Chapter 6 Part II, Sections 19-23

Part II, Verse 19: Who dares to have her? Liang Yanyan is not good-looking.The first is fat, which is the most taboo for girls today.There is really no way, drinking cold water will make you fat!The fatter the girl, the more she likes to be slimmer. This is not a universal rule, but at least it is suitable for Liang Yanyan.Her underwear was extremely thin, and her flesh was stretched tightly, and her whole body was plump, as if it was about to overflow.Fortunately, she is tall and well-shaped. Although she is a bit fatter, she still looks passable, not stupidly fat.In addition, she is very good at making up, which is still very eye-catching.In the whole class, and even the whole school, she is definitely leading the new fashion trend.The only one who can stand up to her is Yuan Jing.Therefore, she is very proud.

Her father and mother divorced a long time ago, and she has been living with her mother since she was in the first grade of elementary school.My mother was originally my father's apprentice, she was slender back then, but she is not fat now, although she is forty years old, she is still graceful and graceful. When the mother and daughter walked on the street, people thought they looked like sisters.This made Liang Yanyan sigh, but made her mother proud. Back then, my father was the head of technology in the factory. He had been on the honor roll in technical competitions, and he was an eye-catching figure. An article introducing him was published in the evening paper.He has a partner, an inspector in the inspection department of the factory, and the two have been in love for two or three years.At this time, my mother entered the factory and became an apprentice under my father.At that time, my mother was young and beautiful, and she was under the eyes of my father all day long, which disturbed my father.He fell in love with her.Being able to compete for a well-known figure in the factory who has been on the honor roll and newspapers, my mother's vanity was satisfied.She is also madly in love with him.

The two got married.In the second year, Liang Yanyan was added. Liang Yanyan was not weaned, and her mother found out that he and the original inspector were still in love.She scolded herself to be damned!I am happy to be patronizing, why did I ignore this inspector!It's really not sweet if you eat too much sugar.The inspector has never been married, waiting for him foolishly.He began to observe, to watch.Finally, in the single female dormitory of the factory, the father and the inspector were blocked, and they were squeezed naked on a single bed. She didn't say anything, she just stepped forward and slapped the woman on the face, and then walked out of the house.

She took revenge.She started looking for men randomly, and deliberately in front of her father. In the end, he even brought the man to the house openly to spend the night, and locked his father out of the house and was not allowed to come in. Father filed for divorce.She disagrees.She didn't agree to divorce her father until the inspector finally managed to find someone to marry. At this time, Liang Yanyan was just in the first grade of elementary school, so she seemed to understand these things.She just thinks that her father loves her very much, and often buys her a lot of food and play.

The mother and the man who has hooked up can no longer break up.Naturally, she has had many benefits.She also imagined pouring beans out of a bamboo tube to drive away all these hateful men.Find another man by yourself and live a good life.However, her reputation is so great, who would dare to take her? Liang Yanyan grew up in such an environment since she was a child.The mother's fame followed her everywhere like a shadow.Wherever she went, she would see someone pointing behind her.It seems that all the mistakes are not because of the mother, but because of her. She matured earlier than the average child.Because from the time she was sensible, her family life has been complicated by men and women, but also downright simple. From the beginning, all kinds of detours, detours, posturing, prudence, false love, and twisted feelings, until the end It can’t be simpler. Simply undressing and going to bed...these things fill and surround you.It never occurred to the mother to hide from her daughter.She seemed to feel that her daughter would never grow up.

