Chapter 49 Chapter 49: Life is much more complicated

After eating, I sat in Starbucks with Match and drank coffee. The sun was shining outside the window, and the air-conditioning was full of air-conditioning inside. I think this kind of life is really comfortable. Compared with the days of tears in Beijing, I think this kind of plainness is happiness.I express my inner thoughts to the matches in this way.But Matchstick sneered a few times and said to me, it’s not impossible for you to pretend to be a grandson, but my heart hurts.After hearing this sentence, I suddenly felt that my heart was squeezed hard by someone's hand. It didn't hurt very much, but it was very heavy, which made me uncomfortable.Because I suddenly remembered that, on the day when I first found out that Yao Shanshan was Gu Xiaobei's girlfriend, Wen Jing said the same thing to me in the bathroom.I suddenly felt like I was sitting in Beijing in the hot summer of August, under the light so strong that it could blind people's eyes, and all the previous things were exposed.I think it's a bit like the comic "Clover" I liked when I was a child. At that time, I pointed to the picture with a strong black and white contrast and said to Wen Jing, look at this feeling, does it look like everything is exposed under the scorching sun?When I said that sentence, I felt that I really had a literary talent, and I could be a writer.At that time, Wen Jing and I were still little girls with ponytails, wearing white skirts and rampaging around the school to show off our might.But today, a few years later, I have actually become a writer, an advertising person who has improved a bit, and I have trekked from the north of the motherland to the prosperous south. It's the group of people in my previous life, their faces are a bit blurred, except for the matches in front of my eyes.I couldn't help feeling a little sad.

Like Wen Jing, Match is very good at reading my face.Match said, what's wrong with Miss, you're feeling sad again?Don't start reading poems as soon as you feel sad, I'm afraid of listening to written words. I know that Match is deliberately teasing me, and I am poor with her, I said you don't use idioms, and I want to kill myself as soon as I hear you read idioms. The match slapped me on the forehead, and I was suddenly a little moved. These friends who moved me are still by my side after so many years. They are the same as when we were back then.I used to hear people say that friends in middle school and high school are the most true, but they will still become estranged with time.I suddenly felt that God was more gentle to me.

Hey, tell me about you and Xiaobei, you didn't explain it very clearly last time.Match stirred the cream on the coffee and began to question me. So I told her about my chaotic life during this period of time, about Bai Song’s confession to me, about the breakup between Gu Xiaobei and me, about how the bunker filled me and Wen Jing with white wine, about the bitterness and beauty of Wei Wei’s life, about How Wen Jing's boyfriend fell in love with me, and how Wen Jing gave me a small slap and how the bunker gave me a big slap.After I finished speaking, I suddenly discovered that those things that I thought I had completely forgotten were actually so deeply engraved in my life. I was addicted to life and work, and used the best acting skills to play a strong new woman. But only I know that I am still that weak, crying little girl in my senior year.

I thought Match would scold Yao Shanshan after listening to my story like Wei Wenjing and the others, and then comfort me, but there was no Match, she didn’t say a word, and I stopped talking, the two of them drank coffee quietly , I looked at the cream on the coffee and thought they were so ugly, like a face with makeup stained with tears. After a long silence, Matcha said something. She said that life cannot be compared with novels and movies. Life is much more complicated than them.