Chapter 99 Chapter 99: Let's go out to drink

I patted the snow off my body, straightened my hair, and wiped off the shoe prints that man had left on my face with a tissue.I'm sitting on the side of the road, not knowing where to go, and I don't want to go anywhere.I took out my mobile phone to strike a match, and then heard the voice of the woman on the phone who looked like a dead mother all the year round: The number you dialed has been turned off. It was already dark, and the lights began to light up around.The lights of passing cars around me hurt my eyes.I know that the people in Beijing who are used to the protection of the night are starting to move around again, and every pansi cave is full of goblins.

The window opposite is very bright, and there are models in it who don't change their poses all year round, and they never have troubles.In front of the window, Gu Xiaobei hurried over. I thought that I would burst into tears when I saw Gu Xiaobei, but for some reason, his presence no longer made me feel sad.I remember that I was always late when I was dating him. Every time I saw Gu Xiaobei standing quietly in the crowd waiting for me, like a silent tree that didn’t speak, my heart was always full of that The quiet bliss of sorrow and joy.For many years, I have been used to running through those old silent alleys, those long streets, and those pale crowds. I have been running for six years.Because I know that there is always Gu Xiaobei with a bright smile waiting for me at the end of the road, which makes me brave.But now, after I ran over without hesitation, I couldn't find Gu Xiaobei in the crowd anymore.I suddenly remembered a sad sentence I read in a fairy tale book: "He stood behind the north wind, but I couldn't find it."

Maybe it's too cold, I'm freezing, and I feel my nose is a little sore. I think it's fine if you're engaged.It's better than marrying me anyway.I remember that when I was a sophomore, I had a hobby, which was to lie on the table and drooling and ask Gu Xiaobei when we were getting married in class.I was a nympho girl at the time. After watching Gu Xiaobei for so many years, I still want to drool many times when I look at Gu Xiaobei. I thought to myself, how could I hang this guy who is rarer than dinosaurs?I'm so awesome.And Gu Xiaobei always concentrates on taking notes without looking at me—in fact, he is copying notes for me. I am lazy and don’t like copying notes. It takes courage.If it wasn't for the professor's passionate speech above, I would definitely pinch him.No matter how abstract I look, I can make up my mind to get married once I close my eyes and bite my teeth.Later, when I went to Gu Xiaobei’s home, I accidentally saw Xiaobei’s diary, which wrote about marriage. Xiaobei wrote: I think I’ve grown up when Lin Lan and I got married, and I’m no longer what I am now A big child who is autistic and not talkative, I will pick her up in a neat white suit and drive the best car, and put roses in front of her house, and I want everyone to see her happiness.At that time, when I saw these words, my heart was so sweet that I probably drool again.At that time, I thought, Gu Xiaobei's handwriting is really beautiful.

I don't want to think about it anymore, the more I think about it, the sadder I get. I stood up and patted my butt and prepared to leave. I think life must go on, and I still want to be an awesome person.I want to continue playing like a duck to water with Wen Jing Weiwei in Beijing... When this idea popped up in my mind, I suddenly felt sad, as if struck by a lightning bolt.I felt like someone had taken a knife and stabbed it straight in the heart.I suddenly choked up and couldn't speak.Because I know that our group will never go back.Wen Jing will never walk shoulder to shoulder with me on the street drooling to see handsome guys like before, Wei Wei will never send me New Year’s money like she sent her niece during Chinese New Year, and matches will never be there again. What a fiery woman she was uttered endlessly in written language in front of me.

I took out my mobile phone and looked for it, only to find that I could only call Lu Xu.When I heard Lu Xu's voice, I started to cry. His voice always sounded so clean and steady, like his warm and strong hands in winter.I don't know when I held his hand. I remember feeling the warmth and strength of his hand, but I can't remember it.I said to Lu Xu, Lu Xu... I couldn't go on as soon as I called his name, and started crying. Lu Xu was a little panicked, he asked me what was wrong, I heard his anxious tone and suddenly realized that I was so stupid.So I calmed down a bit, and I said Lu Xu, let's go out for a drink, and I'll wait for you at JUBBY.