Liang Yanyan had menarche as soon as she was in the fifth grade.The dark red blood stained his pants. She was reading an old copy of "Popular Movies" that her mother got from somewhere, and she was angry about why all those female stars looked better than her.She yelled, "Mom!" "What's the matter, donkey roaring!" "Mom! I'm bleeding!" "Where is the blood?" When she pointed it out to her mother, the mother was taken aback for a moment. The daughter is only twelve years old. Why did she have menarche so early?Then he threw a pair of trousers and a fake belt, and said, "It's all right! It's the same thing for women! Wash it and put it on:"

As a woman, such an important event in her life can be dealt with by her mother in a few words.However, for Liang Yanyan, there are many mysteries that cannot be solved. For example: Why do you have to menstruate?How was I born?Why did my father say that I was born by him?Why do men and women always sleep together? …… These mysterious, curious, and timid question marks about sex, one by one, continue to expand and deepen with the onset of menarche, just like the waves of a lake are swayed, causing ripples that are larger than one circle.She didn't dare to tell her mother, but she just observed slowly, and she became very curious about the men her mother sometimes brought at night.She really wanted to see what they were up to.

Mother drove her to sleep in an outside room.However, it was too late. Part II verse 20: She is pregnant One night, a man, who was my mother's old friend, came out of my mother's room in the middle of the night.Mother did not send him.They often do.Walking to the outhouse, the moonlight was exceptionally bright, lighting up the room with white flowers.Liang Yanyan got hot from her sleep, and kicked off the quilt, revealing her round body, which was white, tender and elastic.This made the man jealous.He stopped before the bed.Then, panting heavily, he rushed forward and hugged her tightly with both hands.She was woken up...

At this time, the mother came out with her clothes on, and when she saw this scene, she stepped forward and said, "Crack! Crack!" Two slaps, knocked the man off the bed, and cursed: "You are still human! You are bullying my old lady!" Then he picked up his trouser belt that fell on the bed, and knocked him out of the room. Liang Yanyan dared not say a word.Mother hugged her and cried. This is the summer of the second year of junior high school. With all of this, many hazy and mysterious things in the past became clear all of a sudden.Moreover, with this physical experience, Liang Yanyan's requirements for sex became clearer and more yearning.She always thinks about that.She began to yearn for contact with male classmates.However, none of the male students in the class dared to talk to her, they all knew her background.

She was in the first year of high school, and the first target she chose was You Xiaohui.She knew that he and Lu Yongmei were neighbors, and they had always been secretly close.However, she wanted to take You Xiaohui away from Lu Yongmei.This probably comes from her mother's inheritance. At first, You Xiaohui looked down on her.But she couldn't hold back the packs of cigarettes, movie tickets, and handkerchiefs... handed over frequently.Don't look at her cranky thinking all day long, she is a little smart in her studies, and she can cheat in exams, so she often helps You Xiaohui tide over difficulties.More importantly, her boldness made You Xiaohui unable to restrain herself.

