Chapter 106 Chapter 106: You make me completely sick

I have been sleeping at home for almost a month. For a month, I have been thinking about Lu Xu all day long, remembering that he used to fight with me in the office, remembering how he was hit by a flower pot downstairs, and remembering him hiding in the airport I thought of him chasing me to Shanghai, thinking of him standing in the rain in Shanghai and looking at me sadly, thinking of Lu Xu smiling at me in the fireworks during the New Year that just passed.I was in a trance all day long. Sometimes I laughed suddenly when I saw a photo, and sometimes I cried when I saw a sketch of an advertisement design.My mother also followed me and shed tears all day long. I wanted to comfort my mother.But every time I just wanted to comfort my mother, I started crying and couldn't say a word.

Many times I quietly ran to Lu Xu's grave and sat there for an afternoon, until it got dark and Lu Xu's photo couldn't be seen clearly, and then I left.Lu Xu was buried in a high-end cemetery in the south of Beijing. The tombstone is tall and tall. In the photo, he looks very young and handsome, with piercing eyes.When I look at his photos, I often feel that he is still by my side, rushing at me, throwing my temper at me, and then gently hugging me and telling me to change my temper.I don't know how many tears I shed on the tombstone. I only know that the flowers I bring every time are dried, withered, and blown away by the wind.

A month later I told my mother that I was leaving, that I was leaving Beijing.My mother cried before I finished speaking, and she started to pinch me again, she said how could you do this, what should you do if you left?I didn’t hide, I asked my mother to pinch me, but in fact, I was saying in my heart, Mom, pinch me more, make me feel clearer, so that I can remember after I’m gone, and feel like I’m still acting like a baby by your side. My father didn't say anything, he knew my temper, he was stubborn since he was a child, my father said that I was like a cow, and I couldn't be pulled back.On the day I packed my luggage, my mother went out in a fit of anger, and I was a little disappointed. I think my mother would not even give me the final gift.That day when Gu Xiaobei came to my house, he actually cried while looking at my luggage.He hugged me and kept crying, no sound, only tears kept flowing down my neck.I feel very depressed.I let him hold me without moving, and finally I said, have you cried enough?He let go of me in surprise, he stood in front of me, but I felt like a stranger to him.

When I was about to leave that day, Xiaobei pulled me, and he said don't leave, I don't want Yao Shanshan, I only want you, you don't want to leave. I turned around and slapped him. I said, Gu Xiaobei, how many slaps you gave me by holding my hand before, I will give you one back today.Go fuck and get married happily and disappear into my life with your beautiful bride.You make me totally sick!