine Arts for further studies, countless publishers began to publish the collections of these geniuses, and at that time, countless young people appeared all over China. The speed of the artist has such a great influence that it makes those elderly artists break their glasses.As soon as these young people's art collections were published, they set a record in the history of art album publishing in China, and the sales records were refreshed every day. Therefore, the second Jinchuan Competition gathered almost all of the people in the country before it started. media attention. Xiao Si closed the two's open mouths with his hands, but it was useless, and the two opened their mouths again.Fu Xiaosi sighed, spread his hands, and said, okay, whatever you want.Let me know when you're surprised. Then Lu Zhiang began to repeat the line "It's so amazing", and kept repeating it endlessly.In fact, when Xiao Si saw that short message, he was more excited than anyone else. A high-pitched voice, like a female voice singing hymns, seemed to sound in his heart, full of the power to penetrate everything. Xiao Si said to Lu Zhiang and Li Xia, the final time is before the Chinese New Year during the winter vacation, why don't you two accompany me to Shanghai, just treat it as a fun trip. Lu Zhiang patted Fu Xiaosi's shoulder vigorously and said, "Okay, okay, no problem at all, I can also carry the drawing board and paints for you, let me be your assistant, Xiaosi star!" Fu Xiaosi was a little embarrassed by what he said, waved his hands and said, "Greetings to your uncle." 陆之昂说，有什么不好意思啊，你肯定拿一等奖啊，然后全中国学美术的孩子都会知道你的名字，太强了，小司你是我的偶像啊！ 傅小司没有理会陆之昂，让他一个人在那里发神经，回过头去想询问立夏，结果看到立夏为难的表情。于是他微微低下头来靠近立夏，说，立夏，你陪我去么？ 立夏心里一瞬间想了很多的事情，最后终于鼓着勇气问了一句，去上海需要多少钱？我先看看我够不够…… 然后傅小司突然哈哈大笑起来，这让立夏突然有点懊恼。不过傅小司马上停下了笑，然后指着陆之昂说，你告诉立夏，你的那句口头禅是什么，刚好可以回答立夏的问题。 陆之昂挠了挠头，有点不好意思，支支吾吾地憋了半天然后终于把那句口头禅讲了出来： ——“老子有的是钱”。说完了之后就拼命解释说是这句口头禅仅仅用在小司批评他乱买东西的时候。 立夏被他的样子弄得哭笑不得，而小司微微笑着，温柔地说，一定要剥削陆之昂，他有的是钱。 立夏也被弄得笑起来，因为她看到小司开心的样子心里也突然充满了感动。小司的眼睛又变得格外清晰和明亮，立夏心里也不由得想，说不定小司真的会变成一个大明星呢。 沿路的风雪依然在下，可是三个人互相打闹着往回走，周围的空气都随之变得微微地发出温暖的气息，像极了春天马上就要回归的样子。立夏心里默默地想，遇见，我还没办法把这个消息告诉你，不过，如果你知道了也一定会为小司开心吧。我们都要加油，在每个人自己的道路上，像你不断地告诉我的那样，勇敢地前进。我会像我向你保证的一样，在以后的路上，在离开你的日子里，变得越来越坚强。 大雪覆盖沿途。年轻的笑容。飞扬的青春。 公园关上了大门，一切回归无声的寂静。在大雪的覆盖下，谁都知道有着新鲜的种子在开始萌芽。我们都无比地坚信着，风雪再寒冷，冬天再漫长，都无法阻止温暖的回归。 可是所有的人都忘记了，温暖再幸福，春天再逼近，同样也无法阻止下一个冬季的来临。 可是至少时光在这一刻是幸福的。 平安夜的时候总是有白胡子的圣诞老人站在窗户外面或者爬上高高的烟囱，没有人会认为他是小偷。 平安夜的时候总是有卖火柴的小女孩划亮了手中的微光，一瞬间整个世界天光大亮，照耀了所有平凡而微茫的幸福。 平安夜的时候总是有雪人安静地站在人们喧闹逼近不了的安静的角落，在黑暗里小声地哼着歌曲。 平安夜的时候总有很多的气球纷纷升上天空，在烟花的背景里越升越高直到消失不见。 平安夜的时候总有耀眼的灯光和热气腾腾的晚宴。 平安夜的时候总有很多的秘密悄悄蔓延在心里。 这些都是世界在这一刻显得幸福的原因。 当过去了那么多年之后，我回忆起当初高三的那个在浅川最后的圣诞节，心里都会充满了无发表达的情绪。那天小司充满光芒的眼睛依然反复出现在我的梦境里。很多时候我都会想，如果时光倒转，一切回到当初的时刻，如果傅小司没有参加那个比赛，如果遇见没有离开，如果陆之昂不是陆之昂，如果我立夏不是立夏，如果一切都让我们可以选择重新来过，那么，我们是不是就不会走到如今的地步。那个时候如果我知道命运会是如此地安排，以后的道路会是那么地曲折，我想我甚至会冒着让你痛恨一辈子的危险去撕掉你的决赛准许证。因为这么多年，看着你咬着牙一路走过来，你不累，我都累了，你不想哭，我都想哭了。那些小说里频繁出现的“物是人非”、“沧海桑田”等这些词语原来是真实地存在着。可是我知道，哪怕我消耗掉我的所有生命，我都不能让时光倒流一秒。我们输给命运翻云覆雨的手掌，摔得遍体鳞伤。摔得遍体鳞伤。 小司，如果重新选择命运，我们会是怎么样的结局呢？ ——2004年·立夏