Although Liang Yanyan is more knowledgeable about these questions than any homework, she knows more than ordinary classmates.However, Maxima also stumbles.From You Xiaohui, she had a second taste of a man.Both she and You Xiaohui were like a car sliding down a steep slope, sliding faster and faster, unable to stop even if they wanted to. Just last month, Liang Yanyan didn't have her period.She thought it was something else. After waiting for another month, he still didn't come, and he was obviously sleepy and wanted to vomit.She knew it was a bad thing.She hasn't come to class for the past few days and is trying to find a way. She didn't dare to tell her mother, but only told You Xiaohui. "Really? Not so much!" "Don't get cheap and act good! If you don't admit it, I will give birth to your child!" "Don't shout! My aunt!" "Then you have to think of a way for me! The school wanted to punish me. Let the school know about this, so you don't have to peel off my skin and stretch my tendons!" "What can I do? What can I do?" You Xiaohui was busy.During the day, he was like a normal person, catching someone playing poor and boring, now, he is also afraid.Let the school know about this, it's okay!Not to mention a punishment!If his father found out, his leg would have been broken! Since Liang Yanyan's period didn't come last month, he has been terrified, but he always felt that there was something in case.What if not?He fantasized about luck.A month later, his heart was itching again.Yesterday, Dad stole two condoms from under his pillow, so it's safe, right?Who knows, when he saw Liang Yanyan at night, he didn't dare to tell the elder that the condom was confiscated. Liang Yanyan told him the bad news first. "Then you have to think of a way!" Although Liang Yanyan said that she didn't care about it on weekdays, when this kind of thing happened to her, she was frightened and couldn't stop crying. That's why Zhang Wei went to the cinema and saw the two of them whispering under the plastic vegetable shed. When You Xiaohui saw Zhang Wei, he suddenly had an idea, came up with an idea, and said to Liang Yanyan: "Quickly call Zhang Wei!" "What are you calling her for?" "Just call her!" Zhang Wei's mother is a doctor.Three generations of their family have been doctors.Zhang Wei's grandfather was the director of the district hospital. Although he passed away during the "Cultural Revolution", he had many old acquaintances.When Zhang Wei went there to see a doctor, her feet were always water-on a regular basis.I beg Zhang Wei, let her find her grandfather's old acquaintance, be accommodating, and abort the fetus for Liang Yanyan, won't the heart disease be cured? You Xiaohui is smart.At critical moments, his cleverness often helped him. Part II, Verse 21: Why should you promise this beyond your reach! In just two days, Teacher Zhong left a good impression in Zhang Wei's mind.She felt that this teacher was different from other teachers.Especially unlike Teacher Rong and the "old elders" and "stones", when they meet a student, it's like meeting an enemy.A photo, a stack of diaries, only Teacher Zhong can do this. Somehow, Zhang Wei really wanted to tell Teacher Zhong about Liang Yanyan's pregnancy.Liang Yanyan and You Xiaohui begged her to go to the hospital to intercede and help with an abortion. This was a big deal for a seventeen-year-old girl, and she had never thought about it.This is not looking for a doctor to see a general headache and brain fever, but a living little life.She was a little scared.She was afraid that others would say Liang Yanyan, and she would also say her, and equate her with Liang Yanyan.She and Liang Yanyan did not have a close friendship.She looked down on Liang Yanyan.But she was too soft-hearted, and she agreed to this tricky matter only because she didn't want to show her ugliness. Now, she wants to find someone who can help her.Who are you looking for?At home, only grandma is alone.There are many classmates in the class, who can help?There are so many teachers in the school, who can be trusted to tell him such a thing?Isn't this the same as delivering goods to your door, hitting someone at the muzzle? ... She thought of Teacher Zhong. After school yesterday, she went to see Teacher Zhong.When she was about to reach the office, she hesitated.This kind of thing is probably not the first one in the whole school; it is definitely not many.A teacher is always a teacher, why don't you treat it as a model? Zhang Wei walked out of school again. However, this matter really made her worry.For matters between men and women, a seventeen-year-old girl is always apprehensive and longing.She also longs for a boyfriend who can love her, adore her, and protect her.However, what she thought was right, she couldn't go half a step further.In other words, nothing can happen!The chastity of girls is an old topic that grandma has told her more than once.Although, her ears were calloused, but after all, it held weight in her heart.Now, let her come forward and do this kind of thing-beg a doctor to abort a high school sophomore!She really regretted why she softened her heart and agreed to this thing beyond her power! I still have to find Teacher Zhong!At least, you can test his tone.At least, he won't be as terrific as the elder and Teacher Rong. Zhang Wei walked into the school again hesitantly.However, at this time, Teacher Zhong had already parted ways with Li Jiangliu and his classmates on the playground, and went home. As fate would have it, he couldn't help me!Coming out of school, Zhang Wei thought so. I had no choice but to grit my teeth and hit it myself tomorrow.I hope that the familiar doctors in the hospital can look at the face of grandpa and mother, raise their hands high, and help this favor. Back home, after dinner, she was still restless. Grandma asked: "Weiwei, what's the matter? Are you feeling unwell?" "No!" She was a little impatient.Grandma loves her, but she always feels that the pain makes her feel sick, and the pain is out of place. Both Zhang Wei's parents work in the Qinghai Geological Team.Back then, one of them graduated from Beijing Institute of Geology, the other graduated from Beijing Medical College, one was assigned to Qinghai, and the other stayed in Beijing.Mom could have stayed away.However, she insisted on going.When we left, my grandma cried so much that she scolded my mother never to enter the house again.However, mother still left.At the train station, other people's parents came to see them off, and only my mother was alone, leaning on my father's side.When the train drove out of the platform, my mother suddenly found that grandma and grandpa were there, next to a marble square column at the farthest side of the platform.She stuck her head out of the car window and yelled, "Dad! Mom!  …" This is love?Is there such a magic power in love? These are all things that my grandma complains to Zhang Wei when she misses her only daughter when she is free.Love, a young girl who has just become sensible, begins to unveil its veil from the matter of mother and father, and gets to know it dimly. Zhang Wei was born in a green tent near Chaka in the Qaidam Basin of Qinghai.At that time, Dad was the sub-captain of the geological team.Mom is the team doctor.Everyone advised her to return to Beijing early, or go to Xining to give birth.She always thinks that she is a doctor, and the due date has not yet arrived, so she is unwilling to leave the geological team or her husband. Who knows, there are times when doctors are at a loss.The baby was born prematurely, probably because of the bumps.The husband drove an off-road jeep desperately to Chaka Hospital, and when the doctor was picked up, the baby had already been born in the tent.The doctor cut the umbilical cord and patted the baby's butt with his hand. There was a clear and provocative cry of "wow", and everyone inside and outside the tent laughed. Four catties and three liang.She was just born so heavy.In her mother's arms, her father took a picture of her, which is the only memorial she left in the Qaidam Basin. Mom has no milk.No matter how much mutton rib soup I boiled, I also specially found a soup from Qinghai Lake that was boiled into white flowers. Bowl after bowl, my mother felt nauseous, nauseous, and even a drop of milk couldn't be urged... Two months later, my mother's body had just recovered. She carried her into the car, changed to the train, and rushed back to grandma's house.This is the first time she went home after arriving in Qinghai. Part II, Section 22: What is the first kiss like! Zhang Wei stayed at grandma's house.Grandpa and grandma love this granddaughter very much. During the "Cultural Revolution", my grandfather couldn't hold on after a fight, and before he died, he was still clutching the peppermint roll candy he bought for Zhang Wei.That year, she was just four years old. Living in the family of a generation of doctors, Zhang Wei has been conditioned to be in good health.The symptoms of congenital malnutrition were quickly eliminated.It is convenient to watch when you are sick.She couldn't tell at all that she was born on the Great Gobi Desert.White and clean, very attractive.Moreover, the longer she grows into a big girl, the more she looks like a dew-covered flower, and the more beautiful she becomes. For Zhang Wei's education, grandma is also very strict.Since the first grade of elementary school, Zhang Wei's homework has been very good.Primary school sixth grade.She was about to graduate, and when the final exam was approaching, Zhang Wei really got her grandmother's prediction, and she had menarche.Because grandma had explained it to her long ago and made various preparations for her, she didn't panic like ordinary girls. On the contrary, she passed the exam smoothly and was admitted to middle school.Grandma is very satisfied with her.She thinks her Weiwei has grown up and is a good boy! However, once I went to middle school, it was better in the first year of junior high school, but not in the second year of junior high school.Grandma feels that Zhang Wei's temper is getting more and more strange, her personality is strong, and she is not as close to herself as she was when she was a child.With all my thoughts, I asked her, but she refused to say.She just doesn't want to do what you told her to do.Once, when the weather was cold and the wind was blowing, when she was going to school in the morning, grandma asked her to put on the scarf again and again, but she managed to put it on awkwardly, and just walked out of the house, before she was discharged from the hospital, she took off the scarf. Stuff it in your schoolbag.Through the glass window, grandma saw it, "Hey!" sighed.Grandma is sad. Zhang Wei felt that grandma only cared about herself in terms of life, body and study, but she didn't understand herself.Since my grandfather passed away, there has been no man in the family.As Zhang Wei grew older, she longed for a kind of caress from the opposite sex.She vaguely felt that it was different from grandma's love.Every year, Mom and Dad go home from vacation in Qinghai, which is the happiest time for Zhang Wei. She and Dad are the closest.Every time, she would cry a lot when sending her father and mother away.She pinned her so-called love on her mother, and more importantly, her father, who was her ideal hero. In the spring of the first day of junior high school, she got a grape trellis from a classmate's house.A classmate told her: "Grapes can grow in autumn, as long as you take good care of them!" She began to water them every day, hoping that the vines would grow leaves, bloom, and produce bunches of grapes.Because mom and dad came back to visit relatives in autumn.When it was blooming, the wind blew for many days, and Zhang Wei was so anxious that she died.When the grapes were growing, she didn't let anyone move the bunches of grapes until the grapes rotted and fell to the ground one by one, leaving only the tallest bunch of grapes on the shelf.Grandma said to her: "Pick it off! It would be a pity if it all rotted on the ground!" She refused to pick it off. She has to wait for Dad.Dad finally came back.That was one night, she was already under the bed to sleep, and was startled by a tinkling sound, she opened her eyes and saw that it was Dad!She jumped up in a jerk, and before she had time to ask why her mother hadn't come, she ran to the yard, brought a stool, and stepped on it. "What are you doing?" Grandma asked. "I'll pick grapes for Dad!" She couldn't reach her. Dad stepped on the stool and cut off the bunch of red muscat grapes with scissors. She was happy, "Eat! Dad!" she called with... In a girl's world, the love of men cannot be lacking.When she was a child, she pinned all this love on her father. Graduated from junior high school.Zhang Wei discovered a secret hidden in her heart, like a chick pecking through the eggshell, finally waking up from the ignorant world and seeing clearly what she wanted to see.Her father's love, and love for her father, could not water her thirsty heart.Moreover, every time her father came and went in a hurry, in addition to taking her to Quanjude to eat roast duck and take two photos in the park, he repeatedly told her to listen to her grandmother and teacher, not to contact bad children, and to give her father and mother a lot of time. Writing letters...it's the same way every time I come home, just like a good copy.She felt great dissatisfaction. What else does she need? It can be said that she has a lot of things to eat, wear, use, and play, more than other children.Grandma doesn't have any relatives under her knees, so she pours all her love into her.Father and mother work in the wild in Qinghai, earning high wages, and are very willing to spend money on their precious only daughter. So what is she missing? Love!A love of the opposite sex that is absolutely different from that of a father.This thought, like a bug after a stinging sting, quietly digs out of the ground and gets its head out.Especially seeing scenes of lovers falling in love in movies and TV, and seeing lovers strolling in the park, made her shy and wanted to watch them all the more.Once, she and a few classmates went to Taoranting Park to participate in a summer party. On a bench shaded by willows by the lake, they snuggled up to a couple of lovers. The intimacy made her heart pound. She wanted to Go fast, run away, but slow down.She didn't want to see it, but turned her head.In the hazy night, it is difficult to see clearly, which adds a bit of charm and imagination.She even heard the sound of a loud kiss.The sound hit her face like dense rain, and she felt her face was hot.She will never forget that scene.She fantasized that one day, a man could kiss herself here, on a bench shaded by greenery.She didn't know what the first kiss of youth was like!she thinks!Really, she thought... Of course, this is just her thinking.She never spoke to anyone.Even in the diary, she did not dare to record this true thought.kiss!When she saw this word, her heart beat like a snare drum. Part Two, Section 23: Grandma!I'm going out for something! In the first year of high school, many female students in the class are more courageous than her. One by one, either in class, in school, or outside school, has a boyfriend.She couldn't say she was envious, but she felt itchy in her heart.The influence among classmates is like a shock wave if it is good, and it is like an infectious disease when it is bad. The power is stronger than the preaching of parents and teachers.Although, some female classmates have boyfriends who are like crooked melons, or like playing poker, taking one and throwing one, or just to avoid bullying, she has a bodyguard who can fight, she doesn't think much of it .Especially people like Liang Yanyan, she looked down on even more.However, being able to have a boyfriend is a mysterious and attractive thing to her after all!She has inexplicable turmoil. Grandma often asked her: "Have you made friends with male students? The students are amazing now! You must pay attention, you must not make friends with male students! Distraction and affecting your studies are small things, but if something goes wrong, it is a big thing." I'm sorry for your father and mother..." My father and mother often ask in letters: "Have you ever had a boyfriend? Grandma always mentions this in her letters. We are also very worried. The atmosphere in school is not right now. Don't disappoint your father and mother's hopes..." Teacher Rong, the teacher in charge, also approached her and said to her, "You are a good student in the class, so I will be stricter with you. In the class, a few classmates are making trouble now, and a stinky fish ruined a pot of soup." Fucking a partner! How old is it to have a date! Do you know what it is to have a date? You are too young. I know you are not like this! I am vaccinating you..." These words, once or twice, at the beginning, although she didn't hear them so pleasantly, she didn't feel disgusted, knowing that everyone was doing it for her own good.However, after listening to it too many times, these words are like a wasp that has exploded, always buzzing in her ears, she doesn't like to hear it anymore, she is a little angry.Sometimes she even thought: How could it be as serious as you said!What's wrong with having a boyfriend?I want to make a boyfriend, let me show you!Is it really like a scourge? This is just angry talk.She never found a boyfriend.The homeroom teacher, father, mother, and grandma are all at ease with her, and they are all good. They all think that she is a good child with a rigorous style. What if Teacher Xiang Zhong saw the photo in his wallet? Will you still see yourself the same as before? Thinking of the photos again, thinking of Teacher Zhong, Zhang Wei became more and more restless. She originally wanted to review mathematics, opened the book, linear functions, quadratic functions, parabolas, hyperbolas... She couldn't read anything. "Grandma! I have something to do when I go out!" "Go out again! You went out yesterday and came back so late!" "Is there something wrong with the family!" "What's the matter?" Grandma was sewing a small cotton padded jacket for her to wear during the New Year. She put down her work, walked out of the house, and stood in front of her, as if she would never let her go unless she asked the truth. "What's the matter!" Zhang Wei repeated.Now she cares about grandma so much that she can't bear it any more.You have to interrogate everything, and you have to write a letter to report to your father and mother!Am I still a child now?At the age of seventeen, he left the team a long time ago.In another year, there will be citizen suffrage! "Vivi, tell me the truth, are you making friends..." "Yes! I have a boyfriend, I have a partner, we have discussed it, and we will get married tomorrow!..." Zhang Wei interrupted her grandma angrily, stomping her feet. Grandma stopped talking and quietly wiped the corners of her eyes.This time, Zhang Wei was at a loss.She knew what she said was serious.Grandma is also doing it for her own good. "Grandma..." she called softly. "Weiwei, grandma is getting old! Trees have old roots, people talk a lot when they are old, don't dislike it! Your father and mother are in Qinghai, so far away, entrusting you to me, you can't make them sad! "The word "grandma" brought back so much tenderness, and the old man started nagging again. "Grandma!" Zhang Wei didn't like to hear it anymore. So, what do you like to hear?What would you like your grandma to tell you?Grandma looked at her granddaughter dazedly. ... "Grandma, don't worry! Even if I die, I won't find a boyfriend or get married, and I will spend my whole life with you!" Zhang Wei said with her arms around her grandma's shoulders.She didn't want to look at her grandma's frustrated eyes.She didn't want to make grandma sad. Although these words are harsh, the little girl is getting married when she opens her mouth. I am afraid that only middle school students of her generation can say it like a mantra!However, these words still reassure grandma, even though they are also angry, they seem to be pleasing to the ear. "Then what are you doing!" "I'll go find Lu Yongmei, and I'll be back in a while!" Looking for Lu Yongmei, grandma felt relieved.Lu Yongmei's house is not far away.Grandma's heart is like this, she always hopes that Zhang Wei can turn around under her nose.Even if you fly, you still have to be like a kite. If you hold the string at the other end in your palm, you will feel much more at ease in your heart.